- Thursday Jan 31, 2008
today's binge and calories = 3600 if i totaled it right. yesterday was 4300. i'm not doing well right now. i will do better. I will not restrict very much tomorrow or i will defitely binge.
i'm definitely stuffed and hurting...
this may be too much to think about, but if i even eat 1500 per day for only 5 days, but daily total would average 2200 for a week. that's not even terrible. ouch, my stomach hurts.
i was sweating all night last night from everything inside of me...i'll be doing that tonight as well. Why don't i just go to yoga instead of eating? I feel like if i go to yoga, i'll have no energy left to study. boy, i need to CALM DOWN!
- Wednesday Jan 30, 2008
Thursday entry: so this morning didn't go that well. I indulged in a sugary yogurt, canned fruit, and LOTS of nuts and peanut butter. I hope I calculated right because I think i either forgot to add in one more serving of nuts of peanut butter. I guess it really doesn't matter that much anyway. total calories throughout my day until work ends will be 1700. My goal for total calories today is 2100 or 2200. This is possible but I feel like having a goal sets me up for more binging later after work.
39 hours, 10 minutes is my final January 2008 exercise. I didn't reach 40 due to binging and bad planning.
after all my talk of not binging anymore, i did just that. meaning, i woke up at 3am because of worrying, had a stressful day, came home and binged. approx. calories: 4300.
i actually feel sick right now. my stomach is full. done. i can only hope to not binge for awhile now - meaning for a couple weeks. Lack of sleep and stress about the class i'm taking is what contributed to this nasty binge.
some items included: 2 huge brownies, cookies, tons of ice cream, peanut butter, potato knish, frankfuters...etc.
25min walk in AM.
perhaps another short walk later. no yoga.
i haven't been commenting...i don't feel up to it right now.
I will repeat what i have written recently, saying binging is not the same anymore, neither is the desired effects a binge produces. I feel bad and its not worth the calories. I must say, the food didn't even taste very good! There are too many temptations in my house. (I don't buy them and its not up to me to tell anyone what to buy nor do i want to.)
- Tuesday Jan 29, 2008
Tuesday entry: I'm glad I did a 25 min walk this morning. I have unfortunately cancelled volunteering today. It was a long day and I need to study. It is WAY more important for me to do well in a class than rack up volunteer hours. I have decided that on my week off I can make up for the days I miss when I am working. I will volunteer 2 or 3 days inside of only 1 day on my vacation on February. After volunteering, the last thing a person wants to do is come home and study! I'm not even going to yoga tonight. I'm going to try to fit it in on Wednesday and probably not go on Thursday since I already have to stay at school an extra hour to provide extra help. I have been bingy...but healthy bingy all afternoon. calories so far are 1320 and I have just decided to give myself a break from the diet right now. I'm heading downstairs for one more handful of almonds making today's grand total of almonds reach 3.5 servings! whoa, a lot, but that's basically where i get all my fats.
calories so far: 1600.
exercise: 25 min and no more.
total exercise:38hrs, 45 min.
- Monday Jan 28, 2008
As i sit here, I stuff my face. Definitely bingy...it's ok. The good thing, it's low cal, mostly healthy food. I planned on going to yoga today but have reconsidered and I am taking the night off from yoga. I didn't study last night....and i need to tonight. I have LOTS to memorize and I must start now, or at least tonight.
OK, time to study... :)
30 min exercise.
total exercise: 38hrs, 20 min :)
Tomorrow is volunteering after work...then I plan on studying - no yoga. I will exercise in the AM again, like today, so that I do NOT have to exercise after work and I can just veg with index cards and the tv. That is my plan for tomorrow, nothing else. :)
- Sunday Jan 27, 2008
I was looking over the past 30 days...SEVEN of them were binges, or eating over 2,000! wow! that's a lot! I didn't realize I was doing it so often! This amounts to almost twice a week...no wonder i don't see much progess as of yet! Time to suck it up and try harder!
exercise: 1hr, 50min
total exercise: 37hrs, 50min hours! yay for definitely breaking 40 by the end of this month! :)
calories: 1650. I was planning for lower but ended up having an apple and a banana after dinner with some parkay spray butter, cinnamon, and peanut spread. so, calories went up a bit. still healthy...and i did do yoga. I felt i needed the carbs! :)
My class in Anatomy and Physiology went well today. There are many people in the class with prior knowledge, though. So, I have a lot of work in store for me! That's ok. The class ended so early that I was able to have a nice lunch and go to yoga at 3pm! I'm so glad I went despite being tired.
For some reason, I have been exhausted all weekend. I think I may have been dehydrated from the hot yoga. drinking black tea probably didn't help. Also, I missed a lot of sleep since last week. All these factors probably contributed to my energy levels.
On another note, I am proud of myself for staying under 2000 and not having any massive issues with calories, especially during the weekend. I do better when I have things to do, for sure! I am looking foward to a continued success in my weightloss throughout the spring.
- Saturday Jan 26, 2008
sunday afternoon edit:
yesterday ended ok afterall! 1960 cal. yay for not messing with my progress! :) Today will be good because I am determined. I am also VERY tired. I've been really tired all weekend. Last week kinda messed up my sleep patterns. It's ok...I'll figure it out.
My class got out about 2 hours early today...so YOGA HERE I COME! yay! I am going to try to take a short nap before yoga. I wouldn't be able to take this yoga class if i didn't get out early from anatomy and physiology! yay.
I've had an extra large apple, kombucha tea, 2.5 servings almonds, and a mcdonalds asian chicken salad. total cal so far: 850 that's good.
saturday evening entry:
not a great day. i was snacking all morning, no exercise. I did go visit my grandmother and go on a walk with her but i can't count that bc it was part of my daily routine.
i ate really bad stuff around noon. I had a whole potato knish (basically oily dough on outside with potato inside) and part of another knish. I also had some peanut butter and an english muffin and many almonds. oh well. not a day for the books, but also not a monstrously bad day either.
tomorrow is my first class in anatomy and physiology...haha, and i thought that after my master's i'd be done with school for awhile! lol. the class is from 8:40am until 3pm. Supposedly, there's only a 20 min break. hopefully, we get more...
i need to up my cardio.
total calories: 1960...but I may have to have a snack...and the snack i want will bring my total to 2120 if i do indulge. If i didn't poorly eat this afternoon, i'd be better with calories now. live and learn!
exercise: none. took a break.
- Friday Jan 25, 2008
something weird happened to me this week. I did yoga most days and ate well, but i found my body actually bloated last night and this morning. Not bloated from food, either. Actually a bit swollen in the abdomin and thighs! Strange water gain. Maybe I have been having more salt than i realize? Its not TOM, either!
the day is done. I did go to yoga and I'm glad i went bc i love this particular teacher and she spent major time on me!!! I was standing right next to her, so it was really a great experience.
total exercise: 1hr, 30 min.
total ex: 36 hrs. A definitely at least 40 hours this month. Most were from yoga, not cardio, though. I think cardio is really, really important and a goal for February is to work on getting a least a minimal amount of cardio 4x a week. Minimal means 1/2 hour a day, 4 days a week. I have totally slacked on cardio this month!
total cal: 1310. I keep wanting more, but I keep telling myself that I'm VERY tired and i should just go to sleep bc i probably would have the ability to sleep for a long time and not wake up do to hunger in the middle of the night. Sometimes, when i don't eat enough, I will wake up in the middle of the night really hungry. However, i am not hungry now, but i am REALLY tired. I always mistake being hungry for really being tired.
long day...i can't wait for sleep! :)
- Thursday Jan 24, 2008
Friday afternoon 5pm edit: it's been a long day and i'm very tired. I am going to go to yoga, though, because I do not think it could possibly take any more energy of of me than is already taken out.
I was dehydrated this morning and my mouth was really sticky and white along my lips. I didn't realize until i looked in the mirror. I immediately drank a ton of water after that. I think its because i went to yoga last night and didn't rehydrate enough afterwards.
i will comment on your journals tonight! :) Enjoy your evenings.
late Thursday night edit: 1520 calories. very good day. goodnight, I am soo tired!
5:20pm edit: NO binge today. yes!!! I am a tad tired, though. I've been up since about 3am! I will go to yoga. calories are 1290...My goal is to stay in the 1500s. Very doable! :)
Funny story, I decided to walk to the test today. It's only a mile away! My sister usually uses my car anyway, so I took the walk. It was a bit cold...around 27 degrees...but an overall good walk! Then, I walked back, had a snack and went to work for a 1/2 day.
exercise will be 2hrs, 10 min. :) yay.
total exercise: 34hrs, 30 min :)
Today is my last entrance exam for another radiography program. It starts at 9 only a few blocks away from my house. The test is about 3 hours, so I called in for a 1/2 sick day at work.
I woke up MAD early, as usual when I things on my mind. Obviously, what's on my mind today is the test! How early, you ask? 3am. I layed in bed, tossing and turning until 4:30 when I couldn't take it any longer. Since then, now its 5:50, I have had a large apple and 3 extra extra large cups of tea with milk and sweet and low. (200 cal total) I do not want to binge before my test...and I will not. I think I may go back to sleep for an hour now.
I haven't had a good walking plan in the morning for a couple of weeks now. I may get back into it starting tomorrow with no less than a 1/2 hour walk in the AM. I'm getting lazy and caring more about calories than cardio exercise i think. When I do not exercise in the morning, I believe its easier to keep calories low during the school day bc I don't need as much fuel.
I definitely DON'T want to miss yoga tonight at 6:30 due to being tired. I will not give into temptation to binge or miss yoga! But, I think I will make an effort to get to bed really early...even 9pm or earlier if I am that wiped out from no sleep! :)
- Wednesday Jan 23, 2008
Today is going well. I was in a good mood all day. Tomorrow is another entrance exam test. It's the last of all the entrance exams I have to take. In total, I've applied to 4 different programs. Three are for Radiation Technology (xrays, mri, cat scans) and the fourth program which I am most interested in is Radiation Therapy. The therapy program didn't require an entrance exam, but the three other programs did. It will be all morning so I have to go to school late. :( I hate taking time off from work!
Lately, I've been having at least two servings of fruit a day and many servings of nuts. This seems to work for me at the moment. For example, for breakfast I had strawberries and a large apple. Throughout the morning, I snacked on about 1/2 cup of almonds. Lunch was a little bit of sliced almonds and string beans with a light sauce heated up, a salad, and an orange. After work, I made an instant sugar free vanilla pudding and had tea and a large apple. I even added some fiber to the pudding. I feel good.
I am super excited for yoga....and should probably get ready to go since the classes fill up so fast this time of year!
calories 1350. pretty healthy. 3 servings of almonds were included! whoa!
exercise: yoga no walking. 1.5 hours
total ex: 32 hours, 20 min :)
- Tuesday Jan 22, 2008
calories: 1,000. whatever. I'm not eating anymore tonight. It was a busy day, 15 min walk on the treadmill in the AM. that's about it. I did some volunteer work at the hospital, too.
exercise: 15 min.
total exercise: 30hrs, 50min.