I'm ready to face the music. 132.0 this morning. Moving on...
My whole day today was so whacky. It was a near miracle I made it to the gym at all.
First, I'm at the gym at 5:30a, 20 minutes into my 65 min elliptical workout when I remembered that I forgot to leave Husband money for milk for his breakfast at work (whoever gets money out of the ATM splits the cash between the 2 of us). I knew he would be so pissed if I forgot, so I left after 25 minutes.
Then I had to remain at home because we had a guy coming over to give us an estimate on how much it would be to fix our leaky basement wall. Turns out, I could have fixed it for free, because HUSBAND left the hose running outside for something like 2 weeks. Maybe 3. So the ground was soaked and it finally had nowhere to go but into the cement of the foundation. Great. So now it DOES have to be fixed because once water starts leaking into a basement, the water "remembers" the path it took to the walls. We will have leakage / seepage every time it rains now. Great.
Then I remembered that I wanted to surprise my daughter (7yrs old) at school today. She was Star Student this week, and one of the perks is that you get to have lunch with your parent if they can. When I learned of this on last Friday, I kind of gave an expression of exasperation. As in "Don't count on it" knowing full well that I would try to manage it if I could. And so I met her at lunch and she was so surprised :-)
After lunch I went to the gym and did more cardio (my full hour in addition to the 25 minutes I did this morning) and then an abbreviated but total weight training routine. I need to change my weight training routine this month. It's getting old.
Oh, and I have a job interview on Tuesday morning. THAT I found out about at 8a this morning as I was brushing my teeth.
Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
OCTOBER RECAP:
Well, I did not reach my goal weight of 130lb by October 31st. For one thing, my eating took a tanker over the weekend.
Let me interrupt myself by telling you all very urgently: DO NOT BINGE ON PUMPKIN SEEDS. If you do, plan to be in the bathroom for long periods of time the following day.
So despite 3 days of really bad eating, I managed to weigh in at 131.5 today. I am thankful for that.
I do not consider this month to be a failure for myself even though I did not reach my goal weight. I continued to run regularly. I did over 200 miles of cardio (only 9 of them were on a bike). I did over 2000 minutes of cardio this month. I wish I had been able to do more weight training, and I can see that I need to have more of a balance between the cardio and weight training if I want to get my body into the shape that I want (without liposuction). I also managed not to binge for most of the month (until this past weekend, in fact).
So now all I have to do is survive all this candy crap that will be coming into the house tonight for Trick or Treating. I have decided to take pro-active steps to prevent myself from bingeing on candy. It is THEIR candy after all. Nothing is more disgusting to me than eating all of your kids' Halloween candy. Even cat's hemorrhoids is not as disgusting to me as doing that.
Progress as of today: 12.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
WTG!!! What amazing stats youhave for the month!!! Your going to need a new name, you certainly are NOT a donkey, or a ponkey-butt for that matter!! You go girl!
Exercise: 65 min elliptical (intervals) + 35 stationary bicycling (6.43 miles); Weight training: Upper & Lower Body (machines); Calories: 1746
I did all my weight training today because tomorrow Husband has a follow-up doctor's appointment, and I think I'd like to go with him for that. Just to hear if it really is Crohn's disease or what. I plan to go to the gym early (like I did today) and then run outside after the doctor's appointment, probably the 4-mile route.
I also applied for a job today. It was painful, but it is for the best for my family. I cannot have my life centering around the gym. (Plus, maybe I can eventually get to the point where I'm saving up $ for some liposuction on my thighs, knees and hips. I am now convinced that surgery is the only way I will attain the body that I want.)
It looks like it will be a higher calorie day today, because I had chili for lunch (man, that has a lot of calories in it!). However, that is ok, and I will try my hardest not to go over my limit.
EVENING EDIT: Went 6 calories over my limit, but I was very active today, so I am totally ok with it. What put me over? Having a cup of coffee after dinner. I had a lot of salty things to eat today, so tomorrow I must focus on drinking plenty of water.
Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!
I think your nerves being jangled about getting a job is perfectly understandable...after all, you've been a SAHM and it isn't easy to jump back into the work (outside of the home) thing. Good luck with it! And given your motivation, you'll still find time for the gym LOL
Anyway, it was just a thought! Good luck on your job search! :)
Sunday:
You would not believe how much crap I have eaten in the past 2 days. I'm totally stressing out about this job situation, and I'm sabotaging my diet. I think in the back of my mind, I'm thinking that if I still have weight to lose that I won't have to find a job or change my routine/life. How illogical is that?
Today I know will be better because I am going to the gym (I always do better on gym days). I just hope I didn't do too much damage. I can kiss my hopes of reaching goal by Halloween (Oct. 31) good-bye though. This I"m pretty sure of. :-(
EVENING EDIT: As I predicted, today was much better. For one thing, I erased all doubt about the job situation as I have made up my mind that this is what needs to come to pass. Tomorrow I am turning in my job application.
Also, I went to the gym and did the elliptical and ran on the treadmill. Cardio always makes me feel better, but I have to wonder if I"m not getting addicted. So another good thing about getting a job will be that it will put my gym time into better perspective.
I don't know if the job thing will work out but it sure will be exciting to see where it takes me. What doesn't kill Donkey only makes her stronger.
Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!
Exercise: 65 min elliptical (double hill); Weight training: 15 min lower body (machines); Calories: TBD -- but they will be high today
Well...........
What else can I say or do? Once again, my goal weight eludes me. This is what happened. I weighed myself this morning and the scale said 132.0. No loss. Then I weighed myself again and it went down to 131.0. WTF. So then I brushed out my hair and put it in a ponytail and weighed myself again: 131.0. So that's what I'm reporting.
BUT -- I was so hoping for 130.0. Ya know, for ONCE, I would just like to see that number (well, not just for once, because I want to keep it there, but...) and say "look at me, I reached my goal". Today that did not happen. Stupid ovulation....
I have also been stressing out about another issue. Now that I am coming to the end of my weight loss and focusing more on maintenance. And now that my family is moved and settled, I need to find a job. I have a couple of options, but I find that I do not really want to go back to work.
So you might think, "stay home if it makes you happy" but we could use the extra money right now (especially with the holidays coming up and my stupid cat needing a dental cleaning w/possible extractions). And there are things that I want to save up for too, items or services that I would like to save up for and purchase.
PLUS, I think some of my reluctance to return to work is linked to my fear or anxiety about the unknown. Change always scares me. So it's hard for me to know if I don't want to work, or if it's just the fear getting in the way.
And where do I get off not wanting to work and not doing it? I mean, this life ain't no free ride, right? Wouldn't most people rather have free time than to go to a job? Of course they would, so I know that my staying at home days need to come to an end soon. I just need a push out the door, ya know? Life isn't about going to the gym all day. It can't be. It shouldn't be.
Progress as of today: 13 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!
Exercise: 65 min elliptical (gluteal w/reduced ramp) + 69 min running (6.0 mi); Weight Training: None; Calories: 1520
Tomorrow is weigh-in!!! I don't hold high hopes. I gain weight about 2 weeks from AF/TOM. Damn uterus.
Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Well, actually I'm always glad I'm not a man. They say that we're strange, but I think it's the other way around. Maybe I just wish Eve hadn't eaten that damned apple. ;)
Exercise: 65 min elliptical (single hill); Weight training: 20 min upper body (machines); Calories: 1827 (I think)
Just setting this up for now. Had a snack of a go-gurt and a big honey crisp apple -- I have so much sugar going through me right now, it's almost intoxicating, and it probably would be if I didn't feel sick to my stomach! Oof! PMS has arrived! Stupid hormonal cravings. I hold no high hopes for weigh-in this week. So much for reaching my goal by Halloween. :-(
EVENING EDIT: I go over my calories if I have a Fiber One chocolate and oats bar. I don't go over if I have nothing. This is so hard. I've been looking forward to that bar all day, but I will go over by nearly 90 calories if I do. Oh what a dilemma....
Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Thanks for the question. I use a vita-mix blender which is able to break up the green leafy vegetables to a nice smooth pulp. I make sure to not throw anything out, that way I get plenty of fiber....trust me there is no lack of fiber, lol.
I am personally uncomfortable at this weight. It's killing me. Also, I refuse to buy bigger clothes so right now everything I wear is skin tight.
Exercise: 35 min elliptical (resis. 14) + 40 min running on treadmill; Weight training: push-ups and crunches (hopefully); Calories: 1420
My Husband's colonoscopy was successful and we have some answers, but not the ones we thought we would hear. No polyps, no obstructions. So it was pretty good news. I think the doctor is leaning towards Crohn's. He took some samples and ordered some tests. Will know more in a week when Husband has follow-up appointment.
I did not realize how stressed out I was about the whole procedure until we got home from the hospital. I told the kids we would carve pumpkins tonight if we didn't go to Tae Kwon Do, but I am *tired*. Feel just wiped out.
Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Exercise: 65 min elliptical (intervals); Weight training: 20 min lower body (machines), push-ups & crunches tonight; Calories: 1490 (if I eat all of my preplanned snack tonight)
I'm sorry I don't have much time to comment on diaries tonight. I have been reading them though consistently.
Because he was sick, tonight is my son's testing in tae kwon do for his green belt. We are leaving soon. When we return, my Husband takes his first dose of laxative to purge his system for his colonoscopy tomorrow afternoon.
What amazes me is he gets to eat all the sherbert and ice cream he wants, and he's only had 2 bowls of sherbert. Me, I would be dipping into my second gallon of ice cream by now.
Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
I hope your husband has an easy day with the testing and that he feels better soon! Good luck to your son! Great exercise to you!
Exercise: 65 min running on treadmill (included cooldown jog/walk); Weight trianing: push-ups, crunches; Calories: TBD
Oh my I sure learned a lesson the hard way today. For lunch I had roasted eggplant in marinara sauce, and an apple and a plum. 2 hours later I decided to go run on the treadmill at the gym. This was actually Husband's suggestion because I was rather crabby.
So I'm doing speed intervals of 5.2 mph and 6.0 mph (yeah, I'm slow), and about 20 minutes into the hour, I start experiencing the worst gas. Now I couldn't let myself become a gym legend (remember Gas Man, aka Fart Boy from my old gym?) so I toughed it out until the 35 min mark. Ended my workout, went to the ladies' room. Wouldn't you know it, but there's somebody in there doing her HAIR?!? Let's just say thank goodness for loud-flushing toilets. (I'm probably not fooling anyone, though.) Then I went back and finished the remainder of the hour run, and then did the cooldown. I still had some cramping but it was manageable.
Donkey has learned her lesson!
Progress as of today: 12 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
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Those special times with our kids are the best! Good luck with the job interview and Happy weekend!!
Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/02/2007:
hey donk donk. thanks for all of your comments during the week. That's sooo nice to meet your daughter for lunch...i don't think i EVER did that while in school, but these days i sometimes see kids going out with their parents! My, things have changed! :)
Horn_Of_Plenty on 11/05/2007:
I just reread this entry today. eeesh...sorry about the basement wall!!! repairs stink! It's good you got it under control,though! What you wrote on my entry made me feel better because sometimes a person needs to step back and realize they aren't the ONLY one who may be in a situation such as mine. also, i have to constantly remind myself that i'm 25...and not 35. It's going to be ok. lol. endless battle. but, its really weird working in the occupation, teaching, when i know that next year the chances are I will not be!! :) It's such a contradiction and sometimes it just feels WEIRD.
Where have ya been!!! I miss reeding your entries! I hope all is well! :)
BYE for now! :) :) :)
legcramps on 11/05/2007:
Well, a so-so day it sounds like. Nothing wrong with that!