So frustrated with the number on the scale. Extra shoveling workouts, plenty of water, extra sleep, no desserts, bathroom matters in check, stayed on track with food... 3 pound gain, gained 1% fat. Why must this be a neverending battle? When is the war won?
Today is my step-father's memorial service. The weather is snowy, so I'm not looking forward to the ride down to the suburbs. Staying the night in a hotel, to visit with family, but it's going to snow overnight, so I'm not looking forward to coming home to a lot of shoveling. Food and exercise will be a challenge.
Work is starting to get busy, but I'm keeping my stress levels in check so far. This is the calm before the storm, LOL.
Progress as of today: 55.5 lbs lost so far, only -5.5 lbs to go!
Major snow for the Chicago area tonight and all day tomorrow. My daughter does not have school tomorrow, so I will let her know that I expect her to keep up with the shoveling while I'm at work - presuming I can get the car out of the garage and the roads aren't too bad. I am going to bed early tonight, because I anticipate heavy shoveling tomorrow morning.
I've been doing well food -wise and exercise wise. However, I am not expecting a loss on the scale this week.
Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!
i hope the snow is not too bad in the AM :)
you sound happy. Not every week is a loss in weight...I think i'm up a hair so i'll be working on doing better than i did this week for next week.
keep up the good work, you are definitely more on track than when your son first went to training...keep sending him positive letters in the mail, motivate and support him...tell him he can do it, to keep on, to rise above the rest by continuing on even if it's very challenging out there in basic training. he needs your support. just like you like support also :)
Oh how I would like to take a shower and get ready for bed, but I have to shovel one more time right before Daughter comes home from work tonight at 9pm. Oh well, more steps for the FitBit, more exercise for me.
I left work at 4pm today because the snow coming down had all the promises of an awful evening commute. SO GLAD I DID THIS. I had come in a half an hour early, and I can do that tomorrow too. I was all caught up when I left. I'll probably be busier tomorrow, since I'll have an extra hour of emails to plow through but it was worth it.
Received a letter from my son today. It may be the only one I get while he's in boot camp. He's having a hard time coping. So my letters have been more newsy about what's going on at home, but I think my focus will change to more encouraging and tips for keeping his head in the game. I'm worried about him. If you pray, could you please send a prayer his way? If you don't pray, could you please channel some positive energy his direction? Think Texas.
Had a food hangover this morning from the Superbowl. After we were done eating, it hit me that I had eaten something REALLY salty. I could not get enough water in me. Woke up this morning feeling all gross. I'm guessing it was the 1.5 slices of pepperoni pizza. It sure was fun though.
Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!
people quit more to negative thinking than the actual physical aspect...i have read this.
tell him this.
Not always.
Snowing and cold here today. I had a protein packed breakfast, so I'm full, but I just came in from shoveling, and I want to eat, even though I know I'm not hungry. I'm going to try to wait until after my noon show to have a later lunch.
Our daughter has to work this afternoon, so it's just me and Mr. Donkey for Superbowl dinner. Neither one of us has much invested in either team, though. Usually I buy a bunch of finger foods, and we have an hors d'ouevers menu for dinner. But with son and daughter gone, I thought we'd have a treat of pizza for dinner, with tortilla & raw vegetables to go with guacamole, hummus, and fres salsa (more like a pico de gallo if you ask me).
A month ago, I dyed my hair a dark brown, and as the color was starting to fade, I went with "soft black" this weekend. While not a complete disaster, I do not like it as much as much. The brown has warm undertones which suit my skintone better than the cool undertones of the black, which make me look wane and washed out (read: old & tired). Maybe I'll get used to it, but if not, I'm not too worried as it will wash out in about 4-6 weeks.
My boss comes back to work at the end of the week. Not really looking forward to his return. He will want to talk about his fabulous vacation and what he missed here at the office, and I'd rather just be left alone to do my work, since I can't trust anyone with anything that is said any more. Also, Superbowl weekend kicks off the real estate season (believe it or not), and even with the cold and snow, things will start to get busier, unfortunately.
Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!
Then I look out the window and see a ton of snow, and think, FLORIDA. ;-) (not really)
I'd planned on gym, but ended up being too tired so was left to lay on couch, but didn't turn on the superbowl. was so weird without the gym and plans for last night LOL.
yeah, i think brown on you is also nicer, but black can be a change of pace...your skin isn't as light as mine, thankfully, so i'm sure it looks better than most white women who dye their hair black....your skin has a little olive so that can help.
also, good for you on getting back to the weight you want...scale is only day to day and our bodies naturally aren't going to give you the same read out everyday. ...ok, you know this, keep on doing the good things.
myself - i'm going to also be working on getting back to a healthier routine - especially getting away from some of the carbs - ESPECIALLY with breakfast. i'm going to try to be eating meat (egg/turkey/etc) as my breakfast - and be leaving the peanut butter on bread for awhile, i think, as i feel i need something more filling..
Right where I belong at 128.5, and it's been a productive week as far as goals and putting things into their proper perspective.
I adjusted my "goal weight" on my FitBit tracker to a maintenance mode of 125. I started the year at 128.5 and seem to be maintaining that number plus or minus (mostly plus) 2 pounds. That's maintenance. I haven't changed my goal weight here, though, because I do want to see the progress that I made this time around in losing (the same) weight.
Also, I'm playing with the idea of limiting my steps/activity from week to week. One week, I will aim to have a step goal of 15,000 steps a day, and then the next week, lower the goal to 10,000. That will serve 2 purposes:
Had a revelation from one of my comments earlier this week: the scale does not always reward healthy choices. The scale(s) really messed with my mind this week. I had that big sweet potato for lunch (a healthy choice but lots of carbs), but the scale showed I lost 2 pounds, and yet, the body fat scale said that I GAINED 1% body fat. WHAT???? So what does that mean?:
This is just crazy.
PS BEST ACCOMPLISHMENT THIS WEEK: Loads of work drama, and I pretty much stayed out of it. YES!
Progress as of today: 58 lbs lost so far, only -8 lbs to go!
Thank you all for your kind words of sympathy and support 
Today was a hungry day. I hate it when it's like that. To self-critique, I probably ate too many carbs, including a large sweet potato for lunch, a 100 calorie bag of popcorn (thanks, Maria7!), 2 slices of (diet) bread, and a Fiber One cinnamon "cake" cube thing.
I switched things up this week, because I ran out of almond milk, so instead of having oatmeal with walnuts in the morning, I'm having toast with organic peanut butter.
Hoping for a better weigh-in this week. I took Horn's self-discipline attitude regarding her workouts, and decided that if I want the numbers to go the way I want them to go, I will need to be self-discipled about it, and deny some things that I would indulge in. Then today happened, LOL.
PS Threw out the rest of the cake this morning.
Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
i sometimes eat a massive banana and tell myself the potassium and all outweighs the sugar crash i tend to get...lol.
and your note on self discipline - i am getting weaker each time i am at the gym - i can tell bc i am going down in the weights i use. my current fitness plan didn't include bicep curls and i tried them last night and cringed at how difficult they were getting for me! so i am adding them back into my routine despite my fitness plan not including them...
also, in order for me to get better at this very hard fitness plan - just like you are doing with i think eating or weight - i realize it needs to be a 3x a week venture, not 2x. so, despite my desire to not go on friday nights or sunday nights, i'll be including those nights for awhile since that's the best way right now for me to get in 3x a week sessions....i'm doing the uncomfortable to make improvements. if i stick to 2x a week or just don't think about a plan, i see myself not improving much...so cheers to making a commitment and plan to make things happen.
and things DO HAPPEN if you work at it. people at my new job...they have asked if i go to gym and ask what i do. they think i'm so fit...little do they know i've been working at it (mostly on but sometimes i've had to take off bc injuries as you are aware) but i've been working at this goal - the weights - for YEARS. little do they know, i started weights around 22yrs old. now i'm 35. that's 13 years, mostly on a regular schedule - but the results you couldn't really see the first several years...maybe until i turned 30! so, we must learn to always appreciate the PROCESS it takes, not the result.
for me, appreciating the process means struggling right now at the gym with the new routine bc i have confidence deep down that i'm going to improve. right now, i can quit bc i am so terrible at the exercises, but i'd rather just keep on...and keep in my mind that with 3x a week of practice, i may just be able to improve enough to be a court officer...right now it's downright scary...but i'd rather be excited to try out the process..which is why i am continuing.
I confess that I was doing some research into older entries (from random public members -- I've communicated to you about doing this), and I came across your entries when you were talking about running 6-7 miles. And then some of your entries while you were recovering, and now of course, where you are now.
I'm going to give some thought to what you said about enjoying the process.
A couple of things...
#1 - My step-father passed away yesterday morning. May God bless him. When he was initially diagnosed with liver cancer, the doctor said that with the course of treatment he chose, he would have about 7 years, and sure enough, he had passed 6.5 years right before the holidays so almost 7 years. It was an empty, gray, cold day, with not much purpose. I felt like a zombie for most of the day, but tried to be active here and there. (This is where my FitBit was helpful, because it helped me stay on track to be active enough.) The memorial will be in 2 weeks.
#2 - Because Papa passed away, we were able to get a message to my son via the Red Cross, which got my son a 15 minute phone call home. He called Mr. Donkey, which is fine because I was at work and I know my husband has been so worried about him. I write letters almost every day, so I feel connected to my son, but my husband hasn't written - not his thing, I guess - so he's been left to stew in his anxiety. Thank you, Red Cross.
Now we have his graduation date, so we're making plans to go down to Texas to see him graduate from basic training in March. That is something to look forward to. Even though it will be a financial strain, I wouldn't miss this.
Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
I'm so glad your husband spoke with your son - this must have you feeling way better. <3
Well, I suck.
I went off the deep end last night. I can't recall if I was truly hungry, but I was having a yearning to eat. The problem started with having a late lunch on the road, coming home from the band competition. So I was hungry at around 7pm but nobody else was. Also, I was missing my son something terrible. We haven't heard from him yet. We thought he'd be able to call home on Friday, but here we are on Sunday and no phone call. I hope he's not mad at us. And I hope he's OK.
So I was missing my son, and I am tired of having his good-bye cake staring me in the face at the dinner table every night this past week, so I had a slice of the cake. And then another. And some of his favorite Oreo cookie ice cream. After that, I wanted a proper dinner though, so I had an Italian beef sandwich (with cheese - which I never do). But then I wanted dessert, so I had more Oreo ice cream, with whipped cream and sprinkles.
After that, I was full. Way full, but not painfully full.
I'm not so upset with myself for eating so much, as I believe that it's probably a good thing to have a day where I eat more, to keep the metabolism jumping and guessing. And Saturdays are my "relax" day as far as eating is concerned. As I was eating the cake and ice cream, I was reconciling with myself that I was truly saying good-bye to my son. Not that we won't see him again, but that the boy that left this week is gone. He will come back a man, and everything has changed forever.
What I *AM* upset about, though, is that I am not happy with the numbers on the scale and yet I go and do this. Now where is the logic in that....
Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
You are absolutely right...your son will come home a man and you will really enjoy the changes. I'm sure he is just fine, he's learning a lot of new things right now and they want his full attention...but it's hard on parents for sure.
Please focus on you a little more - the trip I'd have a hard time also - burning a lot of calories being out and on the trip and walking around and socializing. - maybe next time seriously bring a snack for if you get hungry ?
But please concentrate on you now - do something for you and try to get back to your routine ....
I def see where you are coming from with our son and I am very sure it's difficult but instead of being so sad - try to connect his training and being away with being happy ....for him
I do think of him every morning as I struggle to get out of bed early so that I can workout. I know he has to be up at 4:45a. I struggle at 5:30a! And I get to sit on my bike, watch TV, and have a cup of coffee! -- Not exactly an accurate connection :-)
Gained 2.5 pounds. Not happy.
Taking a road trip today to see my daughter perform with the high school band at the state competition later this morning. It is sure to delight!
Progress as of today: 56 lbs lost so far, only -6 lbs to go!
Went back to work, although I was still feeling like a Zombie... My heart wasn't really in it, which REALLY helped me keep a PROPER and HEALTHY distance from my involvement in the files. Also, not having my heart into my work helped me appreciate what my co-worker did while I was away, as she covered my emails.
It was so dead last week, but the 2 days I was out, it was like crazy-busy, and everyone wanted everything NOW. Seriously, people -- it's real estate. It's not a trial, where your personal freedom is at stake. It's not surgery where your health/life is at stake. I felt so bad for my co-worker, even though she was one of the backstabbers in December. So a couple of things I said to her, that I think helped:
This is awful to say, but it seems that in order to keep my sanity, I have to be less invested in producing a better work product. Otherwise, I get so uptight, upset, and stressed, so that while it's done correctly, I'm a mess and nobody likes me. That sucks.
Anyway, trying to be more intuitive at dinner. Must work on eating slower, I think. I think that will help me eat less. Trying to stay away from the leftover chocolate cake. I didn't do so well yesterday. Had 3 small slivers after dinner, even though I wrote about the cake here in DD right before dinner. Tonight, made myself a cup of decaf. That will hold me.
Goals Progress: I bought my next color for my hair. January was "dark brown", and the next box is "soft black". Still sticking to a dress pallet of navy, black, and gray -- makes getting dressed in the morning SO much quicker and easier. Keeping up with my daily Gratitude diary.
But I need to add a temporary goal for the end of this month and February, to stay at 128-ish and not let the stress and sadness overcome me and creep back into the 130s.
Progress as of today: 58.5 lbs lost so far, only -8.5 lbs to go!
I know exactly how you feel... but a company rarely has more than one badly done deal/project in them. The second one kills it.
Do you ever read fail blogs?
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I have always heard that is normal to have a 4 pound up and down difference.....Hugs!
horn_of_plenty on 02/12/2018:
i think bc you are stressing, you are trying to calm yourself using the scale - if you weigh everyday, you cannot go by that number...best to do an avg like i do with calories...
or just step on it weekly....you know our bodies aren't going to display the same exact number everyday!