been busy.
sorta good sorta so-so guy drama too.
decent healthy eats.
1150 cals before end of workday.
1400 before gym and caffeine.
after gym 200
1600 total = excellent.
excellent workout as well.
4day total = 1750 per day. excellent.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Overall, it was a very good day :-)
1350 cal after a bigger lunch - I was tired from it lol...
dinner: also bigger: tons of brussel sprouts at least 150 cal, some white meat chicken with curry flavors but not really any sauce 150 , some leftover full of sauce Sri Lankan leftovers from Saturday veggies only 150, and some chips as carbs / fat 150: prob not more than 600.
total: 1950 - excellent.
3 day total - 1800/day = very good.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Cheers!
Best of all, after last night, I have no doubt I will be a great NYPD officer when my time comes. I have NO DOUBTS! :-) talk more about it later.
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Morning :)
Dress shopping today with mom for my sister's wedding. Everyone has a dress already except me...so I am catching up! :)
4am woke up hungry and little anxious so had some carbs (chips) 180
9:30am: kombucha again with stevia because the flavor was not a sweet one 70
10:45am: healthy oatmeal 120 with egg whites 60, banana 120, and caramel whipped peanut butter 100, also stevia for taste. total here: 400 cal.
total so far: 650, very good.
1pm tasty, larger lunch: dark meat chicken 250, white rice 150, lots of veggies (some in sauce) 150, 150 - total 700 - good, healthy.
total so far: 1350 - good.
5pm snack before gym 150
After gym: protein bar and aminos 200
Total 1700! Nice!
2-day average is excellent - 1725 per day.
today is busy but at least i'll find a dress and be done with that which is very stress relieving actually!
Plans:
1. already finishing up laundry at 11am.
2. maybe buy a coffee...then DEFINITELY Go out to Rite Aid and buy some detergent, toilet paper, tissues, maybe fabric softener if it's on sale, bottled waters for work / gym you know, I might as well save my $$$, and just buy what I really need right now - little bit of detergent and tissues.
3. maybe stop and get some food for the week (fruit, some veggies) I can buy meat later on tonight for after the gym...?
4. drive to long island and meet my mom at 2:30 at the dress shop
5. snack & gym (4-5??) get there sometime after I find a dress...
6. pick up a chicken maybe - probably wait for Monday on this...
7. was gonna do nails but I may cut them off myself...
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Happy Saturday!
Food:
11am: kombucha mixed with seltzer and added some stevia bc it wasn't a sweet type of kombucha. 70.
Noon: Huge pancake with sugar free jelly 50, ingredients: 1 small banana 120, 1 cup egg whites 130, 1/2 small avocado 150, stevia, cinnamon: 450 needing more "whole foods, fats, good carbs."
total so far today: 520 -
Snack coffee drinks 130
3:45 Snack bar and candy: 200
Dinner at 7 - not more than prob 750 cal and later at 11pm before bed a protein bar 150 900 total
1750 - EXCELLENT.
trying to save calories for dinner tonight in city - but when I order, I don't care if people think i'm weird - I plan to order their seasoned veggies (whatever they have on menu) and shrimp...but...maybe i'll opt for a healthier fish or something - gonna look at menu again now!
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This whole weekend so far, I am feeling the challenge of the New Year. In a good way. I realize I am very in control of my future (as well as now). But my point is that I know I have the power to be happy now & make decisions now & that all my feelings / actions now will fully affect my future. I know this doesn't make a lot of sense because it's sort of ambiguous, but it makes sense to me.
I have my goal to join the NYPD. And it's up to me to realize it for myself. I need to be proactive in my feelings and actions. I need to have faith and confidence in myself. That's what will get me there in this new year! Oh, just to mention, I do still have at least 1 more year till joining.
But, it will happen either January 2017 or July 2017. And this is the year that I am fully making that 180 degree change and getting myself there! Without a strong 2016, my desires for 2017 can't happen. It's NOW OR NEVER. And I choose now to be happy and move forward with my life!
Tonight I'm going out to dinner in NYC. I may also go to the Museum of the American Gangster if I can get my butt into the city a little earlier :-) I have yet to decide if I'll stop by the museum. It would be nice, mind opening experience & there is a guided tour. I would go by myself and then meet my friends for dinner later. We are meeting for Sri Lankan food! So cool! This is my big event for the New Year's long weekend and i'm happy about it.
This is the restaurant i'm eating at:
This weekend may have been more relaxed, but it was also definitely ENOUGH for me. With a two big, hardcore gym days and a nice afternoon / evening in city, I'm happy. As an adult, I have learned in the past few years that you have to pick & choose what's most important to you. I've learned that life is a give & take (not fully all games!). haha. And to be happy with my own choices - which I am this weekend!
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Tomorrow: i'll buy a little more food for the weekend, some bottled water for work, also need a couple boxes of tissues, little bit of laundry that I didn't do yesterday & gym.
CHANGE OF PLANS - my mom decided we should go dress shopping this weekend instead of next and because she is buying my dress I am going with her despite her asking me today and that not being on my schedule for tomorrow. It bothers me that she asked me last minute for Sunday Bc we originally had made plans to go NEXT weekend and that would have been my big plans for the weekend. I was honestly looking forward to a more laid back day tomorrow - not a lot of running Around. But oh well, she's buying my dress so I have to go. But I also have to worry about my rest and health. In many ways, it would have been better for me to totally say I wouldn't be around fr tomorrow. My mom doesn't understand my desire to stick with the plan.and the plan was to go NEXT weekend as this is what I discussed with my mom LAST WEEKEND. What she did was wrong to make me go tomorrow. I should have stick with saying no. Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
haha...in general I do get anxious though, glad someone here relates...
same thing with plans. I like to be in control - same as you it seems - I did feel better once I was actually trying on the dresses - you were right.
1840-7day average. Very decent.
Happy New Year :-)
Today's some laundry & gym. (I don't think I need to do any food shopping until Sunday except for some Kombucha that i'll pick up after the gym....trying to also save money this weekend and not throw out any of the food that I have in my fridge already !)
Also - Filling out some online paperwork stuff...Probably talking on the phone with my best friend also but will get off if she starts getting me anxious lol. just being honest.
Anyways, already getting things done today. :-)
Early Kombucha 100.
Breakfast: peanut butter 200 on brown rice cakes 60, small banana 120, sf jelly 10, little bit kabocha squash 30...energy drink
before gym: decaf coffee and a chocolate 130
After gym: bean chips 210 around 2:15pm
3pm: more chips 270, aminos 30, protein bar 170. total here around 470
3:30pm salad 150, popcorn 80 230
5:30 more chips yes really! 160 1720.
6:30pm cereal and almond milk 220
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8pm: bar 210, small banana 120, peanut butter 100. blech. total here: 430
total today: 2370 - fine. indulged for the new year, I guess!
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Welcome to all the new folks these past couple days! I knew the site would start blossoming again soon after Christmas! Glad to have some new folks with us as well as our veterans! I am a veteran here lol. I can never thank the folks here enough.
When I was at my absolute worst and sick this past late September-Mid October, the folks here had some incredible advice and support to give me. This is a special site. I do hope that it will always be around.
Two other sites I've belonged to have ceased to exist during this year. One of them was Answerology. You could go there, ask any question in the world just about, and people would answer it! You could do polls or surveys or just ask for advice by asking a question! Sometimes, I could get 20 answers for each question! Long answers, short answers, you name it! it was great. But the site got bought out this year by a magazine company and now Answerology doesn't exist anymore. Too bad. And then I joined ANSWERBAG. well, I guess someone's buying all those questions & answers. I hardly used answerbag, just switched to it when Answerology closed down. Hopefully, i'll find a site like those one day as this is a DIET site / life site. Answerology was good for getting a thousand answers all at once lol. Oh, but I didn't develop any close relationships there since it's not that sort of site.
The only site that I've actually felt closer to folks is here. Because we are literally making diaries about our diet & lives.
Calories before afternoon snack 650 Afternoon snack: 2 cups squash kabucha 150... 800....3pm now doing errands after work..work was stressful talk about it later.
4:30pm-6pm food: lots of sautéed onions 150? with lots of cabbage and bok choy 100, some nuts 100, popcorn 80, chips 100, other chips 280, Quest protein bar (feeling really lazy, really tired, but wanted the protein - no good, I know, I've been eating too many bars each day bc of convenience, i'll do better this weekend bc i'm home mostly myself throughout it besides Saturday night. I planned some alone time on purpose because it's what I wanted!) 810..and the bar 1000. trying to think if I forgot anything else? doubt it.
total here: 1800 = quite fine!
on the way home from work: 2 errands - oil change / car inspection & cleaners.
After doing those things, I decided I was wiped out and headed home. got home 4:30 and I was really feeling very tired. so happy to be home and be able to relax. gym tomorrow, but then more relaxing. Saturday night will be entertaining in city. and sunday - more relaxing & gym.
It's a slower but still eventful weekend to ring in the New Year. And more importantly, it's what I want to be doing!
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
1740 5-day average :-D Good. Tomorrow will be another "rest day" from gym. Looking forward to a nice workout on Friday around 11:30am & then again on Sunday in the afternoon. This weekend i'm getting in two really good workouts! That's the plan :-D And Saturday a nice dinner in NYC!
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1250 at work.
450 calories thru morning
Big work party lunch: one large meatball, couple slices roasted turkey, sautéed broccoli w. garlic, took some mushrooms in sauce off of whatever meat it was on lol, little bites of ziti, little bites of pasta salad, regular salad, and maybe a few more noodles. Overall, not too bad. Can't be more than 800 calories.
It was a nice day at work. We had a lunch party! So I ate my food with coworkers and had a happier day for sure.
Once again, my very sick Chinese coworker went home sick. He makes me sick that he's so stubborn not to go to the dr ever and i'm glad he went home. Because he was seriously choking on his phlegm! Disgusting! He let himself get very sick over a period of over 2 months by not going to the dr sooner. He finally did go to the dr yesterday, but obviously he needs to heal & recover a bit now.
Snack on way home grapes and celery. 100 or so.
BIG dinner: lots of roasted brussel sprouts with very small amount of bacon pieces 150-200?, some roasted squash 150?, got lazy and still didn't cook the egg...maybe i'll bring an egg tomorrow. but I did have good protein at lunch (I keep forgetting it was at least a natural lunch, even if higher-calorie) so a had a chocolate brownie quest bar 200. and seltzer with added stevia. bed early for sure. 550-600, good.
total today: around 1950-2000 at most (very good!)
Exercise: 1 mi walk at 6pm after work! Go me! Proud of myself to get moving. I was sitting most of the day, so this was a healthy thing to do. And I didn't overdo. Just enough!
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
4-day calorie total: 1675 per day.
9pm Tuesday evening edit:
Weight this morning was pretty much 118. So that's what i'm gonna put down. I don't have a digital / battery scale but the old-school mechanical one :-) I like it that way!
Calories thru morning 450 semi-healthy (had a bar)
Calories at lunch: 400 and all healthy
Calories in after-work snack to gear up for gym: strawberries 100, bar 150, Monster sugar free energy drink total here 250
Calories after workout: Amino acids in my water for recovery purposes 30, bar 170 total here 200
1300 total.
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I am not really craving any food right now despite the lower calories. I am not in the mood for eating. My boss told me some private things about someone else's (another manager in my company) extra source of income and it riled me up so badly. He rents out an apt he used to live in in NYC for $30,000 a month annually. That's an income of $360,000 EVERY YEAR. I didn't really need to know that. It makes me think the guy is smart to do instead of sell, yes, but...it makes me angrier about my own situation.
My salary is approx. a little over $40,000 / year. I live in Queens, NY. It's not a lot of money to make to live where I live. And not a lot of money to make to save for my future. I don't save any money right now. When I was working STEADY overtime, i'd bring up to $60,000 a year home. It's a big pay cut without the STEADY overtime. And another stressor for me. I don't need to hear about someone else's GOOD fortune. Of course i'm a little jealous of his ability to do such a thing, but, also....instead of spending too much time being jealous....
....it feeds the already burning fire underneath my a$$ to change my own situation, on my own, for the better. To do what I NEED TO DO and not worry about anyone else. TO TAKE CARE OF ME.
So I've been saving 2% of my paycheck these days (several months - probably around 9 months of no overtime or very little OT). Previously, at the higher salary, I was saving 14% of my paycheck before taxes. It's a constant small stressor to think about.
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Noon edit:
I retraced my steps including looking where I parked on my errand before work yesterday morning and still couldn't find my 2 keys. So I went to the housing office before work & asked them to replace the garage cylinder & give me new keys. I bet anything that my old key is still on the floor inside my garage. I'll find out when I get home. I do hope to find my old key because my parent's house key was also attached to the key ring.
Either way, housing is placing my new key under my door mat so that means i'll be able to have the new garage key tonight & have a nice spot for my car - instead of searching and searching for street parking. yes, this was annoying - but no it wasn't the worst problem to deal with for sure. Lucky it wasn't all my house-keys (and I have 3 separate doors I need to enter for that - it would have totaled well over $100) to replace the garage door cyclinder and key - only $20 :-) could have been much worse.
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Morning Entry:
Gotta find two keys I lost yesterday before going to work today (I may be late to work if I have to get a key from housing for my garage).
I lost the two keys that are on a separate ring on my key chain sometime between leaving my garage in the morning, doing one errand before work, and having car valet parked at work. Of course, this morning, i'll be backtracking.
I would have backtracked last night, but, I noticed the lost garage key when I went to open my garage and realized it wasn't happening! It was more important to me to park my car as street parking is limited. So I parked & planned to backtrack this AM. If I don't find the key, i'll definitely get one from housing before heading to work. It'll be good to have an extra even if my keys do turn up.
The other key was to my parents house and I always LOVED having it. I could visit them as well as come and go as I pleased even if they werent' home...especially taking walks when I'd visit my house. Oh well...hopefully it'll turn up but not a big deal!
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Anyways, THANK YOU for writing the book. I appreciate all your thoughts and the story about your grandfather. My grandfather always saved too - he would have been the ripe old age of 105 this year. His wife, my grandmother, is still alive although she's sick. She's 94. It seems the two of them always gave the best advice - especially about saving. The world was definitely NOT as materialistic back then.
I love this site for being able to share views and get our minds on & off the food. It's good friends here! ;)
2200 cal, 15 min walk at lunch....bed early tonight is what's on my mind. :)
Later, I need to type about the things going down over here....I need advice badly. this time, it's not about anything I did wrong. I just need some advice & badly.
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All that ever happens lately when I get together with my best friend is TENSION for me. I’m talking about my best friend, female, that I like to think of as a sister. Except lately, it sucks and is only fighting – especially at the close of the evening. I CANNOT take it ANYMORE. I seriously cannot take it. My patience with her is DONE. I have no patience for arguments, for ruining my night or day at the end to end it with a lasting negative memory for the final moments or moments towards the end. I cannot take it ANYMORE and I really don’t know what to do.
We still text and I am missing him so badly tonight. my heart is breaking over him :/
Weight steady at just below 120, good.
2-day weekend total: is very good -
9am-1pm? Breakfast & snacks throughout morning: lil bit of kombucha 30 at most, amino acids (supplement for muscle recovery) 30, Protein Pancake yay (1 cup egg whites 120, 1 medium banana 120, stevia, 1/2 avocado 160 - 400 total - big eaten not at once), sugar free jelly like 4 tablespoons overall 40, also a quest bar double chocolate during morning 180. I'm glad I at least made the pancake which is packed with health thankfully. Been eating too much crap but doing a bit better today. In general, I feel I wasn't eating enough protein or fat this past week.
afternoon snacks: brussel sprouts in olive oil 100, granola bar 150, piece candy 50, decaf coffee 50
Light dinner at Boston Market: veggies & big pieces of turkey (tasty meat - they're chicken / meat tastes great despite my mom always saying such negative stuff about the place!) not more than 550 I don't think?
total: around 1600, most. I am trying to cut myself off for the night, but antsy...but realizing i'm not hungry, just being VERY emotional and realizing it VERY much right now....and realizing i'm tired more than anything else.
Also this morning: I quickly cooked a spaghetti squash in the microwave, one half at a time. Then forked out the squash - so I can bring it to work this week or have it after work.
I also microwaved Kabucha squash. Not sure if i'm spelling it right. I kept the skin on - it's edible. And I need to look up the nutrition - I bought a large piece in plastic wrap already cut from a whole squash at the supermarket.
Glad I prepared these two items because I had the Kabucha in my fridge for 2 weeks I think....and the spaghetti squash for around 2 months sitting on my table! Now I have a plenty of food for the week. No more food shopping necessary and a thousand healthy choices. I have so many cooked veggies - the fridge is stocked! TONS of brussel sprouts, roasted veggies, squash, lettuce (although lately I buy & throw away, sadly!), still strawberries that are lasting forever, mini peppers that are lasting forever, grapes lasting forever...so much tasty food!
I am trying to eat more healthfully this week - trying for more dinners at home - and less protein bars for dinner in the evening. Feeling slightly under the weather / run-down.
Also planning on less gym during the work week. Planning to probably just go only Tuesday after work. Then rest till probably Friday & go also Sunday. I've been pushing myself hard to go out with friends / family & go to gym & I'm trying to keep some balance so I don't go sick or crazy! lol.
Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
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