i currently weigh 131 lbs. (and this is primarily what lifting weights is good for - getting over bad binges....see below...) maybe my goal for September should be to weigh below 130. it would be the first time in a long time, over a year. so, let me try, let me try just by exercise and refraining from a few more binges, to get into the 120s. I know that once I am there, I will be ecstatic and that i will try hard to get to an even lower weight, 125.
(reposted from an entry in July: I BELIEVE, although i could have skipped through my entries too fast, but I BELIEVE the last time i was in the 120s was SEPTEMBER 2008. that's approximately THREE YEARS AGO! )
breakfast: 400, 100 later = 500
lunch: fruit, 100, microwave meal 350, very rich & chocolately cookies for dessert: 350.
around 1300.
binging during storm ice cream 750, cookies 200, more 100, chips 600, cookies 200. more ice cream 250, pretzels 100. total here: 2200
tsf: yowsa. totally ok., plum, 3550., chicken deli meat 100, and then salad with chicken and some olives/olive oil 300 more. total: 3950. not great, at least not 4,000! haha.
3950 calories today. tomorrow will be better for sure!
lately, i don't even regret overeating. i just feel a little sick, little tired, and that's it. so weird. then i try to maintain some level of exercise and move on. i don't wanna binge often, but i still lack control when i'm home for many hours of the day, like today and yesterday.
so i will have to exercise, but if i do, i will be able to maintain my weight and not worry. but, this is not how to lose weight, obviously. this is why i cannot lose weight! hmmmm. something to consider, huh!?
dinner: (yeah, i will probably eat again later tonight) -
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
If you want some good bathroom reading material, read my previous entry!!! while in the grass last night having sex the darn mosquitos attached me like crazy!!! i guess that's my consequence for having random sex (but always with a condom!!! it is very important to me to always use protection.)
random sex...i have now slept with: guy from Xray class back in the spring of 2010, sporty guy #1 from long island at the bar, guy #2 from Astoria who i met at the same bar as guy #1, guy i dated a few times 3 years ago that i reunited with recently twice, and guy from gym. everyone except Xray guy I have slept with from maybe March till now. Xray guy was earlier on. whoa. so crazy. at almost 29, i don't have a problem with carefully/safely, as safely as i can that is, sleeping around a little bit. after all, if i'm not in a relationship, i have needs too. it's not only guys that enjoy sex.
8am breakfast: 2 yogurts w. apple butter: 250, fiber one and milk 200, big peach 100: 550.
2:30pm BIG late lunch, was really good and i'd do it again haha: plum 40, peach 80, 2 red peppers 100, bran crackers 50, a microwave really tasty eggplant dish 350, yogurt 100, AND DARK CHOCOLATE really, really good 300 cal: 1020. perfect for me right now!
total so far: 1570.
2500 total cal today. not great, not terrible.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
fantastic end to a so-so day. wow. ok, some of you may really be disgusted. I had sex with someone i met at the gym a few months ago. we see each other there, not often though because i usually go to a gym that's closer to home. Only occasionally do I go to this other gym, that i like better, but like i said it's out of the way for me on a regular basis. yep, we flirted there, worked out a little together, and had sex outside...and now i have mosquito bites as punishment. what a night!
goodnight.
no appetite after this crazy night.
calories: breakfast 400 chips, yogurt, bran and milk.
snack: 200 protein shake
lunch: grapefruit, some cherries/strawberries, beans with almonds and 2 eggs. chips. 550.
snack: almonds 100.
snack: plums 150, diet pepper
total calories: 1400-1500. perfecto.
exercise: 15 min cardio, 1.5 hours weights/back/pushups. i don't do abs anymore bc i bought something for them that i wear for about a half hour most days of the week as my ab exercise.
not hungry after the gym and sex. not sure what happened with me...well, i guess i had a crazy night. and it was fantastic, aside from maybe the 10-15 mosquito bites i have. haha.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
Today I did nothing for me. skipping the gym, the one thing i do enjoy pisses me off to no end. but tomorrow i need to get up and be at work by 7am. i am tired of being exhausted when the weekend begins and that is why i am not exercising tonight. i don't want to have no sleep again on a friday, it doesn't feel good going into the weekend. I wanted to do weights at the gym. whatever.
I had a horrible day.
I worked from 8-7:30 and got home around 9pm.
I do work I do not like.
I lie that I like it.
and didn't do any cardio or weightlifting.
I am upset going to bed right now, bad day, sucks.
goodnight.
calories: around 1800 or so.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
I guess i didn't have enough protein at dinner, either. up in the middle of the night, 3am, hungry and my head was itchy! so i took a shower and drank a ton of water with a little chocolate stevia flavoring that i added. :-)wish i wasn't up now, but i guess serves me right!?
good day but really hungry all morning, not a good feeling. i had breakfast, but not enough protein. felt horrible!
healthy foods overall.
around 1900-2000 cal.
40 min walk. and abs exercise.
goodnight.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
Great job, by the way, on the police academy test. Way to go!
good day. dinner was a little large, healthy, but large.
maybe around 2200 today, hoping it was less...
1500 before dinner.
dinner: 2 pcs of grilled chicken, full pieces, one banana, a large plum, and 2 big glasses of milk.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
1800 calories, primarily healthy foods. lots of veggies/fruit today. good day!
exercise: almost an hour of strenuous cardio.
goodnight.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
I got a 96% on the written part of the Police Academy test yesterday. It was a computerized test where the score is calculated automatically afterwards. wahoo! Now on to take the other parts, the whole process, if I do even get in to the academy, may take a full year...wow, this is exciting though!
i just cooked lots of chinese vegetables and low calorie (shirataki) noodles to bring with my lunch this week to work. i'm gonna be prepared and healthier this week. yay.
snack: pria bar 110
breakfast: bran 60, milk 100, fiber one 140: 300.
snack: 300 plum, protein shake
snack: 200 banana, milk
920 so far.
dinner: some of a sicilian slice of pizza during dinner with a guy before we went to see "The Help" movie - great movie!
maybe not even 1500 cals today. perfect.
exercise: hour cardio, 1.5 hours weights.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
bad night last night. doing better this AM, much better.
breakfast: bran 60, milk 100, fiber one cereal 150: 310 good!
snack: yogurt and banana and apple butter: 250, drink 20
tsf: rounding up, 600 cal great.
2500 calories,
maybe 5 miles.
good day. i'm ok with those calories, had some late dessert at home.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
(info for me - i weigh 133.)
angry to go to work today. i worked an hour late yesterday and didn't want to. i'm exhausted.
no exercise, i worked from 8am-7pm, got home around 8:30 in a bad mood and had dinner, but first my parents were not very sympathetic to my mood and we ended up having an argument before i could even eat dinner, right when i got home and was making food in the kitchen. i knew i should have went to the gym right away...i knew my parents would make my night a living hell, as they always do....great way to start the weekend.
i don't know what to do anymore. just like my parents to make the start of my weekend a disaster.
calories: i have no idea i didn't count, but not bad. probably 1800-1900. good.
exerice: ****ing none. angry. it was thundering/lightning horrible weather and i didn't leave my house again to get to the gym, it was late, 8:30pm and i didn't even have dinner yet.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!
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Haha love the story =) Have a great week coming up =)
hollybelle on 08/28/2011:
Well, about binging - I am not exactly binging, but I am eating more than ususal for like 2 weeks = almost every day. I am exercising and I am trying to go with the flow and let it go in anticipation of it evening out soon - but I can't seem to get in touch with my feelings that are making me eat like this. I KNOW I'm not always HUNGRY when I am eating, but I do it anyway. I am not bored, and I am not all that stressed (at least no more than usual-work, my dad, home duties, etc.).....I seem to know what I am not, but I'm not sure what I AM that is making me over eat. Not exactly binge, but over eat......any ideas for me on this?
KayBee on 08/29/2011:
I feel the same, the lack of control when I'm home for hours. Last year I had an insane exercise timetable partly because I wanted to avoid being home & eating out of boredom ...