- Wednesday Nov 12, 2014
Today is a new day. Fresh start.
No doubt about it today was really rough after eating so much yesterday. It was hard escaping negative emotions at work and also the exorbitant amount of jealousy I have of other coworkers who are in great shape and do not have to deal with my pain and injury. I have no right to be jealous, but I can't get over it. I am working on being happier but it's not easy. There were a couple situations that made it worse today - reminders of my injury and my circumstances and my inability to speak up and get what I want for myself.
Around 1150, then an afternoon snack at work 150 more. Let's just say 1350. Then big dinner, mostly sauteed veggies and an egg white wrap 650 at most followed up with a dessert of peanut butter in a wrap around 300-350.
Will estimate this was a 2300 cal day. Success compared with yesterday.
No exercise, legs still have pain. Goodnight
- Tuesday Nov 11, 2014
For the first time in many weeks, my legs are having less pain in the AM and last night. I guess that means to further rest them and not go back to any exercise yet and let them continue to heal this time around! I am doing IF the whole day till Wednesday morning. By doing this, I will be able to reach my goal - a 1000 calorie deficit today.
Ok changed my mind and decided not to fast at all. Had a tasty breakfast instead. Cooked wheat bran with stevia 60 and cinnamon, butternut squash souflee 120, coconut butter 200, peanut butter 200. Around 600...filled up with a veggie egg white omelette 250?, 1/2 avocado and stir fried chicken 400, more squash souflee and peanut butter 220. 1500 or so. Wow that's a ton of food for 1500 calories. This is all my breakfast.
Noon lunch: almonds lightly salted, coconut water 200, seasoned roasted broccoli and the rest of the souflee 200 400 total...and skyr yogurt pumpkin spice flavor with my own added cooked cranberries with stevia around 200 more. 1900....2100. Lots of roasted cauliflower 200 2300 Yogurt and tablespoon coconut butter 350 2650. This is bad but may have to fast Saturday just to make up for binging and that stinks. But ending the day with McDonald's was really tasty :)
Total calories 3200. Over about 1200 cal. Yesterday over about 800 cal. Really prob over even more bc I am not exercising but this is enough for estimating purposes. Yesterday and today's extra calories: 2000. Whoa a lot. If I am motivated, I can fast sat and sun in the weekend to take off the 2000...but it's too much to do it that way. I will IF Saturday. Not sure about Sunday...maybe. Otherwise, I'll undo the damage over two weeks and then try to lose actual weight around thanksgiving. This is a bit of a set back as 2000 calories is a lot to create a deficit for....my own doing, I have a tendency to hurt myself like this and in life, to make choices that are harmful and get me nowhere except for self sabotage as my best friend puts it perfectly in context for me to understand. Not sure why I can't make better choices more often but I am constantly inclined to give into negative thoughts and temptations. Will discuss my goals as Puddles was asking in a comment earlier....to be contined later when I go home, still in McDonald's. Proud of myself for only ordering fries, mcnuggets, and diet coke (first time in a long time for aspartame) and being satisfied and not going back for me. It's a success actually, despite what u may think lol.
Got home and ate fruit and avocado 200 followed by pb on a wrap 400 total. 600.
Total Tuesday calories = 3800.
Total calories over now for yesterday & today: 2600.
- Monday Nov 10, 2014
Calories till I got home from work were around 1350. Dinner was completely overdone and I am actually as stuffed as a person feels on thanksgiving! I don't regret it because it all tasted good.
Chips 100, sautéed veggies in sauce 750 or so - yes it was a ton of veggies and oil and sauce - cheese 250, and a dessert of cooked bran with stevia and cinnamon, squash souflee, and lots of peanut butter total dessert is 400. Shoot around 1500 cals no wonder I am stuffed.
Total cals are 2850. I wasn't keeping track at dinner and kept eating. I didn't really want such a high total.
Now I need to think about tomorrow which is a planned IF day. But, if I am going to overeat, IF will only be good for maintaining work and that is not my plan at all with IF.
Overall, tomorrow's IF will not contribute to weight loss, just maintenance bc i overate too much tonight. Lesson learned to be a little more focussed and not buy so much prepared food lol.
- Sunday Nov 09, 2014
today was a slightly fancy brunch with a few girlfriends...followed by an errand with two of the girls (we all needed to go to Target so we went together after the brunch bc it was right across the street!). then I drove home with my best friend and we got dinner together to eat at my apt before she drove home. nice.
too much food out this weekend tho...lol...or at the restaurants I mean. but it was good & fun and now this week is starting fresh :)
todays calories: Brunch: salad, grilled veggies 200 at most, egg white & veggie omelette around 300-400 I guess at most, coffee with lots of milk and lots of coffee 150?, small bites of cake / muffin 300?...that's about it...1050 at most.
dinner: veggies 200, veggie soup and shirataki noodles 150, some of my friend's spring roll 100 at most, some chicken 150-200..then I decided to have a dessert fruit and yogurt 200 at most...and then some nuts 200. 1050.
total: 2100. eh. well, not terrible, right? no exercise though. all is good, calories are fine. off to a good start for the week. no calorie deficit this weekend, but fun times with friends :)
- Saturday Nov 08, 2014
wish I could wash my hair but I can't...until Monday morning! ...and then I will rejoice in the wonderful feeling of once again having a Keratin hair treatment! :)
Happy Saturday...feeling excited for intermittent fasting today until dinner...going to a party tonight for a friends bday at a restaurant, sushi. I don't like sushi but the have other options as well. Sooo looking forward to seeing these friends bc I have been laying low since the beginning of October trying to stay home and rest my legs much more on weekends. Will be resting most of the day today too. So I am gonna intermittent fast till dinner tonight. Tomorrow strangely enough I have a brunch to go to that another friend planned. It's weird having a brunch the next day after going out to dinner late, but it should be fun.
On Sunday, the brunch at noon will be my first meal, no early breakfast. That is also considered intermittent fasting. I only like to do IF when home and on days off from work. A pro to IF is that you can eat slightly more calories than your body may need on normal eating days bc on IF days u try to make a huge deficit. Moreover, by continuing to eat normally on the other days, your body and metabolism stay in more of a normal, fast state - rather than what happens when day in and day out you diet at 1200 cals a day.
With the type of IF I do, I will loose between 1-4 lbs per month depending how often I am doing IF. During the month of November I will be doing it a couple extra days like Veterans Day, Thanksgiving (maybe will turn into a high cal day despite a fast which will be OK - my mom cooks really well and I will not deny myself on this holiday - but at least I will have fasted all day before the big meal!).
IF will help me lose extra calories this month. In December, I will IF either Christmas or the day after (I don't celebrate the holiday) also in November and December I am working to IF 1 day each weekend - dinner only. For the rest of November, I should be able to lose around 1.5lbs. Same for December maybe more maybe less. Probably around 2.5 lbs by end of December :)
Of all the fasting IF days I've done so far, today has been the easiest. not sure why or how....maybe knowing I'm going out to eat & that there's some healthy & filling food to enjoy there! so excited for teriyaki vegetables...can't wait to dig in...too bad it'll be around 4 hours from now. fasting seems pretty easy when the day doesn't have too much going on. nothing to stress about and make me hungry because of anxiety. so happy I am able to do this fasting. never thought I could. sunday will be a normal day, first meal at noon because I'm going to a brunch. honestly, my plan is to keep calories low today and enjoy tomorrow's brunch, allowing extra calories sunday...
but I worked so hard on this fast, I might as well try to keep the calories low today and not overindulge tonight...otherwise, what the freak is the point of fasting!? Tuesday will be one more fast day till evening because I have off from work. still need to rest my legs, exercise is not on the agenda yet...so this works.
Dinner ended up being high calorie - around 2300-2400!!!! Dinner: big seaweed salad, miso soup so good!, a huge half of broiled eggplant with tons of oil atop it (so, so, so good!) and lately I eat a lot more fat so I would say this is probably the healthiest thing from dinner, a few samples of the sushi pieces my friends ordered, a few edamame beans, and a huge plate (I was annoyed how it came because I wanted to be able to eat a lot of vegetables) of chicken teriyaki. I specifically told the waiter to include extra vegetables instead of rice but instead she gave me tons of chicken lol. it's ok. but seriously, it was like 3-4 chicken filets on my plate and I ate most of it. why? well, it was really, really tasty white meat and so moist. It was the best chicken I have eaten in MONTHS. and it was fresh, just cooked. so, I enjoyed dinner. and before I went, I had about 1.5 tablespoons of coconut butter. too much food, but at least I had fasted, so the calories weren't huge on top of more calories I would have eaten throughout the day...
anyways, the folks I went to dinner with, most of them, do not care about calories / weight or health. that's the one thing that I do not like from them to rub off on me. they kept ordering more and more bc it was all you can eat, so I kept eating more and more of my meal and sampling their sushi. If I had gone to eat with someone else, somewhere else, I may have made better choices. but in the end, i did nothing wrong - it was good food...and I am glad to have eaten more protein and healthy fresh food last night! This particular group of friends - they love fatty & high carb dishes. Nothing healthy. and they love desserts even more. ice cream galore...at the end of the meal, there was tons of ice cream. that is one thing I didn't eat. why do that if I knew I had already eaten a days worth of calories? and I fasted so well the whole day!? I do not eat dessert. It doesn't ever make me feel good, I have realized. I almost never partake in baked goods or ice cream after a meal. maybe coffee or fruit or a baked apple, but that's it :)
was at a sushi restaurant and ordered too mani items and ate too much, some food being high fat and calorie.,..but a great diversion thankfully from the normal food I eat. I had wayyyy too much chicken, but at least the teryaki white meat was flavorful and moist. I probably had almost 1000 cals in just the chicken. Portions too big. I am not that annoyed since tge food was great, but, I also wasted a fast / weight loss day. Tuesday will still remain a fast day :)
- Friday Nov 07, 2014
1150 at most after lunch. 100 Apple on the way home.
Big dinner of eggplant rolletes by celentano foods 350, extra veggies 150 at most, lots of peanut butter mixed with warm wheat bran and stevia for dessert. So good! Dessert 500 at most.
2250 at most. Good.
Intermittent fast tomorrow. Out to dinner for friends bday :)
- Thursday Nov 06, 2014
No exercise but got a great haircut. Now can't get it wet for 3 days :)
Calories till dinner: 1350 Dinner: around 500-600 Stupid snack: chips 200 2150, decent.
No exercise. Signing up for the pool as soon as my legs feel a lil bit better. I am waiting till they have less pain :( so sad.
- Wednesday Nov 05, 2014
Prob around 2100/2200 all healthy. No exercise. I forgot, I did a 15 minute abbs workout in the morning before breakfast!
- Tuesday Nov 04, 2014
Snack: 2 lemons in hot water, turmeric mix, stevia, raw Apple cider vinegar 50 Breakfast: wheat bran 60 with 2 tbsp peanut butter 200, 2 tablespoons coconut butter 200, cinnamon, stevia, and cooked cranberries 60. 520 :) huge serving. Some protein, low carbs, lots of fat :)
Snack: probably nuts bc I forgot to buy yogurt and cottage cheese. Supermarket after work.
Breakfast today was amazing...will do it again tomorrow for sure! loved the bran with the cranberries and the fats. it was pretty satisfying till around 11am-12am when I got hungry. I am loving the sweet breakfast :) lately I will be using more stevia. I stopped for awhile because I thought it was very bad for me, but now I do not think so, at all.
calories till end of workday: around 1400.
calories after work 100 for an apple.
dinner: LOADS of veggies, cooked by a restaurant (takeout Italian) sauteed in butter/oil with garlic: mushrooms 100 at least, broccoli raab 100, broccoli 200, some leftover chicken sausage 100, small container of raspberries 120?...so...around 600...oh, and a collard greens soup with two small bite size pieces of fatty bacon! didn't know they had that in the soup....not more than 100 there. total: 700 yuck.
2200. all healthy at least. no exercise.
- Monday Nov 03, 2014
I wrote about the dr appt in yesterday's entry...I go back to the dr in a couple Wednesdays from now...2.5 weeks. I am still resting and not exercising at all.
5am: 2 tablespoons coconut butter and 4 tablespoons peanut butter. 600 cals. Fasting till tonight when I will eat a lot of cooked veggies followed up with s simililar low carb dessert to yesterday - hot wheat bran, tons of cranberries, stevia, high fat either oil or some type of butter / peanut butter. Or, I may just add flax and/ almonds in.
Around 1200-1300....actually around 1450 had some almonds. Success. No exercise and I meant to be home even more but did do a couple errands and got a massage. Back to work tomorrow and will try to keep resting my legs and using the heating pads.