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Horn_of_plenty - Friday Jun 22, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

kombucha type drink but a new Mint flavor 50

wrap 120, egg 80, and my favorite spinach saag 150-200. total 400. coffee 50.

snack: almonds 100

Lunch: leftovers - Indian veg 250, matzah 120, some jackfruit 100. 550.

i have a grapefuit for later 50. and had a diet coke....

3pm and almonds 100, coffee 50, a Zone Perfect Nutrition bar - deciding to eat more now at work and less before i jog...i plan on fruit / bar mix before jogging later

food today has been delicious and filling, although i ate it really FAST at lunch bc it was uncomfortable as i'm here with only 1 out of 5 coworkers all morning, and it's hard to read her - she's not very friendly so i don't feel comfortable chatting with her as i don't know her well or if i can trust her at all.

Before jogging: a wrap 60 with veggies 200 tops and i should buy  some deli meat i'm thinking for some protein...or i can just eat some tofu at home that i have - yeah! should be around 500 tops.

after jog: ice cream 320. tops

2320, fine

7day is ok: 2110

bike to park and back 15min, and 1 mile 20 min of walk/jog. good exercise :)

 

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/22/2018:
Not buying it takes the decisions away....doesn't it? I think it's easier to struggle in the store for a minute than it is to struggle for hours at home over it.

horn_of_plenty on 06/22/2018:
yea - it's just SO UNHEALTHY - the kind of unhealthy fats...just so bad for arteries and my body...def whipped cream cannot be a staple! so yeah...i'm taking your advice and agreement - and just not making whipped cream a staple...just no. so it's staying out of my apt and shopping cart..

but the ice cream is staying for now.


happy-1 on 06/22/2018:
I'm going to attempt to make my own yogurt from a gallon of milk tonight. If it works it will be way cheap and easy to make that yogurt into frozen popsicles by mixing in flavor and protein powder... which will keep me out of the ice cream aisle.

horn_of_plenty on 06/22/2018:
let me know how it turns out...will you put anything else in the pops?


bearcountrygg on 06/22/2018:
I used to make my own yogurt in a heated yogurt maker...that made 3 containers at a time.....that was before yogurt got so popular.....back in the 70's.

horn_of_plenty on 06/22/2018:
how did it come out, thick like greek or thin?


bearcountrygg on 06/22/2018:
Thinner...like regular yogurt


happy-1 on 06/22/2018:
Started with pouring some raspberry kefir in the tube popsicle molds. They are tubes with. End caps so they need a juice or liquid to pour in. Still waiting for my flat bar molds to come from amazon... when they do, I have pb2 powder, dark choc syrup and dark choc overed peanuts and peanut butter cups so I will put them in the chopper and maybe do like a peanut butter ice cream and chocolate fudge swirl with bits of candy on top.

horn_of_plenty on 06/22/2018:
Nice flavors - in terms of ice cream I have always preferred choc and peanut butter to fruit flavors


happy-1 on 06/22/2018:
They are kind of cool... each mold is a single pop and they all stack so you can fill them or eat them 1 at a time


happy-1 on 06/22/2018:
Here's the link... I dunno how many come in the pack it is kind of chancy. Bed Bath and Beyond wants $18 for a set of 3 and these were $7. https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B073GBS4LM/ref=od_aui_detailpages00?ie=UTF8&psc=1


happy-1 on 06/22/2018:
And these are the ice pop molds! https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B0719VLLSG/ref=oh_aui_detailpage_o04_s00?ie=UTF8&psc=1


Donkey on 06/22/2018:
I would be interested to hear how your homemade yogurt turns out.

It would never occur to me to make pops out of yogurt. I too prefer the chocolate or nut flavors, but every once in a while a fruit flavor is a nice change.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/23/2018:
Happy is the one making the yogurt pops :) and BBCG made yogurt in the past :)

same here, i LOVE alternating tastes and get bored when always having the same thing...so sometimes i too buy fruit flavors in my light ice cream too.

i will not be making yogurt though. and today i had an Oikos chocolate fat free, 120 cals and decent on the sugar - tasty not that great! i will not buy more after i finish the other one! def not a decadent taste. i also bought Fage 5%!!! they had no 4% and also the 2% as the calories are better and 2% still tastes great.



Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jun 21, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

wrap 120, egg 80, avocado 160, salt and pepper, coffee 50 400...craving for a chocolate i was given it's from russia and so good...it's milk chocolate surrounding a soft, juicy sugared prune! just very good. 100 tops. 

snack: 150, sf lollipop

lunch: Lunch was a change of pace, all new tastes, mostly vegetarian..leftover squid 100 or less cals, roasted Brussel sprouts mixed with cranberries and some light cheese amazing 200?, roasted cauliflower/grains with yellow raisons and just awesome flavor 150-200, oh and cucumbers in a tasty marinade 100? Restaurant was called The Little Beat. Big apple for dessert 150. Total cals: 750.

snack cherry tomatoes 50, almond cookie in chocolate 150...cravings today.....not really hungry, just snacky!!!!!!..today will be a higher cal day, 2250.

before gym: wrap 60 at home with turkey 50 and stewed veggies/beans250 probably and plum 400 total.

after gym: ice cream ? or maybe something smaller. 200 protein bar. peanut butter chocolate flavor from powerbar i think is was

2200

6day: 2075 - good.

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sore throat is still a thing.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/21/2018:
Chocolate and prune is a new and different combo......interesting. Not good about the sore throat.....have you tried tea with honey?

horn_of_plenty on 06/21/2018:
The cough that was dry is now breaking up with some phlegm. i was thinking to jog last night but knew it wouldn't be good with my cough...i hope my exercise at the gym tonight doesn't make it worse...i think it'll heal on it's own...tea with honey is good idea...you know me - i don't want to have honey now bc of the sugar hahahahaha.


bearcountrygg on 06/21/2018:
Honey is antibacterial…..and soothing......popsicles are good too...but sugar!!!

horn_of_plenty on 06/21/2018:
lol...yeah :) i put honey on my face so often...it's good at clearing pimples...and thank you for your good suggestions.


Donkey on 06/21/2018:
I can relate to feeling snacky but not hungry. Can be very hard to deal with!

horn_of_plenty on 06/22/2018:
lol, right!?


happy-1 on 06/21/2018:
Try altoids for the sore throat. Sometimes it helps.

horn_of_plenty on 06/22/2018:
The sore throat is gone, not it's just a cough, sometimes a little mucous but mostly a dry cough...ugh!


happy-1 on 06/21/2018:
Or fresh cut pineapple.

horn_of_plenty on 06/22/2018:
ty!



Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jun 20, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

KOMBUCHA 100

COFFEE 50, wrap 120, egg 80, salt/pepper/garlic, avocado half 160.  

snack: almonds...200

Lunch: jackfruit 100 mixed into the rest of the Indian food 200-250 i have from Monday, yellow cherry tomatoes 50...400 grapefruit 100. 500. Japanese food. more protein - some chicken and squid 250, crab salad 50, salad with dressing 50, grapefruit 50. 450.-500, coffee

snack before class: small protein bar 100

dinner: veggies israeli prepared big portion 150-200...in wrap 120 with smoked turkey 50...fiber 1 cookie 120..500. small icecream 100. 600 :)

plum 50

2000 :)

5day = 2060 = A+ !!

short 20 min walk after dinner, bed early after.

throat still sore.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 06/20/2018:
Always wanted to try jackfruit. I saw this huge one at the store once and wouldn't even know how to break it down. The next time I went back, the same huge jack fruit was there and you could see that it was getting old. On the third trip, the jackfruit was cut in sections and was being sold. I wonder if it was the same jackfruit that was going bad the time previous. I have seen a recipe for bbq jackfruit, looked interesting.

What is the texture? Does it taste similar to anything else?

horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2018:
yes, i've seen Jackfruit also in stores as a whole fruit. It was HUGE like 2 feet long and over a foot wide. And they also looked spoiled with flies on them - yuck!

yes i do bet they cut up the one that was there.

Jackfruit has a bland flavor and needs to be in a dish that has a lot of flavor...It looks like meat. It's consistency is smooth texture similar to a cooked fish like salmon or tuna (but softer than tuna). I have only tasted prepared and flavored Jackfruit. It's good to mix with any sauce...not marinate, because that's too thin a flavor for it..it needs a thick sauce or food with it...you could put it in stuffed peppers instead of meat and with maybe some CHEESE...

Jackfruit might be good in a thick stew. I like using it and coating it with Indian sauces. Or a curry would be good with Jackfruit added in.

It's VERY fibrous. It may make you gassy or bloated but has extremely low calories. Less calories than most fruits, actually. Slightly higher cals than a veggie. It's not unhealthy and you can get it canned at many stores. Maybe drain it and rinse slightly to remove some of the salt mixture it's probably stored in...

Lately, i took a break from meat for a little bit at lunch this week and had the jackfruit instead...but protein is important so i made sure to eat some at dinner, otherwise i start to crave it....

it's just a great food to add into a thick dish...it lowers the cals...it would be good in a casserole...just a little bit of it, instead of meat...it's good maybe in a burrito form, just a little though..it could maybe work in a rice dish too. it's not a stand alone food, but addition to a meal / dish. :)


bearcountrygg on 06/20/2018:
OOH...SQUID....squid and snails are 2 things I would never eat......blech

horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2018:
Similar to shrimp, isn't squid similar?!


bearcountrygg on 06/20/2018:
NOOOOO>...BLECH!!!! It contains squid ink....BLECH

Horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2018:
hahaha


Donkey on 06/20/2018:
I've heard that jackfruit is a common staple for a vegan diet -- very good for pulled chicken/pork/beef recipes.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2018:
YES! It'd be excellent in those recipes!


Donkey on 06/20/2018:
Sorry to hear that your throat still hurts.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2018:
thank you - not a great time of year to have a sore throat! (not that i'd want it any time of year!)



Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jun 19, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

kombucha, didn't do the job bc i ate dinner too late around 8pm 80

Zone bar and coffee 230

not in a mood to eat my wrap - has too much fiber/spread in it. 120, tons of eggplant spread 200, egg 80, 440. 

Lunch: ? stuck with all the excellent food i haVe here - jackfruit 100, palak (spinach saag) 200, some potato and cauliflower not much 100, grapefruit 100. 500 :) healthy. just low protein.  craving protein a little bit. craving caffeine too. I'll make decaf if it's there. 50. and almonds 50

Before gym: Wrap back at my apt :) 500 turkey in wrap with veggies and 2 plums

After gym: thinking ice cream...350

2200, GOOD.

4DAY: 2075

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One of my coworkers has a fitbit and is doing a challenge...she had to get 14000 steps in (around 7mi!) AND SHE DID IT! seems that i need to realize that i MUST keep improving on my leg strength as well as continue by jogging practice...or i should seriously forget about the Court Office Academy right now...so, i am reminding myself and all of you that anything is possible, but you have to DO THE THING that you want to improve on. I don't have the same goal to walk that many steps as my coworker, but i do have a goal to improve and that means to FIND THE TIME to jog during the week which will be MUCH EASIER when my class ends, next week on Friday.   The class totally made it harder to exercise by having a scheduled class each week, one day. Not complaining, just saying i need my sleep lol and rest....

and that i do plan to make progress in the summer, and not just let it be any type of washout...my goal is to be back to jogging 2mi at the end of this summer just like last summer...and in Winter, i WILL continue exercise this year. My plan is NOT to take anymore classes that last more than one session (day) for the rest of 2018.

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Woke up a little nauseous and with a sore throat today...i know it's from the salt tub hour soak last night.  I wasn't breathing well and holding my breath at times so then i started to tell myself to breath deeply. An hour was WAYYYY too long in that floating tub, i'll tell you that. i hope the sore throat goes away in a couple days.

I left 10min late so i was 10min late to work. very crappy of me...

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Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/19/2018:
Good to know - I was intrigued by the salt bath, but I think that's something I'll do in my own home. My husband, with his AS condition and GI issues, would probably benefit as well.

horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2018:
yes, doing it at home i think is MORE relaxing...and it is very beneficial. seems that legcramps does it also at home.

as long as the tub is somewhat clean....i'll be doing it more as my tub is clean now :)

never again like what i did last night tho.


happy-1 on 06/19/2018:
Feel better!

horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2018:
ty ty :)


bearcountrygg on 06/19/2018:
You sound dehydrated...…..drink water when you get home...and stay away from eating salt today...

Horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2018:
??????....why did i sound dehydrated?

also, i did wake up with bloated fingers and stuff...i guess i had a lot of salt last night.


Donkey on 06/19/2018:
Ooo if you get a FitBit, please let me add you as one of my friends! I'm not competitive, but it's nice to have friends to see how they're doing. So sad are my "Inactive Friends" - LOL...

Horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2018:
fair warning...my steps will be pretty few, but i'll be just seeing where i am at at first, and little by little will improve :)

Horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2018:
and i'd love to add you...once she buys a new one...and gives me hers...i'll pay her back in food :)

Horn_of_plenty on 06/19/2018:
yeah, i'm not one for competition either!..i'd lose!


bearcountrygg on 06/20/2018:
You sound dehydrated because kombucha didn't work, you have a sore throat...and salt dries people out....that is why we salt eggplant...to remove the water...and swollen fingers mean you need more water...so that your body will stop holding on to it for dear life.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2018:
ohhhh! .... that would make sense! and i KNOW there was tons of salt in what i ate the night before...i am so annoyed that the salt bath DEFINITELY had this effect on me...humidifier was on really high, i doubt they clean it. so frustrated that i got a sore throat trying to do something good. never again will i go to an indoor man made type of thing like this..or rather, i will not try a place like this again. i must say tho, there's on place close to me in queens that i might try, similar but not the same...hahahaha. in terms of salt baths, i'll just get my booty in gear to have them at home!


bearcountrygg on 06/20/2018:
Yup...I buy the Epsom salts without fragrance usually....the lavender ones...( actually anything lavender makes me hyper...it's an allergy...and while lavender is supposed to be calming..it revs me up...and not in a pretty way)...LOL....also.....you are supposed to soak for no less than 20 minutes in it......the body absorbs magnesium I believe.....it may also have a laxative affect overnight....so be prepared for that too possibly....Epsom slats may be cheaper than kombucha...LOL

horn_of_plenty on 06/20/2018:
YES :) thank you for the tips...i did read about the 20 min and thank you for that reminder.....yes, last time it bloated me up...but then again i also had a thousand veggies i am sure :)



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jun 17, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Monday:

1 am Chips 150

kombucha 100

coffee 50, wrap and egg 200 with saag 150. 400.

snack: mix of pistachios and almonds 200

lunch: orange color cherry tomatoes from farmer's market yesterday and yellow pepper 100, i think meat free and just trying this curry jackfruit 50, some indian tasty prepared eggplant (it was blended, and i ate it like soup - so so so good, such good flavor, like a blended eggplant with light olive oil light soup with many flavors.). 200. 

snacks: almonds 100. drink 100

dinner: will be healthy, natural, lower sugar. it was all veggies in a wrap, but some veggies - eggplant - were fried but not breaded...and rather large servings of the veggies, most were marinated in oil (again, eggplant, different type...) wrap was 120, veggies the fried eggplant around 200, marinated eggplant in oil around 300 max and a little touboulle salad 100 tops. total here: 720.

2100 today...slightly high, but very nutritious. though high.

3day: 2035, good!

planning to watch my movie The Color Purple tonight :) no extra exercise aside from getting of bus a hair early on way home and some walking at lunch. legs still sore from horseback. alll is good :)

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I arrived a full half hour late due to construction, not making up the time because i had a half hour extra bc of all the time i've done extra since Friday. good deal. i may have to leave early the next few mornings..

got a groupon to soak in a mineral salt bath for an hour after work today...good for sore muscles and leg tightness...a coworker tried it and liked it, so i'm going after work today.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/18/2018:
Is the mineral salt bath for one...or a pool?

horn_of_plenty on 06/18/2018:
for one! ....i'm intrigued as my muscles have been more sore lately especially after horseback and my weak ankle i am sure will improve.:)

oh, interestingly, they have SALT caves...i immediately thought of you!!!!!!! your salt lamps!

i'll be doing an hour of floating. it's a bit pricey, but the groupon saved me 50%

horn_of_plenty on 06/18/2018:
they have a bunch of services and this one should be very helpful, as it really is absorbed into the body. i'll let you all know how it turns out.


bearcountrygg on 06/18/2018:
Good ions I think!!! :)


legcramps on 06/18/2018:
I take salt baths all the time! They're awesome for muscle recovery.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/18/2018:
yes the rest of my baths shall be at home...this hour took forever to end! all in the dark. i plan to do a lot more salt baths at home in my own tub!



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jun 17, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Good Morning :)

i'll catch up with your entries when i'm doing laundry...was invited by Ricky to go to farmstand :) vendors set up the food/products they bring at a local park every weekend until late Fall... :) 

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Besides a diet Snapple at beach, yesterday was healthy. I estimated 2200 or so but could be less, not sure. i  didn't bring my own snacks, so was eating what was around...dinner was so healthy at my parents! unlimited veggies was good because i ate small portions of everything else. :)

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Now on to today:

8:30 am Breakfast: saag on a wrap extra saag, 400, almonds 120. Coffee while out 80. 600.

11am: Pickles with nice garlic flavor at farmer's market 50, and the soursop fruit online says 150 cals for a cup of pulp and at most i had 2 cups from that fruit (i think it was slightly smaller than average soursop). 300 cals. at least it is healthy, right? i didn't think the other half the fruit would last in the fridge, so i just decided to enjoy it..., also enjoying a light sparkling coconut water drink 25 cals...

1pm lunch: wrap 60, deli turkey meat 40, leftover indian veggies mostly baby carrots with oil 150, leftover saag (indian spinach tho i think they made this one with oil, no cream and i like it better than the other restaurant). 150. total here: 400, healthy.

2:30 with laundry done now, strawberries 50...and off to gym for an early afternoon session :)...i'll def be home around or before 6pm. will pick up avocados and store them in my gym locker lol so they don't sit out in my hot car in this over 90 degree weather :)

1450...

120 fiber one cookie and 180 protein bar and a ol 50

1800 total.

2day 2000

 

 after i finish laundry, i plan to do a little reading, then gym, then supermarket (which i might just skip until tomorrow after work), since i'm really rather enjoying being home today & not running around with errands. 

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I had a SOURSOP in my fridge sine early last week. It's a fruit i had found in the supermarket that i never tasted. It's very sweet and tasty. It's high cal, so i had kept putting it off to eat the whole thing, so had it when i got back from the farmer's market. I was looking to eat something very natural...and light. Fruit is light...lol. i had a bunch of fresh pickles so this sweet taste was good after that!

11am: soursop fruit (the whole thing bc each half was the size of a cup but some parts are inedible like all the seeds which are like the size of sunflower seeds and also the spine inside is not edible. it tasted like a sweet shake. it's a thick fruit, not watery, but silky smooth texture, and a dense light white kind of color. not watery. it's like having a margarita or mixed drink without the alcohol sort of flavor..and the pickles at the fair along with some very small tastings of a small piece of bread with garlic oil and also smallest bite of a piece of a chip with salsa. emphasis on SMALL :)

 

 

 

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Ricky invited me also to go to eat later and be by a concert (not attned, but hear from the outside) that starts at 8pm only 10 minutes away...i'm going to turn him down bc i want today to be ultra relaxed, not rushing later tonight...and i want gym & still have laundry...not in the mood to rush, so gonna do my own thing :)

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Gym a bit later - but i'll lay low on legs as they are sore.

Maybe watch the movie I borrowed from the library - the color purple....great movie but I haven't seen it. That's it. Def gotta do laundry - still I don't prefer doing it during the week (would open up the weekends to doing much more, but honestly i don't think i mind sitting around a little bit!....

- so that must be why laundry remains on weekends. also, it just makes one more weeknight rather busy...if i had laundry in my apt, which i may consider later on, it would be done during the week. but since i go downstairs, and must take out clothes in a much more timely manner from the washer, i do prefer laundry on weekend...ok enough about laundry!

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While with family last night having dinner, we discussed a very strange topic. hopefully this doesn't offend anyone...i cannot even write what i want to write bc it's wayyyyy to weird for the internet. basically, my sister is pregnant with a boy.  and she was saying that my mom cannot ever touch it's private parts even once when she's wiping it like bc it's something she never saw herself and of course NOT TO PLAY duh, i mean just to see what it's like on a baby...and not to play!!!!!!!! that would be freaking screwed up i KNOW! anyways, i sided on the very liberal side on this issue. saying if it was one time, and OBVISOULY NOT FOR ANY EVER TYPE OF PLEASURE ASPECT duh!!!!!!!!!, it wouldn't be the biggest deal. i'm not talking throughout the whole time the baby is a baby. i'm talking one time. and not a prolonged time....

...i told you it's a very strange issue.

anyways, i sided with the fact that overall it's not a big deal with a basically newborn and like just for overall knowledge and that's it. and no biggie...and forget about it as it's just not a major deal or anything wrong to anyone even the baby. i didn't bring this topic up, my pregnant sister did saying she knew my mom would want to do that...and i sided with my mom. and my dad get furiously mad...like to the max screaming at me and accusing me of being one of those folks that could get in trouble for things related to that nature but not the same as this example.

overall my family is very type A and if someone has any different view or opinion or even if i do something in public like say anything (and i mean anything not major deal issues i mean say a word wrong! or use wrong grammer, anything!) it becomes a fight. i don't have patience for it all the time. my dad was yelling at me since horseback riding in the morning...eventually i had enoug of my whole family acting like jerks overall...

my sister's bf was driving my mom's car home from the beach and driving it like an A$$hole... on purpose. my sister telling him to stop being an A$$. it's funny he gets away with everything. my sister's husband constantly trying to get me in trouble with my parents - he's VERY good at playing into family dynamics and it is SO ANNOYING.

if i were dating anyone, i'd be scared to introduce him at this time to my family as they don't know how to cool it with me.  it's constantly, "let's teach her what's wrong and right..."...i'm 35! it gets annoying...teaching me lessons in public all the time!? come on! i'm not 5.

anyways, i had enough, so i abruptly got up from the dining room table where we were eating, sister, husband, dad and mom...i stormed around to get my things...my dad came over and continued yelling at me not to leave...i considered it by going to my room....and decided i wasn't listening to more of the same or doing what anyone wanted...and i left and drove home with my dad still yelling and windows of the house open as i went to my car to drive home.

once in my car, i felt relief...there ended up being loads of traffic so i actually took an exit and drove in the opposite direciton of my apt for around 15 minutes...before getting off another exit to another road to actually go home.

i guess i'm happy to lay here on the couch today. relax right now, before starting the day.

i wished my dad a happy father's day by text as we celebrated yesterday. i'll prob try to see him during the week since he works by me, and drop off his card and small gift - a white top for the beach. i forgot everything bc i was rushing yesterday morning to leave my place at 9am...and i was just rushing. so since i'm not seeing him today, i'll have to drop his stuff off to him during the week hopefully which he'd like...as long as he's at the office...he works in many locations.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/17/2018:
Now having said all of that, it's really too bad that yesterday ended up with your dad yelling at you for most of the 2nd half of the day. I know that you are close to your dad, so that must have been very unpleasant to experience. However, because you are close, maybe your relationship can handle events like that.

Again, from my experience, I could never have an encounter like that with my grandmother (now deceased) and recover from it. She was a very toxic, angry person who, while professing to be a firm follower of Christ, held a grudge forever, unforgiving, and even somewhat vengeful.

Relationships are complicated. I wish you a quiet and relaxing day today :-)

Horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2018:
he didn't scream/get all worked up the whole time - just one thing during horseback riding when we were getting in the car to go home he said i was like a five year old not controlling my horse bc at the end of the hour my horse stopped to eat and i was unable to make it stop as fast as i would have liked so i was left partially behind for a few minutes. so my dad got all worried and spread the news up to the leader of the pack (around 6 adults were horseback riding with a leader and we were all in a single line the whole time). so when the news got up to the front that i was missing, it seems she was alarmed. I wasn't far behind and i think my dad got alarmed too fast and should have waited a hair more to do something if anything. my horse did finally make it's way back, it was probably around no longer than 2-4 minutes (i doubt more than 5), that i was missing. my horse was lazy and i was trying (probably not hard enough or with enough strong) to get it to move. we were told to pull on the reigns when the horse puts its head down to eat....i did, but the horse just wouldn't move...but eventually did. my dad was angry that i let the horse eat and got displaced from the group...and he was telling me how wrong i was, to upset the leader and him....grrr...like i was doing it on purpose! he said i was worse than a kid and that he should have been on the last horse instead of me! he just always wants control and it's obvious and at times gets rather annoying.

also one of the workers there was a young woman attending college and working there at the horse stable part time. i was asking her questions as she was speaking and my dad actually told me in front of her to stop...she and I looked at him in disbelief for a second...bc what he did isn't right i don't think with me being 35. he went on to tell me this is what my sister doesn't like about me...that i don't let people finish what they're saying before i ask them a question. he may be right i am sure a bit, but, how embarassing to do this to me in public all the time. it's like, just shut up already, you are not in charge of me and everything i say out loud, get a life, and let me handle myself.

at he beach, he did the same. he was asking me why i said certain things to a male friend of his / friend of the family we saw there with his family. i was talkng about a class i was taking, how it stated in the manual that we are a republic, not a democracy...i was speaking to this other man about this stuff because he's a lawyer who happens to be involved in voting registration and getting more people out to vote, etc. my dad asked why i would discuss that with him...and i said it's because he does stuff exactly related to the class, so he'd be the BEST person to share this stuff with! duh! it's annoying that everything i say needs to be questioned, most of the time. my mom is EVEN WORSE. she'll point at me to tell me a point, with her index finger like i'm 5. she'll look at me and tell me to stop talking or watch what i'm saying.

and then, when i am at work, i'm completely nervous to say anything and act like a moron at this job where i'm currently at i'm the most paranoid i've been in a long while! and now i see why.

so my dad was angry about how i acted, like i did it purposely to hold my horse back yeah right! in the morning for like 10 minutes he was completely acting all annoyed with me. ...

...and then for like 5 minutes in the evening he started to get so utterly upset telling me i dare not say another word...when we were discussing if it's right to touch a boy baby's private parts...like just to see what they are like when they are so small as a basically newborn - not as it grows up or anything of that nature. that was the main gist of it last night...i still retain my view that it's ok one time just for the adult knowledge and i don't care if others disagree. i know i'm not a freak.

my relationship with my dad will handle it, but more and more it is very obvious to me that i cannot spend long periods with my family and that it's wrong for them to treat me as a kid, always teaching me lessons rather than just conversing as adults. it's rather annoying and it's just part of our family dynamics: no discussions, just lessons. it's rather boring and dull and unsatisfying that my family is like this, rather than people who just like to converse and actually talk about things. i'd learn more if they were more easy going. both my dad and mom are not easy going people to any extent.


Donkey on 06/17/2018:
I deleted my first comment, as I realize I hadn't read your entry carefully enough before commenting. (Ooops - my fault!)

Please let me know if you would like me to delete what I said above. I would have except that you had already responded, and I wasn't sure if it would be polite to delete or OK to leave.

Yes, I see what you are saying that my family experience is not like yours. I was completely wrong to comment like that - even from my own perspective - because you are 100% right! I should really be more careful with bringing my own perspective into other people's situations. I'm sorry :-(

I still think that choosing your conversations carefully can be applicable to any situation, but then, what? You can't speak or ask questions ever? No, that's not right...

Horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2018:
what!? you said nothing wrong at all...i appreciated everything you said, it was SO HELPFUL to read your first comment! because i totally relate to what you were saying, and that part of our family dynamics, after reading what you initially wrote, are so similar. you have reminded me, to remind myself, that less said is better. not to overreact. i did overreact last night by storming out. i'm going to work to not OVERREACT anymore with my family. ...

i never would want you to delete anything, i think you perspective has helped me so many times especially this one i'm glad i could talk about it with you here.

after all, i'm the "queen bee" of bringing my perspective into the comments on others' entries :) i enjoy your perspective and any examples of you bring into the comments. you did absolutely nothing wrong, you did me majorly right :) thank you !!

yes, i agree i still need to choose my conversations carefully or choose which of my opinions i should fight for, and which i should say and then stop :) i think i was ok to say it once last night, but bc i kept voicing it in contrast to the other side of the argument, everything flared up with nobody going to agree with the other side. it was my dad, sister, her husband against my mom and i in terms of opinions on that matter..

i think, regarding your final comments above, that i guess as adults it's important to carefully guage which situations i should stand up for myself in and which i should let slide.

with my sister being pregnant, i think she's more ready to fight than usual for how she feels. and regarding my dad, i guess i can point out to him that i can make my own thoughts up about things, lately i have to point it out bc it's unbearable with him, and otherwise, i'll have to work harder to let things slide..next time i will just keep my guard up..and be more prepared for these situations which are constant.

i think next time this happens, i'll just walk away from the table and sit downstairs in their house rather than leave the house. seeing people so upset is very upsetting to me...like seeing my dad's flaring temper is upsetting to me..so if it happens again, i'm not sure i could remain at the table yet. i may just have to stand up for myself...and when my dad yells at me, i'll have to start to tell him that i don't need any lessons? idk....i'll start to pick and choose more carefully. i guess.


innerpeace on 06/20/2018:
My two cents! WHAT the hell?? I had a newborn son and excuse me, but when/if the baby is circumsized the penis will have to be touched and dealt with afterwards for cleanliness and care. And to be perfectly honest, there were a few times, when poop actually got all over the place, including his penis and had to be wiped off. That is just insane to think it will never be touched. It's not like it's intentional fondling or anything. Some circumstances will be unavoidable, it just will. Anyway, good luck with that....and I am catching up on posts...sorry.

Anyway, I hope you had a good Father's Day.

My mother is the embarrassing, she will go off on anyone at anytime in public. There were times, I would say, OK mom, we are going in here to do this, please don't yell at the people. I'm sorry you are treated this way, I say...BE YOU Girlie!



Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jun 16, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.5

200 before lunch..healthy Great day with family - dad had Groupon to go horseback riding then we had lunch now beach and dinner maybe sleeping over 11amLunch: tuna salad large amount 300? Chips 200, bread 200, coffee 50..750.. Watermelon 100 Diet Snapple with piece of dad's hot pretzel 150 Snack of hard pretzels and light drinks 150 Dinner is big but I'll eat healthy ....we are I think bbqing chicken and salmon 1350....

dinner prob around 2250, healthy day.

for dinner there was salmon, chicken, lots of veggies and salad, some small potatoes on the grill...i tried a bite of sausage, a small spoonful of my dad's baked beans..overall i ate a huge amount but mostly in veggies. nice to eat at my parents house. i helped out a little bit helping my dad at the grill. my mom prepped the food herself though..

there was a fight that i can't  write about here bc it's both just too stupid and also too hard to write here as it's a topic that is just royally too embarassing to type about. my family is all very type A and there's always way too much fighting when we get together. it's really annoying that i'm still constantly told what to say and do, at 35. i ended up leaving early, because i really can't put up with the arguing and yelling for a long time...or the raised voices and types of communication they favor. i'm glad i left.

Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/16/2018:
That sounds like such a fun day! Horseback riding with the family - wow!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2018:
yes, my dad found a groupon for a place literally less than 10 minutes away for horseback riding. it was a good experience... it was just me & him.


Donkey on 06/16/2018:
Aw, I'm so sorry that the day ended on a sour note. ((((hugs))))

horn_of_plenty on 06/17/2018:
Yeah I don't think I do well with so much commotion - I do not think your family is similar in this respect to mine ...



Horn_of_plenty - Friday Jun 15, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.5

DECIDED TO STAY LATE AND MAKE UP ALL TIME DUE BC OF THE CLASS :) NOW I CAN LEAVE EARLY THE NEXT TWO WEEKS ON WEDNESDAY AND NOT NEED TO MAKE UP TIME....BEEN LAZY WITH EXERCISE THOUGH.

left work at 6pm which means i actually made up a half hour extra to leave early next week i'm thinking...maybe.

 

kombucha 100

8am wrap 60, butter 40, egg 100, beans 100, coffee 50

10am Chickpea salad from coworker funny coincidence since I had chickpeas earlier in morning lol my beans were chickpeas actually...200..this wasn't satisfying...tasted nice but unsatisfying due to it being like all carbs.

11am 100 almonds

Healthy lunch: matzah whole wheat cracker 100, very oily but healthy indian okra 250?, egg and egg white 100, peppers 100 (a lot), small grapefruit 100. 650. good.

1:30-pm after lunch....ugh....sweet lara bar snack (high sugar but tastes great)...eating today. 200...giving into all temptations

I'm going walking / jogging this afternoon after work which means i must get my assignment done at work, and it is VERY time consuming....!...so let me get back to work...

Dinner after jog: Plan is for a big thing of leftover indian veggies 250, turkey 50, wrap 60, some saag 150? total here approx: 500

TOTAL TODAY: 2350, decent....i don't know what has come over me lately.

Skipped jog bc stayed at work and had apple 1850 before dinner ...I will go walking after I eat dinner.

7day: 2200 - i do gain weight from this high calories...i am getting too used to stuffing myself.... especially like at lunch here...and also evenings at home too much crap....i'm not going to buy any more sf jello or whipped cream for awhile (maybe not the rest of the summer).

Lots of bad cravings this week and indulgences.

Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 06/15/2018:
What are your maintenance daily calories?

horn_of_plenty on 06/15/2018:
Around 2000.


Donkey on 06/15/2018:
Oh I LOVE chickpeas - garbanzo beans - YUM! They are very calorie- and carb-dense, though, so I have to watch my portions.

I know that you truly intended to jog/walk today. I'm sorry that it didn't work out. But it isn't a great feeling knowing that your hard work NOW will make next week easier? That's the #1 reason why I stay late at work -- to make tomorrow a better day for myself. (Sometimes it works, most of the time it's just another set of frustrations, LOL...)

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2018:
Amazingly I actually did a nice walk late after dinner and after even just relaxing .... glad I walked at least - lately my ankle is so tight and even my 30 min walk I feel it but also realize it's prob in my best interest to keep moving -

I tend to overeat on days I work later but in general my eating is screwy - I am very happy that I have made up enough time this week to be able to leave the hour early for both next week and the following week for my classes :) that decreases a lot of stress

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2018:
I've been falling back to bad habits and also eating too much volume and too fast and I'm ready to make some fixes - this coming week will be slower I know with coworker and she's also my boss away :)

horn_of_plenty on 06/16/2018:
Yeah BEans don't satisfy me.. but are healthy



Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jun 14, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.5

7:30am Breakfast wrap 60, avocado 160, egg 100...320, coffee extra milk 100, other coffee 50 500 (i was here early so was having extra coffee to keep my mouth busy/stomach busy)

9am Snacks from coworker big piece of turkey bacon 150? small pieces of home fries - Potato 50 700

...skin still very broken out but dinner bean wrap last night was excellent ! Thinking to have that before gym today

11am Almonds approx 50

1:30pm Huge lunch but healthy ingredients, just large portions including rice which was pretty tasty. also a bit oily lunch. it was indian last of the tandoori chicken drumsticks 150 tops, basmati rice with peas 250?, okra (very oily but so good) small serving 100-150, tons of veggies also some oil 200, some salad with some saag 100-150?...total lunch: 800-850. 

The rest of the day will be in smaller portions is my plan. bar before the gym or a cookie is my plan...it hasn't been a weightloss week but the food choices have improved overall and i hope my skin will clear more...also this weekend i'll be active and looking to make good choices...i bought more indian to bring home for the weekend.

I will leave on time today - yes...not making up any more time for the day my bus was late ! It's too stressful and nobody is noticing and it makes me have a bigger appetite the later i stay and later i get to gym, and I wanna jog tomorrow which means i want to be out on time tomorrow too and everyone will be leaving before me tomorrow - so it will be easy to leave on time and not stay late!....today i'm planning to go straight to gym without having to stop home as my gym clothes are already in my car and i'm glad i am starting to put them there the night before now! doing good with that.

At work a nice half hour earlier today & that made people notice :)

Over the weekend i should be able to make better food choices - i'd like lower calories next week, today i weighed 116 on scale...lately it's high again....and i feel the fat on my lower stomach area coming back....time to watch it.

1650 after nuts And 2 bars. Total today is 2050. Tomorrow's a new day! 6day = 2150

I never made it to the gym & i'll be taking off the gym until Sunday.  I will totally jog tomorrow after work - and will leave early at 4pm so i have some energy for the jog!  Everyone will leave before me, so, shouldn't be a big deal tomorrow and i can say i worked late the day before.

i did work 11 hours though and made up enough time not to stay late or work any extra next week when i still have a class i leave early for - the time has all been made up :)

Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/14/2018:
Good reminder...I have an avocado in the fridge.

horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2018:
trying to clear my skin, avocado helps. i also crave it...it's satisfying...and it has potassium...i believe. which i don't get from bananas anymore bc i was trying to lay off them as they spike my blood sugar and get me craving more sweets...it's been good to stop the bananas :) i believe avocados are just as high....and i think dates...and i thought apricots...gotta look that up to..



Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jun 13, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.5

kombucha 100

wrap 100, egg 80, half avocacdo 170 salt and pepper, coffee 50  400.

500...healthy. i only have half container of whip cream left and planning to not buy it anymore after i finish it. :)

snack: apple / almonds 200 skipped bc doing work with one of my bosses :)

lunch: indian and sald: drumpstick 100, salad greens 50 so good fancier greens, curry cauliflower/potato 200 tops, also some saag (lots of indian this week and LOVING it) 200 at most. total here: 600 tops.

snack: might go for cake and decaf coffee :) yes - and someone gave me an expresso with sugar :( and it tasted like candy! so good! 400 at most?

dinner: i may finish the whipped cream with ice cream - so sue me! will try for no sugar: apple 100 (healthy!), 2 egg whites 50, wrap 60, half avocado 160, chick peas130: 500, decided on chips, 200 - craved the carbs / salt. it's totally fine bc i am happier with this dinner than all the ice cream and whipped cream i've been having.

overall 2200, decent.

5day: 

bed early..

someone's bday is tomorrow and i hear it's going to be an amazing cake today...i may try to have it and work it into my day & not have such a low day just to enjoy the cake...big possibility. i know i'll at least be tasting the cake..and maybe follow the tastes up with coffee :)

my skin has one really deep breakout...because of my horrible eating habits so the inflammation hasn't gone down a lot ...but it's not getting worse thankfully.

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i was late today bc they closed a road!!!!! the bus had to take a longer detour to the train. i was late by 20 min. i have to make it up friday :( but people have said don't worry...so i may just not worry and only make up the time for the class..last night i made up half hour and tomorrow a half hour to make up for leaving an hour early today...ugh! i will make today's time up on friday , i think. i have to make up 20 min for today...UGH!

 

Progress as of today: 0.5 lbs lost so far, only 3.5 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/13/2018:
I don't think anyone will sue you....LOL

Horn_of_plenty on 06/13/2018:
lol, hope not ;)....bc i aint got no money to give hahahaha


happy-1 on 06/13/2018:
I hate that feeling of being off schedule. It distracts me all day. Take a few breaths, put on headphones, close your eyes and listen to this vid. It will re-center you. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UfcAVejslrU

Horn_of_plenty on 06/13/2018:
thank you...luckily, i forgot about being late...i will try not to even make it up...since others really don't stay late to make it up, i'm gonna try to leave on my time friday...because i want to jog and putting things off just gets me hungrier and further from goal and i was told not to worry so much to make it up...it's only 20 minutes so we'll see...


Donkey on 06/13/2018:
I commented on the cool whip/jello in one of my replies to one of your comments in MY diary. (That's not too confusing, is it? LOL) Anyway, so maybe you might want to read, but the bottom line suggestion is to try switching to Fage Greek yogurt instead. I think you'll find it more satisfying and better for you.

Just a thought - who knows, you might try it and hate the taste or texture. Right?

horn_of_plenty on 06/14/2018:
no not confusing...i know that my comment was a bit centered around myself haha that long comment i made. i debated copying and pasting some of the comment into my own diary entry, but then left it on yours bc i figured you might have something to say on the issue :)

i do love fage greek yogurt, it would be a good switch once i finish what i have at home.



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