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Donkey - Thursday Mar 21, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

Logging in from work, because I do not see that I will have time to log in later.

Had an awesome leg workout yesterday!  Still not quite seeing the results I think I should be seeing, though.  Finished up the branched chain amino acids and will not reorder them.  As I mentioned when I started my "Advocare" experiment last year, I wanted to see if I could find Advocare supplement products for cheaper (i.e. same stuff, but different brand) and have results.  I wanted to prove to myself that one does not need to spend a $$$ fortune on Advocare stuff in order to successfully lose weight.  I have proved that to myself.  Unfortunately, now the next new thing in MLM is "Thrive" products.  I'll pass.  I really hate gimmicks like that.

I"m still struggling with fatigue.  It's a very odd feeling - I'm not tired, like I didn't get enough sleep.  And it's not the muscle achy that I get after weight training - it's not that.  It's almost like a tired feeling from not eating enough, but I *AM* eating enough -- in fact, I'm finding myself not really hungry, but eating because it's time to eat and because I like to eat.  

I am scheduled to be scoped in April.  The GI doctor said she is concerned about elevated lipids in my liver, i.e. signs of fatty liver.  She wants more blood work.  I looked at my test results and I didn't see anything that indicated there was a problem there.  I sent my test results to my mom, who is a retired nurse, to look at the blood work.  Doing a little Google research (for what it's worth), I'm already doing the right things to fight against fatty liver, although I suppose I could cut back MORE on red meat.  But cutting back on red meat won't help my anemia.  

Tonight is no weights, so I will be spending some time with my daughter on her night off, which isn't very often I get the chance to do something like that with her.

EDIT:  Queen Bee, who made a HUGE deal about going on Weight Watches - on and on, blah blah blah -  has been seen eating shamrock sugar cookies at work and ordering French fries and cheese curds at Culvers for lunch.  


Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2019:
Well hello! lately time is just FLYING! the days are turning into weeks and into months! Is it me or did March just begin Yesterday!?

now that you've stopped the Aminos, i have started, though i just realized i forgot to take them on the regular while i'm working out as of late! oops! i did it more for the taste, though...and for something else besides water and setlzer. not sure i'll continue either, but i did buy a lot...they don't all taste that great i have noticed!

i am also struggling with fatigue though i am starting to actually feel better now that the week is done tomorrow :) i tried pretty hard to get to bed earlier the past couple nights and it has helped immensely. i think i've also begun to get used to the time change. i also think my own fatigue was due to hormones / TOM.

Donkey on 03/22/2019:
My aminos were in capsules. I would take 2 after my morning bike ride and 2 after my evening activity (weights, bike, walk). I was taking them -- again because of the Advocare test but also to help with the fatigue, but protein isn't really the issue with me.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2019:
about the eating, i have noticed that if i eat a hair (not a mountain!) more of carbs, i feel less exhuasted...

Donkey on 03/22/2019:
Well..... Right now I'm sticking with keto. And if it turns out that I have a fatty liver -- or that I have a genetic tendency towards a fatty liver, I don't think I'll be going back to carbs unless it's a big thing (like my birthday CAKE)...

Horn_of_plenty on 03/21/2019:
Enjoy your time with your daughter! I may actually just do legs (lower body) 2x a week instead of 3x for now on...for awhile. we'll see how it works for me!

so Queen Bee will soon find another diet to start & never finish! LOL.

better QB do this than either of us! yuck...no need to lose all the weight just to gain it back, just horrible.

Donkey on 03/22/2019:
I'm looking forward to hearing what Queen Bee's next diet will be - LOL! I probably shouldn't be too hard on her. Maybe she was using her extra "freebie" weekly points or something.

I was watching her today (her back was to me) and I was trying to decide if she has lost any weight. I could not tell yet.

Donkey - Tuesday Mar 19, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

Logging in today from HOME because I have TIME!  Doctor's appointment is at 10am.  I am taking this free time to do ME things and enjoying every minute of it!

My husband and my daughter are in Chicago to watch my son get sworn in again to enter the Air Force.  At least that's what we hope.  He was told yesterday that he was a no-go because he had a band-aid on his finger.  So after spending 3+ hours in Urgent Care to get a doctor's note to say that this was not an open wound.  Hopefully, that was acceptable to whomever the decision maker is about these sorts of things.  My son has the worst luck of anyone I've ever met.  My husband just texted me to say that it's a go.  He'll be sworn in at 10am.  RELIEF.

With this extra time, I decided to do my upper body routine with heavy weights this morning.  This will make the evening more relaxing, especially if I end up staying later at work to catch up on emails.  I was motivated and enjoyed the workout, although now I feel a little sore in my arms.  That's OK.  If I want, I can do some exercises tonight with lighter weights.  Funny how all this weight training using heavier weights isn't bringing the results like 30 days' worth of push-ups.  I never thought about adding push-ups to my routine.  Hmm...

Yesterday was so stressful at work.  I have 2 computers that I use, one has Windows 7 and the other has Windows 10.  I don't use the one with 10 - even though it's the better computer - because my templates are not saved on that computer.  Well, yesterday, our lawfirm database wasn't working on my old Windows 7 computer, so I had to try to work with the Windows 10 computer while trying to fix my 7 computer, while fielding calls and actually work.  It wasn't just my computer, but not all of the Windows 7 computers were affected.  Male Co-Worker ended up going home and getting his laptop to install the lawfirm software because he could not get it to re-install on his work computers.

After this fiasco, I decided NOW was the time to start copying templates that I use to the 10 computer.  So I went home for lunch and got my thumb drive and stayed late at work to copy files.  I suppose eventually I will transfer them over to the hard drive on the 10 computer, but at least I have them now, and they are portable.  The bright side of all of this is that I put in enough extra time at work to make up the time I will lose this morning because of the appointment.  So no losing sick or vacation time for me - YAY!

It's all about balance!

Funny thing about this morning is that I realize that if I worked part-time, I could manage to do the things that I like to do and have availability for my husband AND still have something to keep me in the game.  I was uplifted today by a post in one of the fitness Facebook groups I belong to, where the lady is turning 56 and getting ready to start her new job as a pilates instructor.  How cool is that?  One of my biggest real fears is that I will be in my early 50s and out of a job.  Once you are 50, it is REALLY hard to find a new job.  This is not a myth.  I have this first-hand from many people who have been in this position.  That is one of my biggest fears about leaving the job I have now - if we were to move and I'd be unemployed, 49, and looking for a job.  However, I might be in that position anyway if my boss decides to retire.

I think Someone is trying to tell me something...  It is my true belief that God speaks to us all the time.  We just have to know how to hear Him.


Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 03/19/2019:
You could definitely add push ups to your routine. If your arms aren't at least a little sore after a heavier weights session, then you're either not doing enough or not lifting enough :)

And I don't mean sore as in "holy something in there is very painful and feels torn or broken", I mean "oh when I touch that spot it feels kinda tender, and geez it kinda hurts to bring that cup of coffee to my mouth".

I think it's awesome that your friend is starting a new job as a pilates instructor. That's why i've been working so hard to get my fitness certification in now, because when I retire from my full time job, I want to be able to continue what i'm doing as a coach.

Donkey on 03/21/2019:
Thank you - I think I will add them in April.

innerpeace on 03/19/2019:
Great job for your son, I hope he likes it. My son is in the air force stationed in Georgia, he will be going to Hawaii in August. I don't think he particularly likes it but he is afraid he won't be able to find a job in the civilian world at 33.

and by law employers are not supposed to discriminate age, so you know you can get a job...you probably don't look a day over 25. lol.

We have windows 10 now and it takes a bit to get used to, good luck with that. Great job on your weight training.

Donkey on 03/21/2019:

Horn_of_plenty on 03/19/2019:
You should enjoy YOUR time AM. I'm glad you are able to have a bit of time before your appt. Wishing it goes well for you.

Congrats again to your son. Keep motivating him. It can be a struggle, but it will be so great if he continues on...

I highly recommend pushups. if you cannot do them yet, doing ones on your knees or even "wall pushups" is a start. pushups do wonders.

we were JUST talking at work (my supervisor and i) how we need to save all the files so she especially will be able to take them with her when this project finally ends (not close yet!)

yeah, i have heard that employers do not generally like to hire older, but, i will tell you that where i work now, i have seen 50's get hired..so..not sure what to say about that!

Donkey - Sunday Mar 17, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

Wow, I had a great upper body workout last night -- who thought I would ever say that?  So, the way I have my weights set up is that I have my bench and heavier weights downstairs in the basement, and then I have a floormat and medium weights (8lb dumbbels) in my bedroom.  I did 2 sets of heavy weights downstairs, while watching reruns of the Great British Baking Show -- falling in love with the show all over again -- and then went upstairs to watch the news (I'm a news junkie) and do 2 sets with lighter weights upstairs.  Same exercises -- added one more exercise for the back -- but with lighter weights, and I felt like that gave me an extra "oompf!"  

I would like to see if I can sustain this during the workweek. 

I might try to take a walk outside today.  It's still quite chilly (40F) but nice and sunny.  I want to see if there are any new houses for sale in the area too - LOL...

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/18/2019:
i like your idea of using the heavy weights first and following up with lighter weights. I didn't know what you meant earlier entry when you wrote to mix up heavy and light. i thought separate workouts for each type on different days but if it's more like one workout with combined elements, i find that a great option and beneficial to start out heavier and do more sets later with more reps. good deal here.

Back is very important. my fave back exercise i stopped doing as it required two types of machines (2 options) at the gym. however, i do recall there is one exercise i sometimes do, when i'm thinking about it. also, i Do always stretch my back. it's important for us - office workers.

i was walking yesterday do. it was around 37F. i brought along all the essentials including some foot warmers in my shoes. so i was comfortable :) also the sun helps.

legcramps on 03/18/2019:
Great job on the workout! Glad you are back to enjoying them rather than feeling lethargic and low energy. Did you figure out what the culprit was?

Donkey - Saturday Mar 16, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 133.0

Slowly coming back down in numbers.  It was a good week, eating-wise.  Good choices, good portions, for the most part.  Trying to cut out the sugar-free hard candies in bed while I read at night, before bed.  I'm down to just one, and hopefully I can do something to eliminate that last one.  I really would like to see myself back - solidly - in the 120s, though.

As I mentioned in my last entry, I have been battling fatigue this week.  Not so much as being tired, as just feeling exhausted in my muscles - but can't say it's muscle-related, per se.  It just goes that deep.  I had to curtail my 2nd lower body weight routine on Tuesday because I just didn't have the energy and just wanted to go to bed.  Felt the same way Wednesday but forced myself to do a full workout on the upper body because my favorite episode of Star Trek TNG was on.  Otherwise I do not think I could have made it.  

I read in a Facebook group that it's good to mix up heavy and light weight workouts.  I was wondering if I did my weekend upper/body splits with heavy weights... of maybe doing my workday workouts with lighter dumbbells. Especially with work starting to get busy, I've been coming home later each day, with dinner time being around 6pm instead of 5:30p this past week.  

Legal clinic this morning was pretty much a waste of my time - a whole Saturday morning, gone *poof*.  The organization is in a prolonged state of change and the disorganization that comes along with change.  It's not really rewarding any more, except that I really like the people that I work with at the clinic.  We've been together as a cohesive group for about 9 years now.  Funny, we really do not do anything together outside of clinic, which meets 1x a month, for 10 months out of the year.  Yet, I really look forward to meeting up with these folks and hearing what's going on in their lives and such.

Well, at least I have the rest of my weekend for myself, and I do plan to enjoy it and make the most of it!

Progress as of today: 53.5 lbs lost so far, only -3.5 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/17/2019:
Same here, i'm working on better choices and taking off a little bit of weight to feel better in my body and clothes!

Let me tell you, i was battling that same, horrible fatigue. I'm feeling MUCH better after sleeping in on the weekend, LATER than usual...so i'm sure it's that we are STILL getting used to the time change as the time i slept in till both yesterday and today is when i would have gotten up if there wasn't a time change (9am today and yesterday, but it would have been 8am without the time change)...so i'm still used to the previous time, if that makes sense!

Donkey on 03/17/2019:
That makes complete sense to me - and it's helpful to know that I'm not the only one feeling like this.

Yep, catch those little extra pounds now before it becomes more and harder. I know you can do this. As daylight increases and weather warms up, this will become easier and easier to do. I know you got this!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/17/2019:
personally, i'd just choose one way to do the weights. and stick with your routine. i feel once you have a routine, stick with it for a few months. but too much switching for me would be too confusing to stick with...

i agree that even a half hour change in getting home and dinner does conflict with exercise lol...!

I certainly do hope you are enjoying your weekend. days are getting longer and warmer and that's a wonderful thing.

i plan to take advantage of free events locally more this year!

Donkey on 03/17/2019:
I would like to talk about my upper body weight training last night in today's entry, but I'm going to use this workweek to see if I can tweak up my routine to make it sustainable.

I really enjoy reading about the events that you attend. How was Jerry Seinfield? Not free, for sure, but I bet it was a lot of fun! I've always wanted to partake in free stuff like that, but unless one of my kids or myself were involved, I haven't. I feel like this is something I would like to do more of.

Donkey - Friday Mar 15, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 134.5

Logging in from my phone, which I hate doing, but I will not have time to do so otherwise.  I had intended to log in at work, but it's getting too busy now to do that.  I get caught up on emails,  turn to a task, and come back to 9 more emails.   The last week of March, Mistakes Girl is going on vacation,  which means even more work for me....  Lots of overtime, but I'd rather be not so busy. 

Not stressed out but Monday is the last day I will see my son before bootcamp.  Tuesday is my doctor's appointment with the GI doctor. 

On top of everything,  I've been fighting this awful fatigue. Feeling so drained every morning, and some afternoons,  although yesterday I was on overdrive to get everything done.

Then, just this morning I realized that I have legal clinic on Saturday so  I won't be able to sleep in to get extra rest.

Eating has been ok but had to abbreviate my 2nd weight training espisode on Tuesday - legs - because I was so tired.  No hopes for a good weigh-in tomorrow.

Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/15/2019:
OMG you wrote an entry!!! wooohoooo....will be writing soon MORE comments :) just happy to see a return of our Jdonk!

Donkey on 03/16/2019:
Trying! It's so hard lately, to find time to gather my thoughts and not be too tired to sit down and write. I read entries here every day -- multiple times. I miss everyone!

horn_of_plenty on 03/15/2019:
I have been also feeling HORRIBLE this week. It's def the hour time change which has also been disastrous for me and my coworker Maria. both of us are feeling just horrible, so i can relate.

Soon the WEATHER will change for the better, and it will help both of us along. It's been a long, cold Winter and the time change hasn't helped!

Donkey on 03/16/2019:
You know, it NEVER occurred to me that this might be because of the time change, but now that you mention it, it makes complete sense!

legcramps on 03/15/2019:
Must be something with the moons, I haven't been feeling myself either. Just take the rest when you can get it, and do what you can. No one need ask for anymore than that.

Donkey on 03/16/2019:
That's right - that's all I can do. I will comment more on this in my entry today. Thinking of making a change - again - to weight routine.

Donkey - Sunday Mar 10, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 134.5

Feeling pretty good this morning!  Yesterday, I had this awful feeling of fatigue that I just could not shake off until after dinner - when it's almost time for bed!  Pushed through my bike rides and upper body weights.  I did much better last night with sweets cravings.  It was my husband's birthday, so I made him a dish of brownies, per his request, and I thawed out some of my chocolate keto cake for myself.  I was satisfied with that.

I am happy to report that I think I have found a (natural) sweetener that will work for my coffee:  Lakanto Monkfruit Sweetener.  Minimal aftertaste.  I tried giving stevia one more try this morning, and the metallic aftertaste is just... NO.  That's too bad because I believe that it is the healthiest sugar alternative out there.  Swerve does not work for me for coffee.  So I've been using Sweet N Low (saccharine), with reluctance, but it was the only thing that would work for me.  The monkfruit is not as sweet, but that's OK.  And FYI, while I usually have a sweetener in my coffee, I do not always have it.  Once in a while, I just want a cup of coffee with cream.

Today is lower body weights. I must be sure to wear proper footwear for support.  Last time, I didn't, and that lead to some soreness that I had to stretch out.  I slept pretty well, in spite of turning the clocks an hour ahead and losing that time to sleep.  I think today will be mostly spent at home, although Mr. Donkey has a movie w/discussion thing he signed up for at the library.  I'm not signed up, but I will happily take him and/or pick him up.

I received an online message from my doctor, letting me know that my ultrasound came back OK, with the exception of a 2.6cm cyst on my ovary, which is not the cause of the anemia, but something to be monitored.  She wants me to have another ultrasound in about 6 weeks to see if the cyst is changing, and to pursue an appointment with a GI doctor, which I am doing.  I want to see when the scope is scheduled, and then I will request the follow-up ultrasound. 

This is the last full week we'll have our son here at home.

Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 03/11/2019:
Yum. Saw superfood MCT oil creamer at Costco this week... looked yummy. I need that Costco Groupon deal to come around again so I can try it!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/11/2019:
I'm glad you're feeling better and the cravings are less intense. I have my weeks of that, too! you are NOT alone! Happy Bday to your Hubs!!! <3

I have heard of that sweetener. I also DO LIKE monkfruit's taste! you just have to find what works for you! :) Stevia is basically what i started with - and never stopped.

Someone at work made a joke that "everyone gets cancer" and why not just use the "pink packet" when i told him there was Stevia right there, too, and he could take it (and it's more expensive!)....i didn't like his joke either! thought it was harsh...! he was young and i doubt he has known anyone too close with it or i don't think he would've said it....but it's ok, he's ok! basically we don't know the effects of anything, but in moderate quantities i feel things are OK...so i'm not trying to worry you AT ALL. i do believe moderation is a wonderful thing!

like you, i like to change up my coffees and not always have everything tasting the same!

I've been splitting up workouts, too..it's going to have to happen for home workouts during the week as i see that sleep is simply more important than a long late night workout...i'm going to have to "workout" on more days, which, is probably healthier and will probably have more benefits! (like daily calorie burns increasing!)

Horn_of_plenty on 03/11/2019:
movie with discussion...i'm glad Mr. Donkey likes the library too! not sure about you, but by me, there are SO MANY DAILY library programs..i guess they are mostly for senior citizens!? there's like an event most days of the week!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/11/2019:
yes, proper workout gear is a MUST. i have very limited footwear i like for myself. even outside of workouts. you know i'm picky, due to previous lower body injuries i like to be comfortable with my legs and footwear!

Keep us updated with the cyst. it's true sometimes things like that may disappear...depends on many things. Keep positive and watchful!

As for your son, I am SO HAPPY FOR HIM! so proud! keep positive and remind him to stay positive and knowing it can be a difficult proccess, the training he's entering, it will be challenging, but to keep on and finish :) he's come so far already. so happy for your son!!!!!!!!!!!!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/11/2019:
i'm seeing the MCT oil everywhere, i think it's time for me to try it..

horn_of_plenty on 03/14/2019:
keep on, seems a busy time of year over here for all us DDers!

Donkey - Saturday Mar 09, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 134.5

After the week that I've had, I'm surprised that the numbers on the scales aren't higher.  I was truly expecting to see 136 this morning.  My focus this week is to focus on eating.  It's always the eating part that trips me up, LOL.  Yesterday, and specifically, last night, was the best I've done all week, with respect to sweets, nighttime eating, etc., so hopefully, I'm back on track.  I think I had better luck with low-carb eating than keto eating.  Well, weight-wise, I did better with low carb, but having the extra fat and protein with keto, the numbers on the scale are a bit higher, but I feel much better.

So Horn has been asking a couple of times when it was that I decided that I'm on maintenance.  I went back and looked at previous entries, to find that I reached my goal at the end of June 2017.  The "problem" was that after that, I went on to lose another 12 pounds.  I think my lowest weight this time around was 124 or 124.5, and even then I wasn't really thinking maintenance.  And now I am gaining weight back, still under goal, but...  

It's like I keep moving the carrot (reward) from the Donkey (me) so that I never reach my end-goal.  Maybe I'm gaining back weight so that I can keep the "gotta lose weight" mentality, because I don't know what it feels like to say, "I've accomplished this, way to go."  Most keto dieters shift from strict keto to low carb once they reach goal weight.  I seem to have done the opposite, but not with maintenance in mind.  Well... what I'm going for is a leaner look, to shed the puffiness that comes from eating carbs.  

So while I've been at goal or lower for almost 2 years, I haven't changed my weight-loss mentality. I would like to change this outlook.  Part of that is focusing on the weight training more.  So for the remainder of this month, I want to focus on getting back on track with eating (emotional eating, etc.) and changing my mentality to maintenance.  Really, this is it.  So that when we start April, I will start keeping a diary about maintenance, not weight-loss. **this may end up being boring reading material for y'all but hang in there with me!

Progress as of today: 52 lbs lost so far, only -2 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 03/10/2019:
Friday night can be a time a lot of people slip up, so nice job on making Friday night a time for better decisions!

When i first reached "goal" for my sister's wedding, that Spring in April, i did gain easily before summer just under 5 lbs and i realized i was going to have to watch it. I have only had just under 5lbs or so a gain during maintenance of my weight. I know from past experience that it wouldn't be wise to try to maintain any lower a number..

i do not believe in a puffy look when eating carbs bc the only "lean and mean" look is less body fat, IMO.

nothing you write will bore me!!! :) i love to read what you write! :)

Donkey - Friday Mar 08, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.0

This has been a REALL. TOUGH. WEEK.  At least eating-wise.  I think "thinkpositive" said it best where it's been difficult to keep my eye on the prize.  I've had a couple of things really stress me out, and my response has been to eat.  The sugar-free chocolates are gone, and most of the keto chocolate cake is gone; the rest is in the freezer not to be touched AT ALL.  I still have a batch of fat bombs, but I didn't make those as sweet this time, so they don't really do it for me as far as binge-eating on sweets.

In a nutshell, these are the things that have really thrown me off the deep end this week:

  • Ultrasound
  • Boss / Queen Bee / work - huge drama yesterday
  • Ant infestation in the house
  • Son receiving notice of his re-enlistment date, will be leaving in 2 weeks
  • Impending GI scope
  • Damn winter weather will not go away (snowed this morning)

It's been a struggle all week, mostly eating 4+ sugar free chocolates.  However, last night, I just gave up; it was my son's news (which is a fantastic thing for him!).  Finished up the last 2 chocolates, had 3 fat bombs, and then a huge piece of keto chocolate cake.  

The bright side is that I had loads of energy this morning, and I did not eat breakfast until 10:30a.  But this is not good for me, nor is it the way I want to live.

Speaking of which, I've decided that I've been eating too many artificial sweeteners.  (This is NOT what has sent me off the deep end, as my weight loss was achieved using sweeteners.  That is 100% an emotional response.)  So I've stepped away from the protein bars I usually have for breakfast.  I'm trying not to drink water with added flavor packets, etc.  That's one reason why I packed away the keto cake in the freezer...  just need to do better, but it's hard. REALLY HARD.

Progress as of today: 54.5 lbs lost so far, only -4.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/08/2019:
I think you decision below is wise to get off the aminos if they aren't do a good job. reason i like my "artificially flavored" no caffeine, no calorie Bang drinks is just for the flavors while i work out but not due to seeing any change in how they affect my muscle building.

once you start eating sweet things, you want more sweet things. so it's always good to pull back, yeah. i'm Queen of sweet things, i am sure you know! "stevia to the rescue!"

you can always freeze the fat bombs.

i totally relate to you that eating is used as a "bandaid" over the emotional situations. i do the same but work at it too. at least we know how to make healthier choices than we used to and binges are no longer as terrible in general. you've come a long way.

do you remember when you "decided" you were in Maintenance or when you reached the maintenance numbers on the scale?

Donkey on 03/09/2019:
I'm not sure I've decided that I'm on maintenance yet. I've been trying for lower numbers for so long, that I don't think I've made that change-over mentally. Part of the shifting from "weight loss" to "maintenance" is the weight training.

horn_of_plenty on 03/08/2019:
try to realize it's not as hard as you are making it! you can give yourself some credit for all the maintenance you've done so far...weight will always go up but soon the weather will be conducive to being outside longer and not stuck at home as much :)

Donkey - Thursday Mar 07, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.0

Logging in from work, because I have time here that I didn't have this morning, and I have things I want to talk about.

Completed my 2nd lower body heavy weights workout last night. So one week under the belt, and I'm so glad I'm doing this.  I've decided pretty much that I am not going to get any more refills on the amino acid supplements I was taking for "muscle recovery". I think it would serve me better to just eat or drink some source of protein after weights.  Now that I know that the muscle fatigure I was feeling is more likely due to being so anemic, rather than just depleted.

I finally mentioned this to my husband last night, but I don't think he really heard me, and so now I'm mentioning it here:  I'm rather stressed out about these medical issues.  I know that I don't need to be, at least not right now because for now we don't know anything.  And if it's just anemia, that will be OK.  I mean to say, it's not like I have cancer.  I know this logically; however, emotionally, I'm really struggling with keeping calm on the inside.  So what did I do to try to calm myself down?  Eat almost an entire bag of sugar free chocolate candy.  DO NOT DO THIS.  Even if malitol does not cause you gas or diarrhea, this is NOT a smart thing to do.  I am REALLY regretting my actions from last night this morning.

Today is picture day at work, and of course, I feel just awful:

  • Feeling so bloated from eating too much sugar free chocolate.
  • Feeling so bloated from hormone (TOM) issues.
  • Woke up with my back/hip feeling pinched, like what happened last year, that took me out of commission for 2 weeks.  I must have slept badly.  FitBit says I got enough sleep, but I couldn't tell it by the way I feel today: exhausted, sore, and in pain today.  I did some stretches at home and that seemed to help my back, but now, as I sit here, I can feel myself stiffening up again. I will need to stretch out my foot (plantar fasciitis) soon.

With the bloat, the overeating, and heavier weight training, I do not anticipate a very good weigh-in this Saturday.  However, I took a look in the mirror: very pleased with arms and legs progress - coming along quite nicely!

Well all I can do is try to do better today.  So that is what I will do.

Progress as of today: 54.5 lbs lost so far, only -4.5 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 03/07/2019:
So the reason for the soreness / fatigue was actual iron issues? is it because it's like there's less oxygen then traveling to your muscles when you need them? asking bc i sometimes feel that way... my complete physical is Monday (taking off the day bc it's also for the dentist and eye doctor! yes, many appts Monday! scheduled that way on PURPOSE and all very local but it WILL be several hours spend doing health stuff Monday :)

I've planned for a "sick day" and will NOT prob do a full exercise or long walk, but, i WILL walk to all appointments (they are all around 1/2 mile away, that's it and it's only 2 different locations!) that day...i'm not sure i'll be walking more, depends on weather..

i plan to GO TO LIBRARY :) and research Paris more between on the appts...we shall see if i change my mind!

I feel like i got to maintenance maybe a full year or so before you decided you were at maintenance...that whole first year i was still learning how to maintain especially bc i think the week into the wedding i was eating rather low cals and low cals all that last month i'm sure so i remember after reaching maintenance i was quick to gain after my sister's wedding in april 2016 (now already 3 years ago!). since then i have maintained (so 3 years i've been in maintenance - HOW LONG FOR YOU IN MAINTENANCE??). what i'm trying to say is, when you add in the weight training stuff and starting to eat diff foods, these are variables that will affect your maintenance of course!

Malitol DOES cause me gas and of course worse things!

even if you are bloated, it will NOT show in picture day ;)

I hope you feel better soon. I am glad you are noticing change in your body already, i am sure there is!

Donkey on 03/08/2019:
I am thinking that the fatigue is due to the anemia, because the amino acids didn't seem to make any difference. Maybe they did, but because of the anemia, it wasn't as effective? I just think it's money that's probably better spent on iron pills instead, LOL.

Donkey - Wednesday Mar 06, 2019
(Reduction of processed carbs & wishful exercise)
Weight: 132.0

Made it through yesterday.  I just realized that my upper body workout was the best part of yesterday, so that's saying something! 

The ultrasound was not so bad, but I am glad that it is over, and also glad that I do not have to do this on a regular basis.  Even drinking the 32 ounces of water an hour before was not so difficult.  Unpleasant, but not difficult.  My husband came with me, and I'm glad that he did.  Moral support was very helpful.

I actually had 2 ultrasounds:  one was on my pelvis, and it was so neat to see my insides: uterus, ovaries...  At one point, the tech was taking measurements of something, and without thinking I said, "OH MY GOSH IS THAT WHOLE THING A FIBROID???"  She said, "We're not allowed to say anything about the ultrasound," to which I replied, quite embarrassed, "Yes, of course, I understand, I'm terribly sorry."  I think what I was seeing was actually my entire uterus.  

The second part of the ultrasound was transvaginal.  I could not see the screen for that part.  I had to work hard to relax, but I did it quite well.  If you relax, the procedure is not painful or nearly as uncomfortable as it would be if you are not relaxed.   She kind of walked me through what she was doing ("Now I'm looking at your right ovary...").  Fascinating!  

My doctor should have these results by the end of the week.  I see a GI doctor in 2 weeks (from yesterday) to (probably) set up a scope.  THAT preparation will be difficult.  I am not looking forward to that at all.  I do not think I need a GI scope other than I'm getting old.

Getting to work an hour late was like being thrown into the deep end of a cold pool.  Phones ringing, lenders with questions, email overload.... Not the best way to start one's day under any circumstances.  In retrospect, I probably failed to set boundaries for myself (I'm not ready, I need coffee, take a message).  However, I sit right outside my boss's office, and if I say, "Take a message" then that sounds like I'm not trying, or that I'm anti-social or not available to our people.  That's the thing about my job is that I really have to be at everyone's mercy and demands.  It's incredibly unfair, but we're a service industry and that's how it goes.

Tonight is lower body weights.  I am so glad that I am challenging myself with these heavier weights.  I have also caught myself looking at pricing/offers for the local gyms, for my next step!  The best deal is in a totally inconvenient location.  The closest cheap place (I could ride my bike there) is Anytime Fitness, which is only staffed 10am-7pm.  The other really close place is too expensive and on my "Lottery List" if I ever win the lottery.  The gym with a punch-card system is farther away and not convenient.  Well, there's time to make this sort of decision later on.


Progress as of today: 54.5 lbs lost so far, only -4.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 03/06/2019:
I've had a transvaginal ultrasound before and you're right - as long as you're able to relax, it is not the worst thing to have to get done... although, for me, it's definitely 'up there' on the list LOL.

I work at two Anytime Fitness gyms, and even if they are not staffed, you should still be able to access the gym at 'Anytime'. So unless you need the staff for a specific reason, you can go whenever you want.

The other good thing about Anytime Fitness, here anyways, is that when you become a member you get access to their workout app that you can download for free to your phone. This app shows you a MILLION different exercises you can do - it even provides programs for you to follow for strength workouts - and has a short video for EVERY exercise to actually show you correct form and how to do the movement pattern. It's AWESOME and I highly recommend it - although I am slightly biased!

Donkey on 03/06/2019:
Well, like I said, it's super easy to get to, and reasonably priced. I don't think I need the gym to be staffed. I'm not sure why this is bothering me. Right now, they have a free week trial. However, I'm not going to do anything until I'm at that point. Who knows, by then we may be packing up to leave and it will be moot. (Yes, it might take me THAT long to max out on 15 pound dumbbells.)

Horn_of_plenty on 03/07/2019:
That's so awesome to hear you are now happy about lifting ... at least more than you were! That's how i look at it, too. The benefits are totally worth putting in these workouts!

It's great your husband joined you. That's a good partnership you have with him and as long as he can join you, i think it's the best option too.

Not sure if you remember, but i have training in the field of Xray tech which is similiar to sono tech. That's their typical reply to any questions about what they are looking at. Don't be embarassed, they must say that statement all day long! They might also answer something like "The dr will be the one to share any details with you, etc etc..." Believe it or not, they only take the photos, but they don't diagnose...that's the pay scale / training.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/07/2019:
Yuck to the GI scope. my father also had to do it for the first time a few years ago. he was NOT happy doing the prep procedures at home!

next time, if you have to, pick up a coffee on the way to work if you are coming late? even though you are spending money, it's a way to have it with you...or, just quickly come in and make a coffee first thing, so you don't have to think about it. this is what i do in mornings everyday at work (it works for me). you are allowed a coffee at work, even if late, there's no sign saying otherwise, if it is going to help you get your work done ;) I understand what you feel about it seems like you aren't trying - remember you are your WORST critic and that for 15 minutes people can take calls until you are settled...i think it's ok, but that's just my opinion.

Horn_of_plenty on 03/07/2019:
Personally, i believe the closer the gym, the better. Hours need to be good, too. Make sure the hours are in line with your current hours of exercise during the day. if you have to change your routine too much all at once, it doens't work so try for the most convenient is my reccomendaion.

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