breakfast: lots sugary oatmeal, pb. 700
snack: apple 80
lunch: green drink, apple, coffee 200
late snack: fruit/nut bar: 170 mostly in carbs/fat but healthy fiber
dinner: mcdonalds 900, lg apple 130, cookies 450 around 1500 total here.
2650....plus soup, 3,000 on the dot.
3400 (biscotti, jello)
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
4500 calories.
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
Hope that you can feel better, be under less stress, feel your desire to get this done so badly that resistance occurs....
Get some rest!
hey. much better, no. little better, possibly.
breakfast: 2 packages oatmeal (flavored) and almond milk. 400
snack: apple, green drink: 160
lunch: hot pretzel w. ketchup/mustard: 400
snacks---dinner: (unhealthy) popcorn 260, iced lg coffee 90, tofu175, celery20, salsa40, romaine20, (salad), (around 600)the entire package of SIX carob coated rice cakes (now i need to replace them bc they weren't mine...)...720 for the rice cakes total here: 1320. hahahah stupid???!
total calories today: 2280. i did wake up. i've been up. stop eating this way jackie. just stop!
my goal: 115 is still my primary goal. but how will i do it???? it keeps getting further away. it's ONLY 25 lbs away. it's NOT hard. why am i making it that way? i want to get BACK into exercise in the am. on the treadmill. like workingit, i should have the goal of losing FIVE lbs a month. that's FIVE months. soooo...by MAY i should reach my goal. that sounds good. and some time to spare before summer. five pounds is NOT that hard. and i'll prob lose some extra weight the first month. i'm practically crying, well not really, but this can be done and i need a better hobby than to eat after work. for now on, i shall go straight to the gym...i'll pack my clothes? i shouldn't stop at home - anymore. so yea, i'll pack the gym clothes tonight and go straight to the gym tomorrow. feeling to big for yoga.
sorry for the rambling, but it helps me.
food plan for tomorrow, before i get even more obese:
breakfast: oatmeal, almond milk 200 WATER
snack: TWO green drinks: 170
lunch: SUBWAY turkey extra meat 350?
GYM GYM GYM.
early dinner: salad and microwavable meal. up to 500.
total: 1200-1300 just fine. planning is everything, i guess.
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
i know everyone on here is busy! i will make time for you guys soon.... :)
BASICALLY, I CANNOT MAKE A GOOD DECISION FOR MORE THAN A COUPLE DAYS...
another poor day. i think being tired forced a bad decision. actually, i made the decision to eat poorly.
breakfast: 440
snack: 100
lunch: 200
SNACKS...DINNER: CHIPS 150, MUFFIN 480, TACO BELL 640, COOKIES 450, BISCOTTI 280, ICE CREAM 550, JELLY 100, MICROWAVED FRIES 400. (3050)
TOTAL: 3790 OUCH.
tuesday breakfast: very carby. slightly healthy. banana, two packets high fiber cinnamon swirl oatmeal. very sugary breakfast. 430. eh. i may allow for a sugary lunch too...we'll see...
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400 extra cal more....1/4 cup pb. so, instead of 1550, 1950. still ok but no weight loss. ummm, i can only be happy it wasn't a full out binge. i didn't have much fat today anyway, so the peanut butter was probably a healthy addition. i have to get used to lower cals.
it's kinda late and i chose a late yoga class. now it's 9:30 and i have yet to study. i plan on studying at least one hour if not more tonight. or i can fail. this particular test it wednesday. but i need to learn a majority of it tonight so i don't have to stress it....
food was so-so. ending on a good amount. 1550 approx. today. :) i am happy for that.
i went to yoga and was nauseated by my horrible appearance in the mirror. it's a cross between an obese person and a body builder. so nasty.
i can only forge on ahead....
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
Positive thoughts are sent your way!
That is awesome that you went to yoga. I really want to learn more about it but I am not flexible enough right now and most of the poses hurt LOL. Keeping you in my thoughts! Have a good evening and don't beat yourself up too much. =)
sunday: breakfast cals/snack around 1210 not so hot.
calories for sunday: approx. 2250. most being on the not so healthy side. i am looking forward to a much better week compared to the sickening way i spent the past 4 days. cheers to that. i hope everyone has a good week!
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thursday cal: 2650
fri: 4,000
sat: 4,000
If only i stayed on track on fri/sat i would have really not messed up my weight loss progress. but now i am back a few steps in the game. how many? let's calculate. i haven't done ANY exercise on thurs,fri,sat. so, the necessary calories could have only been around 1700-1800. if I subtract 1800 from each of those days, i'm left with 5250 total EXTRA calories = 1.5 pounds of actual weight in 3 days. hahahahahaha. i sure know how to become a sumo wrestler. now, i am somewhat taking control even though it doesn't appear that way. I feel like i've been off from school a week and it's only been 3 days.
I do realize, still, that i have my whole life ahead of me. i can be the hottest woman out there if i only allow myself to be. this is so sad - to what i'm letting myself become.
i was doing good on the eating front until Thanksgiving. I was breaking through the cycle but my momentum suddenly STOPPED. i think having too much free time is not working. hmm, next time i can USE it wisely - go to yoga twice - instead of not at all. blech. i was glad to have a few days off but i think all the pent up emotions caused my eating to go haywire.
saturday morning:
pb on bread w. large banana 600....followed by eating leftover fast food from last night - YUCK! so nasty 700. pretty sad i did that. followed by slice of cake. 300
total so far for saturday: 1600. so it's my choice...i can go crazy, buy a pumpkin pie and eat the whole thing - which i really might do.
sorry to all of the DDers. i am just going through a REALLY BAD spell.
a lot of a whole sweet potato pie (there weren't any pumpkin ones left. i'll never buy sweet potato again. it wasn't as tasty but it seems i still did i good job polishing it off.)
whole pie 2000, stuffing 40, soup 80, lots of grapes 150
total: around 3900-4000 sheesh, man.
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friday night: huge fast food binge (mcdonalds/checkers).
i ran into an ex-supervisor today in the mall. i couldn't believe it. of all people, it had to be her. she was nice....but didn't hire me back which lead me to choose a different field and go back to school. it wasn't all her, but then i had trouble finding a job. she says to me "i'm glad you found something you want to do..." i didn't personally take that well (in my head) because i did enjoy the teaching. it was challenging but isn't everything? but i wish she wouldn't have put it that i didn't want to teach - because that is not it. I want to email her, to tell her that. bc it is seriously bugging me. bugging me like CRAZY. i'm so angry.
so today's a new day, right? of course.
breakfast: tofu/bran...and also 1/4 cup peanut butter. 600
snack?coffee, bar 200
lunch: chicken w. salad and salsa and big bread muffin thing 650??....AND a cake w. some bites of pumpkin pie.500 more...AND stuffing 600...two cookies...4 biscotti 560...pint ice cream920
late night: mcdonalds large fries, burger, chicken nuggets, checkers fries: total guess (i didn't eat it all) 2200
total on friday: 4,000
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
Have you considered this? It would seem to me that peanut butter seems to be a trigger food for you. On days where you start with peanut butter, they seem to go downhill afterwards. Sometimes, I have to swear off peanut butter for a while, until I have more self-control. Thankfully, I don't have to eliminate it entirely but there ARE foods that I DO have to give up and banish from the house FOREVER because I cannot control myself (potato chips fall under this category).
Hang in there!
Take care! And don't sweat the petty stuff, and don't pet the sweaty stuff. =)
Thank you for the kind thoughts for Brian and I. He really is a gem and a good man. I am a very lucky woman =)
happy thanksgiving. my plan is to relax basically ALL day. :)
breakfast: tofu/bran and green drink...followed later by a kombucha: 340
snack: pumpkin pudding made with about 2 glasses of milk, some pumpkin, fat free butterscotch pudding mix, cinnamon. it was alright. 320
lunch: chicken, salad, salsa: 240
snack: 4 bran crackers 50
dinner: i gave in and had what i wanted. only went back for another portion of pumpkin pie-and i don't regret that! it was good. i love pumpkin pie. it's my favorite pie. i'm guessing in total dinner was around 1800.
total: 2650? not too shabby for thanksgiving day.
however, my goal is to LOSE weight. I almost gave into some peanut butter after dinner. glad i didn't.
I MUST succeed in this weightloss. It is my #1 goal right now. of course doing VERY well in school is too. but i NEED NEED NEED to lose weight. i just must.
so i've learned...and i know...keep the meals SMALL but satisfying. snacks. i will succeed i know i can. today's calories weren't even bad. all i have to do is keep chugging along and at some point the weight will be where i want it to be.
in fact, i'm going to weigh myself right now...scared...
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
total cal: around 2010
large healthy dinner. tons of veggies, chicken, pumpkin pudding dessert...600
exercise: YOGA. even though i feel out of shape and jiggly. lol. gotta just go through it.
today went well. I think i got a perfect score on both exams. :) I did well on week on exams actually! 4 tests in 3 days. thank god thats over. so far, we have 3 tests when we return from break, but there will DEFINITELY be more once we go over material on Monday. but for now, yay! break!
Breakfast: my usual for the time being. getting bored of it though. tofu and bran. 200. I woke up at FOUR AM today! yes, 4. And thankfully since i accidentally fell asleep studying!
snack: a bran cracker. 10
lunch: party. 3 chicken wings and a LARGE slice of mushroom pizza. all was GREAT. fullowed by several cups of diet pepsi. was filling. 1,000 hopefully not more!
snack: large apple, kombucha. 200
total so far 1410. good for a pizza party. there was lots more food - and desserts. but i said why ruin a good day.
dinner: chicken, salad, other veggies. :) i've been drinking too much kombucha. but maybe a bit more?
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
things are ok over here :)
don't really want to discuss what happened last night. but i do plan on telling you guys because i want your feedback....it's too much to write right now. i need to STUDY.
breakfast: tofu/bran. i like this! 200
snack: green drink yum. 80
lunch: eh. not much to choose from. vegetable rotini soup from subway which was very good and some chips. 250
snack: natural protein bar, another green drink. around 320
snack: orange pepper. 50.
dinner: large piece of grilled chicken cutlet, lettuce, lots of salsa :) around 400
ehh, had some dessert. pumpkin pudding i made using milk, sf pudding, and pumpkin. 280...and some kombuca. 60....340
total: 1640. it's still ok. a bit high for the kind of weight loss i want, but mostly healthy. so what the heck.
tomorrow i have a darn pizza party to go to. i have to eat it so i'll enjoy it! only once slice, of course. then i will visit the gym! :) i've put off yoga until after thanksgiving.
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
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1640 is great!.... Keep up the self-reinforcement attitude!
as far as sleep is concerned, i'm getting a lack of it. last night i went to bed around 4am because i was studying. and tonight i'm now taking a break before going back and studying. it's 12:20am. i feel like a freshman again. ugh...and it's worse this time around. exams upon exams, all memorizing. it's worth it though.
i would write what happened between myself and my sister now but i'll save that for tomorrow. boy does life never have a dull moment. and this time i can say i did nothing wrong. lol. and i'm not kidding. i admit it when i am wrong...i'll discuss this one tomorrow. but it sure is disgusting.
i have already had at least two cans of diet coke. i am going to end up totally exhausted come thanksgiving day. that is just like me. i always overstress myself right before a break bc i know i can relax during break. however, it would be nice to enter the break already somewhat relaxed. I know myself - i'll probably end up with so little energy on thursday and fri (i have off) that i'll not want to do anything. perhaps this can change??
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breakfast: 200 tofu and bran
snack: apple 80
lunch: green drink, soy chips: 280
snack: large fresh pressed green drink from a health food store 180, nut/fruit bar170, 1/2 kombucha30. total: 380
total so far: 940 :)
dinner: will be 1/2 block tofu microwaved, large salad w. peppers. possibly a little more kombucha. 330 or so.
total: 1300 about. lots of diet coke - yuck. but i had to in order to stay awake.
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
Get some good quality sleep A.S.A.P., cause it will be what helps you the most to be the sharpest & healthiest you can be... Take Care!
here's to a new me. come spring i will weigh at least 115 lbs again. it is not hard to do. all i have to do is eat right EVERY day (almost) and exercise. EASY as cake. I will be proud of myself in the end. then, i just need to keep it off. not hard. very doable. it'll feel GREAT. this is for myself. to look hot. again - and for the rest of my life.
i was talking to my grandma today about weight and all the issues. she mentioned a good point - that i am an adult now and i know what to do to lose the weight. so basically, she's saying do what you have to. lol, i know that already, but she made it clear that in a way its like an obligation to myself if that makes any sense.
i have only really gained the weight in the past year and a half. no reason why it isn't a GREAT time to lose it. I will lose this weight and it is one of my top priorities. I was watching a video earlier that practically documents much of my initial weight loss because it was for a class and filmed over a period of 3 months. so every ten minutes a slightly thinner person appeared lol. it's hard to believe how much success i had. and i kept the weight off for approx. 4 years. this is sad, that i let it go. so sad. but you live and you learn, right?
i don't have a winter coat. and the ones in my house are actually too small. i'll have to go PUCHASE one tomorrow. with weight gain came buying new clothes. new clothes i'd rather not buy that i didn't even love wearing. i must lose this weight for me. i must.
i have a long ways to go. to get to even 130 lbs is just a bit under 10 lbs away. i do know that low carb, or extremely low carb, will NOT work for me. like i've said, not too much should be off limits. but the things i do choose should be usually healthy. this week i have a pizza party for thanksgiving. not really a weightloss food. i guess one slice should not kill me. i'll have that. and eat healthy for the remainder of the day.
i want to go back. be back in a thin body. i do not like what i've done to myself one bit.
i will go to the party because it is my duty to go. it really doesn't matter if i feel like it or not. not going just shows apathy or an attitude of indifference to those i work/go to school with. so, even if i feel like a disgusting fat pig, i'll be there. i plan to get a haircut and blow dry that day. nice hair should help.
as you can see, i don't think this is a breakdown, but i can't tell. what i do know is that this has gone tooooooo far. i know i can do this and i know i can even stay thin for the rest of my life. this has gone on WAY too long. way too long!
i need to make this promise with myself and actually keep it this time. i am so pretty and i have let it all slide right past me. i am soooo worth it. i want to strut and show off what i have. why, at 26, not be looking the best i can. what the hell is wrong with me!? am i seriously that mental that i let school and other things impede my progress? can't i not stand and look proud with who i am? what am i doing to myself? what did i do to myself? why?
sunday entry:
breakfast: 2eggs, a pepper, some yogurt, green drink 440
snack: pepper, tuna w. bbq sauce: 180
another snack: 1/4 cup peanut butter 400
total so far: 1020. hmmm. my goal is 2,000 today - meaning don't surpass 2,000.
snack: bran crackers: 90 and tea :) i survived grandma's :)
snack before dinner: plum 50
dinner: salad, tofu, orange pepper, kombucha: 310 :)
total: 1450 :) sooooooo happy.
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sat. night entry:
these are my calorie totals, each day of the week starting this past Monday:
m-4500
t- 7000
w-3200
th-4500
fri-4000
sat-2500
i hardly exercised, so i will figure 1800 per day was what i needed. excess calories are: 14,900. about 4.3 pounds! yes, that's right. so now i can say i weigh around 140. this is with bloating, so subtract a pound or two and thats my weight. HIGHEST weight in my life. i'm not really depressed more than angry at myself for CONSTANTLY going back and binging. it sooooo sooo old. sorry guys, that i have been complaining soooooo much on here.
well, eating didn't help me do much. sat home all day today which was ok because my parents are out of town and it's nice having the house to myself. i am feeling better actually.
my only FEAR, and i will totally call it that, is the christmas party i MUST attend as its the only right thing to do. it's dec. 11 and i am upset that i have gained and NOT lost weight for it. it will be filled with everyone from the radiology department at the hospital where i go to school. so, lots of doctors and people in fancy dresses. I DIDN'T want to buy a dress. i really, really don't. :( I am not happy to buy a dress that is such a large size and have to be around all of these fancy, important people. it is stressing me to the core, actually. it is not mandatory we go but i DON'T want to be seen as an outcast.
i will continue to ask this to everyone on here so i can get some answers. should i definitely go to the party (believe me, i know i'd have a good time but i'm not happy at ALL at how i will look...) i am very serious. i've been looking at pics of myself from 2 years ago and i have gained so much weight since then. in the past year, i have gained 30 lbs. i really don't want to buy the dress....i don't think i'm going to go. i really don't want to. it is major stress to get the dress. sorry it all sounds dumb but it'll all be forgotten soon after, hopefully. i just really don't want to go. it'll be like a weight lifted off my shoulders. if i go, i feel like i will have to diet like crazy, which will not work...etc. i just really don't want to go. but i do know how it is and how to be social i should go. BUT, most people there i do not really associate with and i do have 1.5 years left of this program. is it wrong to just know in my mind i will go next year?
if you guys think that i am out of line and i have to go, just say it.
but just understand that preparing to go will STRESS me to the core. i'd rather just be more relaxed and when we have a party in class enjoy the pizza and not have to worry about this christmas party on 12/11. then, i can just focus on weight loss generally. i'm telling you, i totally don't want to go. i have always said yes to EVERYTHING. and i don't think its wrong that i'm not going. :( but it's making me sad. and if i'm the only one not going?? then i really have no choice. i guess i will have to see on monday if anyone else is NOT going. if everyone's going, i have to go!!! so angry about this!
Progress as of today: -15 lbs lost so far, only 25 lbs to go!
"26" is a great age.... Enjoy it!
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