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Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Feb 09, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

Wednesday Morning Edit:

My life mantra is this: "You can accomplish anything you desire as long as you desire it strongly enough."  I will never change my opinion or beliefs regarding that statement. Trust yourself, put faith in yourself, and you will achieve your dreams.

(Still sick with mostly dry cough but getting better...working out so I may be slower my progress with the cold but I've only been sick for 1 week. Seems to take me usually around 2 weeks to get over things)


Terrific Tuesday !

6am: Kombucha 70
8am-10am: coffee with milk 60
10am: Oatmeal mix with almond milk, banana, peanut butter: 400
Total before lunch:  530 cal.
Lunch: half small avocado 150, cooked greens 100 at least, tempeh mix with tomato / tomato sauce (mock meat sauce for pasta that I bought last week and will not eat after today since I’m nervous to get myself sick off it, but it was good…) 200. Total here:  450-500 depending.
Total before end of workday: 1030 ! very good.
This week I am sticking with my goals very nicely. Feeling happy with myself. I am “adulting” well  (acting maturely & managing my weight loss goals well)…

Y Before gym: around 300 with caffeine big apple and small granola bar After gym: carb filled protein cookie 360 1690 at most. Quite excellent. Going to make this week a strong one with calories in gym. I am already over halfway there. Wednesday is day #5 of my average. Wow. Did good. 1592 4-day average. Very very good.

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

OhioRaven on 02/09/2016:
Don't get all "Adult" on us too fast. Believe me. I've been there. Its No Fun. Have a great day, HP.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/10/2016:
Yes, you're right OR.

grannyannie on 02/09/2016:
Well done, but I agree with OR. Being a grownup isn't all it's cracked up to be.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/10/2016:
So right he is !!

Horn_of_plenty - Monday Feb 08, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

Tuesday Morning Edit:

Lately, i'm taking sleeping pills on the regular. I'm taking the strong ones (Sleepinal) relatively early in the night so that I don't wake up drowsy. It's working very well. I'm getting more sleep. I'm going to probably continue this process for most of this week maybe. It's helping me feel better. I take the pill as early as 7:30pm or latest 8pm. I get tired now later on, like an hour or so later. And it helps me sleep in till after 5am. It's more sleep, needed sleep. I am feeling good this morning because of the good sleep. 


4:10pm on Mindfull Monday
Hi Everyone. Today is a good day back at work. My boss has been so very understanding. I am so lucky on this account that he likes me around so much! He gave me steady work & the time passed very quickly today.
Healthy eating today so far until the end of the workday:
6am: Kombucha 70
8am-10:00am: coffee 50
10am: oatmeal made with nuts and peanut butter and a banana 400
1:10pm Lunch: cooked kale 100 a sorta old mix of tempeh and tomato sauce / tomato that I bought last weekend that I will throw out after tomorrow lol 200 , and ½ avocado 160 460.
5pm: On drive home: orange 100

6:30pm: Dinner: first some Cooked veggies 100, then a protein pancake made with lil bit squash 40, oats 40, chocolate protein powder 90, 1 egg and 1 egg white 100, stevia, peanut butter and jelly on top 100 470. Total 1570, good!

1560 3-day average. I am doing extremely well. I realize I need the lower calories to lower my weight a little bit more. It's never been so clear to me (what I need to do to reach my goal) as it is now. I have tunnel vision to look a certain way at this wedding. I am so happy & proud of myself.

But also, I can feel my heart race as I right how proud of myself I am....I have to remember that i'm not anxious but excited. That I am proud, fully capable & that I should never, EVER, think my goals are out of my reach or that i'm not deserving of them. I can do this.

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

Awesome50 on 02/08/2016:
Glad to read you are feeling better! Sounds like you were successful shopping for dresses as well. Wonderful!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/09/2016:
yes. I am SO HAPPY that I have the dresses & everything is much more under control now! It's always a good feeling when you know you have accomplished something important to get done!

grannyannie on 02/08/2016:
Good eats! Well done. Have a great week.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/09/2016:
Thanks Annie :) Wishing you a wonderful week as well :)

cybermom4 on 02/09/2016:
Love how you always remind me to count calories. I skipped about a week and need to get back on track. Tuesday Feb 9 a new day!! :-)

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/09/2016:
Yes, today is a new day :) It's actually my coworker's bday! yay.

Counting calories is the best way for me to be successful. It never disappoints. I can rely on counting to prove why or why not I am losing weight. :) happy to remind you. have a wonderful day Mom!

cybermom4 on 02/09/2016:
I never thought about that - I feel like I really have to reprogram my brain. I was doing real well with counting calories but I didn't 'own it' like you do. I know I am just starting out - and I have adopted your advice along the way and I have a new appreciation of veggies :-) and now calorie counting. I guess it is one little step at a time. And I must skip the scale as a guide and trust the little program we are building here. Have you ever done weight watchers or any other program that helped? You have so much experience.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/10/2016:
i'll write more to you when I have a little time to put all my thoughts down on here...

...needing to get ready this AM for work so now is not the time but I def wanted to acknowledge that I saw your comments!

Maria7 on 02/09/2016:
Yes, you can! :-D

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/09/2016:
thank you Lady M!

Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Feb 07, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

2-day avg total: 1555. EXCELLENT, REALLY.

On facebook today, one of the fitness models wrote "You can achieve anything you want if you want it bad enough." Well, that's my motto. I am beginning to feel MUCH better. Still a bit congested but the sore throat is going away. I will definitely reach my weight goals for the wedding, because I know I can do it. I know what I am capable of. And this is within that range.

Go me!  So glad to feel better & less stressed right now. Feeling so much better than I did last week when I went home sick Thursday. I needed a day off & taking one was the best decision in the world. I feel so much better. If I need to take one more day in early March, I will.

Proud of myself.


In February, I'd like to make a dent in the scale & my weight. I want to lose around 2 lbs, getting me very close to 115. I'd like to see the scale start to say 117/116.

Hi All.

It's 2pm Sunday. All errands and laundry as been completed this weekend. Yesterday, I spent SIX hours in one huge clothing store with my mom. I found a dress for my sister's bridal shower as well as one for the rehearsal dinner the night before her wedding.

We also had a late lunch there at the store as well as bought some other things. I ended up opening a credit card with the store so that we could save an extra 15% on top of the 25% we received by using the Lord & Taylor card that day since there was already the 25% off sale for cardholders on most items in the store.

Also, my dresses were buy 1, get 1 50% off! Good deals. My mom treated herself to REALLY nice diamond earrings marked down to $388 from $1,500 because of additional deals and using my card. My mom will reimburse me for a lot of the items we got yesterday (including my dresses). I wish I could afford more for myself. I'm lucky my mom is helping me out so much!

I slept over my parents last night.  In the morning, I slept in a bit since I couldn't sleep all night & ended up reaching for a light sleeping pill around 5:30am and slept till around 9am.

Came home around noon and picked up some food for the week. I will not need to buy any food this week besides a rotisserie chicken.

Prepared for this week.

Still sick, but going to the gym for a workout soon.

9:30am: kombucha 60, later a chocolate 40. 100.

12:30pm: Miso soup with tofu maybe like 200?, cooked veggies & light sauce maybe like 200? 400

2:30pm-3pm before gym around 3:30pm: Large Navel Orange 100, Quest S'mores bar 200. and later energy drink and banana 120

total so far: 920 - I need to work on keeping calories lower...my weight is not going down at all because i'm not lowering my calories enough.

After gym: wanted something without volume. Not in mood for any veggies at all. Or anything really. More in the mood for fast carbs and protein so I had this "Peanut butter protein cookie." It's pretty high calorie but not really if you think of it as a meal. 420. and then I also had aminos in water with stevia bc they taste HORRIBLE. 20. total here 440.

total today: 1360, i'd like to keep it at this amount and go to bed early tonight. I will probably take a sleeping pill on the early side so I can continue to get some extra rest to get rid of the remaining congestion and sore throat.

I am beginning to have more energy again and not feel weak like I was. After the gym, I am surprisingly feeling BETTER. It was the right decision.


Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/08/2016:
Well done. Feel better soon! Good calories.

Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Feb 06, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

Morning :)

Extra sleep due to a much needed sleeping pill. I may take it a little often thru this weekend. Needing the extra rest right now.

7:30am: kombucha 80

9:45am Breakfast: oatmeal with coconut flakes and coconut water 190, 1/2 cup egg whites for added protein 60, peanut butter 120 & stevia. total 370 :)

total so far: 450.

Noon Granola bar 150

3pm Toasted roll with hair butter 200 at most, salad with some dressing 150-200, lots of roasted veggies 150 550 at most. While out shopping with mom.

Big, healthy dinner: 3/4 small avocado 300 at most, chicken prob 200 at most I hope, and salad with some vinegar and few olives and 3 shrimp 100 at least ... Total 600 maybe more.

1750 and walking around shopping all day. Fine :) maybe 1800. Still fine because today I ate healthy everything!!!

going home to go shopping with mom. bringing my laundry and also some food so I have more vegetables and don't have to worry about if my parents do.

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

collegestudent on 02/06/2016:
Hi! I'm new to diatdiaries and really excited to be in the community:)

I have a question: when you eat oatmeal for braekfast do you get hungry/carb craving later? Usually I find myself hungry soon after oatmeal, or not hungry but just craving carbs in general...


Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/07/2016:
Actually, yes, I fully agree with you and usually YES oatmeal will just spark hunger like an hour or two after I eat it.

That's why I never eat it usually early in the morning. If I have it, I'll have it once at work or for late morning meal. BUT, I don't have plain oatmeal. Lately, the types I have include some nuts and unsweetened almond milk along with a tablespoon of peanut butter. For me, there MUST be fat in with the oatmeal (like nuts or nut butter or even butter) along with a little protein for me to be satisfied for like 3 hours after eating.

yes, I cannot eat just carbs and feel satisfied. it does get me hungry. But once in awhile, I want more carbs, especially a morning after working out, so i'll bring the oatmeal to work and maybe try to have it later in the morning so that when I do get hungry, it's lunchtime. :)

grannyannie on 02/07/2016:
Well done, HOP!

College, I eat porridge/oatmeal every morning and I find it keeps me fuller for longer than anything else.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/07/2016:
thanks Annie! You are so good with your porridge...I always have to add things to it, in order for it to fully satisfy me!

Horn_of_plenty - Friday Feb 05, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

9:30am: kombucha 110 like 3.5 servings

10:30am oatmeal made with coconut water 190, egg whites 60, peanut butter 100, and dried fruit 80, stevia. total here: 430, good.

12pm: chips 120, cabbage 80, lots of sautéed snow pea leaves with garlic 250 450 whoa.

Lunch and snacking: big orange 120, salad with a little dressing and chicken and olives 450. 570.

Actually a 10 min walk to put money on laundry card but relaxing on couch throughout the day all day. Office is only open weekdays while i'm at work and I needed to fill the card.

4:30pm protein bar 180

Bean chips, 1 1/2 servings. 170 cal.

1920 cal. - not sure what I will have later but it's a higher-calorie day. taking a break for now on calories. I would have liked my calorie average to stay within the 1700's but I just cannot deal with keeping low calories today.

Total today is 2040. 1827/day 7-day average. Decent. proud of myself for not eating more than necessary :)


Run down, sick, staying home today.

Had to skip a workout last night & was thinking to make it up today. But based on how I am feeling, I doubt I will get to the gym this afternoon. But, if I do feel better, i'll go. Partially the reason I feel so tired right now is from a sleeping pill that I took around 5:30am. It's a light kind of pill that only helps me get around 3 more hours of sleep which was very nice.  I am run down because I wasn't sleeping well for at least 2 weeks including not sleeping right even on the weekends.

I had no more days left, so I will NOT be paid for taking today off. I am so GLAD I am not at work. Believe me, I will NOT be missing this money. With tax season around the corner, I plan not to have to use ANY of my savings for any payments that I may need to make (need to have car light components repaired on Saturday and it will cost around $400 including service! around $250 for the parts & 150 SERVICE! crazy!). but like I said, if I wind up going up a little too much in spending using my credit card, i'll use some of my tax return when I get it to pay it off. NOT WORRIED. yes, it would be nice not to have to spend the tax return, but also, if I have to - so be it!

I have savings, but i'd rather not touch that account as it's important I continue to save and not use it. so when I get the tax return, i'll use some of it if I need to. If I am able to pay off the credit card slowly, i'll just do that. I may not need to touch my tax return & just move it all towards savings.

Sorry to go on a $ rant. It's what goes on in my head which is stressful. It's another reason i'm looking to leave this industry and enter NYPD. Salary would be same at first if I were to enter NYPD, but, it goes up substantially each year. Where I am now, it'll never go up unless I had much more education & training in the field that I am not very knowlegable or interested in. That's why I am looking to leave so badly from this job I have now.

Any days I take off thru April 1 will also be for NO PAY. New days begin April 1. and to boot, without my permission, when I was very sick in October, my boss decided to use THREE of these new days that start in MAY 2016 to pay me then. so, i'm already 3 days down out of 10 vacation days for 2016 and 5 sick days. all which start in April.

Blech. Nauseating to talk about any more than I did.


Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 02/05/2016:
Get some rest today.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/05/2016:
Thank you :)

grannyannie on 02/06/2016:
Hope you feel better. Rest up. Hope your weekend is good.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/07/2016:
:) Starting to feel better but having to let the bug I have run its course.

cybermom4 on 02/06/2016:
Sending you Well wishes!! Hoping the bug doesn't get you and that maybe some tea with honey will calm things down. I'm sorry about your sick day situation. I know that is tough. Companies can be very tough when figuring out what is fair. Sometimes the rules change all b/c 1 or 2 people abuse the system.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/07/2016:
It's not too bad a bug. But with such a busy weekend with my mom approaching (yesterday was very busy shopping for outfits for my sister's bridal shower & dinner the night before the wedding)...so, I was getting anxious throughout the week, feeling so run down...and then sick...and realizing I couldn't exercise. I was ready to do it on Friday but felt just so tired and weak.

So...I took the day off because I was just not feeling like myself. It was for being physically sick as well as feeling emotionally / mentally drained.

I do think that it's very difficult in the advanced world we live in today to care for your health and work...I just think life is too busy.

Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Feb 04, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

1791 6-day avg. good...

1100 thru lunchtime.

left work at 2pm. once again I am exhausted and sick. body is burned out. will not go to work tomorrow. deciding tomorrow if I will go to gym tomorrow.

4pm: plum 50, cabbage slaw salad 100, steamed squash 100, cooked cabbage with not too much sauce 100. total here: 350 or so. ohhh, and couple pieces of pork lol. 50.

total so far today: 1500, good.

6:30 - sautéed greens 150, yogurt 150


did all my laundry except sheets which I will probably do at my parent's house when I sleep over Saturday.

so happy I am home. so happy to do laundry now & not have to deal with it again till next weekend. or if I do decide to do any, it wouldn't be much.

so thankful I am taking tomorrow off (without pay) because I need this rest. I am starting to already feel a little better. ankle hurts more than usual, but the tension is subsiding. i'll go to bed soon after laundry is done & I read a little more. going to pick up a couple other books from library tomorrow as well. I want my ankle to feel better and I know my body will feel a bit better by afternoon so I can exercise.

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

grannyannie on 02/05/2016:
Rest up! Take care of yourself.

Awesome50 on 02/05/2016:
Rest up and enjoy your weekend!

Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Feb 03, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

5-day calorie avg: very good - brought it down to 1790/day.

Little sick with minor body aches and a sore throat. Might have had a fever on & off today but hardly thankfully. Run down. Lack of sleep finally caught up & I got sick. But I have things to take & help me get better. I am at least prepared with Tylenol and probably i'm taking a sleep aid tonight to ensure I get some much needed sleep. very run down.

My goal to get to 115 is sort of depressing me right now. Annoyed with my life that it's on hold. I can't think till after this wedding is over. I'm putting too much pressure on myself. It's almost debilitating.

But how can I give up now. I can't. 

Happy Wonderful Wednesday!
So I can make myself feel happy just by writing happy things.I can change my mood if I just tell myself all is good right now. My anxiety takes over and I think too much about the future and what is wrong and how am I gonna get there. But that’s poor thinking on my part.
To be honest, things are alright right now. I have my challenges which are messing with my emotions but I am succeeding with flying colors with the additional challenges in my life right now. So, I knew this was going to be a hard winter for me. And I am making it thru. I just had a half smile even writing this now at 9:15am at work. There’s a payoff to wanting to achieve greatness. I am making every sacrifice that I can. It’s hard. But this period of solace and most of my time either spent alone or only with my family is going to end. There’s a light at the end of this dark, congested, stuffy tunnel. That’s how life feels for me right now. Nothing new or exciting. Constant prep on weekends with my mom (who I owe so much thanks to for helping me so much as she works full time too and she’s devoting so so so much of her time to me!).
6am: kombucha 70 and extra amino acids 40
Work: coffee with extra milk and 2 candies 140
Later Morning: Oatmeal with almond milk 160, banana120, chocolate peanut spread 120.
Total here: 650, good.
Lunch: healthy again. Around a pound of heavily roasted veggies 400 or so and some lettuce and little bit of that nasty egg tofu. 500 overall.
After work: seltzer and a plum 50
Dinner: healthy. some chicken breast 250 at most, some broccoli raab with garlic 150 at most and another plum 50. total: 450.
total today is good: 1650 - not much appetite as I really am a little bit sicky. no exercise at all.
Planning on reading tonight & relaxing my mind. This is my plan for tonight, Friday night, Saturday night & some of Sunday. I just want to read, relax, and take a break from the real world for a little while. Reading many times is my escape from reality. I am happy to go home tonight & pick up that escape. And relax. And be alone. And rest. I am very tired. But I am forgetting about it, moving forward, regrouping. I CAN DO THIS.

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 02/03/2016:
Keep it positive - negativity has never been productive in life plus it uses a lot of energy. Have a great day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/03/2016:
this is why I need DD. for your insight and support :)

Duaa123. on 02/03/2016:
You looks positve and I like how you are fighting ,, ti is good about relax ... we really need for this ,we need to cut ourselves from this busy live at least hlaf hour ! Keep u going

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/03/2016:
thank you very much :) I am debating taking Friday off in order to get everything done. If I am feeling better by then, I won't need to. Just gonna relax tonight :)

Thanks again for the compliment :) I am a fighter.

grannyannie on 02/03/2016:
Feel better soon! Don't stress yourself too much. I know, easier said than done. Take it easy.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/04/2016:
Thanks Annie, debating taking Friday off. Although I will lose a day's pay, I think I need the day. I would go to the gym Friday instead of tonight. And get more much needed sleep tonight.

Also Friday I could get my laundry done. And have a better weekend with family Saturday...

Not handling life well and can't seem to keep with my 3x a week gym routine....this is why I want to take Friday off - so I don't have to go tonight.

cybermom4 on 02/04/2016:
Great motivating post - I love to journal and have found that to be very soothing. What are you going to read this weekend? Do you have a fav author? Myself - I will read children's books. Middle school age or High school - One series I haven't had success with is the Hobbit. I have tied to read that many times but have failed. Not sure why - but if you really want a fun kid's series try Redwall - or Mara, Daughter of the Nile. Both are really good - but I guess you might something more adult :-) Anyway - I was just thinking of escaping and those two came to mind !

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/04/2016:
Awww, thank you, I'll have to look into those books.

If you want something really good, try the Harry Clifton Series Books...there's like 6 in total. I even sometimes find them in large print at my library which makes for even easier reading. they are great stories. I am up to I think book #3 in the series. Very enjoyable - my dad got me into those.

In general though, I like to escape thru reading romance novels. I find my library has a great assortment to choose from. But the one I am reading now, i'm not impressed with. Usually I love the books but this one is slow moving. Is ok though - I am sure it will get better!

Yes, journaling is soothing to me to. And this is such a special place for me because not only can I write about the truth and wants on my mind and going on in my life, but I actually get feedback and support from you & the other DDers. I tend to reach out here more when I cannot talk to others about what I am going thru. It's usually when I truly need other ears.

Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Feb 02, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

 1825cal/day 4 day average. EXCELLENT.

Happy Groundhog Day yay!
3-day avg cals thru Monday: 1916/day.good.
6am: kombucha 70
Breakfast at work / midmorning snack: oatmeal with almond milk 160, banana 120, chocolate peanut spread 100. 380. And coffee with extra milk 80 460.
Having hungry days but now I’m going to fight them like Pauline Nordin does. Look her up.  She is my absolute favorite role model. My determination right now is strong to be my best. I am stressed but it’s worth the challenge to push myself HARDER. I do not care - I am not giving up on myself ever again.
In terms of hunger though, I couldn’t sleep all night. Many things on my mind and usually I’d reach for carbs to eat to go back to sleep. I was able to go back to sleep without eating, yes, but was waking up every hour all night long.
Lunch :weird tofu made with egg that has a flavor that is makes me very full & very fast 70, tons of roasted vegetables (close to a pound) 350 and some salad 30. Total: I doubt more than 450.
Total: around 980, good. Probably gonna reach for some chai tea soon. Very tired days, not getting near enough restful sleep.
Before gym: big apple, and a sunflower butter / chocolate bar. ENERGY drink around half of it. 250.
After gym: amino acids in some water for muscle recovery, and a recovery bar 300.
Total today: approx. 1550 - Excellent. I'm making good choices.
I wasn't even very hungry today. I want to be successful so badly this winter. It's my biggest priority (being toned and 115lbs).

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

puddles on 02/02/2016:
Good luck with your sleep.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/02/2016:
Thanks, much appreciated. :)

grannyannie on 02/03/2016:
Good job on the food. Hope you get more sleep tonight.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/03/2016:
Thanks Annie :-) doing a little better after my quiet silent cry at my desk this morning.

Horn_of_plenty - Monday Feb 01, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

total today is around 1650, good. 

Everything healthy really. overall, a healthy day.

Just very tired overall in the afternoon because I was up tossing & turning last night...I think because it was too warm. in my bedroom.


February 1st, 2015: Today is a very special day. I made it to 5 years in the union.
Now, no matter what, I will receive a pension. Even if I were to leave my job (or rather, the union) today, no matter what, based on the hours & time I have put in, I will be fully compensated for my work here at this job. I am proud of myself no doubt. I feel it was a challenge to make it this far. I feel I succeeded and did the past I can up to this point. I am very proud of myself.
6am: Kombucha 70
8:30am: Raspberry White Chocolate Quest Bar 200, coffee 50. Later: banana 130. another bar, natural type and low sugar. nuts mostly. 200
Total thru lunch: 520
Healthy lunch: tofu made with egg 70, salad 20, banana 120, roasted butternut squash 180 total: around 400. And tea. Really, really tired.
Total so far: around 900 J this could also be a reason why I am so tired (low cals, low carbs)
I want to make today a fully low-cal day. I need a string of good days following this past weekend. I can do this. 3 weeks till my sister’s bridal shower. 2 months until her wedding. I am now at the final stretch to her shower. 3 weeks is a nice stretch of time to think about.
And then the wedding. After the shower, her wedding is 6 weeks away still. But only 5 weeks till my week off thankfully. I can do this. I can get there. 
I do feel a lot of stress right now. It’s a challenge for me to keep my life going and keep positive despite a lack of social life with my friends. Also, my romantic life is really on hold more than I would like right now.  Everything feels on hold while I am busy with family stuff most weekends & also making sure to continue with my workouts, not skipping any of them until the wedding is over. I am doing a good job.  
Life is give & take.  I’m giving more right now than I’m taking.
I am doing all I can do. I do realize one thing though – I am not able to push myself any further right now. I have reached the point where I know my limits. And I feel good with what I’m able to achieve and based on the article in my previous entry – I encourage you all to read it, it’s very educational and helpful – based on the article I know that I need to move ahead as I am & without changing or altering goals right now.
I am doing good based on what I know is possible. Anything more will definitely be too much. I am satisfied with achieving what I know is possible for me now. And I’m leaving it this way. My goals are not going to change, I don’t foresee anyways, for the next couple months.
I definitely feel this is the long haul, like I said “final stretch,” until her big day. I’ve already completed my goals 50% as 50% of the winter is OVER already.
I couldn’t have asked for better weather. So far, it’s been unseasonably warm for the most part making it a lot easier to feel good and get things done.
I have 50% left of winter & wintertime goals to manage myself through it. I like how I wrote “manage myself” because that’s exactly how I feel. I feel as though I am my own trainer / manager / motivational speaker. I have done it all myself in terms of inspiration and motivation. I chose this challenging path these 4 months.
I am going to continue to think positive & make myself the best “Jackie” I can be for this wedding. I am so dar* proud of myself thus far. I could never give up on myself now.

Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

Awesome50 on 02/01/2016:
Congrats on your 5 year Union milestone mark!

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/01/2016:
Thanks, A-50!

innerpeace on 02/01/2016:
Great job on getting vested,

cybermom4 on 02/01/2016:
Congratulations!!! :-)

grannyannie on 02/01/2016:
Congrats! You're never too young to think about pensions.

Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jan 31, 2016
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights/bike)
Weight: 118.0

Amazing Article for Motivation and a guide to winning at weight loss:


Feelings about my progress in January now that it is over:

Overall, January was extremely successful. I maintained a lower weight of 118. I maintained lower calories overall during all weeks in January. I was able to splurge a little but still maintain lower calorie counts.

I did all workouts, skipping none. I spent far less time with friends and more time with family. I made it work.

I had some dilemmas in the male category which will remain that way thru winter. this is fine, because I am too busy to really deal with the issues anyways.

February will be similar to January. It will definitely be busy. I will be spending time more with family. I have my sister's bridal shower in just 3 weeks, actually in NYC.

Lots to do. I am happy about also a 3-day weekend for President's Day in 2 weeks. This helps me a little bit to get thru this next month with a little more relaxation maybe.

Also, after February is March. March will be similar to February & then I will take the week off leading up to my sister's wedding :-)

I am glad my mom has been so helpful - she's actually paid for just about everything in terms of my dress and shoes for this wedding. She's been very good to me. I wish I could have afforded to pay for these things myself, but she's helping me with these additional expenses which would have added up & I would have had to use savings and/or my tax return to pay for the items come April. So, really thankful my mom is helping me out.

Other than that, that's really it for now. Just getting thru the winter. Spending little time with friends if any. Mostly with family for this whole month so far. Low-key & trying to get everything done. Keeping with my workouts. trust me, this is more than enough right now!



My weight is still 118.  It is not going to go down unless I really limit calories. I am doing what I can now & proud of myself for maintaining 118. Really, I'm doing very nicely. So I'll continue to stick with my plan for the month of February. Very proud of myself.

February - I have the continued goal from January. To NOT skip any of my 3x a week workouts. To continue to work on my sleep. To care for myself. And to eat better - really it's about the calories. I am doing great & look forward to a continuation of January into February.


Morning entry, 10am:  :)

Ate what I brought for breakfast at my parents house - entire bag of cooked cranberries and a full fat Greek yogurt. 400 cal.

My plan is food shopping for the week, relaxing back at home in my apt, and gym. I don't think much else. Legs sore from walking in mall yesterday. My legs are really very out of shape. And ankle is still a bother. But it's working out.

Afternoon edit, 2pm: 

Well, I did a little extra despite my feelings that I didn't want to. I was near the beach, picking up some food this late afternoon & actually stopped by the BEACH! Yes, it's wintertime, but, it's a sunny, "warm," winter day. There were a lot of people walking on the beach boardwalk as it's extremely residential over there.

On my way home, after the beach, like an hour drive back to Queens, I drank a kombucha. also had a couple mint dark chocolates - one before and one after my short walk on the boardwalk.

I probably only spent around 20-30 minutes tops around the boardwalk area. Some of it sitting & using bathroom lol. I only went because I was close by and was very tempted because it was so sunny.

I would have walked more but my ankle is weak and I cannot push too much. I'll be going to the gym later & i'll make sure to use my ankle brace.

12pm Kombucha & chocolates 150.

1:30pm late lunch all healthy: leftover sardines 100, 1/2 avocado 150, almost a pound of heavily roasted veggies (def more oil than I like but tasty) 350? total here: 600, fine.

gym not yet, but definitely this afternoon. I may read a little. Was gonna do laundry, but don't want to be getting up & down all afternoon. Just wanna rest before the gym :-)

Before gym: banana, during gym chocolate. 150.

Dinner: Bigger protein "cookie" lots of carbs which is good, some protein, some fat. 400

total today: 1700. EXCELLENT. 1900, had a bit of roasted butternut squash because I couldn't sleep. tomorrow, I can tell, I'm going to have to increase my protein so I can be more satisfied.

2-day total: 2050/day


Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

thinkpositive on 01/31/2016:
That's a lot of cranberries! Sounds like a good plan for the day.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/31/2016:
yes, a bit much as it does add up in sugar. Actually, I ate around 1/2 before I went to pick up newspapers, then had the other half with my full fat greek yogurt afterwards :-) still a lot of sugar, but nice. lots of fiber too.

Duaa123. on 01/31/2016:
Very good calories for whole the day.. keep going and drink more water to help losing fat..

Horn_Of_Plenty on 01/31/2016:
I will be eating more, but still will keep calories very reasonable! :-) good idea with the water for sure!

cybermom4 on 02/01/2016:
Love how you summarize your month. That can be very motivating for the next month. I keep track of my aqua therapy for my dr and it is rewarding to see that I have gone to exercise 2x per week. It would be a good goal it increase to 3x. You must be incredibly organized.

Horn_Of_Plenty on 02/01/2016:
Awww, thank you. I don't usually summarize my months but i'm doing everything I can to stay on track particularly this winter because I have my sister's wedding in early April!

Going to your aqua exercise 2x a week is excellent. Even if you try some weeks at 3x and alternate weeks at 2x, that would be a nice challenge for sure. Sometimes, 3x is a struggle for me. My challenge this winter is not to skip, no matter what.

I am decently organized. I am most organized in what is truly important to me in life. It's the fitness and weightloss that is most important & I try to control them like so many people do when other parts of life are difficult - if you know what I mean.

and this winter, the goal is in fitness & toning as much as I can. because of the wedding in spring.

thanks for the nice compliments and motivation to stay on track. I enjoyed reading your comment.

More on being organized, it's also me being prepared. I've learned that the only way to reach these goals is to be prepared. and very focused. Almost with a laser-beam focus in my case. Because what i'm doing now - with not skipping gym & learning to eat a lower calorie amount - it's out of my comfort zone. But i'm rising to this challenge! I'm learning now at 33 that it's still very possible. Everything is always possible.

grannyannie on 02/01/2016:
Good plans. Love how you think things through in an organized way. Well done on maintaining the weight.

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