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Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Dec 17, 2007

Weight: 130.0

I'm gonna try hour walks for now on in the morning during the work week. I think that will make me totally comfortable about not doing any other cardio later in the day, unless i want too! :)

Tuesday morning edit: my binge yesterday afternoon is probably linked to the fact that i was going to attend a music concert for the school i work at. Going to the concert brings back HUGE emotional feelings. after all, my degrees are in music and it is difficult to sit in the audience, knowing i am trained as a teacher and not teaching music this year...instead just working as a teaching assistant. so, today's a new day...and my success is NOT over. I may have said that by 25 I wanted to be done binging...but at least I have a long ways till I'm 26...and i'm working at this...working hard. Today, I'm skipping my volunteer work after school. I need a break. I will probably go to yoga, perhaps taking a nap after school since I woke up a bit on the early side this morning, i couldn't sleep AT ALL. I woke up at 5am. Yesterday, i was falling asleep at work. The past 7 days, my sleep patterns have been really bad. Every night i was losing at least an hour and on the weekend i wasn't able to catch up! I don't want to end this work week majorly tired and head into a vacation that way...so i've decided to rest up tonight. :)

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Hi. I'm still having MAJOR binging issues. I was really, really tired today, which doesn't help things.

anyway, i ate good all day. came home and binged on a bazillion brownies amongst other things.

4300 cal.

even though i'll be full and that means difficulty going to sleep, my goal is to go to sleep early, like as soon as I can after I come back home from watching the elementary school concert. hopefully before 9pm. boy did i make a mistake to binge again! nothing i can do now!

total exercise: 40 min.

22hrs, 30 min....i can do it! i can do it! :)

Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

OnlySkinDeep on 12/17/2007:
We all have our binging moments. I completely understand. Russel Stover's was on the coffee table tonight. lol Good job with the exercise! Keep it up!!!


raksi on 12/17/2007:
You seem to have the same bingeing pattern as me. My urges and impulses hit me worse right after work on my way home. We need to find way to divert that energy/urge into something else... I've been doing yoga on Mon/Wed (except tonight I had a meeeting) but still need to figure out what to do on tues/thurs and how to avoid binges on weekends. Well there's always tomorrow. Don't beat yourself up just try try again! :)


workingit2 on 12/17/2007:
Hey HOP! I recently read that taking Wellbutrin is good for some folks who have binge issues. Not sure of all the particulars but I know when I took it, it did reduce my appetite and helped control it. Your problem may be 100% medical but I guess the only way you would know that is if you went to the doctor and opened up to him/her so that they could help you get to the root of the problem. Just like I was scared of going to the doctor for all my issues because I was afraid of what I would find..turns out there is a very medical reason for my swollen abdomen, hurting feet, legs, knees, etc. Sometimes we have to take a chance that telling the doctor is a very positive step in the right direction, get the help and get better. But I do understand how difficult it is to go to the doctor with anything because I am always afraid to find things out.

A diet diary can only do so much, sometimes our 'willpower' needs the help of a professional who can diagnose and treat what is wrong. We just have to be willing to take that leap of faith.

I wish you all the best! After all you are OUR HOP!


hollybelle on 12/18/2007:
You are correct - your success is NOT over! No way! There is more than one way to define success, too. Think about that a second. Are you playing a game with yourself where you can only define your own success in one or two ways and anything else is not acceptable? I sometimes find that if I am being rigid in my thinking about one or two area of life that it is inevitable that I will "let it all go" in another area of life - like eating - so maybe moderation in more areas is the key?????......just some thoughts.....for what they are worth. (((smiles))))


vvvzena2 on 12/18/2007:
Thank you for your comments! And don't beat yourself up. Well all have those moments where the whole dang cake looks good. lol It happens to the best of us. I know what not sleeping can do to a person. I think that that has something to do with binge eating. Atleast for me it seems to. I don't know. Anyway, good luck! :-)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Dec 16, 2007

Weight: 130.0

ok, so my stomach is screwed up because it is still REALLY full, even when I am hungry...I guess you can say I am bloated from yesterday.

I did, in fact, go to yoga twice today! :) Exercise, haha,because of double yoga, is 3 hours!!! wow. i wish i did cardio too, but no.

total dec. exercise: 21 hours, 50 min :)

calories are around 1200 and probably not any higher.

Yoga was not easy on some poses today because it was hard to bend over with a bloated stomach. I plan to go to yoga as often as possible and hopefully I will remember that pigging out isn't worth it. lol. again I say it!

moving on, this is my last week of teaching before christmas break, yay. I'll be going to a couple concerts this week...one of the kids in my school and another where a friend of mine is the band teacher. I'm excited for both! :) Hopefully, i'll be able to fit yoga in beforehand. since my parents are away, i'll have my dad's car to use while my sister takes mine to the train (my car has the parking sticker on it). I should be able to get to yoga right away after school! then, off to the concerts i go! :) I'm praying this week goes as FAST as POSSIBLE! Just like I pray that the weight comes off as fast as possible, although we know that that is never the case...patience is what we need!

over break, i would like to set a promise with myself of 1500 cal per day. I think I can definitely manage that...I just need to plan everything out beforehand...

ok, enough rambling, goodnight.

Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 12/17/2007:
I hear you about the bad feeling stomach after eating too much/wrong things. I can actually sometimes use the me memory of that uncomfortable feeling to stave off eating something unhealthy or a binge of some kind. I hate the "too full" feeling so much it really does help. The only thing is I have to remember to think about it before it's too late. LOL. Have a good rest of the week. Glad you are looking forward to being off work and a break. Thanks for the comments on my diary. Family dianamics are sometimes challenging. I was oldest in my family, too - but I didn't hve a sister - a brother. He was kind of the "problem child" and because of that got most of the attention (albeit negative attention most of the time). I was mostly happy just to be left alone in my house growing up. It wasn't all bad, though. Do you like it when you parents are away?


Donkey on 12/17/2007:
You are possibly the one person who can relate to how I felt on Sunday (and still a little bit today, Monday, even though I ate mostly fruits and vegetables on Sunday). UGH, it is the WORST feeling in the WORLD.


raksi on 12/17/2007:
Yay yoga!! I've really been enjoying my practice too and it is hard!! I have the same problem on some of the twisting poses, my gut will get in the way :) Oh well, hopefully someday it will be gone!! Have a great day!


monet0239 on 12/17/2007:
hey there lady.. :).. the concerts sound fun.. my son has one on Wed.. :)..

take care of you and have fun.. hugs



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Dec 15, 2007

Weight: 130.0

Sunday, 9:55am edit:

sorry for all the edits. It's just that I am going through a difficult transition these past few months...and turning to food and trying to fix that. yesterday, after surgery, even though i was mostly in very low grade pain, i comforted myself with food in the evening. I do know better. I also ate a lot for breakfast. However, I've resolved to go to yoga at 10:30, although some of the poses will be difficult and I may lay out because of being full. I will also go at 3pm...and walk on the treadmill later as well. I'll pick up some low cal drinks and yogurt and nuts later, too. Laslty, I'll pick up a starbuck's giftcard for a coworker. Those are my ONLY plans.

Sunday, 2:25am edit:

so I woke up because my sister got home...don't worry, i'm not complaining. I had to use the bathroom as well... I'm looking in the mirror muttering, "What did I do!? I can do better...Why did you eat 5500 calories, you didn't need that! Now you feel sick and cannot go to yoga tomorrow!" (It's impossible to bend over with a stomach that is protruded...it'll make you feel sicker!!). I know what I have to do and i'm not worried...this binge may have set me back, but NOT for long!!! I'll be ok everyone.

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Saturday, 10pm edit:

bad choice: 5,500 calories again today. It was an evening binge. I obviously will prob not do yoga in the am, unless I want to throw up during practice from fullness!

evening edit: the pain got better after taking tylenol! :) i went to the mall and got a great deal on some things i picked up: 3 FREE pairs of Victoria's secret underswear and four pairs of earring from The Limited for only $2.50 combined!!! how awesome! I had some really great coupons.

I had a huge dinner: eggs and multiple packages of seasoned, microwaved veggies. I only chewed on the other side of my mouth. Then, I ate NUTS. of all things, I had one of the hardest to chew foods out there. Everything went fine, i was chewing on my left side so that the side from surgery wasn't affected at all! :) I was careful. :)...AND THEN I BINGED ON BROWNIES, ETC.

I might exercise a bit more later. No yoga today. However, I do plan on TWO yoga classes tomorrow, as long as I feel alright when I get up.

exercise so far: 35 min :)

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1:30pm Saturday:

...Yes, the pain has gotten worse!!!

I had the surgery this morning! I was in at 9 and out by 9:50! Talk about fast and efficient! I wasn't put to sleep, just numbing the area. I did this because I didn't want to have a problem getting home.

I was actually up at 4am...went with my SISTER, yes - she ended up coming too, to bring my parents to the airport. My sister actually did the driving on the way back since my parents wanted to go in the bigger vehicle (which she sometimes drives and I never to because I have my own car) because they had a lot of luggage to bring for their vacation - a cruise!!! After that, i went back to sleep for a little, then did a fast 35 minutes on the treadmill.

Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

harleygirl79 on 12/15/2007:
Wow, I hate oral surgery. I hope you feel better soon. Lots of soft foods, mashed potatoes but a good source of protein if you like it, refried beans w/ cheese. Take care


fritters on 12/15/2007:
OK - Since your mom is gone someone has to step in -- ARE YOUR CARZY?? WHAT ARE YOU THINKING EATING NUTS AFTER ORAL SURGARY??!!!! I am glad that you aren't having any problems from the surgary.

Way to shop!! I love finding good buys. You did good!!


shadetree on 12/16/2007:
Make sure you are careful and follow instructions on rinsing etc...I have known several people who have gotten dry socket after oral surgery and it wasn't fun for any of them!

When I got my wisdom teeth out I ended up gaining weight from all the ice cream the well-intentioned friends brought me. (I was in no real pain, so I was eating normally, PLUS the ice cream - I think there was six gallons of different flavors when I got back from the doctor's...)



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Dec 14, 2007

Weight: 130.0

In the MORNING i am now up to doing 40 minutes of walking and i try for 7 days a week.

today's exercise: 2 hrs, 10 min. walking and yoga.

total ex: 18 hrs, 15 min :)

today's calories: 1050 :) feels great. actually, the portions were good. i tell you, keeping busy helps me. i'm slightly but not totally nervous about this weekend...i am getting my teeth pulled, so that will probably prevent some eating. I'm hoping to not be in pain, so i can do yoga.

tomorrow i wake up really early to drive my parents to the airport - for their vacation for a week. my mom asked me last minute, which wasn't so nice especially since its at 5am. I wish she would have given me prior notice. i asked if she asked my sister and she said my sister isn't used to driving. i mentioned then that she should come for the ride too...my mom totally thought it was unnecessary, so it's just me who'll be driving them.

after that, i plan on 40 min walk and then i go to the oral surgeon for my teeth. after that, i may do some fast shopping...prob not. i may just come home for a bit. lol. maybe get a movie. i don't have a set plan. later, at 5pm, i'm hoping i'll be well enough for yoga. however, now i remember the snow storm may prevent that. on sunday, i would like to go to yoga 2x...morning and afternoon...but, once again, that may be prevented due to the storm. yuck.

today was a challenging day, emotionally. lots of things happened...but i'm too tired to discuss. nothing really bad, maybe i'll write about all that tomorrow.

goodnight all.

Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

geevee on 12/14/2007:
The best part of yoga is how it clears the mind. It's totally blank except for the instructions being absorbed. That's why I have a problem with motivating myself to do it alone at home. It's just not the same when you have to do the thinking yourself. It ruins it.

I've done two sessions a day a few times, but it's not something I can do all the time. Occasionally I can rev myself up for it and do just fine.

Do you have any favorite asanas? And which are the ones you hate? For me, those are the ones involving upper body strength. I'm terrible at it, yet when it comes to flexibility I'm great and really enjoy doing those.

Yoga is so good at allowing you to focus your mind. For me that means thinking about what I'm doing and how I'm doing it. Nothing else is on my mind for 1.5 hrs., and then when the class ends I leave still thinking about what I've just done. Food doesn't enter the picture.

As for this weekend for you, play it by ear and see how you feel after the extraction. Yoga might be helpful, but if you're not up to it, don't push it. Remember, in yoga, you only do what your body allows you to do. Never force it.


Donkey on 12/15/2007:
I do not think you will feel up to shopping after your surgery. Do you have someone who can drive or accompany you home? I hope so. Good luck...



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Dec 13, 2007

Weight: 130.0

i had a splurge on peanut butter and cashews after work today after dinner.

so, calories could have been much lower. but, after adding 1200 calories in just peanut butter and cashews, my total is 2200. overall, that's ok i guess. at least i'll be performing yoga tonight! :)

total exercise: 2 hrs, 5 min :)

total ex: 16 hrs, 5 min :)

i think the nuts i've been eating has been beneficial to my hair, skin, nails...and overall health. i'm gonna try to keep this up for awhile! :)

on weekends, i will not eat as much nuts because I like more filling, bulky foods rather than calorie dense ones. I get two wisdom teeth out this saturday...i cannot wait!!! :) i can't wait because i really don't need anymore problems on that side of my mouth! i'll definitely do yoga Friday...hopefully i'll feel ok by Saturday at 5pm to take that yoga class so i don't miss a day. I really am going to try to do yoga most days of the week!

Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

mylifechanges on 12/13/2007:
i love love love nuts! they are so yummy. :) your calories are looking MUCH better than last week. So I'd say to take it all in stages...maybe gradually lower them so you don't freak out at dropping from everything to very little. :)

Haha. And I've never heard anyone EXCITED about getting out wisdom teeth, but I'm glad you won't be feeling any more pain! :) I hope the surgery goes well! Have a great weekend HoPs!


fritters on 12/13/2007:
You always do so good at getting in your exercise - good job!! I hope your mouth feels better soon.


OnlySkinDeep on 12/13/2007:
I have to have some wisdom teeth out too. Good job on all the exercise! That's great!!


hollybelle on 12/14/2007:
Boy are you excited about your wisdom teeth - The nuts probably do help your hair - the nutrients and the protein are both good for it. Have a good weekend and P.S. I agree - I can't wait for your sister's first dose of reality when I roommate - not a family member - tells her off about her inconsiderate self! After she moves will it just be you and your parents at that point?



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Dec 12, 2007

Weight: 130.0

...she got a parking ticket using my car and i had to pay for the stamp...37 cents is not a lot by any means, but she needs to learn to pay for her own stuff. honestly, why did i even provide the stamp!? lol, now that i look back on it, i don't know WHAT i was thinking. let her get one on her own. she has yet to pay me 37 cents and its been almost a month! i've asked her PLENTY of times. she is just one inconsiderate person i tell you. i DON'T know WHAT IT TAKES.

edit: once again, my annoying sister gets in the shower the minute i get home from yoga. she is SO UTTERLY RUDE. she drives my car every morning and hardly thanks me for it as i am stranded after work unless i want to get it...which is not enjoyable in the cold, after work. she is just so uncaring. I don't get it. and soon she won't get my car anymore. and if she uses up the hot water....there's no saying how i will react. how dare her be so inconsiderate.

btw, i do hot yoga and i come home a dripping mess. it's late...10pm and i'd like to go to bed. she is just rude and demanding. she's purely spoiled when it comes to anything in this house. she's done it again. i really don't know what it takes to teach her a lesson. i can't wait for her to move out...she's supposed to sometime after the new year. it can't come soon enough and then she'll see how tough it is outside this house! i can't wait till her first fight with her roommate. i know it'll happen sooner rather than later. no one is going to put up with the crap that we, my family, puts up with. loser.

I needed to vent. thanks.

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tonight i've had to fight major urges to overeat! I did give in a couple times by having a huge thing of tea....then another drink. but, i'm refusing to get up to get anymore food. i am actually full. so, i don't need food!

calories have been remarkable, to say the least. i'm very happy - 1,000 calories at the moment. honestly, i shouldn't need to eat again for the rest of the night since i already had dinner at 5pm. i have yoga at 8pm and the plan is to go to bed after...i agree with geevee that yoga, at least yoga in the evening, doesn't spark my appetite. in the morning or afternoon, i usually come back STARVING. however, that might also be cravings in my head!

exercise is good, too. today will be 2 hrs, 5 min! yay! :)

i didn't work myself to the max at yoga yesterday, which is GOOD. i'm not sore...which is GOOD. i actually want to get into a routine of going to yoga EVERYDAY. why not!? it's paid for a year...i can go as often as i like.

total ex: 14 hours!!! yay!

Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

timeforachange on 12/12/2007:
Thanks for the advice! What do you do when you're at work tho? Cuz I eat lunch at work, and I work at a Dr's office so we ALWAYS have TONS of junk food around (especially during holidays b/c ALL of the patients bring us stuff ahhhh!)....so that's my problem...I find myself munching on all the junk all day after lunch...which you figure I eat lunch at 12 and get off at 5 so that's 4+ hours of munching!....anyway, I was reading your past entries and it seems you and I have the same type of overeating issues. If you ever need any support or anything feel free to ask! It's not "good" to read about someone who has the same issues I do with eating so many calories in a day sometimes, but it makes me feel like I'm not alone in it ya know? Because at work everyone else seems so "normal" and they dont eat like that so it makes me feel worse. Anyway, sorry for rambling, I'm glad you had a good day! Keep it up!! =)


mylifechanges on 12/12/2007:
hi HoPs! It's good to see you getting back on track. I was worried about you there for a bit. :( I'm sorry things are stressful at home for you. I don't have any siblings, so I can't really relate, but my best friend and her brother used to tear each other apart over her car, so I know how ugly it can get. :( I hope things look up for you again soon! Great job on the exercise! You're doing GREAT! :)


borntocry on 12/13/2007:
Oh, poor HoP! I'm sorry to see your sister is driving you crazy again. I know I've said this before, but have you tried talking to her about her inconsiderate habits? Do you get the feeling that she does it on purpose or is it just that she doesn't think about it? I do know how difficult it can be to live with siblings because I have a brother with whom I don't get along at all. But in many cases I think one is reluctant to confront family members with issues that could actually be resolved quite easily. Unless your sister is deliberately trying to upset you, you should be able to reason with her and maybe come to some sort of compromise. For instance, she gets to keep using your car as long as she lets you take a shower after yoga. And if she forgets, you must let her suffer the consequences of her irresponsibility by depriving her of your end of the deal. If she is going to act like a child, maybe she needs to be treated like a child too!


jmarie60 on 12/13/2007:
Siblings can be so crazy sometimes!!!! I couldn't imagine living with my brothers again....

I am glad you are doing so well with yoga. I've always wanted to try!

Best of luck today!


jon'smom on 12/13/2007:
Keep up with the yoga! I think I should give it a try. Sorry about all the stress:(


shadetree on 12/13/2007:
Have you tried flushing the toilet while she's hogging the hot water? (Or does that not work with your plumbing?) That would be a good way to teach her a lesson.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Dec 11, 2007

Weight: 130.0

today was a good day because there was a plan of attack!

exercise: 35 min AM plus YOGA! finally, i went to my second class. It took over a week to get back into it!

Total exercise: 2hrs, 5 min :)

total ex: 11 hrs, 55 min! :)

total cal: about 1300. I'm ecstatic. now, i just need to continue this way!

oh, the plan of attack included volunteering and yoga after work today. I volunteered from 5-7 and went to yoga from 8-9:30pm...yes, they do have classes that late! so, this prevented a binge.

Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

borntocry on 12/12/2007:
Yay, HoP, that's the way!! Maybe you can keep up with the volunteering and yoga after work. Keep an energy bar or some fruit with you so you can have a little snack if you get too hungry. You don't want to use that as an excuse to go home and spend the evening pigging out.

When my husband has to work late or go to basketball practice and I have the evening to myself, I make sure to have a plan to keep myself busy. Sometimes I work late, or I go to a supermarket on the other side of town, or I plan to cook something elaborate which I know will keep me busy. If I just sit at home watching T.V. by myself, I know I'll spend the whole night eating. Just don't put yourself in that situation, and you'll be surprised at how easy it can be!


Moody2 on 12/12/2007:
Hey you! I have been reading up on you and am SO glad to see that you had a successful day!! Woohooo!! Sounds like you have an excellent plan of attack (gotta love that). Take it one day at a time..I know you can do this.


geevee on 12/12/2007:
Many were the nights when I would go to an evening yoga class without having eaten because you just can't do yoga with a full stomach. Surprisingly, after an 1.5hr. class I'd leave without feeling hungry at all. That always amazed me, the effect that yoga had on my appetite. I think I even slept better the evenings I went to yoga.

So when you get home, try to concentrate on how good you feel and visualize the postures you did to your satisfaaction. I would think negatively about the rolls of fat that would come down to choke me when I'd do the shoulder stand which I totally DETESTED! I'd think that a posture that made me feel so awful couldn't be good for me! Looking at myself in a leotard and tights was enough to make me lose my appetite. That's why I prefer that apparel to loose fitting yoga pants. There's no incentive in wearing them.

The more yoga classes you attend, the more you willwant to go. Believe me, you CAN lose weight doing yoga and not even thinking about it.


starfish on 12/12/2007:
Good for you!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Dec 10, 2007

Weight: 130.0

oh my. i really did binge today, monday, after yesterday's rambling about giving my word to end it all.

so, basically, buying new clothes made me able to binge more. just kidding, it does need to stop. it's harder than i thought this would be.

calories: 5,000 in mostly carbs. the binge could have been prevented and was after work. It lasted 1.5 hours.

basically, i want to be able to eat everything and still lose weight. i know i can do this with moderation, but i'm afraid to not get full. the road ahead is going to be a challenge and i will have to prove i'm ready...when i'm ready?

55 min exercise.

total ex: 9 hrs, 50 min....it's gonna get better! :)

Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!

legcramps on 12/10/2007:
It's always hard to begin, and once you're in a routine of healthy eating it's even harder to maintain and not fall backwards. I think the main point you need to remind yourself of is that you keep trying.

I *love* bread and grain products - I started eating whole grains a few years ago and that's good, but I can still stuff my face. I really struggle with this and it sounds like you do, too. Are you consciously eating 5,000 calories? I mean, do you sit down at a quiet dinner table and eat that much in one sitting? Try it sometime. When you want to eat, sit down at the table and eat. And don't read a book or watch t.v., or fiddle with anything else but your food. Your stomach may not actually feel as empty as you think.


Donkey on 12/10/2007:
You may have to face the possibility that you cannot stop the bingeing on your own. Please prove me wrong.


raksi on 12/10/2007:
I know how you feel :( My binges are my downfall. What are your bingeing patterns?? I'm trying to be more aware of mine and trying to find way to stalwart them when I feel it coming. Mine usually occur after work as well. Try to have hearty snack before you leave work or go do some exercise right after work! I've been going to yoga right after work and I want to start walking when I don't have yoga classes. Because of the class, I haven't had a binge in a couple weeks. Get back on that horse again and try not to beat yourself up, it is hard, but you can do it!!


borntocry on 12/11/2007:
I also feel like I should be able to eat whatever I want and still lose (or not gain) weight. I guess I feel sorry for myself and that I deserve to eat or at least that I don't deserve to go hungry. Sometimes it's really hard to go on a diet after several days of overeating because it seems like such an enormous deprivation (which it is when you're used to eating whatever you like). But you just have to get used to it. You have to believe that you're strong enough to do it. You're tough, you can go without food.

It's really hard to break out of a binge cycle. Sometimes will-power isn't enough. Try to make it physically impossible for yourself. Go somewhere after work - somewhere you can't go on an hour-long binge. Go to the gym or a mall or a movie or something. Go for a really long walk and don't stop until you're exhausted - then you still have to walk back! Get in a really good workout - you won't want to undo all that work with a binge. Don't just rely on yourself to avoid the food when you're sitting in the midst of it. That's like trying to quit smoking but carrying a pack of cigarettes around with you. No-one could do it!

Make things easier on yourself!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Dec 09, 2007

Weight: 125.0

today's exercise: 40 min.

total exercise: 8 hrs, 55min

My bingefest is over. I end the day with 5950 calories. (approx. 6,000).

So, tomorrow starts my challenge. A better entry would read TODAY starts my challenge.

So, as Biscottibody writes certain goals for herself, I have a goal for myself:

loose about 20 lbs in 20 weeks. As long as I stick to fitness and calories, this is MORE than realistic.

It's Done. If I offend everyone with these really dramatic, unrealistic, entries, sorry.

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If i stick to a diet for 20 weeks, I will be how I want to look. 20 weeks sounds challenging, but definitely doable. 20 weeks takes me all the way to April 27th! My gosh, that's such a long ways away!!! I have to prove to MYSELF that this is worth it. I need to take ONE day at a time... I want this sooo bad. There's nothing stopping me except for my MIND. Wrong choices are NOT worth it. JUST NOT WORTH IT.

calories so far: 4760. people would never think its possible!

Nobody said change is easy. I've chosen to spend the day at home for the most part. I will be stopping by Old Navy to pick up some pants that fit. Hopefully they'll be a very reasonable price.

I'm going to read. Maybe start a journal. I just had a snack, even though I'm still full from the morning. I guess sometimes you need to revisit the past before making changes so that you don't stay in the past. What I mean is, I think I needed to gain weight in order to realize it is possible and that i don't want to continue on this type of journey. I'm not sure if this is logical.

For some reason, I have Jeno's microwavable pizza on my mind. It's in my house. I didn't buy it...it's not mine. Maybe I should go to yoga at 3pm even though i'm full? It'll be difficult to do some of those poses. Plus, i need to buy pants for work and if I go to yoga I can't buy the pants. so, yeah, yoga's out for today. I'm not worried about my membership...even if i didn't go a whole month, i'd make up for it in the end.

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interestingly, i go from wanting to "look hot" right before bed to a terrible morning binge. i couldn't exercise inside on the treadmill, because my dad was. but, i didn't have to binge. cakes, cookies, yogurts, everything.

so, now it's time to calculate: 4000 cal for breakfast!

i told myself just now that this was the last straw. the problem is that i don't like to intuitive eat. i'm afraid to. so, once i start to eat past full, the binge begins...

i have to purchase at least two pairs of pants today because my others don't fit and its embarassing. I am started my diet again. I'll try my best. I have been getting better at noticing my feelings before a binge, even if it doesn't appear that way to you.

i will concentrate on my breathing and go to yoga. I know i can overcome these negative thoughts. I know it.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

Soon2BThin on 12/09/2007:
Good luck with your diet. Just do the best you can. No one is perfect. Take it slowly. Have a great week!


geevee on 12/09/2007:
What I love about yoga is that it clears my mind. I concentrate on what the teacher is saying about the asanas; what to do and how to do it. No thinking on my part if required. What I especially like is the admonition of the teachers to NOT push yourself. Let your body do what it can. In time, you will be able to do more.

I'll never forget the day when I was walking out to the parking lot and someone coming toward me said, "Did you just come from a yoga class?" "yes." "I knew it!" You looked so relaxed and calm."

I was, but what amazed me was how noticeable it was to others.

If it's not too late, I'd go straight to yoga and then go shopping for pan ts. The stores are open late at this time of year. You could probably do both if you chose to.


Donkey on 12/09/2007:
I wish you the best of luck! Come on, Horn, we can do it!!


borntocry on 12/10/2007:
Hi HoP! I hope you are really serious about this challenge and are getting down to business starting today. Rather than think about how long 20 weeks is, you should concentrate on one day at a time and think about your health. No-one needs 5000 calories a day - you know in many parts of the world people are subsisting quite happily on under 1200 calories a day. If we didn't have so much food available, we wouldn't think about eating so much. I've been thinking a lot about that lately. Thanks to supermarkets and refrigeration, we can eat whatever we fancy at any point of the day - exotic fruits, dairy products, all kinds of treats. Back when humans were living in caves, we would probably have been happy to find one potato or catch one small rodent to gnaw on.

Not sure if any of this is relevant but just thought I might share my thoughts with you!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Dec 08, 2007

Weight: 125.0

i now have more like 15 lbs to lose, but i'll work on one pound at a time and take it from there. if i did it once, i can do it again, right!?

most importantly, i will learn to reflect on fitness and other comforting things other than food to get my feelings and emotions out! :)

total calories: 1950 (I had some wine after watching the concert. At least red wine is healthy!)

I am determined to look really hot. lol. whenever i go out with friends and have a good time, i come home determined to look hot! why is this!?

today's exercise: 1.5 hours walking.

total ex: 8hrs, 15 min.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 15 lbs to go!

starfish on 12/08/2007:
Great attitude :) Try to remember that 125 at 5'2" is not considered over weight. So be gentle with yourself. If you find it difficult to stay at 1500 per day then allow 2000, then when you feel ready go down to 1900, then 1800 and on from there. I find that when I allow myself to have negative self talk for not having a perfect day it can easily send me into a downward spiral that can take weeks or months to get out of. I'm practicing being forgiving of myself if I go over my calorie goal for the day. I've realized that if I forgive myself right away then I have a much better day the next day :) and one day of over eating is much better than 30 days!


starfish on 12/08/2007:
Also to get emotions out I write in my journal or go for a walk. If you need to vent your feelings you could always let it out here too.


workingit2 on 12/08/2007:
Good job. Rest easy =)


workingit2 on 12/09/2007:
For me, looking 'hot' is about the entire package working together to help the other pieces of the package lol. Like, the hair and makeup look good and that helps perhaps the outfit look better...the outfit looks good to help the body shape look better...the body shape looks good to help everything pull together..but it isn't like I stress myself over each thing. For example, when I get out of the shower and am putting on my makeup, there is that point where I think "Ugh, it is hopeless" and get aggravated with the way I look at the moment. But I know that once I finish the makeup, that it will look very nice and I'll be happy again. So usually I hurry up with the makeup on days I feel like that lol. Or I'll think "oh yuck, my hips look horrid" (especially now) and I'll pull out my before picture or I'll hurry up and finish dressing because I know I look better with clothes ON lol.

I think it is perfectly normal to want to look hot. We all want to look good when we go out..even if it is just to the grocery store. The trick to actually living life is not to make the need to look hot, become an obsession that robs us of enjoying our TIME. I know a lot of us would live vastly different lives with vastly different thought processes if we knew we only had two weeks left to live.

So enjoy making yourself look hot! Just don't forget to enjoy LIFE while you are at it. =)



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