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Donkey - Friday Apr 27, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.5

Another 10 hour day in the books, folks...  My boss even admitted that yesterday and today were brutal.

We're expecting our son to return on Monday, since he did not return today.  It will be good to see him, but I do wish he had been successful with his endeavor.  I really hope he tries again.  And of course, it will be an adjustment to have him living with us again.

Although I did not weight train this week, I did use my evenings to do nice things for myself.  One night I gave myself a hair treatment.  Another night I did a facial treament.  I'd like to do my nails tonight --- they are all about the right length that I was aiming for ("sporty short" I guess is what it's called).

Tomorrow is weigh day, but I have no hope, now that I've come to the realization that even though I eat very healthy (95% of the time), I just eat too much. 

And so even with the impending wedding on May20th, I still haven't really done much towards improving.  I know there is still time to improve for the wedding -- and definitely time to think of May goals... but still, geez!  

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 04/27/2018:
Saw your post about your son's clothes. Men's clothes are in high demand at food banks.

bearcountrygg on 04/28/2018:
Lots of new changes....just try to relax.

horn_of_plenty on 04/29/2018:
Support your son and go over options for him....he can work a decent job and live at home and maybe he should apply to the other service jobs we spoke of ?

Also you talking about doing your nails - I do mine now :) I do them at home with a file and cut when necessary and clear polish :) big improvement! Thank you.

I had been cutting them too short and picking them bc I was stressing at new job and now they are better and grown out and that personally feels much better. Truth is, it's good to care about your looks. Self presentation.

The above being said, I need to improve my footwear selection but don't yet bc I prefer comfort to heels lol and my work clothes - I feel I will start to wear jeans less I think and try to dress better too - like you did - but honestly it's $$$$ so I'll hold off .... as long as I am neat I think the clothes can come later / once in awhile.

But back to my point - doing nice treatments for yourself is wonderful and will make you feel good :)

Donkey - Thursday Apr 26, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.5

Did not get a lunch break today, so no midday walking. Sat at my desk, because I had to stick around for a closing.

So I ate at my desk. And around 2:15p that familiar craving came by. This time, I had my little container of 13 almonds and 33 chocolate chips, with a reheat of the coffee I had leftover from the morning.

And after that, I was pretty much satisfied for the rest of the day until around 6p, still at work... Didn't leave until almost 6:30p...

Tomorrow I'm getting up early again, like I did on Tuesday. Daughter has to be up early to be at the school for a band field trip. So I will stay up, exercise, and get to work early. Hopefully, I will be able to leave around 5p... on a Friday. Please!

Just now finishing up a short bike ride in the basement, as a substitute for the walk I missed at lunch today.

But I learned something important. Sometimes a little sugar treat goes a long way. BUT --- the caveat is that I can't eat the whole bag or box. I don't trust myself enough not to have an emotional point of weakness, where I end up eating everything. I often struggle with the fantasy of being able to eat it all.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/27/2018:
Now after many years of trying to eat it all....I'm finally accepting that when I eat it all...frequently...I also have an awful stomachache....now...I just remember that feeling....and it helps .

Donkey on 04/27/2018:
You'd think that would stop me, but it doesn't.

horn_of_plenty on 04/29/2018:
Yes I find small sugar treats helpful also - I can workout better etc and though I am not sure if they are necessary but I will say that it seems sugar is semi necessary in just thinking of it that we take food and digest it into energy like sugar -

I'm not saying sweets are necessary but carbs are IMO

Donkey - Wednesday Apr 25, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.5

In spite of being caught up at work yesterday, I still stayed until almost 6:30p.

Sure enough, at 2:16p, started getting that craving. I came prepared today. I had 7 almonds and most of a large apple. In my container of almonds, I brought 33 chocolate chips, at the suggestion of Bear, which is 77 calories, according to the package. But the apple and almonds worked. Then I had raw vegetables and a cheese stick at around 4p. So I consider this a success!

Certain truths became evident to me today, though. I am stuck at this right because of what I eat, i.e I eat too much! Also, if I hadn't made time to change my habits, I could easily weigh 200 lbs., which is where I almost was when I started this journey, this time around.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

graindart on 04/25/2018:
Portion control has always been my demise. I don't want 1 slice of pizza, I want half the pizza. I don't want 7 almonds, I want the entire package. I don't want 33 chocolate chips, I want an entire king size chocolate bar. I don't want a cookie, I want to eat the entire package.

I've gotten better at portion control over the past year, but there are still some foods that I pretty much have to avoid because I know that I have no self control (cookies mainly).

Good job on coming prepared with a plan of attack for your snack cravings.

bearcountrygg on 04/26/2018:
Yup...me too.....putting large portions on a plate because I would PLAN to eat them...and in actuality....wasn't hungry enough to eat them...but I WANTED them...we can alter that thinking...we can change old habits.....writing these things out here really helps me see patterns.

horn_of_plenty on 04/26/2018:
i came to the realization that i was eating TOO OFTEN at work in the mornings and that i need to cut it down to less times in the morning..

like you, if i didn't learn how to be full on less calories, healthy alternatives, i'd be overweight also.

that being said, lately i find that adding more fat into my diet has helped to lessen cravings !!!

Maria7 on 04/26/2018:
You and me, both! We may not weigh what we would preferr to weigh but we don't weigh as much as we once did! Smile!

horn_of_plenty on 04/26/2018:
you should be soooo darn proud of yourself so far, to keep your weight at this lower level...we all get complacent (especially in winter as exercise levels decrease which can lead to a little weight gain) and it DOES TAKE EFFORT and an effort to remember how hard we once worked to lose that weight at first. i'm glad i did it...and now i'm back to feeling better like i can keep on! and get stronger again!

Donkey - Tuesday Apr 24, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.5

Yesterday was such a disaster of a day at work, that I vowed to do better by me today.  I set my alarms much earlier for a start.  I usually have 2 alarms: one that goes off at 5:30a and then one that goes off at 5:45a.  Then I spend over 20 minutes trying to convince myself that it's worth getting out of bed.  In the process of this conversation with myself, I stretch my back out to release some of the tension I get overnight.

Today, I set my alarms for 5:15a and 5:30a and 5:45a.  So I turned off my 2nd alarm, stretched out my back, and got up before the 5:45a alarm went off.  I was dressed and downstairs to work out by 5:55a.  Excellent.  Finished working out at around 7:10a and got ready for work.  Left the house at 7:45a and made it to work a whole hour early at 8:02a.

Worked my butt off all day until 6:14p.  Came home, had dinner, and now I'm going to get ready for bed.  I'm going to have to put weight-training aside for a little bit -- didn't do legs yesterday, didn't do upper body today...  IDK I might try to do legs tonight, but I'm really tired from the extra long day.

Anyway - I AM CAUGHT UP A WORK.... at least for today.

I came to realize the following today:

At around the 2 o'clock hour, I start getting these really strong cravings for fatty carbs, usually sweet (chocolate) but sometimes salty (chips).  Even though I finished lunch less than an hour ago.  My lunch today was substantial - around 560 calories - with plenty of protein, fiber, and plant-based carbs (beans).  I thought I was going to go out of my mind with this craving.  I had 3 choices today:  sweet potato, grapefruit, or raw vegetables.  I settled for raw vegetables with ranch dressing (for the fat).  That carried me through 3:30p and then I felt OK.  Not really satisfied, but really full.

What can I do about this?  Yesterday, I had microwave popcorn (light).  That was the last packet, and I'm not buying more.  I've found, in the past, that if I start with the chocolates, it's REALLY hard to stop at just 1 -- it usually carries over to about 4.  Then I feel like crap for the rest of the afternoon.  I have hot chocolate that I could make, but that's not eating, that's drinking, and that doesn't work.  Sugar free candy doesn't work. I'm drinking plenty of water throughout the day, and I suppose I could chug down some more but that's not really satisfying.

I'm sure this is stress related, because at around 2pm is when I start to realize that I've got to address any deadlines that haven't already been met during the day. (I can't really tackle these sooner, unless they come to fruition on their own, because I have until the end of the business day to send out notices.)  Chewing gum sometimes helps but not always...

Maybe it's just something that I have to put up with and push through, just by the nature of what it is.  I don't know.  Half the battle is being able to identify our weaknesses, and so I'm halfway there.  Just wish I had a solution to help me get through it.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/24/2018:
I think you will figure it out......like you said.....you are half way there.

bearcountrygg on 04/25/2018:
I remember many years ago...some at WW would measure out 1 Tablespoon of chocolate chips...and eat them one at a time...I don't know the calories...but it apparently did allow them to eat them slowly.

horn_of_plenty on 04/25/2018:
for me, food is certainly a habit and delay tactic...like if i have work, my brain automatically focuses on what i'm eating or if i'm hungry...trying to overcome some of this for this year.

bearcountrygg on 04/25/2018:
WELL......I don't think I have used food as a delay tactic too much in the past......but I do use a delay tactic that works really well for me at night when I can't sleep and I'm tempted to get up.......I tell myself that I can get up if I want...but if I do...I have to scrub the kitchen floor....funny how that puts me right back to sleep...FAST! I know this has nothing to do with food...but maybe you can figure out something else that works the same way.....non food related...like...commit yourself to working on work...for 10 more minutes...and then you can get up and go get a glass of water...or a cup of coffee or tea....or you will switch jobs for a minute and instead shred a paper or something..just to get away and move around a bit.

Donkey - Monday Apr 23, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.5

I can see that after today, I'm going to have to come up with an approach for this real estate season, to help me maintain a healthy work-life balance.  Today I knew as soon as I woke up that I couldn't wait for the day to be over.  And sure enough, I struggled all day long, trying to keep up with emails and keeping the files straight.  I didn't feel confident enough to leave until 6:15p.  At least I do get paid overtime, so there's no great loss without some gain.  And the extra money will be very helpful coming into the home stretch this month.  (finger's crossed - hoping for an improved financial situation come June)

I cannot do the low carb thing that my husband is doing (as a result of being busted with eating pizza for lunch).  At around 2pm my sugar levels drop and my stress levels rise, and I can't function.  I think if I were doing something else in the aftenoon, I would be able to pull through.  Today, I had a 100-calorie bag of popcorn -- promptly burnt most of it in the microwave but that didn't stop me from enjoying it.  BUT I think for the remainder of the week, I will use sweet potatoes (halves), and see if that does the trick.  I think the problem was that I didn't have any meat, and the plant-based protein I had wasn't enough to sustain me.  Meat tends to just sit in my stomach like a rock.

So today was a not a good day, living wise, but overall, life is pretty good.  But I *do* definitely have to put limitations on my time at work.  It might have to be working until 6pm..... I hate that.  And I don't want to come in really early because that's when I exercise.  

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 04/23/2018:
Corn is what we feed farm animals to fatten them up... seeet potatoes are super yum

Donkey on 04/24/2018:
Good point - I had forgotten that...

happy-1 on 04/23/2018:
And try pea protein!

Donkey on 04/24/2018:
What? I'll have to do some research on that. IDK if it tastes like peas... :-/

bearcountrygg on 04/24/2018:
The brain needs carbs, the muscles need protein and the joints need good oils......I think we suffer when we don't get enough...maybe a good multivitamin would help...but there is no better medicine than food............hope you have a better day today.

Donkey on 04/24/2018:
More on this in my diary today (4/24)...

horn_of_plenty on 04/24/2018:
Give yourself the balance yes.

Donkey on 04/24/2018:
Trying -- I need to set boundaries, I think.

happy-1 on 04/24/2018:
No it's super bland. More like rice flour. It's a great hormone-neutral plant protein source.

Donkey - Sunday Apr 22, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.5

Not feeling particularly energetic or spectacular today, but I still had an AWESOME cardio performance this morning, weight training session, and accomplishments in yard work!  Sunny and warmer weather -- not actually warm, but warmer at upper 50's -- really does me well.  

I already did my upper body weights today, and I used my heavier weights.  I'm going to try to use the heavier weights this week, for upper body.  I only use my own body weight with my lower body -- not so much so that I don't bulk up - but rather because of my hips, knees, and back.  I took a "before" picture of my tree trunk legs.  I want to see where I'm at by the time the wedding comes on May 20th.  I remembered yesterday how I was going to use the wedding as a "goal" event, but that disappeared after the bridal shower, as I came away feeling sad, rather than empowered and motivated like I thought I would.  That I remembered that I could still use the wedding as a "goal" kind of cheered me up yesterday, actually.

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/22/2018:
Goals can be very powerful if we use them!!! It's a good goal.

Maria7 on 04/22/2018:
Hope you have a good day and I know you are happy that you are having sunny and warmer weather.

graindart on 04/22/2018:
I have to have goal dates to look forward to. Otherwise I don't have anywhere near as much motivation. I sometimes meet the goal by the date and sometimes don't, but it does help keep me motivated. Even when I'm not to goal by a determined date, chances are I'm further along towards it than I would've been if I hadn't had the date / goal set.

Horn_of_plenty on 04/22/2018:
i wish you wouldn't hate your legs as much as you do....are they full of muscle?

if not - remember this: weights will NOT cause women to bulk up. So if you able, weights can be used at times. However, there's many exercises that you don't even need them for...so you are probably more than ok with whatever you are doing.

I dislike some things my legs a little too...they have no muscle. but, due to my persistence in doing lots of exercises that i don't even enjoy, certain things are getting better :)

Donkey, it's up to you to want to make yourself happy. It's not easy. I face a lot of the same issues with social events. But remember this, you ARE in charge of your own happiness. I totally think you should make the wedding a goal :)

And then, besides that, remember that it's one point in your life...and not the end all be all....but do your best and if you do your best, you can be happy about it.

I also have the wedding in August, and i have a goal to look good there, too.

Right now, i'm not going on any special diet and may not even closer in August...my goals this year are to get my cardio back to par and i'm thinking i may lose a few pounds doing that....

anyways, we both know fad diets aren't the best...so i wouldn't recommend you go crazy just to have weight come back on afterwards? so, instead, i recommend you keep on doing your thing...and yes keep the wedding as your goal of the "why" you do what you do know. I agree with Gains...goal dates help immensely.

and after the wedding, you have to pick a new reason "why."

actually, with most of my exercise, i've always had a reason "why."

horn_of_plenty on 04/23/2018:
we had that same sunny and warmer weather as you...so helpful for being able to stay outside longer :)

Donkey - Saturday Apr 21, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.5

Did the right things, gained another pound...

EVENING EDIT:  It was a productive day:  legal clinic in the morning, yard work in the afternoon, laundry.  I *really* wanted to see the high school musical tonight -- it is the last one that will have any friends of my daughter's since they all graduate next month.  However, I missed the matinee this afternoon because of the yard work.  And I just felt too rushed and conflicted to go this evening, for the last performance.  "Once Upon A Mattress".  I don't know the script, other than it's based on the fairy tale, but I just love the gal who has the lead.  

Alas, I had to really dig deep and evaluate my priorities. Truth be told, after the busy and stress-filled week I've had at work and with family, I just need some calm, down time tonight.  So instead of going to the musical, I took a walk with my daughter, and we're all just chilling out here tonight, doing our own thing.

I hope to go to sleep early tonight, 9:30p tops.  

Progress as of today: 53 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!

graindart on 04/21/2018:
Stupid scale.

Donkey on 04/21/2018:
&*$# scale!!!

Donkey on 04/21/2018:
(and it's not just my scale, because I weighed myself on my husband's scale too...)

graindart on 04/21/2018:
Don't fall into the trap that has often got me in the past. Don't say "screw it" and just go into a full-on unhealthy eating binge due to being unhappy about things I'm not fully in control of (surrounding people, the magic scale, water retention, etc). Keep control of your food for one more week and I'd bet the scale repays you for your effort. I'm saying this as much for you, as for me. Have to keep reminding myself to keep plugging along even when temporary setbacks make me want to give up.

Donkey on 04/21/2018:
Yep, thought of you when I saw the number: "This is what Gains is talking about..."

I'm thinking it might be water retention from the consistent weight training I've been doing. Like you, I changed up my routine a bit, and also took all the movements much slower, to feel the muscles get to the point of fatigue. Thought I'd wake up really sore, but not really.

Still, I remain hopeful to start seeing some progress on the arms and tree trunk legs.

Horn_of_plenty on 04/21/2018:
do the right things for longer D....you can do this. i'm doing it...keep on.

Donkey on 04/21/2018:
Yes, this I must do. I really haven't done too much different this week, except for the upper body weight training and lower body isometrics.

Warmer weather will bring a change in routine. I'm kind of excited to see where this summer will take me :-)

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2018:
Just keep it up...it will adjust.

Donkey on 04/21/2018:
"Just a snapshot in time"... Yes, I will keep going. I *know* in my heart that I can do better than this.

happy-1 on 04/21/2018:
I wish you look at bodyfat, not just pounds.

happy-1 on 04/21/2018:
And that must be one heck of a highschool theater troupe if you actually want to see a play that doesn't have your kid in it!

horn_of_plenty on 04/22/2018:
It's similar to princess and the pea and very funny !!

Donkey - Friday Apr 20, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.5

Thank you for the very helpful feedback to my previous entry.  My time is short here this morning, but I wanted to thank you.  I hope to write more tonight regarding my insights on my son's decision, not so much what he will be doing, but rather, my reactions & pro-actions so that he is encouraged and motivated to keep moving forward.  I realize I can't make his choices for him, but I do recognize that how I act & re-act could influence him significantly.  Encouragement and kindness go a long way, sort of thing.

EVENING EDIT:  Whatever positive feelings I was having this morning have totally vanished after 9 grueling hours at work.  I think I was going to comment that if my son decides to try to re-enlist in 6 months, and USE the 6 months at home to train, that this would be motivation for me to work harder too.  I can get a pretty decent gym membership at the park district, but it's not really convenient for me to get to.  I can buy a punch-card for personal training sessions, which might be a worth investment of money for myself.

The biggest blow today came from a family arguement about my husband's eating.  You might be thinking, "I thought Donkey said she was at work for 9 hours today."  YES, you are RIGHT -- but that didn't start a HUGE flare of texts between myself, my husband, and my daughter, who caught my husband eating a pizza.  He lost (some) weight to qualify for the hip surgery, still has at least 25 pounds to go to where he can be just out of the "obese" category.  So he has supposively been trying, but I haven't seen much progress on the scale, quite frankly, since his surgery in November.

It's not so much the "cheating" with the pizza, as it is that we just had a discussion about how he needs to lose weight as there are certain physical things that are harder to do when one is so fat in front.  I have lost all of the weight that I can, which is nearly 55 pounds, and I have a bad back.  So I feel like I've done my part, now he needs to his part, and he's not.

The other thing that REALLY irks me is that he wanted a "date night" and I suggested pizza, and he said he wasn't really in the mood for pizza, doesn't really think about pizza much any more, blah blah blah.  And then this.  

So yeah, he chose a pizza over me.  That's pretty much how I see it.

My daughter went out with friends tonight - thankfully - so it was just he and I for dinner, and believe me, I did not feel much like eating, much less with him, but I did, because I was a little hungry.  I had a big salad w/croutons & dressing and a sweet potato w/butter.   I didn't want anything to do with the steak that he had prepared. WOW I hadn't realized out "beefed" out I was.  It was so nice to have a meatless meal for a change.

So now I'm thinking that I'm under no obligation to eat everything that he cooks.  He's a meat-eater. If the meal doesn't have meat, it's not a meal.  I can just have the vegetables and open a can of beans.  I think I'd like to try this more often and see where it takes me. I'm not sure how I would formulate this.  Maybe eat meat dinners 3x a week?  4?  

It's difficult, especially because the high-protein low-carb works so well for me, appetite wise (definitely helps decrease the binge eating), but every time I've tried to go vegetarian (not vegan - just cutting out the meat), it's backfired on me  BIG TIME.  And by BIG I mean, gaining weight back again.  And that's NOT going to happen again...

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 04/20/2018:
I'm sure you will all be happy to see each other....

happy-1 on 04/20/2018:
Hugs. I think if you do what you need to do for your own health and happiness, your son will too.

graindart on 04/20/2018:
I didn't know re-enlisting was an option. If so, he knows exactly what he needs to do between now and then and exactly what the requirements are. As long as he stays focused on surpassing those requirements, he should be able to do that handily in 6 months of working out from home. (In between working some local job for 6 months.)

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2018:
I also believe that if he wants to reinlist...if that is an option...that having a job...and then working out in his spare time is a good way to go.

bearcountrygg on 04/21/2018:
NOPE...you DO NOT have to eat something someone else makes...unless you want to.

Donkey - Wednesday Apr 18, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.5

It's late, for me, so this will be short.

Lunch was surreal. The original lunch with the realtor, was canceled because of the weather, but I didn't bring a lunch to work. So the attorney took the assistant and myself out to lunch. I felt like I was a third wheel on their date, lol. Had a wonderful chicken wild rice soup, half a chicken sandwich, and a small fresh fruit cup. I have other half of sandwich for lunch tomorrow.

Came back to the bad news that my son will be coming home. He was unable to pass the push up test and he is out of extensions.

So really full and bad news don't really go well together. Add in a bunch of really crazy emails, clients, agents... Well, today kind of sucked.

Didn't let that stop me from doing some additional cardio on the bike tonight and then lower body isometric. I'm determined to work on my tree trunk legs.

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 04/19/2018:
Hugs. Sorry he couldn't pass the test but he will have learned a lot.

Donkey on 04/20/2018:
DEFINITELY! Thank you for your kind words of solace.

bearcountrygg on 04/19/2018:
Hope you feel better today.......Your son will figure out what he is suited for...in the mean time..I'm sure you can find plenty of things for him to do around the house to keep him occupied while he is looking for a job.

Donkey on 04/20/2018:
I feel very positive for my son, depending on what choices he makes for himself when he gets home. He'll be at a crossroads for his future. But that's not to say that there won't be other crossroads in his future.

horn_of_plenty on 04/19/2018:
i agree, your son has learned a lot...

...there are many civil service jobs he can continue to train for: Police, Firefighter, Garbage, Court Officer, different types of police - like highway patrol, specialized, etc..

he is first a man, not a woman like myself, so he already has a better strength advantage for these tests. If he can still live at home and train himself with running and more gym strength training, he can pass those fitness entrance exams and have a job for life...something i haven't been able to achieve now 80% due to my lack of fitness. He is young, can train...get a simple job at home just to make some cash for now, and have a good job for all the years to come - if this is what he's looking for. that's just how i view the world, of course there's many other options. also, i am truly very sorry to hear your son didn't pass. but he's young and this is not the end of his life!!!!!! he can go on and he will be ok.

Donkey on 04/20/2018:
See my comment below :-)

horn_of_plenty on 04/19/2018:
please don't be offended by those jobs i list, that once again is how I personally view the world..i feel those are good jobs for people who are somewhat active and who'd rather not study to have other occupations.

Donkey on 04/20/2018:
No offense taken- I know exactly where you're coming from. And my son would agree that he's no academic. At least not right now he's not. So the jobs you mentioned are more suited to him. More of a doer than a thinker.

horn_of_plenty on 04/19/2018:
oh and not desk jobs.

Donkey on 04/20/2018:
(LOL - agreed!)

graindart on 04/19/2018:
Good job pushing on with your cardio. While you can't control the other aspects of the life around you (work, son, etc), control of your own health is mostly up to you.

Donkey on 04/20/2018:
Thank you - and good point! Some days I think cardio is the only thing keeping me sane. At least it helps dissipate the anxiety.

Maria7 on 04/19/2018:
Think of the Serenity Prayer. That is what I do a lot and it really helps me to look at things in perspective. Have a good evening.

Donkey on 04/20/2018:
That is a really good idea. I have a coin by my desk that has the Prayer on it. It caught my eye last night. I'm going to do what Happy does with her meditations: holding the coin, reciting the prayer and just let it sink in.

Donkey - Tuesday Apr 17, 2018
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.5

Today was a MUCH better day. Unfortunately, my boss did not have a good day today.  I even commented that I was sorry that it seemed as though he had "caught" the bad day I had yesterday.

So I had a very good workout this morning -- had my Fitbit on my shoe to count my bike strides.  (The Charge HR that I have can't distinguish different types of workouts -- one of the downsides of the model I have, which is why I really want to upgrade, but I'm not ready to let this one go yet.)  Did pretty well eating wise.  Excellent on the water intake.

My one co-worker who is an older male (but not one of the attorneys) noticed my new pants:  "Oh,  you're wearing pants that fit!  What are you, a size 0?"  I know that sounds kind of catty, but this time, it didn't honk me off, because I think he really meant this as a congratulations/way-to-go thing.  Two weeks ago, he saw me looking quite unhappy when I realized that the pair of old pants I was wearing would no longer work and had to be retired, which is what prompted me to buy new pants in the first place.  So I didn't tell him what size I am (but I will tell you:  8 petite), but told him no, it's an actual number that's even.

Funny thing, two days of wearing pants that fit and Queen Bee hasn't said a WORD.  I'm not sure if she hasn't noticed or if she has noticed and just opted not to say anything -- which is FINE by me.  The skeptic in me thinks she has opted not to say anything, because she usually notices EVERYTHING.

Tomorrow, I am going out to lunch with one of the attorneys and another assistant, to meet up with a real estate agent who just had a major heart attack.  This is for marketing purposes.  So I got the name of the restaurant and just looked up the menu online -- it's a sports bar - ugh! - which means bar food.  Great.  Well, maybe I'll get a salad...

I'm going to do some weight training and then get ready for bed.  No staying up late tonight for me - everything seems to go better when I get more sleep.

Progress as of today: 54 lbs lost so far, only -4 lbs to go!

graindart on 04/17/2018:
Glad your day went much better today. Like you said, I'm sure your older male co-worker meant that as a compliment and probably has no idea what sizes women actually wear.

happy-1 on 04/17/2018:
You could always tell the queen bee "It must be nice that she wears stretchy pants. They are always so forgoving when we put on a few extra pounds. Very few people have said anything."

You know, if you are evil like me.

horn_of_plenty on 04/18/2018:
I agree 100% with Grains! He was just totally 100% complimenting you on your new pants and their look on you! Don't be embarassed, take the compliment! When you take a compliment, it will make you feel GREAT - which is SO DESERVED on your end! :)

you don't need to apologize for your boss getting sick...it may have been from you or it may not have! :)

stay strong, J donk!

Great job on your exercise and good luck at the lunch today!

bearcountrygg on 04/18/2018:
Well ...it sounds like Queen Bee has her nose out of joint.......hahahaha

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