Kombucha just a little, but i'll say 50 cal. didn't need much as i had a yogurt last night also (probiotics...)
Breakfast 9am: coffee 50, last of my tasty pumpkin brownies (next week is low carb pumpkin cheesecake that i'm baking on either Sat or Sunday) 250 and whipped cream 120.
10:30AM snack: MY VERY EXPENSIVE TYPE OF BAR, 4.99...EXTREMELY HEALTHY. 230 GARY NULL COCO MAGIC BAR...I'M SO DONE PLAYING ...READY TO MAKE THIS YEAR LIKE PRETTY AWESOME TO SAY THE LEAST! :)
Lunch: light from home, smallest amount of tuna salad with crackers 130 cal (prepackaged), orange pepper 50, and hot decaf green tea from work of course 200 CAL..and my cauliflower thins crakers with the tuna too. 200 more.
2:45pm snack: choc raisins 50
400 in wine, Veggies salad 200, fried stuff 100, fish 150, ziti in ricotta 300 1200, fried eggpant rolllette thing...otherr bites that i may not remember well...
2500....?
6day: 2233 - good enough!
dinner: out to work christmas party being held in an area outside Manhattan called Long Island City which is in Queens. It should be less than half hour away and we'll all take the train and go together from this office to the party...
After party...not sure when i'll be home, but sleep....
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Office Holiday Party tonight and i feel SUPER confident in my outfit that i'm wearing. It's another dress my mom gave me..not too tight a fit, though really flattering. short dress. black tights. not opaque, so more sexy! also, i hope to post a photo here. I got lucky this year with all these dresses my mom decided to pass down to me...they are soooo current and fashionable, def not frumpy or old school here! they fit me very differently thant they fit her. i fill them out in the shoulder area....it's a really good look.
the weight training and calorie counting is now paying off so much...more than i could have EVER intended or wanted when i started my weight loss journey. Never in my imagination did i hope to look and feel as great as i do right now!
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
KOMBUCHA 50
coffee larger size & and some kinda piece of dried fruit 50, pump brownie (only 1 left! for tomorrow!) 250, whipped cream 120
Snack: Nature Valley Roasted Nut Crunch Bar...really good, higher fat, lower sugar, some protein. nice! gift from coworker. 190
noon choc raisins 50
1pm Lunch: leftover half my piece of salmon from yesterday,150 buying some salad stuff roasted veggies 200 and bok choy with some garlic 200. 550 tops, very filling - now sleepy!
3pm snack: apple... 100 and clementine 50
5pm to curb hunger: healthy nitrate free beef jerky i had purchased a few to keep at work :) 100
Dinner: tbd - not sure but getting tired....lol micro celeste pizza and tofu 400, yogurt with cooked cranberries 200
2100 :) awesome!
5day: 2180, good!!
did my 3 mi walk :) - wonderful! home at 8pm - not bad lol :)
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Ends up my one coworker in my room with me now (my supervisor) is out sick....so i will not be distracted at all today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I do hope she's better by tomorrow though!
Plan today is to do only 1hr OT and not more - so later i can walk home and do some cardio from the train :)
Plan is also one our only OT so it's doable...tomorrow evening is a work party, 5pm-9pm...haven't decided how long i'll stay...can only decide based on how i'm feeling and how the social experience goes tomorrow. I know what i'm wearing. A short purple dress, black opaque tights, and little ankle boots. :) i had been thinking some kinda stylish fishnets...but when i tried the outfit on, i knew it was not appropriate. glad i looked into it last night and tried on the outfit! So an hour OT both tonight and Friday night for the win this week :)
All is good, just keeping on. Lately sleep is skimpy, but not terrible. Tonight i'll get decent sleep and Friday night of course too. Thursday will prob be sorta late bc of the party....then relaxing this weekend :)
All is good.
On the weekend, i'm hoping to see my friend who had the whole forgetting the key debackle at the gym...we are supposedly meeting for brunch at a Japanese Hibachi place on Sunday...i had found a $25 gift certificate there that we got...that we thought was lost...! :) I will be happy to see her & i know she'll be feeling better from the other crazy night. I totally forgive her for that...i know she's got a lot going on :)
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
I definitely need to stock up on the citrus. Reading about clementines and grapefruit has me craving me some serious citrus!
Commuting will be ok in the outfit (but i'll wear sneakers for the walk!)..since no rain or snow in forecast.
in general, tho, i prefer warm pants. today i'm in a thick legging material for a change of pace and comfort.
with the new room tho, i may start to wear dresses with stockings occasionally as it's warm in here now!!!!!
and luckily, i'm next to the door, so i get some air flow!
previously to the moving into this new office room, i couldn't think to wear a dress. it was too cold. even in summer, it was very uncomfortable and freezing.
...just like the diet tho, it can't be skimping for days at a time! here and there, like a moderate indulgence is good...
but once i skimp too much, i get very stressed...then sick. ...which cannot happen since i have...MIAMI
but yes, sometimes i do prefer to get stuff done and deter sleep...good point i agree with you 100%
Happy Tuesday :)
6:30am Kombucha 50
9am pump brownie 250 and whipped cream 120 (still fnishing what i have and it's tasty!) , coffee 50
11am or so snack: 230 cake bites, not so good. not buying again., small amount chocolate 50
1pm or so Lunch: to include salmon for sure, 200, leafy greens for sure 100, tomato and cucumber mix 50, some kinda grain / nuts 200...it's a buffet - high quality NYC. can get whatever i want - goes by weight...will def eat salmon 1-2x per week this month..as the book suggested. 600 tops.
4pm approx snack: half a clementine (negligible calories); 4:45pm dark choc raisinets 150
6pm snack before exercise:fancy pieces of small desserts from coworker, coffee. 200 approx, clementine 50
during exercise: banana of course..150
after exercise: tbd idk yet, really not too sure till later.cauliflower crust 250 and cooked cranberries 100
2250...new diet has me feeling good, yes.
bed :)
4day avg:
happy to get it all in!...need to buy another package of almonds or just actually see what i have at home - no need to spend $ ! i have some things in the cupboard!
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I'm happily working in my new room by myself until supervisor / friend comes in...she is sick today and also just got a humidifier for the room which is good. She has super stress in life (single mom / way more responsibilitiy than me) and it makes sense she is sick :( after all this nonsense. I have decided on NO OT today...leaving at 5pm to go home to rest / exercise...sticking to the real goal - like Donkey was saying - and it's my exercise, not to make up hours as fast as possible, especially this week with a Christmas party! also, as far as yesterday's being late - i'm not making it up - i have privacy and nobody knows now...i'll make up the 16hrs as best i can...i have to document it...but not making up 45min for the train delay. nope! :) trust me, everyone else in my boat wouldn't even question NOT to make it up ! haha...on to do work!
wishing everyone a great day.
i know what's most important, stick to my getting decent sleep, exercise as best i can...and just move thru December day by day :)
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
HAPPY DECEMBER :)
kombucha 80
9am pump brownie 250, whipped cream 120, coffee 50. 500 total so far.
11am? snack: very sugary and crappy high sugar coated popcorn. 250 cal horrible choice. one half cup serving is 150 cals...for popcorn! like i said it was thickly coated in chocolate. horrible. i was hungry and moving my stuff, so all is good! 250 in crap. it was a small serving, like a large handful but the calories for almost a cup of this crap was very high but i ate it bc i was hungry and active all morning...lol
12:30 lunch: from home - healthy mix - one large orange pepper 50, around 8oz of grape tomatoes 50,...crackers 150. 250. and later a very small tuna salad with crackers 150. total here is great, 400 cal. also dried and actually nice and fresh mango from coworker 100.
3pm snacks: espresso shot from coworker, raisinets dark chocolate covered. 100, clementine 50
...satisfying and tasty. healthy.
dinner: tofu 100, eggplant tomato sauce spread 100, flatbread 250 (just the regular really tasty kind i've been eating for a change of pace!) . 450...planning tho on a dessert!!!....cooked cranberries and greek yogurt 200.
i didn't do any cooking, so food this week will be sorta random and also i'll be enjoying some microwavable mashed cauliflower either tonight / later in week!
2050, perfect!
3day: 2185 per day, good!!
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...for lunch i also tried my hot veggie leftovers but the flavor was too strong from last weeks' beer broth for the corned beef which was good but the veggies that were cooking underneath the meat taste bad (the cabbage and bok choy were good - just the root veggies cooked too much and too much flavor from too much cooking time for the veggies..so i'll throw them out)... ___________________________________________________
work pm update: i've now moved all my stuff to a new room to be working in. all morning i was involved in moving everything and then moving a bit of my Supervisor's stuff too bc she was in a meeting and i was able to help her get organized which was a good thing. I haven't actually done any "work" besides the move which took time. IT came in to move our computers / phones/ printers / etc. which is GREAT. We have a fantastic and large IT dept at my company.
And now i'm allowed to use my nice heater and it's right next to me, thankfully, i should be wayyyy less cold at the office which is very important as who likes to be freezing most of the time everyday!? so this is good too! In the previous office, i couldn't use the heater bc of circuitry issues and it would overload the circuit and cause a break and partial power to the room would be lost. lol, so this is not an issue so far in the new room. thank gosh!
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Happy Holidays, all!
leaving at 5pm to be at GYN appt by 6pm hopefully home before or around 7pm and sleeping by 8pm!!!!!!!!
i didn't sleep well and i am very tired from the moving offices this AM. ready for bed now - 2pm.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
8am/8:30 bigger breakfast big banana 150, raspberries 100, 1/4 tub sf whipped cream 120, pumpkin brownie 250. 620. hot herbal tea.
11am Coffee at home made with stevia, one scoop of protein powder (they give samples whenever i buy my workout drinks) 100, milk 50. 150 total.
1pm tasty lunch: leftover corned beef brisket 250, flatbread 250, leftover bok choy yum tho pretty oily from the meat it was cooking on top of but good! 150. total here: a healthy 650.
healthy days over here :)
4pm snack: tasty protein hard cookies very good; coffee 250
5:30pm: grapefruit :) 100...ode to Graindart :) i'll prob start having more citrus thru winter! and during workout small banana 100
1900...planning on a home or gym workout soon around 5pm-5:30pm start. going out to gym will be too stressful for me tonight. i'd rather skip the driving and all that jazz and be home with my stevia drinks and seltzers for a nice workout here in my apt.
after workout meal: cauliflower crust 200, egg partial yoke only and another egg white 60, a tomato / eggplant spread on my crust 50: approx 310-350
total today is quite perfect: 2250 - it's on the high side but lately i'm staying active.
i'd prefer of course to be able to eat on the upper end of the calorie spectrum than have to feel deprived on the lower end! duh! but after a bit of this, i may gain a hair, if that happens, i'll go a little lower. but right now, with the busy schedule this is what works best.
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I am prob not cooking the same way i have been (i was cooking tons!) and instead i might lay low the next few weekends because of work being a hair too busy and stressful...this weekend has been wonderful... relaxing, cleaning productivity, organized...HOME gym later :)
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Doing a huge "Spring Cleaning" today...full of throwing out TONS of paperwork in a clothing closet at the bottom so i can replace the area with a hanging rod so i can hang double the shirts / pants inside....
I'm totally throwing stuff out, mostly papers, but also some clothes (donating). and cleaning up. feels good as lots of good changes seem to be happening...including a change at work where i'm moving to a quiet room with only my project manager and myself. no distractions. time to refocus my energies in a good way. also, it won't be freezing the room as i'll use my heat whenever i want...which will be a needed change too for better productivity. Last friday, i wore heated foot inserts all day...i realize the chatting in the room was good and bad...but in general i'm a pretty independent person and i learned what i needed, now time to work once again in a quieter environment. with less distraction...which means more quality time and also perahps time to think about my goals a bit as i work...and think of the upcoming vacations (not a lot, just to be more in tune with my own upcoming schedules and not need to know others' stuff...to be able to move forward and be a better me)
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
No, NO NEED, to replace anything that's getting thrown out - mostly paperwork and maybe in the Spring or MidWinter i'll throw out even more clothes...i've just realized i have SO MANY COTHES built up still. and very little closet space at all!
my mom gave me all these really nice dresses, that no longer fit her and are all almost new. i have no need to shop at all! haha
Happy December!
8am Breakfast banana and apple 200, pumpkin brownie and caffeine natural drink 450
10:30 at parents house a very high quality bar of mine and seltzer 250
lunch at parent's: lox 50, cream cheese 100, toast 200, sweet potato chips 100, coffee 50, and a horrible stale girl scout cookie 70 550
3:30pm back at my apt and relaxing the rest of today: snack: greek yogurt with chai stevia and pinch of dried saffron - it's easy to be healthier!, 150, raspberries 100 , drink ...250 total,
5-6pmlater more raspberries 50 (yes, really, bought a big container at Target), orange pepper 50
Dinner butternut squash ravioli lean cuisine meal, with bok choy heated up from last weekend :)
2250 total
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9:30am -10am ran errand to coworkers house to drop off fundraiser cookie dough from other coworker as a nice favor and enjoyed doing it Bc hadn't been to that town in queens and it was so nice !
10:30am-12:30pm Now at my own parents cleaning up the rest of my clothes :) for cleanup as my mom needed my help to do since it's my stuff ;)....got it all done :)
1-3pm light food shopping and other shopping from 1pm-3pm when i got back home to my place.
laundry done too :)
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December on my end is jam-packed with the following outside of work hours: 2 dr appts (one - GYN which i haven't been to in prob 5 years is scheduled for a Monday night, the other dermatologist appt is not scheduled yet but will be on a weekend Saturday), a Thursday night work holiday party next week, a Tuesday night union meeting the week after, and the addditional 11.5hrs Overrtime, all activities here will be done by Friday, December 21!
Aside from the Mandatory stuff above, i'll be sticking pretty much (except the week of the holiday party) to my typical workouts. I'll have to skip one day next week, which is fine, since my overall strength hasn't yet been compromised this year as i'm pretty regular in terms of working out! :)
And, after all is said and done, there's a cherry on top of the cake: i have a two week vacation planned right outside Miami for Mid January. I have to look into some plans, but i realize if i don't plan anything, i can plan the trip while i'm out there! :) I'll be staying free of charge at a friend's apt with her husband in my own room. They should be working during the week and i'll have tons of time to relax...so, that being side, i''m not gonna research the trip like crazy but more get to know where things in general are, so when she's at work, i can get some food, beach and workouts!
The miami trip is not to party as much as get some sun and rest to keep on in the New Year when i return and i'm back to routine! :)
My couple vacations were last year, fall of 2017, each under a week to both Medellin, Colombia in late September and then to Las Vegas, Nevada in Mid-October! Colombia was sorta rushed (a long weekend) and Las Vegas (also a long weekend) was party central. So, Miami this year i am in need of some rest and relaxation...and continued workouts at a cheap gym whatever is close to her apt.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Note to self, need to add Florida to my bucket list.
YES, Florida has a lot of spots ... Disney (Orlando?), Miami, Key West...and many others!
i'm as excited to start December as to Finish it!
it'll be really great having a four day weekend for Christmastime and for the New Year. that's the point of this OT...to not have to come in on the Mondays...i'd say it's worth it..4 days off in a row is relaxing and de-stressing.
some people with families cannot even do it...so they'll lose the 2 day offer.
Nothing wrong with a "do nothing" vacay, especially in Miami in the winter. If you get bored, you can go to a museum or find a music venue. Personally, though, nothing wrong with chilling out at the beach, watching the waves.
Some people in the office won't do any...and some will "BS" their way thru it and not make up all 16 hours. However, i try to be honest and do whatever challenge is placed on my desk...!
Next, in terms of the vacation, that's exactly my plans. I do hope to go to a museum or two. I will also have a friend there close by that moved down to FL from NY. She performs in a musical group, i'll hope to see her a couple times as she plays the French horn...and i know her bc of my French horn endevors back in High School. She's very good and a very nice person :) so i'll meet her up with down there as well.
but yes, i am not pushing for extensive and crazy plans on the miami trip. it's simply a good break from life up here in NY and to get as far away from work and usual life as possible! probably will not even use an alarm clock everyday down there!
so it's good tho....i'm moving out of all spotlight...again! so work is going to calm down completely. and i'll be working better with less distractions. a good thing also to plan miami and later my short trip to France / London in April...maybe i can find small drabs of time at work to just google stuff to get ideas.
kombucha 50
pump brownie 250, whipped cream 120, larger coffee 80
10am choc covered raisins and rest of my coffee 50, clementines 50, bar 170
lunch: - healhty - salmon from takeout 250, salad 200, couscous 100, tomato and cucumber salad 100, choc covered raisins 100. 750.
snack: Granola bar and coffee 200
dinner at work: some sushi 450?
2 laffy taffys 50, chocolate little bar 50, choc, candy
2400....trying to hold strong...final.
7day:2270, decent considering all!
i may have to eat a little extra tonight or just hopefully not be hungry when i get home tonight and go right to bed....
...checking in from work, it's now 7:50pm and we are GOING STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!...getting a lot of work done but also counting down the time now...8:40pm
staying at work till at least 9:00pm tonight...4 hours...decided with my friend coworker :)
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We will stay tonight 4 HOURS OT until 9pm (because i hear my fave female coworker is doing it...a nice one...so it'd be nice to stay today late as i was planing to stay extra anyways) to make up time because i have still 15.5 hours of time to make up in order to get an extra 2 days off.... :)
if i stay 4 hours, my new total to make up will reduce to 11.5 hours :) very good!
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Have a great weekend :)
KOMBUCHA 50
later breakfast, 9:15am: coffee 50, pump brownie 250 and whipped cream (starting to get sick of whipped cream, thank gosh!) 120. total here 420
Snackd: atkins coconut and chocolate bar 170, also a chocolate coconut snack from coworker a little over the 50 cal.
Lunch: i think i'll not eat what i brought & head out to buy some salmon for lunch :) with some grains and veggies....a full, balanced meal. No time to go out for lunch, so ate my good meal that i brought. a good amount of corned beef brisket 350? fries from a coworker (yum!) 250, and my cooked cabbage 100 at least bc cooked with the tasty fat of the beef. total here: 700, tasty!
4pm snack 50 chocolate
coffee and granola bar 200, later blueberries 100
1750...will be a late night but better to exercise tonight....
worked an hour OT. getting home around 7:30pm and will start exercise around 8pm
during workout: 2 bananas 250
after workout: cauliflower crust 250
2250, fine!
6 day: 2250, fine!..nothing i can do right now but ride these high cal days thru with walking and keeping up the exercise, been busy and higher stress / higher eating. very busy month this will be...nothing i can do but try my best.
....at least it was a balanced lunch tho now i want a diet coke, but, will not be getting that outside the office!
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I will begin changing up my breakfasts perhaps even before the new year. I'm eager to incorporate healthier choices into my diet as i feel it'll actally help a LOT with my mood, physical exercise ability, strength, and weight maintenance to name just a few things! i will be eating fish, salmon, 2x per week takeout from the buffet (they charge by weight so it's a good deal to take the fish there) or i'll even cook it myself...a small piece each week, we'll see. but, for sure, i'm going to be amping up my diet because it's definitely far from perfect!!!!
As i'm reading this book and thinking about my health and fitness goals, I have been very inspired to make changes my current diet as the way i currently eat is NOT going to get me the results that i was hoping it to. The only way to get results is to plan for them; and after maintaining my weight and learning so much already, i'm in a VERY GOOD PLACE to now up my intake of healhier foods, as i am a calorie counter, but i'm so good that i do not need to rely on packages to tell me calorie counts...and now is the time for me to delve into a lifestyle of eating MORE WHOLE FOODS and LESS PROCESSED ones. I have a feeling that if i can improve my diet, a lot, I may be feeling much better and be able to conquer my goals way better. i will begin today to work on incorporating the dietician's tips from the book into my eating habits, by choosing a balanced, healthy lunch, of foods that she recommends: salmon, fresh veggies, and squash/pumpkin/sweet potato (whatever i can find at the buffet).
Planning to NOT work any OT today but leave directly at 5pm because i want to get exercise out of the way tonight (not wait until Friday night), so that when Sunday comes i can exercise whenever i want & not have to wait all the way till Sunday night to exercise. You see, if i skip exercise tonight and do it friday night, i'd have to wait the 48hrs until Sunday night to exercise again - the same muscles again - and it's very stressful to start a week on less sleep bc i'm up exercising Sunday night!) So, if i exercise tonight, 48 hrs later is Saturday night and i plan to wait until Sunday for the exercse and it can be done any time :) A better plan, indeed :)
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
i like your idea very much for soup. liquds are filling with food, too...and usually there are so many ways to make soups even healthier - like spices. i've already started experimenting with 1-2 small pinches of saffron daily since it's said to combat depression possibly better than prozac! i feel i could totally use a boost this time of year!
ty for the tips on ordering from there...i have some things to think about...about being able to shop differently / get what i need for better health. probably just continue at the store and freeze berries in my freezer or something!
And good for you for getting in a workout today - even with the OT!
next, there are definite nutritional changes to be made for the better. i was also thinking of you as i read the book.
there are ways, laid out in the book, to improve mood and emotions thru diet. it's spelled out. we just have to do it! :-P i am going to put it in the forefront as a good challenge to myself and my body. whipped cream, as i finish it, will not continue as often. i still have 3 tubs left lol to finish ;)
Kombucha 50
9amWhipped Cream 120, pump brownie 250, coffee 50.
11am Snack: atkins coconut bar choc covered 170
noon: rum chocolate 50
Lunch: Corned Beef 350, cabbage 200, pretzel 100...650
3:30pm pick me up granola bar, earlier coffee 150, clementine 50
5pm Snack:100 cal beef jerky, almond cauliflower crackers 100
Dinner: celeste (microwavable meal) breadsticks 360, tomatoes 40, apple 80, yogurt with stevia 140. 620
2370, fine
5day: 2242, GOOD.
2mi walk coming home the rest on the bus.
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Tonight i'm working an hour OT...I have two hours to make up still for leaving early yesterday. :) Then, no extra exercise after work and early to bed. I'll take the slower LOCAL (not express) train home and also read on my commute home :) I'm loving this new diet book.
I'm EMOTIONALLY EXHAUSTED RIGHT NOW...FROM EVERYTHING the past coule weeks.
just wanna sleep.
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Like you noted in your post..... When it comes to weightloss efforts, I'm also on the "LO-CAL" train and it's definitely not the express either......
(I told you it was bad.)
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8:30am pump brownie 250 and whipped cream (lower sugar ) 120, coffee 50 - after new year, i'm making a commitment to healthier eating...more fish...etc...but will enjoy my breakfasts however i like till i want to change.
10am snack: Atkins coconut bar choc covered 170, bite of rum chocolate 50
noon lunch: smaller, with a hot decaf green tea (love they have this free at work!)...my corned beef 200 cal? not too much but sooo good, small amount veggies 100, some crisps 150 450.
left work at 1pm to go to bris only 40 or so minutes away:
After the bris, there was food, around 3:30pm i think it was: 1/4 bagel 100, little whitefish salad 50, piece of smoked sable (better than lox, very soft white fish that is soo delicate and tasty!) 50, too much smoked salmon (not lox, but actual salmon) 200???, 2 tomato slices, seltzer. 400
5:30pm snack on bus home: coffee and fiber one peanut butter bar 200-250
6:30banana 100
after workout: cauliflower crust :) 300 loving these after exercise.
2200, perfecto.
4 day: 2210, good!
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A lot of thoughts rolling in my head over the past couple weeks. Mostly unfortunately negative - Not about me though. I want to write about them now - hopefully i can do that and not be late for work! The experiences are what have been negative and i've been thinking about these experiences. However, about myself, i can honestly say i'm feeling pretty positive and proactive. Try that for an oxymoron!
1st topic - my male coworker
Last week Wednesday before we left for Thanksgiving holiday weekend, i work in a room of 5 people. 2 weren't in the room. And the only guy in my room of 4 women said to me in front of another coworker:
"all i hear all day is your voice....just jacke jackie jackie....i was so distracted i had my headphones in this morning...YOU WILL BE FIRED BEFORE EMILIA...."
(and female other coworker in the room agreed, tho not with adding in more of her thoughts, just saying "yeah")
(he meant it as a threat not reality i'm getting fired - but it hit me extremely hard as i've had some really brutal (and i mean BRUTAL) times at this company with the words "fired, let go, termination." i couldn't take it lightly. i was shaken to know i actually distrubed his work.)
but the point is the way he asked me to "shut up" wasn't exactly professional, curteous or kind. he's 30 years old. I feel he spoke WITHOUT his usual better taste and usually way better style. he spoke up, which is fine. and i do not hold what he said against hiim but it shook me to the bone. it was on my mind some of the weekend - as he's comparing me not only to this lady emilia, also 30, but she's my NIEGHBOR below my apt right underneath and her parents live right across from my door to my apt. As in, i exit my apt and open my door, and her parent's door is facing me. I ran into her in the laundry room Saturday night and told her i'd be focusing more on work and talking less....
i didn't tell her what he said, at first.
i told her yesterday in front of the woman who heard him saying it to me who was in the room that day - last wednesday.
when i told emilia, she took it all wrong. she asked why i didnt' tell her earlier and that it was directed towards her too...i explained it's a threat, not actually happening, and that he said it to me so i'd stop talking and was just making a poor comparison tho it's not meant for her to do anything with this statement or speak up about it. not sure i can trust her. but i don't care....
this is one of the experiences, very negative, i've been thinking about. i'm not a huge talker. tho last week i was talking about the birth of my sister's baby and the experience where the friend visited me unexpectedly...and about family stuff. i admit to talking more last week than usual. but i'm nnot to blame, i know this and i'm being honest, for the majority of the commotion in the room!!!!!! so that's why the comment wasn't so great to be said to me by my coworker. talking about being fired and comparing coworkers is pretty low, in my opinion, to go.
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2nd topic: my parents -
my dad starts the conversation on the phone by telling me that during the "bris" i am NOT to comment on what it looks like or the anatomy of the baby.
my mom goes on to say that "the balls are big for a baby and that the P is small and please do not comment on the looks"
so there you go, i call my parents to discuss what my outfit will be (making sure it's not too fancy) but before i even can ask my question, they are telling me how to behave like i'm 5 and YES, i HAVE been to a bris once before...
but just the way my parents said this to me, like i'm 5, like i'm going to embarass myself and them.........UGH!
I told my dad never to speak to me that way again. and i cut my mom off...saying GOODNIGHT!
Way to go for my parents to start up a conversation with orders on my behavior and lack of their confidence that i won't act like an adult / mature at this bris!!! way to go parents! for your lack of confidence in my character!!!!!!!!!!
Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Wow, now you know who NOT to go for to watch your back.
still, no good. maybe that upper boss had said that statement first, i can almost think that way...that the upper boss said it about me? hmmm....
either way, we can (me and you) agree that the statement was way inappropriate.
but yeah, he's not my friend. with the guy...i have that relevation, that i do not need to give any cares for him anymore.
Good luck I hope everything works out.
of course i do not want to screw his work up...that's not cool. he is a "superior" of mine.
It will work out, but i'm changing my ways. no talking when he's in the room.
i respect he needs to do work, and i do know i am responsible for distracting him if he said it, it's obvious.
however, he said it wrong and asked me to not talk, so that's what i'll do.
he cannot have it "both ways." so, i'm not there to chat with him any longer.
I'm not a "shoe-in"...i have to improve my cardio only. weights are good. situps could be a hair better. pushups are perfect and need no improvement.
the test will probably not be before 2020 which gives me some time...like i said it's not a definite either.
but i'd enjoy more doing something that i did for myself.
however, there's a moderate chance i'll wind up in the place (what i'm doing now) i am or similar for life. perhaps even with LESS pay (doing similar job to what i have no with no change)...scary thing to acknowledge.
Parents are... well... parents. They forget we aren’t 5. My mom still tells me to use the bathroom before we leave.
yeah, parents are nutz. jajaja
Parents are... well... parents. They forget we aren’t 5. My mom still tells me to use the bathroom before we leave.
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You're killing me with the pumpkin breakfast items....... :)
I've been counting down the days until you ran out of the brownies and whipped cream. Was hoping you'd replace it with something less appealing like kombucha-flavored-tofu-crusted-dehydrated-rice-cakes. Now I'm going to have to read about pumpkin cheesecake??????
While I am joking, it is truly another reminder that I can eat delicious things in moderation once I make it to maintenance-land. One cookie, not 20. One brownie, not 1 tray. One or 2 slices of pizza, not half a pizza / breadsticks / wings / dipping sauces / dessert. One ice cream cone, not a tub of ice cream. One portion of pasta, not endless plates until I explode.
right! but i still make sure to round out meals and come up with ways to feel full!
for instance, in the morning, i have coffee at work with my breakfast, to fill my stomach as the stomach is roughly 2 cups in size and feels full at that point of a "stretch" as you eat.
2 cups of food will make you full as the stomach stretches and shrinks back.
and at lunch, i try to eat a big portion of veg with my lunch so that i'm filling my stomach.
like you, i love my (now they are caffine free mostly) flavored zero cal drinks and low cal drinks.
i chew gum sometimes if i'm antsy.
at work there's free decaf green tea, hot, which is satisfying.
i do small servings of fruit, with a tea.
i mix calorie free with carbs to feel a bolt of energy, but less calories.
it's all a conceived project in the works for me, been manipulating and working a good way to diet and eat for well over a decade now.
i used to eat really low carb at points, it would always cause a binge...i'm so glad i am past that one....that was so horrible...
i'd have like tofu and microwavable green beans with almonds (it was a birds eye prepackaged veggie dish) and it was nice...but, no carbs...and i'd get home from a course i was taking and drive to mcdonalds or other similar place...there was no balance, that was one of my high points of too low cal / too low carb...no balance.
then, this year and other recent, i got so completely unhealthy at points just loving to eat candy and stuff as i knew weights it about cals...and i had changed offices...
and now starting this month i'm into eating for health.
this is new for me. i never thought to eat for "health." or eat for "optimal or better brain function."
now i realize that if i can eat a little better, i can feel a little better.
even this week, not getting great sleep, eating the fish and other healthier selections has me well ahead and better feeling than i have any of the previous winters at this job, EVER. It's my 8th year almost...and this is the first time my skin is clear and i know why...it's the first time i am beginning to think more clearly. it's the first time my health is improving and i'm not pushing my body in excess exercise or too a bad limit...i'm more moderate in my adult life than i EVER have been!
it feels so good, trust me, the proof is in the trials and the errors.
BearCountryGG on 12/06/2018:
I also was wondering when the brownies would stop multiplying...LOL......now cheesecake is NOT FAIR!!!! And WHIPPED CREAM?????...I need to up my vinegar intake! I also will be watching and listening with the brakes on!!!
No, the cheesecake will not be eaten with whipped cream bc it is already dairy based and has enough calories. so just coffee and cheesecake next week.
i'm glad the brownies are done, i was starting to get sick of them :) I think it was 2-3 weeks of brownies. hahaha
i see no issue doing this right now bc it's sorta balanced with my day. at least i'm getting some of the spices, pumpkin and all.
i am enjoying these high fat breakfasts :) yum yum.
innerpeace on 12/06/2018:
Looks fantastic! have a great time.
thank you, i plan on it!!! :) crowd is not that great, but no real administrators either! just a party for the workers on this project...hoping for a nice dinner and wine! it's free, of course!
legcramps on 12/06/2018:
You look so great! (saw a pic on fb) Love that outfit! And, I too, am a little bit jealous of the cheesecake, but it helps that dairy makes me sick because i'm probably not as jealous as the others are LOL. Think if I pre-make some waffles and pancakes it would be as good warmed up as freshly made? Hmn, I might have to try that. Then i'd feel like i'm having such a luxurious breakfast every day!!
i do think it's important to mix up the breakfast routine if you are getting bored of what you are making. i do think waffles and pancakes will taste good warmed up...maybe you will have to do it in an electric convention oven instead of microwave tho?
yes, if dairy is not making you feel good, stay away...so far, it doesn't affect me, thankfully!
i like a fun breakfast - not sure when i'll go back to eggs and avocado lol.
Donkey on 12/07/2018:
I don't have a cheesecake pan or I'd be making some keto cake :(
would be a worthwhile investment! :) the pan...i may have to buy a pan too it seems?
BearCountryGG on 12/07/2018:
I used to make cheese cake in a pie pan ( either glass or meatal)
ty for advice!
BearCountryGG on 12/07/2018:
METAL
ty ty!