total workout minutes: 605 minutes
hi all!
workout minutes: 100 minutes! (30 weights, 70 cardio - but not "tough" cardio - walking,elliptical).
since i will be sitting most of the day for the next month studying and stuff like that...i feel it is ultra important to get planned cardio exercise in.
1500 calories. i am feeling better already! :)
thank you all for the motivation and words of wisdom. Hollybelle, what you said in yesterday's journal entry really helped me think about my situation in a better light.
we all go through difficult times, and i know my view of "difficult" in my life is very different from many of your experiences that were difficult.
ok, i must go make the most of this night...interview tomorrow.
Progress as of today: -1.6 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
edit: thank you for all of your concerns.
Monday was my last day of work, unexpectedly. that's because the teacher decided to come in Monday...instead of Tuesday. so, i didn't even have advanced notice...my plan was to clean up the room a bit for his arrival. eh, it wasn't too messy to begin with.
i'm very nervous about the summer class, which involves conducting in front of peers and other music teachers/faculty....i presume these are the reasons for my binging.
its around 3, i've eaten1920 calories. i'm actually pretty full and i'm trying to decide if i should call it quits with eating for the rest of the night, rather than eat another day over 2000. i'm not sure.
....binging already....its 11:16am: calories = 1350 so far.
Progress as of today: -1.6 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
arg!
I was eating alright...until tonight. i binged after dinner on bread with pb and 3 chocolate covered biscotti.
exercise: 75 minutes (25 min weights, 50 minutes cardio walking)
calories: 2385. blah, not good.
ok, talk to you all tomorrow!
Progress as of today: -1.6 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
total exercise minutes so far in June: 430
total exercise: 45 min.
total calories = 1795. lol. could be worse! Breakfast was big, 750 calories, got me off track to start with!
I need to realize that stress shouldn't mean eat!
i need to decide and figure out how many days i have left of work...and if i'm allowed to work a full 90 days so i can be paid as a teacher. if that isn't the case...i don't even want to finish out this week: i have enough things to do (which doesn't include sitting in school pretending to work...i'd rather go to yoga!)...especially if i'm only being paid as a sub, anyway. oh, and especially if i have to be in the same room all day with the other band teacher! then, i can't even study for my last grad class or practice horn...because there'll be someone else there with me! so, unless i can stay a full 90 days, it is not worth it to me. i'd be wasting my own time. i love it there...but i can't just take up my own time from more important matters.
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 5.4 lbs to go!
edit:...oops. i binged at breakfast and dinner: total = 2800 calories.
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hey all!
exercise: 60 mintues :) (1/2 hr weights, 1/2 hr cardio)
calories: still counting.....edit later.
so, this morning was a rather large, unnecessary breakfast, but i watched portions throughout the day. breakfast = 930 calories.
i've been taking care of business today. making a hair appointment, dropping off some things to the cleaners. catching up with phone calls, paying bills, etc.
now i just need to motivate myself to practice for my class this summer....will do soon!
oh, i plan on leaving you all some comments tonight as well!
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 5.4 lbs to go!
Have you tried to eat a little more at meals and then a 200-300 calorie snack 2-3x a day? Instead of feeling out of control when you eat, you will be more in control and keep your metabolism stoked throughout the day???
At any rate, please forgive yourself. Keep trying! To me, eating more but feeling in control is better than the bingeing. I *hate* that feeling.
exercise: sad, none! i didn't have time and didn't want to do it before bed.
calories: 1555
the interview today went well. however, i am not very skilled in general music/chorus. Those are both part of the job, along with band. the interview lasted 45 minutes, which is good. but, we'll see.
I really hope something more geared towards just band comes along.
have a good weekend everyone!
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 5.4 lbs to go!
calories: 1365
exercise: 65 (35 elliptical, 30 weights)
the concert this morning for the parents went well...but not as well as yesterday's school concert for the students in the school. ahhh, i'm glad its over...its one less thing to have hanging over my shoulders.
I tried to go to the demo lesson in another school district and come back to school after...so that i'd get paid for a full day. but, that didn't fly - i did come back, but a secretary told me i'd get a half day. yeah, that looks pretty bad on my behalf!
so, it seems that my "90 days" will not come to be. so, for the 80-something (probably 88 or so) days that i will work, i'll be paid as a substitute teacher. if i work 90 days, i'd be paid as a teacher (and backpaid for all 90 days!). honestly, i'm pissed.
If i didn't have to take off what now adds up to two and a half full days because of interviews, i'd have the 90 days! i'm so frustrated about that. tomorrow, i have another interview about a little over an hour away at 4pm. I get out of school at 2:30. obviously, i'd be cutting it close to get to the interview straight from the end of the school day. so, i have two options:
1. tell the principal i'm taking a half day because of an interview.
2. ask if i can leave school at 2pm - instead of 2:30.
well, i'm going with option 1. whatever! I don't want to come off to the school as someone just there for the money. so, i'll have to take another half day. I'm so sick of running my life around school to interview to concert to school to interview. this means that i'm lowering my chances even more for the 90 days.
you see, i haven't been given a certain day as my last one. therefore, i don't know if they will let me stay on when the teacher returns for the last 9 days of school (or, if he didn't, he wouldn't be paid all summer). everyone's in it for the money. well, almost everyone.
i'm frustrated, pissed, angry. I don't have a job for next year. I've been running myself ragged with interviews. I have a course in the summer that I should have been studying for like crazy - and i didn't start because of all these other things. Nothing is really going smoothly.
the demo lesson went well. one girl told me, in front of the class AND the teachers/administration observing me, that i was a good teacher! I told her she was a good student!
we'll see what comes of today's lesson...if they like me enough to hire me.
i just want a job, one that i know i can perform well. one that is suitable for me...too much to ask? it seems that way. well, i guess nobody said it was easy.
we have to work for things. but, still, for how long?
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 5.4 lbs to go!
exercise: 10 minutes walk
calories: 1660
I thought i'd have around 1300-1400 calories but i ended up having a rather large dinner at almost 800 calories. It was healthy, though. Everything I ate today was healthy.
The concert today ran smoothly. I'm glad the 4th graders had a positive first experience ever performing their instruments!
I was sooo tired after the concert, just because i haven't been sleeping well. tonight i plan to exercise, because even though i put 10 mintues down as my exercise today, i have yet to complete it! also, i need to practice for my demo lesson.
then, i just found out that I have an interview on Friday, too!
whoa.
2 concerts, 2 interviews, and a demo lesson in one week!
bye everyone.
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 5.4 lbs to go!
Oh and Mellow Mushroom is a pizza chain in the South. My favorite pies there are the Magical Mystery Tour, Kosmic Karma, and Gormet White. Here's a link to their website: http://www.mellowmushroom.com/
Congrats on the concert! And good luck on your interview tomorrow!
exercise: 30 min.
calories: 1150. healthy foods.
once again, thank you all for helping me feel a little better about the situation i'm presently in!
I went shopping today because of necessity. I must look presentable at my two concerts tomorrow and the next day. also, i must have another top for the demo lesson after the second concert.
i also had an interview today. I knew i was an unlikely candidate because i am not a string person...just band instruments. but, the job was both. obviously, i can learn. i just presumed there would be people there that do have both qualifications. one of the parents on the committee didn't seem impressed by me. i know i DON'T have that job.
i'm off to take a walk...because otherwise it'll turn into an entire week without exercise..and that doesn't have to be.
hollybelle, you're right. i feel like i'm at that point where sometimes i don't believe that i don't have to eat the way i do - the binging.
i feel like i positively can't binge for awhile...just because i will not fit into ANYTHING. and, really, i don't want that to be the case. In a month and a half, i'll be conducting in front of peers and faculty. in july, i certainly want to feel better about myself...and not worse.
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 5.4 lbs to go!
calories so far: 1420 exercise: 50 minutes (30 for weights, 20 elliptical)
lots of work to do...
i'm stressed out. my clothes don't fit well right now. i've gotten to the point where i know i need to do something about how i look. it's gonna take awhile for me to loose the weight. i have a job interview and also a demonstration lesson this week. i hardly have clothes for the concerts i have to conduct. i don't have time to look for new clothes. i'm a mess.
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 5.4 lbs to go!
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exercise and calories for the day look great!
greengirl on 06/14/2007:
What a good day for you HoP, and very positive too! Well done :o)