5:30am Kombucha 70
7am Kashi granola bar and coffee with milk 200
9:00am Wrap 100 with egg and my tomato mix 100 and turkey pepperoni 50. 250.
11am Banana 120 and nuts 200, few candies also 50
900...when i get home i plan to eat anything else for the day
Lunch: TBD - we may leave very early today from the office due to snow storm...then i plan to eat less...go home to enjoy something .... still not doing as good as i can with calories...so, I'll do better today...
1:30 Home and i binged instead of eating what i had first planned to eat in smaller quantities earlier in the day: small peppers100, pretzels250?huge orange 150, yogurt ,100, 2 granola bars also 200 (i ate this all at once at 1:30 - felt completely out of control).
6:30pm last eating for day: a natural bar and couple small chocolates. my blood sugar was all out of whack after waking up after a nap after my 800 cal binge which thankfully wasn't too bad compared to my past binges years ago. it's good i had veggies and fruit also...but i ate as a way to slow my mind and body and it promotes laziness...as the weather improves i am sure i'll improve.i took a break from exercising today - i could have done some exercises at home, but wasn't in the mood at all.
total today is 2000, maybe a little bit over. - it could have been better but i stress ate a ton....so far and planning for 200 calories in a snack later. once again, slight binge when getting home today around 1:30 from work due to a changed schedule and my own poor coping mechanism (eating).
5day avg: 2090 - good but not great. could always be worse. lately my emotional eating has gotten worse as i feel worse at my current job...i have to continue to push myself like i did when i was younger (to get things done) and try to get outta my head a bit more.
- anything in the mid 2000's is what i consider maintenance. I still have a goal to go below this amount - but maybe if i'm having so much trouble doing so, on weekends my goal is still to eat in the 2000's...i think weekends are my problem area!
once again, there was emotional eating involved today. for sure. i felt unable to stop - and binged more on sugary food than i have in weeks, months, years. really not dealing well with life right now.
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A storm is starting this morning, to continue to snow throughout the day...We have work today despite the schools being officially closed and even my gym is closed today..
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
3am Banana and pb 200, later at 5:45 tea
8am wrap 100 egg and some tomato mix I made 100 and turkey pepperoni 50, coffee 50. 300
7am/11am Extra snacks before lunch granola bar / banana 250 have a meeting in a different city in middle of morning so on the commute back to NYC or during meeting I have a granola bar
12pm Brought my lunch: pretzels 170, sautéed greens 200, veggie patty 100,nasty veggie patty. cheese from coworker 30. 400 GOOD!..clementine. included and granola bar.
4:30pm dinner: pork egg roll tons of oil fried 400-450?
7pm Evening - if hungry I'll have fruit and yogurt & light ice cream - i didn;t stick to lower cal plan. 550
2200 today.
2112 4day.
hamster is sneezing :( he's sick / has a cold.
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Seems i need to run approx 10min mile to pass the court officer test but not the typical mile...it's also based on other things...but if that's the level, i think i could train up to it.
It took me a long time to start my work today after traveling back from the meeting. i was freezing and it was just about noon so i ate and drank 2 cups of tea and then had a sugar craving so had a granola bar...i was probably mentally procrastinating by eating...doing this estimate work is very confusing for me....and i'm so outta shape...but i'm going to keep training.
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
thank you for the support. i haven't thrown in the bag just yet...i hope not to...but with current lifestyle i'm debating if i have enough time for both cardio and weights training.
3 day 2083 per day.... will be prepping my vreakfast and lunches this week
8:30am Big Bowl of Cereal: banana 120, blueberries 120, almond milk 50, fiber one 120, and onyxorgum cereal (similar to cheerios) 120, little bit of cinnamon: 550 - EXCELLENT.
11am mid morning: wrap 120, egg 80, butter 30, turkey pepperoni 70, cabbage with some oil 50-100, some kombucha 50: 400-450
1pm before jog: special k cinnamon sugar pastry crisp 100, small coffee on the way to park...
1150, tops...home from park around 2:15 as planned...this is good.
2pm after jog: fat free raspberry yogurt with cooked stevia sweetened cranberries that i like to make and keep in my fridge throughout the winter months 200 cal.
1350...
Banana 120 1450-1500 after banana - Thinking ice cream light for dinner ....puts me around 1850 cal - good - plan is to go home do a little hw and be in bed early as it's an early morning bc I am now going into work early ----------- shorter gym workout I didn't really finish - I don't want to go back later and finish...bc I wanted to go before Appt and decided not to go back after it...bc I have things to do at home and actually could do he for my estimating class which is tomorrow
fully
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I was able to take a vacation day today....which helped me do more activities on the weekend that i do not normally do :) so that is good...it's just a day less of jogging, but the good thing is i did walk around more on the other days than i usually do on the weekend...overall, i should say it was a positive weekend.
last night i slept really well again, around 9-10hours. I'm beginning to think that i'm one of those people who does better with a little extra sleep like this.
Plans today are things i need to do but usually have to rush - meaning i have a whole day to do things just for me - i should be really happy to be home and not at work ;) so i am! The best part: sleeping in - getting out of bed bc i wanted to and not bc of an alarm clock!
Planning my day:
1. Shower straight after breakfast so that's done ;)..and it doesn't hold me back from doing the rest of what i need to do today...8:30am
2. All Laundry ... done by 10:30am NOON! and still need to put it all away (LATER) laundry machines were occupied - everything got done a little slower...but i did cook..oh and clean hamster cage...and reading / I DID COOK! some veggies,
3. snack & go running / jogging noon - will go out around 12:30 to jog, YES..
4. snack: cranberries and yogurt and maybe extra fruit :) before gym 300 tops....
5. gym - come back & shower 2:30pm-4:30pm
6. go to appt at 6pm (leave here at 5:30)
7. snack / light dinner after appt and reading or early to bed...the ice cream :) 400
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
....but it's still better than being at work so i should rejoice and make the most of this sunny day...and go out as soon as i feel a bit better (i was doing some errands / cooking so legs feel weak...lol - i've got work to do!) on my legs i mean!
enjoy your time off...you deserve it after the trip and seeing your son...enjoy your day...do something positive! go outside in the sun if it's warm enough!
I am trying to increase my level but f cardio and will see by December if I have improved enough to keep training for court officer - right now it seems like I have too much to improve but I am not wanting to quit yet.
Kombucha 100 Brunch Fruit 100, bagel 100, Irish soda bread 200 500 Champagne 300 800 Over easy eggs 200 with potato home fries 300? Hopefully bitmore 1300-1400...forgot the bacon 3 thick slices 1450 at most hopefully :) 1800 Half turkey burger 150, peppers 100, leftover oily eggplant 150, other veg 50...currants 100. 500
2300 overindulged..
It was good getting out to do things all weekend, but not good i didn't do the running / jogging...but i am doing it today, for sure.
2 day avg: 2200.
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
slept in till past 9am :) around 10 hours sleeping..
breakfast: cereals light ones 250, almond milk 50, almonds 100, last of my choc muffins 200, kombucha 50: 650....
2 bananas 250
900
wrap 100, tofu 150, 1/4 roasted potato 100, sauce 20: 370-400
1300
800....
2100
Last couple weeks have been very moderate in calories as I know i like to wear a certain size clothes and look a certain way....so i have to also maintain my weight :) it's going well!
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Weekly average cals is pretty darn awesome - 2000 per day which is quite good and i def burn that off plus a little more i'd say. a good week to keep me going forward with weight loss...same goal for the upcoming week ...
- actually, i'll make my goal for below 2000 cal for the week - because it's a short week for me, Monday I have off...and Tuesday i actually sleep in - because i have to go to a training at 9 so i'm not appearing at work at 7am...so it's like i have a 9am start on Tuesday...which is a great week sleep-wise and i guess stress-wise! :)
lunch tbd 750 sorta large included corned beef, cabbage and potato and tasted AMAZING...and then coffee with milk
dinner: leftovers at home - some corn chips 150, wrap 80, tofu 150, tomato sauce 40, sweet fresh peppers 60: 500 tops
going out soon after a nap i'd like to take for a little bit to see boxing matches...it starts around 7pm...so now it's 6 and trying to take a 20 min or so nap...
calories approx 2050 :) a GREAT week! moderate every single day!
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free bagels and pastries at work today for breakfast - wasn't even intrigued AT ALL! because i was happy to wake up feeling thinner and jeans fitting better...after working hard to cut cals and be more moderate for these couple weeks it's starting to pay off....no reason to Wreck it!!!!!! doing much better these days.
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weightwise and exercise-wise, it was a GREAT week. otherwise, my goal is to think more positively and increase my drive to learn estimating. i'll still say that exercise remains a force in my life that i'm driven to do & i do enjoy the benefits to keeping calories in check and visiting the gym...and starting this weekend i'll be aiming to get a jog/walk in twice a week now....
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after work i might attend a boxing match(es) held at the union as a sporting event...near where i live...starts at 7pm so i might go home and even nap before it, lol, not sure...
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
700 before lunch :) all healthy
Lunch: some leftovers from yesterdays and some new...although i'm thinking not to buy very much at all.. leftover turkey 100 small slice of roasted meat, some baby octopus looking things 100, leftover mashed potatoes 200?, sweet tasting salsa tomato mix 100, a greens salad mix with light dressing and radishes 150-200. total here 650-700. coffee...
1400.
Light Dinner: yogurt with berrries i am thinking :)
early to bed.
Walked 1.5mi at park..
1950 total - very very awesome
Weekly avg is actually under 2000 :) first time in a long time :)
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Thru mid morning: kombucha 60, coffee 50, snack bar 120. 230...later banana 120.
Mid Morning wrap: 100, butter/egg 100, lox 50. 250.
600 before lunch :)
Lunch: TBD..more veggies, less grains.
Extra veggies 150, mashed potatoes 250?, fresh BBQ turkey really good 150 and coffee 600 total1200...
Snack: clementine
Dinner before gym:
After gym: yogurt and fresh berries/cranberries
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i still want to train for the court officer job, despite having a well-paying job now. most people wouldn't think this way. it just seems that fitness and desk work don't combine. and that it's a struggle these days to work out at all...i realize my thinking is messed up.
I don't think I had the Banana...
Calories are excellent today at 1800! Doing better now !
Weekly avg: 2000 - excellent
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
I don't think your thinking is messed up. Keep training! Just try not to waste energy feeling "angry" while sitting at your desk, LOL. While I totally get the Desk Job Wah-Wah's, the anger will not serve you well. Perhaps try to re-channel the anger/frustration into excitement for your workouts at least for now :-)
i have a whole office to share with one person (small office, but we def have our own personal space! ;)
overall Tuesday 2050. weekly avg 2050. i do feel thinner already..i have about 3-4lbs to lose and keep off to keep clothes fitting better.
300 thru mid morning
Mid morning wrap: not more than 250 or so., later a banana
Lunch: TBD :) sorta big yes. it had tasty light radish and cucumber salad 150, a bit too much veggie dumplings 350? i hope not more...?, and shrimp 150? 650 - i doubt more but i am too full and tired. still gotta work on portions.
snack: clementine...before going home :) 50
1400 before dinner....
Dinner: out somewhere takeout, before my class...probably miso soup and sushi ...i may just have a snack and no dinner tho...very full from lunch!
Earlyish to bed after class, hope to stick with my plans of working out on Wednesday which will happen if i catch up a bit on some sleep tonight.
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Today was rough getting up - went to bed sorta late / got home sorta late from gym last night.
When i sit at work, all day i'm "angry." I probably need to just shut my head up and learn this as I do make decent money now...but for some reason i still look at the court officer career even though the pay is quite mediocre for life. I wouldn't lose my apt or anything but i wouldn't enjoy much luxury once i ever retire....but for some reason, i still want it, and there is room to grow in that position, if i were to rise to the occasion. It's still a goal of mine to train cardio for it....really it's sorta stupid, but, i think i still want to go for the other job (keep training) even though i have something now which is very good - for some reason, i just can't be happy...maybe it's a problem with my brain i don't know why i can't just be happy to learn this. i just don't know. it just makes me mad....i should, if i were smart, forget about the court officer job - and it would be a pay drop - and i'm not even fit enough now...i'm going to keep training for it...even though i'm so under par in fitness for their test as they provided what the fitness test is so i can train for it....for some reason it still intrigues me. despite the really low pay for several years...will i be sorry when i reach 70 years old??????????????
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
I remember BearCountry mentioning something to you about focusing on being happy with where you're at, with what you got - and I thought that was very good advice. Not that I don't believe in chasing your dreams, but ... well, I just think that you can satisfy your need for something physical-fitness related in a better way -- meaning something that you won't have to sacrifice the job - and good benefits it comes with - and still find a path that makes you happy.
If I may, I would like to offer this, gently: I think that you are still healing from the NYPD situation, and that it may be where some of these feelings of "angry" or frustration (my word) are coming from. Kind of like breaking up with someone you really loved, and then sleeping with the next guy/gal to fill that emptiness of loss. Not that you would do that, but as an analogy of what's going on with you internally. I would encourage you to give yourself more time to heal emotionally from the disappointment, continue to train for what YOUR goals are, and then see if you're getting closer to what the court job would require, or not.
It may not be your mind that makes the court-officer decision for you, after all... Food for thought.
i know technology will change tons even in like 10yrs and that this estimating will change with the technology.
i know court officer job will not change as much...
eh, i'll keep training for the court officer...and keep working on estimating now.
everyday i wake up stiff and tired and each time i go to the gym it's harder and harder. probably no job change can help it - it's probably just life...i prob just need to stick with estimating though i have a feeling the technology will change greatly and then i'll have to study to learn the new technology...eh, i'll just be happy now as you say.
Thru early morning: kombucha 40, coffee with heavy milk 80, last of my pb crackers 200. 320. Will be substituting pb on a wrap for the pb crackers..
Mid Morning: Wrap 120, butter 30, lox 40, egg 80: 270.
Snack before lunch: banana 120.
Lunch - i don't think i overdid it & made sure to have at least 2 servings of veggies from the buffet 150 along with some baked imitation crab 150-200 and 1.5 dumplings (proud of not finishing) 150 and coffee with milk 50. 550 tops.
Snack before going home: clementine
1300.
Dinner: tofu and roasted potatoes that i made last night :), tea also some tomato sauce on the potatoes 550?
1850...
After workout: yogurt and cranberries i am thinking!
calories should be around 2050, with a MODERATE lunch.
yes, approx 2050 for Monday.
Good workout, got home close to 9pm which def was a tad late but my workout was excellent.
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
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Had some last minute requests to get some rush assignments done today and they were willing to pay extra. So I was stressed and not eating at the normal times either. Haven't gone off the deep end here yet, but my mind is stuck on craving food. I'm guessing it's because stress eating has been such a part of my life forever.
same here. it's a very addictive type of habit i'd say similar to smoking or any other bad habit. very hard to get away from - lately mine is worse than normal. and changes in routine make it even harder for me as well as any work i am ever responsible to do at home. ..
very hard to get away from the emotional eating habit. i mean any eating that is done past full and/or eating not due to hunger.
but one thing that has changed for me - i do eat more veggies and fruit and usually have at least a little bit of them in my fridge, which, when combined with other high calorie items or just other food it makes it harder and harder to wreck calories completely...i'm saying that thank gosh i have veggies and fruits to reach for also, they help to stave off super high cal binges like i used to have - which did include up to a pack even of granola bars / candy / etc. i don't do it like that anymore...as i've gotten better at having staples at home to eat before i start on those things and like you said i do not buy as much of those temptations. my bread is mostly low carb wraps and lighter regular wraps. and i do not buy too many types of chips or pretzels - just what i'm used to. it's all a work in progress.
my eating reflects my attitude right now and job situation which feels like i am treading water. it can get better though. sorry for the negativity....i'm glad to be able to pay my bills but the uncertainties and questions i have right now in my life is constantly on my mind.
i'm glad you took the assigments - sometimes you have to in order to keep getting assignments...that type of thing would get to me too...but you do have things you CAN reach for that aren't such a derailment to your diet which is the best way to deal with your situation. it's what i do - better alternatives to high cal options.
Maria7 on 03/21/2018:
Hope you have a good evening.
yeah...i'm not proud lately of any of my actions or lack of action. i just don't apply myself well to the working world...thank you for a kind comment.
Donkey on 03/21/2018:
I agree with your assessment regarding the connection between the eating and job satisfaction. I am confident that you will get through this, and if it means a few pounds, well... then so be it. I feel that once the weather warms up, you will find direction. So, tread water for now, to keep yourself afloat. (((hugs)))
thank you Jdonk...i'll consider what you said and that i will get through it. i admit to it feeling really frustrating. but i know i'm not the only one who's been there. thank you for the kind words.
i think if anyone here needs to give me hard advice, that you should give it. i know i'm being lazy and not working as hard as i could. it's just i have trouble applying myself and doing more at the job.