Random thoughts:
I probably spoke too soon about being 1 pound away from a 60-pound loss, with the way my weight fluctuates. I can feel the consequences of yesterday's choices today. Sometimes, it's just what's on the menu...
If I were training for a race or an event, people wouldn't give me such flack for exercising. Why isn't it ok that I exercise because I love to do it?
Work is throwing a realtor party on Friday... with no healthy food. (I must ask Queen Bee about the menu, but I have to be very careful about how I go about doing this). Then I'm meeting up with my church ladies for dinner... at a place called "Meat and Potatoes" - ugh!
It will be a difficult weigh-in on Saturday.
Progress as of today: 59 lbs lost so far, only -9 lbs to go!
I realized that I am 1 pound away from being able to say that I've lost 60 pounds on this journey... Just putting that out there.
I was really looking forward to having a private chat with one of the volunteers at legal clinic, because she has been on this "minimalist", downsizing journey this past year. She also has done WW to lose weight, and I wanted to explore with her a topic that we touched on here at DD, with regards to a minimalist approach to losing weight, e.g. after the first 3 bites, food doesn't taste as good, etc.
Unfortunately, she and I didn't have the opportunity to expound on this much, so maybe more next month, but she agreed with me that she has been incorporating this approach with her food intake, i.e. her food is either "essential for life" (i.e. healthy foods) or "brings her joy" (i.e. wine, dessert).
What I found most interesting though is that she says that the new WW does not work for her and has not been able to lose weight with it. She feels that there are too many "free foods" that should not be free, and she is unable to meet daily goals with the new points system (dailyl base points + weekly freebies). So she has been very frustrated and that's why she wanted to speak with me. We spoke very briefly, and I encouraged her to try to go back to the old WW point system - with which she did have success. The BEST part is that I have old WW points books that I've been holding on to for some unknown reason -- I don't count points, but I just haven't been able to give these books away. I will give them to my friend at next month's legal clinic, knowing that they have a good home.
Progress as of today: 59 lbs lost so far, only -9 lbs to go!
I almost joined for the real-life support group. That was the draw for me.
i do agree that with food, after a few bites, it doesn't taste the same and we just keep eating out habit i'd say...or we keep eating for comfort. both of these reasons are things i do.
i agree - the new WW is horrible based on everything i hear. calories in & calories out...points in and points out...can't be any other way. no freebies.
Good weigh-in... on both scales, lol... One thing I forgot to mention about the VA hospital visit was to say how friendly and pleasant everyone was. Random folks saying good morning to each other, thanking clients for their service, just nice. :) Work was busy but manageable, although I DID end up staying an hour over. A lot of last minute stuff came up at 4p. My husband said he's used to late dinners on Friday. (wah wah) I know I told Maria that I would try to relax this weekend. This is hard for me to do! After legal clinic this morning, my time will be my own!
AFTERNOON EDIT: Sure enough, my husband received a notice in the mail that he has an appointment at the VA -- same location, same crazy drive! -- to see a rheumatologist. I commend the VA for such a rapid response. Wow, that was crazy fast! an internest doctor for IBS.
great job saying on deciding your time will be your own after the clinic. if you want your own time, best to allow it to yourself. Same here, for me today. It makes me happy to not be rushing around as much today :)
PS...i took a day off friday and still haven't fully decided what i'm doing. one option was to spend the WHOLE day at beach with the friend that loves it - but that wouldn't be relaxing day for me...so...i haven't really asked her yet....as it's important on MY DAYS off to spend them how my body and mind want to spend them...so i'm thinking Friday to be a relaxing day...not to please anyone else except myself, first and foremost! so that the vaca day is a REAL vaca day!
I survived the drive! It's a particularly aggressive commute to this VA hospital. Well, any drive towards Chicago involves more traffic, complicated mergers, crazy drivers, etc. I'm more of an open highway person. Very nervous driver...
My husband saw the wrong doctor because they had entered his auto-immune disease obviously into the computer system as a degenerative disc disease. So he saw an ortho doctor rather than a rheumatologist. He may or may not need another appointment because of this mistake.
I got home, dropped off husband, picked up daughter to take her to HER doctor's appointment. (She didn't want to go alone.)
After all these doctors, I was exhausted, so I opted to stay home and not check in at work. I'm still tired this morning, and I know today will be busy. My coworker covering my desk said she left 29 emails unread. So I'll have about 50 emails this morning, plus a very long list of time sensitive tasks to do today.
No rest on Saturday, since there's legal clinic.
And just battling my body with the inconveniences of TOM. Why must my cycle always kick in, irregularly, at the most stressful times in my life?
Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!
glad all the appts are finally over..nice of you to go with your daughter, i always had prefered personally to go alone...but she's still a teen, so it can make sense she'd want you there still!
remember to breathe today and realize that work will still be waiting for you Monday - anything you don't finish today!
So I put a sign on the freezer door at work addressed to whomever threw out my food to please replace the veggie burgers and stick of butter. That won't happen, but it made me feel better. We think it was the boss' son-in-law who threw out my food, thinking it belonged to the office manager for the business downstairs, because he's really mad at her right now, and this is his revenge. She and I eat similar foods and share(d) the same space in the freezer... I don't like the son-in-law either because he accused me of stealing gift cards a year ago and never apologized for that. I'd call him a weasel but that would be insulting to weasels.
Taking husband to the VA hospital for another evaluation today. He says they are very mean there. Sad. Very nervous about the difficult drive to the facility.
Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!
Is it a difficult drive because of the distance/logistics? I hope it goes well and they are not mean today!
the facility is far? is that why the drive is difficult?
THEY THREW OUT MY FOOD AT WORK.
I keep an emergency veggie burger in the freezer, I had a baggie of frozen watermelon, and a half a stick of butter. All gone.
Turns out my Sunday anxiety was probably hormone related, after all...
Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!
i guess you'll have to re-stock :)
keep on J-donk and be happy...notice the nature and trees and animals out and about as it's still summer :) i was thinking about it this morning :) to enjoy my surroundings while it lasts!
Work was again insanely busy... Queen Bee decided to take an extra day off - no surprise there. Male co-worker returns tomorrow. Having everyone actually working should help. Imagine that.
I'm sorry my comments on entries was pretty anemic. I'm keeping up and cheering you all on... but don't have much left in my brain to contribute significantly.
Forgot to weigh train last night. Thought about it several times, but never did it. So I'm doing it this morning.
Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!
You sound much more optimistic :) keep on!!!!!
Your comments are just fine, don't apologize for being you :) i know what you mean about having nothing left in your brain to spare on DD ;)
lol...summer vacations in the workplace...yup!
Be true to thine self... I ended up having a little cry session. I explained to my husband that I was feeling anxious, so that helped him know how to react to me better. I also explained that I'm trying to downsize and keep things to a minimum. I pointed out that we have a desk that is not being used that he could use - he should at least try it before we buy anything. He agreed that he should use what we have. Awww what a guy!
In return, later on, I agreed to go out to dinner for a sandwich, although I ordered a salad. I may have had too much spinach dip while waiting, but oh well. And I would have been perfectly happy having leftovers at home, but I sensed that he needed some "relief" as well. I only ate half of my salad so now I have a nice lunch for today.
I was then able to have a lovely time at the library - checked out the Four Agreements - and picked up vitamin D for the husband on my way home.
Also managed to make my fitbit happy by scoring at least 250 steps each hour for 12 hours.
So all in all a pretty good weekend. Gonna focus on taking this week in stride. If I have to step away and relax, I'm going to do it. 5 minutes of relaxing might make those remaining 55 minutes more productive!
Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!
That's one big reason why I was ok with eating out Sunday. Cheaper than therapy, right?
I feel like you have the week ahead locked in, girl. You've so got this.
All of this in spite of work, worry, stress... I got this.
I follow(ed) Dave Ramsey who often speaks about the biblical aspect of personal finance. His plan helped me get us out of debt and prepared for this uncertainty. But I've been stuck since last November, unable to move forward.
Working on getting unstuck. And then I'll be able to help my family move forward.
As wonderful as yesterday was, today, I am feeling overwhelmingly anxious, and I'm not sure why -- almost to the point of tears. Normally, I would equate this to hormones, but it's the wrong time of the month for feeling like this, if it's just hormones. I sure as heck hope it's not because of Thursday's doctor's appointment because that is a LONG ways off to be feeling like THIS every day until then. Yikes...
I know that my anxiety is stemming from an uncertain future, finances hinging on that uncertain future, and trying to downsize while husband keeps wanting to buy more "stuff". He and I are definitely on separate pages when it comes to material possessions. *sigh*
Fortunately for me, I left one of my favorite activities for today: going to the library. I did not get to that yesterday; I also should stop off at the drugstore to pick up some vitamin D for my husband... Again, spending money when I shouldn't, even though he needs the vitamin D. Everything else on my "to do" list, I did.
Normally, I would eat away my anxiety. Unfortunately, the weather here today is too hot and too humid and too buggy to walk away the anxiety. I can take a short walk while I'm at the library - there's a park there that has a nice path. The library is next to a subdivision that has a nicer walking path that I could do as well.
Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!
Maybe divert him to crafts/projects to get ready for the zombie apocalypse/natural disasters? It's the male version of Martha Stewart. At least these things have some resale value and can be purchased second hand. Or good to comb garage sales/goodwill for. Sell on ebay as a kit.
https://www.backdoorsurvival.com/33-awesome-projects-for-preppers/
you are the working one, he will have to listen to you more now...this is my opinion and i stand by it 100%!
I FEEL GOOD TODAY!!!
I'm so happy not to be at work today! Oh my word, I was SO busy again yesterday. I started getting a little short, so I caught myself. My boss tried his best to bring my anxiety levels down, but taking time out to relax just puts me further behind. Still, I really appreciated his efforts, and I think they worked. It was like 4:30p and I had 19 emails! If I leave those over the weekend, I'd come in to almost 40 on Monday. And Monday is going to be busy enough as it is!
So I busted my butt and stayed until a little after 6pm and got it done! I left with 3 emails, two of which are photos & repairs for the same transaction for a deal that's probably going to fall apart anyway, so definitely not time sensitive. Whew!
I'm so glad that the "all you can eat" fish fry was scratched off the list; husband decided to grill out instead, which was much more menu friendly for me, and much less stressful time-wise. As it was, I came home to hungry, crabby people. And I was a tired, crabby person. But once we all relaxed and started eating, it was much better.
Honestly, though, I had nothing left in myself to give to my family. Fortunately for me, husband was a good sport about it. I am letting him know how much happier I am today, now that I can be home with my family and not burdened by the woes of work.
And there will be other Fridays that aren't so busy or stressful when we can enjoy Fish Fry, all-you-can-eat or otherwise :-D
I have lots of little chores to do this weekend that make me happy to either do or have completed: drugstore, library, spray the cranberry tree for aphids, laundry, light weeding... I'm hoping to get in a walk outside, too!
Progress as of today: 59.5 lbs lost so far, only -9.5 lbs to go!
I used to feel the need to have EVERYTHING done by the end of the day...but...try to remember you could leave the emails unopened...
Your husband is good to listen to your needs...if you are the one working, he will need to continue to be very understanding of your needs as the breadwinner.
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A 4 pound fluctuation either way...is absolutely normal.....so don't worry about that. I wouldn't even mention it to the Queen Bee...it will just feed her need to put others down in an attempt to boost herself up. You know what drives controllers bezerK?????? You not reacting to their bait!!!! You reacting like you never even noticed their attempts to control......they CANNOT STAND TO BE IGNORED! For them...making others feel uncomfortable is sport. I'm sure a restaurant called Meat and Potatoes....has other things too.....and even if you choose meat and potatoes....or dessert ...or anything you want...then she will pick...either way it is a lose/lose situation....so just eat what you want....and "SMILE".......your composure and friendliness will drive her nuts!!!!
horn_of_plenty on 08/21/2018:
NO NO! IT IS OK for you to exercise because you love it!!! IT IS OK! you do not need an excuse or to explain yourself. it's YOUR life...not theirs. You are entitled to live the life that makes you HAPPY. NO EXPLANATIONS. DO WHAT YOU ENJOY!
Bring a veggie platter or YOUR OWN VEGGIES on the day of the work party. You can eat your veggies and just tastes of the other stuff. PLAN IT. at meat and potatoes, see the menu, maybe there's a salad or side of veggies you can get with just tastes of the other stuff. pull thru!, plan ahead. small tastes of the heavy stuff.
legcramps on 08/21/2018:
So, the reason people only exercise heavily while they're training for an event is because they are training their muscles and recovery systems in order to guarantee a good end result. They are putting their bodies under amazing amounts of stress in order to achieve certain levels of athleticism. Amateur athletes will train heavily for a period of time leading up to an event, then take a 'break' where they will scale down on their workouts. If this isn't done, their bodies can break down and injuries will happen. You can't expect that you will be able to absorb high levels of stress on the body for an extended period of time.
Now, saying that, i'm talking about people who are exercising multiple times each day, working their bodies to the very extreme. If i'm wrong, correct me, but I understand that you go on your exercise bike every night for about an hour, and you will sometimes do a bit of a weight lifting routine?
Nothing wrong with that. Whoever is telling you that there is something wrong with that, can go ahead and get their head checked. That's called leading an active lifestyle by being active in some way, every day, for at least 30-50 minutes a day.
You are rocking it, and you are an inspiration to the rest of us. Don't stop being awesome!