kombucha 60
breakfast butter bread by Martin's 160, peanut butter 160 and jelly 20. coffee 50. 400.
snack: coconut choc bar 200 atkins tasty.
Late 1:30pm Lunch from home: Tofu 100, garlic sauteed broccoli 150, grape tomatoes most spoiled so threw out most 50, rice krispie treat 100. 400.
Snack espresso made with stevia, amazing tasting!; 100 japanese dessert (a very small cake with banana cream) from coworker
Healthy ???? dinner at home: TBD, possibly picking up extra veggies..maybe seriously just ice cream and sleeping...but it seems i should really get some good food in, healthy protein, cook up some eggs for the rest of the week...i can even cook up burgers...but prob just relaxing with takeout.
2050, decent.
4day: 2200 :)
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Dealing with a female coworker newest to the room / office i am working in with 5 of us in total since like one month maybe less that she's in here? who i've known for around 4 years that has decided to keep breaking my balls, in front of everyone.
she calls me out for calling people out...which i'm not doing. ..
yesterday i said someone went home (because it seemed someone was looking for that person) and she said i shouldn't rat someone out for leaving, when i was just being honest that they left and that they stayed their time anyways as they had come into work really early...i work for that person and wouldn't ever wanna talk bad about them...so i was totally annoyed when this new coworker in the room loudly told the room that i should have said i don't know where my boss was! dumb.
she calls me out for what i eat and don't eat
she calls me out that i live carefree (according to her accounts of me...) that i have little responsibiity but i am too strucutred that i should just have kids if i want to be tied down, that i have it too easy, etc.
she calls me out that i party (according to her)
she calls me out that my parents pay for my cell phone / have helped me with things because she certainly hasn't had that help
anything i've told her in privacy, she's called me out on...
...i think she was trying to shut me up!!!!!!!!! bc right now, i def don't feel like talking at all!
i used to be able to trust her. she's not trustworthy i can now see.
i had told her a didn't have a lot of work a few weeks ago bc my boss away and i could go to lunch with her - instead she called me out on that and told her boss about what i said...nothing is private. she just wants to talk and have everyone listen to her.
She's an alpha worse than alpha males she used to be an electrician in the field and still acts like she is. i've changed my mind about her, no longer want to hang out, talk to her, wait for her, do anything with her right now. She's been doing this to me around 2 weeks now.
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I may ride my bike after work and complete an errand at the library additionally.
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
3am hungry and couldn't sleep at all...Bread and peanut butter 200
Work: coffee 50, the coconut chocolate bar atkins 170. 220.
snacks: another bar. 180
lunch from home: cauli fried rice:
And salt and vinegar potato chips 300
2:45pm falling asleep, had a second coffee 50
before gym: maybe just a bar and stevia and fruit? NO GYM tonight. need rest. NAH, trying for GYM....yes....gonna try to go...bc the summer is gonna be busy for a couple weeks and i need to try to get three sessions in this week right now...so...gym is ON.
Pb and sf jelly on butter bread 400, some caffeine 1650....
Banana 1800
bar and ice cream 450
2250, good! i had a good workout, too.
Gym went well.
3day 2250
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Gym tonight, but this week it's about just getting in the sessions, not about the quality as much as just getting the workouts in for M,W,F so i'm off for the weekend...will be a very busy week this week :) I've decided to do the gym only 2 days this week. I want to get some sleep tonight after work. Not feeling energized and know that sleep is more important right now.
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I booked my trip to Paris. Got a good deal. $525 ROUND TRIP from 4/25/19 departure till 5/2/19 coming back to NYC. Paris will be a completely FREE stay. then additional trip to London staying cheap in hostel, coming back to paris to go home since it's cheaper than flights out of London. Train will take us between Paris/London
I am booking Miami for Janaury 2019 this Saturday with my friend Jen :) Also a compltely free stay with another friend. and will meet up with at least one other person while i'm there. it may be a long trip, 2 weeks. Miami round trip should be not more than $250 i don't think...flying into Fort Lauderdale probably.
For miami, dates i'm thinking are most of my vacation tome. 1/3 thru 1/18. it would be so nice to be out of the NYC cold for that long :)
Those are my TWO 2019 adventures.
2018 I did not / will not travel.
2017 was fun with Vegas and Columbia last fall :) not even a year ago :)
And now i'm good for 2019.
2020 we'll see what life brings my way.
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
this will be my first trip to Europe :)
And my first trip to stay actually in Miami!
HAPPY SUNDAY! It's been a nice weekend of relaxing and productivity. Getting things done and in order! I found in the freezer section of the supermarket frozen riced cauliflower no flavor just frozen and already with the carrots and peas added in - and directions on the back for making the infamous cauliflower fried rice...will be making it before i leave my apt soon...!
Breakfast was big and healthy: leftover indian saag 300, wrap 100, tofu 50, kombucha 60: 550-600.oh and the sausage (included in counts)
Snack: atkins peanut butter cups, 2. 160
lunch: indian flavor cooked cabbage 100, wrap 100, tofu 100- used my last one need to buy more today. 300 avocado salt, garlic pepper on rice cake 100
coffee 50
early dinner: fireball shots (yes, really!) 300, broccoli with garlic so good and oil 200??, shrimp with garlic butter too200?, salad with some dressing 100, couple large fries 100. 900.
2150...prob have some ice cream for dessert or jello/whipped cream...
2300 good.
2day 2250
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After I make that cauliflower fried rice dish, FINALLY!!!!, i've made other cauliflower recipes but never the cauliflower fried rice with the proper and exact recipe so it actually tastes and looks good...it's about time, trust me....i want to make it every so often and with it being able to be stored in my freezer, i can pull out a bag of the frozen veggies and cook them anytime i want cauliflower fried rice (the eggs and other ingredients are to be added - not part of the frozen veggies - it's very easy and i'm super excited....i'm making it in this HOUR today..as soon as i finish typing to you all!
I got laundry done yesterday and some shopping at supermarket, though i do still need to buy some bread/wraps for the week.
I also want to get my toes done...seems to last a good month and then i sorta need to cut my nails and get it redone. I sorta tore off all my fingernails a little to short on Friday, i don't do my fingernails often, only toes bc it looks so much better with sandals for work...i'll prob do them again in August and that may be it for the summer :) was worth it getting them done...looks so nice comparted to toenails without polish, in my personal opinion :) though, i'm not going to do hot pink this time...it was supposed to be coral but looked hot pink for some weird reason...i need a new color :)
then, seeing a friend for dinner, possibly...
i was up early, watch a movie i borrowed from library. it was very emotional about WW2 and the concentration camps but also about true love and family support....it's called Life is Beautiful and i cried a bunch of times while watching it this morning <3
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As of 11:20am or so - My internet connection has been very poor this AM! hasn't been like that in quite some time so i hope things will improve. It's happening on all internet sites, not just here!
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
Last night before bed 150 cal
10am breakfast: wrap 100, egg 100, saag spinach a lot 300-350?, whipped cream half container of a light style brand 250. 800. kombucha 50.
1000. higher than it should be...overate at 10am.
Noon: chips and strawberries, seltzer with stevia 200 approx
bars, coffee 350
dinner after gym: popcorn 120, tofu 150, indian veggies sauced 250-300. 550 and plums 100
2200, glad i got something in that was healthier and substantial at dinner.
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just gonna relax and read / write ice cream reviews,
and get my toes done..
maybe head out to a free dance concert this afternoon at a somewhat local park (guessing 20-25 min most driving to get there, maybe less).
grocery shopping also? - don't need too much this week, still have veggies to finish.. - just need some fruit/protein i think,
laundry is getting done now at noon,
gym tonight because i'm not sure of plans tomorrow...and don't wanna leave it to the last minute sunday night.
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Tomorrow i have early plans with a friend...female friend to try out a free adventure course that is local in my area :)
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
Rather than Cool-Whip, have you looked into whipping up skim milk? I know Starbucks does that, and I remember seeing an infomercial years ago for a hand-held mixer that promoted whipped skim milk as a low cal treat that the machine could make. Just an idea... That Cool Whip stuff has... well, let's just say that I believe there to be a better nutritional choice ;-)
Hope you have fun on Sunday (today)!
KOMBUCHA 50
COFFEE AND ATKINS TASTY COCONUT CHOCOLATE BAR 220
SNACK: WRAP 100, 1/2 AVO WITH SALT AND GALRIC 150, EGG, 100...350...
lunch 700 cal about...ground turkey, olive and cauliflower mix around 400, and very oily chick peas around 300? i hope not more. maybe even 750.
ALMONDS
seltzer, dark chocolate and strawberries, 200 cal before bike ride (maybe at most 1 mile jog if i feel up to it...)
1700...at least everything was healthy.
dinner 500-600
2200-2300 tops :)
7day 2125, good!
biked and walked / jogged = success.
10:45pm: Entenman's cereal bar 150 (not that good)
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
650 before lunch :) all healthy.
Healthy lunch too: wrap 100, with sorta a lot of salmon leftovers from yesterday 350?, and my asian inspire cabbage side dish 600, tops.
snack: almonds if needed...i want coffee tho.And chocc 200
snacks before gym: TBD...got tons of indian at home so probably a wrap with a side of a pepper since i have lots of peppers still in fridge...honey cookie 150, drinks 30, raspberries 120. 300
after gym: cookie protein, tastes of ice cream. 400, ice cream 100
2200 or so :)
2090 6-DAY, GOOD!
debating biking to gym :)
then bed...home late around 10pm. i'll be happy to sleep on Friday night.
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
Kombucha 100
Bar and coffee 200
Wrap 100 with 1/2 avocado 150, egg 100, salt and garlic. 350.
Lunch: I Indulged on healthy food, some from a restuarant and some from a food truck: Salad with feta 150 other veg 100 Very Oily chick peas and veg spread 350? Salmon small amount 200 800-850 for lunch but healthy and good nutrients
1500 after lunch - thinking today is an ice cream day and early to bed -
I am not planning extra exercise - but might walk a little small amount to use my coupon at bath and body works for a free travel size hand lotion! i love them at work. although a bike ride could be good today.
1600 before dinner
Veggies and saag 350, yogurt 150, and ice cream 250. 750 tad overboard
2350.
5day 2070
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
Great job on the bike ride to the gym! Fantastic!
Very wise decision to take it easier on yourself and so looking forward to all your plans for your upcoming trips this winter!
yes, bike ride was awesome...i think i may do a little bike ride today if i feel up to it!
yeah, can't party too much this summer...i'm trying to lay low...friends luckily tempted me to do more, but, i find myself having to think about / say no to some activities...i enjoy when i do better with my exercise and sometimes the extra socializing isn't worth it if it leaves me exhausted / unable to exercise.
I didn't comment on Tueday's entry, but yes, do travel! You have amazing opportunities to do this relatively inexpensively and with someone who knows the areas. DO IT. While I've never been to France, my trip to the UK was amazing.
i also get the lotion that is FREE, without a purchase required. i just walk in, choose my scent, give them a coupon and leave.
20 MIN LATE TO WORK bc i got up late, needed to use the bathroom and just knew i had to do that no matter what, so i just left late. I did work late last night, but it's better to come ON TIME to work. Still working on this..on this time thing. i have to wake up earlier is the issue again...I had changed my alarm clock time over the weekend, so i just need to set it better, louder, tad earlier.
kombucha 50, later coffee 50, wrap 100, avocado 150, egg 100, salt/garlic. 450.
snack: not sure, maybe almonds or maybe lemon bar again. 150
lunch: from home - salty - cabbage in the egg roll flavor style with tofu and matzah cracker. 400.snack: plum?
Bigger dinner veggies 350, wrap 100, chicken 200, leftover Indian potato 100 Gonna say 1750 after bigger healthy dinner AFTER gym tbd ice cream perhaps
after gym: thinking a bar? no more ice cream i don't think today...? chocolate 200.
2000 today. awesome.
4day: 2000! AWESOME AGAIN!
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I've decided to take up an offer in April to see a friend in France. I will stay with her for free and travel cheaply $600 round trip flight to Paris.
In Jan / Feb, I'll go to Miami to stay with different friend. Flight around $200 i think round trip to Fort Lauderdale.
I will be especially planning France.
Miami i will stay extra. and go to a gym there i'm thinking...and maybe stay as long as TWO WEEKS in the dead of NYC winter.
Things of my own both private and personal life i'm looking forward to - totally planned by me...for me...with my friends...and a FULL OUT GETAWAY from NYC both times. Enlightening trips, enlivening, adventurous trips bc it seems i'll be traveling solo for a bit of time, even if i stay with friends, they may be working some of the time i stay with them. in both cases, it's a free stay, i will buy meals??? do i owe them more? I hope not? i don't have more cash to blow than around $1,000 which is what the two trips should cost total - that's an unreal deal for Miami for two weeks and France for around just under a week. so 3 weeks of travels for $1,000 is my Winter/Early spring plans.
I was invited by both, not my offer to start, they are sincere friends and wonderful women! i am so lucky for these opportunities for 2019...thankful so thankful. Since my job is stable now and everything looks ok...i figure now is the time to make a 1st trip to Europe (Paris) and to Miami (flying into fort lauderdale to save $$) (also first time)...it's a bit of living and traveling that will make me so happy. Like a 36th birthday present to myself, these trips.
my plan is this: save $1,000 in cash from now until then, to pay back my card / however i plan to pay for these flights. i'm going to save weekly / monthly so i'm not using savings to pay for any bit of these trips.
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
We just celebrated our 19th wedding anniversary last month. I'm going to do some type of surprise trip for our 20th next year. No decisions made yet, but have been thinking a surprise trip to Hawaii.
my moods are really up and down lately...i'm having really high highs and feeling weird...hormones are really whacky making me want things i don't normally want so much...it's really strange. now that i think about it, i don't think i took anxiety medicine for a couple days...could be why. or could just be my own hormones, emotions.
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Home: hardly any kombucha - don't need it bc i was seriously using the bathroom to much all weekend, sorry TMI! 30
Small Breakfast: hunger died down so much...coffee 50, Atkins Lemon Bar (change of pace, getting slightly bored so mixing it up!) 150.
Snack: TBD..i do have a wrap 100, avocado 150, and egg 100. 350.
Lunch: from home, the "egg roll in a bowl - no shell - cabbage and tofu that didn't spoil thankfully...300 and probably matzah? saved today's lunch for tomorrow. Matzah cracker 120, veggies 50, other veggies 100, chicken 300. 600 tops.
Snack: almonds if needed & choc...staying at work half hour or so late to finish something.
Dinner: aiming for not ice cream but healthy veggies, and a protein at home...i have a lot of leftover chicken, actually...not really in eating mood at work anymore, we'll see about dinner when i'm closer to home..dessert of ice cream/whipped cream/jello. 500
1900., little extra walk home, too.
3day:
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Plans for tonight: walk a little extra from bus, put laundry away, reading, bed early...just resting up tonight! I'm learning how to balance life so i'm still alive come Saturday and Monday mornings...meanign, i feel good on the weekend as well as feel ok on Monday morning! I feel happy about this plan for the rest of the summer which is also known as NOT doing too much and taking more rest. I don't want to use any vacation days until really the wintertime, so i'm going to work on having more relaxation on weekends rather than less. I'm getting better at this and glad i was laying around yesterday.
I also got a long bike ride in, 2mi each way, to the gym. It was a success. And all in all, I feel so much better this summer than possibly even last summer and definitely the summers before.
For me, it's about NOT pushing myself over my limits. It's about realizing the goal can be changed. It's about knowing that even my court officer academy goal doesn't have an AGE LIMIT...NONE! so, perhaps even my jogging goals can be less definite...and i can actually start loving life even more now...knowing that i'm ok now at my job security once again...meaning my job is going ok...and that time is once again on my side..and to enjoy my life, at 36yrs old soon come September, injury-free and lwith ower stress..less is more on my end. both with plans, exercise, and activity scheduling and planning wise. i can do this!!!!!!
With a slow day yesterday, i'm doing better than usual on this Monday. For the summer for the rest of it which is a lot, I think i need to plan to have down time as i did this weekend. Feeling much, much better than last weej,,,
Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
Up doing laundry and relaxing. i may take a nap again after laundry is done, lol. Gym later. Movie that i borrowed from library tonight with R. I want to also cook the a dish which can be called "inside of an egg roll." aka just the inside, not the outer wrapping. i have soy sauce and also bragg's aminos i just bought. i cannot wait to cook it up. all you need is salt and pepper, aminos (or soy sauce) and sesame oil. cannot wait to eat it!
9:30 Breakfast for was for flavor: whipped cream 200, chocolate yogurt (but not that good not sure if i'll buy again) 120, entenman's chocolate chip cereal bar (too good) 130, and a little kombucha 30. 500.
10:30 Snacking: leftover spinach saag 150, wrap 100, indian style sauteed green beans / curry 100. 350. lots of nutrients up in here!
lunch / snack before gym: another wrap 100, with leftover chicken 200?, a big marinated pepper leftover still great thrown inside 100, popcorn with black pepper 100. 500., plum earlier 50. 550.
...time to get ready for gym. have a small bit of caffeine :) and jello ugh.50.nap before gym.,another small plum 50, rice krispie treat 100.
i think i'm going to try biking to the gym!!!! it's 1.5-2mi away.
after gym: tbd small banana 100 and later tofu 200, my cabbage cooked asian style 100, whipped cream and jello 150. 550
2150.
2day: 2050 :)
movie tonight :).i was thinking bike ride but may just relax the rest of today so i can start this week Monday alive instead.. of 90% death bed style like last week! but plans can change and i may sneak a bike ride in! might need to skip the movie. tired day.
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Well...that's a bummer.......like the old saying goes..."With friends like that you don't need enemies" She sounds jealous of your lifestyle. Sounds like she will throw you under the bus no matter what you say or do....that makes it difficult to be in the same room all day..........:(
yeah, untrustable!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm sure a bit jealous. tho she'd be quite bored with my lifestyle! sad she's changed her ways...i think she likes to talk and wanted to get me to stop talking, it worked...i'm no longer interested to talk as much, i'd rather just listen (at work).
innerpeace on 07/24/2018:
I would consider that a hostile work environment. I tell my husband all the time, you have NO friends at work. They will just crawl over your dead body to get to the top than actually try and help you succeed. And what is bad, his success or failure does not affect them in any way. I just have never worked in an environment where someone was more interested in my life and goings on then what is actually going on in there lives. I hope you can find a solution. Have fun on your bike ride.
i am going to distance myself from her, little by little...it doesn't help that she gets a room at a former coworker's house and i'm sure they chat about me there...at times. he probably gives her ideas...dumb dumb.
she may be smart, but socially i'd say she's a big L.
happy-1 on 07/24/2018:
Oh geez that is a nightmare... I am so sorry you have to deal with that. I literally don't know what to say.
yeah, she'd never been like this to me in the past, i used to work far from here in the office. now that we are in the same room, i was also shocked by her behavior.
Donkey on 07/24/2018:
Listen to what Innerpeace has said. She is spot on 100%.
If I could comment to your reply to her, I would say, Do NOT distance yourself from her "little by little". DO IT. NOW. If she makes a comment about you being quiet or non-responsive, just say that you don't feel well or that you're going to throw up and go to the bathroom. (Turn the water on... wait, flush the toilet. Nobody will know.)
Just get yourself out of her line of fire any way you can.
Ok, and you are sure this is the way right?
i think her life right now is particularly rocky...so she particularly is interested in feeling better by doing what she's been doing with me...
she was in late today, slept in...
yes, i'm following you. no need to make any plans or invite her, i guess. i am hanging out with a diff coworker and her daughter, so i have to be careful of what i say around the teasing one. we are all in same room.
she's loud and wants to be heard. she wants people to think she has it all going for her, an outward appearance that everything is right, when lots of things are quite wrong....i'll stay away.
worst is there was someone i was too honest with in the past, an older man i hung out with a few times, she is now living in one of the rooms of his house! so she doesn't have to do the over 2 hour one way commute right now...i'm sure they speak of me...hence whatever her views are, they are now strengthened after whatever she talks with him about :( no worries, i'll distance myself like you said.