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Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Oct 17, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

9:30am Breakfast: overnight oat bran with almond milk, cinnamon, stevia 150, and lots of strawberries 70. 220.

11:30am snack: peanut butter 200

12pm snack: 2% greek yogurt with stevia and cinnamon, herbal tea 150

1:45pm lunch: 1 fried egg, 1 egg white 100, spray 20?, toast 150 with sesame oil 50, and kale salad with a little dressing 130 total: 450, and healthy!

couple jolly ranchers during the afternoon, 50.

dinner: another diner we tried out. got a salad with grilled shrimp and roasted peppers 250?. also had some hummus and 1/2 a toasted pita 200?.  maybe around 500?

total today: 1600, success. I am going to achieve 115 lbs this year.

exercise: mostly on my butt until my friend came around 3pm. really relaxed most of day, which was GOOD. we walked around the Queens farm for an hour, perfect amount of time as it was a small place but nice for the afternoon. and then we stopped off at a 99 Cent store before going to a diner for dinner. we are now trying diners out. a different one every time we get together. :-D

I've been waking up in the middle of the night for the past few nights. I don't give it too much thought, and I haven't been grabbing snacks either. It is some kind of anxiety - either about going back to work or dating or something. Done with sacking in the middle of the night - never a good one 

So...one thing that's been nice is that i'm still getting decent sleep because I am able to sleep in enough to counteract the time i'm up during the night. This won't be the case when I go back to work - but I think being busier during the day is going to make me tired enough to sleep thru the night! yeah.

Today, I'm going to take care of some laundry this am after I shower & cleaned my bathroom :)

Later on, around 2pm, my best friend is coming over and we are going to a farm / farmer's market in Queens nearby! I'm not keen on the walking, but will where an ankle support and don't plan to be there all day obviously...on a positive note, i'm looking forward to the time outside, with my best friend, and hopefully we'll come home with some tasty apples. And we are going to dinner tonight.

So, with my physical therapist. First, he does have his own issues as he is 44 & single & I think has low confidence sometimes outside of his work - which he excels in and shows high confidence there.  I did go to him on Wednesday, despite my friends telling me I should see someone else and never contact the man again. I've known him just shy of two years now, seeing him on & off during that time only for PT. Texting, mostly me initiating, has been going on for about 1.5 years now. The texting is fun usually and light hearted, never sexual or rude.

When I see him now for PT, we chat as any friends would. He asked me how my bday was...asked me if I had a hangover the next day! I told him no, because I don't drink, and because I never went to the bar after dinner because that was only added to the mix if he were to come...that took him for a loop (I could see his facial expression that I either upset him or he was sorry for not being able to come? I am not sure...)

I didn't text him this week, until last night. I had watched a corny chick flick movie called "Crazy Love" or something like that. Well, after watching it, I started to get the feeling that I wanted to contact my PT by calling him. Reason being I did text him, and not in my usual nice way, earlier before the movie. I felt I may have went overboard and wanted to clear the air, discuss with him why I've been upset especially when I saw him Wednesday...

So I did call him, close to 10pm. He was out at a bar with some of his friends and he did pick up. He sounded a little tipsy but nothing major.  He didn't seem to be phased by my crazy texts at all and he asked a couple times if I was ok. He told me who he was with, where he was, what his plans were the next week, that he really was sick when he missed my bday (I didn't bring that up in the least, so that's good), that he does want to take me out (I didn't bring this topic up either), and we joked about me wearing sneakers everywhere I go. I asked if he'd still go out with me if I wore my black sneakers and like the understanding, good guy he is, he said "it's your body, you wear what you want."  He is a good guy. Something different about him.  I think he is a bit nervous about relationships too. Although I can't be sure, as I don't know him on such an intimate level as I only see him at PT and text him.

I swear, I don't think it's only me that enjoys the texting and wants to take it further. I definitely have a good understanding with him. I don't want it to end, despite my friends telling me to stop with it. After all, they aren't single and trying to get to know an older, single guy who is very independent and at times has his own skeletons in the closet. He also deals with some pain in his shoulder that's been going on months if not years. I feel for him, I understand this guy. And he does understand me, which is the best part.

If only we could go out already, and move this forward. There is just something about him that attracts me more than usual...like I can't see it end because it doesn't seem right. I may sound crazy here. I am not sure. But the point is last night, when he was t the bar, he picked up his phone, spoke to me, and reassured me. So why should I stop liking him then? We are both busy and unfortunately live over an hour from each other on the weekends.

There is no reason that this thing can't move forward, even if it takes time, because that's even how my relationship with my best female friend started. Slowly. we took our time betting to know each other. I don't open up quickly to people. So when dating, I don't mind it being slow moving. And I have no problem discussing all of this with him...we just need to be able to chat more.  and I don't mean more texting.  Despite everyone telling me to step away from this unavailable guy, I can't.

He said a few more things to me on our short phone conversation last night. He said that I can't hang it over his head or continually remind him that he's my PT if we were to go out...and to keep it quiet when I see him at his work. I told him of course I would follow thru with those things. And he did mention that he had spoken about me to the friends he was with earlier in the night...hmmm.


Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

biscottibody59 on 10/17/2015:
RYC: It's not bad to wake up as long as you can get back to sleep in a reasonable amount of time. There are some good visuals I found, but I don't have the link handy. Will try to put them up on my diary soon.

Keep up the good work!

Horn_of_plenty - Friday Oct 16, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Good Morning All.

I saw 119lbs again on the scale this AM, thanks to a protein bar for a late dinner and nothing else.. Starting in a couple weeks from now, I am going to be doing some yoga at home, 1-2x per week. Maybe even starting sooner than a couple weeks from now. I am going to do the yoga in place of cardio for a little while until my ankle is more stable again. Still working on it. I have been walking pretty often which is the problem. I need to be more moderate and then it can continue to improve, which it is!

7:30am breakfast: fat free Greek yogurt 100, small banana 120, muesli 220 made with water overnight (better with almond milk...) and stevia and cooked in microwave, jolly rancher 20 460.

10:30am snack: peanut butter 100

11:45 early lunch: lots of cauliflower with butter 250 and a little garlic powder. half a large turkey burger 150? Total 400. 960.

While shopping and on the drive to the store: 2 jolly ranchers 50

4:30-5pm: grapefruit 100

total: 1100, good so far. need to eat something healthy for dinner, not another bar, that's for sure.

And chips 150 1250

dinner: will be salad...veggies & fruit around 250, chicken 150-200 on toast with sesame oil 150..around 550, good. needed this.

total today: 1800, good.

exercise: none, but did go to Old Navy for around 1hr.

feels good to take it easy tonight, that's for sure.

food was good today, balanced.

I went to Old Navy in the early afternoon to see if they had any jeans - if they had my size in anything, I would have bought them.  Apparently, a lot of the "short" sizes can only be ordered online. The store ordered me two pairs (free shipping) - so if they don't fit or are too small, I'll bring them back and exchange them for 1 size larger. I bought size 4short but I think I am not a 4, more like a 6s. Reason, is they had an 8short there, and it seems the 8 almost fit which pissed me off! lol - because it did look very small...and I couldn't believe how small the 8's were. oh well!

All my old Old Navy jeans are a 4 - and they are almost too tight...so perhaps I should have ordered the 6's...we shall see. I never dry my jeans lol bc I don't wanna shrink them!..only wash and hang dry!

 Sick of the ones I have that are really tight and have zippers at the ankles. Need more normal jeans.

did a little coloring in an adult coloring book today. also finished another book....I may watch a movie now since it's only 7pm and i'm done with dinner and everything else. yup.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/16/2015:
Well done!

Umpqua on 10/16/2015:

thinkpositive on 10/16/2015:
Great on the weight and progress in general.

biscottibody59 on 10/16/2015:
I don't think they make normal jeans anymore and if you can find them they're about the price of a nice vacation--haha!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/17/2015:
In agreement re the jeans!

ohioraven on 10/17/2015:
Is an "Adult" coloring book what I think it is ? ? ?

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/17/2015:
nope, my friends were cracking up about that too! It's a typical coloring book, just more intricate designs. :-D And higher-priced! jajaja!

Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Oct 15, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Past 9 days = 1760cal/day. good. 

Probably a 300 cal deficit on gym days at least. I have had 4 gym days. And some activity on Monday as well as yesterday. 300x4 = 1200 cal deficit. And I'd add in another 400 to that... 1600 cal deficit. I'd say I may have managed a 1/2 pound loss in these 9 days. 

If I can stick with it, not sway or give into binging or other nonsense, I can get to where I want to be - 115lbs for sister's wedding. I would NOT want to go lower, ever, than 110, and really, 115 is very good for me. I would not necessarily feel going lower is necessary, at all. And like I said, under 110 wouldn't be the healthiest for me, especially in terms of maintenance. Hopefully with my increased ability over time to do cardio, maintaining a lower weight again of around 115lbs will be possible - and once again, not lower, because that starts to get into unhealthy territory.



I went to bed around 10:30-11pm last night. I woke up I think around midnight and rolled around for a bit, but finally fell back to sleep - until 8am!

Lately, I find myself really wanting the sleep...I wonder if it has to do with the anti-anxiety pills or the fact that I hadn't slept well for a very long time, leading up to this month off...? With the job I have now, this is the first time in over 4.5yrs that I can finally sleep in for days at a time, especially these past 2 weeks as I am feeling much better than I was the earlier part of the month off, and actually rest up.

9am: Breakfast smoothie made with 2% Greek yogurt 150, 1/2 avocado 150, banana 120, cinnamon, stevia, few leaves of kale!...and some tea. 420

11:30-12pm: chocolate collagen bar 230, veggies 150 or so.

1pm: a few chips 50. 850...

4:30pm before gym: muesli, almond milk, jolly rancher 300

8:15pm Decided on something really light, protein bar after gym, Quest chocolate. 200. Good.

Total: 1350...which is great. tried to make a good calorie deficit today and I was successful. I did get fruit & veggies in. I would say it's a pretty healthy day, really. 2 bars, but, otherwise pretty good mix of food. I'm ok with this. Trying to continue with the weight loss, I know it will be more challenging when i'm up longer hours & back at work.

Today included a good upper body weights routine. Glad I went to the gym tonight & not tomorrow. Now I can go anytime I like on Sunday, even first thing in the morning!  I also ended up walking to my eye doctor apt (didn't get new glasses in 2 years so I'm glad I went today). and the walk was 20 minutes round trip. Ankle is telling me to rest though, so that I can continue to do more, which I am. Little by little.

I just need to remind myself to take some days still for rest. Like tomorrow - I should probably NOT drive to the mall or Old Navy for jeans (because these activities require some walking and I may as well just relax at home tomorrow since Saturday i'm going to a nearby farm / farmer's market with my friend and that's walking too). I should probably stay home. I may drive to my parents house tomorrow night for dinner & sleep over - we will see about it more tomorrow based on how I feel.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 10/15/2015:
I'm glad you're getting so much good sleep in, I'm sure your body is just playing catch up. Hope you have a good one!

grannyannie on 10/15/2015:
Excellent sleep!

thinkpositive on 10/16/2015:
Glad to see that you are doing well!

ohioraven on 10/16/2015:
Have a relaxing day, HP.

Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Oct 14, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Morning :-D

8:30am or so breakfast: used my new Ninja blender (already used it 2x to make other things, it's great, so powerful!) Smoothie made with: 2% Fage yogurt 150, avocado 100, big banana 150, stevia, cinnamon, a little bit of kombucha (lol kombucha was not in the smoothie!, had it separate) 20: i'll just say 420. healthy.

11am Snack: Chocolate Collagen Protein Bar 230

Lunch:  decided to continue driving to Target after picking up my pants from being hemmed. Decided I wasn't that hungry for lunch...

2:30-3:30 Snacking while at Target: 2 jolly ranchers 50

4pm back at home: Turkey Jerky (Boars Head brand, so good!) 160...and avocado 100 on toast 100. around 350, good.

dinner: 550-600....all healthy. toast with some oil/vinegar 100, grilled chicken 150-200, chips 160, cooked veggies 150-200. around 600.

1650-1700. all healthy. balanced.

walking around store - 1hr at least, and PT including 18 minutes on elliptical :-D

I thought my skin would get better with all this time off, but actually, it has in some ways. But not the areas around my mouth & chin.  Overall, skin looks clearer and refreshed, yes. But still I have the same kinda acne. I guess it was a crazy time off, not fully relaxed the whole time & that could be why.

Also, I must admit it wasn't fully healthy without anything artificial. Either way, i'm enjoying this last week off right now..and still getting some things done that need to be taken care of...

I am trying to get a referral to a closer therapy place that has late hours. Because it's not going to work, where i'm going now, to go once i'm working again...it's too difficult in terms of driving there under pressure and them closing so early without evening hours.

Edit: tried looking up places, for around 1hr, this morning for therapy. Came up with nothing. And the few places I did find, don't accept my insurance, which is weird - because I have a Magnacare which is used by many.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 10/14/2015:
Be very careful washing the blades on the Ninja, I learned the hard way just how sharp they are! Nice to hear you're enjoying your last week off, and good idea with finding a closer therapy place.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/14/2015:
having trouble finding one, so I may have to settle for a little, needing to leave work early, which is not great...but seems I have no other option right now, as I've looked into it & had no luck!

grannyannie on 10/14/2015:
Smoothy sounds good! Have a great day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/14/2015:
Smoothie was really satisfying, filling, and nice probiotic boost from the yogurt! :-D

thinkpositive on 10/14/2015:
Too bad you can't find a therapist who is closer. Love smoothies!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/14/2015:

puddles on 10/14/2015:
You seem to be getting back into your routine at home and getting yourself healthy to go back to work.

biscottibody59 on 10/14/2015:
Enjoy your day!

Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Oct 13, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Good Morning!

Exercise: will be a full weights workout at gym. I also went for a half hour walk in the neighborhood which was nice because the weather was sunny and 70 degrees.

Most of the day, I just relaxed on the web. Ate some food.  Read my book. Easy day over here. Glad I went out for a walk. Still having a hard time with getting a mindset that my legs are fine...so that's why the walk was a half hour and nothing more...tomorrow i'll probably drive to pick up my pants that were hemmed last week at the store. Maybe i'll also stop by the mall tomorrow to look at the jeans at Old Navy. If they are on sale, since I haven't bought jeans in a couple years or so, i'd buy a couple pairs, or at least one pair.

Everyday I am weighing 120lbs in the morning. Good. I am happy I guess with just working to maintain it. In order for me to lose, I would have to either walk much more or diet more. Both seem a bit too rigid right now. So, I guess I'll stick with maintaining. Maybe later on I can diet more / exercise more...closer to the wedding in April. I don't want to push myself anymore right now.  Happy where I am at for now.  Maybe I'll change my mind, but, just looking to enjoy my last week off work for the time being!  Even losing 1lb per month or a little less would help me get to 115lbs by April.  We'll see...


Once again, I got good sleep last night. Probably went to bed around 10pm.  I did wake up once sorta before panic (no idea what time it was...) but I let myself relax back to sleep. Then, 4:45am I woke again and decided to eat breakfast around 5am. Luckily, I fell back to sleep from 6am-8am! Anyways, good sleep in terms of hours!

5am Early Breakfast: grapes 130 or so, fiber one 120 with some dried fruit 80 and milk 100 or so: around 450-500 is my guess..

8:30am snack: chocolate collagen protein bar 230

11:00am: wheat crackers 50

total: around 750 so far, good. 11:40am- leftover cooked squash in a very light tomato sauce 100? 850. Noon: finally lunch! Grilled chicken on buttered toast 300? And sweet potato chips 150. 450.

2:30 fruit: plum and grapes, could be more than 100 cal.

4:30pm snack before weights at gym: toast with peanut butter and a small banana, glass of unsweetened almond milk 350.

total: 1750, good...

After gym: decided to behave myself...almost reached for more, but thankfully I am really learning how to quit while I am ahead! One of those Quest Pumpkin Pie bars (they are nasty, but I bought a 12 pack) and a mix of milk / unsweetened almond milk. total is 300 calories.

2050 calories, exceptional, really.

Planning to eat better tomorrow..as in lower calories. Maybe by keeping a busier schedule, slightly.

Plans for tomorrow: Drive to Long Island (still very close to me though) and pick up pants that were hemmed. I want to also go to the mall, but maybe i'll do it another day. not sure. Also tomorrow I do have a PT session planned, but I may cancel depending how I feel (they don't care about cancellations - I am not sure I want to see the physical therapist or go to therapy tomorrow).


Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

puddles on 10/13/2015:
Good sleep again have a great day.

Umpqua on 10/13/2015:
I had a good night of sleep as well. The colder temps and longer dark hours definitely help with that. I hope today is another good one for you!

thinkpositive on 10/13/2015:
Good that you can get back to sleep.

biscottibody59 on 10/13/2015:
Glad you had a good time at your night out!

Keep up the good work!

Horn_of_plenty - Monday Oct 12, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Morning :-D

Slept in till past 8 and went to bed probably around 10:30....felt great!

9am Breakfast: big orange 120?, pancake made with: egg whites 60, banana 120, avocado 100, some kale 10, stevia, cinnamon, spray 20, sf jelly 20: 330. Total 450, good. was starting to crave other things (peanut butter) after the pancake, but trying to just let it settle as it was very big and relax! and a sour apple Charms lollipop. 60.

Lunch at noon: toast with butter, sardines, milk. 450.

Snacking: pretzels, later an iced coffee. 150

Healthy (but big) dinner: salad with grilled Portobello mushrooms 100?, grilled chicken 250?, a hard roll with raisins in it 200?, and some of friend's fries 150?, oh, and some sautéed squash 100 at most...800 at most i'd say.

1900. Actually, more like 2000-2050 Bc I forgot I had some of the outside of my friend's wrap.. decent. wanted less though. is ok. 30 minute walk. rest of the day was pretty relaxed.

Movie was decent, but long. 2.5hrs. so we actually both had to go to the bathroom during it, but it seemed that's what many people were doing! haha. after that, I got a coffee and she got frozen yogurt. we took a half hour or so walk at the park nearby. and then we had an early dinner at the diner. everything ran really smoothly, actually!


Friend is coming over today & we are going to a movie around 1pm. She'll have lunch here.  We decided on the early movie because then we can also have an early dinner as she does have work tomorrow and will need to drive home (she lives around 45min away & over a bridge).

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 10/12/2015:
It sounds like you had a wonderful belated birthday celebration over the weekend. It's always nice to get friends and family from far and wide together in one place! I hope you have a nice outing with your friend today!

grannyannie on 10/12/2015:
Nice to have a good long sleep. You'll be hitting your goal very soon. :)

puddles on 10/12/2015:
Happy belated birthday. Wow wonderful sleep - that is so healthy to have a good night of sleep. Have a great day.

thinkpositive on 10/12/2015:
It all sounds good! Good sleep, busy with friends. Happy belated Birthday!

Maria7 on 10/12/2015:
Happy birthday! :-D

ohioraven on 10/13/2015:

Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Oct 11, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Happy Sunday! Went to bed around 2:30am and woke prob around 7:30am which is fine. Had a nice time out with good friends. My best friend who usually doesn't enjoy groups came out with the rest of us which was really nice of her! And then my sister who I rarely get together with outside family get togethers came also and it worked out perfectly.

We all had a great time and I got home at 1am which is not too bad considering it seems that lately my commute to the city (NYC) from queens really takes around 1.5hrs depending where I am going! I am talking door to door and that's with using a taxi to subway instead of bus. It's weird that is takes this long, but it does for me. Reason is I don't live right by the subway and local trains have a ton of stops.

I had 28 stops on the subway coming home! And then instead of waiting around 20 min for a bus, I decided a taxi would be better to take me to my door and be done with the night - and a good choice that was!

Little beat for the gym. unsure if I will go today. maybe if I can fit in a nap?

9:30am - 11:30am - fruit (small orange 50 and grapes 100). Later kombucha...100.  250, good. all sugar, but all good, some sweet potato kettle chips. 100 at most.

350, good.

Doing laundry this AM. And relaxing a bit.

Now 11:30am - Gonna do a page of coloring I think in a coloring book advertised for relaxation for adults that I bought on Amazon.

12pm: small bar for a snack, will have a nutritious meal later 150.

1pm: 2 fried eggs around 200, toast with butter 200, chips 100. filling.

3:30pm: green tea around 2:30 followed by large banana & large plum 200 - feeling rather tired and grabbing good carbs before gym.

After gym small amount of frozen yogurt 100 before trip to the supermarket.

7pm dinner: a yellow pepper, an orange pepper 100...lots of cooked veggies in a little sauce 150, avocado 100, and turkey jerky 150...500, more than I planned, but good & pretty healthy.

total: 1800, decent.


Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/11/2015:
Glad you had such a nice evening!

Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Oct 10, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Good Morning Ladies and our fave Gentleman OR!

8am-8:30am Breakfast: Pineapple and half a banana 160 and then kombucha 60 (calories TBD depending how much I drink...) I really like this routine of fruit in the AM. total 220...

10am / 11am Snacking: sweet potato chips 100, bar (really don't know what else to choose for only 130 calories...not in mood for yogurt...) total 230.

total so far 450, good. planning on a lighter lunch maybe  salad, egg, toast? before going to the city...

Lunch: toast with butter 150, 1 fried egg 100, salad with dressing 100 350.

5:30pm some chips at friend's house 100

7:00pm / 8:00pm out to dinner: beer 250?, some appetizers 150 at most, salad with grilled shrimp and some dressing: 400 at most 800.

12:45pm: snack of a protein bar 200

total: 1900-2000. EXCELLENT. exercise: some walking in city (but not too much!)

Finally! It's the 10th! Around 2 weeks ago, I made plans with a few friends to get together tonight for my bday in NYC at South Street Seaport. Finally, the day has arrived & best of all, I am really beginning to feel like myself again. I am pretty much there.  I'm meeting my best friend at Penn Station (she's coming from Westchester) and then we'll take the subway together to my friend's apartment nearby the seaport. We'll get to my friend around 4pm and hang out there awhile. I've been there a few times before and it's always enjoyable. After that, I made reservations for 6:30pm to a restaurant at the seaport called Cowgirl Sea-Horse.

I chose the restaurant for 3 reasons: 

1. When I googled good restaurants at the seaport, the Seahorse was on the list.

2.  Menu has a nice variety that everyone will like.

3. The name of the restaurant is very cool, I have seahorse jokes with my best friend & they seem to bring me good luck

Guy I like didn't show up...friends told me it's time I move on...so...moving on because they are very right. I will still go to him for PT bc it's really my fault that I kept the texting going and anything that happened outside of work was my doing (texting). so, it's done, i'm moving forward. hoping to find a new male interest. lately I have none...maybe i'll get together with a guy friend of mine this week, while i'm off, why not. might as well make use of the time off and fully enjoy it...this is a week to enjoy now. finally, i'm able to enjoy a week off!

(guy I like owns seahorses at his apt...same guy that's meeting us after the restaurant for dinks, hopefully...)

After the restaurant, around 8:30-9 we'll get to the bar, called Trading Post, also at the Seaport.  Luckily, I asked the doctor yesterday if I can drink on the medicine, and he said that 1-2 drinks is fine which is GREAT! It makes me feel better knowing I can enjoy a couple drinks. Now i'm far less anxious about that & bad reactions. 

My crush (my PT) is supposedly coming out to meet my friends here, but lately he is being hot & cold about it.  He said that if his friend can't make it, then he would have to meet me another time. I think he's also not completely comfortable meeting up, I can tell he wouldn't want to come to the city alone just for drinks.  He seems to like being in groups more than dating, in general, probably with anyone?

Or maybe it's that fact he's not interested in dating. We always flirt and get along great when I go to PT, but that's a different story compared with him actually coming out to the city to hang out...It's annoying that I don't know if he's coming yet, but I can't really be so angry with him at all about it. In fact, I can't blame him at all.  I'm his client still and it's me that initiates texting him. I can't force him to come out if that's not what he wants to do..

Do any of you have any advice regarding this guy? His actions? I actually planned this night because of him first off!  He asked what I was doing for my bday...and that he would like to come out for it...but now he's taking back his word a little bit.  I can't blame him though, I really can't.


Doctor said i'll be on probably this dose of anti-anxiety medicine (i am not sure he'll raise the dose after 6 weeks because that's how long it takes to fully be in a person's system) for around one full year.

I'm taking off this coming week, last week i'll be off before going back to work for good!, and it will allow me to really get back into the swing of things & gradually.  This is good, because I will take advantage of the week. I plan to buy one new pair of jeans, possibly, at Old Navy.  Last time I bought jeans was awhile ago, maybe around 2 years ago.  Also, when I bought the workout pants at Athleta this past Thursday, they needed to be hemmed. So, I do have to go back there to pick them up during this coming week.  I am sure after this week, I'll be HAPPY to go back to work.  I will not be paid for this week (or last Thursday / Friday) but it's worth being off and doing things at my pace. I will work on enjoying driving and just getting back into everything.





Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 10/10/2015:
Happy birthday! Have fun.

hollybelle on 10/11/2015:
Glad you are feeling better and planning to go back to work after this week. Good for you. Also - probably good to "let it go" with the thing about PT guy. I am one who believes that if it's meant to be - it will be. If not - well, there are other seahorses in the sea, so to speak! Hope you had a wonderful time with friends!

Horn_of_plenty - Friday Oct 09, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Good Morning!

Weight is still around 120, not more, this AM with my new scale! So happy I have one now in my apartment.  No more guessing and easier to try to get to my goal weight 115.  Honestly, I give myself as much time as I need in order to get to the goal.  I am not in any rush.  More concerned with maintenance right now and keeping calories as they are.  I am pleased in general about everything weight-related and just can't push it.


9am Breakfast: strawberries and pineapple 100. toast 100 with peanut butter 100 and 2% Greek yogurt 150, cinnamon & splenda: 450. ..oh, and forgot, half a banana 60. 510.

1:30pm lunch: 2 fried  eggs 150, cooked veggies with some sauce 200?, toast with butter 200

1060, good.

6:45pm: sorta big plum 90.

1150...probably will reach for a small snack for dinner, like a bar. not in the mood for any vegetables or anything else. it's already 7pm anyways and my calories are so low. Breakfast was healthy and so was lunch, very healthy. So, I think i'll enjoy a low cal day today...

Dinner: ? 350 cal. one chocolate collagen bar 230 as well as another small bar 120.yep - slightly higher calories than just having one bar, but satisfied now for the night.

total: 1500. good. and exercise was full weights routine, good.


Around 10am: off to gym for upper body weights, back & abs routine this morning.

Later today I have the psych and therapist appt at 3:30.

Below is a pic of me early September, my last workout before turning 33 :-D  I was feeling really happy that night, and full of endorphins!...the other pic, of me flexing my arm, is a few days later, when I was beginning to feel very sick but still went to the gym.  I was already very anxious at that point, but glad I am on the mend now.



Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

ohioraven on 10/09/2015:
Have a Great day, HP.

grannyannie on 10/09/2015:
Well done! Looking good!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/09/2015:
thanks, feels great to be feeling better with each day!

thinkpositive on 10/09/2015:
Glad to read that you are home & doing well.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/09/2015:
thank you so much!!!

ohioraven on 10/09/2015:
Wow ! You're a good lookin' tough girl.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/09/2015:
thank you so for the compliments OR!

Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Oct 08, 2015
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 119.0

Today I got more things in the mail that I ordered from Sears with my bday gift certificates.  I got the Ninja blender which I will definitely use in the next week sometime. No rush though...lol I have it forever right!?...and I also got my scale in the mail. Nice. Now, I'll know what I weigh whenever I want!  I should have gotten it a long time ago.  I plan to only use it in the morning, not every morning either.


Good morning! When waking up today, I laid in my bed a bit taking my time to get up - sorta been doing this a lot since I have been off from work.

8:30am Breakfast: lately just want fruit when getting up because it's filling and lower calorie. Fruit and some kombucha 150.

10:30am snack: KIND bar with protein 10g and a medium banana 350.

1:15pm lunch: 2 fried eggs 160, toast 120, with butter 50, salad with a little dressing 120 - total 450 and healthy.

950, excellent. will probably skip gym tonight, still not positive. first gonna go to mall and spend my Athleta gift cards...wow! glad I looked up the location. it wasn't at the mall & thankfully I looked that up before I drove there. I was still nervous on highway, but  got it much more under control, I've got this! it feels good to start freeing myself!

5pm: iced coffee 50 and then a large plum 50

no gym tonight. and dinner will be healthy. probably dark meat chicken maybe with skin and veggies...dinner ended up being a little extra chicken, skin, and some sweet potato chips, along with some veggies and a little sauce, a little bigger than planned, but healthy.

around 1650-1700 calories, good. and did take a 30 minute walk while talking to my best friend on the phone this evening.  gym will be tomorrow in the morning probably at 10am.


Yesterday I got way more done than expected, almost every errand was on the same street except for the food store:

1. Went to Rite Aid and everything I bought was discounted including face lotion, fabric softener, and face wash.

2. Oil change Bc I saw there was no wait

3. Bought new inside cabin lights for my car so I can see in the dark when parking at night and in my garage. Happy about this!

4. Had to go somewhere else to install lights and ended up paying a bit more than necessary but in my head I decided it was worth it because it's something that I have wanted to fix for several months now :)

5. Stopped by a specialty supermarket close to where I live and bought some cooked Asian veggies and was glad to find they still had a good selection at 6pm (sometimes nothing is left at that time!)


Today my plans are still up in the air. Usually I would go to the gym on a Thursday night but I am debating going Friday morning instead because Tuesday I got to the gym so late and I like to wait at least 48hrs in between upper body workouts.. I will probably end up going tonight anyways, around 5pm.

So far I did a small load of laundry and cleaned out the bottom of one of my closets. I actually found some old exercise pants which is nice because for the past year or so I have been alternating between 2 pairs and was nervous if something happened to one of them lol. Now, buying new pants is far less urgent. When I get the chance, I will still spend my Athletica gift certificates, maybe today, if I can bring myself to drive to the mall which I might. It involves a highway but it's a short drive. We will see..


I also looked into restaurants and bars for my "belated bday celebration" as it was really a month ago but i'm celebrating with friends this coming Saturday in NYC at South Street Seaport bc 2 of my friends live over there.  My crush is possibly coming (my phys therapist!).  and if he does come, I hope that the night goes smoothly and that everyone has a good time.  This would be my first time ever hanging out with him (although we do text and stay in touch that way each week - so i'm saying we do communicate but nothing like actually getting together). he'd meet some of my friends. I hope it works out. 

We will probably go to a restaurant called the Cowgirl Seahorse because I think it has a great name and my best friend and I have some running seahorse jokes lol. and then still deciding on the bar. was thinking a wine bar, but it's limiting in selection to obviously only wine, so looking into some other ones and getting feedback from my friends who live out there..

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!

Umpqua on 10/08/2015:
Your plans sound great! I can only recommend one place we went to with the boys a few years ago that had decent food (it was a large pub so I'm sure a good beer/cocktail selection too). Just looked it up - The Dubliner, but it only gets 3 stars on Yelp so you can probably do a lot better.

I know it's far away from where you'll be, but one of my fave restaurants in NYC is Queen of Sheeba on Hell's Kitchen. Traditional Ethiopian food and it has had consistently good quality for years! In case you're ever in the area :) Anyway, I hope you have a wonderful time out!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 10/08/2015:
yes, on another occasion I should def check out your favorite restaurant! :-)

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