definitely feeling upset and unhappy today. Not happy and for some reason the fact that i have a crappy job and undecided future is bothering me today a lot. I volunteered for the first time in two weeks, i took two weeks off, at the hospital. I didn't mind being there and all of a sudden got REALLY antsy and couldn't wait to leave. I only go there once a week so i don't mind it at all...and it usually feels good. I did feel good at some point during the night, but i started thinking i was hungry, then thirsty, and then i just wanted to leave! Came home, hardly had an appetite, and ate anyway. I ate anyway a few times today in the afternoon.
total calories: 1555.
I am SO fed up today. I am SO angry. Nothing is working out. I thought i had all the credits I needed for my master's back in August. I could have graduated in August. but, i waited so I could list an honor society down on my graduate transcript. My advisor called me in early december, the same month i was supposed to graduate, to tell me that even though i fulfilled all the classes, I still needed to either register for ANY class or just pay 2,500 for my last 3 credits. (I got placed out of a class bc i already took it as an undergrad, but i still need to use the credits...still need to pay again bc my master's requires a certain amount of credits!) stinks. lots of money, too.
I first wanted to register for Anatomy and Physiology at the university but some of the class was during the school day and i work! So, i tried to register for an evening yoga class...and I tried for a bunch of other gym classes, but each one is full. I emailed a teacher, she didn't get back to me. She may not since she doesn't work until the last week of January. I may just show up to the class the week it starts and see if she would allow me to take it.
Next week, I will have to take the whole morning off on Wednesday and i also will not be in for at least the first hour on Tuesday. I am praying that I get into Anatomy and Physiology at my community college on Tuesday morning. Otherwise, I will have taken off from work for no reason and my chances of getting into the Radiation Therapy program will have diminished. Stinks. I hate to take off from work. I'm one of those people that only likes to take off days for an emergency...I never liked being absent, even throughout my childhood. In college I remember I skipped class VERY rarely.
The week after next week i will also need to take a half day for another entrance exam somewhere else!
Nothing could be worse right now. Nothing's going right at all! I know life could be worse...I could be on the street! right!? whatever.
I was walking on the treadmill today, 20 min in the morning. My mom came down the steps to the basement where I was and started screaming that I couldn't do laundry in the morning! I thought it would be ok since it was only a medium size load and she wouldn't be showering for about 40 min. I wasn't going to use up the hot water. She was so angry she dumped out the tea i made. So I banged down my nice large ceramic coffee mug on the counter and part of the bottom of the mug shattered all over. I threw out the mug but later took it out of the garbage since it is still very usable and i'm not buying another...and it's huge and good for dinking largs cups of coffee and tea.
as you can see, things are crappy at home. but i'm happy not to pay rent bc i cannot affort it. I'm just happy that I'm getting by even so far this year. I have not lost much money...and gained not a penny. It's expected as a teaching assistant.
i better get in a good mood before tomorrow evening...i'm going out to dinner on a date with the same guy from this past sunday. i cannot be all negative and then go on a date...i know i'll make myself feel better by then.
cardio has slacked and now i feel it. my energy is down. I could hardly do the treadmill this AM. I need more sleep i think.
anyways, that's that. I'm going on the treadmill now, 40 min to make exercise for today one hour. I can't do yoga tomorrow either...it'll be too rushed before the date. I do want to get back into it on the weekend. Maybe 2X saturday...maybe not. haha.
I'm upset bc i see success around me and I have none of it. I can't stand this. I went to school for 7 years with nothing to show for it. Life is sucky right now. Something needs to get better fast! I didn't study a ton for the two entrance exams that i will be taking. I know they are serious, but i feel prepared in all categories...and i know that i could only be more prepared in the science portion, but its only one portion of the test. there's math, spelling, english...all that usual entrance exam criteria. I just want this month to end. now.
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today's exercise: 45 min.
total exercise: 2hrs, 30 min.
Total calories: 1370 yay.
today's exercise: 30 min on treadmill.
Total exercise: 1 hr, 45 min. It's ok. maybe back to yoga tomorrow! :)
Today is going well...in the morning, I was running VERY late. No exercise or anything...not even breakfast. I took an extra serving of almonds with me as I left. I kind of liked how the morning went, aside from a little too much rushing. Perhaps I will not do morning exercise anymore...we'll see about that.
calories are going well. I am not feeling the need to be too restrictive BUT I don't want to go to yoga either.
good mix of healthy and less healthy snacks. Foods ranged from almonds to canned pumpkin to milano cookies to cottage cheese to tuna to hot dog...haha. and more!
pm edit: I accidentally went over because I forgot some things while calculating. I am trying to loose weight, that's why i like to stay in the 1500...going any higher almost is like maintenance. I stayed home pretty much the whole day. No yoga. I did walk, really slow like below 3.0 on the treadmill. total exercise is 1 hr, 15 min. I am getting nervous before tomorrow - work - i think.
exercise: 1 hr, 15 min.
calories: 1715
today is proving difficult...i have binge feelings without a doubt right now. if I want to eat within the 1500 calorie range, I only have about 250 more calories and its only 4:30pm. I did just have a snack of a protein shake with a good amount of carbs in it as well. I've been snacking a lot these past few days.
If i want to, which I should, I can go to yoga later at 5:30pm. But, i'm feeling tired and lazy. I could have went for a walk, but now the sun is setting and it won't be as enjoyable.
My mind is telling me that it wants some really flavorful microwavable meal tonight. Should I just indulge? Calories will still be relatively good, but not in the 1500s if I do that. I want something bad now...i'm starting to crave pizza. I think I'm just tired. and yoga is so out of the question, i'm not in the mood at all!
ok, gonna take another stroll on the treadmill. I walked this morning, really slowly. After the treadmill, I'm gonna read a little and try to finish the book I took out of the library especially for vacation. There's also some people that I have to call back.
For dinner, I think i will stay within the 250 calorie range...I just need to think of something I want that is here in this house - there's no reason to leave again to go to the supermarket!
Well, try to stay strong tonight. You know, what's with this self-imposed 1500 limit? Just have a reasonably healthy dinner, with moderate portions. If you go over 1500, don't let that be an excuse to totally go overboard.
You are strong, you can do this!
I hope that you stay strong tonight..Do you like cocoa? I know that if I'm hungry in the evenings (which i am ALOT) cocoa satisfies and fills me up..and stops the munchies..
You can do this!! You know you can!
I also wish I knew EXACTLY how many calories I was burning. I know the trick is to shave off 250 calories a day and burn an additional 250 calories through exercise..but because I don't know how much is being burned, I try to shave either 350 - 500 calories off my basic needs. It isn't a precise science, but it works for me anyway lol. I would love to burn 2000 calories a day in order to be able to eat more sometimes..lol
I am just striving for balance right now. I know when I was eating at or below 1700 calories a day while doing 45mins to 1-hour of cardio and then some strength training, I could lose. But before that, I had to start at under 1300 calories because I wasn't able to exercise much. So here I go again with that. After having built up to the 1700 a day...to cut that by 500 calories ia kind of brutal LOL. But I know this is best for me and works for my body and so I'll embrace it even if some days I have a grimace instead of a smile LOL
January 1st, 2008 AM edit: I was feeling a bit bingy in the morning. I made something relatively bulky and satisfying for myself - 1 cup egg whites on top of two pieces of whole wheat toast with some Parkay spray butter. I also had a cup of soymilk. Overall calories: 360. I ATE SLOWER, but probably not slow enough, and it helped me end the cravings. :)
My right part of my "backside" is sore, I think I pulled it doing yoga yesterday. OK, i changed my mind, i really don't want to go to yoga this morning. I'll go tonight. I'm too tight and sore and I'd rather walk on the treadmill, since I haven't been doing that the way I like to!
I am sure I will update more later... Happy New Year everyone!
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DEC 31st PM edit: calorie-splurge today: 2360. it's ok, but i still need to go for a walk... :)
TOTAL EXERCISE FOR DECEMBER: 52 HOURS, 40 MIN. UNLESS I TAKE A WALK...THEN I'LL UPDATE. I AM HAPPY WITH MY TOTAL!
AVERAGE DAILY EXERCISE: 102 MINUTES OR 1HR,42MIN PER DAY! YAY
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I only got to one yoga class today. I totally didn't want to go back in the afternoon, so I didn't! :)
I plan to clean up, read, and relax instead. I have to clean the bathroom and finish laundry so that i don't have to do that tomorrow!
Eatingwise, I splurged a little. But you know what, that's ok! You know why? Because I didn't go waaaaay overboard and it was mostly healthy but there was a little junk, too. (yunk included two regular english muffins and chips)
calories so far are 1830, without dinner. I do plan on eating something later and calories will definitely be above 2000. I will walk on the treadmill later in the evening. My new year's plans were going to be going out do eat with people I'm not very close with and then back to their house. I decided against it. anyways, I've had some fun nights these past few days and that's fine that New Year's will be spent at home. It's not upsetting at all, and I planned it this way.
Hmmm, what else? I'm not feeling bingy right now, or hungry. Before I was, but like i've been doing, I tried to eat slower and it helped! :)
I still have tomorrow off from work - and my plan is to go to yoga twice as once I go back to work, I will not be doing yoga twice a day...only if I want to on Saturdays.
I used to eat really fast when I was younger (I think because my older brothers used to steal the food off my plate when I was little, so I got to where I inhaled my food...) It took me a long time to learn to eat slowly, and actually be aware of what was going in my mouth. It sure does make it easier to stop when you're full when you're a little more deliberate on what you're putting in there. Congratulations on making that step! Have a great new year!
I'm going to do like you do and start tracking my exercise tomorrow..Whats the most you have done in a month..do you remember?
Happy New Years!!
Good going on the yoga!
Monday AM edit:
I knew I would have a lot of workout hours documented this month because of vacation. As for January, I will probably not be able to reach that much exercise, but I will still aim to improve my strength and fitness.
I want this really bad! At first, turning 25 was kinda a move in the wrong direction. I was upset with my current job, that i still have, because of the salary and expectations. I was confused and nervous about my future way more than I am now. I was getting used to the new work atmosphere, didn't know my colleagues. It was all about change. Now, I am in the swing of things.
However, there is much still left up in the air before June. I will have to take entrance exams in January and finish the application process for the health programs I wish to enter. I also may be offered a band position for a total of two months or so. Yes, I would take it...and the reason is that I was to rise to the challenge because in the back of my head I know I can. It will definitely be a total challenge, but what is life?!
I am looking foward to a continued path of success in 2008. Like I said before, eating very slowly has helped me cut down on large binges. It gives the insulin levels in the body a change to work and then I end up feeling more relaxed, less shaky, and much more in control of the types and amounts of food I am eating. I also contribute my success to my desire. I have always had a desire to feel good and physically look good. I let my emotions get the best of me at the beginning of this school year. But, now I am ready to override those feelings. I do still get them, but I am able to work past a lot of them. The time I spend at yoga is really helpful, too.
Have a good day everyone!
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Sunday, 9:30pm edit:
i could have EASILY had 1230 calories but I felt a snacking urge and gave in. calories are still good though, at 1550. :) all that really matters is that overall calories are ok for today!
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Sunday after diner:
Hi all!
The date went well. He is a nice guy, easy to talk to. We have some things in common - we both love yoga, are slightly picky eaters haha, like to go to the supermarket, like fitness in general, have similiar personalities. We talked about more than that, but these are things I thought you'd find interesting!! We talked about our families, siblings...the usual stuff on a first date. Perhaps another date will follow next weekend. He needed a haircut though, really badly!, and said it himself. But hey, nobody is perfect!? I certaily am not! :) We went to lunch and walked around NYC.
No exercise excpet for walking around the city. I will give myself 30 minutes of exercise for that. Of course I did walk more, but I will just consider the rest of the walking to be part of my "daily routine" and not exercise. Tomorrow I will certainly do 2 yoga classes, as well as New Year's Day. :) Then, back to work and hopefully I'll do one yoga class a day.
calories are low since I was out all day and chose a healthy lunch. About 1230 calories...1430 now with a late night snack. but, when i ordered my salad, there was dressing on it. The waitor was not good...and we had to wait at least a 1/2 hour for our food. I could tell it would be a problem with whatever I ordered with the waitor, so I ate the salad since the dressing was light and not anything creamy.
total dec exercise: 51 hrs, 10 min :)
dinner calories, hopefully, were not more than 400. total for today: suprisingly 1550! wow! I ended up having a large side of broccoli (they had 3 sides to choose from). I can tell that the broccoli was steamed but definitely some butter was added! Not much though. I had a grilled shrimp salad. that's it. shouldn't be more than 400.
no yoga tomorrow. i have a date in NYC. We'll see how this one goes! I will try to do some good exercise tomorrow at the University gym for a change of pace. I want to see if I still have the stamina to run at least 2 miles. I haven't done any running for awhile.
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Today has been a pretty good day. 2 yoga classes and 35 min on treadmill. Once I am not on vacation anymore, I will report less days with two yoga classes haha.
total exercise: 3 hrs, 35 min :)
dec exercise: 50 hours, 40 min :) I got it going on!
calories so far: 1150. I was actually a little bingy this afternoon. Then, I was drinking too much diet coke with caffeine and got shaky...and then I had to eat something for fear of the shakiness!!! the reason for the diet coke is that it has carbonation, which helps when i'm feeling bingy. I should probably just get some seltzer or something!
anyways, i'm going out to dinner at like 8:15 to a "crappy" place. At least that's my impression - it's called Vincent's Clam Bar...you can look it up online and see the horrible menu. Everything is bad for you - even the salads! yeah. so, i'm not in the mood for a large shrimp cocktail either - that would be a healthy choice. I also hate ordering cold salads bc i come home cold and hungry. lol. sometimes i do get salads though. it seems they don't even have sides to order! like steamed vegetables and other healthy things! I guess I will just stick with manhattan clam chowder soup! blah! Who would go out to dinner for that!? oh well, at least i'll be seeing some friends that i haven't seen for awhile! :) the people are all from college! :) two actually live in california and are here in NY for the holidays.
goodnight all! :)
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
You did very well yesterday. I, on the other hand, finished an entire bag of snack mix, half a huge chocolate bar, several cereal bars.... ergh... :-(
You know, the more I read about your killer exercise schedule, the more i am not surprised when you have binges for a few days. I don't think I could do that much daily exercise and expect 1500 calories to satisfy my body for very long. After a few days of that, I'd likely eat everything in the house...twice lol. I am stymied about how it is that you are continuing to gain weight, however, when your output is so huge. Perhaps estimating calories might not be enough? Maybe if you don't like counting actual calories, you might do better with the points plan at weight watchers or a low carb thing or something? I just can't wrap my mind around the huge output, the days of calorie levels that are really low compared to the amount of exercise, even with the binge days. I wish I could exercise for at least an hour a day, let alone three or four hours a day!
Friday evening entry:
calories i will guestimate...i went out to dinner and got lots of veggie sides as well as some summer rolls at cheesecake factory.
1530 cal.
exercise: 3 hrs and 40 min (2 yoga classes and a walk with my friend!)
great day! :)
total ex: 47 hrs, 5 min :) yeah!
catching up with my two friends Fri night was a really good time. These two ladies are genuinely nice people...no having to prove what i'm not or putting on an act. I don't see them often, so it was a REALLY good time. LOTS of laughs and just totally so much fun.
In general, I have come to the conclusion that I don't need to be hanging out with friends all the time during this vacation. It was a good idea to take a lot of time for me...and then hanging out with friends becomes even more enjoyable bc i've taken the time to feel good about myself first through exercise, good eating and things of that nature! :)
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Saturday edit:
saturday's exercise will be 35 min on treadmill and two yoga classes...total of 3 hrs 35 min....
grand total for exercise in dec so far: 50 hrs, 40 min!!! :) yeah yeah! That's right...more than 50 hours!!!
That's due to yoga all the way. In the summer, I remember I would only count 90 min of yoga as 60 because there are a few poses that require just laying down. But, I like to see my totals for exercise add up, lol, and since every yoga pose has its benefits, i figure counting 90 min as 90 min is just fine! I do have to work on cardio once I get back to work and try for just one yoga class a day every day.
In the summer when I almost reached 50 exercise minutes, I was actually doing more exercise, since each yoga class only counted for 60 and not 90 minutes. I am still impressed with this month despite that fact.
I am in a good mood and I hope it lasts for awhile. I will work to make it last! :)
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
After lunch, Friday edit: Today has been a good eating day. Although I have eaten past full, I have stuck to my plans and eaten much slower, so that I am satisfied when I finish. calories so far are 770 with healthy foods - and more grains than usual which is good because I feel that whole grains affect low blood sugars better than vegetables do...which leads me to overeat when I don't get the grains in right away and just stick to veggies.
I'm also doing well because I'm meeting my frind for a walk later and maybe coffee. I have plans for a LATE dinner at 8:30pm with some friends. I plan on ordering a salad at dinner with like no dressing. I'm doing good with calories and will not mess this up. I find I do best when keeping my calories in the 1500s. Like Donkey mentioned to me, if I keep them too low at like 1300, I do tend to binge. 1500 is doable for me. I notice some loss around my stomach. Probably only a pound or two!...but that's progress! :)
I've already done yoga for 1.5 hours and I will go again late this afternoon. No walking except with my friend...and the rest of the time i'll spend studying...for entrance exams that are coming up!
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Thursday entry:
exercise today is...FOUR HOURS!!! yes, 2 yoga classes and one hour walk! :) yay!
total exercise: 43 hours, 25 min :)
calories were bingy around lunch, but not as bad. total cal: 1510, good!
tomorrow and the next few days i'm meeting people for lunch/dinner. i hate food gatherings...they make me tend to binge before and after...and sometimes during. so, i will be mindful of that and do my best not to let that happen...especially because weightloss is slowly taking place and i don't want to ruin that for myself! I am working pretty hard to look better physically...why destroy my good effort!? I know EXACTLY what needs to be done! :)
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
2200 cal.
3hrs, min exercise. (3hrs yoga, i serisouly sit around all day unless i go to yoga - i'm on vacation and not working) I promise to get in a morning walk tomorrow...even 25 min is fine with me!
total: 39 hrs, 25 min:)
GG, i haven't seen you on in a long time! I hope you are well!!! :)
i'm seriously afraid to weight myself anymore because i don't want it to affect my mindset or rate of weightloss. I will ONLY weigh when I am satisfied with my appearance, which is not yet! LOL. when do i think...it'll definitely take a few months. I have the motivation to stay on track. most importantly, i need to remember to RELAX. whenever i'm too rushed, it goes totally downhill. hmmm, i may actually be extraordinarily stressed in a few months if i start teaching music for a teacher on maternity leave. hey, i guess i have to roll with the punches. meaning, that's life. if i was offered the position, yes, i would take it...if only for two months till the end of the year.
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
It would be great if you got to teach music for a couple months. Isn't that what you went to school for? It would give you a chance to see if that is what you would like to do ful time.
You are doing so good with the exercise - 3 hours is a lot! You could go compete with the biggest loosers!!!!
2200 calories is pretty good. If you start restricting way down into like 1300, not only will your metabolism shut down but it will set you up for another binge cycle. Keep up the good work!
Wed morning edit: i'm having a nice, relaxing morning. reading and going online. yoga soon. healthy drinks and nuts for breakfast! :)
HMMMMM. ARG! one more edit, lunch was a hefty 1500. so grand total is 1900, for now. But, I am NOT upset too much and I know that my results so far are not to be ruined...the day is still save-able! :)
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Tuesday:
I am content with how i spent the day. In the morning, i mostly sat around at the computer, trying to also do a little reading which I will finish after a take another 1/2 hour walk on the treadmill tonight.
I ate really healthy foods all morning, which I am really, really happy about. I am unstressed, finally! I cannot say that I stopped eating when full, but I didn't have any all out binging today. I am so proud of how i've been eating, you have no idea. I do NOT have a desire to go out to eat...and I know I will be. The plan? possibly eat beforehand a lot; and then only order a salad - just veggies and balsamic vinegar dressing. If i do that, i will not have a problem with calories at all.
The truth is, i know i've at least lost 1/4 or 1/2 a pound. lol, i don't want to think to big! I REFUSE to weigh myself at all...until i'm happy with how i look in the mirror. This is what i will use to let me know. You know, i may never weigh myself and just go by how clothes fit. Weighing gives me anxiety...so i figure i know how to count calories and pigging out means weight gain - i don't need a scale. if i know how much i eat everyday, i'll know if the end result is a loss or gain!
yoga was closed today...but tomorrow you can be sure i'll be there twice!! i just have to stay motivated to go back that second time.
instead, i walked a 1/2 hour in the afternoon...and i will do a 1/2 hour more soon.
1 hr exercise today.
total exercise: 36 hrs, 25 min :) yay! :)
I can get 50 hours exercise this December, which is definitely possible with days of 3 hrs of yoga per day!
calories are an outstanding, and pretty healthy i must add, 1230! :)
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
Anyway, keep up the great job..you're awesome!
lived in a Jewish neighborhood with all those wonderful delis - seeded ryes,
kosher pickles, kraut, latkes...My family would be thrilled if we only had Jewish food on Christmas Eve!!!
There used to be a bagel place a few blocks away when my kids were in elementary school. They'd never ask for money for ice cream or candy after school, but money for a bagel!!! They'd have to buy one for me too.
Yeah, so the situation is I have far too many carbs sitting there tempting me and no place at all in my freezer or fridge, and you know I CAN'T throw good, not good but GREAT food away! That's a crime.
BTW when I'd buy a Challah, it would never make it to the following day. My kids would eat slice after slice until it was ALL GONE!
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posting? hope you're having a good day!
shadetree on 01/03/2008:
Well, obviously I was wrong. Sorry you are having such a bad time right now...Sometimes it all just seems so unfair. I will give you the same advice I gave Donkey, and that is
BREATHE........BREATHE........BREATHE.....
Take one day at a time, one issue at a time. Pick one thing at a time to focus on and try to figure out how to make it a positive. I know it sucks when people around you seem to just walk into good situations, have things handed to them, and despite your hard work, you always seem to get the short end. (Story of my life!) But you can't do anything about everyone else - focus on you. What is going to make you happy, and what will it take to get it? Focus on an action plan rather than the anger inside you.
Okay, didn't mean to be preachy - just trying to give you a little pep talk... Try to have a good Friday!
maria777 on 01/03/2008:
Hey! Take it easy! Slow down! Write a list of all the things you are most thankful for. Hope you feel better!
timeforachange on 01/03/2008:
Sorry to read that things are going not so good for you right now Horn! I wish there were some magix words to post to make it all better but the only words of advice to offer are stay strong and try to focus on positives. There are times when the world seems to just crash down and everything seems to go wrong (usually all at once), but you just have to keep on moving forward and know that tomorrow is a new day. The situation with your schooling must be very frustrating for you because you have put your heart, mind, and time into it and it's not coming together right now, but it will! Hopefully you can obtain the last 3 credits you need and then you will have your Master's which is something to be VERY proud of. You have worked extremely hard and you will have something to show for it! It might now happen tomorrow or the day after, but you have put the effort in to get a good education and make a good life for yourself. Someone I love and respect very much always tells me that everything will work out for the best. No matter what struggle or obstacle that presents itself, that's her answer. Her words have helped me through the toughest of times, and now I hope they will offer you some comfort and peace of mind, if even for a moment. Just keep on pushing forward and look to tomorrow. It will be a better day!
timeforachange on 01/03/2008:
*magic
starfish on 01/03/2008:
Everything will work out fine :) I'm sorry you are having a bad day. But good job on calories and cardio :)
workingit2 on 01/03/2008:
When it rains it pours, eh? Unless you have had something to eat since you posted your 1550..you should be very proud of taking care of yourself even in the face of all these issues. Just remember, issues can be worked out, things can be resolved...the reaction you are having is perfectly normal and necessary in order to get you motivated to do what you need to do. And your mind instinctively knows this which is why we process conflict and trouble in that manner. Don't beat yourself up and don't blame yourself for things you cannot control. Take each thing as it comes and if something is out of your control or simply cannot be worked out/on...take it as it wasn't supposed to happen right now and focus on what does/can happen.
I don't dislike my work, I strongly dislike the company...so I totally understand the frustration. One thing I do know, you will get through this and you are sure not alone. Take it easy and get some rest.
hollybelle on 01/04/2008:
So sorry things look bleak to you right now. I know it is not like you want it to be, but how it is today won't be how it always will be tomorrow. Shoulders back, chin up, eyes forward - march on. Keep working toward positive changes - your goals and it will happen. It is always darkest just before dawn.
legcramps on 01/04/2008:
Awe geez, HoP, I hope this month does go by quickly for you... i'd really freak out if I was in the place that you're in right now. I hate all the pressure of exams and stress of living at home - all of it must be adding up. Aren't your shoulders tired from carrying all those burdens? Workingit2 is right. It will pass.
Until then, it'll just have to suck. Sometimes good things come out of bad situations.
Donkey on 01/04/2008:
I hope you feel better today (1/5). My day was so bad yesterday too, so by my theory, your day should have been great. LOL, I guess it's time to chuck the theory down the toilet.
I know it's really hard, when you just want to know what's going to happen, or to have it start happening, but nothing's happening and everything's still uncertain. It's a difficult thing in life. It still makes me very anxious to not know how things will resolve themselves.
All I can say is that if you really want to be a radiologist or a radiation therapist, you will find a way to make it happen. Maybe not this year, maybe it will take another year or 2, but you will do it.
I really hope today is better for you. I hope you will post to let us know you are doing ok.
Moody2 on 01/04/2008:
awww what a day =(
Seems like the hits just keep coming some days doesn't it?
I understand about the schooling thing..seems like there are so many hoops to jump through, why can't they just make things simple?? And 2,500 for 3 credits? That's ridiculously expensive!! Dang....
Good for you tho, for in the midst of all your frustrations, you still managed to get a workout in, and that my friend, is HUGE!! I really admire that..need some of your determination to rub off on me...
Hang in there, this too shall pass...just keep your chin up.