so amazing, i lost my appetite and now its only partially back...and not enough to eat and ruin my calorie count for today. today's cals: 1550 and I'm so happy about that. It means i'm still very much on track! :) I only went to yoga once today...the times were too close and i was too full to go after lunch. Only a 20 minute morning walk.
exercise today: 1hr, 50 min.
total Dec: 32 hrs, 25min :)
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yesterday my success-streak was slightly hampered with a 2300 cal day. I am impressed that calories didn't go up to at least 2500, though. The last meal I ate was around 3pm and I had started to get hungry again. However, i instead went to bed early since I'm still trying to catch up on sleep. This guy I met online called but i wasn't in the mood to talk last night...so i will call him back tonight. Does anyone ever have those days where they just want to be alone? You see, i'm on vacation, and that's really all i want most of this week. antisocial, maybe a little.
today's calories were going pretty well, but I did overeat after lunch. I had 2 servings of pretzels and a long chocolate and m&m coated pretzel, all of this increasing calories by 440. so, calories are now up to 1270. My low goal for calories today is 1570. I would have veggies and egg whites with some fiber mixed in for dinner. sounds tasty and this would keep me pretty much in focus, calorie-wise. I want to try to stick to 1500 calorie days throughout vacation to help me in my weight loss.
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
saturday afternoon edit: i was certainly really positive in this same entry, earlier in the day. I kinda binged, a little. I did stop because i started to not like that uncomfortable feeling...and i know yoga will be more difficult which i DON'T want.
so, instead of another low/moderate calorie day, I had 2300. I will not eat anything else tonight, just water. tomorrow's a new day.
exercise so far: 2 hrs, 20 min :) I would have went to yoga again, but I have to pick up my parents at the airport...
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saturday morning edit:
My parents come home today from their Caribbean cruise. They left a message and it sounds like they had a good time. I'm pretty sure that both my sister and I will go together to the airport to pick them up...haha, i'm not even sure what time! It would be nice if they left that in the message as well.
I also have to go to the oral surgeon today to have him look at the places in my mouth where my wisdom teeth were removed...and maybe take out the stitch he put in.
I am making sure the house is completely as neat as possible for my parents arrival. NO clothes anywhere near the washer and dryer so that they can use it as much as they like. I will make sure the dishwasher is done, even though it really wasn't full, so that all the plates and glasses are clean. I put their mail neatly in order. haha, and i took the garbage out, but while cleaning yesterday I filled the garbage can outside again like halfway and it looks like i didn't leave the pails out for the garbagemen...so i'm taking some bags of garbage with me to discard at a dumpster near the oral surgeon so my parents don't think i didn't forget to bring out the garbage bags. I just want them to be pleased when they come home. :) The card and flowers should be nice, too.
Calories are good so far and they will remain good because i care. I had a good protein smoothie for breakfast followed by 1/4 cup sunflower seeds.
total cal so far: 420. i like that i had the seeds because they add VERY health fat to my diet...i tend to lack on healthy fat and my skin is compromised. It'll get dry and break out at the same time!
more updating later. have a good Saturday.
oh, and this vacation is ALL about relaxing. No dating, no stress, no worries. yoga and relaxation....and one day of volunteering...and probably visiting my Grandmother at least one time at the nursing home. but, that's really about it. i don't want to overschedule myself.
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
I am not a teacher - I'm a lunch lady. I am a kitchen manager and absolutly love my job!
overall a good day. I definitely got a lot of errands out of the way, did 50 minutes walking in the morning, and was able to do yoga in the evening. I feel good to get so much done, even laundry. The house will be so nice and clean when my parents return home tomorrow afternoon. I picked up a nice arrangement of flowers and a card for them to welcome them back. :)
Hopefully my sister will chip in for the card and flowers...we'll see. Otherwise, I'll just sign the card myself and take on the credit on the flowers. She's old enough to make a contribution, it's only fair!
exercise: 2 hrs, 20 min :) very nice.
total ex: 28 hrs, 15 min :)
calories 1450.
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
Friday afternoon edit:
So, the concert last night was excellent...best high school concert i've ever seen in my life! why? because the band played as well as a college band...all the students knew the music REALLY well! The chorus was so good they give me chills...although one kid fainted! but, there were so many faculty members at the concert that more than enough people were able to get the kid off the risers fast! There was a concluding performance where all alumni where allowed to come up from the audience to take part in singing Handel's Hallelujah Chorus from the Messiah. The band played this as well. also, there were small ensembles made up of low brass, trombones and tubas and euphoniums, that played inbetween the large group performances (two bands, women's chorus, full chorus, and orchestra!!!). This district certainly knows how to wow its audiences!!! I've never seen such a heartfelt performance. The music was beautiful. :)
eating today has been good. complete with a piece of a brownie. just a piece = portion control. yay :) 930 calories so far... :) Have a good day...i am. :)
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Thursday entry:
Today has gone pretty well. since i live so close, i walked home today for lunch because i didn't want the handful of nuts that I packed for myself. Instead, i microwaved a large amount of broccoli with thyme and a little olive oil. I also had a protein shake that i added pumpkin into. It tasted very good with some cinnamon, too.
calories have been ok as well! I wanted to go to yoga; and actually drove there. however, i was late, so i came back home. It's close by, so that's ok. there was too much traffic. I'm going to attend a HS concert today because I promised myself I would...although i'd rather just go to yoga and call it a night. You see, although I'm not actually teaching music/band this year, I still make an effort to attend a few concerts...I want to see if my spark is still there at all...and if teaching music is something I can see myself doing in the future, if ever again. It DOES create a little stress going to them...and I enjoy them if the groups play well. Every school and district is different. We'll see how tonight goes.
exercise: 1 hr, 10 min. ok!
total exercise: 25 hrs, 55 min :)
i ate some more protein/fiber shake with pumpkin...its really good and is like a pudding! But, I'm starting to do it because I think i'm looking for some comfort and someone to talk to! lol, i'm sitting here, writing comments, getting antsy. I got a gift of chocolate covered pretzels coated in all kinds of things: sprinkles, white chocolate pieces, nuts. I don't want to open it today. But, i might as well keep it, I do know the calories because they're listed. Perhaps I could fit it into my calories each day on the vacation? we'll see.
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
better day today, despite eating 800 cal worth of cookies in the faculty room at lunch.
calories: 1470.
exercise: 2hrs, 15 min. yes, i did some yoga, :)
total DEC exercise: 25 hrs, 45 min :)
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
Wed morning edit: I just took a slow 45 min walk on the treadmill. I'm feeling soooo tired. I wish vacation started today. My plan is to come home and sleep...and not eat. I eat when i'm tired, but what i really need is to catch up on the sleep that i've been missing for over a week now.
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does it make sense that all i want to do is escape from everything, loose weight, know an answer to my currently undecided future, and come back a different person? that's how i've felt this whole school year. life is moving downhill this year...and its upsetting. there's not much i can actually do at my job, since its for a year and i just need to stick with it.
this evening, i was looking at someone's pictures online that i haven't seen for at least like 10 years! she looks so good - and you can tell she's incorporated a ton of fitness and activity into her life.
what's wrong with me? I know i can be VERY lazy, at times. honestly, i have no idea what i want anymore. but, i can tell you, i am sick of ,,y life and what i do everyday. i'm bored and at the same time tired out. maybe i just need some sleep - i haven't had a good night's sleep in over a week. and being full like this, i doubt i'll sleep well tonight, either.
i'm supposed to go on a date with someone from online soon - but i don't want to. i don't feel good about myself...and i won't in this weekend or next week. like i said earlier, i want to disappear...not literally. i just want to change myself...and come back better. I hate how i look and i know how to make the changes. but, at the same time, i just want to get away, from everyone and anyone. :(
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i don't know if its depression or not. honestly, it probably isn't. i just don't have a decided future and i'm having a difficult time with life.
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exercise in AM: one full hour, yay.
23 hours, 30 min :)
after work turned deadly, though. i binged on brownies, cookies, yogurt, bread.
total cal: 3050...hopefully no more!
no yoga tonight. i've also decided to take the night off from volunteering. i need to catch up on sleep and re-evaluate my goals. (health goals, that is.)
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
Is this normally a hard time of year for you? Are you missing anyone in your life that makes the holidays harder? You ususlly sound pretty up-beat, even when describing a binge. I am worried about you and hope you have someone (a real face to face person) that you can talk to.
Please take care of your self. Blessings Fritters
There is nothing, nothing, nothing wrong with seeking outside advice. Trying to do everything ourselves is sometimes more exhausting than it needs to be.
I lived a lot of years trying to correct things on my own because I didn't want to go to the doctor and admit that I couldn't handle my own life. That having my kids was too much stress. That I couldn't be the perfect wife, mother, sister, daughter, etc. All those thoughts swirled around in my head all the time and no matter how many pages I wrote in my diary (pen and paper version), nor how many times I prayed, etc. I couldn't shake what was inside me. When I finally got help, it was too late to stop the nervous breakdown that happened and put me in hospital for two weeks. I tried hard to be everything that I thought I should be, that I thought everyone wanted me to be...it took my mind breaking into a million pieces to show me that I didn't need to do EVERYTHING or have all the answers RIGHT NOW. I went on medication, went to counseling, saw a proper batch of MD's and began to heal my mind. Just because something earth-shattering hasn't happened doesn't mean you can't be depressed. And what you think are minor issues, can be major issues when someone has depression or another medical condition.
I am going to bow out of your journal with giving you advice, much like biscotti did, because I am only going to keep saying the same thing. Those of us who have watched you struggle are pulling for you always..and you have my support.
Seek professional help. We will be here to support you in friendship. You are worth every second you can spend getting your thoughts collected and your path corrected. And it CAN happen and it WILL happen. Don't wait too long like I did, that is the hard way. Anyway, please take care of yourself.
Anyway, my point is, if you truly intend on becoming a morning exerciser, don't give up after today. It takes about a week to get into the "groove" (and then it does feel great, because it's a wonderful way to start the day). But if you are eating a bunch of crap, you won't feel good about exercising, working, being, life in general. But then, that's what others have already said, so I've said enough. Don't give up!!!
I'm gonna try hour walks for now on in the morning during the work week. I think that will make me totally comfortable about not doing any other cardio later in the day, unless i want too! :)
Tuesday morning edit: my binge yesterday afternoon is probably linked to the fact that i was going to attend a music concert for the school i work at. Going to the concert brings back HUGE emotional feelings. after all, my degrees are in music and it is difficult to sit in the audience, knowing i am trained as a teacher and not teaching music this year...instead just working as a teaching assistant. so, today's a new day...and my success is NOT over. I may have said that by 25 I wanted to be done binging...but at least I have a long ways till I'm 26...and i'm working at this...working hard. Today, I'm skipping my volunteer work after school. I need a break. I will probably go to yoga, perhaps taking a nap after school since I woke up a bit on the early side this morning, i couldn't sleep AT ALL. I woke up at 5am. Yesterday, i was falling asleep at work. The past 7 days, my sleep patterns have been really bad. Every night i was losing at least an hour and on the weekend i wasn't able to catch up! I don't want to end this work week majorly tired and head into a vacation that way...so i've decided to rest up tonight. :)
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Hi. I'm still having MAJOR binging issues. I was really, really tired today, which doesn't help things.
anyway, i ate good all day. came home and binged on a bazillion brownies amongst other things.
4300 cal.
even though i'll be full and that means difficulty going to sleep, my goal is to go to sleep early, like as soon as I can after I come back home from watching the elementary school concert. hopefully before 9pm. boy did i make a mistake to binge again! nothing i can do now!
total exercise: 40 min.
22hrs, 30 min....i can do it! i can do it! :)
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
A diet diary can only do so much, sometimes our 'willpower' needs the help of a professional who can diagnose and treat what is wrong. We just have to be willing to take that leap of faith.
I wish you all the best! After all you are OUR HOP!
ok, so my stomach is screwed up because it is still REALLY full, even when I am hungry...I guess you can say I am bloated from yesterday.
I did, in fact, go to yoga twice today! :) Exercise, haha,because of double yoga, is 3 hours!!! wow. i wish i did cardio too, but no.
total dec. exercise: 21 hours, 50 min :)
calories are around 1200 and probably not any higher.
Yoga was not easy on some poses today because it was hard to bend over with a bloated stomach. I plan to go to yoga as often as possible and hopefully I will remember that pigging out isn't worth it. lol. again I say it!
moving on, this is my last week of teaching before christmas break, yay. I'll be going to a couple concerts this week...one of the kids in my school and another where a friend of mine is the band teacher. I'm excited for both! :) Hopefully, i'll be able to fit yoga in beforehand. since my parents are away, i'll have my dad's car to use while my sister takes mine to the train (my car has the parking sticker on it). I should be able to get to yoga right away after school! then, off to the concerts i go! :) I'm praying this week goes as FAST as POSSIBLE! Just like I pray that the weight comes off as fast as possible, although we know that that is never the case...patience is what we need!
over break, i would like to set a promise with myself of 1500 cal per day. I think I can definitely manage that...I just need to plan everything out beforehand...
ok, enough rambling, goodnight.
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
take care of you and have fun.. hugs
Sunday, 9:55am edit:
sorry for all the edits. It's just that I am going through a difficult transition these past few months...and turning to food and trying to fix that. yesterday, after surgery, even though i was mostly in very low grade pain, i comforted myself with food in the evening. I do know better. I also ate a lot for breakfast. However, I've resolved to go to yoga at 10:30, although some of the poses will be difficult and I may lay out because of being full. I will also go at 3pm...and walk on the treadmill later as well. I'll pick up some low cal drinks and yogurt and nuts later, too. Laslty, I'll pick up a starbuck's giftcard for a coworker. Those are my ONLY plans.
Sunday, 2:25am edit:
so I woke up because my sister got home...don't worry, i'm not complaining. I had to use the bathroom as well... I'm looking in the mirror muttering, "What did I do!? I can do better...Why did you eat 5500 calories, you didn't need that! Now you feel sick and cannot go to yoga tomorrow!" (It's impossible to bend over with a stomach that is protruded...it'll make you feel sicker!!). I know what I have to do and i'm not worried...this binge may have set me back, but NOT for long!!! I'll be ok everyone.
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Saturday, 10pm edit:
bad choice: 5,500 calories again today. It was an evening binge. I obviously will prob not do yoga in the am, unless I want to throw up during practice from fullness!
evening edit: the pain got better after taking tylenol! :) i went to the mall and got a great deal on some things i picked up: 3 FREE pairs of Victoria's secret underswear and four pairs of earring from The Limited for only $2.50 combined!!! how awesome! I had some really great coupons.
I had a huge dinner: eggs and multiple packages of seasoned, microwaved veggies. I only chewed on the other side of my mouth. Then, I ate NUTS. of all things, I had one of the hardest to chew foods out there. Everything went fine, i was chewing on my left side so that the side from surgery wasn't affected at all! :) I was careful. :)...AND THEN I BINGED ON BROWNIES, ETC.
I might exercise a bit more later. No yoga today. However, I do plan on TWO yoga classes tomorrow, as long as I feel alright when I get up.
exercise so far: 35 min :)
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1:30pm Saturday:
...Yes, the pain has gotten worse!!!
I had the surgery this morning! I was in at 9 and out by 9:50! Talk about fast and efficient! I wasn't put to sleep, just numbing the area. I did this because I didn't want to have a problem getting home.
I was actually up at 4am...went with my SISTER, yes - she ended up coming too, to bring my parents to the airport. My sister actually did the driving on the way back since my parents wanted to go in the bigger vehicle (which she sometimes drives and I never to because I have my own car) because they had a lot of luggage to bring for their vacation - a cruise!!! After that, i went back to sleep for a little, then did a fast 35 minutes on the treadmill.
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
Way to shop!! I love finding good buys. You did good!!
When I got my wisdom teeth out I ended up gaining weight from all the ice cream the well-intentioned friends brought me. (I was in no real pain, so I was eating normally, PLUS the ice cream - I think there was six gallons of different flavors when I got back from the doctor's...)
In the MORNING i am now up to doing 40 minutes of walking and i try for 7 days a week.
today's exercise: 2 hrs, 10 min. walking and yoga.
total ex: 18 hrs, 15 min :)
today's calories: 1050 :) feels great. actually, the portions were good. i tell you, keeping busy helps me. i'm slightly but not totally nervous about this weekend...i am getting my teeth pulled, so that will probably prevent some eating. I'm hoping to not be in pain, so i can do yoga.
tomorrow i wake up really early to drive my parents to the airport - for their vacation for a week. my mom asked me last minute, which wasn't so nice especially since its at 5am. I wish she would have given me prior notice. i asked if she asked my sister and she said my sister isn't used to driving. i mentioned then that she should come for the ride too...my mom totally thought it was unnecessary, so it's just me who'll be driving them.
after that, i plan on 40 min walk and then i go to the oral surgeon for my teeth. after that, i may do some fast shopping...prob not. i may just come home for a bit. lol. maybe get a movie. i don't have a set plan. later, at 5pm, i'm hoping i'll be well enough for yoga. however, now i remember the snow storm may prevent that. on sunday, i would like to go to yoga 2x...morning and afternoon...but, once again, that may be prevented due to the storm. yuck.
today was a challenging day, emotionally. lots of things happened...but i'm too tired to discuss. nothing really bad, maybe i'll write about all that tomorrow.
goodnight all.
Progress as of today: -5 lbs lost so far, only 20 lbs to go!
I've done two sessions a day a few times, but it's not something I can do all the time. Occasionally I can rev myself up for it and do just fine.
Do you have any favorite asanas? And which are the ones you hate? For me, those are the ones involving upper body strength. I'm terrible at it, yet when it comes to flexibility I'm great and really enjoy doing those.
Yoga is so good at allowing you to focus your mind. For me that means thinking about what I'm doing and how I'm doing it. Nothing else is on my mind for 1.5 hrs., and then when the class ends I leave still thinking about what I've just done. Food doesn't enter the picture.
As for this weekend for you, play it by ear and see how you feel after the extraction. Yoga might be helpful, but if you're not up to it, don't push it. Remember, in yoga, you only do what your body allows you to do. Never force it.
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Thanks for your comments!
Don't throw away today because of your "high" day yesterday. That's not all that high, for one thing, and if you were to be doing calorie cycling, that would be just fine. Then you would want to be lower today, like around 1500-1600, and then back up to 1800 tomorrow. OR you could do something like 1800-2000 today, and then down to 1500-1600 tomorrow. Ya know? I mean, you can come off the peak gradually, or you can drop the calories down low and then go back to "medium". You're doing just fine for today!
PS I am always anti-social and cynical. :-)
shadetree on 12/23/2007:
It's okay to be antisocial from time to time. it's your vacation, do what you like. and since you don't do christmas, you probably don't have any family social things that you feel obligated to participate in - this can be a good thing! The movie sounds like a good idea - my old roommate and I used to go to the movies Christmas night every year...our way of getting away from those family get togethers that just seem to drag on and on and on and on...
Whatever you do, I hope you have a relaxing time!
geevee on 12/23/2007:
Any day that youlose your appetite is a BANNER day in my book! Why don't we have them more often?