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Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jan 12, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

Hey all. WorkingIt points: 7. I'm not proud of how little i'be walked in the past couple days! I've got to improve my walking! Will work on that more starting tomorrow!

I stuck to 1500 today! yay! I ate REALLY awesome things and I am excited to do the same tomorrow:

Breakfast: 1 fizz drink, 1 egg, one apple

Lunch: 2 yellow peppers, 1 frozen pound of brussel sprouts!, 1/2 a package of tofu, 1 orange.

Snack: Carrots and tahini

Snack: 1 tomato

Snack: 1/2 block of tufu, some hummus, some guacamole

Dinner: one yellow pepper, salad, one tomato, lightly seasoned microwavable cauliflower and broccoli, some tuna steak.

I want to enjoy tomorrow's meals like I did today's!

maria777 on 01/12/2007:
Wow, looks like you really did TERRIFIC today with the foods you ate and calories!!! What is tahini? The tuna steak sounds delicious...how did you cook it?

Justine6Robert3 on 01/12/2007:
Sounds like you had a great day, good going! I've never tried tofu, does it have any taste or is it awful? The tuna steak does sound tasty! Tuna is one of the few "healthy" foods I actually enjoy eating. I totally understand the urge to binge. For me I am always tempted in the evening. I LOVE munchies, potatoe chips are definetly my weekness, oh and ofcourse chocolate. I try to make sure there is very little chocolate in my house, my will power can be very weak. It would be so much easier if my hubby would stop bringing all the "treats" home! I think I could be so much more succesful if I could convince him to join me in healthy eating!!!

Justine6Robert3 on 01/12/2007:
Oh, on the subject of boobs. I'm going to miss having the extra cleavage but I miss having slim thighs more! Hubby's always been a leg and butt kind of guy although I don't think he minds the little extra bonus up front. Time for him to say good-bye to the fun bags!!!

destiny on 01/14/2007:
Wish i could fill up on all those veggies, it would make dieting alot easier. Being in renal failure they control the amount of fruits and veggies you can eat. 5 servings total in a day. I think you're doing awesome. How does smokes tufu taste like, and where would you buy it. Is it high in sodium? I have to watch that too , thats why i had to quit eating alot of the meat alternatives.

Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 11, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

5 WorkingIt Points...nada on calories


Yesterday's foods: Breakfast: 1 egg, two yellow peppers, one fizzy drink packet

Snack/turned into Binge: 1/2 package of tofu in car...when I got home: 2 tomatoes, carrots, grapefruit, cooked tuna steak, tahini (like peanut butter but made of sesame seeds), 4 piroulettes cookies, 6 jell cookies, 8 double chocolate truffles, 5 large m&m filled cookies.

Late after yoga: Large seaweed salad, entire light package of tofu.

Total calories: 2500

I didn't fight the urge to binge today, and binged. It wasn't as bad as a couple days ago. Today's calories are 2500. It's alright. It's over, tomorrow will be better. I'll explain what happened:

I thought I had to work today. I went to work and the teacher I'll be subbing for told me he meant NEXT THURSDAY!!! so, I came home. I wasn't upset at all, but I guess I was flustered and realized I'd have more time to get things done and not have to do it all on Friday. I also binged! I had a really healthy lunch, but it wasn't planned well. I didn't want the lunch I was going to have at school so because I changed my plans I didn't think soon enough and the binge came on. It started with chocolates and ended with cookies. blah blah. you know the deal.

GG, I guess you've been away from refined carbs so long..but do you ever think about them? what do you do to keep yourself from them? gosh, I love these healthy foods...I haven't even been loving the taste of the refined carbs! I don't know. I feel like I'm fighting myself!

weightlossyoyo on 01/11/2007:
WOW! You had a busy day today, but you are right it is over, you will do better tomorrow.

sasyredneckgirl on 01/11/2007:
its ok tomarrows a brand new day like you said we all have those ups and downs just cant stay in those ups and downs.. hugs

smiley2 on 01/12/2007:
I have a BIG problem with refined carbs too. I guess if you stay away from them long enough, you will actually start feeling sick once you eat them again. But i have yet to try it ;)

geevee on 01/12/2007:
I guess you could call my eating yesterday, a binge, though it didn't seem like one at the time. Everything a ate was "good" food; nothing processed. It's those darned carbs! (bread and tortillas/potatoes).Those calories add up quickly and I had as many as you did. Sandwiches are just as attracting to me as Key Lime pie and cheesecake are.

geevee on 01/12/2007:
Oh! Tahini is such a weakness for me! That's why I've stopped making hummus. Once I start eating it, it's addictive and I CAN'T stop. I LOVE hummus. It's so nutritious.

Fortunately I've been able to eliminate cookies from my list of dangerous foods, but if in a room with Pecan Sandies, there's no telling how many I'll eat!

At the moment, there are too many other delectable foods that I simply can't resist. I don't eat junk at all. Just regular, good food will do me in. I love good food. The worst part is that like BTC and GG, I have an appetite problem. I can eat and eat and never get full. I NEVER have that problem of feeling overly full or sick from eating too much.

Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jan 10, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

WorkingIt points: 7! No walking on treadmill today, sadly!

Today I did nicely. I cought myself in that "feeling" I have before I binge. I tell you, it's one strong set of emotions!

Calories for today were 1210.

Menu for today: Breakfast: 1 egg, one water supplement fizz drink thing, one large tomato, one small yellow pepper.

Lunch: Seaweed salad, one full head of cauliflower, 1/2 a package of tofu, baby carrots, one pickle, and one apple. yeah, lots of food...great food!

Snack: Grapefruit...my body kept thinking it wanted more food...but I stopped there.

Dinner: Package of brussel sprouts (my favorite, I stick them in the microwave for about 6 minutues until they're soft!), 3 sliced red and yellow peppers, one cucumber sliced with oil and vinegar and spices, lots of tofu (although I just bought some cooked tuna at the store...I'll have some tomorrow!)

Big meals...I enjoyed eating all those healthy foods today! I plan on staying this way for awhile! Of course, it's easier to eat this way when you're having meals at home. Tomorrow I'll be having lunch at work...so it wont be like today's. It'll be more like carrots and tuna steak (a good filet, steamed - next time i'll get it seared..almost not cooked at all since it's the same tuna they use for sushi - which is raw - from the fish market!)

Busy day today with the plumber. we had a leak with our boiler today..I'm glad I noticed!!!! It's still not completely fixed, although for the moment it working!

weightlossyoyo on 01/10/2007:
Food intake today was great!

sasyredneckgirl on 01/10/2007:
HOrn you did great on fighting back those urges today even though it was hard.. it just seems to get easier each time even though every once in awhile we those "emotion" to bing, eat more get the best of us.. you did great on your calories

WorkingIt2 on 01/11/2007:
That is such good news that you were able to recognize those feelings before a binge and to halt the mental process that leads to the binge. What a fantastic breakthrough!

I found that if I give myself something to eat after my workout, before I go to bed..it helps me into the next day. So I know what you mean about that!

Seriously, I have a big smile on my face and even said "atta girl!" when I read this entry. I am so happy that you are taking control of the binge/starve cycle and that you will find so much strength and power because of it. Way to GO!!!

greengirl on 01/11/2007:
Well done for fighting off the urge to binge.Its good that you can recognise the impulse before it takes hold. Keep up the good work. You are so supportive of other people :)

Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Jan 09, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

WorkingIt points: 2 fruit/veg, 1 exercise, 1 calories, 2 water. Total of 6 points.

I only gave myself 1 point for calories because it should have been 1200, but due to certain "busy" circumstances, it's closer to around 1,000. I don't want a repeat of a binge-starve cycle and I made sure I satisfied my stomach before bed. I was chaperoning a long time and didn't eat much until after. I do not see another binge in the near future. I am trying hard. I did exercise, but no cardio only yoga today. I drank water, but I could have had a little more while chaperoning.

WorkingIt, you're right. I believe you were saying that I tend to eat more before I have some king of challenge, i think? is that what you mean? I do, partially because I stress about the challenge. The eating sedates me and then I finally concentrate on the challenge. I'd rather not continue that way!

I'm working on not repeating what's been going on any time soon. With a new job officially starting the 22nd, I can't afford another binge repeat. Also, I have to go into the school this Thursday and I certainly don't plan on overeating tomorrow!

umm, foods were healthy today (but i've been eating too many eggs lately...I haven't been able to go to the store to buy any fish and I just got some more tofu today!)


missingsmokes on 01/10/2007:
Heya Girl, I am a classic egg eater....used to eat 2 a day, now I buy the egg substitutes, not the egg whites but the ones with 1/2 whites, 1/2 yokes....still a lot lower in fat and cholesterol and I scrammble them or use in omelette...i think they are delicious, then on weekends i get my dippy eggs...lol....don't be soo hard on yourself......maybe you need to utilize other methods to help you relax, relaxation techniques.....take long deep breaths about 10 before you plan on binging, this may help distract your mind too....i dunno worth a try!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Jan 08, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

Points for Today: 6. 2 each for water, exercise and fruits/veggies. But zilch on calories. I'm not sure what my deal is. I had a total of 4315 calories in ONE SITTING! yeah. Total of 4600 for the day. Now i'm just farther back from being on track.

I'll tell you about it. I had a fantastic breakfast: 285 calories: one emergen-c water packet thing, 1 egg, 1/4 avacado, 1 tiny yellow pepper, brussel sprouts, and a little salad.

I went to yoga, had a great time. I was hungry, but did errands after. Went to the bank and bought a comb and other health supplies at a nearby store. Went into a nutrition store (I am easily tempted) and bought some cool tea I never tried and sesame tahini (like peanut butter but made from sesame seeds and high in fiber - 4 grams).

Came home, had a large tomato and listened to my phone messages and looked at emails because I needed to see if my chairperson would write a letter of recommendation and if she needed my reply or any more info. She did, so it's good I looked.

I had the rest of my lunch: 1 steamed eggplant, a lot of steamed broccoli, 1/2 an avacado (usually 1/4 but I went back for more---shouldn't have), 1 egg, 1 apple. Then, I reached for a small 1/4 cup of mixed fruit/white chocolate and nuts. But, I shouldn't have because it turned into 1 1/4 cups of mixed dried fruit/nuts/white chocolate (adds up to a hearty 750 calories just for that). After that, I had 2 cookies with filling, 5 butter cookies, 500 calories in chocolate truffles, small bag of peanuts (from the plane lol), 1/2 cup of granola, 3 servings of Tam Tam crackers (like ritz crackers), 4 braided wheat thin pretzels, 1/2 cup pineapple flavored cottage cheese, 1 cinnamon raison oatmeal powerbar, 6 jell rings (chocolate covered jells.) I'm not sure if I forgot something.

I was satisfied with lunch and planning on going to yoga this evening....until the binge began... Now I can't, unless i want to puke there.

By my lovely calculations, I need 19 days of 1500 calories to bring my average calories to a hair below 1800 per day. This includes calculations with my 9 prior days to today as well.

Obviously its not easy to do it for 19 days, but I kinda have to...unless I want to suffer the effects of extra calories in and not out. (weight gain....like a few pounds...)

My binge was on fats and carbs. What does that mean? I think it means comfort and nothing else. I was eating carbs and fat already. Maybe not refined carbs, but I was eating them and I refuse for that to be the reason for my binge. I know the reason, and it was anxiety. Sure, there are people in the world with bigger problems than my own, but right now I'm having a pretty tough time dealing. If I feel as full as I am right now tomorrow, I'll probably keep it a 1200 calorie day, not 1500. I will do the same on Wednesday. Hopefully, that will not mean I will binge on Thursday!

gosh, I've binged 3 days in one week. I was doing so well from the day after Thanksgiving till New Years! I can't believe myself! arg!!!

It can only get better....NOT WORSE!

Moody talked about being home and being emotional. Well, that's my whole issue.

I was reading an interesting article. It talks about how binge-eating is connected to metabolic disorders and hormonal imbalances. I left the article out for my mom, i'll report back what she says. It talks about binge eating and craving sugar and fats as a link to too much testosterone and not enough oestrogen. I am almost positive that I DO have this condition.

Moody on 01/08/2007:
Aww sweetie...I hear ya with the anxiety thing...it's all emotional I'm telling you..(((((((((hugs))))))))))))))) I don't know how you put it all away for someone who is so tiny!!! I hope you get to feeling better...

My best suggestion is to really, and I mean REALLY get in touch with yourself when you are feeling stressed or anxious and feel a binge coming on..The first step has to be awareness..then you realize that you are feeding the stress and not dealing with it...well you ARE dealing with it but not in a good way!! Something I have done too too many times to count..

Take care...

liza36 on 01/09/2007:
I can relate to the anxiety feeling and overeating. I tend to do that too. One of my goals this year is to learn meditation techniques to help with the stress and anxiety, and thus stop the grabbing for whatever I can to help soothe me. I can't say I've learned much yet, but it's a process, right? Hang in there, don't be too hard on yourself. Moody had some good advice too about being more aware of things. Good luck!

WorkingIt2 on 01/09/2007:
You know, something I see in your posts..you are very goal driven but you are also seem to thrive under pressure. Perhaps when you put yourself against a wall with your eating, it helps you stay stronger for the next challenge? I read the article you posted and I think it is a very good idea to check it out with the doc! It can't hurt =)

weightlossyoyo on 01/09/2007:
Hope things get better for you. I do the same thing been on that path for a few weeks now. Be carefull I gained 4 lbs from it. You can beat the feeling. Chew some kind of mint gum so the food does not taste as good. Be Strong!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Jan 07, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

Hello everyone. 8 WorkingIt points!

I had another good day today! 1200 calories.

I woke up and planned to do yoga in the morning, but kept putting it off till 3pm. I practiced the horn and cleaned up a bit until then. I also took almost an hour walk, which did my body some good! I haven't been walking often lately!

Menu for today: Breakfast: defintely a little too large considering I only had 755 calories left for the remainder of the day: 1 apple, 1 packet of emergen-c sweetner (no artificial sugars), 1/2 a package of tofu, 1 egg, and a whole package of nori (what you use to wrap around sushi rice).

Lunch/Snack: 2 seaweed salads and 1 egg

Snack: grapefruit

Snack: 2 Activa packets for yoga (another low cal sweetner, no artificial sugars)

Snack: a small package of salted peanuts after yoga

Dinner: 4 small zucchini, seaweed salad (the third one that I made earlier, but didn't want then!), 1/4 avacado, and one egg.

Met a friend at dunkin donuts: tea with some sugar

Before Bed: 4 small yellow peppers.

Total: 1200.

Seaweed salad is certainly VERY slimy/glossy in texture because it is wet. There are all different types of seaweed in the salad, but the majority is dark green, flat shiny strips. Other seaweed is actually clear and resembles plastic!!! A little bit of it is purple and looks like part of a bush/tree! I like it, but it's definitely an acquired taste...and I had so much that I think I'm getting sick of it for awhile!

mylifechanges, I buy the chilean sea bass steamed. I'm not allowed to cook fish in the house because it smells too much! It tastes so good, practically like butter! So, I go to the fish store and buy enough of whatever I like to last me the week!

goodnight everyone! I wish you all continued success!

oh, workingit, I know you always mean what you say to help and support us! I love how honest and helpful you are, so don't change!

WorkingIt on 01/08/2007:
Great job, Horn!!! You are doing so wonderful and I love reading your entries! Honestly, you are a great nutritional support with the various foods..I just love it! Have a great day!

hollybelle on 01/08/2007:
OK, you didn't sell me on the seaweed salad, but I'm glad YOU like it. (LOL) Good job getting back on track. I knew you would do it!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Jan 06, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

WorkingIt points: 8 yay!

I can't believe how many people left comments on my last journal entry! Thank you so much to all of you!

Today was a much better day. I pulled an approximate 1200 calories on the dot! For the next 3 days, I am keeping a 1200 calorie a day diet. It is doable, but very challenging. As long as I keep breakfast small, I generally am ok. The reason I'm dropping down to 1200 a day is because of my Wednesday binge of 5110 calories and then Friday's 3990 calories. I obviously need to balance those days out a little bit! I know I won't be able to keep 1200 for so many days in a row, that's why I'm only doing 3. Then, I'll stick to 1500.

Ok, so I woke up and took a yoga class at 8:15am. Then, I went to pick up more of the seaweed salad that I just tried and really like. It comes in a little package, I'll dried up. You put all the ingredients in a large bowl, fill with 3 cups of water and then the seaweed "explodes." The seaweed forms into about 2 full cups worth, when in the package you could have probably fit the dried seaweed into something smaller than a cup! I like it without seasoning, but some people would probably beg to differ. I only know of it being sold in one store by me.

Food today: Breakfast:a packet of low cal sweetner in my water and 2 pieces of tofu. Snack: seaweed salad, large tomato, 2 pieces of tofu Lunch: 2 seaweed salads, a package of portabella mushrooms, 1 egg, one grapefruit, one apple. (a bit much, but good). 1 Hour after lunch: one large yellow pepper Dinner: seaweed salad, Chilean sea bass, broccoli spears, and a microwavable package of lightly seasoned broccoli and carrots in a really light sauce.

see, I tend to try a new food, and, if I like it, I will eat it like a maniac for a few days. LOL. It's extremely low in calories, each seaweed salad is worth 40 calories and is about 2 cups worth!

After lunch, I went to teach a French horn lesson. Then, I came home and cleaned up my paperwork a bit. Later on, I went to ANOTHER yoga class at 5pm!!! I have an unlimited pass for this month, so I'm taking advantage. Like many of you know, I have a few days off from work currently. However, I'm still involved with the school district and I'll be chaperoning a trip next week and such.

I just noticed one new job posting online. Hopefully there will be a few more soon so I can start applying. I've called someone I worked with last year to write a letter of reccommendation. I'm going to ask 3 of my supervisors this year to also write me one! The job I saw online wants 3 letters of reccommendation. That's almost unheard of! Usually, they just want the references!

Everyone have a great evening!

Starveil7 on 01/07/2007:
1200 kcal can actually be enough food to not get hungry, i usually had around 1000 and still ate chocolate, pudding etc. just gotta watch you dont eat whole bars of chocolate or several plates of pasta or so. great you made the 8 points yesterday!

Starveil7 on 01/07/2007:
hey thank you too :) atm i cant really eat, but i assume it ll normalize within the next days or weeks. i m trying to force myself, but i start choking as soon as i try.

WorkingIt2 on 01/07/2007:
Congrats on the 8 points! DO NOT EAT Less than 1200 calories, I don't care WHAT anyone else says. You know, I think you are the person who eats the healthiest combo of foods on this site...seriously! Does your family eat the same way or are you the pioneer of health over there? It is really amazing! You should teach some kind of 'alternative foods' class or something or host a group. I must say that the only time I am anywhere near seaweed is when I'm swimming in the lake, and then it grosses me out LOL Good plan to stay on the 1200 only for a few days and then get back up to 1500. Have a great day!

Starveil7 on 01/07/2007:
well i guess how many calories you need depends really on your height and your daily physical activity. there are studies saying very different things on how much you really need however i think 1300 is indeed good and healthy to lose weight. i need to do less because i am very small and for my job.

WorkingIt2 on 01/07/2007:
PS. I hope you realize that I do care about you as a fellow dieter and I think you are so very encouraging to everyone, and a wonderful light in the day! So when I said what I did, I said it because I care about you and I wouldn't want you to get sick. I admire the way you eat, all those healthy things, and I wish I could get at least half of that into my world..and because of you, I have started to add healthier things in my diet, you and BTC are good for opening our eyes to all the many different and wonderful foods in the world..and I think it is fantastic! (((((((((Hug)))))))))))) better days!

mylifechanges on 01/07/2007:
8 points- YAY!!! :) Doesn't it feel great!? Your food choices amaze me! I wish I could stick to eating food as healthy as you do. How do you buy your Chilean sea bass? Is it prepared or do you prepare it yourself? I've just recently gotten into eating fish and that sounds delicious!! Good luck today!

Moody on 01/07/2007:
Congrats on getting 8pts!!! Yay!!

Glad that you got to take not one but TWO yoga classes!!! Good for you for making sure that you are doing things YOU enjoy!!!

About the seaweed...can you describe what it tastes like?? For some reason I am thinking salty because of the ocean! But that really doesn't make any sense! And is it slimy??

Mcwoo on 01/07/2007:
The cough medicine i normally get for dry coughs is really good but VERY sweet that's why i like it i suppose.I will have to make a trip to the chemist or i think you call it the drug store correct me if i am wrong.thanks for your comment anyway.

sasyredneckgirl on 01/07/2007:
You go girl if you can eat seeweed i think you earn the prize of the week woohoo .. mee i cringeeeee ickkk i slot that up there right with milk... great on the 8 pts!!!!!!

greengirl on 01/07/2007:
I love the taste of seaweed and its supposed to be really good for you but when its soggy I just cant eat it!! Same thing with cooked spinach. I dont know what it is. Just me I suppose. Your menus today sound scrumptious!!!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Jan 05, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

#### WorkingIt Points: amazingly, 6. Doing everything right except the food intake! LOL.

MOODY: i'm not always hungry on the binges...I just get a nervous-tense kind of shaky feeling like I need food. It's all in my head. The binge today was not because of hunger. However, if I do go too long without food, I will also do that kind of binge, when I'm ravenous.

****Last edit: total daily calories today: 3990. :(

edit: past 3 day caloric avg. is 3300. whoa!!!! It'll take about 20 days of around 1500 a day to balance it...I'm nervous.

okay, workingit, i'm in a bit of trouble right now. I've binged again today. I was eating really healthy all morning; and the minute after I drove my sister to the train and came back to an empty house I started to eat.

Really healthy at first, a packet of water flavoring stuff, 1 yellow pepper, 2 servings of tofu, an apple, a large tomato, another yellow pepper, a package of nori, a container of brussels, a piece of chilean sea bass fish...

moving on to two apples, then an orange, then: 8 tablespoons peanut butter, 1 cup of nuts/white chocolate/dried cranberry mix, 4 truffles, 3 more truffles, 570 calories worth in mini chocolate chip cookies, and 6 butter cookies.

I don't buy any of the food i binged on, they were gifts and belong to everyone in my house. I am having lots of trouble!

I know, workingit, you spoke about people who eat unhealthfully. I'm having a really hard time right now. Does anyone have any advice?

speak to you all soon. As far as yoga is concerned, I'm going tomorrow morning, because if I go in a few hours, I still will not be able to bend correctly in all the poses. argh!

I searched for info on eating too much seaweed. It just says that its high in minerals, but says nothing bad. Except for extra salt, but what I was eating lists that it doesn't contain any salt. hmm. something to think about!

it's gonna take about 14 days for me to make up for this chaos! These past three days average at 3137 calories per day!

WorkingIt on 01/05/2007:
I found a resource that was very interesting. You may find some information here helpful, I know I did.


chubbyknees on 01/05/2007:
Horn of Plety - I know it feels like you totally swerved out of control & maybe you did just a *little* but the thing I think that stands out most to me is that you know exactly how many truffles you ate, you know exactly how many calories of chocolate chips you ate - you still paid attention to what you were doing. Sure, that doesn't make the food any lower in calories, but can you imagine what you would have eaten if you were just eating it & not paying any attention? Tomorrow is a new day - actually, right now is a new minute to gain control! You can do it!

geevee on 01/05/2007:
All I can say is, I sure wish I could "binge" like you do and be so low in weight! I imagine the stress in your life right now is very helpful in burning up the unwanted calories you are ingesting. however, as Workingit pointed out, binging is a real problem. I think it's a long-term problem that will take serious consideration.

On the positive side, you KNOW what you should eat, and do, but not always. I'm in the same boat too!

Moody on 01/05/2007:
Just curious...are you hungry when you begin your binges??

cindylouwho on 01/05/2007:
I had to laugh so hard at the 4 chicken breasts! LOL! Today I felt like I coulda ate 4 WHOLE chickens. I know all about binges. I wish I had a good answer but I don't. I just know how you feel. You were talking about Seaweed...I actually just discovered I am allergic to seaweed. Here I thought it was going to be so nutritious. LOL

WorkingIt on 01/06/2007:
**********HUG*************** wishing you a better day today =) PS. I looked up seaweed as well, and regular seaweed doesn't have any sodium but some of the prepared seaweeds seem to have quite a bit of sodium. Very interesting.

Starveil7 on 01/06/2007:
hey you- i ve eaten more than i wanted too as well :/ i m including make up and stuff so i realize how often i wear what, i dont need to put unhealthy stuff on my face if i just go bring the garbage outside, things like that. and also when i m able to afford i use natural washing gels etc. especially now that i need to put chemical meds into my body again. i think as long as you have time to prepare great food, it satisfies you so much you dont need 37489379 pieces of chocolate or so. thats how i feel. those burgers today were yummy, but i didnt think they had so many calories.

Moody on 01/06/2007:
I've binged for both reasons as well..out of letting myself get too hungry and because of emotions..I avoided a binge the other day tho by really being in tune with my emotions when something stressful happened..I immediatly wanted to go for my favorite comfort foods, but realized that I wasn't even hungry and was acting out strictly on emotions..trying to do what I could to make myself feel better with food rather than dealing with what was at hand...That's the first time Ive ever done that..You can do it too..just have to really THINK before eating..

Thanks for your kind comment today..btw..made me smile! =D

mylifechanges on 01/06/2007:
Thank you for all of your kind words on my site throughout the past weeks!! I know how frustrating it is to pull yourself up by the bootstraps and keep going after a rough week- but I also know it can be done!! You can do it and I know you'll be great!! Just keep moving!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Jan 04, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 0.0

7 workingit points. I give myself only 1 for exercise because I did yoga, but no cardio.

I may to yoga twice tomorrow. LOL. I have an unlimited pass.

I didn't weigh myself because I was too focussed on getting ready to go to the new school today to sub for the band teacher. I am not the regular kind of sub that doesn't teach. My job there is to be like a leave replacement and fill in exactly as if I was the teacher all year. I was supposed to start in a few weeks; and I still am. It was unexpected for me to go in today and I was told on short notice, yesterday!

Everything ran smoothly today. The principal was absent, so I didn't meet her. The students and teachers are really nice.

when i woke up in the morning, my body was very bloated and I was nauseated from yesterday. I drank water with a little flavoring and went to teach. Calories were really low today, 830. Who knows when I ate like that last. EVERYTHING was really healthy. Two eggs, carrots, 10 sheets of the dried nori seaweed, a package of portabella mushrooms, 4 very large yellow peppers, one large tomato, a piece of chilean sea bass fish (VERY GOOD), seaweed salad, and tofu. Not bad for 830 calories, huh!?

Tomorrow will be another story; calories will prob not be that low.

sasyredneckgirl on 01/04/2007:
dont you love subbing on short notice.. i loveee when they call me at and ask me to come in at 8:30...

Starveil7 on 01/05/2007:
the liquorice tea sounds great- i have to look if we have them in germany. but honestly i m so frustrated with the job situation here i m thinking about giving up my appartment and everything after i reach my goal weight and spend 3 months in california again. is it healthy to eat that much seaweed? i m asking because i love seaweed too, but i heard it is not good to eat more than 2 sheets a day, i forgot why and where that info was from though.

geevee on 01/05/2007:
The black rice was called "Forbidden" because for centuries only the emperor was allowed to eat it. I bought it out of curiosity and do like its appearance on the plate but most assuredly the price. At $5 a pound, I'd rather spenc that much on meat!

Your binge was exactly what I did from Thanksgiving through December which amounted to a 4 pound gain! EEEEEKKKK! I gotta stop that!

Moody on 01/05/2007:
Glad to see you back on track after your binge day! You have to be feeling better!

Glad that everything went well at the new school!!

WorkingIt on 01/05/2007:
Noooo...I don't think what you are doing is destructive! That entry was not directed towards you in the least. We ALL have rough days where we eat too much or too little..that is something far different than starving yourself or eating and vomiting or doing things on purpose that are not normal to get to an unhealthy BMI. Bulimia, binge disorders, anorexia etc. those things are all very specific disorders not just 'bad days'. =)

sweetpea1977 on 01/05/2007:
Sounds like you enjoyed quite an array of yummy, filling, and low calorie foods! Good for you!!

Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Jan 03, 2007
(no grains or gluten, only unprocessed foods)
Weight: 107.2

somehow, i get 6 points. I did everything right except the eating part.

My stomach will not let me bend over. I just ate 5110 calories. as many people know, i was not eating any grains/gluten or dairy...that lasted from Thanksgiving till today. I am going back to that tomorrow. But, I pigged out on cookies galore, pretzels, chocolate, nuts, peanut butter, crackers etc. I'm not listing it all. There is a lot of food in my house, that i didn't buy, besides the peanut butter. Some food were actually gifts to me, that I gave on to my family. I had no control. I know that i'll be able to get through tomorrow fine. But, right now, teaching wouldn't be very good. I am so full and sick.

I'm feeling extremely sick right now. I'm not dealing well with my job situation. Today, I got a phone call from the teacher who will be having surgery. He asked if I would come in to substitute tomorrow, of course I said yes. Friday I will be going into the other school that I left to say hello (since the teacher thought that would be such a great idea.)

I hate having to know last minute what my schedule looks like. I may even have to miss a day of yoga. I know, in the long run, it really doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that I get a full-time, tenure job. However, I"m going in circles and now I've eaten so much to ease the pain. But it didn't work. Once again, it didn't work!

Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only -0.8 lbs to go!

WorkingIt on 01/03/2007:
Isn't it amazing how many times we still turn to food to solve problems or quell anxiety? OMG I know how you feel about being stuffed to hurting...I think sometimes we have to do that to ourselves just so we remember that we used to eat that way all the time and how much it sucked lol. I hope you feel better soon and I hope you get that full-time, tenure.

Moody on 01/04/2007:
Been there done that..not in a long time thankfully but I understand that "so full I feel sick " feeling. Ugg..hope you get feeling better soon..

I don't like having my plans changed or made at the last minute either..I like to know what I am doing and mentally prepare for it..but ohwell thats life I guess!! Try to relax and I hope you get to do your yoga...

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