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Donkey - Sunday Dec 08, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 78:  today I am aware of my blessings. 

The breakfast was a good time,  but husband was struggling with bathroom issues and we had to leave sooner than we might have otherwise.   I had eggs,  sausage,  and fruit.   Next year,  I'm bringing more fruit and asking if we may donate the usage of our big coffee maker. 

Did well with eating all day until after dinner.  Then I had frozen fruit,  walnuts,  peanut butter,  and finally some  shredded cheese.  Not a binge,  just snacky munchie...

Did yoga at home with the phone app late yesterday afternoon.   I have trouble figuring out some of the poses if I'm not facing my phone. But I finished the 30 minute session.  Keep on practicing,  keep on trying,  keep on learning...

This month's TOM is really hard.  Yesterday was difficult,  and I'm not so sure I should go to yoga this morning...  I could do another session at home,  but I'd much rather go to the studio to practice...  We'll see where I'm at after this morning's bike ride. 

The studio is having a yoga retreat this afternoon,  but I cannot attend it because husband and I are going to me an old movie at the theater (Meet Me in St.Louis  - a special anniversary showing).  Long story short,  I made a big deal about this to husband,  so he bought tickets,  which made the decision about attending the yoga retreat moot.  Oh well, the movie is the cheaper option.   And with a heavy TOM, the retreat may not have been the best option,  but I can never tell with this thing. 

So frustrating to be at the mercy of one's uterus.

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 12/08/2019:
i have heard of yoga sstudios doing special classes like the retreat you mention. hopefully, there will be another chance for you to go! i think it's relatively typical of a good yoga studio to offer this once in awhile having special teachers come and teach and share.

enjoy the movie!

lately, i'm snacky too...i think it's TOM also as i had that this week and now it's just about DONE! woohoo.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
At the end of the day on Sunday, I realized how unrealistic a yoga retreat would have been for me. There will be other retreats. AND another reason I'm glad I missed this one is the instructor canceled all of her classes because she's sick. So either she was sick at the retreat, or someone at the retreat got her sick.

BearCountryGG on 12/08/2019:
Well...you are at the stage in life where TOM was so difficult for me too. Hot flashes started yet....That is truly about 10 years of craziness too......Even with a hysterectomy at 48 the hot flashes were there with a vengeance....but... to think I laughed when D asked my Dad how long they lasted and my Dad said 10 years...thinking he was kidding...he wasn't...LOL...oh well...once you are through that it is smooth sailing......oh yeah...that's when you start having to pluck chin hairs....

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
No hot flashes yet, thank goodness. From what I've seen and heard, those can be so interfering and quite uncomfortable.

BearCountryGG on 12/08/2019:
About no bathrooms at work...for the whole building..how can they expect anyone to work under those conditions....that may not even be legal.....They may be able to circumvent that issue by bring a porta potty to the site....but I don't know how they can expect anyone to work like that.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
It's probably an OSHA violation. Had we had to work under those conditions for a prolonged period of time, I would have had issues - meaning: gone home!

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
The Diva Cup will change your life. You can even go swimming in the ocean with sharks during your TOM.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
I don't do well with inserting things. Could never manage a diaphram. Is it like that?

Funny about the sharks though ;-)

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
The more you move, the more you will eat. Raw veggies, ranch seasoning with greek yogurt.

Donkey on 12/09/2019:
I thought I was doing well with the frozen fruit. All of that sugar - albeit natural - was a slippery slope.

Donkey - Saturday Dec 07, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

Day 78:  Intention: ___; Mantra:  Just go with it.

 Today is the Veterans' Christmas Brunch, so this will be short.  Frankly, I'm getting tired of eating. 

Work was extremely stressful yesterday.  First, I walk into a couple of emails from a realtor that we've done a bit of business with, and we've helped her with her Will and estate planning.  Anyway, I emailed her something Thursday before leaving, which was misinterpreted, and her feelings got really hurt, which made me feel just awful.  Not really from even a business perspective, but just personally, I felt really bad.  I explained to her what I really meant - that I was really frustrated with a lender for not keeping her and I in the loop, but sharing information with the opposite lawyer & agent all the time.  She took my comment to mean that I wasn't appreciative of all of her efforts in trying to get the lender to tell us what's going on.  

This lender was so bad - they wouldn't even respond to their own client!  But heck yeah, let's let the other attorney and other agent know what's going on.  Sheesh!

So I explained and apologized profusely.  She admitted that emotions are running a little high on this deal and she would chalk it up to a misunderstanding.  Ugh - try explaining all of this to my boss...  He was actually quite understanding, but geez just more stress for him and for me.  We just have to get this deal done, if for no one else, for our poor client.  I think our agent is probably desperate for her commission check, too.  So for them, I really want to work hard on trying to get this done.

On top of this, our plumbing at work has backed up, so we could not use the toilets and no running water after 3pm.  Unfortunately, I had eaten a cranberry-carrot salad earlier in the morning, and I think the carrots were a little too old or something, because the words "explosive diarrhea" don't even begin to explain it.

My gluteus muscles are so sore today, from Thursday and Friday's yoga sessions.  

Also, dealing with a lot of cat drama here, too, which is added stress.  New Kitty and Old Kitty want to kill each other, it seems.  I've started calling the New Kitty "Darth Jack" because the dark force is strong with this one, let me tell you.  Sick (Baby) Kitty is improving, but still has no use of her hind legs.  Laundry continues to be an issue.

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/07/2019:
You meant well...unfortunately the way other people take things is not the way we meant them and emails and messages are often misunderstood.....just let it go...you two have talked it out and that's all you can do. Well...bathroom situations are the worst....been there done that....are there other bathrooms in the building??? Hope for your sake there were....and the kitties...sad to hear that their health and behaviors aren't working out too well.....like living in a war zone I'm sure. Does the sick one scoot around? Does she just lay all day?

Donkey on 12/08/2019:
Alright - I will let the misunderstanding go... after all, there's nothing more I can do to change what happened. I can only endeavor to do better.

There are NO other useable bathrooms in the building. It's a system-wide problem with the discharge pipe that runs from the building to the city sewer line.

This is going to be a problem on Monday, for me, because TOM is here. I NEED to have regular access to a bathroom.

Yep, Sick Kitty scoots around on her butt. I can see her gluteal muscles working hard. Legs and tail are not mobile, just limp. One leg seems to be better than the other.

I'm trying to remain hopeful...

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
They have to have bathroom facilities. "OSHA requires employers to provide all workers with sanitary and immediately-available toilet facilities (restrooms)."


happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
Also, borax in the laundry for smell and sanitation with the cat pee.

Donkey - Friday Dec 06, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 77 (???) - I looked at my scheduling book at work,  and I think somewhere there,  I missed tracking 10 days... this number seems right. 

Thank you for your comments on my entry yesterday.  I didn't reply to comments as fully as I wanted to because I'd like to include my thoughts and gratitude here. 

Helpful lessons:

Change can be uncomfortable,  even if it's something I want to happen.  Rather than resist in fear of the process,  being open to the opportunity can make the change a positive experience. 

Remain calm,  because a year from now,  the only thing that will matter if there was a change or not.  So go for it. 

I'm really glad I went to support Associate Attorney.   The lunch was not buffet,  but I stayed away from the potatoes and ice cream and bread.  Had double salad, green beans,  beef and chicken. 

It was a good time. 

Vinyasa yoga ("hard yoga" as I describe it to my husband) was very good! I wish I wasn't the only student there. It would be helpful - and more fun - to have a classmate or two.   The instructor is great. 

The studio is thinking of changing up their class offerings and times.  They are thinking about blending this class with a slower yoga.  I would be open to that.

Tonight is Veterans Chair Yoga with the husband . Then a date night dinner.  

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/06/2019:
so the book i'm reading, MENTIONS YOGA as a mind-opening, sometimes uncomfortable and new opportunity too! and it's NOT a yoga book at all! def mentally connected, me and you, right now!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/06/2019:
Lunch sounds wonderful, thankful for a double salad i am quite sure you are. i do not eat enough salad (only when i was with my parents) as most of my food is actually veggies that are cooked. ...can't wait to see what i'll bring to lunch for next week....

enjoy the chair yoga...i never got my chance....maybe i'll do it at home, when i have a chance...

BearCountryGG on 12/06/2019:
Tonight sounds like fun...have a nice evening.

happy-1 on 12/06/2019:
I love that you guys are doing yoga together then going out to dinner together. That sounds like an ideal date night.

happy-1 on 12/06/2019:
And kudos on the positive meal choices!

Donkey - Thursday Dec 05, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 66:  I think I miscounted.  We are already into December so there are less than 33 days left for the "100 days" challenge...  none of this went the way I had intended anyway. 

I was driving to work the other day,  feeling like my life is a mess:  not keeping track of finances,  off track on diet,  off track on yoga,  just feeling a mess. 

I stopped myself and thought,  maybe this is exactly where I'm supposed to be, maybe this is how I'm supposed to be doing things for me at this time.  Maybe things aren't a total reason wreck.  I'm not sure what that's all about,  but it helped me feel better. 

Stress yoga was ok.  Got confused at one point about left- right,  so the teacher had to help me out.  Also,  could not maintain balance on a one-legged position.  It was hard to let go and relax at the closing meditation (savasana).

Tonight is Vinyasa yoga,  and I'm quite divided about going.  Why am I afraid?

Sick Kitty is taking her medicine,  and eating and drinking more.  This is good except that now she's peeing all over her bedding,  because she is still too weak to get off the bed and use her box.  So that's not good.  We clean her and her bedding,  to keep her dignity intact,  but it's stressful. 

Today,  Mistakes Girl and I are going to a  2.5 hour luncheon to watch Associate Attorney's  inauguration as Treasurer for a local realtor group.  He initially joined this group (even though he's not an attorney) for networking purposes.  Becoming treasurer is the last thing he needs on his plate right now, but that's his drama,  not mine.   Hard to watch a train leaving the station knowing what wreck lies ahead.   Nice Lady will end up doing all of his work on this. 

I hope I can make good choices.  I'm hoping it's a buffet so that I can load up on vegetables, lol...


And I hope I can make up my mind about scary yoga tonight...

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/05/2019:
It's such a busy time of year....and life in general is in such a turmoil....it affects us...all of us.....and probably the best thing we can do is try to just keep calm...and think about how really so few things in life will matter a year from now...deal with things as they come up...and deal with ourselves in a way we would deal with a dear friend. Try to treat yourself kindly and be you...you deserve to treat yourself kindly. I'm so happy that kitty was able to get her meds....and glad that she is eating and drinking....sounds positive for her.

Donkey on 12/06/2019:
Very wise and helpful insights - thank you!!

Maria7 on 12/05/2019:
I agree with BC...Just keep calm...If we can do that and don't be hard on ourselves, we have won half the battle. That is nice that you and Mistakes Girl are showing your support to your fellow colleague, regardless. Everybody needs to know they have friends...we all do...that is one reason why I LOVE DD...You all are my friends here and you are each one very dear to me. Have a good day, chill out, and RELAX. Love, Maria

Donkey on 12/06/2019:
I'm very glad that I went to support the attorney. Had I not, I think I would have regretted it.

legcramps on 12/05/2019:
glad to hear kitty is feeling better, even though she is still weak; hopefully soon she will be back on track

Donkey on 12/06/2019:
Thank you... I hope so too. She's trying, I know she is. And I keep telling her to hang in the and fight this.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/05/2019:
I'm reading a book....we are driven of course as you know towards what we are used to, towards habit.

HOWEVER, if we want change or if we want anything else, we must get UNCOMFORTABLE. you want some change, you want new things in your life...that is the uncomfortable part.

the more you can get uncomfortable, the more chances you'll have also at change and for good things to come out of what you are learning.

not everything may be good right now, but you are learning from all of your experiences. so, although sometimes everything feels wrong and you get upset over it, there's things to learn and grow from these points of feeling uncomfortable and it's during this time that you learn...even yoga too!

Donkey on 12/06/2019:
I'm telling you, we're psychically connected. I'm reading a book about what happens mentally during yoga. He writes that saying yes welcomes opportunity and opens doors. I kept this and what you wrote about your book in mind as I worked myself up to going to class.

It worked!

happy-1 on 12/08/2019:
"I was driving to work the other day, feeling like my life is a mess: not keeping track of finances, off track on diet, off track on yoga, just feeling a mess."

I think that's the point of meditation and prayer rituals... Like going to sit in your meditation spot... Putting on an essential oil... Opening the space by lighting a candle... Saying some specific intention... Chilling and doing the meditation, then closing the space... Snuffing the candle... etc. It's about putting your mind back in order so you can do the next thing. Staying calm in the midst of chaos is power. I read this off of pinterest the other day and found it soothing:


"First, Things To Remember During Moments Of Inner Turbulence And Tough Emotion; Do not hide from what you are feeling: This current discomfort is not permanent. Rest is an important way to calm the mind. The struggle can be a space of deep growth."

Donkey - Tuesday Dec 03, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

Day 64:

Up early to get in my morning bike ride before catching the 8a train into Chicago.   My mom is in town for a quick visit,  and we are meeting her downtown for lunch.  Initially, it was going to be my husband coming too, but he has opted to stay home.  It's quite a bit of walking,  too much, for him.  In addition, he thought someone ought to stay home to take care of Sick Kitty, as her medicine is supposed to arrive today.   Plus,  he woke up with a cold this morning,  which rather sealed his decision. 

I'm a little behind in this,  but I've been thinking about switching back to low carb rather than keto - to revert for about a month.   It would have been grand to start this on December 1st but missed that opportunity. 

I realized this morning that I missed Library Yoga last night.   This is only offered once a month, so I'm rather disappointed with my forgetfulness.  

(This is the class with the teacher who had weight loss surgery.)

Library Yoga is Yin Yoga,  which I find so relaxing... a missed opportunity indeed. 

Oh well, tonight is Stress Reduction Yoga so perhaps I will enjoy that even more. 


Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/03/2019:
Enjoy your visit with your Mom....sorry to hear that Hubby is sick but he is probably better off staying home , now you don't have to wonder about kitty and her meds. Yoga classes are all over where you live...that is so nice!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 12/03/2019:
Yes, enjoy the visit with your mom and wishing you safe travels on the train! Our public transportation was running very smoothly this morning and I got to work ON TIME with a few minutes to spare, haha! I did good :)

Also, hoping you make it to yoga.

What was for lunch!?

happy-1 on 12/04/2019:
Yay a mom outing!!!!!!!!! Only so many of those... love or hate every minute of it... but good on you for getting to it.

Donkey - Monday Dec 02, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 136.5

 Day 63:  Just going to get through it.

I did no yoga.  I'm keeping a hand-written yoga journey in a planner that my daughter bought for herself and then decided she wasn't going to use it.  It's been 4 days without yoga, and today will probably be day 5 without yoga.  There are a million excuses, but primarily, I'm so worried about my poor cat.

Her medicine is supposed to arrive tomorrow, and we will be downtown for most of the day, visiting my mom in Chicago.  (Mom came out from Vegas for this.)  It's a tradition with her to go to the Walnut Room dining room at Macy's (the old Marshall Fields).  My heart just isn't in it.

Oh and gained 2.5 pounds over the holiday.  Well... the pie is completely gone now, so hopefully this means I can get back on track.  I do not want to go over my Goal Weight.

On the positive side, I was very proud of myself for weight training on Saturday.

Progress as of today: 50 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/02/2019:
Try to remember that whatever happens is what is supposed to happen........have fun with your Mom......and hopefully kitty will have a nice quiet restful day until you get home and give her the meds.

happy-1 on 12/02/2019:
Hugs. I can't think or do anything when my dog is sick or can't walk. I know the feeling. You take good care of your kitties and it's all about quality.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/02/2019:
nice job weight training...i think i'm about to do it now, too! gotta keep at it, such nice definition / muscle when i do!

also, you can totally keep maintaining, how could you not!? you've come tooooo far to quit. :) i'm totally with you xoxoxoxo

even though your heart is not in it with your mom, try to enjoy her company as it's limited and you don't get to see her always. <3

that's what i'll be doing tonight, with my dad for dinner. the weather is so bad, he should just drive home but wants to have dinner with me after he gets outta work!

Donkey - Sunday Dec 01, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

Day 62:  Intention:  Today, I allow myself to feel sorrow and grief.  Mantra:  Just get through today.

 Well...  my son is off.  He managed to avoid delays and bad weather, thank goodness.  That is how getting up at the butt-crack of dawn is rewarded.  It was very foggy when I got up and wet outside.  It has just now started to rain again, and this will soon become a snowy mix.  I shouldn't have to shovel.

No yoga at the Yoga Studio today.  I slept in a little, because I was up all night doing laundry.  If it's not one cat losing her bladder control (Baby Kitty aka Sick Kitty), it's the New Kitty, voicing his frustration.  Oh well, it's a nice day to stay at home and do laundry.

Poor Baby Kitty is still sick, but at least she is still eating wet food; she will not drink water any more.  Not using her box any more as she has little control with her legs.  I do hope that she can bounce back, when her medicine gets here on Tuesday.  And so help me Jesus if somebody steals the box of meds off the front porch, they will have Kitty's death on their hands.  

It's a lot of work and a lot of stress.... and just sadness.  Some of the sadness is hormones, I get that.  So I'm just going to allow myself to feel everything I need to feel.

I plan to do  yoga at home today with New Kitty.  Even though he pees on my bed, I do really like him.  My daughter, though, told his former owner (her co-worker) that co-worker needs to find a new home for Jack.  I hope not.  I really do like him a lot.

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 12/01/2019:
I hope the kitty hangs in there for the meds to arrive. I'm sure it was sad to have your son go back to his base......did you notice any change in his maturity? They do leave boys and come back men.....and that is a good thing.I'm glad to hear that his flight left on time....that could have been rough otherwise.

Donkey on 12/02/2019:
Yes, he has matured quite a bit... but then he'll do something and we'll think,"Yep, that's my boy!"

happy-1 on 12/01/2019:
My cat pees on my bed also. I covered it with a tarp and a light blanket. He can tell the difference and frustratingly waits till my sheets are exposed.

Donkey on 12/02/2019:
I've switched out bed coverings so that the blanket is easier to wash than the comforter. Also using Resolve spray on the mattress... not sure it discourages behavior, but it should zap out any residual odors.

BearCountryGG on 12/02/2019:
I'm wondering if the cats you both have now think they are supposed to use your beds as a bathroom....they may be confused.......in all of the cats we have ever had it happened only once and it was my fault...I had cleaned out her litter box and when I put the lid back on I accidentally turned her doorway to the wall and she couldn't get it.....when i went to bed around midnight...I found a "SURPRISE" waiting for me right in the middle of the bed.....I think if I was to have that issue with a cat again...i would shut the bedroom door...and probably put the litter box right there next to the door until they get the idea again.....and have a few "successes".

BearCountryGG on 12/02/2019:
Wait a minute...I forgot the cat that NEVER used the litter box....and always used the bed......We called him uncle grandpa because he had double feet...all four of them...he had to be returned to our friends farm where we got him....he would stand on the bed and glare at me.......he liked the farm better...and ahad probably never had used a litter box in his lifee.

BearCountryGG on 12/02/2019:
SONS...know them well...no matter what....they can still act like our little boys......spent much of the morning on the phone with 1 of ours...his sump pump quit and was flooding his basement......got the replacement in in time to not affect his furnace...I swear he was basically hyperventilating for the entire time.....hope he has calmed down now....

Horn_of_plenty on 12/02/2019:
keeping sick kitty in my prayers, crossing my fingers!

glad your son got back despite the bad weather which we are having, too. it's not sticking much, yet...

Donkey - Saturday Nov 30, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

 Day 61:  Intention:  Mantra:

It's almost 10am and I'm the only one up.  Our poor kitty with the eye problem was not doing too well this morning.  So bad, in fact, that my daughter texted me that she thought the cat would die today.  Her eye tumor is caused by a rare fungal infection, and the custom made medicine won't get here until Wednesday or Thursday.  However, she is not drinking enough water, and that is dangerous for cats.  So I will be tending to her regularly today, to see if I can get her to drink and eat wet food.  Hang in there, Kitty!

I plan to spend most of today at home.

Today is the last day with our son.  His flight leaves early tomorrow morning, so we have to get him to the airport even earlier.  I am hoping that by leaving early, he can avoid the rain/snow mix and high winds that is supposed to affect the Chicago area.

I did pretty well on Thanksgiving and then yesterday - with the sole exception of PIE.  Oh my goodness, BOTH pies have got to GO.  Anyway, I did pretty well but have not weighed myself, so who really knows.

I have not heard back from the Hard Yoga studio that offers Friday night yoga - regarding a promotional 10% off.  Perhaps it is not meant to be.  Well, with the holiday and all, perhaps the owner just hasn't gotten back to me yet.

Any yoga I do today will be at home, and I'm not so sure I'll do any today.  I feel like I need a reset, a refocus.

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/30/2019:
Oh poor kitty.....Hope the meds get there in time.... I'm glad that you have had some time with your son.....I'm sure you guys were relieved to see him.

happy-1 on 11/30/2019:
From your comment on Legcramp's post... "I love a clean house. That's all I'm saying. My son doesn't understand why it's so important to me. It's not that cleanliness in itself is important, but rather, the dirtiness - I'm not talking untidy, I'm talking dirty - attacks my inner well-being. And I'm not really a germaphobe by any means."

Because our homes are an expression of our minds and every corner has to be in order to feel whole.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/01/2019:
Today i noticed you didn't have a mantra.

I hope your kitty feels better, i'm really sorry you and the kitty are having to deal with this upsetting situation!

I'm so glad you were able to spend time with your son! so how is he doing!?

It might be difficult for the yoga studies to return your call so soon due to the holiday? perhaps? also, isn't it great to be able to exercise at home? boy is it easier for me than going out to the gym!!!! for myself i plan to do legs!...i must write what i do in my entry today for a legs routine.

Horn_of_plenty on 12/01/2019:
i just wrote out my leg exercises on my diary entry :)

Donkey - Thursday Nov 28, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

Day 59:  Today I honor my blessings.  Mantra:  Happy Thanksgiving!

 I am enjoying a quiet morning.  Everyone is still sleeping. I checked on my kids and our poor little sick kitty.  Old Kitty has said her good mornings.  New Kitty is still in his room, where he stays overnight, so that our house can rest without the possiblity of major cat battles during the night.  I had a handful of walnuts and a smaller handful of almonds.  I am drinking coffee.

Because my daughter has to work today, we are planning on having a Thanksgiving breakfast brunch.  I know there will be yogurt, fresh fruit, and some kind of blueberry French Toast casserole dish.  

For dinner, which will be myself, Mr. Donkey, and Son, because nobody here is a big turkey eater, we're having shepherd's pie instead, with spiced baked apples, (possibly Brussel spouts, otherwise green salad), and then 2 types of pie for dessert, apple and pumpkin.

I will do the best that I can do.  

I had a very nice Stress Reducing session on Tuesday.  Yesterday, Mistakes Girl and I tried "Gentle Yoga", to give it a test run before recommending it to Male Co-Worker.  I personally felt that this class is exactly what he needs - easy, gentle, relaxing - to help him with his anxiety.  I was a little disappointed though, because usually Danielle teaches the class, and I wanted to meet her and try out her teaching style.  She's in Vegas visiting family for the holiday - which kind of stabbed me, because this is what *I* should be doing - so the teacher was the owner, Sarah.  I like Sarah, but I did want to meet someone new.

So I didn't get out of it what I wanted.  

I've been struggling with return to Vinyasa Yoga (see Donkey's Yoga Disaster 3).  Love the challenge, appreciate teacher Jeanne, but I don't know if I'm ready for it...  I like the challenge, but is it honoring my body's limitations?  I was thinking, because I have hip alignment and lower back issues, perhaps balance poses will never be a possibility for me.  Like the Library Yoga teacher, who is also physically limited (weight loss surgery), perhaps this is me, too.  

I'm thinking of going back to the first yoga studio (see Donkey's Yoga Disaster 1), because they offer a Friday evening "Let Go" class.  That is the only class I would plan to take with them.  I received an offer for a 10% discount because I attended that awful free class.  I was thinking of getting a 10-class ticket.  They are discounted for "newbies" - a one-time deal.

IDK, lately I've been experiencing discouragement in my yoga journey.  I suppose even with that which we love, there are difficulties...  

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 11/28/2019:
The zen of yoga for me is there even if I don't do it perfectly....for me it's a mind set...or mind shift...it's calming and since i do it at home....there is no chance of anyone else noticing my mistakes...of course D could click a picture if he was to sneak downstairs but he has no idea of how to put that on the internet...so I'm safe....he may chuckle...but that is the worst thing that can happen. I just prescribe to progress not perfection.....i have never been perfect in anything I have ever done in life...so I don't expect it anymore....just a perk of living so long I guess....but my guess is that you are doing so much better now than you did those first few times....and that is a GOOD THING!!!

Donkey on 11/28/2019:
"Progress not perfection" -- YES!!!

But do I subject myself to the physical effort and humiliation/frustration in the meantime? I guess there's no improvement without struggling with the process...

BearCountryGG on 11/28/2019:
Have a wonderful Thanksgiving...so nice that your son is home for a visit!!!

Donkey on 11/28/2019:
It IS so nice to have him home - I'm so proud of him!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/29/2019:
Happy Thanksgiving to you too! I love a pumpkin pie. i wish we had it. we also had an apple streusel and wow....wayyyy too much cinnamon and while the doughy breading was good, the apple part was not! did you make yours?

hmmm...even though you didn't get out of yoga to meet the teacher, you still did an entire full session of yoga practice :) that to me is the bigger accomplishment and wow! - you brought your coworker!? how cool!

why with weight loss surgery is the teacher limited? do you know? (curious)

for your yoga, realize (perhaps) that to get what you want from it and learn what you like, you're checking out everything to also see what is not for you. it's all know to you, so i guess it's not all roses.

once, i was VERY into hot yoga. for over a year, maybe more like 2 years. with the hot yoga, i didn't like it at first, but it grew on me...

you are just learning what you like and don't like with yoga and it makes sense for you not to like everything but in your exploration, i guess you are going by trial and error!

Donkey on 11/30/2019:
I thank you for your words of encouragement and wise perspective! Yes, I give myself credit for getting over to 6pm yoga. Those 6pm class times are really hard because of work. I AM hoping that we can encourage Male Co-Worker to attend the class.

True, I am still testing the waters. I am much more into Yin Yoga - slower paced, holding positions for 5-10 breaths - than any other kind of yoga. I still want - or think I want - the challenge of a faster paced class. I'll give it a little more time to see if I can improve. If not, then I'm going to focus more on what I CAN do.

The Library Yin Yoga teacher said that she used yoga as her physical exercise component to her weight-loss surgery. She still has quite a bit of excess skin and fat, so she may not be done losing. And I don't know if yoga is the ONLY thing she does - she may do some walking too.

I find for myself that being larger in the legs and having extra flab in my gut interferes with faster yoga. The legs are kind of double-edged: I have amazing strength that I didn't even know, but being larger, some of the positions are not attainable because the muscle gets in the way. And my gut - well I've had that since I was 20, but the extra skin is from having 2 HUGE babies!

happy-1 on 11/29/2019:
Don't worry about struggling or being embarrassed. You do you and have fun. Other people are far more worried about their cellulite and fat to worry about your poses.

Donkey on 11/30/2019:
THANKS! I know you are right. What is silly is that there is a feeling of disappointing the instructor ("What am I doing wasting my time teaching this clumsy donkey who can't keep up?") And yet, I know this is not so. First of all, one's yoga is about oneself, not expectations of the teacher. Second of all, Jeanne was so encouraging, and being a new studio, I would hope that it's better to teach one student - even if she's not perfect - than to have no one show up.

happy-1 on 11/29/2019:
And I' struggling to get to the mat too.

happy-1 on 12/02/2019:
I'd say she needs the bodies to keep the class going and is probably happy to be part of someone making positive life changes.

happy-1 on 12/02/2019:
Also, if they don't want beginners they need to put some levels on it so that Level 3's don't have to put up with Level 0.1's :-P

Donkey - Tuesday Nov 26, 2019
(Lazy/dirty keto & recumbent biking (indoor))
Weight: 134.0

 Day 57:  

The soreness in my neck lasted until the afternoon yesterday,  but is no longer bothering me this morning.  Yay!

I did not sleep well at all.  My husband was up all night with GI and bathroom problems. He did not sleep at all, so at least I'm better off than he is. 

I found out yesterday that myself and Nice Lady will be the only ones in the office on Friday (Thursday is American Thanksgiving).  Everyone else is taking the day off. 

Tonight is Stress Reducing Yoga.  If you couldn't tell,  I've been very discouraged about yoga lately.  Sunday, I was so down in the dumps about it. 

It's funny how this one thing (yoga) is bringing up so many unresolved issues that I've been carrying around with me:  body image,  gender issues, performance issues,  aging issues...

Progress as of today: 52.5 lbs lost so far, only -2.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 11/26/2019:
Maybe you and Nice Lady could take off Friday also? Make for a long weekend? But if not, at least it should be stress-free Friday, with just the two of you working, so that would be good. I hope that you and your Hubby feel better today. Good that you have your yoga to reduce stress as well as it is a good workout, too. Hope you have a good day.

Donkey on 11/26/2019:
That is a good idea - to do something together. I will have stuff to do on Friday (planned it that way) that should take only an hour at the most. I plan to leave at lunchtime, and she said she plans to stay until 3pm. Maybe though, we could do something together at work, if we have nothing to do.

BearCountryGG on 11/26/2019:
Hope you are both feeling better...Issues.....I think we all have them...sometimes I think we are our own toughest critics.....

Donkey on 11/28/2019:
100% true - I might be too hard on myself. Is this a lesson to learn through yoga? Perhaps... perhaps...

horn_of_plenty on 11/27/2019:
Try to take all the yoga with a grain of salt like you know it should be since it’s voluntary and meant to help and not to hurt...

Will Friday be easier ?

Donkey on 11/28/2019:
You are completely right about yoga. Why do I struggle with accepting my own limitations? *sigh*

I do not have much to do at work on Friday. I plan to stay until 11am, to be frank. Oh... I just realized that I should try to be home when my daughter is awake right before she goes to work at noon.... Well, I do not think that part will work out.

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