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Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Sep 04, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Happy Sunday :-D

Breakfast: plum 50, jello 20, chocolate peanut butter protein muffin 240, small banana 120, seltzer with stevia: around 450. excellent.

lunch: wrap with cream cheese and salami, sf energy drink: 300. on ride out to Suffolk County, LI with my friend...

750...

at BBQ - many servings chips - 500-600??, biggish hamburger 400? bun 100, half a hot dog 100 biggish, some sausage and peppers 400 oily, tons of veggies 200. total here: 1800 tops.

total today: 2550 tops. DECENT. oh...and a drink 200. 2750, tops. i hope.

2250 2-day average. fine.

 

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Slept in a lil bit & getting ready for a bbq out east with good friends. It's a long drive there, but should be fun once we're out there. Will be a long day with the driving and all but worth it. Glad the weather held up & that the hurricane Hermine didn't stop the fun this weekend...I will be cutting up loads of veggies to bring to the bbq. My friends know i'm the veggie queen.  It will def be a late night tonight coming home & that's ok. Planned on it already.

 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 09/04/2016:
Have fun at your get together.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/04/2016:
It was a really nice day. I'm lucky. good friends and company.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/04/2016:
It was a really nice day. I'm lucky. good friends and company.


grannyannie on 09/04/2016:
Sounds like a nice day! Enjoy!

Horn_of_plenty on 09/04/2016:
It was wonderful!


Duaa123. on 09/05/2016:
It sounds to be a great day. Have a good time

Horn_of_plenty on 09/05/2016:
I loved seeing my friends!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Sep 03, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

 11am meal at home: banana 120, chips 120, squash 80, jello with strawberries 80, protein muffin 240, ice cream 200, seltzer with stevia: 840, fine.

4pm snacks: microwaved calabaza (Spanish pumpkin) with a lil salt and some jello, later followed by a plum. 150. plain seltzer.

6:45pm: plum 50 and went for a 45 min walk :)

1050...i might eat healthy tonight - rotisserie chicken is calling my name. need something healthy...

8pm Dinner: Chicken with skin (more than half a breast & also a drumstick in a light wrap with mustard) 500...and chips 200 most. 700 here, but i needed it bad. needed the meat, the fat, the fatty chips too. needed this. feeling better now.

1750, good.

 
Fell back asleep after eating from around 1pm-3pm...really tired after yesterday LOL. but still going to gym tonight as planned. Monday is a complete rest day - only laundry - really nothing else is planned. I might pick up some food today.  There is one thing i need to do - buy a TON of veggies for a bbq tomorrow out east on Long Island (2hrs from me).
 
Partying sooooo doesn't mix with the gym and healthy lifestyle but i don't regret last night. it was fun.  just trying to get back on track & motivated for today & tomorrow...
 
Decided to SKIP gym & go grocery shopping basically for the week & tons of veggies for tomorrow. I didn't want to be out late with gym agian. Taking it easy this holiday weekend. I've got a lot on the go this month...so...best to rest up & not try to do everything.  Partying was worth it last night but it's also a bit part of the reason I'm not going to the gym tonight. fine with this.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 09/03/2016:
I'm partying too. Bluegrass, CornBread and Pretty Girls in Skirts and Boots.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/04/2016:
Lately i do see girls wearing boots with skirts....hahaha


puddles on 09/03/2016:
Hope you cook up some of those vegetable then they will not go to waste. Glad you are resting up.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/04/2016:
Feeling like i can rest for days. Even though i slept quite a bit Friday into Saturday and even in the afternoon Saturday...i was still able to sleep fully last night also...did wake up around 2pm...but seems i really need my sleep lately. thanks fran. most veggies are to be cut up for appetizer veggie tray. but i did buy bok choy to cook for myself on Monday :-D


puddles on 09/03/2016:
Don't you just love Raven's comments.... lol

Horn_of_plenty on 09/04/2016:
Yes always :)


grannyannie on 09/04/2016:
I love them too Fran! LOL. Eat up all those veggies HOP! Good calories.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/04/2016:
Hi Annie. Thanks for your support and compliment on calories. I'm really working on this. I like a lower weight & want to maintain it. It's getting easier.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Sep 02, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

1830 7-day average = perfectly great for maintenance. GREAT JOB to me.

Last night was fun. Very Interesting - to say the least! We ended up driving all over Queens, visiting a place that is far from me (half hour) but so worth going to see it. Thankful for getting out early and doing something different for a change!

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Going to work, probably getting out early (they only tell us on the day, not before), and if so (or if not!) late lunch with both male and female coworkers at a bar. 3-4 of us total....might turn really interesting...!

Morning: kombucha 60

Work: filling & with real energy carbs: wrap 60 with cream cheese 100 and salami 100 and a banana (don't want coffee today - ruins my digestion)..400.

coffee (decaf though) 50...and a small bar 

fruit 50...

700...

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Bar stuff (went to 2 places...)...3pm till 11:30 pm with coworkers

1st drink 200 cal?

Food: a soup and grilled chicken and veggies 600??

2nd drink 200?

3rd drink 200?

4th drink: 200?

total 2100-2300. 

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Saturday 11am meal at home: banana 120, chips 120, squash 80, jello with strawberries 80, protein muffin 240, ice cream 200, seltzer with stevia: 840, fine.

Was gonna do laundry but saving it all for Monday. Time to chill. Gym tonight.  Must buy veggies for tomorrow's bbq out east. 

Sunday out on LI all day.

Monday - laundry. food shopping / cooking maybe.

 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 09/02/2016:
Sounds like you have plans for today that could be interesting... lol

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/02/2016:
yes....and Paul is done. I am finally over it as much as needs to be so that I do NOT contact him anymore. thanks for all your input over this long time frame (well over 2 hours) when i thought of him as an option / actual possibility. I appreciate your comments the whole time.

Your comments are "food for thought" as to my next relationships...!


OhioRaven on 09/02/2016:
Have a Great time with the Coworkers.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/02/2016:
Will do :)


grannyannie on 09/02/2016:
Hope you get out early and have a nice time with coworkers.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/02/2016:
Really looking forward to it...

Def not working enough lately...on here way too much lol.


Duaa123. on 09/02/2016:
Have interesting time with cowworker .

Horn_of_plenty on 09/03/2016:
yes...Interesting is the best word! Crazy night and fun!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Thursday Sep 01, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

At home: decided on only 1 serving kombucha from a bottle i had opened a couple days ago..and some seltzer with stevia. fine. 30 cal.

Light, healthy breakfast: Chickpea veggie patty 110 on a wrap 60 and coffee 50 - 220

250. some fruit from downstairs 50..

Snack - Bar - 130? probably..BOSS GAVE ME FOOD...NOW I'M HUNGRY BC IT WAS JUST FRIED CARB STUFF LOL...BUT TASTED GREAT!

Healthy lunch: veggies that i cooked (mostly okra) in extra oil with the last of the veggie patties Chickpea variety 110, butter popcorn 160:  500-600 prob.

Snack before gym: fruit from free breakfast 50 at work & a bar 90 and sf energy drink: 150

1150...

after gym: i think subway sandwich. i want something half "real" and salty.

1600 today. EXCELLENT.

1750 6-day avg.

 Weekend Plans:

Friday - work till 2pm...go to bar for late lunch & drinks after with coworkers. maybe something else with male coworker (girls just gotta have fun!)...but maybe not. depends how it goes at the bar...

Saturday - Laundry catch up, sleep in possibly, gym in early evening. pick up veggies.

Sunday - long fun day - driving out quite a ways to my friends' bbq at their house far out on Long Island. Should be most of the day & night.

Monday - low key. relax. i don't think gym or anything. Laundry again possibly. Cook some veggies possbily. Not too much more as it's the last day off I'll have till October..

 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 09/01/2016:
Mmm...the chickpea veggie patty sounds good. Good plans for today.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/01/2016:
Morningstar Farms...in general i like their burgers. 110 cal & tasty.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/01/2016:
Little salty...but I like them :)


puddles on 09/01/2016:
You are so good at keeping your regiment to an even level. Have a great day. Cooking is so much fun you might just start to enjoy it.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 09/01/2016:
YES...I really want to cook more as it's way more convenient to just buy veggies and meat and throw it together at home :) and cheaper.


Duaa123. on 09/01/2016:
Good calories and healthy with vegtabels . Keep going

Horn_of_plenty on 09/01/2016:
Thanks Duaa...I've been doing well. Feeling good.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Wednesday Aug 31, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Morning: sparkling vinegar drink 30, seltzer with stevia

then i actually cooked this morning for around a half hour all the veggies in my fridge! lol - before work!

Work: small wrap 60 with only a veggie burger 200 total here &  coffee 50 (wow was that veggie burger SALTY...)

Morning Snack: small bar 150 

Light lunch: collard greens that i cooked in olive oil with some onion and another veggie burger or TWO (110 cal each). and caffine. and package cheezits 250 (hopefully not more, seemed a lot in there!)  450 cal.

900 after lunch, GREAT. hoping to lower down my cals today with light dinner.

Tongiht is a light dinner again: ice cream and jello (sf).

snack on way home: plum 50

light dinner, bed early: ice cream ended up having extra 400 & jello 40, plum very small and lots of celery 100, seltzer with stevia (and my taste buds are so angry at me with all this extra sweet food here! - for real!) tongue is on fire! i'm fine...believe me... around 550 for dinner (when it was supposed to be 350 - but got in a REALLY nice 45 min walk so that's good...) 

total today is still really quite nice...1500...excellent.

5-day average: 1770 - EXCELLENT.

1300...planning on zero exercise... I did get waxed (very cheap place up the block from where i work...)...bc plans to be with a guy i think (from work and younger) after we go out friday night..........!!!!!!!!!! (still up in air, but i think so)

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 08/31/2016:
Sounds like a well balance day - enjoy J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/31/2016:
it is :)...

was happy to cook this AM!

got everything prepared and now it's not spoiling & i dont have to spend $$$$$$

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/31/2016:
it was so easy...there's no reason i can't keep cooking! i will be cooking meats i think down the road...


innerpeace on 08/31/2016:
Do you have to apply for the academy? Have you already been accepted? Is admittance a sure thing? Sorry I know how hard you work for your plan, didn't know if it was open to anyone who applied and was qualified.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/31/2016:
Already 90% in...just need to take a physical running exam. yes, i did the 90% of the application already. took all the tests.


Duaa123. on 08/31/2016:
Good and healthy food choosing today Horn.. it is healthy with good total calories and it is healthier to cooked kind of vegtables and using olive oil . Keep doing this healthy habits

Horn_of_plenty on 08/31/2016:
thank you...i am excited to eat the okra tomorrow at my lunch that i cooked this morning but didn't try yet. i think it will taste excellent because i used EXTRA oil ... thanks Duaa. I hope to cook more now with the veggies and stop buying precooked all the time. i don't want to be so lazy anymore.


grannyannie on 09/01/2016:
Good choices, and ice cream has calcium, right?! Good calories.

Horn_of_plenty on 09/01/2016:
hehe...it must...actually first ingredient in this TASTY brand is Skim Milk...but the ice cream is good...trust me, i've had really bad ice cream!



Horn_Of_Plenty - Tuesday Aug 30, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Early Morning: kombucha 2 servings and seltzer with stevia 60.

I bought a chicken last week and totally am throwing it out...good thing the rotisserie bird was not more than $4.99 - still a waste of $ but i don't tend to eat much meat all week for many months now...I bought it Friday & might throw the thing out as I bought it end of day and was prob cooking all afternoon that day...not good to eat so many days later...

Late Breakfast at work closer to 9am because i got in late (must work on this & I will as my schedule is going to change when all schools open next week around here): smaller wrap with lox and cream cheese (2 tablespoons whipped) 240, coffee 50 with milk and equal, and a banana bc i feel i need more carbs / potassium this week feeling it... 410

Snack before lunch: small bar 130

1pm Lunch: small Smart Ones pizza maybe with lettuce and celery with a litttle salt also ... 450 cal.

Snack before gym around 5pm today: plum 50, light Fiber One snack 100, Energy Drink 20:200 cals.  This type of snack is very high powering for me before gym. Pure carbs and caffeine power me thru - for 1.5hrs.

After gym: 400 cals in light ice cream, chips, sf jello. GOOD.

1650 - good.

1840/day Excellent.

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

Diamond50 on 08/30/2016:
Sounds like a healthy eating plan for today HP. Good for you!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/30/2016:
Yes...well-planned calorie-wise.


grannyannie on 08/30/2016:
Good idea to get rid of the chicken. We don't eat much meat in the house unless we have guests and it makes me nervous to keep meat too long.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/30/2016:
yeah...i want to cook more meat...but doubt i'd even eat it all, ever.


puddles on 08/30/2016:
Yes that chicken should go in the garbage. Sounds like your day will be a good one your eating healthy. I meant yesterday's comment to be you are way to kind to Paul not sure he deserve that much kindness. lol Have a good day J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/30/2016:
wow...so you don't think i'm CRAZY with him...trying to not overstep myself...i'm so nuts.

So...ran into the elevator today only to stop at another floor in my bldg. In the elevator steps a guy in gym clothes so i asked if he was going to the gym this morning. He said no, physical therapy...haha...i asked where!? he said the name of the place where Paul works. I said...who's your PT...he tells me Paul!!!!!!!

So i asked him to tell Paul that "Jackie Says HI!" haha...

Paul is probably ready to KILL me at this point perhaps!

What a coincidence.


puddles on 08/30/2016:
I think your crazy to keep him around he definitely has negative effects on you. I would have kicked his ass to the curb a long time ago J. Not worth all the effort you are putting into this.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/30/2016:
yeah. I've decided ONCE AGAIN that it's not worth my time.

My whole problem around Paul is that there's been no other guy that meets his standards - i haven't been impressed by ANY other men which is why i keep focusing back on him.

But it isn't healthy.

Truth is, I really don't have time for my friends, best friend, family & a relationship & THE GYM & getting into the NYPD.

So it is what it is & i'll enjoy being single (and not sleeping with anyone as i don't have the time it seems...) It's good i got that part out of my system this past April (1st time in 11 months). It seems that these next few years are going to be more a focus on me than anything else. And a focus that is nothing short of determination past getting into too many situations which are going to bring me down physically - no time for any injuries.

Although I will go on a trip in October, possibly the last trip...

And i may just get myself into the Academy 6 months earlier, if i must...because this is just too much hassle with my job i am thinking....

no work at work...slow....

Thinking to MAYBE kickstart my leg stuff which seems a bad idea, but keep it going, and if i feel good, I will leave my job Dec. 1st. and enter the academy right after the New Year. This seems almost reasonable...will be thinking about this...instead of entering in July '17...this could be really a good thing. Just need my focus.


Diamond50 on 08/31/2016:
I agree with Puddles. All of this time he hasn't moved forward into a "true" relationship with you so maybe perhaps it's time that you move forward with your life and into a "true" relationship with someone else that is totally into you. A relationship should just simply "be" without wishing, hoping or trying to get some else to reciprocate the interest and the feelings. You need to move on with someone that wants those things with you. These things you deserve and he's not doing this. You can't make this happen with someone who is unwilling. Kick him to the curb and find the one that truly will adore you. My apologies for the bluntness but I just think you are worth so much more and he's not offering anything of any kind to you and you deserve far more than this.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/31/2016:
I agree with you completely. I am moving on.

I just hope to find someone that I'm truly attracted to on the INSIDE and OUTSIDE..there's a guy i'm into but only on inside - i don't want to settle. i can't. i want to wake up knowing there's someone i love that i love on the OUTSIDE and inside. Love should be both. I don't want to "grow" to love someone on the outside...it's not fair to me in my opinion.

i feel this way because i put in work to myself...and the guy i want - he should put in work too...and, he should be as good looking (average) as i am...i don't want to settle as corny or selfish as this may sound.

it's just something that i feel.

i need to find someone that i like for both - not just the inside and not just the outside.

Yes, I'm moving on. In general, moving on in ANYTHING and EVERYTHING in life is hard for me to do.

Change is difficult for me.

Yes, i need to move on.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Monday Aug 29, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

1900 3-day avg.

1100 thru lunch. lunch was closer to 600 cal, higher carb. craving carbs today. probably due to higher carb eating yesterday though not sure - or maybe due to a lack of sleep...not horrible, but prob slept no more than 6 hrs. all is good though.

I dropped off a plum around 7:20am at my crush's work...lol...he wasn't there yet but it's def opened. I dropped the fruit off in a paper towel and small baggie right on his desk LOL. we'll see what he has to say about that! i got the biggest adrenaline rush from doing that...it actually made my heart race and i was sweating LOL. after all, i was given permission to go into his office and leave it on his desk! LOL. by his associate partner. LOL. TOo funny. at least i looked pretty put together this AM....not to embarass him! 

1150 or so before dinner. Bigger dinner around 700 and snack 50. Total is approx 1900 I would say.

I think I upset the dude...dang it.  talking about my crush!

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 08/29/2016:
Hope you have a great day. Have no comment on the rest it is beyond my sense of understand this situation sorry. You are gorgeous and you are worried about EMBARASSING HIM.... that is all I have to say.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/29/2016:
LOL Fran :) you know how to throw generous compliments my way!!!! xoxo yes nobody understands the ridiculousness of the friendship-relationship HAHA.


OhioRaven on 08/29/2016:
It sounded like a Great Adventure. Take Care.

horn_of_plenty on 08/29/2016:
Thanks OR. I do like adventures ;)


puddles on 08/29/2016:
"Dang it" are not the words I would use your way too soft and kind J.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/30/2016:
Meaning my description is too soft & kind because i am not?

Or meaning my actions / writing is too soft and kind?

LOL.

I have already more to write on Paul as something funny happened this morning :)


Duaa123. on 08/30/2016:
Good calories in ur each meal .. have a good day



Horn_Of_Plenty - Sunday Aug 28, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

My weight is accurate. It usually says 115.6 lately. And one day this past week it said exactly 115. Maybe at times i was even under 115. Feels good. I like this weight.

Lazy weekend fun breakfast - 10am-11am: 2 Medium plums 100, Halo Top Birthday Cake 1/2 pint 150, jello 50, FULL PINT Halo Top Strawberry 300 - total =  600 = good. and seltzer with stevia.

12:45 bigger lunch but healthy: leftover thai veggies 100? with some fried salmon (small amount but totally fried) 200? and also a bit of chicken 150 - 450 for sure if not more.

1050 so far, decent & full.

I did laundry and already prepared some jello and even put strawberries in the lemon jello & an brown banana in the lime...we'll see how that one works out or if i even eat it. maybe cooking stuff early tomorrow morning (cooking veggies) - not in mood to do it tonight after a gym and showering after that. relaxing. :-D

Also today I took care of a lot of bills / money stuff at home. It probably took around 1hr of time - not bad. I also donated to MSK cancer research $10 because they even offered a tote bag free lol - that's not why i did it - but i do support the research of course and i also am always sorta impressed by their fundraising as seeing so much they give out to get us to donate. Calendars and everything. So, i like giving to them.  And just prepared some stuff for the week.

Before gym: 200 cals. carbs and caffeine.

After gym: Tasty subway sandwich, higher salt purposely. Whole wheat flatbread with a veggie patty. Around 400 cals. and trying to end it here on a good note.

Calories today: 1650 - excellent. as it started off not so good with all the snacking early and bigger meals. and some sf lemon jello with strawberries (wow was great).

Calorie average is now 1900 per day this weekend. def a decent amount.

my gym workout was super - extra fast.

 

 

 

 

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 08/28/2016:
We all have that weight that we are totally comfortable with and I think what makes it comfortable is yes the way we feel in our body but also the ease of maintaining that weight along the weeks and the months. Have a great day J.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2016:
You are correct. It's becoming a weight i'm getting better at managing. I don't really want to lose more as much as gain more muscle. Sorta a skinny fat feeling going on here.


OhioRaven on 08/28/2016:
You are one skinny, healthy girl.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2016:
I am a bit short...if that means anything almost 5'2"


Diamond50 on 08/28/2016:
Note to self: Buy diet jello and do what HP is doing.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2016:
Not everything i do is healthiest...but it works for me. And i'm happy with the choices i make as i feel they are moderate enough...!

Sure, feel free to even copy some of the things i eat. you'll lose weight. trust me. You will lose weight on 2,000 cal per day also. the point is to eat sorta as much as you can to get the job done, instead of eating the least i can. then it becomes easier for me to maintain. feel free to ask me anything.


grannyannie on 08/29/2016:
Looks like you are doing well. Have an amazing week!

Horn_of_plenty on 08/29/2016:
I will do Annie <3



Horn_Of_Plenty - Saturday Aug 27, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

No sleeping pills on Thursday night or Fri night = good idea.  Up early today but this is good. Time to relax before heading out to the beach with my best friend.

Morning snacking: leftover ice light Halo Top Lemon Cake ice cream 60, seltzer with stevia, chips 200, jello 50. total here: 310. 

2050 cals good. I did come home very relaxed from beach :-)

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

Diamond50 on 08/27/2016:
Enjoy the beach today HP.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2016:
it was fabulous. hadn't been to this particular one maybe all summer. and with my friend. and saturday night so wasn't rushing home. beautiful!


Donkey on 08/27/2016:
I hope you have a nice time at the beach - sounds very relaxing.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2016:
More relaxing than i can remember in a long time. Most beach days this summer were Sundays before work, lol.


puddles on 08/27/2016:
Have a great day at the beach take time to relax and rest J.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2016:
Doing that now...relaxing most of today amongst a hair of laundry and cooking up some veggies (collard greens, okra, Spanish pumpkin - i shouldn't have to do much food shopping this week as most is done)


OhioRaven on 08/28/2016:
Have a Great day, HP.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2016:
TY OR.



Horn_Of_Plenty - Friday Aug 26, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 115.0

Had a very new & def a new fave drink: sparkling vinegar drink. only 25 cals. and i add a tiny bit extra stevia to sweeten & OMG. this stuff is great. also, like the kombucha, it's good for elimination. I drink it in AM and usually add some seltzer with stevia also.

8:30am at work: wrap with lox and extra cream cheese, coffee, 350 total

around 400 at most. thinking to just be hungry this AM and not have a snack bar. to just relax it out. i don't have much work AT ALL. I don't have any bosses giving me work. I'll talk about this later.

lunch: healthy stuff...good on all levels, some chips 450 approx. excellent! (some leftover sauteed pumpkin mixed with cauliflower "rice", some cold cuts low sodium turkey, some lightly processed chips - not a bad brand & I do LOVE myself some chips regularly..)

gonna have a good low cal day...and i can tell i've lost a few ounces this week FOR SURE. clothes are fitting really well. digestion this week has been very good too.

blech - ending up indulging on crap 1900 cals at most, still good. did go for around an hour walk.

weekly average = 1750/day

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It's very nerve-wracking, stressful & upsetting. But I need to fully ignore these feelings & concentrate on my cop NYPD goal.  If i can work at it faster, I may try for January '17 but i can only think it's too early...but i am going to push it in my mind anyways....

I will see how I feel end of October and determine if January '17 really is too soon or if I can go for it.

I am working on my legs atthe gym MORE and MORE.

I feel a slight improvement already.

I can do slightly more weights with legs.

But still i'm a beginner & not into running...at all - until i feel no pain - which will be late fall or wintertime.

I'm trying to remain relaxed about it all.

But with my boss leaving (my only boss the whole time i was here) and not having work because everything is VERY wacky at my company (up in the air // change of positions // people leaving // new boss hiring....) things are just not relaxing.  However, I realize i'm NOT the only one acting around here. That i'm really NOT the only one with little work. So....

.....so....I need to remain positive...watch my health....and leave here as soon as I'm ready.

So i will either leave in January (would be nice) or July  (sounds better in terms of watching out for my health & physical safety).

Anyways, i'll keep thinking and rolling the dice in my head as to my next move and what is seriously right for my future.

I'm glad i'm here right now making enough money to pay my bills AND save for the future.

Despite how bad it all sounds...it's nothing compared to being homeless / on welfare / or having other major problems.

I have minor problems & cannot worry. I will make it happen & make my NYPD dream come true.

Please just support me everyone here - it means a lot - or give advice if you think i could benefit.

The NYPD will be far better for my future & savings. Although I AM saving some $$$ right now, it's sorta minimal and i'm not left with extra money each month (at least when i'm buying jeans or alterring dresses or other things...anytime i spend more than what I need - when i'm buying some new clothes / ALL MY CRAZY FOOD INDULGENCES / anything new for my apt - i am spending money which i find hard to pay back all at once to my credit card). 

Once again, everything AT THIS MOMENT is fine. I'm satisfied at this very moment. 

The NYPD will be good for my future. My future money situation - in terms of savings and retirement. I'll make an average of exactly the $ I am lucky to be making right now ($53/yr) for the first 5 yrs through the academy - it'll average around mid 50's. 

But after that, I'll be making above $90k which is going to be very helpful for me as i get older & need to care for myself MORE. ex - New clothes, renovations to my apt, new car when this one dies. This is all 5 yrs down the line - I will be approx 40yrs old when the $90,000 per year salary kicks in. It will be very helpful. And this is also assuming that my rent stays stabilized at the $1,000/month only which is considered dirt cheap for New York City / Queens living.

If anything goes down with the electrical union / economy and things change with the rent, I could lose it all...but that shouldn't happen.  I have a special deal on my rent (it's not low income or subsidized but it is a special rate per the electrical industry housing).  It's a special thing in the city Queens - that no other industry has done - provided housing. now it's open to non-electrical / union workers too. 

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I am just worried about maintaining my job, sanity, positivity & getting my legs strong for NYPD these next 10 months (although earlier does sound best...) but all because i want something earlier doesn't mean it is the best option for my health!!!!!!!!! i have always pushed things so i may have to choose patience this time.....

Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 08/26/2016:
Girl you worry too much. Did you know that 95% of the things we worry about never happens - true statistics. There are two days you can never do anything about and those days are yesterday because they have gone and past and the other is tomorrow because we have no control over the world. You are going to drive yourself crazy doing all the what ifs and the coulds, shoulds, woulds of the world. Be present in this day and let the other days take care of themselves and you will find some kind of peace around you.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 08/26/2016:
Thank you Fran. I have noticed this today also - and have been advised by ONE other person than you of the same thing - to take each day as it comes, stick to my NYPD goal of summer '17, and let everything else fall in place without worrying as much.

Your advice is well taken and acknowledged. Thank you so much for pointing out what is true.


Diamond50 on 08/26/2016:
Great advice Fran! I echo what she says too! I know it's hard some times as I am a worrier as well, but what Fran said is so true. Worry is just as bad for our health as eating bad food, no exercise and not taking care of our physical bodies. Hang in there HP.

Horn_of_plenty on 08/28/2016:
Thank you Diamond. my goals will have to include thinking more logically and not getting so down on things this year :)



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