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Donkey - Friday Jan 04, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

Logging in at work, on my phone, as I am really struggling today.  I am SO hungry today, but I do not think it is true hunger.   I do not know if I am getting sick,  or if I am tired,  or what is going on.  I am not sure if I will be up to weighing in tomorrow...

Tonight is Chair Yoga with my husband,  and then date night at the local mom & pop diner,  which has a salad bar.  That sounds just about right to me,  but I might change my mind.  Afterall that holiday eating, I am not that enthusiastic about eating out, but oh well...

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

graindart on 01/04/2019:
Struggling here with eating plan myself right now. I don't have any suggestions, but just letting you know I'm in the same boat.....

Donkey on 01/05/2019:
It was not a good weigh-in this week. I don't understand this.

Donkey - Thursday Jan 03, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

Wow, what an exciting day I had! 

It started off before I even left the house for work, with an idea that I had for our Associate Attorney.  I texted him the idea, so that if he wanted to follow through with my idea, he'd have time to think it over and plan it out.  I admit that I was kind of excited about my idea.  Then, at work, with the boss gone, I was busier at work, with emails and correspondences.  Before I knew it, it was time to leave for the well & septic seminar.  I met up with the attorney there, and he LOVED my idea!  And like I had hoped, he thought about it and planned out what he was doing to do during the long drive from home to the courthouse, and then from the courthouse to the restaurant/seminar.  He was really enthusiastic about my idea!

Anyway, back to diet-chat, much to my relief, we were able to order off of a limited menu with a choice of two:  soup, salad, sandwich, pasta.  Perfect!  I chose something quite keto and delicious: roast beef sandwich (without the bread) with 2 types of cheese and a wedge salad with bacon and bleu cheese.  So delicious and filling!

But the information in the seminar was so interesting!  (LOL bear with me here.)  I almost didn't want to eat, I was so enmeshed in the presentation about septic systems gone bad.  Fascinating!  And yes, the Power Point presentation had many, many pictures of malfunctioning septic tanks, septic fields, septic trenches, broken wells, contaminated wells, etc.  My hunger for septic knowledge surpasses my hunger for food!  [This probably makes me rather unique, I realize that.]

When I returned to work, I was quite busy, as the seminar/lunch kept me away from the emails for 3 hours.  Much of the work to be done revolved around files that are getting ready to close next week.  There is much to be done from the time the loan is ready until we close, so I was busy about that.  But, the Associate Attorney thanked me again for my idea (in front of others) and followed through on it.  I hope that my boss finds out about this when he returns.  I actually have a LOT of ideas for our Associate Attorney, but I realize that I have to approach this in very small steps, because I don't want to step on other people's toes in the office.

So anyway, I'm at my desk and at around 4:30p, my husband texts me urgently that my son has been called by the Air Force recruiter to meet him at the recruiting office ASAP to take his push-up test right then and there.  Oh. My. Goodness.  My son's entire future to be decided in less than an hour.  If he passes, then he will rejoin the military.  If he fails, then I do not know what, because, frankly, Plan B was not very hopeful or fruitful.  I didn't know what else to do, so I asked for prayers on Facebook.  On my way home, I had this feeling that he had failed - hard to explain, just had a feeling.  Could not fathom what on earth he would do if he failed this test, after all that training.

But this was for naught, because when I arrived at home, I found out that he had passed his push-up test and surprassed the required minimum, by doing 38 in a minute.  This is not his personal best, which I believe is 45 push-ups in a minute, but all he had to do was do 33, and he did it.  I was so relieved and thankful and happy.  My son was upset that I posted on Facebook, although I kept it very vague.  I told him that once folks knew that everything was OK, that I would delete the post.  Actually, I'm not going to delete it but rather change the privacy setting so that only I can see it in my timeline.

Wow, what a day!  Let's see if I can get to sleep after such a day!

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2019:
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm soooooooo sooooooo SOOOOOOOO HAPPY FOR YOU & YOUR SON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm just so proud of him. that he kept practicing and working on it! it's so amazing!!!

When you find out more, please share about your son! Your entire entry had me by the seat of my pants!

So about this entry! It was very engaging. i was actually reading it i think with my mouth open because there was so much suspense! for real!

i would like to know more about the idea you gave the associate attorney! and i'm glad you have a good relationship with him.

If i were in your boat at the lunch session presentation, i honestly would also have enjoyed it too. I'd be with you, the rare few who'd rather enjoy the presentation than miss it by stuffing my face to no return haha.

but for real, i love receiving new info also, like you, and learning more about things. and it seems the pictures and presentation was an overall higher quality so you got lucky and got a change of pace for the day.

i'm glad you got to go out and learn some new info and do something different because the more knowledge you have, the better off you are!

enjoy your night and super kudos congratulations to your SON! that is outstanding and i'm just so happy for your family!

graindart on 01/03/2019:
Nice to have one of those days where everything seems to come together in your favor.

Maria7 on 01/04/2019:
So happy for you!

Donkey - Wednesday Jan 02, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

Kind of a mish-mash day, but I'll try to keep things focused on diet, etc.

Today was my boss' last day for about a month, while he spends January in Florida.  This is something that he does every year.  In some ways, I couldn't wait for him to leave.  I find myself growing so impatient with the office small-talk lately:  what did you get for Christmas? what did you have for dinner?  how was the evening last night? blah blah blah.  On the other hand, I *feel* very unprepared for his absence this time.  I know that I'm not:  I've done this for at least 3 years, our associate attorney is here, I have knowledgeable co-workers with whom I can consult, and the workload is still relatively light.  But his absence will mean more work and more responsibility for me, and the thought of that is stressing me out.

NOTE TO HORN:  I can totally relate when you talk about your mind being on Florida.  That has been my boss since Christmas.

Tomorrow, the Associate Attorney and I are attending a well & septic seminar luncheon.  If you are questioning the compatability of discussing septic systems while eating lunch, you are not alone.  The Nice Lady co-worker said, Gee, I hope they don't have a slide show with pictures of septic systems gone wrong.  Yeah I hope not either - right?  This will be very helpful knowledge to have, since we've had so many transactions that have had septic issues (some well issues too, but those are usually not as complicated as septic), so I have REALLY been wanting to attend something like this -- JUST NOT AT LUNCH.

Secondly, the luncheon is at an Italian restaurant that I am not a fan of.  I am not a fan of the restaurant due to a previous experience with bad service there.  Husband and I haven't been back since.  PLUS, now that I'm embracing low-carb/keto life, eating a bunch of pasta really isn't helpful.

Thirdly, I'm going with the Associate Attorney, who I have mixed feelings about.  As you know, from past entries, I have mixed feelings about ALL of my co-workers (except Queen Bee; her I pretty much do not like and know this for sure).  I'm very particular about who I will eat with....  Well, I guess if he sat across from me at the Office Christmas Party, it won't be too bad going to this with him.

Side note:  Hormone issues made for a painful day and possibly contributed to the unexplained back spasms I had this morning, until the OTC pain relievers kicked in.   Ovulation is a *****.  (Sorry, Maria, for the swears.)

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

graindart on 01/02/2019:
Probably depends on the restaurant, but the chain ones usually have some type of steak / chicken option paired with broccoli or some other low-carb option. At Olive Garden I like the beef medallions with blue cheese crumbles, along with some side veggie.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/03/2019:
Happy 1st day of work of 2019, you J-Donkey!

I think you are just anxious for your boss to leave, that's all. That's why it's bothering you a lot. I think. I think you just want it to happen already! :) Yep, the office small talk. It'll always be there, if you can use headphones a bit in january for parts of the day, it can help you concentrate and not listen to their small talk all day. if you hvae a music app on your phonoe, you can plug in the headphones (little ones i mean) so only you can hear the music and it can drown them out a bit. i now use headphones during parts of the "quiet" workdays especially when my one coworker is not in the shared office with me. it makes the day go better. music doesn't really kill my concentration, unless i'm doing something new or that requires a lot of thought. then, the music goes off for a bit.

Remember, there's always salad or veggies anywhere. you can request it. OR, just go with tea / coffee / seltzer. buy a seltzer if you want to bring with you. or bring your own stuff with you. never worry about people's judgements on what you eat or your lifestyle. you are ok. enjoy the luncheon. you don't have to have pasta. you can say you are "gluten free." haha. i hope there'll be an option. fill up on seltzer or diet coke or something, lady. just get thru :) maybe you can have a treat of your own when it's over before driving home, to enjoy with tea or seltzer - those awesome fat bombs.

It won't be bad going with him :)

Sorry about the annoying pain. It will pass :) I'm glad at least the OTC has helped!

It's thursday! one more week till another weekend :)

haha :) thank you for the special note about you relating to my mind on florida! :) now, it's OFF florida because it's coming so close but i am totally unable to think much about it or plans because of work...i guess i'm having the thoughts where it's coming so close but there's not much i can do leading up to it now...haha...and i'll figure it out there! but like your boss, my mind is on VACATION and how to stay healthy and try not to overdo until next Wednesday! omg, it's coming so soon!

legcramps on 01/03/2019:
Hope you're feeling a lot better by the time you go to the luncheon. I agree with HoP, I use headphones at work sometimes when I need to drown out the outside office noise. Sometimes people can be so disrespectful! I've overheard full-on private conversations and gossip like you wouldn't believe! (or maybe you would).

Maria7 on 01/03/2019:
Haha, Donkey! Well, one day you want have 'that' to be concerned with...it will be a distant memory... Hope your luncheon goes well...Have a good day.

Donkey - Tuesday Jan 01, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

(Note to Self:  no New Year's Day weigh-in.  Use this number from last weigh-in on 12/29.)

Had Chinese take-out with the family and then settled in to watch Twilight Zone for the rest of the evening.  My daughter went to a party held by her best friend from high school, but came home at 12:30a due to not feeling well. The rest of us did our own thing, which is fine.  Nice and quiet.

Despite managing to stay up until 11:04p, I woke up at 5am -- got out of bed at 5:20a -- to do my usual exercise routine.  I realize - now - that I haven't really stated any goals for 2019, but these are a few things I would like to work on:

  1. Conscious relaxation - physical and mental/emotional.  Ideally, on a daily basis:  stretching/yoga, deep breathing, prayer.
  2. Keeping a cleaner house.  15 minutes daily.  Will invest $ in getting the house deep-cleaned, which will then be easier to maintain. Start a decluttering habit.
  3. Changing my relationship with food.  Exploring and trying keto recipes, having fun with this, rather than seeing restrictions.

I'll be seeing a doctor on January 18th.  I haven't been to the doctor since 2009? 2010?  Time to get an assessment.   

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

graindart on 01/01/2019:
I made all the way until about 10p-10:30p before falling asleep. Woke up to a barrage of fireworks at midnight. Quickly fell back asleep and got up for the day around 3:30am-4am. Seems like 3:30am-4am is becoming more and more of a pattern over the past couple months. Don't know why. Seems to be working out fine, so why fight it I guess.

Haven't decided on any new year goals, but #1 on your list would be good for me to adopt.

Maria7 on 01/01/2019:
Happy New Year's day! LOVE your goals for this year. Praying your Daughter feels better.

Horn_of_plenty on 01/01/2019:
Chinese Takeout and Twilight Zone with family sounds nice and relaxing!

I hope your daughter is feeling better today. I like to leave New Years at midnight anyways. isn't that late enough! haha. maybe not when you're 19.

Oh wow, you've not been to the dr in even longer than me! Good for you to go and get that done! I'll be doing it right alongside you in February.

I like your goals they are all attainable and something to strive for. Most of it are goals that take time and have no "due date." i'm right alongside you again. just looking to expand my horizons and less limiting :)

Donkey - Sunday Dec 30, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

I think that I have a small touch of a cold/sinius infection, which I am doing my best to avoid becomeing full-blown congestions.  

I did go to the church-lady dinner, and I'm glad that I did, but while I had planned to leave at 6pm, I didn't get out of there until closer to 8:45p.  It was 9p when I got home.  It was a smaller group this time, and most of the "fun" gals didn't show up, but I appreciated the smallness of the group.  It was 4 older, widowed women (except for 1 whose husband has Parkinsons), and then 3 of us "younger" (meaning 40-50) gals, of which I was the only married one; the other 2 are divorced.  It was interesting to hear the older women talking because I figure that's me in about 15-20 years, presuming I stay in good health.  Or if not me, then where my mom is at now.  The anniversary of my step-father's passing is coming up in January....  

Anyway, back to diet-chat, not very keto/low-carb friendly at all.  Long story short, I ended up having a small green salad, and Italian sausage and meatballs (probably made with bread crumbs, so now low-carb).  I passed on the mostaccioli.  And I could not resist nibbling -- I swear, literal nibbles - on a few cookies.  Why can't I just pass this stuff up?????  SO FRUSTRATED -- to me, this tells me that I'm not really in maintenance, still needs work on that.

Which brings me to a realization I had this morning, when I read Gains entry (& Bear's comment) and Bear's entry.  Gains mentioned today that he is tired; yesterday he wrote about incorporating (maybe) some kind of fitness goal once he reaches maintenance.  Bear mentioned that she's looking forward to a time when she doesn't have to count points any more.  THIS is what I'm struggling with, but just couldn't identify properly. 

I'M AFRAID OF BEING IN MAINTENANCE.  Is this why I lost more weight after my goal weight?  Is that why I'm trying keto?  Shouldn't maintenance be about being able to relax a little?  It seems to me as though there should be some incorporation of beingn able to relax a little bit.  For example, perhaps my dinner outing last night WAS a successful practice of wise choices and moderation.  So why doesn't it FEEL like a success?  Last night's dinner as a "maintenance success" just occured to me -- I was looking at it as a keto failure rather than a maintenance success - if it was that; it certainly didn't feel like a success....

I guess what it comes down to is that I'm not comfortable in this "After" life:  loose clothing, new wasy of eating, consistent (compulsive?) on the exercising.  Wow...

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

graindart on 12/30/2018:
While I've been working hard to get to my weight goal and maintenance-land, I know that the beginning of maintenance is going to be anything but relaxing for me this time. I've been down that route a few times where I've made it to some goal and then completely relaxed and started "living" (translation = back to eating whatever / whenever). That's what happened earlier this year to me. I was in the 170's for the first 5 months of this year, but after reaching goals, I relaxed and ended up gaining 40 lbs in 10 weeks. Which has caused the past 4 months of constant calorie counting in order to get back down around goal weight again.

So this time, I won't be relaxing at the beginning of maintenance. It will still be a struggle, just with a few more daily calories allowed. Also on the days where I'm still <170 lbs on my morning daily weigh-in, I won't be recording my food. Mentally I'll still be limiting myself, but it will be a little less formal. I'm fully expecting to hover around 169-172 for awhile, before hopefully settling into the high 160's. I'm expecting to fully struggle with maintenance for the first few months. As I get more used to it, I'm expecting to be able to start relaxing slowly. Maybe I'll be at a place by early Summer where maintenance is mostly just my new way of life? Or maybe I never get to that point and it's always a bit of a struggle? I don't know the answer at this point. When I weighed 283, I had various minor issues / troubles / insecurities / etc. Now that I weigh 100 lbs less I still have minor issues / troubles / insecurities / etc. The issues and other things are different based on the different weights, but neither were completely easy. So I guess if I'm going to have minor issues anyway, I'd rather be at this thinner healthier weight while dealing with them.

My wife and daughters don't worry a bit about their weight and are all thin / healthy. They don't have to work at it and it just happens. They can relax. I really want that to be me. But I don't think that's ever going to fully be a possibility. Seems like everyone has their own struggles and own strengths. I don't want food / weight to be my "forever" struggle, but am slowly coming to the possibility that it might be. On my vacation, spent quite a bit of time talking with an aunt, brother-in-law, and mother-in-law that have all been obese most of their lives. They are all nearing their own goal weights this year / early next year (again). Them and myself all discussed the same exact tendencies and issues with food / dieting / maintenance. On the other side of the spectrum is my father-in-law, sister-in-law, wife, kids, nephews. They all eat whatever they want, yet remain slim. Why did they hit the food / weight / metabolism lottery?????? Again I don't know. The only thing I do know is that at present and for the forseeable near future, I have to be vigilant concerning my food intake. Someday I hope that changes, but when I initially enter maintenance I'm sure it'll be anything but relaxing.

Sorry for the somewhat rambling lengthy reply. It's more for myself in just working out my own thoughts / plans / future.....

Donkey on 01/01/2019:
I'm finding it difficult to relax. Hence, switching to keto, so that I have something new to work on.... when really it would probably serve me better to focus on relaxing more, in different ways, in different aspects of my life.

graindart on 12/30/2018:
I guess "maintenance" isn't a reward for reaching my goal weight, like I once thought it would be. It's just a change in focus to a new goal...... And unfortunately if done right, the maintenance goal has no end. With time I do hope that it becomes second nature and thus doesn't occupy my brain anywhere near as much as it currently does.

graindart on 12/30/2018:
BTW - I see your recent weeks of entries as being a huge success in maintaining. Watching you and HOP maintain your numbers gives me hope that I can do it too. I'm under no false pretenses that maintenance is a rose garden, but it has to suck less than fighting every day to lose weight. You're occasionally eating what you want / desire, but limiting the number of those days so that you aren't gaining fat / weight. Yours is the basic model I'm expecting to follow when initially entering maintenance. Most days my food choices are going to be limited / boring, but once per week or so I'm planning to eat stuff that I enjoy and do my best to not feel guilty for doing it......

If you're like me, time will be a main factor in when you finally start to feel more relaxed.

Donkey on 01/01/2019:
I agree that time will probably play the biggest part in getting to "relaxed". Also, from the previous comment, I would rather that this whole diet/exercise stuff didn't consume so much of my daily energy.

Some days, it's OK: I like to try recipes, exercise, whatever. Other days, it's like, wish I were naturally thin.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/31/2018:
my day too, ending up wayyyy longer than original plans on going out with a friend. for next time, we should both keep an open mind to how the night / day will roll out as it can be unexpected from what we thought! maybe also keep a "backup" excuse for if you really did want to go...i'm glad i also rolled with the flow though because it was a nice change of pace to spend the day with someone instead of alone. like you, it was nice to spend the time with company :)

sounds like you ate really well, donkey. being very moderate. if i were at the party, i'd eat very similarly if not the same as you! a few grains in your meatballs aren't going to throw you. i'd take a sweet cookie too. you're normal! taking a few is better than going home to eat the whole house!

Donkey on 01/01/2019:
One thing I really appreciate about your diaries is that it shows that one can eat more and still be healthy at maintenance.

I'm glad I went too. Being an introvert, sometimes I have to push myself to get out. I'm usually glad that I did (go out), just the act of stepping out is the hardest part.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/31/2018:
I totally understand how you feel. I think you are still getting used to maintenance and still enjoying trying out new things.

I'd be totally bored if someone told me i have to only eat the same thing for breakfast, for example, for the rest of my life. Spice of life. It's good to change things up. Life is meant for experiences and even people like us who enjoy a routine and counting and all...we like a change or a break. as much as we like the scale, we hate the scale. as much as we like having a job, we like a vacation from that job. as much as we like exercise, we sometimes want a break from exercise...etc etc...

so, it's only (in my opinion) normal that you'd want to continue on the journey you are on the try new things.

but we all know, all of us right now on this site, that "diets don't work." it's the whole lifestyle change of learning how to incorporate everything we've learned along the way into our individual lifestyles to make it work for each of us. so that's what you are doing.

like i said to you the other day, carbs promote happiness. let me look it up exactly so i can be more accurate now..but there's a reason we eat them.

why i do keto desserts is because they "stick with me" longer at times...and the biggest reason besides some calories being knocked down is that they don't create the "sugar high and then sugar low" and then me feeling extra hungry. this is a main reason i like my low sugar "keto" baking. so i can eat the junk, but in my head i believe it's less junky. that's why i like keto.

however, the reason i'm not fully keto and wouldn't want to be, personally, is because i like carbs and they do make me feel good. they provide energy when i'm low or help pep me up for a workout.

i just like how keto, especially sweet things, is another alternative to help me stick better with calories and feeling decent and not "high and then low" after having a traditional dessert.

but that cheesecake isn't so filling...i will not make it again soon because it's not so satisfying. makes me want to eat more and more. grrr.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/31/2018:
so here's one nice article that will make you feel not so bad about carbs:


Horn_of_plenty on 12/31/2018:
and this article is a bit of a wordy-doozy to read, but the title of the article and the last sentence are the exact point i'm trying to make which is that carbs do help you feel good, but of course in moderation but they are good for you when eaten as part of a healthy diet of course!:


Horn_of_plenty on 12/31/2018:
my friend Josie on fb on the site and pages we are on, i think she's highly motivational because she's so into whatever challenge she goes on (like her fast), but i myself am not eager to do anything like she does or to attempt to replicate what's good for her on myself. i am her fan and love how she dives into things full steam ahead!

Donkey on 01/01/2019:
I do not think I could ever do long-term fasting like she does, nor would I WANT to fast.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/31/2018:
she hasn't always been keto and does go off it at times, btw. but with her one thing is clear, she doens't half -a $$ anything. i seriously don't know where her drive comes from!

Donkey - Saturday Dec 29, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 124.5

Things are back to normal in the weigh-in world.  My 0.5 scale weighed me in lower than my 0.2 Ironman scale by about 1.5 pounds.  After last night's anniversary dinner, I'm surprised that the numbers were pretty much where I've been.  Maybe I would have had an awesome weigh-in if it were not for the fancy dinner, but it was a wonderful night out with my husband.

Tried to keep the choices along the keto guidelines, but had hummus with roasted vegetables.  (Beans are a no-go on keto but great on paleo.)  As a gift, the server brought us a little champagne (delicious but not keto) which was so nice.   Little did she know that I would have preferred a chocolate covered strawberry, but that's OK. It was a lovely gesture on her part.  And the overall experience was better, too.  Sometimes it gets really loud and really crowded.  It was not so loud this time.  And it was busy, but not packed.  Perfect for what I like.  It's definitely a "special occasion" place for us.  I would not go there for just any dinner, although you could.

I was very full when we left.  And I could tell that the food had been salty (as to be expected when dining out), so I was rather delightfully surprised this morning with the weigh-in.  I almost didn't weigh-in.  I mean, why set myself up for an end-of-the-year disappointment.  In the end, I decided to stick to the routine and hold myself accountable.  After all, if I had gained 4 pounds this week, feeling all bloated and stuff, then I need to know that so that I can work on it.

In addition to the list of holiday eating events list, my church lady retreat group is meeting for an end of the year party tonight.  *sigh*  I had been debating with myself as to whether I should go or not.  It's definitely out of my comfort zone, and the last thing I need is another eating event, right?  But sometimes I have to push myself to be more social, and I haven't seen these ladies in a LONG time, and it's good to have connections and hear how everyone has been doing this year.  Most of us are connected on Facebook, but sometimes it's just nice to be face-to-face.  Me going to this dinner will allow husband and son to see Aquaman and then grab a hamburger somewhere.  I have NO interest in either of these things.  Daughter has to work and has no interest in the movie.

If this dinner were not happening today, I'd be completely A-OK with just staying home and doing Donkey things, resting, relaxing, etc., and getting back on track with eating!  (As I finished typing this out, my stomach is starting to give me the queasies, as in, this could be the flu.  I'm definitely staying home if I'm feeling sick; I might just need a little more to eat, so I'm going to try to have some yogurt.)

Today is my last weigh-in for 2018.  I started the year out at 127.5, and finished out with a 3-pound loss.  While that may not sound like much, my weight has been higher than my starting point, so I took that off, plus the 3, and seem to be keeping it off, give or take a pound.

Progress as of today: 62 lbs lost so far, only -12 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/29/2018:
oh yes, possibly a keto flu? though, you've been on keto awhile and also you eat things that are not always keto. hmmm, Bear has a good question!

I totally get you wanting to be home. as a working woman who's always out (talking about you here, not me lol), i can understand you wanting to be home when you get the opportunity.

I specifically didn't make too many plans this weekend, knowing i really just wanna be home by myself for a good amount of it. :)

don't feel bad if you don't go. i really do understand you just wanting to be home...and not being in front of a lot of food again.

the socializing is nice though and i do hope you feel better!

oh, and congrats on the excellent weigh-in to end the year! what a huge success this year was for you in that regard! you maintained and even dipped under where you started! excellent!

Donkey on 12/30/2018:
I did end up going, and while it lasted WAY longer than I had thought it would, I'm glad I did go because I learned a lot from the older women in the group.

graindart on 12/29/2018:
Love when the weigh-in cooperates. I'm sure it feels good to end the year with a good number.

I'll find out what my final weigh-in is the morning of December 31st after I wake up from my own bed again. It'll have been around 10 days since I previously weighed in before the trip. I know it's just a number and doesn't really matter, but I'm still hoping it's a "good" one to end the year.

Donkey on 12/30/2018:
I'm hoping it's a number for you too, because you're 100% right: it's a very good number.

Nothing more frustrating (to me, at least) to do the right things and find either no loss or even a slight gain in the numbers. I think my lowest points have come when I go off-track, e.g. having a bowl of ice cream late night snack (breaking 2 of my rules) and then finding a lower number on the scale. It's like, What the heck - why even bother?

Donkey - Thursday Dec 27, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

I have not had the time to log on lately, and normally, I would be upstairs getting ready for bed, but I didn't want to let another day pass without writing.   I do read your entries every day.  I check in on my phone when I'm on my bike and quite a few times when I'm at work (since we're not so busy) using my phone.  I refuse to log in on my work computer, because I think the boss' son-in-law checks what sites we visit.  He will be disappointed to see how many times I visit CNN to watch the stock market and keep abreast of the headlines.  (At work, I can easily miss major events, as I'm quite isolated from everything except real estate.)

I feel as though I am struggling.  I am not doing anything fantastic or great in the dieting world, but just doing the same old stuff.  IDK, I feel like I'm eating too much...  I feel bloated, but my rings are not tight.  The scale will tell on Saturday for the last weigh-in of 2018.

Tomorrow night is anniversary dinner.  Then New Years Eve will be take-out Chinese (lots of vegetables!!!) and no plans for New Years Day yet.

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

graindart on 12/27/2018:
Not looking forward to NYE and day. Have 2 long days of travel and should be back home on NYE. Have some work that came in while on vacation that is due 1/2/2019, so will have to get to work on NYE and day to be able to get those things in on time. Definitely not looking forward to it, but don't have much of a choice. Thankful for the work, just not the timing.....

Don't know what I'll be doing as I hopefully enter maintenance in January some time. Thinking about making some type of fitness / strength goal while maintaining weight, but haven't made any decisions yet.

Donkey on 12/29/2018:
You may find that staying in maintenance is a goal in itself. But I agree that having a different type of goal might help you stay in maintenance. I know it's helped with me.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/28/2018:
Yes, i also (obviously you know i do by now!?) go online and use the internet while at work. I do not think it's a bad thing at all though.

A quick five minute (lol or maybe in my case it's 10min!?) scan of something else besides your work can relax your mind and also let your mind focus on something else for a little bit and then you can return to the task with your mind relaxed and ready to work harder. if you are ever questioned, i'm sure studies prove it. it's the same as getting up and stretching / walking at least every hour. it's BETTER for your productivity than just sitting at work, doing real estate all day with no break and no getting up, spinning your wheels and getting farther than you would have you taken the breaks and got up to clear your head! :) it's ok, jdonk i'm sure others are on the internet more than you at work. Don't worry!

Didn't you just start Keto not too long ago? does it count as doing something different in the dieting world?

yum yum to the chinese! it's sooo easy to eat well when you like veggies! enjoy it. another thing i like is the veggie and tofu soup they have at chinese restaurants. enjoy....

and, HAPPY ANNIVERSARY to you and Mr. Donkey <3

Donkey on 12/29/2018:
I try to keep DD very private and separate from other aspects of my life, except for the few of you I know on Facebook. I don't do Facebook at work either. Of course, I check a billion times on my phone throughout the day. But nobody at work needs to know me on either DD or FB.

Donkey on 12/29/2018:
I think I'm down on myself regarding the "keto" experiment, because I'm not really hard-core keto. I'm more of a keto-paleo blend. I feel like a failure at both, rather than successful overall.

Who needs that kind of negativity? NOT ME. I gotta change that up. :)

Donkey - Tuesday Dec 25, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

Merry Christmas to all!  Even if you don't celebrate Christmas, ANYONE can have Santa in their heart:  kindness, mercy, sharing, giving, welcoming, forgiveness.  And it's not just limited to Christmastime, but all year around.  

Waiting for my grown-up kids to wake up, LOL, for presents.  So in the meantime, husband and I are doing some food prep for our Christmas dinner of Italian beef sandwiches, fruit salad, hummus with raw vegetables, deviled eggs, perhaps a green salad, and Patti LaBelle's sweet potato pie with whipped cream for dessert.

Fortunately (?), I didn't have many problems with all the sugar from yesterday's late lunch surprise.  I learned that when the unexpected comes up, I really need a go-to plan.  I did not have dinner yesterday, because I was still full.  I felt munchy around 8p when we settled down for games, and could have had raw vegetables with dip, but opted to continue to fast from 4:38p until about 9am this morning when I had 5% fat Fage Greek yogurt.  

Looking forward to just chilling out with the family today, but I hope to log in again at least once more.  Thinking of you all, wishing you peace and glad tidings!

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/25/2018:
Yes, I totally had Santa in my heart today <3 It was a nice day and like you know i even saw my dad :)

OMG love those 5% fat yogurts. also the 2% i like because they are bigger, lol. but they are good to hit the spot.

i think your plan to fast was good as if you were hungry, maybe veggies wouldn't be good? Veggies never fill me, no matter how many...does this ever happen for you?

Enjoy your family. By me it was so restful my dad and i were just relaxing after lunch and the walk. so nice.

graindart on 12/25/2018:
Our day was a wide mixture of things. Calm early morning with wife and daughters. Stressful couple hours with extended family that likes to yell a lot. Mostly enjoyable family lunch. Pretty low-key afternoon & evening with wife, daughters, and their grandparents.

Keep reading about people eating the Fage yogurt. Have a couple other yogurt brands I eat on occasion, but still haven't tried Fage yet. Probably will pick up some to try when we get back home.

Donkey - Monday Dec 24, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

The keto gods must be watching over me...  I suggested that since we're all together this afternoon and evening, that we go out for a late lunch at a loca pizzeria.  The last time I went there, I saw someone getting a deep dish pizza (not Chicago style with all of that tomato stuff on top, but just covered in cheese) and I've been wanting one so badly -- even though there's no low-carbing my way around that crust.  So everyone thought that was a great idea.  Turns out the restaurant, family owned, is closed for Christmas Eve.  It's like a blessing from Above.  

So we're meeting up at another restaurant that also makes great pizza, but has a very varied menu.  I will get something that is more aligned with my plan.  I hope that I can get the family settled down tonight for a couple of games of Yahtzee or Uno.  

It seems to be rather cruel of my boss to have us go to work for 3 hours.  Not so much that we have to work, but that we have to get up early to do so.  I was up early anyway to workout and watch news, but had I not had to work, I might have slept in a half an hour or maybe an hour.

My charmed life book spoke about discretion last night, running along the lines of SHUT UP.  In a nicer way, to be more selective of who we speak to.  This is a chapter I think I need to re-read often.  It hadn't occurred to me, but that might apply to social media too.

EVENING EDIT:  So I didn't do so well at the restaurant.  I did very well until dessert.  My daughter ordered a chocolate brownie with a scoop of vanilla frosting and was too full to finish it.  She ate about half, so I finished the other half.  It might have been more than half actually, that I ate. 

I didn't even need it, as I was full from the big salad I had chosen.  But I won't lie: the dessert was SO good, especially since I haven't had sugar like that in so long.  BUT one of the side effects of laying off the sugar is that when you do have a lot of sugar, like I did, it can upset your tummy.  I took 2 Tums when I got home, and then I proceed to remain active, to help with the digestion.  I may or may not have bathroom issues later on.

My plan is to get right back on track with my plan, whether that be a snack tonight of raw vegetables or tomorrow morning for breakfast.

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/24/2018:
The restaurant situation worked out well. Bummer about work......Boss must have his reasons. I've been thinking about getting the games out around here too.......D said he would like to play a few of the old ones......good way to decide which ones to donate!!!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/25/2018:
oh yeah - one of the hardest things about a workday is waking up for it!!!! yes, indeed. Waking up later is much less stressful, but you did it and it's done. Your boss obviously didn't have the early wake-up on his mind - most i don't think would be thinking that way for others?

hey donkey what's the name of the book and author? it sounds good. i may have to read it after the two i have in my possession now. and yeah, i will get it out of the library next if you can tell me what you are reading...i can use all the "selective speaking" help i can get :) it's def not more forte.

you know, you may have a sugar intolerance then ? or perhaps it's just because you didn't have it in awhile. at least it was GOOD. and at least you had a salad beforehand. those are the plusses :)

Horn_of_plenty on 12/25/2018:
Merry Christmas to you, hubby and your family!

graindart on 12/25/2018:
I've been saved by that type of situation several times. Sometimes I've decided to indulge in a dessert only to have them tell me they're out of it. Other times we've been going somewhere out to eat and decide to switch places because the line just looks too long. Not the ideal way to stay on-plan, but I'll take the win however I can.....

Donkey - Sunday Dec 23, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 125.5

Late morning entry for me because I was busy wrapping gifts.  I've wrapped up with wrapping - ha ha, get it? - and the husband and son are shopping for our Christmas meal right now.

I was reading the keto cookbook that I checked out of the library last night, only to find out that I'm not really doing keto because I eat sweet potatoes and eggplant.  I also enjoy having beans once in a while (and would probably eat more, except that I know they're high in carbs).  So then it goes on to explain that my approach is more "paleo" diet --- except that I eat dairy, which is not part of that diet!  I still think it's better to have a sweet potato with a little butter and salt than it is to have a bag of potato chips.  I'd rather have eggplant than a dish of pasta.  Bananas are better than candy. 

Progress as of today: 61 lbs lost so far, only -11 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/23/2018:
That's funny how you are not a diet, but mixture of diets! but i think that's AWESOME and similar to how i eat. I take the best from all the dieting guides out there to make one that i like! :)

sweet potatoes, even better than bananas, are so healthy. i wouldn't exclude them from your diet as the health in a sweet potato (NOT YAM as those are more sugary) is so healthy it'd be sad for you to stop. better for me during exercise would be a sweet potato, but i'm not there yet...

eggplant tho is nice and low calorie. and so tasty with a little olive oil, salt and pepper and grilled or baked i guess is the preferred way right?

Wait, why is eggplant bad! it's very low cal, just the oil adds up but so healthy! i love eggplant!

and yeah, bananas are high cal too, but, their nutrients are better than a serving of the real gummy bears (not yours) any day.

it's up to use to believe the hype or know that we are ok and are choices are ok for us!

you are doing wonderfully. go by what you believe sometimes you'll realize you have more gut feelings and knowledge about what's right than the author of a book or article on the internet.

Donkey on 12/23/2018:
Apparently, eggplant has a lot of carbs? which makes it bad? I looked it up, and a cup has 4.8 carbs, half of which are fiber. Um, that's NOT too much carbs.

I always brush olive oil (not bad) and sprinkle with parmesan cheese, salt & pepper, oregano. Nice side dish and fills me up.

BearCountryGG on 12/23/2018:
Rather your diet has benn mixed or not...it definately worked...and it gave you a wider range of foods which results in a wider range of nutrients.......I'm all for variety.

Donkey on 12/23/2018:
I think that's why it works for me. Those words you said, "No bad foods, just bad portions" is really staying with me!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/25/2018:
I wanted to comment last night, but my server was having issues all night and this site as well as others like Groupon weren't working! :(...so here i am now !

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