- Wednesday Jan 07, 2015
The dr went well. he was very calm and patient with me & all my questions. He said continue on these anti inflammatory and muscle relaxer meds for another 6 weeks when I will go back to him. he feels I am having progress and I do agree. it's slow, but it's there. day off was wonderful.
I got a lot of important phone calls and finance-related paperwork sorted and questions answered. I now know I can transfer all my teacher retirement system money (must take it out or transfer it because my membership automatically ceases after not working in the field 5 years now) to my current retirement system! Wonderful. So now I can skip out on the 20% tax penalty as well as the 10%penalty for getting the money in a check direct to myself. Basically, I don't lose anything, 100% of the money stays mine instead of going to taxes and state.
How much does that save me?! Well over $1,000 dollars that will stay in my retirement fund instead of being deducted for penalty. wonderful. glad to keep all my money! Now I just have to get all the paperwork done and choose the funds to invest my money in...will try to figure out which funds are doing the best currently...I may not really be able to figure that one out, but I do have a coworker I could ask since he has a friend as a financial planner and he told me he discussed it with the planner...
I also dealt with other medical phone calls. lots of phone time, but seemed to get done faster than usual with minimal waiting...
best of all, I did get a haircut, cut a ton off. and it feels so much healthier! lastly, I went to the gym and had a nice upper body weights workout. I am using slightly lower weights than i was up to 2.5 months ago. It feels GREAT to do be starting to recover and feeling better all over.
calories after small coffee and protein shake: 1200...
calories for dinner: around 450?
total: 1650, all healthy. good.
total cals these past 2 days: 2075. good enough. moving onwards to tomorrow!
(I still have a few vaca days remaining, to be spaced out so I can have a few more days like this one in the next few months). On the next day I take, it'll be easier because it's during a week that a lot of people take off, President's Week in February. I have actually scheduled both a gyno apt and my leg follow up apt on the same day. so a good use of the day. also, i'll prob get a workout in.) in order to somehow increase my fitness and health, it's going to involve spacing vacation days out rather than using them all together. It'll also mean not truly going on vacation, aside from the summer at the beach. Works for me. Luckily growing up, I did get the chance to travel a bit with my family and experience some nice things. Even as a younger adult, I did have a few great travel experiences. Now is not the time for that. And I am thankful I did do those things earlier.
Having a slight fast till after my dr. apt, or what i'd really like is to make it to Noon or later actually. Let's see if I can reach this goal today :) I will maybe splurge on a haircut to even out the back with the front....it will also help pass time if I can get it in in the later morning! Tonight I'll cook some veggies.
If I can get the haircut in, i'd come home after to eat afterwards before gym. Planning on bran cereal and high fiber carbs, maybe some fruit. And maybe a little coffee before gym. After gym, I would get a protein shake. Dinner will then be veggies and some kind of meat, and maybe squash as a carb. still Deciding...also I have canned pumpkin, so maybe with dinner canned pumpkin and a higher fat yogurt....decisions, decisions :) Calorie goal for today is 1400-1600 (1200 would be good, also).
Breakfast: lemon and turmeric spice blend in warm water with stevia: 50.
Big Meal at noon: soup, even broth with a bone base!, and ham/kale soup 150, then TONS of cooked cabbage with oil 500 at least probably, and yogurt with cranberry 200.
total around 900, good!
- Tuesday Jan 06, 2015
Got around 8hrs sleep but could have seriously used one more hour to make up for Sunday nights lack of it completely. Feeling a lil better but glad I am taking Wednesday fully off. My body is still sore today so tomorrow will be a great weights workout back at the gym after the dr. Sometime in the earlier afternoon! As for today, nothing planned but I will use the roller on my legs and do some stretching before work this morning. Also gonna force myself to take the gross gelatin collagen in my water this morning...will take 2x a day :( for now.
overate a little bit at dinner, but at least it was tasty.
calories around 2500 today, but worth it. lately I've been having a lot more salt and it almost makes me feel better??
tomorrow's plan: fasting in morning (no real breakfast). come home, eat, go to gym after dr appt. get a shake after working out and come home and cook all the nice veggies I bought. and maybe pick up some cooked chicken from supermarket. we'll see...
I had the two servings of gelatin....it is so gross I almost wanna spit it out when I drink it. smells and tastes awful!
Worked 8am-7pm..,.made more money :)
- Monday Jan 05, 2015
food: some healthy, some not. Around 3.5 servings of chips in there (but that's because most of the grain carbs I had were from chips, not also breads. Sometimes I prefer chips to bread or rice. wouldn't you!?
550 + 850 lunch = 1400....good :) Did abs in morning...
was up a lot during the night with things on my mind and also very strong winds kept waking me. tonight I hope to get better sleep :)
I was very sore in an area where I probably lost a bit of muscle today from my workout last night. It felt great to know I worked my muscles :) but now I just have to get rid of my leg pain so I can really forge ahead with my dreams.
I have begun to take collagen. It's a pure protein powder and it smells and tastes horrible. it's made from animal parts (bones and hoofs - I should read the label so I can tell you more...I will...). there's a lot left in the bottle and I am going to take it religiously. it says to take some in the morning (tablespoon) and another at night. that's the recommended dose and it equals about 100 calories this way.
Collagen is perfect for the repair of joints and soft tissue. That is the problem I am having with my legs. so if i'm not up to making a bone broth soup yet (takes awhile and I need to buy the bones), I will take this collagen. I really only want to take it once a day...but perhaps I should test it twice first? to see if it does anything? I really want to nip this leg problem a bit more....I did a pretty good job being happy today at work too...and I am going to remember that...how important it is to maintain a positive outlook.
Maintaining a positive perspective helps me :) It feels really good to feel good, you know? So like I said, I did a great job today doing that. And tomorrow I feel I will also do a good job because I am taking the next day, Wednesday, fully off: to go to the dr in morning about my legs (follow-up) and then I will work out later in the afternoon, similar to the workout I did yesterday. This way, I have an extra day recovery after not working out for almost 3 months. And that's good because I am not sure I would be ready to workout tomorrow, I think I am still going to be sore! Feels good because I know it means my muscles are growing and repairing (upper body) and also that means I should let them recover, not force another workout (lesson learned from my legs...).
anyways, 2015 started off nicely. and I am looking to keep it that way :)
I think the collagen is going to help me greatly....and anyways, I will experiment until the container is done!
- Sunday Jan 04, 2015
Just rediscovered a bottle of gelatin that I bought. It's so healthy (but smells & tastes plain awful!). It can be added to foods, sneaked in!, and it's very healthy especially for someone like me who needs all the soft tissue repair she can get. Will be using it daily, even though it's gross stuff lol, for the next two weeks, no matter what, to see if I notice any changes in my body (and if my legs feel better after two straight weeks on it). It's the perfect stuff for your ligaments / tendons. If I do feel a difference, I will start incorporating this product somewhat regularly, cycling it, in my diet.
1200, I can do it :)
So glad I did my laundry yesterday because I live in an apt and today I am SURE lots of people will be getting back from vacation and doing last minute laundry before the work week! Now, I am already set and that's a task I don't have to think about. Best decision ever. Also, I am up and relaxing, purposely, till around noon. Then, i'll have lunch and go exercise at the gym. After that, time to pick up food for the week. I am going to refrain from buying too many cooked veggies, cook my own again this afternoon. But I will pick up some because they come as part of a full dish with meat for a decent deal at a nearby health food store. They give so much meat (whatever you want - chicken, sometimes mealballs, turkey, sometimes pork it always varies a ton - that the meat lasts me a full three days!) But in general, I am going to cook most of my own veggies this week....because I have the time to do it & it's cheaper :)
I don't have to pick up too much at the store: almond milk, fruit (I made a ton of cooked cranberries so maybe just a couple oranges, grapefruits), veggies - I am thinking kale and other dark greens, (I already have yogurts, wraps, peanut butter lol which I am so glad I am finishing the last of the jars I had bought months ago - of course I will replenish but this time I think slower so I don't have so much in the house at once, no reason to waste money unless it's on sale, what else do I already have - nuts and seeds (I should start the sunflower seeds and other seeds I bought before going to the store to stock up on almonds - will try to not waste more money until I finish off some things), also I have some tuna fish that I can use so as not to have to buy meat later in the week if I want, maybe I will make the easy quinoa that's been sitting around for such a long time!..
Snacking / Breakfast: 300 or so...
total: 550. (if need be, I will go up to 1300-1400 today because what can I do!? I want to enjoy this day....)
tasty, fantastic lunch: egg and egg white omelette (big) with lots of sautéed cabbage inside (cabbage cooked in peanut and toasted sesame oil w/ onion & garlic)...and half a grapefruit...around 450 we'll say.
1,000 so far, good...what can I do LOL.
did a full weights workout, like I used to. I decided last minute to go to my regular gym. it felt so good (but legs still sore...) so I did get a smoothie there because I needed some endurance. I was there for 1.5 hours ;) nothing feels better and I vow to get back to my regular self in 2015 :)shake around 250.
dinner was bigger, but healthy pretty much: half avocado 150, turkey/chicken burger 250??, salad & other half the grapefruit 50, veggie chips 150: 600, fine.
- Saturday Jan 03, 2015
Starting the day off happy. :) 50.
Realizing how lucky I am do have this day to myself. Nobody to listen to or tell me what to do. Relaxing, home. No plans, no obligations. One of the luxuries of being single and living alone. Of course, it can get lonely and things of the like, but for me, I am very content.
Being content is what works for me. When I am relaxed, my eating is always better. And I am going to use the couple days just as planned, to relax and let me body breathe a little bit, not indulge in so much food like I have in the days before. Let me body have a break....
And even though it sounds very selfish / self-indulgent, I have a dr apt on Wedesday this week and I may just take that whole day off work (instead of coming in late in the morning). that way, after the dr, I can exercise and even do laundry (if I decide I don't want to do it tomorrow). Just wanna relax, every day, all day. I know I sound funny, but that's all I want to do...and it feels great.
800 + 800 = 1600 today, fine. tomorrow I only have 1200 cals left...for Sunday. lol too much borrowing & divvying and math....must do better and actually create a deficit. I can do it on Wednesday if I take that day off...
1200 planned for Sunday's calories. (no weight loss this weekend, just glad I was able to maintain...) that was hard enough!
- Friday Jan 02, 2015
Calories low but still around 1400 of tomorrow's allowance used....this is really for my Info only and to keep track.
- Thursday Jan 01, 2015
Mixed emotions on the 1st of the new year.
But at the end of the day, I am looking forward second chances and the challenges that 2015 will bring. I am looking to get stronger again and reclaim my health, little by little and day by day. By 2016, I want to say I made this a good year.
I may have to work on standing up for myself at work even more and working only the minimum hours when I want to. No overtime every day of the week. Will work on creating more of a balance.
- Wednesday Dec 31, 2014
Happy NYE everyone :)
Overall, 2014 is a year I wish to forget (mainly bc of the constant pain and tendonitis in my legs everyday) and I vow for 2015 to be better. There are some changes in my legs and I pray that they will continue to recover now. Going back to the dr next week on Wednesday and praying it's going to start getting more and more under control. And maybe if I can't get rid of all pain, I hope to manage with it, get stronger, and start preparing my mind and body to enter the NYPD in either winter 2016 or summer 2016. Pray for me please. I want to move forward with my life this year :) 2014 was very stagnant and did not include an ounce of growth in my opinion.
I may be negative but I find it hard not to be. I should have been in the NYPD class that just graduated a few days ago from the academy. I will be working on feeling better and resuming exercise as life allows in the year ahead, 2015. I want more than I have now. I am so ready to achieve bigger things in life. I know I can do better. I never settle. But this year, I had to.
Calories during workday: 750 Calories at home: around 550 prob at most. 1300, good. Going to a party tonight and what I really want is desserts :) and I know there will be some! Hopefully a big brownie! I am bringing the veggie tray!
We were told to wear dresses (my friend planned a skit we are going to perform lol) but I am wearing lounge pants and a fleece. I am done, fried, and plan to relax with my friends not dress up as if I were going to a wedding! Hellz to the NO!
Calories: 4500-5000....plus Thursday breakfast 600. Around 5500....actually, 5700. Fine!
2000 / 2200. 2000 / 2200 2000 / 2200 500. Darn that is a lot of food.
- Tuesday Dec 30, 2014
Calories thru end of workday: 1350
Big dinner: salad 50, tofu 150, microwave eggplant rolletes around 550, and finer one with almond milk and cinnamon 220 around 970-1000
Total today around 2300-2350 fine.
30 min exercise, upper body.
I was not happy today at work. My moods are fluctuating almost too much and I find it impossible to be happy at work when half the staff is on vaca.
With my job - there is no give, no real break, it blows. I can't fathom my legs being fully healed and being able to get back in shape with this desk job - it's almost impossible. Yeah, I am gonna try, but it won't be easy.
- Monday Dec 29, 2014
Great day today :)
Food thru end of workday: 1000 cal.
Healthy big volume dinner: salad 50, almonds 100, some takeout Thai basil veggies 200 or so, chicken 300 at most, and kombucha 60. Around 700 doubt it was more :)
1700. Perfect! Some abs in morning like 10 minutes and a little walking in evening bc I had to stop something off and it was faster to walk. Still legs are recovering but they did feel a little better.