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Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jul 30, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 133.0

today was another good day.

breakfast/snacks: 200  ices, coffee, later some sugar free stuff.

lunch: 400  lots of beans, salads, some dressing, diet snapple.

snack: 150 ices, sugar free and sugar versions. satisfying!

total before dinner: 750

dinner: a bit large, but ok by many standards. 700. healthy veggies but large amounts and the microwavable meal had 350.  total of 700 for dinner.

total today: 1450. good.  :)

exercise; hour walk. :)

goodnight...

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 07/30/2009:
Good day! YAY! I like the sound of this post. Those ices sound good. I love popsicles in the summer. Oh, oh - now I want some!


halley on 07/31/2009:
Sounds great - I have a few microwave meal, but I rarely eat them - kinda sounds good. Not like the old days - they've come a long way!


h82bfat on 07/31/2009:
I'm so glad to see you're "back on track". It's so easy to let outside forces derail us (especially when we don't even know what the "source" of the moment is!). Thanks for being here every day - good & not so good - it helps me say to myself "if she can do it - I can TOO!



Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jul 29, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 133.0

breakfast 200

lunch: 400

snack after school: 160

dinner: lots of veggies/salad: 160 and a microwave meal 350 total: 510

total cal today approx: 1270. wowsers. really really low and fine.  i NEED to just do a fast bike ride....  got to. :(  i don't want to, but i feel bad not going out, although it may rain...so...who knows.

ices after the gym 30.  didn't do much at the gym, but at least i got out of my house and back on my feet.

total cal 1300..

need to clear my head. study tonight.

i've exercised monday and tuesday depsite being tired. but i may take the day off today, we'll see. i woke up really exhausted. perhaps my ankle needs a break? lol, not a literal one, either. but, a short walk could also do me good after dinner? hmm... and digestion is always better with some movement after dinner. not sure. i may just need a break.

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

loveray on 07/29/2009:
looks like you are really doing well recently! i am exhausted from the move and just tired and bloated from pms...trying to get excited...leaving tomorrow night!! xoox


Donkey on 07/29/2009:
Woo-hoo! Look at you! And 2 lb down! What's up, Horn? Is there a new romantic interest in your life?


hollybelle on 07/29/2009:
Hi, checking in with you.



Horn_of_plenty - Monday Jul 27, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 133.0

tuesday:

b: 160.

must sleep more tonight! sheesh. feeling SO tired. it's half mental, half sugar crashes, i think.

calories before dinner: 700.

dinner: microwave eggplant parm, tons of veggies, extra veggies, 1/2 pack low cal tofu heated up to eat with the microwave meal, 2 sugar free chocolate pops, large peach. 680 or so cal. maybe 700.

total cal today: 1380-1400. fine fine.

exercise: 40 min of bike/elliptical/pushups. 

++++++++++++++++++++++

monday:

time is flying fast, which is good, but also too fast for me to keep up.

breakfast: not healthy, but good. 180

no snacks. lots of sugar free stuff.

lunch: healthy primarily. pita, 3 large grilled shrimp, salad, diet drinks of course. around 500.

snack after school: ices, a sugar free chocolate pop, later diet soda, large peach: 220 or so.

dinner: 500 or so.

total: 1400. absolutely fine.

exercise: hour walk with dad. good day, again.

 

Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!

halley on 07/28/2009:
Since you are s close to your goal - had you thought about cutting out the diet drinks for a week or so and replacing them with water? I keep hearing all this chatter about diet drinks causing weight gain, which I really don't believe, but there is some evidence to support it. Maybe just for a few days to see if it can kick start the loss of the last few pounds.


loveray on 07/29/2009:
expending any kind of mental or nervous thought patterns/energy can certainly be exhausting. even when i get a full nights rest and feel ready to rock, i sometime come home from a long work day with a lot of meetings and engagements just exhausted. hope that you feel better soon!! xoxo



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jul 26, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

sorry for being a loser and not commenting as often. i've been trying to stay off my laptop as of late. and i've been successful.

breakfast: around 280

vitamin waters: 80

lunch: maybe 450 or so.

dinner: maybe 650 or so.

nothing really had calories listed on them.

perhaps today's calories: maybe 1500. hopefully less! :)

exercise: good.

whole weekend: fabulous.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

MoodyMe on 07/26/2009:
Good for you HOP!!!!!! Yay!


halley on 07/27/2009:
Sounds like you are doing great!!!


grumpy on 07/27/2009:
wow, what great news! no worries about not commenting, i am doing the same! xoxo



Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jul 25, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

saturday entry: 1200 cal, good exercise, lots of fun. goodnight!

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

catepillar on 07/26/2009:
Congratulations to you!



Horn_of_plenty - Friday Jul 24, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

calories: approx. 1200 today. mostly healthy. lots of veggies.

total avg calories per day since I've been back home: 2,000 per day for the past 8 days. not great, for sure. not horrible. not enough to gain real weight, just bloat. possible weight gain of less than a pound. lots of rambling right now, lol. lots to do on the weight front, as well.... :)   i will make it happen! i will i will i will! :)  :)   :) 

with stretching at back/abs/pushups (and bike/elliptical) total exercise today was approx. 2.5 hours. wowzers. it felt SO GOOD. cardio prob lasted at least 1.5 hours.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

yesterday i slept like 12 hours. and i'm STILL tired. sheesh. what's going on with me!? ....i'll be fine, i'm sure...

breakfast: my stomach was so full from whatever it was i ate last night around 10 when i woke up. so i had coffee and chocolate italian ices. 150 cal.

snack: bar and drink: 170 cal

lunch: around 280 cal. beans/hot veggies/salad.

total here: 600...

snack:

dinner:

i'm sooo stupid for overeating the past few days bc weightloss took some determination while i was away. i ate right bc i wanted to. and it worked really well. i prob did lose at one point 5 lbs in just 10 days! and i've put a couple back on! careless on my part. so now i need to make MUCH bigger efforts. i promise myself continued success with my weightloss. it means watching calories. keeping them LOW. and walking/exercising much, much more.  i am now able to exercise for longer periods of time without a problem....especially walking. i can do it for 6 miles no problem as long as it's not only on concrete...

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

nenak on 07/24/2009:
you can exercise for longer so you are winning!!!!! stay positive


hollybelle on 07/24/2009:
I have been really tired the last few MONTHS! I think it is because I am eating too much sugar and carbs AND not exercising as much. Being tired alone is the incentive I need to do right by my body. I am job hunting right now as I want to go back to work FT - and I will NEED energy to do that.


MoodyMe on 07/24/2009:
EVERYONE I talk to is tired...seriously! The people I work with are all talking about not having any energy and being soooooo wiped out...weird.

Any fun plans for the weekend? Doing something you enjoy and can relax???


halley on 07/24/2009:
Sounds like you are getting your focus back. Don't you hate to see hard work wasted by being careless? You'll do fine.


thinnside40 on 07/24/2009:
Your not stupid.... Neither am I... I'm challenged... ;-)

:-)

:-)

:-)


h82bfat on 07/25/2009:
Don't beat yourself up over this. You are only human - no one is perfect, even super models have food issues!! :c) All you can do is work thru it and get back to it.

Are you keeping a food journal? It may help you figure out your triggers by questioning your choices as you're making them....... I think finding your "triggers" are your key to success - but hey, that's just an observation - I'm not a guru or anything & I don't claim to have the answers (I'm still searching myself). I just know that I had to figure out some of my triggers (notice I say "some" becus I've still got "some" to figure out) before I started making any significant progress.

Overall, you're doing a great job and should be pleased with yourself and how far you have come. If you must judge your success, try to look at how far you've come - not how far you "think" you have left to go.........



Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jul 22, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

Thursday entry: 

HOW am i this exhasuted!?

my stomach was so full this AM, but i knew i needed some carbs at least to balance out the sugar high i had yesterday.  i had a chocolate flavored italian ice: 120 cal.

snack: kashi bar 150 or so. did have 7 grams protein...

lunch: 1/2 chicken cold cut sandwich, salad. 300 cal. and i feel like i could fall asleep right now! i think my binge wore out my body yesterday. 

the good thing is tomorrow is ONLY a half day! wahoo! so glad. the second half the day i will be attending the senior Xray class' graduation.

total cal so far: approx. 550

snack after school: almonds, soda: 250. i am SO TIRED...why do i feel this way!?

dinner: eaten at 10pm after i got up from a nap. what on earth!? some cucumber salad, lettuce, tofu; total here around 300 or a little less.

total calories: around 1200.  i am soooooo screwed up right now. my body is just fighting me in every way possible.

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

wednesday entry:

stayed home, ended up binging as well today. 

calories so far: 3450.  hopefully this estimate is right and i'm not underestimating...

calories i've overeaten since my return from the trip last friday:

friday: 500 too many

tuesday 600 too many

today so far: for the whole day, around 2000 or so too many.

total too many: 3100 or almost one pound, 

i need to stop this craziness. damn. AND, the last night of my trip i ate about 3500 calories too many also..

i am def not as thin as i was when i got home....it's amazing how fast i'm losing my momentum...

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

halley on 07/22/2009:
Ok - just take a deep breath. You can do this. Remember how great it felt when you noticed that you looked thinner? How wonderful it is to easily slip int something that had been too small? You can get your focus back.


Donkey on 07/23/2009:
How did your therapy appointment go?


grumpy on 07/23/2009:
I hear you about losing the momentum. I think that's when the mind takes control and we need to take care of it. That's what I am trying to work on with my life coach. I think the same would be with therapy and I think it's great you went. Because other than that, we both know well what we want, how to do it and we just choose to boycott ourselves! Let us know how it went! xo


hollybelle on 07/23/2009:
Picture a strong wind behind you BLOWING you ahead - maybe that will cause momentum....I'll picture it myself and see what happens....How was therapy? Did you like the therapist? I thnk just liking them is the biggest hurdle.


loveray on 07/23/2009:
i have been so exhausted this week as well. a lot of people around me have been drained...i think this may have a little bit to do with the solar eclipse. the energy is just a lot to take in and a lot of times the planetary events have a lot of effect on our energy levels. hope things get better soon! xoox


Donkey on 07/23/2009:
OK, ok, I get the hint. I won't ask you about therapy any more.

I think you (your body, that is) are still recovering from your vacation. That's part of the fatigue. If it's really humid by you, that could be another reason. Humidity wipes out any ounce of energy I might have. I'm guessing though it's mostly from the travel. PLUS, keep in mind that digestion takes a lot of body energy. When you consume a lot of food and then go to bed, your body needs to work very hard to digest all of that food instead of resting.

Travel, change of climate, eating too much ... maybe you're getting sick?

Rest up, I hope you feel better soon :-(



Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jul 21, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

i bought real food today at the cafeteria for lunch...more real than coffee and chips, anyway!  but, i was famished bc i had no snack in the AM.

today was HARD. i was on my feet all day, but also had to wear a "lead apron." which is very heavy! it's to shield the workers from the xray equipment.   my ankles were in pain bc of the lead, making my whole body extra heavy on my ankles...arg.

breakfast: 350 or so. coffee, sandwich, tomatoes, avocado.

snack, but not really and not helpful: vitamin waters 50

lunch: not sure but i guess 550: nasty but tasty (just too much rice in it) veggie burger, cooked and seasoned corn, large salad.

snacking: not great but whatever, 2 plums 120, ices 100, 2 servings pretzels 200 total here 420

total before my binge: 1380

binge: pizza 800???, small piece quesadilla 100?, small piece burrito 200?, yogurt 100, plum 50.  approx: 1300

total today approx: 2680! blah....i'm so helpless....

no, actually, i was exhausted. i came home WIPED OUT. and i should have gone to sleep. ugh ugh ugh!

crappers.

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/21/2009:
What did the therapist have to say about the bingeing?

Were you at home when you binged? I can see it as sort of a "relief" or release: Now I am home, I can relax and eat. ??

Hang in there. That sucks about the lead apron. (I hope you are not offended by my language!) :-0


MoodyMe on 07/21/2009:
Yep, exhaustion is a MAJOR trigger for me as well...I agree with Donkey and it being a "relief"...Look at how GREAT you have done these past weeks...FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE!

I hope you got some much needed rest this evening..


Donkey on 07/21/2009:
Moody's comments made me think.

2680 is not too bad, especially for being tired and still recovering from your vacation. "Should have gone to sleep" -- yes, agreed. But easier said than done. Remember this for next time! In the months that I have known you (are we into years yet?), it seems to me that you let fatigue get the better of you, and you eat instead of rest. Remember: It's a learning process.

Still, I don't think you did nearly as much damage as you might think.

I remain hopeful that once you graduate and get a job in your field, that things will settle down.


halley on 07/22/2009:
Shake it off and start over. You will be fine. Try drinking hot tea to head off the binge.



Horn_of_plenty - Monday Jul 20, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

if i had to guess calories, today was about 1750. hopefully no more!!!

exercise: moderate. 4 mi or so.

going to school tomorrow. first a shower.

goodnight all.

______________________________________________

good report: my weight has been steadily decreasing since May! :) so happy.  last august my weight average was 123. hopefully i can at least get back to where i was?  it will be a close call since that means i  need to lose 12 lbs. but there is no rush, as long as i don't overeat and destroy the successes i make. i am doing this, the weight is coming off. all i need to do is look at my diary to see it.  :)  all i need to do is remind myself of this, whenever i feel weak at heart. :)

i'm taking today off from school to recover fully.  i have some laundry to put away, some white scrubs to iron, some nasty work shirts that i should spary with fabreeze bc even when i wash them they still don't smell right haha.  then, i plan on eating healthy - lots and lots of veggies with my meals and also i plan on preparing my own lunches for the rest of this week to come (or at least for tuesday bc this all sounds like way too much right now - the food preparation anyway).

i also have a therapist appt later today. first time i'd be going, in my adult life anyway. i did go a when i was about 6 or 7 yrs old. so i have NO expectations. it's my money and if it doesn't work, then i'll call it quits. however, i would love for the therapy to help me, especially with my binging as even on the trip i did it twice.

it's so hard to lose weight the second time!  for two years i WAS in a rut but this trip lifted me out of it. i'm so glad. now i am just keeping with that momentum! :)

take care. more updates to come...

now trying to go back to bed, i've been up since 5, now it's 5:24. eh, and i have an appetite. but i'm going back to bed!

6am breakfast: yogurt, strawberries, coffee: 160

9:30-10am breakfast ugh: 2 pcs bread 260, egg whites 60, tomatoes/salsa 40, 3 light yogurts 240 total: 600.

total before lunch: 760 fine.

2pm lunch:stomach full still? bothering me. but i pigged out on healthy stuff...not sure why i had to eat all of it though: two cups fruit salad: 200 or so, soy chips 160, tomato/onion salad w. celery also 70?, sauteed roasted veggies much of it 300?? total here: 750 whatev.

total before dinner: 1450 at least - not great. (i hate counting calories and would rather just eat the way i did on vacation, which is not possible, it would be too expensive and weightloss wouldn't be guaranteed as i don't exercise as much here as i did on my trip...)...my stomach is so weird today.

dinner:

 

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/20/2009:
I'm so glad you're back. Listen, it took me about a week to get back into the U.S. time zone when we returned from the UK 2 summers ago. All the traveling and change of climate and custom really plays havoc on a person. And I didn't have to be surrounded by all that second-hand smoke!

Good luck with your therapy appointment today! Today should be just intake and assessment. She'll ask you a bunch of questions about your past and your objectives. Don't be afraid or ashamed to mention the binge-eating. I know that this is something that I have kept from therapists in the past.

Not to dictate your schedule, but I would think that after 2 or 3 sessions, you should be able to tell if your therapist is helping you. I'm not a big fan of prolonged psychotherapy. DO NOT be afraid to switch therapists if this one cannot help you.

I hope you will let us know how it goes!


loveray on 07/20/2009:
its going to be a lot adjusting back to the time change and just a different lifestyle, so take it easy on yourself. i hope you had an amazing trip- cant wait to see pix!! xoxo


MoodyMe on 07/20/2009:
Losing weight is 100% mental and you are SO in the right frame of mind...Like you said, re-read what you have posted during this positve period if you start to feel "weak"~you ABSOLUTELY can do this..


greengirl on 07/20/2009:
Hi HoP, it's great that you are so positive now, and well done on losing weight again. I agree with you about it being harder to lose it a second time but I have every confidence that you will do it. Keep up the good work :)


thinnside40 on 07/21/2009:
You sound so positive and that makes others feel good too...... Happy Day!



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jul 19, 2009
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 135.0

i exercised too hard this morning. could hardly breathe bc i am sick. was not so great and didn't eat until later...felt like i was going to faint. ok, i need to care a little bit more about myself i think! not sure if i'm going into school tomorrow. i have 4 sick days left and i really am sick. lol, it's not like i'll be missed!

still sick. ugh.

yesterday i treated myself like a princess - haven't done that it a LONG TIME. i got an hour facial (haven't had one in years!) and a massage (second time in my life!). lol, why do i feel the need to rationalize and explain myself. lol. but, i look back on the website when i got home, and i couldn't believe it! i could have gotten a free manicure and pedicure if i bought the package! same price, just more services along with the massage and facial. definite oops.  oh well, i enjoyed it all.  too bad nobody told me beforehand. 

my body was in so much pain and now i feel a bit better. i'm still sick. i was around many smokers all trip and i think that added to my cough and congestion. also, the lack of good air supply on the 12 hour flight probably did me in. and lack of sleep each day i was there...going to bed at 2, waking up at 5 or 6. i just want to be feeling 95% better by monday.  i haven't felt this way in at least a couple years.

again, a 4am breakfast today (that's like 10am in Israel so my body is still adjusting...): 2 servings pretzels, yogurt, low cal vitamin water: 320.

8am or so breakfast: 1.5 yogurts, strawberries: 200 or so.

flavored water during exercise (very difficult to breathe, perhaps i'll HAVE to lay off exercise :(  approx. 80 

total so far: 600 cool.

snack at lunchtime before i almost passed out: 3 munchkins from dunkin donuts 150

LATE lunch: celery and microwave eggplant meal: 400

total before dinner: 1150

dinner: plum 50, pretzels 2x = 200, salad 100, microwave meal 250 (prob more) total here = 600 eh. today's eating wasn't well planned. more fruit 100 more...

total cal 1850., exercise: great.

feeling like garbage...

Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!

midwest50 on 07/19/2009:
Keep resting and hope you feel better tomorrow.


halley on 07/19/2009:
It's so tought to recover from being that far away. Hope you feel better soon.


hollybelle on 07/19/2009:
Hey HOP. In my (humble?) opinion the place where you bought your massage and facial should have told you about the special when you bought the two services. Maybe if you call them back they will allow you to book the pedicure and manicure......or at least extend the special for you the next time you buy massage and facial????? Never hurts to ask. They should have told you though - that's just bad business! You could have had a wonderful impression of the way they do business instead of now feeling like you missed out. Sometimes the employees of these places aren't even aware of the specials they are running-that's not good, either. ANYWAY.....good for you treating yourself. I think you should do that a little each week and NOT give it a second thought. Practice makes perfect and that's a good one to practice. You deserve it. You really, really do. Welcome back from vacation - trip sounds interesting to say the least. I remember I went on a windjammer cruise once (sailing vessel - not a cruise-liner and it was wonderful, but there was also the issue of people hooking up etc. I wasn't interested in that and it was really weird because all the girls were not friendly - they were kind of cruising for guys. But this one group of guys that all went to college together be-friended me, etc. I stayed in contact with one guy out in CA for a long time after that - until I got maarried. We were just friends, though.


MoodyMe on 07/19/2009:
I second what Holly said about the spa~they should've told you when you made your purchase about the pedi/mani special. I'd call them...

Anyway, glad that you are home safe and sound, but sorry that you are feeling like crap. Be kind to yourself and don't push too hard while your body is down...



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