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Donkey - Sunday Apr 07, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

Today is my last day of solid food before the liquid diet starts tomorrow, so even though I'm not a big fan of eating what I'm eating on this low-fiber plan, I'm grateful that at least I can still eat.  My husband says I'm overreacting, but I've done this before and it is HARD.  I get very cold and shaky when I don't eat.  I also get very crabby, LOL.  I bought some flavored coffees for tomorrow, to help, since I cannot have any creamer or dairy product of ANY kind tomorrow.  My biggest fear is that I will forget and just slip into my normal routine and then - Ooops! 

To put a positive spin on this, I am going to try to perhaps use this experience to broaden my self-awareness and those of others who face starvation on a daily basis.  I'm not very good at expressing what I want to achieve in words, but I'd like to incorporate some kind of prayer and/or meditation with the hunger sensation... Kind of like giving it up to God.  However, being at work, I do not think the Monday Madness will allow me to explore myself much, as at work, everything is focused on clients and co-workers. *sigh*  Okay....

I thought more about chair yoga.  After Friday's drama, I was like, "I don't need this kind of negativity in my life" - but then, almost instantaeously, I realized that **I** was the one causing the negativity in my own life!  The instructor had said during our last session as she's taking us through de-stressing and re-focusing, "That argument you had earlier today?  You can choose to let that negativity go and leave it behind..."  WOW!  Once I made this connection (yesterday), I decided that I still have something to learn from yoga, so I'll go back next month. :)

I did weight training last night and then finished up with a few exercises I didn't do last night this morning.  I'm also sticking with my push-ups challenge.  Right now, I'm using lighter weights with more reps, with the honest intention of going back to using heavier weights again, soon.  

I went back and re-read that job listing that I had thought about applying for:  no health insurance.  So I do need to stay with where I'm at, for now, at least.

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2019:
Hi Jdonk! The good thing about your liquid only diet is that it's not forever! I wouldn't be too content either! i despise only liquids so much so that i don't even enjoy shakes / smoothies and hardly ever have them. I like to chew my foods also!

I'm also like you with the eating thing, getting cold and shaky when i don't. you'll be so happy when this process is over! i'm sending you positive thoughts!

that's thoughtful to incorporate a prayer for others and is such a GREAT idea to take your mind off your own discomfort!

Cheers to another month of yoga. I know it ends later and on a Friday night, try not to let any stress get between you and hubby when you are both tired after the yoga the next time! you've had a long day and week, i suggest not planning too much for after yoga. just to go home and relax for the remaining part of friday night, even go to bed if you want to...perhaps you both are just tired when it's over.

I'm glad that other job isn't even a possibility - it's great to see you keeping the job you have for a longer period of time. :-)

lastly, i have just upped some of my weights. it's about time. i had bought alternate 5lbs higher weights when i started this home workout, and it took me a whole year and a half to even touch the #35's. !!! I was always using #30s for my bicep curls and thought i'd never even take the labels off the #35s, but since i've been doing weights very regularly since my trip to Florida, i am once again improving. i use an interesting form, and some people would tease me that it's not considered a correct move, but i enjoy lifting biceps this way...i also use lighter weights, currently #15s but hoping to move up to #20s for another one of my exercises bc i easily get up to 12 reps, usually moving past that, so i can easily bump those up for the exercise i use them for. those weights are adjustable, so i actually have to take them apart and do the math to get to #20, and requires a hair of thought - that's why it's taking me SO LONG to do it LOL LOL LOL...i will fix them maybe tonight.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/08/2019:
changes for me and weightlifting take a VERY VERY long time to achieve. they only come after weeks of doing the process, without any setbacks or misses, so stay positive, the more you stick with it, the closer your body is to making changes.


Maria7 on 04/08/2019:
Hoping you are doing well.



Donkey - Saturday Apr 06, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

Happy to report that my weight has stayed the same and so has my body fat %.  I am quite pleased with this.

Today is Day #2 of the low fiber diet.  I ended up having the stuffed cantaloupe (stuffed with chicken salad) rather than the low-carb skillet, because I'm supposed to stay away from red meats for this low-fiber thing.  So yesterday was a lot of cheese, some scrambled eggs, Greek yogurt, honeydew and cantaloupe.  I miss my vegetables something fierce.

Chair yoga was challenging.  There was one movement that I felt pain in my left shoulder - like, Yikes!  We did another stretch that I was so surprised was a challenge to my upper thighs -- what's that all about?  Then had a nice dinner at the local diner with the less-than-satisfying stuffed cantaloupe (normally, I would NEVER order that -- completely NOT my style or taste).  Treated myself to sugar free chocolate cream pie for dessert, but ate too much of the crust (has carbs).

Sadly, though, we got home and Husband and I got into an arguement over laundry.  He started yelling and banging his cane on the countertop.  I'm like, "I'm done, you win" and went upstairs to get ready for bed.  So no evening bike-ride to help with digestion, but whatever....

So for the third time in a row, this stupid chair yoga has ended up with me completely stressed out.  I don't think it's worth it any more, and I am seriously contemplating whether I will attend any more sessions.  


The fatigue - I think - is related to the anemia.  I'm still taking the prescribed iron pills but they don't seem to be helping with feeling fatigued.  The only thing that they seem to have done is totally mess up my GI routine, with awful nausea in the morning from taking them on an empty stomach (as I'm supposed to do) to constipation.

This sucks.

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/06/2019:
Cantaloupe sounds nice with a chicken salad ! Wayyy better than typical cottage cheese ?!

I am also missing veggies and will find some for dinner ! Oh, I just realized I have tons of cabbage at home ! Woohoo ! That’s what I’ll have :)

Try a few more weeks of the iron pills before giving up.

If you don’t enjoy the chair yoga - or it’s stressful on a Friday, skip it. It’s your life and be true to yourself even before your husband I think !

Sounds like we both indulged in dinner last night :)

Donkey on 04/07/2019:
I do not have a choice with the iron pills unless we can find the source. I'm having the double scope to see if I've got internal bleeding in the GI tract.

I asked the doctor, "How do you know the anemia isn't just diet-related?" and she said that the numbers are too low for this issue to be just food-related (and frankly, I agree because I do eat a lot of dark green leafy vegetables and red meat).

Donkey on 04/07/2019:
I will write more about yoga in today's entry, but you're right - it's OK to give myself permission to skip chair yoga!


Maria7 on 04/07/2019:
Hoping you feel better. Congratulations on maintaining so well. Happy for you. Hope you have a good day.



Donkey - Friday Apr 05, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

The fatigue has become impossible.   I was so tired after work that I had to lie down for about 20 minutes before getting up to eat dinner.   And again this morning,  like yesterday,  woke up exhausted.   So hard to get up... instead of feeling recharged,  I still feel drained. 

 

Today starts the modified diet to prepare for the colonoscopy cleanse on Monday.  Fortunately,  husband and I should still be able to go out for dinner after chair yoga.  I looked up the menu online and I am torn:  should I go for the low carb skillet (not exactly on the modification diet) or do the right thing and order the stuffed cantaloupe?  

 

I just hope that I can leave work on time and have enough  energy to do all of this.   And remember to do push-ups! 

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 04/05/2019:
This whole week, i had the SAME fatigue going as you. Yesterday at work, i could hardly keep my eyes open. last night while doing my workout, the only way i could be happy getting it in and later than expected was to take today off (since i had one remaining sick day, not just an unpaid day of course! - don't need to get myself fired!!).

It's ok to be tired. I think over the weekend you should try to sleep a little extra and let your body rest. Let your mind rest / wander in your dreams.

Also, i think emotionally this (fatigue) has something to do with your son being away.

Is the cantalope stuffed with cottage cheese? that will not be enjoyable, i don't think. if i were in your spot, i'd have chosen the meat :)

remember to take each day at a time, do not worry - you will do ok with the cleanse for the colonoscopy. remember to enjoy the moment (the chair yoga, the dinner, and your pushups!)

you can do this. you don't have to regain again the weight you lost and are doing such a great job maintaining. just take this weekend to rest in / sleep in when you need to.

i already feel better today with my decision and i did sleep in a couple hours and i'm glad i made this decision to not go into work today! Today is just a way for me to catch up and have a bit less to accomplish this weekend.

When my trip comes up, i will be really busy and i am glad to have a low key day now, but manage some productivity in also.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/05/2019:
i think like you, i like my alone time a lot. I'm an introvert for sure. hence the feeling of happiness over this day. nothing special, but nothing rushed, also somewhat productive.


legcramps on 04/05/2019:
Are you feeling stressed? I'm not sure why you're so fatigued, but it could really be anything, or a lot of things adding up to making you feel that way. You need to rest, Donkey. And like HoP says, just take each day at a time.

I would also choose the skillet over the stuffed cantaloupe :)



Donkey - Thursday Apr 04, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

 As I was preparing my food for work, yesterday, I reread the list of low  fiber foods and saw that I only need to eat that way for 3 days before the clear liquid diet the day before the procedure.  So I loaded up on raw vegetables,  walnuts, and all the other high fiber foods I love to eat.   Friday starts the modified diet,  thank goodness. 

Completed day 3 of my push-up challenge.  3 sets of 20. The last set is still difficult to complete at the end. 

Despite going to bed earlier last night,  it was so hard to get out of  bed this morning,  feeling like I could use another hour. So I'm running a little late this morning. 

Work was still stressful and busy, even with Mistakes Girl back,  handling her own workload.   I guess it's just going to be that way until real estate calms down in the fall. 

There is a job posting for the job I do, at another firm (a blind ad)  but with retirement benefits. I was very tempted to apply,  but have decided not to.  If we move - which now seems unlikely,  any time soon - I want to be able to do that,  without feeling inclined to stay because if my job. And if I do end up switching jobs,  I am thinking of doing something else. 

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2019:
nice job making up your mind and staying at this firm where you currently are. i'm sure there are "politics" there too ;)



Donkey - Wednesday Apr 03, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

Had a good day yesterday,  but the best part is that it is over,  which is kind of sad to say.  My work load will go back to normal now that Mistakes Girl is back.  Also,  no events scheduled for the evenings until Friday when we have chair yoga. Being on a Friday though,  is not the same thing as having stuff during the work week. 

I was thinking to myself as I was walking into the library last night, that I limit myself by not doing things after work,  during the week.   Usually,  I come home,  have dinner,  ride my bike while watching TV (usually 30 minutes), weights at home, and then start getting ready for bed,  read in bed for about 15 minutes,  lights out.  Not much time for anything else. 

Like Legcramps suggested,  I would like to start developing something more for myself,  during the week,  for myself.  Now that the kids are mostly out,  I can do this.  I don't know what this would be or where to start.  

 

Speaking of kids,  we received 2 letters from my son.  He's doing well ,  although it's still very difficult.  Not camp is not easy.   It's quite different this time,  with much less free time,  but he wrote that he's feeling more confident,  and does pushups and planks whenever he can. 

 

Wish me luck as I start modifying my diet to more easily digestible foods.  I guess low fiber foods are easier to digest completely and thus easier to clean out when that day gets here. 

 

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 04/03/2019:
I'm glad to hear that your workload will be lessening up soon, and that you are thinking about taking more time for yourself during the week! My extra group sessions and my time on the couch with my air socks are what i've chosen to stock up on these last few weeks, and it's been really nice to be able to schedule that time for myself!


Horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2019:
I don't think it's sad to say that the best part is the day is over ;) it's always how you "perceive" things...like the glass half full vs. half empty! if you want the best part of the day to be that it's over...well, let it be!!! :) lol....really though! no judgements. !!! i have this male coworker, from Bangladesh, i'm always apologizing / explaining myself to him, and he reminds me that he isn't judging...something to think about.

Do you mean that Friday activities are better bc you can sleep in on Saturday? I have legs planned for Friday, but sorta frustrated bc i cannot sleep in on Saturday LOL...yes, that's a complaint! LOL


Horn_of_plenty on 04/04/2019:
My after work activities are very similar to yours. I don't like going out during the week either. I don't think it's a bad thing, but you can make changes as you wish especially now that kids are out. In general, any change you make can be gradual, as you know gradual and small changes tend to make them lasting and manageable.

About your son, i love the part he mentions about doing planks and pushups whenever he can! Soon, they'll be one of his strongest suits! Remind him that challenges in life are what make you stronger!!! :) he's doing great, i'm very happy for him. icing on the cake is having a job and not needing to go apply to jobs after being in his current training. as long as he keeps on,he'll make a career of it. that's amazing.

Good luck on your diet - thankfully it's not going to be a lasting thing and you'll be able to get back to your regular menu soon!



Donkey - Tuesday Apr 02, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

We did not get a phone call from our son on Sunday.  We hope everything is ok. 

Yesterday at work was just too much; I just didn't have the energy to fight back.  Queen Bee and Male Coworker were just too much of a force to reckon with,  so I stayed as low as I could.  Got 5 contracts and was only able to open 2. I will try to open at least one more today, but I do expect to get more  contracts today.   Mistakes Girl comes back tomorrow.

The client that dumped on me last week is just so overbearing.  My involvement with her sale is almost over, and then I will only have to deal with her purchase. That will help a lot, I hope.

 

Part of the problem this week is that I signed up for 2 free seminars at the library,  last night and tonight,  so I  cannot stay late at work, at all.  Well,  that's just too darn bad. This is for me.  I'm allowed to have a life too .  Last night was about investing.  When I got home,  husband and I had a nice talk. It felt good to know we're on the same page.  Tonight is about planning financially for long-term care,  i.e. assisted living,  memory care,  and nursing home. 

 

I have my pre-op consultation with the surgical nurse this afternoon.    Waiting to see if s/he will recommend a low fiber diet. On keto, this will be hard to do.  I'm absolutely dreading the liquid diet on Monday,  and the laxative prep Monday night. 

Did my pushups last night.   

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 04/02/2019:
one thing for now: try not to "fight back." take their bs and keep it .... it usually will come back to them at some point.

save your energy, it's not worth fighting or arguing or even making a point with QB or MC. they are typical bullies and aren't changing soon. just be you and be low in the limelight.

great library briefings - that's awesome you got to take advantage of those and yes, it's your life and i'm glad you went. you cannot always but your life on hold...good job doing exactly what you want to do! :) YES YES YES!

sorry for the pre-op. it'll be over before you know it <3 also, i doubt she'd recommend a low fiber? is this is typo??

Donkey on 04/03/2019:
No, they want a low fiber diet before the procedure. Easier to cleanse completely. If you're not clean enough inside, they give an enema and if that doesn't work, they send you home.


legcramps on 04/02/2019:
I agree - you are certainly allowed to have a life. In fact, you are SO allowed to have a life that work could even come second to fulfilling your life goals. Work is the avenue we take to better our lives financially, but bettering our lives emotionally/physically/spiritually is so important also, and we all tend to forget about these aspects far too often!

Donkey on 04/03/2019:
Whoa, this is so right, so what I've been looking for, to do and be, but keep losing my focus. I'll write more about this, but this is something I definitely want to explore and develop more!


legcramps on 04/02/2019:
Great job on the pushups!

Donkey on 04/03/2019:
Thanks! Got day 2 under my belt. 3 sets of 20 with that last set being very challenging towards the end.


Horn_of_plenty on 04/02/2019:
Listen to Legs...i'm listening too to her ;) she has such a good point. it's always important to have a constructive life outside of work....something i am considering now too...too keep bettering myself. I must remember Leg's words!

Donkey on 04/03/2019:
Exactly! I will try to keep this a main focus.



Donkey - Sunday Mar 31, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

HAPPY APRIL!  A new month, new goals, new opportunities abound!


I heard something last night that really caught my ear and made me think:  "Thank you for the privilege of your time."  When I woke up this morning, I looked out my window to see perfectly blue sky and thought, I have the whole day in front of me to do something.  

Well, as it turns out, the day has started to get cluttered with things to do.  I have to vote early today, because I signed up for 2 free seminars at the library on Monday night and Tuesday night (electon day) that I *REALLY* want to go to.  So I asked my husband if he'd like to go with me to vote, and he said he would, which makes me happy because it's more of together-thing.  I proposed that we stop at the library on the way home so that he can pick up a new library book to read, and he's good with that too.  We're becoming an old  married couple that you see roaming around town running errands.


I have a few television shows that I'd like to catch today, if I can.  One is a travel show on Scotland, one is an interview with the author of the book "Zero to Hero" about a boy who was bullied in school, but went on to be a decorated Vietnam war hero.  This is a book that I've wanted to read, but my library system doesn't have it - yet.  Depending on the interview, I am thinking about buying this book for my son, since he had a really hard time growing up.  I'd like to read it first, though, really, before I give it out as a gift.  Anyway, the TV interview is on today, so that I can do most immediately.  Because TV is so time consuming, I will also  use this time to weight train.  I will also fold and put away my laundry while watching TV. 


Speaking of laundry... This is not diet-related, but I am washing my son's bedding this weekend, and inadvertently found what ended up to be a load of his clothes (in various places on his floor, LOL), so I'm feeling a little nostalgic today too.  We are hoping he will call today.  My husband said this morning, "I really hope he's doing well."  Me too...


APRIL GOALS:

  • Daily push-ups:  3 sets of 15+ modified ("girl style") push-ups.
  • Leaving work at 5:30p or earlier.
  • Continue weight-training.  I'm pulling back on the heaviest weights I have and doing a month of mid-range instead.  Will re-evaluate at the end of the month.

 

 

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 04/01/2019:
How was your Sunday? Your April goals are awesome - especially the work-related goal of leaving at 5:30 or earlier each day. You work so much. I often feel bad if I leave early or take extra time off work, but we need to ask ourselves what our priority is. Do we really want to remember this time in our lives as the time where all we did was work, or worry about work? It's so hard to find that balance!

I hope your son is doing well - did you hear from him?

Donkey on 04/02/2019:
Sunday was pretty calm but good. Perfect for going into a stressful week. The important thing that we voted early in our local election.

Did not hear from our son.


horn_of_plenty on 04/01/2019:
Happy April! I think the weather dept is fooling us today in NYC with 37F for a high!

Lately the "busy bug" has napped me too...I think my entries might start to get weird on here and also when i respond. Feeling the trip coming as well as typical long weeks mostly until then LOL. wah wah (as you say!)

New opportunities do abound with Spring in Store!

I do think it's nice to do errands with someone sometimes! I have done it, not that often but i used to with a good friend and also here and there with guys but not often as i don't really "date" and it's fun to do things with someone else bouncing ideas and just breaking the monotony of being alone! it's nice.

yes, def read the book to see if it's worthy as a gift to your son and also so you can chat with him about it when he's done! :)

Remember to reach out to your son when you can. Don't guess how he's doing...keep in touch, write letters, send your supportive words along as often as possible encouraging him to keep his head up, act maturely, be responsible for what he says, be professional, and also to be proud of himself, how far he's come, how he'll keep producing success as long as he keeps trying and keeps his head up and studies? just, keep him focusued but also write about some fun things, a joke here or there...things to keep him happy and down to earth i guess!


horn_of_plenty on 04/01/2019:
Keep on with those weights, good lady! ....i'm so happy where i'm at with weights. strongest i have been in MANY MONTHS! i am back to where i was before Winter.



Donkey - Saturday Mar 30, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

I can't believe I entered a whole long entry about my weigh-in and the problem at work and my pre-op challenge ahead, only to receive "504 Internal Error" when I hit "submit".  

Wow.


OK, giving this another try, in short spurts, only because I feel inspired by the lessons I learned about myself.

I am at peace with the number on the scale.  I would have liked to have seen 131, but had I seen that, I may have been inclined to try to get back into the 120s again.

Confronted the client who dumped on me on Thursday.  We had questions to ask her about her sale, and rather than hiding and not dealing with this, by having Nice Lady call the client, I took the file and made the call myself.

We talked about my questions relating to her property, and then she chose to bring up her dissatisfaction from Thursday.  It turns out that she's more frustrated with my Boss that with me.  Also, she's comparing her last transaction from 10 years ago to this one, and things have changed so much.  So I explained what I could to her and then tried to explain where maybe my boss was coming from (in fact, I know where he was coming from, but I'm done with defending other people - and I'm especially done with defending my boss).  I invited her to speak with my boss next week to address her concerns about our service.  She seemed OK with that.

Then I took extra time to answer her questions and explain more about what she'll be doing next.  She did mention that she's really stressed out about having to buy and sell.  I agreed, it's a lot to handle one, much less both at the same time.

I felt much better, and learned a couple of things for myself:

  • Don't be afraid to confront someone if there's a conflict (unless I feel it's not even worth my time).  It may just be a miscommunication.
  • Don't let stuff like this bring me down.  It only wastes my free energy when I'm not at work, so unless I'm getting paid for it, let it go.

Title Company Dave brought in Panera pastries during his customer service rounds.  Queen Bee was lamenting to me that this isn't WW friendly, that he didn't bring fruit, and we talked about how much we would have preferred fresh fruit - which he doesn't bring any more.

I went back to my desk and about 10 or 15 minutes later, walked by the boxes of Panera, and she had already taken half of a muffin top.  Yep.


 

 

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 03/30/2019:
Wow, you sure did really well on passing up the Panera. You are very dedicated to maintaining your goal and doing very well.

Donkey on 03/31/2019:
Thank you! It's not always easy, but usually, I find that it's almost always worth it.


horn_of_plenty on 04/01/2019:
i hate when an entry or comment gets deleted LOL! the worst tho!

Yes, i was just thinking relatively a short while ago of the advice that it's very important to "make peace" with yourself and love yourself as you currently are. like, that woman who posted the knee fat / knee musculature on facebook. bodies and muscles just don't change overnight and some in fact is genetics. but changes take a long time and also we cannot just "change our jobs / lifestyles" and we have to learn how to be content with our work so far, the bodies we have.

i have cellulite on the back of my legs - not big on muscle as you know on my legs. and i just know that in the summer i'll walk at beach and be happy with where i am at. you know, you have to love yourself for what you do to work your body and make it how you'd like. but, the worst thing is to wake up and hate yourself and that's why you exercise.

be happy your legs work and that your body can do the types of exercise you use to keep it conditioned. after all the work is done, you have to accept so far where you are at. nobody is critiquing your legs or any other part as much as you would.

this is the same for me. have to learn to love even the parts that are imperfect and more than we'd like.


horn_of_plenty on 04/01/2019:
See!? i told you the way she was reacting to you sounded like she was feeling upset about her own issues.....100% truth came out!

LOL Panera pastries. since when is any pastry exactly diet friendly. they must be quite large.



Donkey - Friday Mar 29, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.5

 So yesterday,  I finally managed to get caught up.  The day was exhausting,  busy,  chaotic... and then at the very end,  one of our clients - who was spazzing out all day about her transactions  - crapped all over me,  accusing me of not caring about her closings.  Just great.  So after all that hard work,  I get to go home and feel like crap. 

It is getting to the point where it's just not worth it, but I know that any other job that deals with people has the same kind of crap,  too. What is wrong with people?

I've been witnessing another work drama at a nonprofit that my boss is involved in.  The director lady has dedicated her life to this organization,  only to be fired in the end.  I get it. I mean,  she's 81, has been missing a few things,  missed the deadline for a $ 40000 grant.  My point is,  you can't give too much of yourself to your job because in the end,  they'll break your heart -- every time. 

 

I apologize for this entry this morning,  as it's not really weight loss related.   I will try to write a new entry that is more goal focused, later today or tonight,  but if I don't have time,  I'll write tomorrow after weigh-in. 

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/29/2019:
All because a client acts / reacts a certain way, try to realize she may be acting that way just because of her own things going on in her head. try not to take people's outbursts like they are all aimed specifically at you.

Not everyone treats everyone respectfully..like hello!?...Ricky!? he's so rude to the public.

don't expect to be treated well by everyone...and when they do rude things to you, try to realize they've got the problem, rather than go home feeling sour.

you are right! there's always work drama. just observe it and keep working. if you keep quiet, the drama will not be about you, most of the time.

Donkey on 03/30/2019:
I don't think I expect people to be treated well, but maybe I do? Do I start lowering my expectations of other people and prepare myself to be a punching bag?


horn_of_plenty on 03/29/2019:
Remember to stay positive, there will always be drama around you - WHEREVER HUMANS ARE, wherever you work, whatever industry, whatever town, whatever country, whatever place, whatever family, whatever anything! it's crazy, trust me, but i've seriously seen it ALL.

i've been in several industries, and teaching it seems, by far, was the LEAST dramatic. probably bc i spent only 4 years there.

but there's drama everywhere. best way to avoid it is to lay low. let the big mouths be big mouths, even if they are wrong.

it's just not worth it...unfortunately, to teach anyone any lessons otherwise, especially as in trying to teach a bully. bullies are bullies forever. now i'm just speaking in general, not to you, but from my own experiences.

life is short. remember that work is work...and that those people are not necessarily who you'd choose as friends - same as your clients. and they aren't acting like your friends.

Donkey on 03/30/2019:
I really feel like what you wrote, "There will always be drama around you, wherever humans are" should be a meditative session or two. Does that make sense? I mean, It's really something to work on accepting. You are 100% spot on.


legcramps on 03/29/2019:
Ugh, I hear you. It's so frustrating to know that there are people in the world who just don't care, or who won't take the time to realize that you're trying to help them, or who constantly vent on you instead of trying to resolve their own issues. I've had my fair share this week also, so I totally know where you're coming from and I feel for you!

Sometimes, it seems like every time you try to be positive, there is someone just around the corner ready to take you down a notch or two. Chin up! Life will be better the faster you can let it go without letting it get to you.

Donkey on 03/30/2019:
Thank you for your words of encouragement. I will write more about this, but this whole thing was a teaching moment for me. I really learned something about myself and life, in general, from this experience.


horn_of_plenty on 03/29/2019:
I agree with Leg's last few lines and that's the point i'm making too! that the evil coming outta some people is their issue and try not to let them suck you into their dark cloud!

Donkey on 03/30/2019:
AMEN.

AMEN.

AMEN.



Donkey - Thursday Mar 28, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.5

Weight training never happened last night.  Long story short,  I ended up staying late (again) yesterday to finish opening up new files.  I am quite pleased to say that all of our files are opened up.  I just have to order 2 titles,  and then Nice Lady can contact the clients to welcome them.

This peace of mind was totally worth the tradeoff,  except that then we didn't finish up dinner until 8p!  That's why no weights. 

 

So what will I do tonight?  I missed upper body last night? Do I do lower body tonight?  Or a shortened combo program?  My daughter is home today and wanted to spend time with me tonight by running some errands.  And then,  there's the possiblity that I'll have more contracts to open today!  I think I will opt to forego weights and overtime in order to come home and spend time with my family.   These days with any kids home are getting more and more limited.  I want to seize them while I can. 

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/28/2019:
Enjoy your time with family - it's ok to skip every once in awhile as in general you have your routine set up ;)

good job finishing your work and getting organized! i know exactly how nice that feels!


legcramps on 03/28/2019:
Yes enjoy your time with family; it's fleeting and one day you'll wish you had spent more time with them rather than fretting about getting in a workout. Have a great day!



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