1900 4-day average, good.
Maybe i shouldn't have taken the Melatonin last night? I took it really early - around 7pm or earlier. Only 3mg.
I am not sure what's up other than the springtime and allergies. I tend to feel extremely down during this season.
I am continuously feeling VERY tired. Even driving to work, I was fighting my tired eyes to stay open....they were, i'm just really, really tired.
But i'm not planning on skipping the gym tonight. However, if i do not feel up to a full workout, I will leave after doing most...I need to try to take care of myself right now...
I even ordered a heavier breakfast at work (which continued to put me to sleep lol...needed the extra protein / fat / carbs and less sugar)
Drinks today: a probiotic 40 in the morning soda low cal and coffee with milk at work60, then white toast 150 with a fried egg 100 and extra bacon 300 (and butter)?WAS GREAT, later part of an energy drink that i'll maybe finish later, and a light whipped yogurt 80. all together, it's still only around 850 calories which is great at most. I need more carbs right now...just tired... may buy chips or pretzels with lunch...
1pm lunch, basically healthy stuff Lunch was tons of veggies cooked and a big serving of mixed nuts.
1350 before leaving work...
feeling under the weather, but some movement at the gym will help me feel better....i haven't really moved around much since Sunday :)
and i plan to sleep well after the gym tonight! anyways, i'm gonna try to stress less...right? it is what it is right now!
Progress as of today: 0.1 lbs lost so far, only 2.9 lbs to go!
feeling extremely tired right now.
I left work a tad early, boss wasn't in today. i'm glad I chose to leave and I decided this all the way last week. I was supposed to go to therapy, but I canceled it because I wanted to go home and rest and read. that's what i'm doing.
I also found a Vegan restaurant with tons of veggies. It's called "Veggie Castle II" and it's been around a LONG time! it's only 2mi from work! I shall be back! and it's on the way home :)
anyways, i'm exhausted as I didn't sleep well last night...
1200 before dinner.
dinner was big: tons of veggies, mostly steamed and spiced, some sauce: around 400 most, then a fruit 100 most, and yogurt with peanut butter 200 most. I am very tired.
1900, good.
no exercise.
I need to go to bed early tonight.
Progress as of today: 0.1 lbs lost so far, only 2.9 lbs to go!
my mom was telling me how she doesn't approve of my leaving work and cancelling a therapy appt but still leaving work like i had one...
honestly, i do not think that she should have judged me for making a decision that is personal to me...after all, she doesn't know how i'm feeling or what is the best choice for me, you know!?
i think sometimes people shouldn't judge...
Surprisingly, I didn't really sleep in today. I may take a nap if I get tired, but I woke up before 6am. I am starting to have a lot more energy and it feels wonderful.
6am thru 8am: Early small meal SO GOOD!: kombucha 110, seltzer with stevia and dark chocolate 90. total - 200.
9am meal: 2 servings chips 260, tofu 50, smoked turkey slices 90 400, some kale salad 50
11:15am snack: sweet potato crisps 160
810 :) I don't care too much about low cals today. I am STILL debating not going to the gym today....sunday. so...I might not. I might wait to wash my hair on Monday morning. still not sure...I could just go to the gym Monday...thinking about it.
1pm lunch: rest of my wrap from the diner last night (egg whites, salmon, veggies) prob around 250? most?, rest of the kale salad 100...just eating all day. still not high energy I guess. 350 here.
around 1150 so far, good. (really, i haven't been very productive as even though i'm sleeping better, i'm not really motivated today?...all i've done is constantly eat lol! and totally NOT in the mood to even enter a supermarket.) now looking to maybe get my toes fixed up today & go to the gym after I guess..
Snack before gym lite 150 cal 1300 Snack after gym frozen yogurt very lite 100! 1400 :)
Protein pancake for dinner..made with egg whites, protein powder, stevia, topped with pb and jelly...around 450.
total today approx. 1850, good.
Yesterday, the movie theater actually had a busted system so we didn't end up seeing the movie. We were given both a refund and comps. Worth it. And the movie was in a shopping center, so we shopped instead! And there were sales. So I got a few things at Bath & Body Works! I bought my dad half of a Father's Day present (I feel I didn't spend enough for a full gift, but I may just give this....only added up to $20, so I may look to add to it...) My friend also got me TWO new free pairs of underwear from Victoria's Secret! (she actually doesn't like the free underwear!? so I gladly accept!)..What else? oh, I also bought a totally new flavor kombucha I've never tried called "Sweet Thorn" - that's the flavor. so nice! and I bought the chocolates there. .. Did we go anywhere else!? yes, we also walked into Yankee Candle. I think this is basically it. It was a huge shopping center but we just went to our fave stores. and we tried to see the moving later, but the theater still had a problem so we just got our money back (no comps the second time). Still a great deal.
So, of course i'm a tad sore from doing more walking yesterday than usual. But I'm happy we did get to walk. Later today i'll get to the gym. I was debating holding off till Monday to go because I got a Keratin in my hair, but, no...I want to be back on schedule with the gym and there's no such thing as delays as a delay just turns into missed gym days....I was thinking to not wash my hair for the best deal - the 3 days, but i'm washing it only after 1.5 days. I don't care...gym is more important!
...but in terms of gym, I may just change my mind & take today as a rest day. Not sure.
nah, I can rest tomorrow as i'm getting out of work early & plan to do some food shopping then instead of today. The only thing I need to do today is laundry & gym. Nothing else :) and seltzers...I need seltzer.
and...maybe take off the nailpolish that's been on my toes since the beginning of April for my sister's wedding :) ...but I can do this tomorrow if I want to...after work. since I walked yesterday, I now don't care about walking on Monday even though i'll be getting out of work early, it's not that early! 3pm...perfect for adding in a small extra errand like getting my toes cleaned up!
Progress as of today: 0.1 lbs lost so far, only 2.9 lbs to go!
8am-10am breakfast: kombucha 50, small plum 40, seltzer with stevia, popcorn 80, yogurt 80: around 250.
10:30am snack: light and fit yogurt: banana with chocolate on top! YUM! 100
11am: BING Black Raspberry 50
Noon: full lunch in the end :) ...bacon jerky 150, some cucumber salad 50?, leftover bites of sautéed okra 50, sautéed bok choy 150. total around 400-450
Plans for today: seltzer...maybe an iced coffee before dinner, after movie from dunkin.
2:30pm: regular coffee 50 (to have with movie that never happened because of technical issues!)
4:30pm chocolate 100
Bigger dinner: stewed zucchini 100?, sautéed escarole 200?, sautéed lighter though spinach 100 at most, most of a wrap 200? with egg whites, veggies and some lox 150? - total here around 750 (Diner was GREAT!)
1700 here at most....and then at home some chips and a plum 230 more.
total today: around 1900, happy with this.
the movie was a bust - the projector was broken - but we did get free movie comps out of the deal and our money back. good deal overall....and instead of watching a movie, we walked around shopping and then had an early dinner. overall, it was a great day and nice weather as well.
________________________________________________________
I am feeling totally snacky and not even hungry anymore this morning as I've been eating & drinking a lot and I am satisfied in my stomach and mind.
I am trying to take my mind off food for the rest of the morning - because i'm set on learning how to do things without eating first. I have a tendency to want to eat all the time and especially before I am productive. I'm going to seriously work on this or i'll have a problem when i'm studying and back to school in the NYPD academy. Just chilling now & relaxing.
My plan is to only eat one large volume meal today at dinner. I plan on eating tons because i'm going out with my best friend. I am set on maybe veggies and also eggs with lox...we are going to a diner and the menu is huge. I want to eat something nice tonight & keep calories very low today. My goal is around 1500 cals today...maybe I don't even have to fully "binge" on veggies at dinner...maybe another goal for the remaining time till NYPD is to put less focus on food. Change of mindset, but we'll see. I'm doing good now.
Ok. I do have nice plans today! My friend is coming over at 1 & we are going to see the new movie The Huntsman: Winter's War. I'll update you all on if it was any good! :) I think it will, great actors are starring in it. After the movie, we'll be shopping a little in the shopping center right there where the movie is showing. It's one of the best shopping outdoor malls in all of Queens, NY i'd say! wahoo! After that, we're eating at a nearby Diner in the same town. perfecto - a nice, easy day. still not much exercise which is FINE. On Monday eve, i'm leaving work early & will come home to walk around my neighborhood I am thinking - or...I may even walk along the nearby Throggs Neck bridge if the weather is suitable, i'll have to check as it will probably not be warm enough - but I can always dress warmer :)
Reason I can go somewhere Monday is that i'm leaving work early at 3pm instead of 4:30pm. I had made a dr appointment & told my boss - but....I cancelled the dr apt (which is important, it's my 1x a month therapy appointment, actually!), but you see - my boss is out Monday, and i'm going to be sitting at my desk all day - and I am realizing that since it's a low stress day, I can leave early and instead of rushing to therapy, I can take the time to really give myself some nice therapy which would be some physical activity - outdoors! :)
Progress as of today: -0.6 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
Really, this whole winter starting in December thru NOW, was all about big plans or events. Or rushing around with dress fittings or just feeling run down.
I am so happy to have a nice, relaxed weekend with my bestie.
Thank gosh.
I will not cancel my keratin hair apt bc I will regret not being able to blowdry my hair quickly next week! :) I will deal with coming home later tonight & also I will not be happy with myself if I fail to keep calories very low today. I'm sick of eating more than I plan to because of people tempting me with things they bring and my own poorer choices. I'm happy to be getting back on track now.
6:30am: kombucha 50
8:30am This awesome muffin mixture by FlapJacked! I think I ordered more in chocolate, gotta check my Amazon account - they are seriously awesome! they have fiber which is extra good on weekends for me...and also I had the my fave energy drink - Blackberry BING! 250
All the BING flavors are good (cherry, blackberry, apple, raspberry). low calorie ranging between 30-40 per can and it's around 100mg caffeine which is around the same as a cup of coffee. lightly carbonated and very tasty - I've been enjoying them in the mornings. I do like my caffeine and lately i'm even good for sleeping through the night better...well, at least the days that I stop caffeine around 3pm. last night I did still sleep well, just woke a few times to pee since I was drinking lots of seltzer even after the gym...speaking of, I am now out of seltzer.
300. Snack will be a yogurt I am thinking, for only 80 cal and tasty. I am sick of eating extra calories this month! trying for lower cals and to go back to a weight that doesn't go above 115. I want 110-115. i'll stop there. because the more important thing is to continue my fitness and strengthen my legs. I am enjoying my caffeine use these days!
1150 before dinner....gonna go get my hair done in a few minutes. hope to be home around 7pm hopefully, but maybe closer to 7:30pm and hopefully not 8 but really, who cares!? ;)
around 1600 today. good. I got home majorly late from haircut bc I had a new, young girl. she did a fine job, but took forever (like at least 1hr longer than usual!). overall, it took 3hrs.
goodnight all :)
total avg per day this week: 1800 per day = excellent.
Progress as of today: -0.6 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
6 day avg = 1840/day. good.
500 before lunch = GREAT. Planning for a LOW cal day today. and GYM.
low cal = 1500 today is what i'm working towards.
1100 after lunch
1400 before gym with caffeine, mostly carbs
250 after the gym.
1650 = GREAT. well done, awesome workout.
feeling GREAT.
Progress as of today: 0.6 lbs lost so far, only 2.4 lbs to go!
anyways, overall i'm still content with myself. but I would rather be at the lower end.
I don't have a goal to really be any lower than 110 at all.
my goal is really to strengthen my legs for running...so...as we go through summer and all, i'll be content on maintaining 112-115 (I prefer a hair lower than 118-120 like I weighed today at 118.4 which is starting to get too high and uncomfortable / tight in my clothes)...
...anyways, as I go through the seasons of spring / summer and back to fall, I really just have a goal of maintaining the hard work I did for my sister's wedding & learning to eat and live at the lower weight (no more 120's like I used to be for a few years when exercise was less steady and very inconsistent).
as I've gotten older and out of my 20's, I've been able to learn more what it takes to discipline myself and also what it takes to remain satisfied and eat to be leaner.
:)
Today, I am reminded how dedicated I was in the winter for the body that I do have now!
...I was looking through notes I made on my computer at work...and I actually wrote a note to myself in the wintertime before a busy weekend "Put in the work now so I will SHINE in April!" ....
and I did put in the work...and I did shine! and i'm still shining.
I'm so happy, Fran, at myself and the progress I worked towards.
It's so easy to be complacent and/or forget and lose myself and my dreams. i'm glad I came across that note on my computer calendar today...(it's a special calendar that I look back at - says all my events / vaca / holidays...something I made that only I can see.) it shows times I leave early and everything. very specified calendar with all sorts of fun plans / notes to keep me motivated! :)
yeah, I changed my goals. :)
a little bit tired today after a lot of running around since Monday. Today's a night off any errands (besides food!) and off from gym also.
Really happy to go home tonight, I do as I please.
On another note, I want to start dating a little bit. But it has to be a guy who also wants some freedom. I don't want a guy all over me and never needing time alone...! ugh.
and i'm stopping weighing myself more than 1x a week like I used to. bc today i'm up a lb from yesterday. I prefer to just weigh in Saturdays like I was doing previously.
1250 before dinner.
feeling low energy today.
at most, dinner was 850. hoping for less though. gonna say 800 because i'm being nice to myself right now.
2050 today, good.
no exercise, but did go out for 5 min during work :)
Progress as of today: 0.6 lbs lost so far, only 2.4 lbs to go!
4-day total = 1840 per day.
I received at least 2 compliments from two very different people at two very different places today on my body / weight. !!! wow. I guess I did something right. :) 
Happy Tues.
somebody brought some cake and I actually ate some at lunch.
no worries, calories still in check even though not as low as it could have been:
dinner was too late (around 7:45pm) and hopefully not more than around 450, most.
total today: 1850, didn't need the cake. wasn't even great.
exercise: turns out I walked 1 mile (1/2 mile to & from the meeting!)
Progress as of today: 0.6 lbs lost so far, only 2.4 lbs to go!
2-4lbs. not going lower than 110 though!
and thank you, I love it when you call me Coach, Mom!
Kombucha: only 60 i'll say.
8:30am: quest bar cookie dough and coffee with equal 190
11am: medium banana 120 and partial of the newest and tasty "GLO" bars - flavor was peanut butter dark chocolate sea salt!!!!! gave a piece to my boss. YUM! 150 for me.
total so far: 520, excellent, appetite is small today! I feel tired bc I was up a lot during night. but I also feel quite happy & positive.
1650 after gym maybe also some lite ice cream .
yes, around 1700 cals.
goodnight.
I am so tired.
I did visit the guy and it went nicely, definitely nicely.
then the gym.
He may call me after work tonight.
goodnight all.
Really pooped.
Progress as of today: -0.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.4 lbs to go!
I will say my 2-day weekend avg is 1900 per day so far. That's good for a holiday weekend. I'll be making a dent in good progress this week as I am in gear for summer now and thinking positively about myself.
Everything is possible. I'll take one day at a time.
_____________________________________________________
8am kombucha 50, later coffee 50 Did the right thing and went to visit my grandma at the nursing home with my dad this morning. We got back around noon.
12:30pm Too hungry to eat s lot so I had fast carbs of Belvita blueberry crackers 230. 330
today and gonna work to keep cals low. On a roll! Last night I doubt was more than 2200. Doing good!
1:30pm Banana 120 450...
On ride home from parent's house at 2pm: energy drink, no cals
3:30pm meal : cooked squash, dab of sauce 100, popcorn 150, yogurt 100, 350.
800 :)
5:45pm very filling & mostly healthy dinner: protein was 1/2 package of bacon jerky, then some squash, followed by cabbage with okra masala and some leftover saag as well. was very good. tons of water as it seems it was all very salty (specially the jerky) but good. around 650.
1450 approx. excellent. no exercise.
tomorrow is luckily the gym for which I am excited for. This week is back to business.
Tuesday I've got a meeting after work.
Wednesday I am taking as a REST day.
Thursday gym.
Friday rest day.
Saturday I may get together with my friend Christine, though it's def pending as I don't even know if she's free.
Sunday will be gym.
and that's my week!
I really do have basically enough food to get thru this week. fruit is low though. but I actually do have enough, of everything, to make it thru. I can try not to have to go food shopping...gonna think about this. I really do have enough. might as well save my money.
I did want to visit a friend after work tomorrow and before the gym. but if the friend declines my offer, i'll just be going to the gym. hmmm, we shall see what happens!..
Progress as of today: -0.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.4 lbs to go!
[ Previous Page 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31 32 33 34 35 36 37 38 39 40 41 42 43 44 45 46 47 48 49 50 51 52 53 54 55 56 57 58 59 60 61 62 63 64 65 66 67 68 69 70 71 72 73 74 75 76 77 78 79 80 81 82 83 84 85 86 87 88 89 90 91 92 93 94 95 96 97 98 99 100 101 102 103 104 105 106 107 108 109 110 111 112 113 114 115 116 117 118 119 120 121 122 123 124 125 126 127 128 129 130 131 132 133 134 135 136 137 138 139 140 141 142 143 144 145 146 147 148 149 150 151 152 153 154 155 156 157 158 159 160 161 162 163 164 165 166 167 168 169 170 171 172 173 174 175 176 177 178 179 180 181 182 183 184 185 186 187 188 189 190 191 192 193 194 195 196 197 198 199 200 201 202 203 204 205 206 207 208 209 210 211 212 213 214 215 216 217 218 219 220 221 222 223 224 225 226 227 228 229 230 231 232 233 234 235 236 237 238 239 240 241 242 243 244 245 246 247 248 249 250 251 252 253 254 255 256 257 258 259 260 261 262 263 264 265 266 267 268 269 270 271 272 273 274 275 276 277 278 279 280 281 282 283 284 285 286 287 288 289 290 291 292 293 294 295 296 297 298 299 300 301 302 303 304 305 306 307 308 309 310 311 312 313 314 315 316 317 318 319 320 321 322 323 324 325 326 327 328 329 330 331 332 333 334 335 336 337 338 339 340 341 342 343 344 345 346 347 348 349 350 351 352 353 354 355 356 357 358 359 360 361 362 363 364 365 366 367 368 369 370 371 372 373 374 375 376 377 378 379 380 381 382 383 384 385 386 387 388 389 390 391 392 393 394 395 396 397 398 399 400 401 402 403 404 405 406 407 408 409 410 411 412 413 414 415 416 417 418 419 420 421 422 423 424 425 426 427 428 429 430 431 432 433 434 435 436 437 438 439 440 441 442 443 444 445 446 447 448 Next Page ]
Sounds like over training.
just got back into training after a 3.5 weeks off period, so i am not ready to stop again...body just getting into it... :/
grannyannie on 05/04/2016:
Hope you're not getting sick.
My body seems to want more rest, probably to prevent me getting sick - so i'm going to continue to take it easy when i can, like tonight :)