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Genesis - Wednesday Feb 04, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 125.0

Ok, so the weigh in this morning didn't go the way I hoped.  However, I didn't gain anything so that's a plus.  Today started out rough but my husband pulled me through.  I was depressed, I realized that last night.  I decided this afternoon that today was the last day I was going to try to drown myself in pity.  I let myself eat whatever I wanted as long i wrote it down.  My husband and I went grocery shopping tonight, so i have a full arsenal in my cubbards to start my day off right tomorrow.    

7:00 Slept in today, I have developed shin splits so exercising was out of the question today.

8:00 3 chips ahoy cookies (150)

***my counseling appointment got canceled this morning, she is still really sick.  I know God has my best interest at heart so I knwo when on door closes another one opens.

8:45 Apple (90)

9:00 Chex mix (170)

9:30 Chex mix (170)

10:16 three cookies (150)

Work is very, very stressful today!!  ALmost too much for me

12;00 subway six inch sub (320) Baked lays (150) cookie (55)

3:00  Chex mix (170)

3:15 2 cookies (110)

4:00  triscuits (150)

5:15 cheez-it (120) Mac and Cheese (150) fudge round (300)

6:00 fiber cereal bar (150)

8:30 Peaches (110) cereal (210) 

Total:   2725 (should be 1400 - 1600)  On the bright side, I haven't given up.  I have logged on everyday and listed my menu even though it hasn't been my best moments.  I'm still here and I'm still going. 

Thanks to you all for the encouragement!!!!!!!! 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!


Genesis - Tuesday Feb 03, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 125.0

Hello

Today wasn't much better than yesturday ""sigh""  But I think its all in how you make it.  I have been feeling overwhelmed and maxed out to the edge lately so every little thing that comes along feels like a big thing.  Nothing like feeling kicked while your down.  I really appreciate all of the hugs and support you guys have given me.  It definitely reminds me I need to strive to be positive.  It also caused me to realize that when things get tough, I never pray about it.  I completely run from that source of support in my life.  I think I'm afraid that I have failed and I'm afraid to face the music.  I don't want to be told that i've screwed up.  But that's what i keep telling myself so why would it be any different if it came from God?  But woudl God really kick me while I'm down too?  I don't think so.  I have to remember that, God is compassionate, he wants what's best for me.  Encouragement, that's what i need.  I knew this black hole that I'm in was coming.  I felt too on top of the world last week.  I felt like I had a handle on and control of everything.   Maybe this is Gods way of giving me a swift kick in the butt and taking me down a notch.  That way my head is the same size as everyone elses and I'm not so full of myself.  Humilty, that something else I need.  I feel better talking this out.  I think I just need to spend a little one on one time with the big man upstairs. 

I forgot my notes again at work today so here it goes:

6:45  1 mile on treadmill, after yesturday I realized that I need to jump start my mornings with exercise

8:00 2 multigrain blueberry waffles (180) and banana (90), oh and cup coffee with sugar and creamer (60)

10:00 small yogurt (60)

11:30 Salad (spinach, broccoli, carrots, cheese, sunflower seeds, some boiled egg - chopped and fat free italian with 4oz grilled chix (250)

            Fiber cereal bar (150)

This afternoon was rough so I had a hard time staying away from the munchies

1:00 Apple (90)

1:30 crystal light drink (5) and doritos (150)

KNew that if i didn't get a handle on my emotions, the rest of the day was going down hill.  So I got some hot tea, drank a lot of water and got out my headphones.  It helped for a couple of hours until I found out that my credit card bill was double what it normally is.  (we use our credit card like our debit it card and have it on a budget)  I thought it was the credit card company's fault so I got fustrated with them and wasn't a pleasant person.  After I realized the mistake i had made and realized, that yes we did manage to spend that much, I apologized to the lady and got off the phone.  needless to say the damage was already done, I not only ruined my day but i could have possibly ruined her day as well.  I felt and still feel about two inches tall. 

Any way that incident did me under and I still haven't fully recovered emotionally

4:00  chex mix and doritos - 170

5:30 Pepperoni bread (350)

6;00 fiber cereal bar (150)

8:00 Let's see, I got home from class and just ate whatever because I was stressed so I'll try to recall as much as possible

     - 3 rice crispy treats, cheezeits, and i think that was it.  Not as bad as I thought (320)

8:30 Walked the dogs again tonight - 1 mile

Total: 1935 (should be 1400 and 1600)  I'm supposed to weigh in tomorrow, yea!! Or not.  Ok, ok, ok, think positive, think positive . . . Got it, Could have had a fudge round when i got home and that would have been 300 calories by itself plus a whole bunch of fat by itself. 

Tomorrow is another day, I just wish i shake this feeling like I'm on the edge. 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

mama_nurse on 02/03/2009:
good luck tomorrow w/your wi!


mama_nurse on 02/03/2009:
YES! I am very picky about meatballs too, LOL! I only eat my own~ I use organic VERY lean ground beef (96/4), parm cheese, bread crumbs, ketchup, garlic, onion, salt, pepper, italian seasoning, milk....they are SOOOO good. I brown them a little and then finish cooking them by simmering in spaghetti sauce (covered of course) for 25 min...tender, juicy and OH so flavorful! I can control the calories in them by making them at home....which is also a PLUS;)


YepItsMe~ on 02/04/2009:
We all have those days where we take our frustrations out on others~don't beat yourself up. And you're right~God won't kick you when you're down!! He's not like that! He is a loving and kind God who wants you to succeed and prosper and be happy...Sometimes tho, I think we face trials so that we will turn to Him in our times of need....

Take care and I hope you have a wonderful Wednesday!


panda22 on 02/04/2009:
Sorry to hear about your stressful day! I hope today is a better one for you! That stinks that you and hubby have such busy schedules. I feel for you! Maybe you could sit down and try to incorporate just one night into a date night. Maybe do a little extra homework one day so you have a few hours free the next? Idk, just a suggestion. Also if there are any days you have off together then you could go out to dinner. That way if you have any errands you need to run that day ((I know my days off are never really free days because of errands lol))...then you could run them and then sit down to a nice meal? I hope you get some time together! It sounds like it would be good for you guys to relax and just be with each other! Have a good Wednesday!


WorkingMom on 02/04/2009:
I'm sorry that things have been so stressful... It's so hard, but life is such a roller-coaster ride, with many ups and downs, and I guess the only way to manage what "comes at you" or the "downs" is by changing how you deal with those things internally... I'm going thru a soul-searching period, as we speak, and it is so hard to make changes, but necessary, right? Well, I'll keep checking in on you, I'm sure you will feel better... because there's nothing like a new day (after another, after another, after another...).



Genesis - Monday Feb 02, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 125.0

Hello!!

I'm kind of in a bummed out mood so if you don't want that dragging you down, you may not want to read any further. . . .

Today didn't go as well as planned. I'm really stressed and upset so it made eating healthy a struggle today.  I made a counseling appointment for Wednesday so I should do much better after that.  My counselor always helps me to put things in perspective.  On top of my husband and I getting into arguments this weekend, my nephew's behavior was very troubling.  I think he has some major developmental issues or something.  He hasn't had the best home life.  In his past ten years he's had five men he's called "dad" and has moved every six months since he was born.  Nothing has been stable for him.  On top of that his mother has very little patience with him, and always puts the men in her life before him.  This new guy she is with, is different from all the rest, but I'm still leary.  He seems to have Jordan's best interest at heart.  He makes sure April makes decisions that are best for him, not her.  He works with him adn is very patient with him.  I've noticed a lot of good changes in Matthew since he has been around.  This weekend, however, was quite different.  He couldn't complete a single task that i asked him to do on his own or correctly.  For example I asked for a paper towel, and he brought me my purse (they were in complete opposite driections of one another).  After we went sled riding, I handed him a dry pair of jeans to take to his friend, and he puts them on.  It gets worse but thats just a few examples.  I emailed my sister today to let her know how concerned I was, she said she is giving it another week adn if things don't improve she will take him to the doctor.  I don't believe her but we'll see.  So needless to say I am really bummed out.  Plus I kept getting fustrated with him and I feel like a lousy Aunt and person.  He's just  a kid and half of his problems aren't his fault.  Can he really help that his mother has never taught him or cared to teach him to think for himself?  I trust that my sisters boyfriend will make sure my nephew gets the help he needs.  I just think he needs counseling more than he needs a medical doctor. 

Anyway enough of that . . . . I forgot my notes at the office so I am pulling this from memory (which will be interesting because I have a horrible memory ;))

7:00  Slept in, too exhausted to get up adn exercise

8:00 Coffee (36)

9:30 Banana (90) and more coffee (36)

11:30 cereal bar (170)

12:00 fit and active SW chix panini (270)

Someone's wife brought in leftovers from a superbowl party, i resisted all morning, but this afternoon, my will power came crashing down

- chocolate chip cookie w/ walnuts (190)

- Chex mix (170)

- another cookie (190)

- Chex mix (170)

- Chex mix (170)

- Crystal Light water mix (5)

5:15 Sandwich - 1 pc. wh. brd., turkey, provolone, lettuce and cheeze-its (220+120)  My love affair with cheeze-its is starting to wain.  THANK GOODNESS!!

7:30 Walked the dogs 2 miles in the freezing cold.  They loved it!!

Total damage:  1840 (should be 1400 - 1600)  I still walked and I haven't eaten anything since dinner and don't plan to either. 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 02/02/2009:
This is really off the wall--but can he hear well enough to understand? Or maybe he's not getting enough attention and he knew he'd get it by not doing the things you asked. Good for you being observant. Oh well--hope you have a good week!


panda22 on 02/03/2009:
Sorry you are so stressed! I hope that your sister is able to get your nephew the help that he needs and that everything will be ok! Even with the stress, your day wasn't horrible when it came to your menu. Today is a brand new day and I hope you enjoy it!


WI3 on 02/03/2009:
This must have been the weekend to have things happen that upset us all greatly! I am so sorry to hear about things going so badly, and I know how frustrating it can be with men problems on top of everything else. I like Biscotti's suggestion about the hearing. Also, it may be his way of saying "Someone take me to the doctor because I have a problem I need to talk about and can't do it unless someone asks me what is wrong that isn't family." i.e. a doctor. Hey, don't beat yourself up about being a lousy aunt. You aren't. You are having a normal, healthy response to your frustration which in turn, helps get things in motion to get him some help. It is a shame that your sister thinks she needs to have a man around in order to feel value with herself and that she is willing to pass over her son's well being at all costs in order to keep her life rolling along. Maybe she would benefit from some counseling as well.

ESH, it is all so confusing at times, isn't it?

Thank you for your entry on my journal..it is nice to have such a caring post to read, especially when you haven't had the best of times yourself! *hugs* you need them as well!

I hope today goes better for you and your nephew and between yourself and husband. Take care!


glycrina on 02/03/2009:
I hope your nephew gets the help he needs. I would start with a medical doctor because a good therapist will want to rule out any health problems before treating him.



Genesis - Sunday Feb 01, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 125.0

6:00pm - The boys just left and I am left exhausted.  Matt got home early from hunting (no deer, bummer) and helped me cook supper and get things cleaned up.  Me and the boys went sled riding today.  It was a blast!!!  Unfortuatnely I didn't eat very well today, everything was high calorie, high fat or processed.  It was ugly.  Oh well the boys are gone now and there is always tomorrow.  I'll need to throw some extra time hopefully this week to make up for it. 

11:00 After teh boys left Matt and I went over to a friends house to watch a movie.  I knew that I would be tempted to munch even though I was hungry.  So I brushed my teeth before we left and then I fell back on my old trick to remember things.  You know how they say to tie a string around your finger? Well, its something like that, instead of string I opt for a piece of scotch tape wrapped around my pinky knuckle like a bandaid.  Its uncomfortable enough to trigger the memory but not so annoying that I mindlessly take it off like i would a rubber band or something.  So everytime I went to move to get something to eat, my pinky would bend against the tape and remind me that A) I am reaching for food B) to ask myself, "Am I really hungry?"

I didn't do a good job keeping notes like I usually do on my food intake so I'll give the best description that i can.

7:30 1.5 miles on the treadmill

10:30  Breakfast, 3 small pankcakes, 2 pcs bacon, 2 sausage links, 1 cup fruit salad, coffee with mini marshmellows and sugar (150+80+140+100+40)

11:30  Shill hungry!! Can you believe it - cheeze-its (120)

1:30  Lunch was harried and rushed, 2.5 pcs bacon and 1 serving chocolate covered pretzels (120+350)

2:20-3:20 Sled riding

4:30 2 cups fruit salad (200) (it was a binge moment, thank goodness it was just fruit!!!)

5:30 Deerburger, lettuce and provolone cheese with seasoned curly fries and two glasses of ice tea and 1/2 glass mt. dew (225+70+350+120+90)

7:00 Sprite (140) Thirsty at friends house and that was all they had (forgot to get bottled water)

Total Damage 2,170 (Should be 1400 adn 1600)  Need to plan ahead better when I have the kids up again adn make sure that my husband is home to help.  I about lost my mind today.  But I did stop eating after supper adn I still walked on the treadmill, two out of three goals isn't bad. 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

mama_nurse on 02/01/2009:
the scotch tape on your finger is SUCH a great idea!!!


WorkingMom on 02/02/2009:
Good that you were able to fit some treadmill action into ur otherwise busy day! Kudos!! And ur right: 2 outta 3 ain't bad!! Let's keep on going! :)



Genesis - Saturday Jan 31, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 125.0

Hello,

What a busy day!!!!  Got up early for a Saturday, 6:30.  Did 1.50 miles on the treatmill this morning.  Took a break after a mile and worked on paying bills. then finished the 1/2 mile.  After that I went to Walmart for grocersy and treated myself to a skinny vanilla latte at starbucks.  After that I came home, loaded up the dogs for the vet office.  They really like their vet and don't mind the vet office.  Its amazing, they do so well.  My german shepard Maura has put on another 10 pounds this year and is now 19lbs overweight.  Since she is already on diet food, the vet suggested makeing a concerted effort to find out if she is finding other sources of food we don't know about.  He said if we keep a close eye on her and she is not eating more than we feed her, then try to feed her less (we already feed her the minimum), if that doesn't work after a couple months to bring her back in for a thyroid test.  We'll see what happens. 

After the vet office went down to my sisters to have lunch and to pick up my nephew and his friend.  We've had a whirl wind of a day.  I didn't realize how hyper two ten year olds can be!!!!  We've since finished dinner and are attempting to settle down to watch a movie.  My husband finally came home from hunting with his buddy (9:00) I am a bit upset with him because he should have been home by 8;00 and he missed dinner.  I talked to him on the phone and he mentinoed that he was goin hunting tomorrow when he promised me he woudl watch the kids while i went to church. When I reminded of him of his commitment he chuckled and said he had to go (his way of avoiding an argument).  So if you all have read my Bio you will know that this is one of those times where my "wonderful" husband becomes my "pain in the butt" husband. 

Here's the damage:

8:10 Apple (90)

10:45 Cheese-its (120) and skinny vanilla latte (90)

12:30 2 cups spaghetti, 1/2 cup sauce, garlic bread, salad, veggies (530)

4:00 Snack, a hodge podge, unplanned mess - Cheese-its (80), Teddy Grams (60), 2 chips ahoy cookies (150?), Choclolate covered pretzels (75), carrots (36)

Sometime before dinner: sm. handful mini marshmellows, turned down the hot chocolate I made for the boys after our 1/2 mile walk with the dogs. (15?)

Some more chocolate covered preztels, they are addicting!!! (25)

7:00 3 chunks of chicken, small baked potato w/ ranch dressing, 1 cup grn beans, dinner roll with jelly (430)

Total Calories 1631 , its only 9:30 so I am sure I will eat again.  I'm still mad so I might just eat for the heck of it.  I know i shouldn't because tomorrow we are having a big, fat filled breakfast.  (Pankcakes sausage, bacon and eggs.  I will probably throw some fruit and yogurt in there, at least i hope i will.  Maybe not yogurt but definitely fruit. )  ***UPdate, I only had one cookie, after I made my entry.  After that I brushed my teeth to ensure I wouldn't any anything else.  ****  Still mad at my husband, the only thing is, i'm to exhausted still from the day i had yesturday to care much**** 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

mama_nurse on 02/01/2009:
Have a great day!


glycrina on 02/01/2009:
orange chicken: throw some sliced onions into a pan with a little bit of oil, brown both sides of chickenof chiucken (I use chicken thighs), add about a cup of orange juice, some grated orange peel, 1/4 tablespoon of saffron and littl but of salt. Turn the heat down to low and cook for about 45 minutes. serve over steamed rice. It is super taksty!!


glycrina on 02/01/2009:
For some reason, I can't see what I am typing on my comments -- so I apologize for all of the typos.


Maria* on 02/01/2009:
Sounds like you had a very busy day! (smile!)



Genesis - Friday Jan 30, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 125.0

HAPPY, HAPPY, JOY, JOY IT'S FRIDAY YA'LL!!!!!!! 

Finally, what a week.  As i've read other DDer's journals, I realized I'm not the only one that had a tough week, I think we all did in one way or another.  But now the work week is over and its time to enjoy the weekend.  Hope you all have fun plans for tomorrow and Sunday.  My nephew is coming over with his friend Tyler.  My husband is deer hunting so I hope i can keep the boys occupied till he gets home to help out.  I volunteered Sunday to work in the toddler nursery at church.  I got a call yesturday saying they were short handed and needed the help. 

I did walk 1.25 miles on the treadmill this morning and instead of walking on it tonight I cleaned for about three hours.  I am EXHAUSTED!!  I was going to go out grocery shopping tonight to get some things for tomorrow but its 9:00 and I am just too tired.  Maybe I'll get up and do it tomorrow morning before they get here. 

p/s I keep forgetting to mention, I was either reading someone's journal or their comment but they had mentioned that taking magnesium and calcium an hour before she went to bed really helped with the food cravings.  I had been taking magnesium and when I did further research I found out that the calcuim actually helps the magnesium work better.  I usually have night mares at night and have trouble getting up in the morning.  I'm not sure if its the supplement, diet or exercise but I haven't had a nightmare in over a week!!!  So somethings working.  I just wanted to say "THANKS" for the suggestion. 

Here's a run down of my meals today:

8:00 small pc. of coffee cake (50) and hot tea (used sweetner so no calories)

10:00  Apple (90) Finally get a break to grab something to eat

10:30 Kashi Vanilla Oatmeal (150) Get another break in the Friday caos

12:30 Pepperoni Bread (390)  Met with some friends for lunch at a local pizza place

2:00 Another sm. pc of coffee cake (50) - munchin'

4:00 Ate the last small pc of coffe cake (50) - it was there . . . :0)

6:00 8oz Italian baked chicken and 1 sm. baked potato with butter and some ranch dressing (250 + 150 + 150)

8:30 1 serving sweet peas and some vitaman water (70 + 50)

Total Calories for today 1450 (YEA!!!!  I did it!!!)

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!


Genesis - Thursday Jan 29, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 125.0

Hello!!!

I decided not to go to class tonight, the roads still are 100%, it was really cold and I had a lot of work at home to do.  I still feel ragged and I need to get things ready for when my nephew and his friend come over this weekend.  They are both 10.  I didn't get my 3 miles on the treadmill today, but I did clean for a couple hours so I hope they cancel each other out.  I have realized that i think my goal of 5 miles a day is a bit excessive especially with me having school at night as well.  So I think three will do it for now.  Next week I hope to start adding in some push-ups and maybe some sit ups, after that maybe some yoga ball exercises. I got my 1st associate degree in the mail today!!!!  I didn't go to the commencement ceremonly this fall so they sent me the stuff in the mail.  I'm so excited, I was holding my breath until this moment.  I was afraid the college would change its mind and tell me I didn't have enough classes or credits or something like that.  College is good like that.  They tell you one thing and then turn around and tell you another.  BUt now I have proof that all my hard work has paid off!!!  Next fall I hope to have another associates degree in business.  I'm not sure what i will do after that. 

6:30 1.25 miles on treadmill (I didn't want to get out bed this morning and definitely didn't want to walk on the treadmill

8:15 Two multi-grain blueberry waffles, bannana (180+90)

9:00 Hot Tea (36)

10:15 Dannon light and fit yogurt-Peach (80)

11:30 Started eating lunch but then found out work was buying so I put it in the fridge (50)

12:30 Subway 6in sub, wh brd., turkey, provolone, lettuce and tomato with some ranch dressing, one serving Lays Potato chips (435+ 150)

1:00  Little bit more potato chips (25)

2:30  Doritos (160)

3;00 Apple (90)

5:15 3/4 cup Cottage Cheese and 12 Triscuits (340)

5:30 - 8:00 Cleaned (Told you the spare room was a catch-all, I'm still not done but will hopefully finish tomorrow night)

8:15 8oz flavored water (50)

9:30 3/4 cup Kashi Heart to Heart cereal and 1/2 cup 2% milk (170)

9:45 Made coffee cake for tomorrow and licked spoon (50)

Total Calories 1780 (should be 1400-1600)  I'll still take it.  I really didn't "binge" today, I munched a little on the doritos and could have made healthier arrangements for supper but I'll save that for tomorrow. 

 

To

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

Maria* on 01/29/2009:
Looks like you had a real good day. Thanks for the encouragement! :-)... You got your exercise in cleaning...that is exercise. I got mine in wheeling Mom around today. Exercise doesn't have to always be treadmill, etc. to be exercise as we both know. So we shouldn't feel like we haven't exercised when we really have. I've almost begun to think that my goal is out of the question w my weight going up but what you just wrote to me changed my mind again and I know it is do-able....thanks again!!! (smile)



Genesis - Wednesday Jan 28, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 125.0

8:45pm

Today went pretty well.  I am throughly exhausted though and ready to go to bed. 

Here's the run down after this mornings entry

5:50 Cucumbers and 4oz apple juice (74 calories) with today being such a long day I didn't want to overdo it on calories so I chose something light for breakfast.

9:00 Banana (90)

10:00 Kashi Vanilla Oatmeal, plus 1 tsp sugar (168)

12:00 Sandwich - Wh. Brd, Turkey and 1 slice swiss cheese (270)

         Green Giant Steamed Veggies (180)

3:00 Blueberry Waffle

3:30 8oz vitamin water (50)

4:15 Got off work early so I shoveled snow for a 1/2 hour, whew, what a work out

4:55 1.75 miles on treadmill, I made the three mile marker!! Now I'm truly exhausted.

5:30 7 triscuts and 1/2 cup cottage cheese (one of my favorite snacks) (210)

6:45 Dinner, 3/4 cup corn, 3/4 cup green beans and about 6 oz BBQ beef, went to my Hubby's parents house for dinner. (390)

       Dessert, 1 pc. texas sheet cake, yes I indulged and it was good, I figured I could splurge alittle since I shovled snow (370)

8:30  3 small chocolate chip cookies and 1 cup milk, 250 (tradition at his parents house when watching TV after dinner, couldn't resist)

Almost forgot, I threw in a small handful of goldfish in there as well (85)

Total Calories for today 1927 (should be 1400 - 1600)  I'll take it.  I think I need to give myself one day a week where I take a break and don't nstantly worried about what i eat.  I guess I'm making today that day. 

 

I weighed myself this morning, 125.  I don't think I lost an actual five pounds, I think it was mainly water weight gain from my period, but still it is an improvement.  I actually was able to get up this morining at 5am and did 1.25 miles on treadmill (it's still hard to want to finish).  I have a dentist appt. at 7.  IT snowed a bunch here last night so i hope i make it okay.  I was thinking this morning, a couple of weeks ago I could barely  stay awake past 9pm and could hardly drag myself out of bed at 7:15 and now I'm able to stay up til 10 or 11 and make myself go to bed because I don't feel all that tired.  It has been hard getting up at 6:30 but I'm able to do it.  Watching what I eat and making sure I exercise, isn't really about losing the weight, its about taking care of myself so that I can be healthy and feel good.  Good luck to everyone today!!!!

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 7 lbs to go!

glycrina on 01/28/2009:
Thanks for your comment the other re: people with money. You get it. I am underpaid too.


YepItsMe~ on 01/28/2009:
WTG! Weight loss and a great workout! Good for you!!! Isn't it nice to see and feel the improvements? Keep it up!


Maria* on 01/28/2009:
You 'paced' yourself real well with calories today!!! (and workouts, too!!!!)


WI3 on 01/28/2009:
Have a great Thursday!



Genesis - Tuesday Jan 27, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 130.0

Thanks for the Encouragement!!  Today was a bit of the same but not as stressful as Monday. 

6:45 1.25 miles on treadmill.  Again today I had to fight to finish it.  But finish it I did!!  I am hoping to walk another 1.75 miles tonight for a total of 3 miles today.  Eventually I want to work my way up ot five miles.

8:15 Herbal Tea, Banana, 2 multi-grain blueberry waffles

9:45  Dannon Yogurt - Raspberry

10:20 I'm hungry and want to EAT!!  My mom called and wants to eat at Quiznos for lunch Hmmmm. . .

12:15  Small Quiznos sub - Turkey and mozzerella on whole wheat (scoped out my choices on-line so i was prepared)

1:15  Green Giant Steamed Veggies (still hungry)

1:40  Brushed and flossed to help curb the desire to eat again (it worked)

3:15  Waffle, Still Hungry so I had a Fiber Vita-Splash drink mix

5:05 1/2 mile on treadmill

5:25 1 Cup Kashi Heart to Heart Cereal - 1 cup milk; 1/2 apple (in a rush to get to class)

7:30  1/2 apple

8:30 Popcorn

9:50 1.25 miles on treadmill ( I made my goal)!!!!

Total Calories: 1450 ( should be 1400 - 1600) I did it!!  It was still a struggle today but everytime I had the urge to eat a comfort food I kept thinking, I've done so well so far, lets finish the day out right.  I'm worried about it being so hard, I'm afraid that I'm going to binge because I keep holding myself back from my comfort foods. 

How do you all deal with that predicament?

Good luck to you all!!

 P/S Tomorrow is the day I weigh in, wish me luck!!

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!

Maria* on 01/27/2009:
How? I went ahead and had my binge and got it over with (I hope). Fantasticon your 1450 and the exercise! Hang in there!!!



Genesis - Monday Jan 26, 2009
(Balanced Diet and Exercise)
Weight: 130.0

Happy Monday!!

Today was a typically Monday, the urge to eat and to eat comfort food very strong.  Its hard to look in the mirror and not want to see instant results.  I'm not a patient person and i know its ridiculous to think that i will see a difference after a couple days of eating well and exerciseing, but I do.  I want a reward for all my hard work, something to encourage me to keep going even though its hard.  I feel discouraged because I feel discouraged.  LOL!!  I think, if i feel this way after just a few days, how am I going to make it weeks, months or even years?  Does it get easier? 

6:45 1 mile on the treadmill. Didn't think I was going to be able to finish it.  I sure didn't want to. It gets boring after a while

8:30 Banana and Kashi Vanilla Oatmeal - Herbal Tea

9:45 Herbal Tea

Stomach is starting to get back to normal, FINALLY!!  I want to eat but I don't think its because I'm hungry.  I think I'm just bored and want something do to do other than what i have to do right now. 

10:15 - Apple

11:45 - Green Giant Teriyaki Veggies, Left over Grilled Chicken, 1/2 cup rice

1:15 1/2 of a fudge round, Herbal Tea ( a little indulgence)

3:00 Dannon Light and Fit Yogurt - Blueberry

4:00 - Okay, apparently, my digestive system does not like chocolate at the moment.  I have been miserable since i ate the fudge round. I guess that's a good thing considering I'm trying to lose weight but it doesn't feel like a good thing right now.

4:30 Herbal Tea

5:15 A bit stressed out so my comfort food of cheese-its came out again

       1/2 black bean and cheese burrito, 1 serving cheeze-its, 4oz apple juice

6:30 8oz Flavored H20

7:45 1.5 miles on the treadmill (got smart this time and played a DVD on the computer to watch)

8:30 1 Cup Kashi Heart to Heart Cereal, 1 cup 2% Milk

9:00 Brushed my teeth to make sure that i don't eat again before i go to bed.

Total Calories 1529 (should be 1400-1600, I should feel good about this accomplishment but it was really tough today so I'm pouting because it seemed so hard )

Have a great Night ALL!!!!

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!

Maria* on 01/27/2009:
2 and a half miles on the treadmill...yayyyy! And you did well on your allowed cals, too! Smile!


alessandra on 01/27/2009:
You worked out and stayed within your calorie allotment! Way to go!


skinnyjeans on 01/27/2009:
I feel like you...I want instant results and I get so bored on the treadmill! I guess we're all in the same boat!


YepItsMe~ on 01/27/2009:
Thanks for the warm welcome you left me! You did GREAT today~you should feel proud of yourself, staying in control of your calories and exercising! WTG!!!!



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