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Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Aug 07, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

slept in a little bit after a late night out. so glad to sleep a normal amount of hours and not wake up just bc of an alarm! :)

breakfast: oatmeal and yogurt, iced coffee....450

snack during exercise pb 100, 100, egg with seasonings 100

4:30 meal goldfish crackers 250, seaweed salad 150, dbl cream yogurt w fruit 200 600.

dinner: plum 50, flavored baked tofu 200, cooked veggies 200

total 1800 :) 

5day is good: 1990-2000 cal.

weather forecast is rain so if it holds off, I’ll be able to bike - otherwise I am considering driving to the gym and paying for just today to go on an indoor bike as being off all day I want to get in activity even if it rains 

it rained all afternoon since 4pm and my activities took until after 4pm. i decided not to do any more exercise besides the weights in the morning - if it's nice out, i'll do a partial walk home tomorrow as well as maybe a short bike ride after i get home...or just a bike ride :) i'll see tomorrow.

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EXERCISE weights workout will happen after breakfast! :-D

done! 1pm dermatologist...proably didn't leave there until around 1:45pm..was good.

done! - buy more fruit at good supermarket on the way home from derm & seltzers & iced coffee - i was prob in the supermarket 45min.

done! - return an amazon shower head at Kohl's by me (that's the return policy for this item lol  i'm lucky Kohl's is pretty darn close - 5-10min by car) (after dermatologist, on the way home) THIS TOOK A LONG TIME, THERE WAS A LONG RETURN LINE...actually prob not that long, but at least a 20min line i'd say.

2- bike ride (20-30min) in afternoon sometime around 4pm?

done! 3- 6pm Podiatrist close to home 10 min walk :)

done! - cooking the last of my veggies from a week and half ago they are still OK. making my favorite vegan collard greens recipe - i have 3 zucchini and 2 baby bok choy...just in time to cook before i get a new delivery tomorrow :) (maybe do cooking in evening)

- maybe get my nails done at a salon as they are long and could use a shaping, OR, i can do that at home with my "sticker" manicure polish...this option is the better option - the home option is better since i have 3 packs to use still that i previously bought, each pack is $10.

 

 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/07/2019:
I also responded to your comment to your yesterdays post..........How nice to have a sleep in day...I did too!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
it was beautiful to get up when my body was ready LOL. for real! i wrote you back to your other response. that's the situation, indeed.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
i wish my mom had the confidence to know better than to just believe everything negative she hears. but she doesn't bc she also isn't perfect.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
i wish she could have told that woman she doesn't think that's the case and there must be more to it. oh well. either way, i told that woman's daughter (my age at the reunion) to tell her mom that i wasn't rude and make sure it gets back to my mom!!!! enough with the stupidity!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
i told the girl via a private facebook message.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
and the girl comes back and tells me that not only did she not know that my mom knew (LOL ok, whatever) that this girl also told my SISTER at the beach to invite me!!!! my sister never said a thing to me - my sister shouldn't be relied on for this type of thing, either. so as you can see, it was a mess.


BearCountryGG on 08/07/2019:
You know how funny this really is...those that want to go do...and those that don't want to go don't...we have never been to either of our high school reunions......there are about 100 in each of our classes...and about 15 show up......every reunion...that D has...he always tells me to tell them he is in PRISON!!! NO NOT DOING THAT!!!!.....we just aren't interested....and we NEVER answer the invitation......we just ignore it...because those that are eager to go...jump right on the bandwagon and say they are going.....and basically everyone else ignores it.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
EXACTLY !!!! :) and that's what everyone else did in this chat too! :)

i liked reading your own scenario as a way to manage my own situation. yours sounds similar to my type of scenario.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
i feel like i am in prison over this...where nothing is right. i cannot even, as an almost 37yr old adult, ignore it and not get blamed! hahaha



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Aug 06, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

 KOMBUCHA 50

WRAP AND EGG AND AVO AND COFFEE 350

11:30AM ALMONDS 100

LUNCH MY LEFTOVERS: half a frank 100, leftover sauteed veggies 150 from last week, still ok, and i added them into a chicken broth packet to turn it into more flavorful soup for flavor and low calories (almost none), avocado 150.  400-450 tops.

snacks: part of a mango 100 (sent from misfits) and i want to share with coworker, cookie 50, almonds 100

choc and snacks 300

10pm granola bar 100 and seltzer with stevia back at home

1650...and bed.

4day avg: 2040

 

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planning on eating light and late this evening bc of concert. i am taking an opportunity to eat light since it coincides with work/travel/easy day to manage things.

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i'm going to a special organ concert tonight at THE RIVERSIDE CHURCH. it's famous and historical. half hour by train from work. I get out JUST IN TIME to make the concert with a little time to spare. to add to this special occasion, i know someone else who will go! he's the Music Librarian from when i was in college back in 2000-2007 (undergrad/master's part time!) it will be so nice to see him. he's an older, interesting, nice man. Can't wait to catch up!!! he goes to most of the summer concert series there.

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had an argumentative discussion with my mom today....  basically thru the grapevine she actually heard about the "elementary school reunion" and about how in a group message someone asked me if i was going!!! she actually heard about it even before i knew about this because i turned off notifications to the group chat about it!  she never told me though that she heard.

and basically my mom "heard" thru the grapevine that i was ignoring the person who asked if i was gonna come! LOL LOL. i wasn't purposely ignoring her in particular, but the WHOLE GROUP CHAT!!!!!! i didn't even know she wrote particularly to me!!!

so get this, i called my mom this morning, telling her that there was a reunion on the same night i had a bbq with my mom and dad and family...and she all of a sudden starts telling me how rude i was to ignore the girl who invited me!??????????

she totally didn't invite me...and it was a GROUP CHAT. not a personal invite. i was ignoring (turned off notificaitons) so what i don't see i cannot reply to!

basically, my mom wouldn't except what i said (she's not on fb and doesn't get it) and said no matter what it's rude not to reply to an invite to the reunion!!!! HAHAHA it wasn't an invite but a group chat where someone asked me in particular if i was going to go...

it was an annoying morning with my mom and reminders of the reunion i was trying to forget about!!!!!!!!!!!!

i couldn't ignore my mom...i told her she has no right to tell me i'm rude, she doesn't know facebook, it wasn't an individual invitation, etc. etc. she doesn't know what it means to turn off message notifications. my mom is clueless, but, still, she thinks she can tell me i'm rude not responding to a mesage i didn't seee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOL

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/06/2019:
Hope you are having a good evening at the concert.......sounds like you plan to. I guess once a Mom always a Mom.....we are always trying to teach....LOL....she probably doesn't know that the reunion brought back some unhappy memories......and was just looking at the socially aceptable way to handle what she thought was an invitation...in our eyes you guys are still our little kids.....and always trying to train you up right....LOL...even when we don't get it ourselves...LOL

Horn_of_plenty on 08/06/2019:
thanks, BCGG, you hit the nail on the head..

i told my mom off. not the best and i could have held back, but her criticisms of my behavior got me rather annoyed at the whole situation, AGAIN.


Donkey on 08/07/2019:
Looks like a good food day... I bet the performance was amazing!

That's too bad about your mom. I think you got it right when you said she doesn't get it. So now you have another negative memory of a negative memory.

I'm not sure why this was so important to your mom, too even bring it up.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
the performance was very high caliber like the guy playing must be sort of like a genius on the organ. lots of hands and foot work simultaneously very very challenging!

i brought it up to my mom bc on facebook i decided to tell everyone they look fabulous on a photo i saw. LOL...and the woman that i particularly think nothing good about wrote "you should have come!!!". sorry, but, i shouldn't have done anything i didn't want to do! i think she's an idiot! anyways, i wrote back "i had a family obligation".

i wrote that asnwer to her bc that's been her biggest excuse for everything she didn't show up to for my sister - she missed my sister's bridal shower and bris of my sister's baby when we all went to her's. so, i wanted to use that excuse on purpose (but i did end up going to a bbq with my parents)

but, because my mom is at the beach and this is DEF where she heard all this info of how rude i am and about the reunion, i wanted to give my mom a head's up that if anyone asks, we had a bbq planned.

however, before i could get into it, my mom went into a spiel of how i am so rude not to repsond to an invite.

NOBODY declined the invite, only the ones that wanted to came would participate in the chat. why should it be different for me?

my mom is friends with her mom, but i think this woman - the one who chatted one line in the chat saying "jackie are you gonna come!?" ...when i wasn't following the chat to begin with...i owe her NOTHING. i don't need to follow a chat.

this goes to show why it's great i didn't go. i don't need to deal with people like this. i don't need to deal with someone that demands any answers or actions from me. i don't need this in my life! and someone, it's following me. i commented on the photos on purpose, to be nice...and i responded to that girl i dislike on the photo bc i didn't want her to think i was "ignoring her comment"

just goes to show, sometimes it's better to say nothing and do nothing! as usual, the more you say, the deeper the consequences.

with my mom, any more situations coming forward, i will ignore her. i repeat, I WILL LEARN TO IGNORE PEOPLE WHO ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY. they don't deserve explanatinos anymore - especially if the explanation is obvious to me. it wasn't worth it.

next time, i'll say, you say what you want, and i'll decide what's best for me!

thanks donkey.

my mom is wrong to just believe other people about a situatino she isn't part of. she someties has low self esteem and thinks i must act like the group does. she doesn't understand people who are different. and she has trouble being different herseelf, she doesn't like to do anything against the grain. she's good friends with two mother's of the 2 ladies going to the reunino....but she doesn't realize i particulary dislike several of the people at the reunion.

honestly, my mom knew bc the other mom discussed it with her, with a very opinionated view. i'm once again reminded of one thing - stay away from that family, stay away from eveeryone in that nasty family. what jerks to atually stimulate a controvery that gets back to me.


BearCountryGG on 08/07/2019:
I just got another take on your Mom when I read your response to Donkey....................Your Mom was put in a postition of embarassment by HER FRIENDS!! Basically they embarassed her....by telling her that you didn't respond. She got on YOU because she doesn't want that to happen again to HER! This is really all about HER...and because as you say...she likes to fit in with the crowd.....she didn't like to be set apart. This really just points out how parents look to their kids behavior and accomplishments to PROVE THE PARENTS WORTH! Her friends pointed the finger at her...and she did not like it...so now...she is making it your fault........she will get over it......she raised you.....now you can do what you want.....

Horn_of_plenty on 08/07/2019:
that's correct, i am sure she was definitely embarrassed by the situation and by being in the position of raising the "woman who is a bit different cut than the rest - me"

yea...i ended up telling the woman (my age) who i don't particularly think well of - i told her i had the notifications off and there was no intention of rudeness as i wasn't following the chat and for her, when she has a chance, to tell her mom/my mom. !!!!! i had enough of the nonsense.

so i didn't go to the reunion, but, the stress still came to me!!! hahahahaha

the woman who started this shiznit should maybe watch herself and how she portrays things to her mom. LOL. it's all nonsense and sadly i wasted a lot of time thinking about it all the past few days!!!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Aug 05, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

Home kombucha 50

Breakfast: wrap and egg 200 with seasonings, avocado 100. coffee 50. 350.

Snack: almonds 100.

Lunch: healthy from home...maybe with some quinoa added from buffet...we all went out to Scnippers...i had a small amount of fries bc we had extra at the table 250, half my turkey burger with some dressing 200, half the bun 100, salad with light balsamic dressing 100, croutons 150. total 800? maybe overetimated, but rather it be over than under!

snack: APPLE 100, ALMONDS 100

dinner: will be light, thinking yogurt and fruit after dentist. after dentist also picking up 1 gallon seltzer (no more than that bc i'm walking home with it - dentist is 5-10 min walk from bus and my house)...

dinner ended up being leftover salmon, a miso soup I did for takeout and chips. Around 550

2050 and a great day 

2166 3day  

half hour walk also 

 

 

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Higher cals over the weekend, but nothing too crazy or remarkable, thankfully.  And lots of health added in also.

Dentist appt after work today, so i will def leave 20min early or so.

 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/05/2019:
Your food all sounds good........

Horn_of_plenty on 08/06/2019:
and it was satisfying...though after a bigger lunch than planned, i had to watch more carefully portions for the rest of the day!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Aug 04, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

9-10am oatmeal with almond milk 170, strawberry protein smoothie i made 200,  iced coffee 50. 450

10:30-3:00 before / during workout chocolate protein nut butter 100, pb on rice cracker 100, cranberry juice 60, more pb 100, cranberry/amino mix 50, light lunch at 1pm egg with seasonings 100, bean chips 200, strawberries 100, 50

Salad 150,  burger 300, bun 150, dessert 250. 850

5am monday strawberries 50

2200

 

 

 

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1- first plan for today is my weights workout which could take a couple hours at least..so i'm combining it with the next task!.

2-  laundry...maybe clean up the hamster cage too

3- second to last - possible short 15-20min bike ride (maybe)

4- last - bbq over at parent's house

no supermarket, no errands. - i can catch up on buying some groceries on Wednesday, between 2 dr appts and it's a day off from work for me. :)  i'll make sure to do a weights routine on Wednesday and maybe a bike ride too. but we'll see what i have time for! - not sure if i am doing thsi today or wednesday, lol, i keep changing my mind!

 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 08/04/2019:
I found some smoothie mixes here....I will be having those..plus making up my own too.....( but I seriously hate washing the blender...I swear...every time I use my ninja...I slice my fingers.....that thing is like it's made of razor blades.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/05/2019:
this smoothie wasn't fantastic and i have the ninja too but i try not to mess too much with the blades! yes, they are so sharp!

for the smoothie, i used about a cup of cottage cheese, 14 strawberries, small amount vanilla, small amount sf maple syrup and tablespoon pb. the strawberries were frozen so i kept adding some as the blender would allow, since it's hard for the blades to cut thru only frozen stuff without a little liquid involved if you get me..it was good, but boring - and the recipe was advertising a "pudding" when it really was just a smoothie as it was very thin. still good with oatmeal though instead of my yogurt. i have half left still!. ..maybe i'll freeze it until this coming weekend.

do you think it'll stay fresh a whole week?


BearCountryGG on 08/05/2019:
I seem to cut myself taking the blades out of the drawer more than anything....I love the blender...iuti is super strong....I'm just a cluttz with it though...LOL....freezing your leftovers sounds like a good idea.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/06/2019:
ohhh, i keep the blades screwed in or almost screwed in, resting on top of the blender on my counter...so i never am reaching for the blades! why don't you put them in a paper bag or keep them in the blender! lol, i'd be scared to reach for it also if i were in your position! ouch!


BearCountryGG on 08/06/2019:
I have so many pieces...and 3 blade sets....so I am constantly having to take pieces out to set up other things....if I just used the smoothie set...I would be okay...but i do cut up a lot of veggies in there for cole slaw...and things like that too.....I do need to finsd another way to store them though...I'm thinking of individual plastic containers for each blade set......

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/06/2019:
that is a good idea, so you know to look for them in a container before just sticking your hand into a drawer! good idea.


BearCountryGG on 08/06/2019:
I have so many pieces...and 3 blade sets....so I am constantly having to take pieces out to set up other things....if I just used the smoothie set...I would be okay...but i do cut up a lot of veggies in there for cole slaw...and things like that too.....I do need to finsd another way to store them though...I'm thinking of individual plastic containers for each blade set......



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Aug 03, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

8:30am breakfast oatmeal with almond milk 170, whole milk chobani with strawberry on bottom 160..330, later coffee 50. 380

then fell asleep for an hour or two.

11am snack: same bar as last night since i bought two and they were more healthy than even expected and tasty 250

2pm lunch hard boiled egg and seasoning, cranberry juice, 200, maybe some chips...salt and vinegar bean chips almost 2 servings 250

almost 5pm plum 50

dinner was good, didn't have any alcohol besides a few sips of Ricky's. lots of cabbage, tasted like sugar might have been added, 250, fried cod which was SUPER GREAT 250, and two jumbo fried shimp also GREAT 300, 100, and a granola bar 100 when i got home later at night. 1000

total around 2250, extremely tasty dinner. loved it!

 

 

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will be cooking a lot today... 

feeling like another UTI, but trying to skip the dr and drink cranberry juice...wish me luck!!!!!!!! i believe it's from sweating / walking at lunch at home and i guess i need to shower extra...should have showered last night before bed...

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 08/03/2019:
I slept in today as well. Kind of mad that I missed some beautiful morning time, but I really needed the rest. And I hope to be able to stay up late (for me) to catch some PBS shows that I missed earlier this week because I watched the debates instead.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/03/2019:
i really love sleeping in, especially on Saturdays and after a full week of work. I generally do not sleep during the work week as much as i'd like to just do to time constraints...and sleeping in on Saturday is simply something i enjoy..sunday too.

i also enjoy sleeping when i know i'll be up late at night...same thing for me as you tonight - and i know i'll be up late so i prefer to get started with the day later too rather than be up for all hours!!


Donkey on 08/04/2019:
UGH on the UTI!!! I wonder what's going on, and if there would be more you could do that is preventative. Could it be something in your diet? Too many (whatever) that is throwing off the chemical balance?

I hope you feel better this morning.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/04/2019:
i did feel better in morning. i do sweat a bit at lunches when i walk at work and maybe i have to shower more often at night. seems to happen on weekends.maybe stress related. probably not though! also, i am sure it's diet related. i have been having a lot of extra sugar / fruit. and also iced coffees. this can all add into it i am sure :/ ...i will be able to knock it out on my own, it got better over the course of the day. i did buy more cranberry juice too.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Aug 02, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 60

breakfast from buffet (didn't pack it) and it was less then $3 because it's by weight - so, i might have to do this a LITTLE more often! half a small bagel 150, with cream cheese good amount of it 150, lox - nice amount of that too! 100!!!! nice! and portioned out, premade. there was a slight hair / string in it though! yuck!  and coffee from work. 50. 

9:45am snack: small quaker pb chip granola bar 100, ALMONDS 100, PEANUTS 100

lunch: LEFTOVERS once again :) great week money-wise and variety-wse! different from most weeks, enjoyable, and fun: i did indulge though - tomato salad with dressing 100, other veg with light dressing 100, too much pastrami 350, bread 100. 650-700

snacks: Fruit 100 and a starbucks iced passion tango since it's right next door and i'm craving sweet things today, possibly almonds too 100

light dinner plum, 2 greek yogurts 350

10pm decided on a larger late night snack: really tasty bar, natural and not too much sugar 250 cal and some lime seltzer. ...i'll prob have to wake up to pee, but, i should also sleep well lol...ok, goodnight!

2300

7day : 2095.

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Today i'll make sure to enjoy the weather and walk home partially at least :) maybe grab on iced tea from starbucks on the walk too (it'as around 6pm and i'm with an appetite usually, so this obviously helps me at that hour)

Plans are to do some walking, do more soaking of legs (still doing the epsom salt baths at least 2x per week - it's def relaxing and i'll keep at it) and go to bed at a reasonable hour.

Tomorrow, i'm totally going to do some cooking & baking, but before that Ricky will come over to help me with a shower head / hose installation :) also i'm giving him my bike to fix and for him to see if i need a new air pump (nice to have a handy-man which he is 100% of that - very capable without prior experience many things...he likes to fix things!) 

And like i mentioned earlier in an entry a few days ago, i have a really nice plan for Saturday night (German beer garden restaurant with live disco band and "authentic german food" - which is WAYYYY better than Sunday's option to go to a reunion with people of whom MOSTLY don't work in the summertime, have more flexible schedules, and want to be out late on a Sunday night...for me, i don't need to see them, discuss babies, discuss my life, or be out late before a busy week :)  

 

"authetic german food" - i'll prob get the fried shrimp, but what i really want is the beer batter fried fish...so, we'll see...lol, if you consider that German LOL. they do have German food, though, that's NOT what i want to get!

 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

legcramps on 08/02/2019:
Beer batter fried fish - so YUM! That totally sounds like an awesome night for sure :)

Glad to see you are benefiting from the epsom salt baths! I try to get one in about every two weeks - every time I do, it helps me recover faster.

It's so nice to have someone handy nearby; I am dependent on BF for a lot of fix-it type things now (I used to try to do everything myself); he is also one of those people who likes to fix things. I've got him booked to re-do my backyard deck this year! I can't wait :)

Horn_of_plenty on 08/03/2019:
he completely fixed and cleaned my bike up and better than any repairman ever did it at any of the bike shops i've been to. the brakes are amazing! lol...

and the epsom salts i look forward to either tonight or tomorrow morning


Donkey on 08/03/2019:
My grandmother used to say, a handy man is worth is weight in gold.

LOL, shrimp and fish are not German - but get what you want; that way, you won't be disappointed. Besides, the ambiance is German.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/03/2019:
i am sorta feeling the need to make good choices tonight...so, we'll see...i'm def ordering a salad and no alcohol (well, no beer at least) because once again i have a slight UTI!!!!!!!!!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Aug 01, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

Kombucha 50

typical wrap and coffee 350, 2 chocolates 120

snack tbd ALMONDS 200 2x 

lunch: lots of fresh veggies and some dressing 180, some other leftovers here in the fridge too - Half a large potato baked knish 250, leftover pastrami 200. 630 approx

snacks: peach 50 / almonds 100 / 2 gummy candies 50

Tonight is STRENGTH WORKOUT :)

Before / during strength - will prob include an iced coffee and lots of strawberries, fresh, that i bought yesterday on the way home! pound of strawberries 150, iced coffee 50, pb on rice cake 100, aminos 50

after exercise: TBD bar 200

2100, excellent!

6day - around 2060, excellent.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 08/01/2019:
Hoping you have a very nice day. Veggies and almonds and fruit are very healthy.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/01/2019:
i've made it a habit to eat pretty decently healthy at work by making sure i always have these options on hand here :) it helps to have a fridge in the room, also.


BearCountryGG on 08/01/2019:
Can't go wrong with fresh produce.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/01/2019:
YES, very much looking forward to tasting all the veggies straight from my coworker's garden - didn't get to eat them yesterday bc i had food ordered in from company...today is a day for a nice salad of tomatoes and cucumber with lime juice (brought a fresh lime!) and salt and pepper seasoning on it!


legcramps on 08/01/2019:
yum, strawberries!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/01/2019:
that's my favorite fruit indulgence. i eat a LOT of them and they fill me before a workout. tonight an iced coffee will also be included...just low cals, some health, filling...tasty.

after work when i get home usually around 6:30pm or similiar times, i am very eager to have fruit lately!!!!! my appetite is not even that strong lately, just wanting to indulge in fruit.


legcramps on 08/01/2019:
Nothing wrong with that! I have always been more of a salty snacker, but every once in awhile I love to have pineapple or watermelon. They are my go-to fruit!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/01/2019:
i guess everyone has their faves!!! :) it's been helping me a great deal with calories and food choices after work having all the fresh fruit in my fridge!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jul 31, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 80

breakfast is typical and coffee 350

snack: almonds 100, 2x chocolate 100

lunch: will be leftovers as well as veggies from coworker's garden omg happy about this! lol - there was a meeting and extra food, so i had a LOT of really tasty pastrami that was still warm and good 300, one slice of rye bread with mustard too 150, and leftover veggies along with a couple half sour pickles 100 and a diet cream soda.550-600  i have enough pastrami to also have it both tomorrow and friday.

snack: fruit 100/ almonds100  / 2 Small cookies 100

1550

dinner: tbd- thinking fruit / yogurt and early to bed 

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will do a shorter walk home, unless it's raining, which it is forcasted to do.

if rain- bed early. 

total cal was 2000

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 07/31/2019:
Oh, the veggies from coworker's garden sounds so wonderful! Hope you have a very happy day!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/31/2019:
yes, they are tasting great...will have them all week.


legcramps on 07/31/2019:
Nice, fresh veggies!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/31/2019:
always tops...! and nice to have with a little light dressing or lime. i may bring a lime from home to work tomorrow.


BearCountryGG on 07/31/2019:
Garden season...always so nice.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/31/2019:
the best season. everything is tasty!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/31/2019:
for a veggie lover, it's a good season!


legcramps on 07/31/2019:
Ok, I just went back through some of your entries and realized what you've been going through lately. I'm really sorry that you've been feeling down about some of your relationships. I know it is never easy to be your true self around people who are not very accepting. I would not attend that reunion either - it sounds like it would be painful for you. If there is absolutely no benefit to allowing yourself the experience, then definitely forego it for something more fun!

I've spent many years feeling frustrated with people's ability to be 'fake'; finally I realized that it is a coping strategy for them. It's hard to be real in front of people sometimes, and - for a lot of people - being 'fake' means not having to show a side of themselves that they may not be proud of.

I truly hope that your friend C was just being cranky that day and didn't intend to make you feel hurt. Your response to Donkey indicated that you have complained to C about R in the past. I have a close group of ladies who would never intentionally put me down or judge the way I live. HOWEVER, they will be real with me and let me know if they feel someone is affecting me negatively. I appreciate their honesty. More than once, they have been right about the energy in my relationships that I have been unable to see.

So, I will be 'real' with you right now, but without knowing all the details or history please excuse my opinion if it's way out in left field and C really was just being nasty for the sake of nastiness. If it seemed to me that a close friend of mine was being negatively impacted by someone, I would not hesitate to question it. It sounds like C approached the conversation in a very negative way, which may make her intentions about it unclear. If it isn't worth the conversation with her, that's cool, but if it happens again i'd question her intentions in responding to you that way.

I am always around (virtually lol) if you need to talk!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/01/2019:
thanks for the kind words and advice. yeah, the reunion is not something helpful or good for me right now. I have a busy schedule during the week and the reunion is late on a sunday night. many of the women do not work in the summer bc they are stay at home moms and the other women will prob not have work Monday. for me, it's a waste of time to go and a stresser before a busy week. thanks for commenting on that.

next, C hates Ricky. She doesn't think well of him due to the first and only time they met he was very sarcastic and she took it really, really personally. not saying he was acting apropriately either for a first time meeting. he was extra rude that time i'd say.

she doesn't think well of him and doesn't like that i hang with him. she thinks he's a very bad influence on me.

while that is ok, and it's ok for her to tell me to take care of myself and make sure i am hanging with good people, the thing is that she's not always available to do new / different activities especially local ones.

whereas ricky doesn't always behave how he should, he's my local friend and the person i do local things with.

so, it's not like i'm able to hang out with her instead of him as she's not even interested in these local events and she doesn't live close to me like he does. she knows i hang with him.

anyways, she was prob ddoing it for my benefit in her reaction, but, it was still rude.


Donkey on 08/01/2019:
Did you walk?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/01/2019:
it rained, so, i didn't walk, but i did stop by the supermarket when it stopped raining also on the way home.

instead of walking, i was able to go to bed early and sleep a bit extra last night.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/01/2019:
I am thinking maybe i'll have another opportunity to walk on Friday after work :)...and it's best i stay away from the ladder still.

i'll be fixing up my bike for riding on Saturday.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jul 30, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

kombucha 60

wrap and egg 200, avo 100, seasonings, coffee 50

snack: chocolate and almonds 150

lunch: ...meatballs from buffet yesterday and my veggies..maybe chips (but getting off them)....more buffet: tomato and cucumber salad, quinoa and roasted squash. need the health and change right now! 600. heathy.

snack: 2 apricots, almonds

before / during workout: A lot of strawberries, huge container but they were not very good - many were spoiled - i couldn't tell before buying - so no more buying strawberries in Manhattan at the fruit stand, only at the fruit stand in Queens! lol i have better luck at that one! 200 in strawberries (HUGE 2lb container!) and iced coffee 50. ..hard boiled egg with lots of seasonings 70, peanut butter 80

after workout tbd: bar 250

2050 today, happy about that!

4day: 2050, great

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tonight is strength.

yes, my back is still sore - will probably skip situps (which may have caused my sore back initially.. - or it was due to a bad sleeping posture).

the book i am reading is very sad, i'm thinking it could have contributed to my mood...but is not entire reason.

i feel a bit better emotionally today, still sore in my lower back.

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/31/2019:
Curious to know if your back pain feels muscular or bone or nerve related.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/31/2019:
it feels pulled, like a slept long and it will heal.

not bone.

either muscle or nerve related to the pain i may get at times from sciatica at work.


Donkey on 07/31/2019:
Like a bruise, an ache, a stab, prickly?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 07/31/2019:
it is an ache only when i stretch it now...the pain is still around today but it keeps getting better.

i stayed away from situps bc those exercises tend to be quite a pounding to my back and instead did planks...omg, haven't done planks in awhile and i lost a LTO of strength! i think i might do them (planking) more often!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jul 29, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.2

for some reason, i am feeling upset today. i can't really say why other than i am tired and didn't sleep well. i am just sad.  it's been a long time since i last felt this way at work, but this time i know it's either bc my hormones / chemicals are screwy or i'm just having an off day.

definite feelings of sadness.

related but not the same, i'm not getting the real support i'd like from any close friends. i really don't have much in that category anyways - but - the ones that are close to me i do not feel are much help right now. it's more that i'm yearning for a new, special relationship - the type you get from the opposite sex like in a real boyfriend. someone i am proud of and who i can look to, to talk to. of course, it's not something i need, i'm just a bit sick of everything typical.

i did talk to a young guy at work today for less than 5 min while he was mircrowaving his lunch. nice guy. prob around 10 yrs younger as in he's closer to 26-28 whereas i am turning 37. not really so close in age at all, so i take it lightly and don't really consider anything.

plus, the health condition i mentioned a couple weeks ago on here - i have changed my ways and do not think about actually taking part in any more "casual s*x" as there is no more benefit to me or others and i will not hurt others in this way or face more health problems with related issues. so i'm just sitting here, i guess a little sad about that. i guess if nothing were a problem, i'd make a little more effort to flirt with him. but now, it's different.  and in general, before, i wish i knew this moreso. i wish i had  greater outside warning. i'm not even sure if i would have taken the precautions had i been warned, but, it is what it is and i'm at where i am at now. no going back!

going forward, if i want a "relationship," i'm going to actually have "to try" at it. meaning, the talking, the company, the real emotional aspect and not just the "play" part. and i know that's what is to come hopefully down the road. and i have to hope that my partner has the same needs / desires / openness about him.

another reason possibly behind the sadness is the fact that i haven't been able to continue my training in the way i would have liked this summer in terms of cardio.  It's a kick in the gut and today i actually woke up with a sore lower back due to possibly something i did while sleeping. 

i'm feeling discouragement with the court officer training and also encouragement that i have to change the training slightly (my pushups are not progressing much - i need to add the planks back in as additional abdominal work)...

i may have to regroup and refresh myself tonight on how this next month is going to go...something has to change.

and no, i cannot restart the ladder cardio yet..i could have been biking, but i think the tires need air...i can look at it tonight, maybe, or i can just go to bed early as is what really seems to be what i need today.

BUT, now at 36 turning 37 in September, i can only realize the most important thing which is the only person that can truly change my life or change a feeling of sadness is ME. i have to work on myself / my goals / my situation. complaining or staying sad for too long - won't help me. 

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kombucha 60

wrap with egg 200 and avo 100 and coffee 50. 

snack :almonds? 200

lunch: wasn't in the mood for what i brought, so bought buffet: small piece salmon 200, about a cup of baked noodles with light amount of cheese 400?, salad 100. 700 approx. i was craving carbs and my mood today has been going down the tube for no explanatory reason which i have thought is weird...

snack: apple / almonds

dinner: just a snack which is really sometimes what i like on weekends, less fiber and easier to digest: 2 of my whipped cream treats that were in the freezer 100, strawberries good serving 100, yogurt light 100 with sf chocolate chips 100 tops. 400.

1950. 

3day: 

Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/29/2019:
Do not take this the wrong way, as a criticism or sexist comment, but I do think your emotions might be a little sensitive today because of hormones. Why do I say that? Only because you mentioning the lower back pain. I know that my hormones get the better of me and I get sad or very picky (testy, ornery if we're talking donkey).

The good news is that it passes, as far as feeling negative.

Perhaps it is time to find a relationship to add to your life sphere. Don't write someone off just because of an age difference, especially younger ad long ad the person is mature and wants the same things you do in life. With a solid relationship, it won't seem like it's a gap. It really doesn't.

I was a little concerned about your training for court officer, BUT you know your limits. Pushing yourself if your ankle is tender will do you no good.

Give it a day or 2 and see if the sadness fades. This episode has brought up a lot of interesting ideas about what you want in your life, for your life. You can work on these when you feel a little less vulnerable.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/29/2019:
I am not sure about my back and what happened?

My period will not come for another two weeks...but maybe my back is still affecting my mood?

you are right i will get over this "spell." it seems i am just needing more time alone to let this pass and figure things out.

thank you for the relationship advice. he and i , this guy at work, do not live close either. so that's another thing. i will still chat with him when we see each other (we don't see each other that much, so at least we can chat when we do). it's at least nice to chat with somebody new!

yeah, i cannot push the ankle / leg. i am trying not to be totally sedentary, but will have to rethink the training and how i continue to do it.

thank you for the comment. i appreciate the fact that you are reminding me of something important - that my mood will change and this will not last.


Donkey on 07/29/2019:
I also want to mention...

Yesterday, I got your friend C and J mixed up. You have written about C before. It seems to me that she has some issues with being negative and pulling in others' parades.

That doesn't excuse her rudeness or behavior but it certainly does explain her comment.

I was initially concerned that J had made this comment, so I thought maybe something else in the context of the conversation was going on. Now I get it.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/29/2019:
Yes, you have that right. It's C. Not J. J is totally a different personality than C.

you got it.

My coworker / roommate at work says it best too - she says the older you get, the less you want to share and of course the less expectations to have with people. sometimes it's not worth even bringing up to a friend that you feel something didn't go right, sometimes it's best to let it roll and just enjoy what does work with friends. it's just not worth the arguments anymore.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/30/2019:
I guess based on the person(s) i am spending time with, i have to know as an adult what works and what doesn't and also watch myself when necessary. maybe that's what being an adult and being responsible means to a small extent.



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