8:30am breakfast oatmeal with almond milk 170, whole milk chobani with strawberry on bottom 160..330, later coffee 50. 380
then fell asleep for an hour or two.
11am snack: same bar as last night since i bought two and they were more healthy than even expected and tasty 250
2pm lunch hard boiled egg and seasoning, cranberry juice, 200, maybe some chips...salt and vinegar bean chips almost 2 servings 250
almost 5pm plum 50
dinner was good, didn't have any alcohol besides a few sips of Ricky's. lots of cabbage, tasted like sugar might have been added, 250, fried cod which was SUPER GREAT 250, and two jumbo fried shimp also GREAT 300, 100, and a granola bar 100 when i got home later at night. 1000
total around 2250, extremely tasty dinner. loved it!
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will be cooking a lot today...
feeling like another UTI, but trying to skip the dr and drink cranberry juice...wish me luck!!!!!!!! i believe it's from sweating / walking at lunch at home and i guess i need to shower extra...should have showered last night before bed...
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
kombucha 60
breakfast from buffet (didn't pack it) and it was less then $3 because it's by weight - so, i might have to do this a LITTLE more often! half a small bagel 150, with cream cheese good amount of it 150, lox - nice amount of that too! 100!!!! nice! and portioned out, premade. there was a slight hair / string in it though! yuck! and coffee from work. 50.
9:45am snack: small quaker pb chip granola bar 100, ALMONDS 100, PEANUTS 100
lunch: LEFTOVERS once again :) great week money-wise and variety-wse! different from most weeks, enjoyable, and fun: i did indulge though - tomato salad with dressing 100, other veg with light dressing 100, too much pastrami 350, bread 100. 650-700
snacks: Fruit 100 and a starbucks iced passion tango since it's right next door and i'm craving sweet things today, possibly almonds too 100
light dinner plum, 2 greek yogurts 350
10pm decided on a larger late night snack: really tasty bar, natural and not too much sugar 250 cal and some lime seltzer. ...i'll prob have to wake up to pee, but, i should also sleep well lol...ok, goodnight!
2300
7day : 2095.
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Today i'll make sure to enjoy the weather and walk home partially at least :) maybe grab on iced tea from starbucks on the walk too (it'as around 6pm and i'm with an appetite usually, so this obviously helps me at that hour)
Plans are to do some walking, do more soaking of legs (still doing the epsom salt baths at least 2x per week - it's def relaxing and i'll keep at it) and go to bed at a reasonable hour.
Tomorrow, i'm totally going to do some cooking & baking, but before that Ricky will come over to help me with a shower head / hose installation :) also i'm giving him my bike to fix and for him to see if i need a new air pump (nice to have a handy-man which he is 100% of that - very capable without prior experience many things...he likes to fix things!)
And like i mentioned earlier in an entry a few days ago, i have a really nice plan for Saturday night (German beer garden restaurant with live disco band and "authentic german food" - which is WAYYYY better than Sunday's option to go to a reunion with people of whom MOSTLY don't work in the summertime, have more flexible schedules, and want to be out late on a Sunday night...for me, i don't need to see them, discuss babies, discuss my life, or be out late before a busy week :)
"authetic german food" - i'll prob get the fried shrimp, but what i really want is the beer batter fried fish...so, we'll see...lol, if you consider that German LOL. they do have German food, though, that's NOT what i want to get!
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
Glad to see you are benefiting from the epsom salt baths! I try to get one in about every two weeks - every time I do, it helps me recover faster.
It's so nice to have someone handy nearby; I am dependent on BF for a lot of fix-it type things now (I used to try to do everything myself); he is also one of those people who likes to fix things. I've got him booked to re-do my backyard deck this year! I can't wait :)
and the epsom salts i look forward to either tonight or tomorrow morning
LOL, shrimp and fish are not German - but get what you want; that way, you won't be disappointed. Besides, the ambiance is German.
Kombucha 50
typical wrap and coffee 350, 2 chocolates 120
snack tbd ALMONDS 200 2x
lunch: lots of fresh veggies and some dressing 180, some other leftovers here in the fridge too - Half a large potato baked knish 250, leftover pastrami 200. 630 approx
snacks: peach 50 / almonds 100 / 2 gummy candies 50
Tonight is STRENGTH WORKOUT :)
Before / during strength - will prob include an iced coffee and lots of strawberries, fresh, that i bought yesterday on the way home! pound of strawberries 150, iced coffee 50, pb on rice cake 100, aminos 50
after exercise: TBD bar 200
2100, excellent!
6day - around 2060, excellent.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
after work when i get home usually around 6:30pm or similiar times, i am very eager to have fruit lately!!!!! my appetite is not even that strong lately, just wanting to indulge in fruit.
kombucha 80
breakfast is typical and coffee 350
snack: almonds 100, 2x chocolate 100
lunch: will be leftovers as well as veggies from coworker's garden omg happy about this! lol - there was a meeting and extra food, so i had a LOT of really tasty pastrami that was still warm and good 300, one slice of rye bread with mustard too 150, and leftover veggies along with a couple half sour pickles 100 and a diet cream soda.550-600 i have enough pastrami to also have it both tomorrow and friday.
snack: fruit 100/ almonds100 / 2 Small cookies 100
1550
dinner: tbd- thinking fruit / yogurt and early to bed
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will do a shorter walk home, unless it's raining, which it is forcasted to do.
if rain- bed early.
total cal was 2000
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
I've spent many years feeling frustrated with people's ability to be 'fake'; finally I realized that it is a coping strategy for them. It's hard to be real in front of people sometimes, and - for a lot of people - being 'fake' means not having to show a side of themselves that they may not be proud of.
I truly hope that your friend C was just being cranky that day and didn't intend to make you feel hurt. Your response to Donkey indicated that you have complained to C about R in the past. I have a close group of ladies who would never intentionally put me down or judge the way I live. HOWEVER, they will be real with me and let me know if they feel someone is affecting me negatively. I appreciate their honesty. More than once, they have been right about the energy in my relationships that I have been unable to see.
So, I will be 'real' with you right now, but without knowing all the details or history please excuse my opinion if it's way out in left field and C really was just being nasty for the sake of nastiness. If it seemed to me that a close friend of mine was being negatively impacted by someone, I would not hesitate to question it. It sounds like C approached the conversation in a very negative way, which may make her intentions about it unclear. If it isn't worth the conversation with her, that's cool, but if it happens again i'd question her intentions in responding to you that way.
I am always around (virtually lol) if you need to talk!
next, C hates Ricky. She doesn't think well of him due to the first and only time they met he was very sarcastic and she took it really, really personally. not saying he was acting apropriately either for a first time meeting. he was extra rude that time i'd say.
she doesn't think well of him and doesn't like that i hang with him. she thinks he's a very bad influence on me.
while that is ok, and it's ok for her to tell me to take care of myself and make sure i am hanging with good people, the thing is that she's not always available to do new / different activities especially local ones.
whereas ricky doesn't always behave how he should, he's my local friend and the person i do local things with.
so, it's not like i'm able to hang out with her instead of him as she's not even interested in these local events and she doesn't live close to me like he does. she knows i hang with him.
anyways, she was prob ddoing it for my benefit in her reaction, but, it was still rude.
instead of walking, i was able to go to bed early and sleep a bit extra last night.
i'll be fixing up my bike for riding on Saturday.
kombucha 60
wrap and egg 200, avo 100, seasonings, coffee 50
snack: chocolate and almonds 150
lunch: ...meatballs from buffet yesterday and my veggies..maybe chips (but getting off them)....more buffet: tomato and cucumber salad, quinoa and roasted squash. need the health and change right now! 600. heathy.
snack: 2 apricots, almonds
before / during workout: A lot of strawberries, huge container but they were not very good - many were spoiled - i couldn't tell before buying - so no more buying strawberries in Manhattan at the fruit stand, only at the fruit stand in Queens! lol i have better luck at that one! 200 in strawberries (HUGE 2lb container!) and iced coffee 50. ..hard boiled egg with lots of seasonings 70, peanut butter 80
after workout tbd: bar 250
2050 today, happy about that!
4day: 2050, great
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tonight is strength.
yes, my back is still sore - will probably skip situps (which may have caused my sore back initially.. - or it was due to a bad sleeping posture).
the book i am reading is very sad, i'm thinking it could have contributed to my mood...but is not entire reason.
i feel a bit better emotionally today, still sore in my lower back.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
not bone.
either muscle or nerve related to the pain i may get at times from sciatica at work.
i stayed away from situps bc those exercises tend to be quite a pounding to my back and instead did planks...omg, haven't done planks in awhile and i lost a LTO of strength! i think i might do them (planking) more often!
for some reason, i am feeling upset today. i can't really say why other than i am tired and didn't sleep well. i am just sad. it's been a long time since i last felt this way at work, but this time i know it's either bc my hormones / chemicals are screwy or i'm just having an off day.
definite feelings of sadness.
related but not the same, i'm not getting the real support i'd like from any close friends. i really don't have much in that category anyways - but - the ones that are close to me i do not feel are much help right now. it's more that i'm yearning for a new, special relationship - the type you get from the opposite sex like in a real boyfriend. someone i am proud of and who i can look to, to talk to. of course, it's not something i need, i'm just a bit sick of everything typical.
i did talk to a young guy at work today for less than 5 min while he was mircrowaving his lunch. nice guy. prob around 10 yrs younger as in he's closer to 26-28 whereas i am turning 37. not really so close in age at all, so i take it lightly and don't really consider anything.
plus, the health condition i mentioned a couple weeks ago on here - i have changed my ways and do not think about actually taking part in any more "casual s*x" as there is no more benefit to me or others and i will not hurt others in this way or face more health problems with related issues. so i'm just sitting here, i guess a little sad about that. i guess if nothing were a problem, i'd make a little more effort to flirt with him. but now, it's different. and in general, before, i wish i knew this moreso. i wish i had greater outside warning. i'm not even sure if i would have taken the precautions had i been warned, but, it is what it is and i'm at where i am at now. no going back!
going forward, if i want a "relationship," i'm going to actually have "to try" at it. meaning, the talking, the company, the real emotional aspect and not just the "play" part. and i know that's what is to come hopefully down the road. and i have to hope that my partner has the same needs / desires / openness about him.
another reason possibly behind the sadness is the fact that i haven't been able to continue my training in the way i would have liked this summer in terms of cardio. It's a kick in the gut and today i actually woke up with a sore lower back due to possibly something i did while sleeping.
i'm feeling discouragement with the court officer training and also encouragement that i have to change the training slightly (my pushups are not progressing much - i need to add the planks back in as additional abdominal work)...
i may have to regroup and refresh myself tonight on how this next month is going to go...something has to change.
and no, i cannot restart the ladder cardio yet..i could have been biking, but i think the tires need air...i can look at it tonight, maybe, or i can just go to bed early as is what really seems to be what i need today.
BUT, now at 36 turning 37 in September, i can only realize the most important thing which is the only person that can truly change my life or change a feeling of sadness is ME. i have to work on myself / my goals / my situation. complaining or staying sad for too long - won't help me.
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kombucha 60
wrap with egg 200 and avo 100 and coffee 50.
snack :almonds? 200
lunch: wasn't in the mood for what i brought, so bought buffet: small piece salmon 200, about a cup of baked noodles with light amount of cheese 400?, salad 100. 700 approx. i was craving carbs and my mood today has been going down the tube for no explanatory reason which i have thought is weird...
snack: apple / almonds
dinner: just a snack which is really sometimes what i like on weekends, less fiber and easier to digest: 2 of my whipped cream treats that were in the freezer 100, strawberries good serving 100, yogurt light 100 with sf chocolate chips 100 tops. 400.
1950.
3day:
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
The good news is that it passes, as far as feeling negative.
Perhaps it is time to find a relationship to add to your life sphere. Don't write someone off just because of an age difference, especially younger ad long ad the person is mature and wants the same things you do in life. With a solid relationship, it won't seem like it's a gap. It really doesn't.
I was a little concerned about your training for court officer, BUT you know your limits. Pushing yourself if your ankle is tender will do you no good.
Give it a day or 2 and see if the sadness fades. This episode has brought up a lot of interesting ideas about what you want in your life, for your life. You can work on these when you feel a little less vulnerable.
My period will not come for another two weeks...but maybe my back is still affecting my mood?
you are right i will get over this "spell." it seems i am just needing more time alone to let this pass and figure things out.
thank you for the relationship advice. he and i , this guy at work, do not live close either. so that's another thing. i will still chat with him when we see each other (we don't see each other that much, so at least we can chat when we do). it's at least nice to chat with somebody new!
yeah, i cannot push the ankle / leg. i am trying not to be totally sedentary, but will have to rethink the training and how i continue to do it.
thank you for the comment. i appreciate the fact that you are reminding me of something important - that my mood will change and this will not last.
Yesterday, I got your friend C and J mixed up. You have written about C before. It seems to me that she has some issues with being negative and pulling in others' parades.
That doesn't excuse her rudeness or behavior but it certainly does explain her comment.
I was initially concerned that J had made this comment, so I thought maybe something else in the context of the conversation was going on. Now I get it.
you got it.
My coworker / roommate at work says it best too - she says the older you get, the less you want to share and of course the less expectations to have with people. sometimes it's not worth even bringing up to a friend that you feel something didn't go right, sometimes it's best to let it roll and just enjoy what does work with friends. it's just not worth the arguments anymore.
I am having a LOT of uneasy thoughts this morning with nobody to talk to about them. I know a lot of these thoughts i can push aside as not being critical or relative to my life right now...but they are seeping their way into my whole day. has to do with an invite to a 20yr small hs reunion gathering (around 15 people max) that i will not attend. the other other thought is about a friend i was with yesterday. i mentioned a Ricky to her a few times...and the last time i did, in the car as we passed his apt, she said "you've mentioned ricky quite a bit today, stop talking about him"....would be interesting if i told her to stop talking about some of the people she chats to me about...i'd never tell her to shut up...really just frustrated right now about not speaking up in the moment yesterday to her and telling her that if i want to talk about him, it's quite rude for her to tell me i have to watch who i discuss with her. it's rather rude as i am friendly with him and hang out with him a lot. it's like a jealousy thing with her and i cannot take having to watch my words with her. more and more i have felt this way....it;s all disheartening to me more and more that i am just not comfortable with anyone lately fully. lately, i can say with assurance that there's NOBODY - no best friend or lover - that i have that i'd want to share my life with.
secondly, there's this reunion that i wanted no part of. on facebook, i went as far as to turn off the notifications of the group i was in that was had discusions about the reunion bc it also brings up very uncomfortable, sad, feelings about a number of things in my life from as early as 5 until i was around early 30's just a few years ago. It's very hard for me and i am triggered by certain people and things. i wanted no part of the reunion, no part of the discussion, no part of the REMINDERS.
well, someone else on facebook took the iniciative to actaully ask me if i saw the invites (NO) and if i wanted to go...she specifically told me to go look there, if i was interested (i'm not). but it's hard not to look back at the group convo so i did....and it bothered me all night and all day today....i'm not friends (and not friends on fb even!) with at least half the people going to this dinenr on a sunday night next week. why the F would i want to go to a dinner and see people that i do not want to see or even hear about. some of them i have had to distance myself from purposely. some were family friends with my parents. people that mostly believe in a life of family and kids and typical. typical that i do not typically fit with. i am different, always been different. i've been very shy. i've been very low on self esteem. i've had struggles. i've sometimes shared those struggles on fb and a couple of the people going to this reunion have messaged me in private telling me either (one person said the following) that i sound angry...and another asked why i continue to hurt myself physically if i am injured (perhaps i was having trouble and needed help but not a criticism like it was an easy fix which it never was for me physically as i had NO PRIOR msucle from any sports or phyiscal exeercise as i did NONE growing up)....it's so hard for me to not think of multiple, MULTIPLE reminders beyond what i'm writing here of tough times for me throuhgout periods of growing up...now that i was reminded of this reunion which I PURPOSELY took out of my life by turning off the reminders....i really wish to tell her how i don't care to know in private about it....but i know i just have to shut my mouth and act fake over it. i'm not a fake person and all this fake stuff, fake get together with people many of whom i do not appreciate or like, is thoughts that are with me today.
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and as far as the woman i was with yesterday who told me i need to stop mentioning ricky, all i feel i can do is distance myself more. she simply doesn't get it with me. every time i try to talk about anything, which i do less and less and i just listen to her talking more and more, i get uncomfortable telling her things. i don't trust her with my most inner thoughts or needs or physical issues.
lately the few times i see this person, the same one i had a major argument with and didn't contact for about over a year, it seems she is telling me i have told simply hold my tongue. i listen to her, listen to things i totally don't agree with, and more and more i wonder how i am helping myself....how my life isn't progressing right now....how i'm beginning to get stuck....how i have to keep pushing on....and how it's not worth these get togethers if i come back home feeling so frustrated.
lately after seeing her, which is already infrequent, i am waking up with frustrated thoughts and dreams. somethings i need to work on in life...and i am feeling it to the 100th degree right now...a lot of things do not feel right at all. i feel uncomfortable and i am struggling to find comfort with anyone. there's nobody i want to talk with on the phone, both Ricky and female friend i find myself unable to be around constantly. i yearn for more alone time. i am just uncomfortable with the direction of my life with my friendships and where i am headed.
both R and C do feel they can say most anything to me. but i have to actually watch my reactions with them more than they watch theirs with me. i am longing to be with someone that will be more of a COMFORT to be with. i long to be with someone that i love. maybe one day this will come, i might long for it now, but, it doesn't mean i can't get by without it. i'm reminded, let me take care of my own needs now and forget about the distractions and friendships that are seriously distracting me from anything worth any importance in my mind. writing this out has me feeling a little better.
i'm so sick right now of things that don't matter and are wasting space in my brain. writing them out, i do feel better.
i feel it's hard to be myself lately and i've more than had it with a number of people and experiences as of late.
next time with i am with her, C, and if she reminds me not to mention him or if she brings him up with distaste, i will have to ask her to stop. and explain it's hurtful. it's sad she doesn't realize this herself?
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330 yogurt mango on bottom, oatmeal and almond milk,spices, and an iced coffee 50.also lg banana 150.
snack: pb on rice cake 150
Noon lunch: bean salt and vinegar flavor chips 220, chicken and shrimp leftovers from last night 250, cooked veggies in basil sauce 150, strawberries large amount 100..700
during workout: half the banana from breakfast, peanut butter 100, aminos in water / seltzer 50. , more pb on cracker 100
6pm dinner my tofu in leftover basil sauce from thai food last night 200, rice 150, sauce 50. 400
more pb on cracker 100
2150
2day: 2100/day
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I want to finish typing something for work (beause on Friday it seemed i had too much work too finish and there's an unofficial deadline that i know i won't meet if i wasn't proactive to take some of the data typing home)
and then planning to exercise after finishing this "homework" - I just want to get the strength exercise done is my frame of mind - then i can shower for the day after that...glad to be home today...seriously in a mood to stay home and just take care of things around my apt.
I have laundry and cooking, both of which i've decided can happen AFTER exercise. :)
I will NOT be leaving my apt today at all, got more than enough to do here and then going to bed on the early side would be wonderful. :) therefore, no cardio today :)
but some standing up / cooking :)
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Feeling good, but feeling like donkey did when she had "work" on Saturday...even though i had the beach saturday which is far from work, it's a full day and nothing else gets done because i'm out of my house all day...i have another big beach day planned, of which i 'm still considering to do it on a FRIDAY so i have a longer weekend....still sounds like a good plan to me - to take a day off....since today it does feel a little rushed...even though i do have a full day. LOL. just my preference to relax more on the weekend. I know that donkey's work day and my beach day are definitely NOT the same thing, just saying how both activities take you out of your house for a period of time and you cannot do anything else related to home activities at that time until you are back home.
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you see, ricky was going to help my with my bicycle and shower head/hose installation, but, since i am busy enough and do not want to add that into the mix, i'm waiting to do it next weekend - that's why having an extra day is nice sometimes and taking a beach day on a Friday can be helpful.
but the bike and showerhead can wait, and i'm glad i didn't waste a vacation day this time. I'll have to see how i feel about this next beach day - it's a little more complicated and farther drive away along with a ferry. It is sounding to me in my mind that it would be beneficial to take a vacation day for that one...something to think about.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
That's OK to use a vacation day if you need more time to accomplish things. Many of my co-workers (myself included) take an extra day off at the end of a vacation to catch up -- sort of like that. I would do this "extended weekend" if it didn't mean coming back to a complete disaster the next day.
For a shortened weekend, it sounds like you're doing a good job of organizing today, getting stuff done at home, and then early bed.
yes, it's cathartic and i was secretly waiting for your advice.
but this time, we were driving by his apt and i said we were passing his apt...that's when she said "R" is coming up quite a bit, could you stop talking about him.
i do complain to him about her. and at times i actually complain to him about her LOL.
i recently complained about the other night with him to her...sometimes i wonder what's the point though to telling her anything that is actually an issue as she has a tendency to tease / put me further down on my issues. i know that sounds vague. i know i'm not perfect and shouldnt' really complain about anyone to anyone...ugh.
yes, i've complained about him recently to her.
I sometimes check on classmates on FB who are "friends of friends" -- just curious about what they are doing in life, but certainly don't want to "friend" them, since they were never friends or even friendly with me before.
So the only reasons I could see to continue with the group or conversation about the mini-reunion are: 1. If you were planning on going - which you're not; 2. You were curious about how people turned out - but that doesn't seem like it either.
I, too, often find myself conflicted about high school people. Why do I care if Laura H. gained 100 pounds? Why do I care if Rene D. got divorced? Why do I care that Tina M. ended up marrying Pete V.? (Now there's a match to avoid: TWO people I could not stand in grade & high school.)
The way I look at it is this: the people you've wanted to keep in your life, you have, and therefore, you don't need a reunion. And if it just so happens that the number of people you've kept in your life from high school is ZERO (like me) or FB only (like me), then there's a good reason for that, and it has nothing to do with you as to who YOU are except to say that you're strong enough and mentally healthy enough to know when to cut what people out of your life.
You were OK with going about your business until someone brought the reunion to your attention. Now it buzzing around you like a mosquito. I think this is one of those things that the phrase "ignore it and it'll go away" is applicable.
Gently correct those who are critiquing your reaction: I'm not angry, I just don't care.
i am just like you - NO real friends from high school, only on facebook. My "close friends" are from college since i went to a local school so many of them live around the area, luckily. although i do not seem them very often due to the type of lifestyle and work schedule i both choose and don't choose to have LOL. meaning, i like a low key lifestyle which means i'm prob not seeing my friends as often as i could because i prefer for my own happiness more downtime at home.
i do feel the need to speak up a little more when someone says something, but at the same time i have also learned that doing so has a tendency to sometimes create an argument or misunderstanding.
So very with you re Facebook reunions. Gentle Trish suggestion that you do something else special for yourself (or with chosen others) on that day. Your feelings and experiences are valid.
I like that we get the real you... I'd hate to be talking to a fake one. Disclaimer: If I say or have said anything unhelpful, please feel free to let me know xx
At first, which is why I asked, I thought perhaps you were complaining A LOT about him - perhaps as a way to process a situation. I have done this before, not usually with complaining but more so with anxiety. "Can I talk to you a little bit more about this, because I'm feeling very anxious about it?" Then my audience knows that I'm just trying to work out a difficult. I try not to do this too much because otherwise, I get annoying like Nice Lady at work. AND I only do this with people I'm comfortable with.
I could be wrong, but I do not think that is what happened yesterday.
It could be that your friend has a silent opinion about Ricky or your relationship with Ricky. It could be that she was/is so wrapped up with what's going on with her that she didn't want to share any more of the conversation with the topic. Perhaps she thought you had been talking about Ricky too much - but that would be natural because he is a part of your life-space.
I do think that to just say what she said, without explanation, was rather hurtful - not that she intended to hurt you. I also think that this would lead me to reconsider her as someone I would have to be careful with what I talk about. That sucks. See my reference to conversations with people I feel "comfortable" with.
You won't know unless you ask her, but then you might not like where that conversation goes.
I'm sorry this happened though.
so, i did a major talk with her about him just a week ago. but not since.
she doesn't like most of my closer friends. she hates Ricky. she thinks very negatively of him. she met him 1x, he was very saracastic and loud that 1x, and she told him off right there when they met.
in the past, i have introduced her to toehr friends and she has told me she thinks lowly of them as well.
she likes my college friend group a bit which is nice.
yeah, she didn't intend to hurt me - she was rather saying it because i guess she was uncomfortable with me continuing to talk about him.
i do have to hold my thoughts more around her. i'm doubt i'll be able to see her more often anyway that we do see each other, and it's just not even worth having to explain myself or my feelings.
sometimes, if someone just doesn't get it, it's not worth even trying.
my relationship with her has changed over the years, and i'm just fine with what it is now.
Oatmeal with almond milk and yogurt 300 coffee 50
candies 100
veggies 200, wrap 250
fruit 100
soup tofu and veggie 200, bigger serving of rice 300?, shrimp 100, lots of veggies in sauce 300-400. total here 1000 tops, fruit for dessert 100
2100 tops, nice day.
beach day, not too much walking. just enough.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
kombucha 50
8:30am breakfast: Coffee 50, wrap and egg 200, lots of seasoning lately (i do a LOT so that the food is satisfying and also i take a lot of salt in because i feel sometimes i am low on it), small bit of avocado 50, gummy candy 50.
10:30-11:30am snack: almonds 100, 50
1pm lunch: some from the buffet (for hopefully some baked salmon for health!) my salad greens along with two very ripe and ready to eat tomoatoes (from my food delivery service)!...and my coworker left me fried chicken from yesterday so i will have that and save my cash. no need to buy anything at the buffet today. 1.5 tomatoes 50, greens and dressing 100, fried chicken good amount of it 300 (maybe less), grapes 150. 600
3-4pm snack: apple 100/ almonds 100
7:15pm dinner: 2 big plums 150, bean chips 2.5 servings 300, yoggurt 150. 600 good.
10pm snack - chocolate 50
2050 :)
great cal week :) 2000/day
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I'm going to work and not taking vacation (smart) or i'll have VERY FEW days left the rest of this year. I took so many days in Spring with my vacation and then a couple extra days off that i really cannot splurge also both of the summer months on them...working it out, and it's fine!! :)
Trying still to not do too much exercise and to relax.
Today no extra exercise at all, just some walking at lunch.
I might cook something tonight if i feel up to it...but not sure till seeing how i feel later.
I have a big project (easy just time consuming) i have to do at work, not sure i have near enough time to do it...we'll see what the administration decides about it. i am thinking i can do it at home in exchange for a couple more days off...since they aren't keen to pay on Overtime work at home...we'll see. there's def NOT enough time at work for me to do this work...not sure what will happen about it.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
the week was feeling slow and easy & i just knew it would be stupid to use the day.
my weekend was supposed to be busier, but things got changed and i decided to save a day for when i really want it :)
kombucha 50
wrap and egg 200, avo small amount 50, coffee 50
Snack: almonds 100, tastes of wine very little at fair before lunch 50
lunch: from home: salad mix 50, small bit of italian dressing 50, tofu 100, avocado 100, leftover roasted squash with olive oil 100. 400-450
2pm pastry 200
before exercise / during exercise:tons of strawberries 150, iced coffee 50, nut butter 100. 300. more pb and nut butter 200, aminos 50
after exercise: wrap and on 300
2050 total and a great week in calories. Less chips and more wholenfoods as well.
STRENGTH WORKOUT is tonight! - i went well, i was able to clean up while exercising, ending late but still got everything done which is the point here - to get it done and get at least minimal sleep. to be able to clean up the apt, prepare meals, etc.
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trying to skip taking friday off and save the vacation day for when i really want it, as the weather is colder in fall and winter. depends if my friend can do the beach on the weekend or if she has plans. if she already has plans, i'll still take tomorrow off and keep our beach day....
because i took a whole week at the beginning of the vacation season in April, i have used quite a bit of days and don't want to be stretched too thin and have nothing left come January, February, March. ::) either way, it's one day, not too big an issue either way.
edit - yes, working Friday and Beach Saturday since my weekend has freed up and it doesn't make sense to take off right now, life is easy :) yes, it would be nice to sleep in, but no, that day doesn't need to be tomorrow - it'd be better around the week that i have a meeting or multiple appts or events. this was a slow week, it's best i keep on working... :)
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
So Saturday is Beach Day?
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I slept in today as well. Kind of mad that I missed some beautiful morning time, but I really needed the rest. And I hope to be able to stay up late (for me) to catch some PBS shows that I missed earlier this week because I watched the debates instead.
i really love sleeping in, especially on Saturdays and after a full week of work. I generally do not sleep during the work week as much as i'd like to just do to time constraints...and sleeping in on Saturday is simply something i enjoy..sunday too.
i also enjoy sleeping when i know i'll be up late at night...same thing for me as you tonight - and i know i'll be up late so i prefer to get started with the day later too rather than be up for all hours!!
Donkey on 08/04/2019:
UGH on the UTI!!! I wonder what's going on, and if there would be more you could do that is preventative. Could it be something in your diet? Too many (whatever) that is throwing off the chemical balance?
I hope you feel better this morning.
i did feel better in morning. i do sweat a bit at lunches when i walk at work and maybe i have to shower more often at night. seems to happen on weekends.maybe stress related. probably not though! also, i am sure it's diet related. i have been having a lot of extra sugar / fruit. and also iced coffees. this can all add into it i am sure :/ ...i will be able to knock it out on my own, it got better over the course of the day. i did buy more cranberry juice too.