Edit: I did the 3mi walk home :) woohoo! it felt good bc it was 40 degrees, not lower (around 30 and very windy previously) like it was. and i always dress WARM. earmuffs and a scarf and hood and gloves. no need to freeze on the walk.
Getting nice exercise in on the commute home, when getting outta work on time at 5pm, has me reaching my apt at 7:30pm. So, i came home, got things in order, put the hamster in the ball to run around, ate my dinner, and was in bed before 9. I did wake up in the middle of the night probably bc my brain was still really active after the day, but went back to sleep. Lately, i have few problems going back to sleep if i wake up. it's not a problem thankfully.
PLUS, they have now installled the lights in the new poles in the park area...i was smiling on the walk last night! The area had formerly been under construction for 6 months and it just ended. Finally, the area is LIT!
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Morning: kombucha 50
8:30-9:15 Breakfast: wrap 80, egg 70, last leftovers of the Indian Okra spiced up well with ginger too 150 in oil i bought, so good! - so glad i didn't waste (throw out) any food as of late :), coffee 50, caramel truffle from coworker - why not!? i looked up the cals....crazy...100 cals per truffle for this brand (Olivia)...since cals were just at 400, i am giving it right now rather than deny...no need to feel slighted and binge right!?
snack: coconut chocolate bar atkins 170, later almonds 50
Lunch: one serving semi hard (really quite soft) tofu 50,i also brought tomatoes 50, a frozen "mashed cauliflower" Bird's Eye brand from my freezer which is light and low cal 150 for the WHOLE package of 3 servings and i did eat it all, not sure if i'll eat the whole thing,(running low on hot food now to bring - didn't cook on this previous weekend), but i see myself buying chips perhaps as it sounds too low carb right now...Total here is 250. :)
...time to make today a good calorie day!
3pm sooo sleepy, coworker left and i'm very, very tired. had a small, strong 4oz coffee and a really cool 100 cal or so white chocolate truffle with coconut flakes (lots of them) inside it.
4:00pm 2 clementines, figure 100 cal. and some almonds 100
1300....600 dinner, banana in middle of night
2000 or so total
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It was very difficult to get up bc went to bed semi-late. tonight, my main is goal ONE thing...sleep early. otherwise, my workout for Thursday will be difficult and i see the opportunity for me to get sick as a main possibility if i cannot start to sleep better during the week with less stres of work. It should work out, no more OT...just so far Monday and Tuesday night were busy / later nights.
And with rain projected for friday, my goal is just to do a little walking home tonight, sleep well, and exercise Thursday eve with Friday night only goal is to REST & chill out :)
I may begin to freeze more food, as a coworker suggested to me...so far i have some cooked meat frozen. perhaps i'll eat one of those packages come friday. i don't use the freezer as well as i could to maximize eating well and budget better!
I'm prioritizing for stronger workouts, health & moderation so i can meet my main winter goal which is to KEEP BUILDING STRENGTH this weekend and not have any setbacks like previous winters.
a few years ago, i am thinking it was October-December juts up to Winter of January 2014, i had to take those 3 fall months off the gym due to injury and that was a high set back and January 2014 i was very weak and it took a long time to build back up my strength...maybe a full year? Pushups, restarting them after 3 months off, was a terror. It was so hard to build up the strength again.
last year Winter 2018 i was set back by illness throughout the month of January.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Kombucha 50...i don't think i had another banana last night?
8:30am Breakfast is weird...someone's bday so i had some of her homemade cake which was awesome. 250??? it was one of those "wet cakes" that would have some liquor in it. very good. Russian cake, she came here later in life. I hope not more than 250. and coffee 50. 300. other coworker made me an espresso too. lol. GOOD MORNING here!
8:30am I also, not knowing about the cake, was running decently on time so picked up an egg white omelette for a more satisfying and hunger preventing breakfast. turned out amazing. it was egg whites with turkey (and a really substantial amount of turkey!) tomatoes, peppers. nice. i still have half as it was big. half the omelette: 250?
10am Snack: Rest of the tasty turkey egg white omelette. i doubt it's more than 200, maybe less...maybe only 150?
11:30-12:00 150 in salted roasted almonds
Lunch: heathy from home, last of my soup 200! with extra tofu 100. and a wrap 100. 400.
Snacks: clementine 50
Snack before workout: big cookie 150 butter and coffee 50...
before and during workout: 2 sf drinks - 1 at start and one during workout banana 120, reese's miniature 40, welches small bag fruit gummies (raiding my halloween mix) 80. no worries at this point!
after workout: Siggis triple cream vanilla yogurt 170, 3/4 the bag - cooked cranberries with stevia and a little saffron 150
total: 2200 :)
4day avg: 2075 - EXTRA GOOD as of now! i may try to keep it like this - below 2100 this week would be spectacular.
LEAVING ON TIME from now till my trip. that's it. 5pm.
i've been home since a little after 6pm and have been on the couch, relaxing and drinking a caffeine free drink until i am ready to work out :) ...tomorrow my goal is for sleep early - thankful for no more OT. need rest :)
After workout meal: probably yogurt and berries? ...YUP!
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looking forward to lowering my stress levels, managng my credit cards...fixing the MTA issue - trying to get $360-$390 back from charges that didn't go towards a transportation card as i already am charged straight outta my paycheck but accidentally signed up for an extra service that i thought i had cancelled. i also just paid off another card again by accident extra $200 for a groupon i regurned!!!grrr....so that's fine.
i'll just plan to use the card more than my cash/debit card on vacation / or now bc it will have a "surplus" of $200 since i returned what i bought on it. ...lately i'm just doing things with my money too much ahead of time - by trying to stay on top of things, i'm being so proactive that it's defeating the purpose bc i'm not thinking first!!!!!!
for now on when paying off cards, i'm going to have to "double check" what the charges are for, before i am pressing to just "pay" on my phone because i'm getting stupid with paying for things that i either return or shouldn't be charged for!
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
In the new year, i'm going to be LESS eager to pay credit cards (bc i pay them mostly on my phone apps) and check TWICE before i pay to read EXACTLY what i'm paying for without just rushing a payment thru.
No more stupid payment errors on my end! It's not like i'm losing money, except on the MTA thing...which i'm trying to get back on this coming Monday/Wednesday i'll be calling them again.
But i'm annoyed i MOVED $200 from my checking to pay a credit card of which the amount on the card was for what was to be a finalized GROUPON RETURN! so i moved my money to the credit card for NO REASON and now i'm in surplus! just stupid! i'd rather have left the $ alone in my checking, DUH! lol stupid me~ i was too fast to pay it. and forgot to realize the $200 would be taken off in a few days!
And while I'm on the topic of holiday cravings. I've been doing a good job avoiding it so far, but have been craving one particular brand of eggnog. Saw it in the grocery store and figured I'd buy a carton of it, until I saw how many calories it had. One 12 oz glass of it would set me back 570 calories. That's crazy. And I knew that if I bought it, I'd end up drinking more than 1 glass.
Keep on maintaining through the holidays and I hope to join you in maintenance-land in the new year......
are you for real with the one class 570 cal!? so NOT worth it really! unless, it was a dessert or something not followed with anything else except like tons of cooked cranberries like i had tonight...that was pretty filling lol.
i didn't know you don't drink...why not? do you have a reason? i drink rarely, too. not often. it's such a waste of calories and sugar. you see, i don't even drink JUICE. so, drinking wine and alcohol goes against my idea of drinking calories. i only drink out. i had a phase of drinking at home to try different things and i was falling asleep well, but luckily the phase is gone. it lasted at least 6 months, ending around 6 months ago. i just felt the need to try all the alcohol i didn't try when i was younger, mostly beer and cheap alcohol you find at 7-11...all those sugary alcoholic drinks.
Several different reasons I don't drink (might expound on them at a later date). But basically it's a choice, not based on anything bad that happened or anything like that. Among the reasons is that I'm a light switch (just like food). Drank some in my early twenties, but hated the taste. So at that time I'd either not drink at all or drink as quick as possible to get straight to that buzzed / drunk state.
Have friends that drink occasionally now with a dinner and they enjoy the taste. For me, there's just no benefit to it since I don't like the taste and am not willing to gamble losing my current life (family, friends, profession, etc) by doing something stupid while drunk. Have a friend that's the nicest guy in the world now, but had a drinking problem for years. Over a fairly short period of 5 years and 2 or 3 DUI's, it cost him his construction business, wife, relationship with kids, driver's license, and a couple years behind bars. A more recent instance is the daughter of a good friend just went to jail for 2-3 years because she drove drunk and ran into someone killing them. She's missing some of the best years of her daughter's life in middle school / high school. She was also newly married and I doubt that the marriage will last until she gets out.
And by the way, I don't care if others drink responsibly. I just choose not to.
so, on that note, it's also easier for me to mostly refrain from drinking. so i get it 100%. Totally on the same page with your thinking.
6:46pm edit: the OT i was doing was actually requiring standing up...and since i got two walking breaks also, i decided to finish the remaining 2 hours tonight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
16/16 hours OT DONE.
I did the OT in 8 days, so, if you average it, 2 hours per day. not a little bit. my hours, if i worked 2hours per day would be 8:30am-7pm everyday. however, on those days some were as little as 1/2 whereas other days i did up to 4 hours. glad it's freaking done!
i will not work OT, i pretty much refuse, until Spring. Very sick of it.
my company doesn't pay anyways for OT. it was to get the 2 days off. but it stressed me out like NO OTHER. and i'm very done with it right now.
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4:20am small banana 100
Kombucha 70
Breakfast: half a flatbread of hgher cal type 120, egg 80, one tasty white chocolate filled something from coworker 80? coffee 50. 330
snack: some almonds and the chocolate covered coconut bar atkins still not sick of these 200
noon snack: 3 russian dark chocolates from ANOTHER coworker!!!!! for realz! i could have had just 1 but sorta hungry right now and it's sorta lunchtime and still going out to walk before i actually eat...splurging going on but in the best way!
Lunch, from home so healthy: Veggie soup leftovers from last weekend..yup...i got it for one more day...didn't want to throw this stuff out! broth 50, veggies 100, tofu 50. that's it. 200-250.
Snack: i have almonds and clementines, i also have a wrap 120 with oily okra spread 130if i want...healthy...leftovers also all the way from last weekend lol...not a fan of throwing the good stuff out...and last week ate out so much that i wasted eating these things while they were fresher! ..would be a nice snack, 250...
4pm coffee and cookie 100 or a little more...good, chocolate 100
Dinner: pumpkin pie siggi's yogurt 140, stevia and just a hair of spicy saffron cooked cranberries 50, banana 120, ice cream 100...400!
2000 :) wowwwww! nice!
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Will do an hour OT till 6pm today - should be easy bc i went out on a quick errand in the morning for my supervisor and i'm going walking at lunch...maybe i'll just do the TWO HOURS today???
Need to clean hamster cage tonight...also would be good to do some walking home from Subway....so the OT is probably NOT a good focus for today....
After writing this, I just realized something: do the walk tonight, clean the hamster cage, do ONE hour OT is more than enough.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
lately, i'm waking up sometimes and going on my phone for a few minutes....but nothing major and i love that i'm going back to bed...and i def got a lot of sleep all weekend lol...
but yeah, i was up and ended up prepping food and stuff...
i only forgot my book :( to read on my commute :( but the cell phone worked so that's good! haha....
enjoy your day jdonk!
Slept in at parents, as i slept over and left this morning as to not have to drive while tired last night! I stayed in bed till 9am which was BEAUTIFUL!
9:30am-10:30am Tasty Breakfast: Baguette bread parents' had just bought, toasted. 200 cal. with cream cheese 100 cal and lox 100 cal. so good! and a hot pomegranate green tea. yum yum. soon after i had some fruit my mom had prepared the night before, will just say 100 cal. there. 500 total...i forgot, a piece of angel food cake...100?
1pm back home at my apt: flax wrap 150, tuna in oil 100, leftover baked squash fries 100, chedder flavor cauliiflower crackers 100. 450. good! need to drink more ...will go to the gym after i'm feeling "recharged" lol.
2:30 high sugar snack: 2 pieces of high cal cookie dough, unbaked. i had ordered it preportioned (best idea!) from a coworker. it says each piece is 140 x 2 = 280 cals... ! it was good cookie dough :) and a coffee, cold brew that i picked up earlier from supermarket. 50 cal...around 350
during workout: banana, 3 clementines. 200 or so.
After workout: plain cauliflower crust with some saffron on some of it 300, 1 egg and one egg white 100. 400 total. i really want to start making the pumpkin pie, but it's almost 9pm...hmmm....i think it has to wait. i relaxed too much i guess today...no worries. not going to lose sleep over making a pumpkin pie. and sleeping was a much better idea this weekend. i have to also make the crust, so, this will wait. tomorrow i'll also clean this hamster cage. i'd rather just relax tonight, being it's a quarter to 9pm.
I worked out on and off from 5-8:30. the reason it took so long is because i started making the miami plans and other plans thru texting...and researching during the workout. it was quite productive and i even bought something very much on sale on groupon - saving $50 on top of the groupon price for two people to scuba dive. so, it was a productive night with the plans....other plans, well, i couldn't get in touch with some people not sure why, one person, but time will tell!
2000 total.
2day: 2050 per day.
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I Decided that i'd rather stay home and do a home workout and skip out on the gym...the weather here is chilly, damp and rainy and i'd rather save time and be home working out. also means i do not have to care about how i look much and where whatever i want here at home.
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I had breakfast with my folks and soon after i left to do a food shopping at their local supermarket as it's huge compared to Queens' supermarkets. However, i wasn't impressed by anything. the prices were on the higher side and the baking section was void of any of the new baking powders like almond powder....the only section that was well stocked were the yogurts. higher variety. as well as an area of kombucha ! and i did find more cranberries and find some tasty seltzer. however, nothing was on sale much. i got a few deals, but, like i said, not impressed. I also saw a new brand of light ice cream & of course i bought it!
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
They obviously don't taste as good as the real thing, but seem to curb my desire enough to not go off-plan.
slept in till 10am wrap 80 with my saffron cranberries 40, banana 150, peanut nutter 150, coffee 50 470....
fell back to sleep till 12;30 or so even after coffee
1pm apple large 130
2:30 these chedder cauliflower crackers...interesting strong chedder taste 130
3pm canned pumpkin 100 flavored with chai stevia and pumpkin pie spice and whipped cream 100
Dinner at parents was super healthy salmon, fried potato latkes, cooked Swiss chard sips of wine and small pieces toast but bigger portions and dessert of grapes
2200 total....happy to get some nutrition in.
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doing laundry all laundry including my sheets...putting away last weekend's laundry too...catching up. organizing myself...
last night, the project manager guy never left and stayed till 9 with us...he works in same room as my coworker. so we only got some dinner and ate back at work. so we didn't go out for a drink at all.
14/16 OT hours done, i have two more to make up next week and then i'm good.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Happy Friday :)
14/16 OT hours done!
2300 cal, no drinks!!!...the project manager guy never left and stayed till 9 with us...he works in same room as my coworker. so we only got some dinner and ate back at work.
7day: 2188 cal per day.
Kombucha 60
8:45am 1st Breakfast: the second half of the Lenny & Larry's cookie from a couple days ago, still fresh bc i kept it in a tuberware. 210 and coffee 40. At 10:00am after running an errand i also had a small snack of 3 hershey's kisses 80.
11am Snack: wrap 80, egg 70, 1/2 avocado 150. 300 healthy. garlic and sea salt.
12:30-1pm 2 hershey's kisses, waiting on a nice coworker to do walking, holding off on lunch till later :) 50, 8 almonds: 50
Lunch: def my leftovers from home - all from a slowcooker dish i made, tasted outstanding, tofu small piece 50, root veggies - carrots and parsnips 150, cabbage 50, in bone broth 50. 300-350 tops.
Snack: 2 clementines, a magnesium drink supplement 100 cal total
almost 6pm: almonds 100
..calories are nice....hoping to have a nice glass of wine out at bar....soon, but, the Guy Proj Manager is here sorta LATE!? he usually leaves early Fridays so i'm really confused....? the shots never happened!!!!!! :) woohooo.it's almost 6pm, i think he'll leave soon...other coworker and i have to wait till he leaves in order to go outside and get food and wine.
Dinner: ? Male coworker decided to STAY! so me and her and HIM went to get food at the buffet, wine needs to obviously wait...!...at least dinner was very healthy: some kinda fish, bigger piece sorta dry but healthy 350??, brussel sprouts 150, salad and some cole slaw 100, and lots of cucumber/tomato salad 100? and a drink 50. so, 750 tops.
2100...eesh. i guess my drink later...yeah...maybe i just should get a vodka in seltzer and use stevia...i just might.
flavored vodka ??
Snack:
From 5-9pm will be at work, probably though one of those hours will be a full dinner break, so, lol, it's not as bad as it sounds :) Everything is up in the air in terms of food around that time.
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My goal is to keep my entries a little more organized compared to yesterday's entry on here. It was so messy, i had to actually "clean it up" bc it made me "sick" to look at the mess it was! LOL, it is a complete replica of how i'm feeling right now! But i'm happy, doing things to keep my sanity and stay healthy. Eating well and will def sleep in tomorrow. I may reach for a sleeping pill tonight but refrain for the rest of the weekend. I'm ready to sleep away my mind!
I'm here till 9pm tonight and i think a coworker will be ont he subway with me and then giving me a ride home, i think..that's good..I will get decent walking in today already. I walked in morning to bus 10min or so, walked to work from subway 5 min, walked doing an errand after coming to work for my supervisor (10min each way - so 20min), walking at lunch around 15min, walking tonight during dinner break at least 20 min). total walking today: approx 55 minutes...decent enough for me!
Regarding tomorrow, i will not drive to parents as i'm rather beat and tired. The OT has been annoying and stressful and my workout suffered last night - it was one of the weakest workouts i have had all YEAR since getting back into things really well last Spring. I was depleted in energy, lack of sleep, and weak bc i skipped a workout last week on Thursday. So, it impacted my workout and i noticed right away. The sets of pushups were more diffiult as was EVERYTHING in general. In general, all my sets were weak and the # of reps declined a bit last night. I just did the workout to get it done. To use the muscles. It's a reminder that i have to take care of myself OR I WILL NOT BE ABLE TO IMPROVE on my fitness. At 36, my body is not getting younger. I'm now eating better for my fitness goals but now sleep and the lack of it as well as stressful schedule are things that i plan to diminish in the New Year. I will not be working OT in the New Year. We do not get paid for it. I'm only doing it now to get two extra days off - Christmas Eve and New years Eve...which is awesome to be home and sleep in on those days! :)
However, I cannot continue with this type of hectic OT schedule after my hours have been completed and made up. I don't have time to "give up" or energy to "give away" for this company without being compensated. So, on that note, I will be giving into self care in the new year, particularly leaving assignments till morning if need be...i'm sure there'll be exceptions...but in general, i need my time back after work...and i need my hours of sleep most nights. I need a better schedule to be more productive for MY goals, and not just everyone else's (like the work i do for my administrator, for example). I have to refocus in January.
Even before January, I will soon start planning Miami. I do not have time right now, yet, to give it any thought at all.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Make sure you don't overdo it and stress yourself out. Everyone has limits!
i did end up working an hour OT...now i'm tired at home, its 8pm, i'm just starting this workout - working till 9pm tomorrow....
10/16 hrs OT.
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Home: kombucha 60...and while i was drinking this AM, i even hard boiled some eggs...since i just used the last of the earlier batch! lol....
8:30-9am Breakfast: wrap 80, with an egg and saffron spice as well as garlic/salt 70, 1/2 small side of an avocado 150. 300. and my last of the godiva chocolates 50.
10am Snack 1: 200 atkins bar coconut thing..but leaning on healthy...my skin is rather shot due to stress...i have an annoying red splotch as well as healing acne near my chin. ah well, it will improve. as of late, my skin has just as many good days as bad...compared to other times when my skin was poor more frequently than it was good ;)
11am Snack 2: almonds 100
My supervisor wanted to go out to lunch, luckily i didn't pay for hers. once again my food is saved for now FRIDAY...at least i ordered healthy food per the book and not paying for crap! small piece of salmon 200?, fried rice (change of pace) 200, broccoli raab 100?, and brussel sprouts roasted 150. 650. at least there's health in all of it.
snack: i got clementines / almonds..(right now they are the salted, roasted type).150 :-)
very good, more importantly, a healthy day.
Before workout: it will be prob a coffee 80 and bar 80, blueberries 150. 300, banana during workout 120
10pm After workout: small bit of whipped cream 50, small bit indian okra 100 in yogurt 150, cooked cranberries with stevia and saffron 50. 350
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2270, soungs good to me!
6 day: 2170, fine
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Looking forward to my workout & knowing sleep will come easily when it's complete.
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Last night, OT turned to 1.5 hours. So far, I've completed 9/16 hours OT. I think, besides one person who always does the OT and is sooo not into exercise, I am the one wth the most OT hours right now...honestly, my hours for these couple weeks might even beat out that other person, as i do more than him on Fridays so it will average out.
On this Friday, I'm doing FOUR OT hours, 5-9pm, with coworker that isn't in my room but on this floor. However, we will def pull strings: we are going to take around a half hour of that OT to go to a bar and get a drink.(once everyone else goes home!) ..YES...i'll make sure it goes smoothly. i have NO worries at all... :) Why punish yourself completely...make some fun out of it, no!?
should be home around 10-10:30pm friday night from work. shoot....so nevermind going to bed EARLY hahaha.
Then, we'll come back here with some dinner and do work. :) It is what it is...nobody else is making up hours like this...so, like i said, no worries.
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I slept like a rock....could have used 2 more hours, for sure. but sound sleep it was!
In the back of my mind i'd rather sleep early tonight than work out, but if i push off a workout it will affect the times of the next workout as well as my weekend plans, so, tonight is one last workout and sleep in SATURDAY :) i also plan to see my parents Saturday to have a meal together. i asked parents to skip driving to them.....too tired for it and i want to bake.
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I'm happy to say that last night i walked home (even after working OT), 7:30pm-8:30pm 3mi walk from the subway...you see, there's no excuses when you want something bad enough and for me it's to continue my cardio thru the Winter. The first two miles was a breeze, last mile i had my heavy backpack and it got uncomfortable......BUT WORTH IT.
....it's like when Gains talks of wearing a Weighted Vest!
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It felt good to move, my body was up for it completely last night :)...there's a Vitamin Shop near the subway where i tend to buy a no caffeine, carbonated drink that i enjoy for the 3mi walk....
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
however, there's one spot that is not lit. i do NOT KNOW WHY! it's the most frustrating thing. sometimes the road is busy and sometimes not. So, when no cars happen to be going by, there's an under 5 min stretch thru the one part of the walk that is NOT residential and instead it's along a semi-busy (depends on time and day) of multi-lane roadway that is bordered on both sides by empty parkland / marsh.
The tall pole lights are NEVER on, during this under 5min stretch and it's a little uneven / poorly paved area. It's soooo annoying that there's not more light. Additionally, there's nowhere to stop and sit or anything to hold onto...so, for that time, you need to be "on your way" and not "stopping to smell the roses!"...i really do not know why NYC is not lighting those pole lamps. they are there, just unlit.
when cars are driving by, it feels better when i walk that area, bc they provide bits of light. otherwise, it really is annoying. it's not pitch black though...there's lights coming from other areas. ...just not directly overhead. which is soooo weird!
in the end, sometimes i do get anxious on the walk. especially that piece...but i tell myself it's good to experiece, that i'm capable, that i can get thru :) and i do :) it's a challenge. not many people walk it. sometimes i come across nobody. if i pass someone or come across someone, it's usually just one person walking over that way....but it's not really unsafe, just not a high pedestrian stretch.
the route also goes over two main shopping areas...it's a decent 3mi route in terms of variation in sites and surroundings.!!!!
...i feel it IS SAFE....just a frustrating walk in the Winter....
I will keep on... :) and maybe call NYC to complain of the lights.
1) no light receptacles at all or 2) someone keeps knocking the bulbs out of commission?
but they are off.
i may call write an email, when i have time, to complain to NYC...it's the worst thing for pedestrians and safety!
frustrating other coworker, the one who said i'd be fired before the other girl, says he wants to do "shots" of this liquor we had made....its herbs with rum and we'd made it and it's ready...
but it wasn't the plan for Friday night at all....
i totalyl really don't want a shot...
i was going to go to happy hour with my female coworker around 6 to enjoy a nice glass of wine before getting dinner and coming back to work!
yesterday, when he bothered me about drinking the drink that's been in his desk drawer since mid-November ready to drink, i should have said NO, I am working OT and i do not want to have it....i may just turn him down today. i shouldn't have to YES YES YES people.
LOL.
sorry ranting.
yesterday i went to work with my "supervisor" (she doesn't like to be thought of as my superior) and she used the time we were sitting at lunch to contact an electrician friend of hers who came over since it was by his job where we were eating. he stood next to HER only while we ate, so i couldn't hear him or the conversation in the loud room...and i decided to jsut have lunch...and not mind them.
lately, i'm annoyed doing anything with anyone. LOL.
there will be more to have next time..we're not using it up...so, i'll just say no!
perfect time for me to back out...and keep my boundaries! THANK YOU!
I'll throw him for a perfect loop! thanks!
1:30am Banana 120, seltzer with stevia...luckily able to mostly go back to sleep after around half hour on the internet...my mind was still running as it was a social night...the meeting ends with dinner so i was there later and it was good.
Kombucha, larger amount, worked 80
Breakfast from home, so good, a wrap 80 with leftover indian okra all spiced / oiled up so well yum 150, and 1 egg 70: 300, so good, so healthy! glad i picked up that okra when i was in that area of queens on Sunday :-D
Snack: ATKINS coconut chocolate covered bar 200
Noon till 1pm: dark choc covered raisins 100, and a few more 50
Lunch: CHANGED MY MIND. bought buffet lunch of cooked cabbage 150 and sorta bigger portion of corned beef 400...wasn't impressed and realized in many ways i did a better job when i cooked it in the slow cooker!! ..later a small cookie and an espresso from coworker. 50. total here 600. and a truffle 50. and another tasty truffle :)
4:30-5pm snacks: clementine and later a 100 cal no nitrate jerky. 150 total. decent by me :)
1.5 HRS OT
1700 before going home :)
2150 total
2150 5day
dinner: not sure, but i don't see it being large...and i think i'd prefer a "dessert" with my cooked cranberries...with like whipped cream...lol...we'll see.
I bought $40 Godiva 50 pieces of truffles and gave them out along with raspberries to my coworkers on the floor.
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at the meeting last night, good i went, i was the big raffle WINNER: $283. Well, this is one of the first times i've ever been a "winner" so that was great!
I was prob home around 7:30 and inudlged in eating good servings of the fried chicken hero, the bread, and a big oatmeal raisin cookie. I woke up in the middle of the night both with a small appetite and very thirsty...the food must have been very salty. even my fingers were a little swollen!
However, today at work, i will use *SOME* to buy desserts for the office at my lunchtime break. i want to save it mostly and bring it with me to Miami. so, the plan is to save at least $200...at home and use it for Miami as some $$ for when i'm there 2 weeks mid-january. i have not made ANY plans yet for there. I'll think about it most likely the end of the month. It's not a high budget trip. just a long getaway. once again, staying with a friend and her husband.
Some activities to soon be on the Miami agenda: ziplinging definite, perhaps a waterpark, Day trip to Bahamas, concerts of my friend who's a French horn player, seeing my friend the French horn player just to catch up (not the woman i'm staying with..), gym on Mondays, Wed, Fridays, Beach, Walking the boardwalk?, Biking on a boardwalk?, prepping salads for dinner at the apt i'm staying, cooking chicken burgers i guess? - something easy, prepping hard boiled eggs for them to bring to work, perhaps making them egg sandwiches in wraps for breakfasts :)...taking care of them my first couple days there...museums (but really prefering outdoor things...)..and that's a short list to be expanded and worked on!
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
I should make our board members eat after their meeting tonight, LOL, oh my goodness they would probably freak out on me!
TIRED DAY.
So far, my trusty Kombucha 50 :)
Breakfast of a coffee i splurged on for $1.75 from my favorite Spice Grill takout Indian place in the city...i was running early so i did extra walking there and back. around 20 min walking or a mile this AM prior to coming to work :) 50 cal.. and an entenman's cookie bar (change of pace, finishing stuff i have at home that i'm bringing to work) 150.. 200 here.
Mid Morning: wrap, 80, egg 80, half small avocado 150, smoked sea salt. 300 total approx.
11am bar 200
Lunch: all from home, i even have the bone broth also (yesterday i didn't bring liquid as i was worried about it spilling on my commute, but i packed it better today!) extra tofu 150, veggies and broth 200. total here not more than 350 all healthy.
snacking:so far, 1 clementine 50 mixed nuts around 100 cal.
1250
Dinner:fried chicken 400?, bread 400, oatmeal cookie big size 300. 1100?
2350? ugh.
4day: 2150
I have a UNION MEETING...at this meeting, they usually serve those 6' heroes...that are all sliced up like for a party....Meeting is at 6pm...So i leave work around 5pm normal time, meeting 6-7pm, home around 7:30 to relax before Wednesday!... :)
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Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
the good thing about the union events and meetings is that they are well organized. there's almost no reason to not be able to plan and schedule in advance, similar to all the following meetings D went to!
Home: some kombucha 50, not much.
Breakfast: wrap 80 with one egg 70 and half small avocado 150. 2 coffees at work 100. 400.
9:30 dark choc covered raisins with the second cup coffee...just doing what i have to do to feel good here. 100
10:30 protein cake bites, not great, but filling. 250
Close to noon snack: cauliflower almond flour crackers 100...very hungry...due to more caffeine, etc. doing good though.
I brought my lunch :) tofu 100, roasted squash with skin 200, veggies including cooked cabbage 150. 450. so healthy but wishing it had been a bigger portion! - tomorrow it will be! and a bit of chocolate after lunch 100
and snacks :) clementines :) - 2 smallish clementines 50
coffee and granola bar 150, later blueberries 150. and lg banana 150
after workout:cauliflower crust, some cooked cranberries.
2250, awesome.
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No OT today...going home to do my wonderful weights routine :)...doing it today because tomorrow i have a Union Meeting back near my apt at 6pm after work....
....So, no OT tomorrow. Wednesday, the schedule is more OT again, just one hour as to not exhaust myself...
Thursday will be a nice exercise session in the eve again at my apt, and Friday i have a LONG OT scheduled, 4 hours, WITH COWORKER...
...and Friday you can bet we'll be heading over to a HAPPY HOUR and ordering a glass of wine (like a lunch break) during those hours of 5-9pm overtime. When in the city, there's a bar at every corner just about...so yeah. It's the only way...NOBODY else is working these hours in the office. We work practically right at Rockefeller Center.
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Anyone wondering, yes, my sleep was nice and long. could have even slept longer. just up to pee twice. probably slept from 6:30pm-5:45am. My muscles actually feel stronger today, let i can sit up taller at my desk here at work :) I may do this technique of a long sleep next Sunday, too. It's not a good habit to have, but good once in awhile under the kind of boredom / long hours i'm having at work it's good to just "knock out" before it begins again...today :)
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
In the spirit of getting good sleep, I too went to bed on the earlier side, at 9pm. I thought about doing stuff to stay up later, and then I was like, Nah, going to go to sleep.
i appreciate all the support you've always given me and also the advice... :)
yeah, i'm not recommending my sleeping pill idea to ANYONE, but i'll say that sleep is necessary especially when things get rough! :)
on those days off, one day is already BOOKED with TWO drs appts...and i will be planning Miami...
OTC sleeping pills don't do it for me. I use melatonin. Before I used Sleepytime Tea, but then I'd sometimes have to go to the bathroom during the night. Both have been very helpful. I'm not at the point where I need a prescribed sleeping pill, thankfully, but I believe that you are using yours as a responsible person should: as a tool, not a crutch.
this OTC are so strong. sooo strong. thank you for the support about it...i will def make sure to stop the habit before it starts :)
i think i'm bound to get thru this season nicely :)
the sleep felt good. i hope i'll sleep well now all week. sometimes, i cannot sleep after all the extra sleep, but, i do not foresee this to be the case right now :)
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My goal tonight is to get to sleep early as well. Sounds like a solid plan for the rest of the week!
yeah, it's like i'm "reigning in my horses" ... like i'm back to prioritizing so that i'm feeling OK come the shorter work weeks, holidays, my vacation.
I'm prioritizing for stronger workouts, health & moderation so i can meet my main winter goal which is to KEEP BUILDING STRENGTH this weekend and not have any setbacks like previous winters.
a few years ago, i am thinking it was Winter of January 2014, i had to take all winter off the gym due to injury and that was a high set back.
last year Winter 2018 i was set back by illness throughout January.
so this year, i'm being very preventative of a setback.
BearCountryGG on 12/19/2018:
I freeze a lot of food...leftovers stay in the fridge here for up to 4 days....after that...they go to the freezer or get tossed ( rarely)....bacteria starts growing right away........so no one needs food poisoning......I've never had it...and D got it from a restaurant once.....as long as we stick to the 4 day rule...then we do good.
so, after 4 days i should stick the food in the freezer and that'll be ok right? that would help me a lot...?
bearcountrygg on 12/19/2018:
Yes what you don’t use up in four days just put in one serving containers or zip lock bags and freeze. When you want to use them microwave and eat up that day
Thank you for the important tips! I will take advantage of my newfound knowledge and attempt to be more careful and health-conscious with how i'm storing my food! :)
graindart on 12/20/2018:
Good job on the walking. While I've been doing a good job of controlling my eating, I haven't had any real desires to exercise lately. Kind of that winter mentality where I just want to hibernate......
I completely understand.
for me, i like to exercise and i like a challenge and to do things Opposite to what most people do. Most people will take the bus, duh!, as part of the 3mi or so commute home (for some the commute may be 1.5mi up to 3mi like mine). So, i like to be different. So i love it when i'm walking the route, the only route, and the busses all pass by crowded and loaded up with everyone. I smile knowing i'm being healthy to walk it on the days i choose!
Also, my job literally is sitting in one spot all day. My whole adulthood, i have been sorta OCD on fitting exercise into my life. After college when i got a job right away, i also was taking a Masters program for my first 3 years as a working adult when i was 22yrs old thru 25yrs old. I would be so angry on Thursday nights (towards the end of the program especially) because not only would the course be every Thursday for three years, it was a course that was sitting playing the French horn for a period of time just that was too long. It was 2 bands in a row, with two small 10 min breaks, rehearsing every Thursday of the school college year, 5:30PM-10:15PM. I'd get home close to 11pm, on Thursday nights for all of my first 3 years of teaching, and always wake up Friday groggy and tired with puffy lips from playing french horn for that extended period of time (i would never practice for that long a time! or play in ANY groups that would rehearse that long...it was two bands in a row once a week....). it was loud and lots of pressure to play well. And in the end, i not only disliked it but i HATED it with a passion.
I remember i would come home from work, do a little prepping, then I vividly remember as i still was living with my parents that at least once i was screaming how i was so angry to go off to this rehearsal, that wasn't even a for credit course just volunteer as part of the Master's program, that i'd have to sit there, skip or reduce exercise on those days...and that i just hated it.
little did i know that i'd be leaving my Teaching job after 4 years. And that my next job would be SOLELY sitting at a desk. And that i would soon after start working HOURS and HOURS of Overtime my first few years in this current industry. And that my goals in fitness and even for sleep would never be the same again.
Little did i know how "easy" the teaching field was in terms of free time and life-work balance compared to where i am at now.
I was so young and naive then. I have learned so much.
But despite so many ups and downs during my entire adult working years, I have managed in the end to come out successful with my weight and fitness and health.
I didn't have to be that way. At one point around 2013-2015 i was overcoming horrible leg issues of inflammation and shin splints from excess use.
I had to actually learn to pull back and not exercise if in pain.
I have had to learn so much. How not getting sleep and being an athlete are not compatible and lead to serious injuries. And how sleep prevents sickness a lot of the time.
I have learned how nutrition DOES make a difference in preventing sickness and injury.
I know that to be an athlete, you health has to be a little bit above the health of folks that do not exercise.
If i had known what i know now about teaching versus my current job, perhaps i would have tried a little bit harder to stay there.
even when i had this job my first year, i remember going on two more interviews to teach as i knew life would never be the same again. and that's what it's been.
when i see teachers complain and count down to their holidays, in my head i say it's funny because most other industries do not and will never ever have the amount of time off that educators get. of course they deserve it. but, for everyone else working an 8-5 job, life is more of a challenge and especially for special cases like mothers who work full time.
As you know, and now i'm just rambling, time is so precious. And I see it everyday. I see how people's lives are so intricately affected and I have seen what people sacrifice (for example, sleep) and i have made my decisions on what a good sacrifice is versus one i'd rather not take.
either way, little did i know where i'd end up. Life took me bc i was not so decisive, but now, there are some things i will not sacrifice and some things - exercise - i fight to keep and maintain and expand because i know in my heart what's worth it FOR ME better than i did in my early 20's...i think.
I hope that my LONG too LONG comment explains why i am exercising. i pride myself for going the route less desired.
Donkey on 12/20/2018:
Good for you for getting in the walking! When you wrote about prioritizing for stronger workouts - wow, that really hit me as to how to approach organizing my goals and aspirations for 2019 (and beyond). I'll write a little more about this in my own diary if I have time (and if I can remember what I wanted to say!).
I'd love to hear more about prioritizing for stronger workouts. so far, my plans are working out.
Lately like you i'm feeling very tired though because of the stress of OT mostly so i'm pulling back and trying to get myself feeling stronger so i do not get sick. Because you know exercise doesn't work out when you are sick.