So yes, I left work early yesterday. I had initially planned to leave at 3pm (forget the movie - I can watch it anytime now that I know I can stream it), but New Gal pissed me off so much that I promptly changed my leave time to 1:30p. And I left at 1:37p which is pretty prompt for me.
I was so honked off at New Gal, that I took it out on Associate Attorney. I quickly apologized, letting him know that I'm mad at someone else and took it out on him. He said he understood me completely. Then I went to Nice Lady and told her how I was feeling. She was quite sympathetic and agreed that New Gal is "untouchable" -- cannot correct or reproach her in any way.
I was still upset, so I vented to Mistakes Gal, who then told me that she was so mad at New Guy (attorney). I went to Male Co-Worker and he told me that he was so mad at New Guy (attorney) and New Gal.
So we're all just a bunch of frustrated people mad at each other.
I left at 1:30pm and i noticed that the Boss had a 3pm appointment at the hospital for what I think will be a heart monitor. The other attorneys had meetings in the afternoon, so they can do without me for 3.5 hours while I regained my sanity.
Eating went well, probably because I left work early. I did minimal leg weights, but that's OK because at least I did something. Enjoyed a nice walk on my treadmill, a couple of nice bike rides on my recumbent bike to loosen up my back. I did manage to catch the end of the movie on TV. I still want to watch it from the beginning.
I went to Walmart and walked out with, among other personal items, 2 more plants.
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!
Eating did not go as well yesterday (Tuesday) as it did on Monday. If I could eat every day like I did on Monday, I would reach my goals. Too many chocolates at work. Then, had tortilla chips at dinner, which were extra. Should have just kept the darn bag shut. Talk about Pandora's Box -- it's more like Padora's Bag of Chips.
Good news though - Male Co-Worker is NOT leaving early today, so I can leave early as I had wanted, which I think I will do, especially if my plant books I ordered from the library come in.
More good news - I discovered that the movie is on TV this afternoon is also available on Paramount+, so I can stream it with no commercials, which I think I will do.
I also may shop a little bit at Walmart, by myself, and pick up a plant or 2 that I saw over the weekend, but did not purchase. I've been thinking of these 2 particular plants since then, quite a bit. There are other things I need to get, too, so it's not just for the plants. (LOL)
I did do upper body weights last night - chest and shoulders, triceps. Tonight will be legs, if I can muster up the motivation. The biggest concern is losing what I've worked hard to gain.
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!
I always visit the discounted plant section at lowes, All the poor things usually need is a tall cool glass of water.
glad you got your workouts in last night, especially upper body. you are back in teh game xo....yes, stick to the discipline so you do not lose your gains...that's basically my motivation right now more than anything.
So a few of things happened:
So I can't take Wednesday afternoon off to watch the TV movie, because Male Co-Worker is already leaving at 3:30pm. Technically, yes I could leave at 1pm, but it leaves a lot of work unmonitored. So I'm thinking of renting the movie from the library, instead, and taking a different day off. That way, I don't have to sit through commercials at least, and I can take the day off that I want.
That "slow-down" that the Boss keeps talking about - you wouldn't know it from all the new contracts that are coming in. And who are these people who are willing to pay $10,000 to $28,000 more than a house is worth? Do they not know what the word "equity"means?
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!
What was that movie? Do you have a DVR? We record what we can from Sling and over the air. Think not possible to record from some streaming services, but we get lots over the air & from Sling. Not so much from Prime anymore.
Matt recoded Once Upon a Time in Hollywood off the air on the DVR. Saw it before. Love Brad Pitt and Leonardo. Some real acting chops on display in that film. They are not just pretty faces, them boys.
and yes, even here, homes go for thousands over the listing price.
My sister paid like 50K over asking/the listing.
How does it not become the new value of the home if all the homes in the area are going for more?
Look at your body battery from monday vs tuesday. Are the levels for tuesday lower than monday?
Another Monday, another work week...
Sunday's hike never materilized because it ended up raining, and then the temperatures dropped a bit. It's too bad Daughter isn't a morning person, LOL, in some respects, but in others, it's good that she likes to sleep in and can do on her days off. I try hard to respect her sleep.
However, I spent a lot of time with my plants which was very rewarding. Also, after the gym, I stopped by a lady's house to pick up some watering cans (for plants) for $2 each off of Facebook Marketplace. I got 2 of them, and they are just what I wanted & needed.
Tonight is yoga, and I truly hope that work is not too busy, too stressful of a day.
I'm thinking of taking half a day off on Wednesday, so that I can watch a movie that's on TV at 2pm. That may sound silly but there you go.
I had mentionted to Happy that I was thinking of changing things up for a week. My plan was to try to go to the gym in the morning to do the elliptical for 30 mintues. That did not happen today -- but it's a thought to keep in mind. It would be interesting to see how the daily step-count works out by doing that.
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!
Great score on FB Marketplace. Reminds me, I never did get around to putting my old bike on Craig’s for free, along with a bird cage and working TV. We wanted bigger ones. I never liked selling anything. Did so with cars & houses only, otherwise I donate & will put the Craig’s items in the driveway.
It was an OK day - except for some extra sadness, but that's OK. Of course, it wasn't as good as weekends when I can spend more time with my plants, LOL...
if not, i'm sure you can record and watch it while you exericse?
either way, it's a nice thought of something to do. i can see why ;)
Today was supposed to be gray and rainy, but instead, temperatures have cooled off nicely (low to mid 70's) and the sun is out. This opens an array of possibilities for today.
I did not want to get out of bed, so I stayed in a little too long to make it to the gym early. I'll go around 10am when the 2 elliptical ladies should be done. Husband changed his mind about going to the hobby store (in a town that I hate), so I plan to spend my afternoon repotting some more plants that need it. I bought 2 more plants at Walmart (total under $10), that looked like they needed me as much as I needed them.
I have no plans for weight training today. Daughter has today off, maybe she'd like to go for a hike but if not, that's OK, because I have plants to work on. Hiking will supercede the plants, though.
I did not meet my water goal yesterday. Eating, though, was a lot less "stressful" -- I can't think of a better word to describe it. When I'm at work, I seem to be wanting to eat more, all the time. When I'm at home, I feel more focused on doing things, and not eating.
At the gym, yesterday, I went into the hot tub after cardio on the elliptical. That was so nice. I went in the afternoon. When I go on Sunday mornings, I don't use the hot tub afterwards. This is a nice routine that I like. I haven't used any of the weight machines at the gym -- I don't think I've done so since Son passed away.
Today:
While meaning no disrespect, keeping busy keeps the grief at bay.
why do you hate the town where the hobby store is - a poor town or something like that? or crowded?
nice job going to gym....
at work, you are doing work, and you may crave energy...another reason you are hungry....also go back to your deep breathing and water. nice job staying on track this weeking.
i think at times that the water is overrated similarly to how i feel about protein..keep on, and not everyday needs to be perfect. even getting close to the water goal of yours may be sufficient.
if you don't comment on an entry of mine, it is soooo ok. being off the computer is good for the soul!!!!!!! i know from experience. haha
I will try to focus on deep breathing and water, while at work. This will also help me get into a good mindspace for yoga tonight.
Good to see the number come down a bit, especially since I am feeling kind of fluffy and bloated lately. With temperatures in the upper 80s or even 90 this past week, I've had to dip into my summer waredrobe. I have 4 pairs of capri pants. The black ones fit, but they have a stretchy material. A little tight in the thighs - always the issue with me. The dark green ones are quite comfortable. The beige ones -- the smallest pair, size 8 -- are wearable, but I was afraid that they would feel too tight after a while so I did not wear them to work. It's a sensory issue thing -- if they are too tight, it would drive me to distraction to the point that I'd have to come home and change. Didn't want to deal with that yesterday, especially since we were short-staffed.
Too much eating. We had a title company rep come into the office yesterday with soft-serve ice cream from Wendy's. I just couldn't resist and had a vanilla one. And yes, I ate the whole thing. Then I had 2 Fannie May chocolates from a box dropped off by another title company rep. I left those at work, because I thought if I brought them home, I'd eat the whole box over the weekend.
Did NOT succeed with my water goal.
Church Grief Group was much nicer because there were only 4 of us + the leader. There was a new lady there who I know outside of this group. She lost her husband in January. It was easier for me to talk and contribute to the smaller group, and there were a few tidbits presented that I took with me that I will use for my own grief journey.
Husband surprised me this morning by saying he wants to go to a hobby shop in a town that I hate. I suggested that maybe tomorrow would be a better day, because it's suppsed to rain all day. Today is the last warm, dry day for a few days. Also, I have other things I want to do, too. He's open to waiting until tomorrow, except that tomorrow is Daughter's day off. Oh well... he may end up going on his own.
I'm actually thinking of / wanting to go to Walmart by myself, just for myself. I'm looking for a special type of watering can, which they may or may not have, maybe some plant food, and possibly a plant to cheer myself up with. Plants are life.
Progress as of today: 45 lbs lost so far, only 8.5 lbs to go!
I had to dig into the summer clothes as well....but since I don't work I can get by at home with what I have leftover from last year/or before.....Work clothes do take a lot more consideration....Sounds like the green ones will be a favorite for the next few months....But I always seem to gravitate to black.......when I get down to 2 pair of black pants...it's time to do some shopping...LOL
Time to really get serious about gardening...looks like the snow is gone for good...YIPPEE.
I'm glad you are feeling good re Friday's entry. with everyone out,you'll have less office distraction and prob be able to do your work well. i like when folks are out also! :) Monday my boss will be out and he left me some work which i'm happy about...
Finally your Chicago weather is wayyyyyy higher than here in NYC. we had seasonal 70's, some rain. my dad had a "good weather week" by you. He heads home today. mom already home since tuesday.
when we have sweet temptations at work, i usually DO try to take a little of them, bc a little bit fits in calorie-wise. i consider the sweets part of my breakfast or morning snack quite usually...i have learned to go this way.
as with your overeating, i'm sorta doing that in the evenings right now....i think it caused minor weight gain so that when i step on the scale by evenings, it's up more than i put on my entry which is def only a morning weight now...i can also feel it in my clothes, but it's still a good weight...i may pull back some nights of eating, if i can...i think planning better or taking only portions of snacks and adding fruit to dinner may help...point is, if i want to lower my evening calories, i will have to take only servings to where i am eating and not a full bag; and add in fruit.
I feel rested and somewhat "motivated" to live. That is to say, rather than feeling dragged, I feel energized enough to face the day. And it should be an interesting day with Mistakes Girl out AND New Gal out of the office this morning. I had taken this day off too, but I feel like if I take any time off now, I would just come back to a desk full of ****. It's such an uncomfortable feeling to have to catch up and re-orient myself to where each file is at.
Eating yesterday was OK, I think I did OK. Did lower body weights, even though it was a struggle to get started. Did not do as well with my water goal. When I use iced coffee in the afternoons, to curb my munchies, then I don't drink as much water. It's always something....
I've been feeling my grief bubble up to the surface a few times this week. But I can feel my grief changing.
Progress as of today: 42.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
One thing I really noticed though is that it is a completely different office without Mistakes Girl. I've grown to really like her and appreciate her. I wish I could have met her earlier in life. She's taught me a lot about what's really important in life, how to live a better life.
Yesterday, I told my Boss that if our work environment wasn't so chaotic and crazy busy, that I would ask for a leave of absence. I am just at the end of my rope most - if not all - of the time. I learned that Replacement Kid is actually NOT staying with us long-term but only for the summer until he starts his Bachelor's Degree studies in August. So in August, we'll be facing this same situation, EXCEPT that there won't be anyone extra (like Mistakes Girl) around to train the next new person. I have to say, What was the Boss thinking???
Actually, I can answer that. The Boss predicts that the real estate market will slow WAY down with inflation and interest rates. Personally, I don't think it will slow down quick enough, AND I'm not sure that the New Guy's clientel will follow that pattern. He works with a largely Latino population, and this demographic seems to not follow overall trends to the extent that the mainstream does. Our office has a motto: Nothing will change. Because it doesn't. Oh sure, people come and go, but the work environment and its inequities and injustices never changes, because the Boss fosters this kind of environment by refusing to get involved in management issues. Take it or leave it.
And right now, I take it because I am comfortable where I'm at. They know me, they knew Son & understand what I'm going through, and I know the job well enough to do it half-asleep. Husband doesn't understand this.
Last night, I had a headache and I was sore and tired. I was eating dinner - again, ate too much - and thought to myself, "What would Happy do?" and I said back, to myself, "She would rest." So that's what I did, for the most part. I played stupid games on my phone. I ate a small dish of ice cream (oops). I ended up going outside and trimming my suffering citronella plant, and in the process, kinked up my back. So I DID ride the bike for about 20 minutes to loosen up my hips, but this was NOT a workout by any means. Just a light, easy bike ride to loosen up. I think that bike ride really saved my back this morning, except that my right hip and leg are achy and tight. No weights.
Did very well with water again, and eating at work seems to be going well, but now Dinner has popped up as a problem. It's always something, isn't it...
Progress as of today: 42.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
If I could, I would take a month off, and just maybe focus on walking/hiking, plants, and yoga.
Not enough sleep and the sleep I got was too stresseful. My body battery is already at 43, although I did ride the bike and walk on the treadmill. I walk about a mile in the morning. That seems to help meet my step goal.
BUT I am quite pleased to announce that I *finally* met my Garmin water goal. Yay!!! I had to make a concerted effort at times to drink water. Having those water bottles lined up really helps A LOT. (Thanks again to Happy for her suggestion!)
Work was extremely stressful and busy yesterday. So many contracts coming in. I haven't had the opportunity to check much of the Replacement Kid's work. I decided to be pro-active and let him know that if he has an issue with my tone of voice (like New Gal did), that it has nothing to with him. I'm going through some stuff right now, and sometimes it comes out in my voice. I also told him that when I check his work, I'm looking for mistakes in procedure, not typos, because he's still learning. You can't learn correctly if you don't know you're making mistakes, and I think he agreed. I do like him, BUT I do not feel particularly attached to him. That will come in time, especially once Mistakes Girl leaves.
I was thinking of having a Diaper Party for Mistakes Girl. When they were expecting their first baby, she and her husband went out and bought EVERYTHING for the baby who didn't make it. So they don't really need anything, but they will need diapers, I promise you that. Apparently though, we're in a diaper shortage now, due to "supply chain" issues. I'm so mad at COVID for everything it brought forth in our world. I won't say any more on that.
Another thing to cheer about is that I did manage to do upper body weights last night. I did a mixture of light and heavy. Again, not really my favorite thing to do, but it's gotta get done. I'm wondering what I could do to make weight training more desireable or enjoyable. I'm taking suggestions in the comments. Tonight's plan is lower body weights.
I did OK with food until dinner. I way overate at dinner (Chinese take-out). I had THREE crab ragoon and 2nd helpings of the teriyaki chicken. The chicken didn't come with vegetables, so I made my own broccoli to add to it.
I need to work on getting to bed earlier. I think the root of my behavioral difficulties starts there.
Progress as of today: 42.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
I love Chinese food! Had it yesterday
Good job on the water and communication with the guy you are training that you are under a lot of stress. I admire how you keep pushing.
Yesterday was rough. Really rough. BUT I am pleased to say that I kept the eating in check AND managed to meet my FitBit water goal. I was 2 ounces short of meeting my Garmin water goal. It's definitely easier to meet these water goals in the warmer/hot weather, especially when the Boss doesn't turn on the AC until almost 3pm. Having those 3 water bottles lined up at my desk to drink has really made a BIG difference, though. When I can see what needs to be done, it's much easier than trying to remember to pay attention to internal cues.
At work, I had an annoying realtor - who I actually like very much - press me about my Mother's Day, so I told her about losing our Son. The day was kind of downhill after that.
The Replacement Guy is doing OK, but he has a LOT to learn. And I can tell that he doesn't really understand what he's doing, from the mistakes he makes. He did not take the real estate class at paralegal school (same school I got my certificate), which is unfortunate for this job. But we're at the point where it's too late to be picky about who helps us. Under other circumstances, I would ask to take an extended leave of absence, just to get my head straight, I think. However, this isn't a realistic option at this time. We probably have Mistakes Girl until the end of May, and then things are about to get considerably more difficult.
Zoom Grief Group was OK, though. I didn't say much, other than to introduce myself. But it felt comforting to be "around" others. I will attend next month's meeting, too.
I will make it a priority to do weights tonight. I want to do upper body, but if the motivation is low, then I might do lower body, since those always seem easier for me to do, as they require less focus.
I would also like to start doing some yoga before bed. I say this, knowing that wanting it and doing it are light years apart. It's hard to be alone with my own thoughts, like that.
Progress as of today: 42.5 lbs lost so far, only 11 lbs to go!
I told my Husband that if I didn't have to work, I would be grieving in a completely different way.
I am glad and grateful to have these support groups available to me.
i'm glad the zoom group is helpful to you. this is really good news for you and the support you are able to get :)
I also have a priority on weights; can't skip unless i WANT to get weaker...and that's really hard to recover from...i'm still not where i was a few months back...so can't skip. it's part of my life...and yours...so we keep it in the mix.
It's probably that evening bike ride that has to go... ugh...
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you did a lot in the afternoon. i have learned that it feels good to leave early and get many things done for yourself midweek. i'm glad you did things for you. try to just work thru the annoyances at work...it's good you can chat with Mistakes cal. it's good to have someone to lean on. I have someone at my job, too. He's around 56 and been in the industry a long time. His background is that his family is from Trinidad but he grew up fully here thru the schools and his own youth. But obviously being he's not my age or family culture, i am sure his childhood was quite different from mine. either way, he's quite level headed, full of common sense, and positive and has helped me a lot. always kind to me and helpful with his advice if i ask it. he's the one that brings almost all the snacks for everyone also.
I'm sure that when I'm out of the office, everyone stabs me in the back too. Lord knows I've had my fair share of knives, too.
I feel like I'm in a situation like "the enemy of my enemy is my friend", considering all that I've been through with Male Co-Worker and Mistakes Girl. I've grown to appreciate aspects of both of them that I think have made me a better person.
PS Everybody loves a Snack Guy. :-)
innerpeace on 05/19/2022:
Sorry to chuckle at your work situation...but I do the exact same thing always taking it out on someone else and the apology afterwards. I am glad you were able to leave early and relax with some retail therapy at Walmart. still love your names for the people... I hope tomorrow is a better day.
Oh I paid the price for leaving early - very, very busy. But I'm pleased to say that I'm pretty much all caught up, except for a couple of things that have been sitting on my desk for a while. Those don't count.
Maria7 on 05/19/2022:
Nice that you got two more plants. What kind did you get?
I bought a Chinese evergreen that has green & reddish leaves. I bought this one because there was a pulled out sprout on the shelf that looked good but would die if left there. So I stuck the sprout into the pot and brought the pot home. Took the sprout out, coated the bottom with root hormone growth powder, and stuck it back into the pot. It hasn't died yet.
The other plant was a Ficus Audrey. It was in a mislabeled pot, and I thought maybe it was a "bird of paradise". Sadly it wasn't, but that's OK because she has beautiful green leaves. Mistakes Girl told me that Ficus plants can get quite big/tall.
happy-1 on 05/19/2022:
Why is she untouchable?
She is a church friend of New Guy and hired by him, even though Boss is the one who actually cuts her paycheck. We are told that New Gal has enough to do. Anytime anything is mentioned about her sharing the load or making unnecessary changes, we are told not to go there.
happy-1 on 05/19/2022:
From your comment… If you use it as a sweetner, get a tub on iherb. Mine is in 1000mg capsules. I’m taking those right now. I popped one open to see what it tasted like… lemony and lightly sweet. Careful not to overdo it.
A 61 body battery actually means only go for a walk in the morning and do light stretching. No cardio or weights. I’m getting way different messages this week with it in the 80s and 90s consistently. It’s so magic 8 ball.
I'm going to check this out. Thanks for the info!
bearcountrygg on 05/20/2022:
I know a lot of people find gardening so relaxing......Lucky you finding just the right plants.....( I wish I had a green thumb...!!!)