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Donkey - Sunday Mar 04, 2007
(Portion control)
Weight: 137.0

I got all excited last night because the weather forecast said 40 degree weather all this week, with a high of 50 on Friday. Then I check Weather Channel online this morning and we won't reach even low 40s until Wednesday (after more snowing on Tuesday). And no 50 degrees on Friday either.

On my way to church, I notice that the walking trails need to be cleared of snow AGAIN. And with the forecasted snow on Tuesday, I doubt my running will re-commence any time soon.

Saturday, I was determined to keep my calories under 1500, which I did by not having dessert. So I weighed myself this morning, as sort of a "sneak peek" for Monday's weight-in (when I will update my Progress Bar here). Not only did I deprive myself of dessert but I also had to keep dinner small too. I would have expected some change in the scale this morning, but I was met with disappointing, familiar numbers instead.

To summarize this weekend: disappointment at every turn. (With the exception of church, which I actually felt more at home, even though it's huge and new and different.)

I emailed with Husband at work today and we are going on one of his days off (Tuesday or Wednesday) to the la-dee-dah gym (the one that costs $90 a month for a family) for a tour, a sales pitch, free passes for a day (for both of us) and accurate pricing information.

I discovered this morning that he bought 2 bags of pizza rolls (which are like fried egg rolls with pizza topping inside) last night and had some, in addition to the dish of ice cream that he had. I told him that if he continues to eat like that, I will just get a single membership at a basic gym, because I don't need all the bells and whistles that come with the comprehensive $ gym. I just need a place to do basic cardio and lift weights.

I want to see if he will use his free pass, if and when (time of day) and how it works for him, before signing up for anything. I remain skeptical, although I really do wish he'd take better care of his health. He's got about 30 extra pounds on his belly that need to come off.

Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!

greengirl on 03/04/2007:
I'm sorry your weather is so bad. Roll on summer. It seems to have been a long hard winter this year!! I agree with you about the gym. Best have a look at the flash gym first before you decide :0)


borntocry on 03/04/2007:
Hmm... well, if you're anything like me, you have to wait a while to see the result of your efforts. My weight is NEVER down after a low-calorie day. In fact, it usually takes a string of low-calorie days and then maybe one medium-to-high-calorie day for my weight to suddenly take a downward turn.

Man, those pizza rolls sound good. I've never heard of them before, but I feel like I could eat several dozen of them right now!

My husband also eats very badly - he'll eat a whole two-person pepperoni pizza and then several slices of mine, wash it down with two litres of pop and round it off with half a pint of ice-cream. And then throw in a couple of bowls of cereal just to make me suffer, haha! I wonder how we can get them to improve their eating habits before it's too late?!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/04/2007:
maybe there was a lot of sodium in your dinner...the cheese in the pizza rolls/processed foods


girliegirl6486 on 03/04/2007:
I think you and I will be stuck with the same numbers for awhile (not to be pessimistic or anything...haha). We need SPRING AND SUMMER to get here! Then you and I will start our outdoor running and BAM! that will help us tremendously.



Donkey - Saturday Mar 03, 2007
(Portion control)
Weight: 137.0

Not much new today. More snow, therefore, more shoveling. Oh well, at least I'm getting my cardio in. And I'm sure that there will be something to shovel up at the Old House, which I will probably go to on Monday for more cleaning.

I am actually looking forward to Monday's weigh-in. I went back into my records and found that on Jan. 1, I weighed 136.4. I think I might actually weigh less than that now, so that would be good. The important thing though is that I feel more in control of my eating, of portions and caloric intake. Of course, it gets somewhat tedious to have to measure everything. *sigh*

Today I signed my daughter up for summer softball. She's 6 yr old but already quite a socialite. It's funny how some people just NEED to be around other people. Right now she is craving a playmate but with winter, nobody is outside playing. This will change but it will take some decent weather. (Another reason why I'm really sick of winter!!!) At any rate, even if she is a social butterfly -- and good for her that she's not a shy loner like me -- I'm glad that she likes to be active. I love to watch live sporting events, and I even volunteered The Husband to be an umpire.

I should probably mention NOW that one of the drawbacks is the fundraising that comes along with this event. Selling candy bars.

It's a never-ending battle.

Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!

sharklover on 03/03/2007:
Thanks for pointing out that calorieking has restaurants as well as the basic foods! I found that yo be really helpful.

Come the end of this winter I bet if you never see another shovel again it will be too soon! hahaha. It seems like you've always got a driveway or walkway to shovel.

You're right, it is a never ending battle but you are winning so far! I bet it gets easier as it goes along too. :-)


WorkingIt2 on 03/04/2007:
Your daughter sounds like mine and my little nephew..they both love to socialize and enjoy having lots to do. Sorry you are getting so much snow...I am SICK of snow and cold and I don't have to shovel anything! Good luck with your weigh in!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 03/04/2007:
that's really interesting how you are "opposites" with your daughter!!! sometimes its also good to want to be alone...as she gets older, it'll be interesting for you both to share and learn things from each other!



Donkey - Friday Mar 02, 2007
(Portion control)
Weight: 137.0

I weighed in today at 135.5, but I am not changing the Progress Bar until Monday's "official" weigh-in.

I am feeling very unmotivated today. I am not going up to the old house because of the blowing snow. This wind is just out of this world. And Weather Channel says that although it's 28F outside it "feels like 12F". Well, who the **** wants to go walking when it feels like 12 degrees out?!? And even that's not so bad, but the wind is just impossible.

I jokingly said to myself at the kids' bus stop this morning, that Born To Cry would go running in this wind. I doubt she would go with the cold and snow and ice though. The sidewalks are totally impossible with thick sheets of ice on them. I nearly fell on my butt walking home and had to switch to walking in the street.

So I don't know what to do today. I do not feel like unpacking more toys. I suppose I will try to wash floors here by hand in the bathrooms. Yay. < Today would be a great day to sit in front of the TV and eat all day. I cannot let that happen!

UPDATE#1: It is a GOOD THING I did not go to the old house to do cleaning. There is a HUGE multi-car pile-up accident on Highway A en route to the house. So either that might have been me! OR I would have no way to come back home. Now the radio says that they are thinking of closing Highway B to Highway A (with the accident) because of blowing snow and white-out conditions. So even if I got past the accident, I still might not make it home! So far, I have been able to ward off the "snackies" with carrot sticks and a cup of coffee and lots of water. So far so good.

Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!

Justine6Robert3 on 03/02/2007:
Good job on loosing 1.5 lbs! I know what you mean, it usually takes my body a few days of bouncing up and down a pound before it sticks! We also have sheets of ice all over outside. We had freezing rain last night, nasty weather! I think everybody here at DD will be so much more motivated when spring hits and we can all get some sunshine and fresh air!! That is for those of us who aren't living in sunny warm places right now, I'm so envious of all the girls in the with cozy warm weather right now!! If only I wasn't so broke I would want to jump on a plane and escape all of this cold!!

My daughter's bus was cancelled again today (it was also cancelled yesturday because of this storm) and I have to admit I was a little relieved that I didn't have to go outside in the cold this morning to walk Taylor to the bus!!

Donkey, stay away from that kitchen, you can do it!! I hope your in better spirits as the day goes on. Take Care!


borntocry on 03/02/2007:
I actually did try running on ice once. It wasn't a good idea. I was running so slowly that I probably would have gotten a better workout raiding the refrigerator. I must say, it is pretty cold where you are right now, though. It's nowhere near that cold over here. Hope it warms up for you soon. Oh, and I'm glad you were nowhere near that multi-car pile-up on the highway! See, sometimes it pays to be lazy - at least that's what I always tell myself. No, seriously, you did the right thing staying home in such conditions!


borntocry on 03/02/2007:
P.S. I wouldn't have gone running today if it weren't for you! But your view of me was so flattering, I felt I had to live up to it! Thank you for that!


WorkingIt2 on 03/03/2007:
I am so OVER winter LOL. Have a good day today! =)

Saturday, March 3, 2007 The courage to be you You are unique, with your own special beauty and value to give to life. What a terrible shame it would be if you were to let that beauty be hidden behind your fears. When you worry that you're not good enough, you allow others to control you, and their domination will soon make you miserable. Or when you fool yourself into thinking you're superior to everyone else, you deny yourself the exquisite joy of offering your own special gifts to life.

It takes courage and faith, effort and initiative to be who you are. And it is so very much worth the effort.

Though no one else can do it for you, you have what it takes to be magnificently successful at being you. From the deepest secrets of your soul to the face you put forward to the world, every bit of you is meant to be the authentic and original person you are.

Listen to that quiet, persistent voice inside that you know is always right. This is your opportunity to fulfill and express the real and lasting joy of being you.

Let the beautiful person inside of you come more fully to life as each moment passes. Let yourself, and the world around you, know the joy and fulfillment that is meant just for you to express.

-- Ralph Marston



Donkey - Thursday Mar 01, 2007
(Portion control)
Weight: 137.0

Notice I changed my "Current Weight". Yes, it's higher than the 135.0 I was a week ago, but I've made adjustments after having 2 evenings of excessive eating of desserts. I figure in the long run, who cares if my weight is higher March 1st, because if I stay on track, my weight will be going down, down, down. (Confidentially, I was up to 140.2 several days ago but that will be just between us friends. I still consider 138.5 my starting weight.)

I had very little shoveling to do today, in comparison. With all the rain, the snow is melting, so I spent about 15 minutes clearing away some slush, for my "cardio" today. Last I heard we are supposed to be getting more snow this weekend. This is one time I hope the weather-people are WRONG. Perhaps they are. It was almost 40F outside today. (My apologies to my metric friends. I'm not very good with temperature conversions.)

I spent most of my "free time" when the kids are in school, at the old house. I cleaned the refrigerator (what a MESS) and the top of the cupboards. After trying several household cleaners, I resorted to using "Goo Gone" to clean them. Goo Gone isn't really a cleaner but more for removing lipstick stains or crayon on the wall, etc. All that is left is the bathroom tubs and floors to clean upstairs. Then my part for putting the house on the market is done.... unless Husband wants me to do some painting.

My eating has gone very well today too. I finally feel like I've got a handle on portion control and moderation, the whole intake versus output. I signed up for an online diet tracker website -- you know, the kind where you put down what you've eaten and what you've exercised and it calculates the calories, fat, carbs, etc. for you -- and it has helped me tremendously. I was even able to have Girl Scout cookies last night and feel satisfied without resorting to eating the whole box.

I really feel like I'm back to the motivational point I was when I first started to lose weight (in 2002, when I weighed 180lb). This is a good place to be.

Progress as of today: 1.5 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!

greengirl on 03/01/2007:
You sound much more content and in control today. Well done!! That is a good place to be :0)


girliegirl6486 on 03/01/2007:
OH PLEASE NO MORE SNOW! Good job on eating today. I haven't been doing too well the last two days with eating either.


sharklover on 03/01/2007:
That's great that you are feeling very motivated!!

I love Goo Gone, that stuff works miracles! haha

And great job on eating well, especially with the girl scout cookies! I'm afraid to have some because I'm not sure I have that much control yet. They are just so good! :-)

You're doing great! Keep up the good work!


borntocry on 03/02/2007:
Oh, I did not realise you had lost so much weight. That is very impressive! And you have been maintaining this weight for quite a while now?

Thanks for the comment you left me. Maybe from now on I just shouldn't time myself on windy days. I should just look at it as resistance training, as you suggested. Kind of like hill running, which I don't do at all (although maybe I will start to do some after my race)!



Donkey - Wednesday Feb 28, 2007
(Portion control)
Weight: 135.0

Today, I jogged home from my daughter's bus stop. It got me to thinking that I could easily do this (jog) in my neighborhood -- ONCE IT STOPS SNOWING!!! -- every other day or so. Sure I'd be the crazy lady running in her winter coat, but who cares?

Then I went back to the Old House today to do some cleaning and shoveling. Well, the snow was so packed and frozen and DEEP that I spent literally 2 hours -- yes, I timed it -- clearing off the driveway and the entrance of the driveway (where the snow plows packed 3 feet of snow). It is NOT a long driveway, my friends. So now there is enough space for one car to get into the 2-car driveway and the driveway is cleared.

Except that it is now snowing again. And I mean, really snowing.

UGH. So tomorrow, when I should be doing more cleaning on the inside (didn't have time to do much inside the house today), I will be outside, shoveling yet AGAIN.

I managed to clean the insides of the cupboards and the outside of the refrigerator. Tomorrow, I plan to clean the tops of the cupboards (which are caked with dust/cat hair/grease and the inside of the refrigerator and hopefully the freezer too.

That is, after I get done shoveling.

After that, the kitchen is pretty much finished, cleaning-wise. So then I have 2 bathtubs and 2 bathroom floors to clean (on my hands and knees).

I have to figure that all of this activity HAS to count for SOME kind of exercise. Well, it beats sitting in front of the TV eating. I think looking for a gym will have to wait until next week. I got another offer in the mail today, no long term contract, pay month-to-month and the coupon says no initiation fee (with the coupon). Child care is $5 a month per child, so that I would pay. I have no idea how much it costs per month either! So that might not be such a good deal.

My Husband asked his co-worker that belongs to the fancy gym ($90/month for the family) how much she pays for just herself and that is $49/month. I know my daughter (6yrs old) and I would use the gym. My son would probably not but might give some of the classes a try; he would use the pool in the summer for sure. So what I tried to find out today is when Husband would use the gym. Because I'm not really going to pay for 3 people if he's not going to use the gym. I'll just get a single membership for myself.

Well, he interviewed for a promotion today, so if he gets the promotion, then his hours would change. So I will have to wait to see if he gets the job. He would probably only use the gym 3 days a week though. So I'm not any closer to solving that issue right now.

Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

girliegirl6486 on 02/28/2007:
I feel the same as you! Snow is driving me crazy and I can't wait to get outside and run!

Hope you find some other alternatives to the gym problem...I know I am lucky to have my campus gym included with my student fees, when I graduate next year I'll have to pay at a new gym!


Justine6Robert3 on 02/28/2007:
I am also sick of the snow, go away all ready!! Yuck, by the sounds of your cupboards the people who lived there before you didn't like to clean much!!!

If it makes you feel any better, according to "Fitday.com" 2 hrs of shovelling snow burns 559 calories, thats definetly exercise! I also don't enjoy shovelling snow but my kids love to get out there with their little shovels and help. Well, at least they think they are helping, its very cute anyway!!!

Good luck with the gym dilema!!


sharklover on 02/28/2007:
Wow, you've been doing a lot of activity, and still have some to do. Who needs a gym when you can shovel snow and clean a house? :-P


weightlossyoyo on 02/28/2007:
Gyms are soooo fun...GOOD LUCK!


WorkingIt2 on 03/01/2007:
Happy March 1st!

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borntocry on 03/01/2007:
Three days a week isn't bad. It sounds like your whole family would make at least occasional use of the gym, which is more than most families! I think you could justify going for the more expensive gym.

Thanks for the comment you left me. It made me feel a lot better. You're right, it was silly of me to think about wanting to die - like that would solve the problem! I was just moping and feeling sorry for myself, I guess. But I'm done with that now!

Oh, and don't worry about what people will think of you jogging in your winter coat. I used to worry about how I looked while jogging all the time. I feel really cold so I tend to dress quite warmly compared to most runners. So I constantly worried that people were staring at me and thinking that I wasn't a "real" runner. Then one day I saw a guy running at the track, under the blazing sun, in a dress shirt and slacks!! I never again questioned my running attire.



Donkey - Tuesday Feb 27, 2007
(Portion control)
Weight: 135.0

Today I went back to the old house to clean. Since I am short, I cleaned everything in the kitchen that was low: stove, oven, lower cupboards and drawers. Tomorrow I will bring the step ladder and clean cabinets. Hopefully I will also get to the refrigerator too. It did not help matters that when we arrived at the old house, there was about 2 feet of snow in the driveway, and much of it had iced up.

I met up with a mom at the bus stop this morning. She lives 3 doors down. I found out that she goes to the gym after she drops off the kids. She was very enthusiastic about the gym, as are most people I've talked to about this place. It's really a nice place. This was one of the places I was seriously considering getting a gym membership at. In fact, although I intended to shop around, this one was probably going to be the place I'd sign up. My husband wants to go, and he thinks we should get a family membership so the kids can take classes if they want (e.g. cheerleading, karate, yoga) or get free child care.

Well, my neighbor told me that it's $90 a month to go. And that's not with the initiation fee, which I'm guessing is around $200 (standard). And a lot of places have a processing fee of around $50 (which is total donkey-doo, really just a way to get more money out of you). OK, fees aside, because I knew that there would be fees, I think $90 a month is kind of steep. Does that seem high to you? Of course, for a single person, it's around $60 a month ( a similar gym in the town next door is $68 per month). So getting a family membership isn't all that much of a stretch. Essentially, you get the spouse at half-price and the kids are free.

Now at the other gym I was considering, monthly dues are $20 a month. Initiation fee is $100-ish and I don't know about a processing fee.

The husband at first said no way, but then said, well we could probably manage it. But that's my Husband for ya, he spends first and kind of thinks about it later. I know it's hard to put a price on good health. I suppose it depends on how often Husband and the kids would use the gym. But I was disappointed and frustrated. It does not help matters that my jeans are very tight around my thighs today.

And of course, Girl Scout cookies came in today. So I have something to eat out my emotions. Sad Donkey.

Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/27/2007:
I know I don't have to post on comments, but I did want to add that last night, I indulged on like 18 chocolate graham crackers (1170 calories). And each glass of cranberry juice I drink has 130 calories in it. Granted, I dilute each glass with 3 glasses of water, but I go through my 1 Liter (4 cups) water bottle 3 times a day. So there's an additional 390 calories right there too!!!

I"M SO DISCOURAGED WITH MYSELF RIGHT NOW!!! (yes, I'm shouting)


biscottibody59 on 02/27/2007:
If you look around at older people around you--60-80--and maybe even talk to them about their health--paying ANYTHING right now if it motivates and makes you feel better and if you actually use it makes any amount look like a total no-brainer. I mean you could be smoking and drinking those $$$ away. RIGHT?

I'm just trying to help you justify the cost. I see too many old/sick and old/sick/recovering (and recovered/doing better) people I guess.

Good luck in your gym-quest!


Justine6Robert3 on 02/27/2007:
Well, you do sound like you could use an umbrella drink right now. I'm sorry your having a bad time of it. We all have those frustrating days, I think that you just need to put it in the past and start fresh, you can do this!!

I don't know what the typical gym fee is where you are but I don't think $90.00 is that bad if it is for the whole family and it will include activities for the kids such as karate and cheerleading. Ofcourse it depends if you can afford that kind of a monthly payment. I think you really need to get back into your gym routine and you would start feeling better. I pay $42.00 a month just for my membership. It does include daycare for my kids but not activities for them. If your worried that you can't afford it maybe just see if you can find a gym that accomidates you for a lower fee. I do agree with biscotti that your health is worth the cost but you don't want to take on a payment that doesn't fit your budget either, that would just be another headache!!

I think your just in a bit of a rutt but don't get discouraged, you can get back into your exercise routine when things settle down. You sound like you need a hug, so HUGS:)

Take care of yourself hon, don't get so down on yourself your stronger than that and I know you can get those couple of pounds back off!!!


girliegirl6486 on 02/27/2007:
Thanks for the comment you left! I think it would be a great idea to partner up since we are basically in the same position right now. I think it would help to try to set calorie/fat intake goals and I DEFINITELY need help with understanding how to mix in more lean protein...any thoughts???


WorkingIt2 on 02/27/2007:
If you are going to be happier at a gym where it is a little more expensive, but you'll use it more often, and if you can afford it...I'd go for the higher end. Kind of like buying shoes..sure, you can buy workout shoes for $15...but... You will be ok! You are just busy and soon that will be over!


borntocry on 02/28/2007:
Do your kids actually want to take fitness classes? Or are you just hoping that they'll become interested later? Could they not join the cheaper gym if they do? Or would that work out to be more expensive than the family membership? And what's this "free child care" thing? Is that something you would actually use? And if so how much money would it save you?

Since you asked, $90 seems a little steep to me, but that's assuming it would be mainly just you using the gym. If the whole family will actually use it, $90 isn't a lot. I would probably go for the cheaper one myself but I feel like you're leaning towards the other one so I don't want to dissuade you from it!

Thanks for the comment you left me. I feel like my cousin does deliberately try to sabotage me. But I'm sure it's just my imagination - I'm just jealous. She naturally eats a lot less than me so she doesn't need to count calories or diet or anything. I try to tell myself that she is thinner than I would like to be, it's better to be athletic than just skinny, etc. But it's hard to make myself believe it.

And I wish my problems could be due to PMS but there's been no sign of that since I went off the pill! No such luck. I will try the green tea, though. Thanks!


hollybelle on 02/28/2007:
To join or not to join - that is the question! I can't tell you how many memberships the gym I worked in sold and then the members NEVER came after the first 2-3 months. IF you will USE it it's a great buy - HEALTH and FITNESS for $90 a month. But if you won't use it - it's a high cost. Kind of time the pair of pants we have all bought on sale that seemed like a good deal at the time and them we never wore them - times 10!



Donkey - Monday Feb 26, 2007
(Portion control)
Weight: 135.0

OK, so I got on the scale today.... And it shows me at 138.5. So I am right back where I started. *sigh*

Again, it is snowing and it is cold(er), so I do not want to be outside at all. I did make the effort to pick up the kids at the bus stop (walking & waiting), and I did a little more unpacking. But the Husband is home today and so everything is kind of off the routine.

Since I am not exercising per se, I have decided to focus most of my efforts on eating - or rather, NOT eating. I don't think I'll lose any weight that way but at least if it can keep me from gaining....

I hope to go gym shopping next week. There is a "basic" gym nearby but Husband says, Why would you join there? If you go a little further down the road, you can belong to a gym that has everything. Yes, and I'm sure it comes with an "everything" type of price tag too. But I do know that the Everything Gym has a family membership, and then the kids can take fitness classes too. So that might be worth considering....

I just wish it would warm up already. And STOP SNOWING!!!!

Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

candance on 02/26/2007:
THAT SOUNDS LIKE A GOOD IDEA GETTING THE FAMILY DEAL. ITS IMPORTANT TO MAKE SURE OUR KIDS DONT GET OBESE AND UNHEALTHY HABITS ALSO!


sharklover on 02/26/2007:
I agree with candace, its really important to teach children healthy habits.

and I agree with you on the cold weather! I do love the snow, but there are so many activities to do in warmer weather!


borntocry on 02/27/2007:
I guess you should ask yourself whether you tend to use mostly the basic gym equipment or the fancier stuff? And are you the type of person who would be more likely to put off going to the gym if it's a little further away? I know I tend to choose convenience over quality. I still prefer my old running track because I have to walk an extra ten minutes to get to the new Olympic-sized one!



Donkey - Sunday Feb 25, 2007
(You on a Diet)
Weight: 135.0

I never got to the computer on Saturday. I did manage a weigh-in but I was so distressed by what the scale said to me. Even with no dinner on Thursday and all the trauma of the kidney infection, I weighed in at 141.0! This bothered me ALL DAY.

Logically, I am sure that some of that is fluid retention from the hospital, as they put 2 bags of fluid through me to flush out my system. But part of me is angry at my body for packing on weight at the first opportunity of inactivity. That is to say, I *need* to exercise in order to lose weight. Restriction of calories is not enough. Heaven help me if I ever injure my back permanently (I have a disc in my back that flares up occasionally) and I can't move or workout at all. I would balloon up to 200lbs before the end of the month, I am sure.

So this incident has emphasized to me even more so the urgency that I find a gym. Because I doubt I will ever reach my goal weight otherwise.

And I might add that this weigh-in was totally self-defeating, as I chose to console myself by the end of the day Saturday with a bowl of ice cream and 2 small sugar cookies from the Italian bakery. So now my 141 will be truly 141 and not just fluid retention.

Needless to say, I was too afraid to weigh myself this morning. Ergh, I am totally discouraged.

Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

girliegirl6486 on 02/25/2007:
I feel EXACTLY the same way you do! Low calories and low fat is not enough for my body. I get angry about it and it bothers me until I get to the gym. I also consoled myself with food - on Thursday night I was just so happy the week was over for me that I pigged out all night. : ( Planning to get back on track better than ever this week.

I feel distressed this morning too because my weight didn't STAY at 140 on the scale this morning. I bought myself a scale over the weekend because the one at the gym is always messed up and people always reset it and stuff so you cannot count on it. I'm the type who has to weigh themselves each morning to keep eating in check even though I know weight fluctuates from day to day.

Sorry this message is so long! I just can sympathize with you 100 percent right now!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/25/2007:
Feel better! Your health comes first! I'd stay away from all scales until you are in 100% health!


borntocry on 02/26/2007:
I do that all the time, too. Turn what could have been a mere "fluctuation" on the scale into reality by turning to food for comfort. Although honestly I doubt a bowl of ice-cream and two small sugar cookies will make that much of a difference in the grand scheme of things.

I also wonder what would happen to me if I were ever immobilised for some reason. There was a girl on this website who was just getting started with the whole weight loss process when she fell down the stairs and broke her leg in two places. It was quite bad and she was stuck in a wheelchair for quite some time. She became extremely depressed and left the site. When she returned, I fully expected her to have gained back all her weight and then some, but unbelievably, she had lost almost 100 lb! I don't know how she did it, but I shall have to use that story for inspiration if ever anything like that happens to me.

Thanks for the comment you left me. I love falafel too, so I've made it at home and sadly, know only too well the calorie count (about 100 per falafel - they are deep-fried, you know!). My low weight was probably just due to dehydration after running for over two hours in the middle of the day. Oh, my goal weight is 114, by the way, so I guess I am under that right now, which is good because I always need a little leeway!


Justine6Robert3 on 02/26/2007:
Sorry that you haven't been well, I hope your feeling better soon. I do think you should take care of yourself and maybe stay away from the scale until you are feeling up to exercising.

I know how frustrating that must be for you to gain weight the minute you stop exercising. I know that they say 70% of weight loss is your diet and 30% is exercise but I also need to exercise in order to lose weight. It doesn't seem to matter how well I eat or how low my calories are, if I miss one day of exercise I will usually gain half a pound or ever 1 whole pound. I guess all of our bodies respond differently, but my body is similiar to yours and requires daily exercise!!

Don't beat yourself up to much about indulging in some icecream and cookies! we have to treat ourselves every now and then to some "unhealthy" but very tasty treats!!

Don't be discouraged, you can do this! Today is a new day and you can start fresh!

Take care of that Kidney infection, how unpleasant for you:( I hope your feeling better soon!!

Oh, and to answer your question about how I fold laundry while riding my bike, its a recumbant bike not stationary so my hands are free while I'm peddling. It can be a little challenging but I make it work. I usually pull my bike over beside the coffee table and then I can take the laundry out of the basket on one side and fold it on the coffee table beside me!! This is also good for my arms while I'm riding!! I hope that makes sense in writing!

Take care!


biscottibody59 on 02/26/2007:
Maybe this will be a good time to go gym-hunting--the new year types have probably all abandoned their plans, etc.

I have been able to stay very active and I would probably be completely lost without exercise as well--the diarist BTC was referring to was chickie_maui--her diary is quite inspirational.

Have a good one!


WorkingIt2 on 02/26/2007:
I hope you find a gym that you enjoy or find a way to do some working out at home or walking/running until you do!



Donkey - Friday Feb 23, 2007
(You on a Diet)
Weight: 135.0

I hope you all didn't think I am the type of person to have a few diary entries and then drop off the edge of the planet. I was without internet for 2 days, but the problem seems to be resolved now.

Needless to say, when one ignores what feels like a bladder infection, it will only come back to bite her back in the donkey. Because I ended up in urgent care for most of last night with a raging kidney infection.

So diet-wise, I had no dinner last night, and I was pretty wasted for much of today, although I am eating more. I am sure that I will be back to my old self tomorrow (although I do have antibiotics to take), with the exception of this cold (runny nose, sneezing) that I seem to have picked up.

I hope to have a current weigh-in tomorrow morning.

Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

borntocry on 02/23/2007:
A kidney infection?!? How horrible! You poor thing! I guess that should teach us not to take these things lightly. I had no idea!

I'm sure the stress had something to do with it. You are in need of some serious relaxation! I hope you can rest up this weekend.


biscottibody59 on 02/23/2007:
Hope you get to feeling better and do take ALL your antibiotics--don't want any relapses. Take it easy!


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/23/2007:
oh gosh! feel better!


greengirl on 02/24/2007:
Oh dear, donkey!! I hope you are feeling better soon. Dont try to do too much while you are feeling so poorly. Take care of yourself!!!


WorkingIt2 on 02/25/2007:
OUCH Oh my I hope your infection is gone SOON! That is awful! ((hug))


girliegirl6486 on 02/25/2007:
I hope you are better soon!



Donkey - Wednesday Feb 21, 2007
(You on a Diet)
Weight: 135.0

I should be unpacking or cleaning, but since I'm online anyway, I'll post an entry. I weighed in this morning at 137.0, so my weight continues to come back down from the "moving weight" I put on.

I also managed to get my butt out the door and walk. I thought I had walked longer than I actually did, though because when I returned home, I saw that I was gone barely 30 minutes. I found a bike path that I can walk tomorrow though. It has been shoveled/plowed. I realize though that I am a gym person at heart. I need to get to the point in unpacking & living where I feel comfortable seeking out a new gym.

My "woman" problem continues to improve, although it is still not 100%.

Them durned cats kept me up all night again. Bouncing, jumping, hacking up a hairball, not so much crunching though. I am hoping that this is because things are still new for them. But both Husband and I agree that something has GOT to change here, because this is ridiculous.

I'm planning on having a big salad for lunch. It has been about a month since I've had a salad. YUM!

EVENING EDIT: I got a substantial amount of unpacking done today. I have 12 boxes of various sizes left, and half of them say "books" on them. I still have lots of cleaning although I did do some of that today too. But I figure cleaning will never be done. So I made a deal with myself that once I am done unpacking, I can go shopping for a new gym. Probably next week.

I did very well eating-wise again today. Not so good on the water intake. I'm almost out of cranberry juice. I'm still working at the water though. I guess I'll be up all night anyway with the cats, so I might as well go to the bathroom while I'm awake.

We attended Ash Wednesday services today, looking for a new church. OMG, the church we went to was 3x the size of my old church! Holy ****** my daughter couldn't even see the priest! Everyone but me liked it. I'm ok with it, but I miss the intimacy of my smaller church in my old town. Unfortunately, it's too far away to drive to that church. Besides, most of my neighbors go to St. Mary's, so I figure we should too. My husband is open to visiting 2 or 3 more churches though, before making a final decision. I think I'd like to do that. I managed to not eat meat, and while I did not fast -- because for me, fasting triggers bingeing, which defeats the whole purpose of fasting for Ash Wednesday in the first place -- I did well on portions.

Progress as of today: 3.5 lbs lost so far, only 10 lbs to go!

borntocry on 02/21/2007:
Yes, much as I try to appreciate the outdoors, I think I am also a "gym person" at heart. Hope you can find a new one soon!


greengirl on 02/21/2007:
Salad sounds good. Enjoy!!!


WorkingIt2 on 02/21/2007:
LOL cats can be noisy creatures. Happy that your moving weight is going down and that you found a nice path! Take care =)


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/21/2007:
its good your husband is open to visiting some more churches. you should be comfortable wherever you go!!! ...you know i'm only kidding with you, when i call you "the donkey," lol, in my journal entry. I love your frank comments...they do me some good! THANK YOU!!!


hollybelle on 02/22/2007:
You are so smart to realize that the fasting triggers the binge. It took me a long time to realize that. I kind of have an "all or nothing" personality if I don't watch out for that type of thinking. Sounds like the moving in process is moving along. About the bigger church - Not sure of your child(ren) age(s) but we have found that there are a lot more activities (church related) in the bigger church. That can be a good thing. I prefer exercising in a group, too, but I have adjusted to not goign to a gym. since teaching aerobics for so long (14 years) and I am very social person I found it more energizing to workout at a gym. Hope you find a new one soon.



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