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Horn_of_plenty - Friday Feb 02, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

WI Points: 35. 6 and comments and saying something good.

question, if I drink 8 glasses of liquids, does that count? for instance, do herbal teas count as water? otherwise, I will usually not get the water points.

Today, instead of leaving school right away, I stayed after for a half hour and finished lesson planning for next week. I feel so good and relaxed that I will not have to think about lesson planning all weekend! Maybe I should do that more often.

It is the end to a long week, my throat is a little sore. I just hope that it gets better overnight! I taught at school, then gave a lesson, then went to a rehearsal, followed by an outing to the nearby diner. I stayed on track today and even took a half hour walk on the treadmill.

Foods: Breakfast: egg/apple Snack: egg Lunch: chicken, carrots, tomato Snack: balance bar Snack: yogurt Dinner: tofu, seaweed salad, pound of peppers Diner after rehearsal: salad, vinegar, hard boiled egg.

tired!

WorkingIt2 on 02/02/2007:
You had a great day! So nice that your mind will be free to think of other things than work lol. Yes, if you drink the 8 glasses of non-caffeine liquids it does count YAY!

I hope your throat feels better and I am so happy you are in the challenge!


Lillian on 02/03/2007:
Thank you so very much! Like I say we were really really close. Se indeed was the mama I never had in my life ... but thank God my mama is now in my life, and her life has changed fo the better now that she has the Lord in her heart! :)

Take care & God bless,

Lillian


WorkingIt2 on 02/03/2007:
I got your updated points, WOW you did great! In the lead on the first day LOL yaaaaaay! Have a great day!


Donkey on 02/03/2007:
Sounds like a great day! Good idea to finish lesson planning at work on Friday instead of having it hang over your head the whole weekend long. I find that if I put off doing something, it "nags" at me until I get it done. And that "nagging" feeling can grow into stress which often leads me to food, if you know what I mean.

Great job!!!


greengirl on 02/03/2007:
Well done on a great day!!! :)



Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Feb 01, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

Workingit Points for the 29th: 5. (2 for veggies, 2 for water, 1 for calories.)

WorkingIt Points for today: 11. (10 for my comments and 1 for exercise)

calories were pretty good up until 4:30pm, when I ate dinner before my band rehearsal. I ate well, but then binged. It was out of major anxiety about rehearsal. I have done this ever since I started having these rehearsals, SEVEN years ago.

My calories for the day up until 4:30 were 840. I binged on 1265 calories worth of food from 4:30 till 5:15. Instead of starving myself after rehearsal, I came home and had a grapefruit and an eggwhite(although my stomach is still protruding!).

Total Calories Today: 2220.

I had kinda caught up on my craziness with calories yesterday, so of course I make things hard for myself for binging today!!! lovely, now I need to make some deficits again!

hmmm. that's about it. busy and content. Everything's alright, but exercise is slacking...

Goodnight all!

borntocry on 02/02/2007:
Same here - I had just made up for my trip to the vegetarian restaurant and then had an even higher-calorie day yesterday to set me back again!

We must do well today in preparation for the weekend!


smiley2 on 02/02/2007:
Try exercising next time before your rehearsal and drink lots of water, that SOMETIMES helps me ;)


Moody on 02/02/2007:
I like Smileys suggestion! It would be a great way to work off that nervous stress!

And I wanted to thank you for your wonderfully kind words you left me several days ago, regarding my breakup. They meant alot to me and I appreciate all that you said.

Take care...


WorkingIt2 on 02/02/2007:
Busy and content is beautiful!


greengirl on 02/02/2007:
If its any consolation, I had a bit of a binge myself today. You are not alone!!!! :)


maria777 on 02/02/2007:
That must have been some good food from 4:30 to 5:15!!!

Congratulations to you on how well you've done, btw!



Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jan 31, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

WorkingIt points: 7. calories get 1 point due to some mindless snacking.

Howdy! I almost can't even remember writing here this morning! I wrote: "the pickles weren't pickled" LOL!!!! I meant, the PEPPERS weren't pickled, lol!

so, I ate well today. Although, from the hours of 3:30pm on my way home stopping at Wendy's for an awesome salad till 5pm, I ate a bit more than I planned. But, no binge! At first, I was going to prepare food once getting home, but sometimes I feel better buying food before I get home so that I don't enter my house frazzled and more prone to a binge.

I orderred a Mandarin Chicken Salad from Wendy's. It contains mandarin oranges, romaine, and chicken. I thought that's all I'd eat, but it also comes with roasted almonds and some crispy noodles in little seperate baggies so you don't have to have those ingredients in your salad if you choose not to. However, I also had this salad yesterday and today I was in the mood for those extra additions. so, the calories were a bit higher than just for a salad. ok, and so on!

Today was a busy day at school, the good kind of busy. I had just enough time to get done what I needed and I feel like I accomplished things. Always a good feeling!

Eating has been healthy lately. Mostly whole foods, some processed. It's a good balance and this weekend will be a little busier than normal which I guess will help me in the end. When I wasn't working, it was difficult for me to feel "accomplished." I felt as though I wasn't giving back a thing to the community; and only taking. For instance, I was going to yoga, something for my own benifit. But, what was I doing for others!? so, today was the day that I felt back into the true swing of things at this new elementary school. It was an all-in-all productive day!

I have to say, I have missed yoga lately!

ummm, food. Breakfast: apple, egg, emergen-c, water, tea.

Snack: egg. (I felt hungry, like I wanted more, and it took some pressure for those feelings to pass...this afternoon, I was sucked into those same feelings and did get more food.)

Lunch: Large tomato, baby carrots, bbq chicken salad.

Snack 1: wendy's salad; Snack 2: Dunkin Donuts Late Lite; Snack 3: greek yogurt

Late Dinner tonight: Seaweed Salad, red pepper, lettuce, tofu, tomato.

Off to make some comments on your entries!

Enjoy your evenings!

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Hi...WorkingIt points for Tuesday: 5 points. (calories were a little too low and no exercise.)

yesterday was a long day and my internet wasn't working so i couldn't even make a journal entry! so, good morning!

slipstream, yeah, like you I have an intense addiction to the feeling of euphoria or whatever it is when your body ingests a lot of food and your insulin is all over the place. by that point, i am usually confined to my house for a few hours at least until I can resume to my self and not have to simply sit at my computer or chill out so that I feel better after all that food!

the pickles were NOT pickled, thank god! I do like pickled foods, especially pickles, but, I'm glad I did't have a pound of them. they were just a bag of frozen red, green, and yellow pickles!

borntocry on 01/31/2007:
Well, hello!


Justine6Robert3 on 01/31/2007:
I think it might have been the web site last night. I went to submit a comment and I got kicked out and then I couldn't log back on. My internet was still working though.

Sorry to hear you haven't been feeling well and your struggling a little. I am also finding the last few days more challenging, I'm not sure why!! Its my birthday tomorrow so that means dining out and cake. I hope I can not go overboard with the food this week-end. I haven't yet ate out since starting this, so I'm hoping I can manage to exercise some self discipline!!!

You'll get back under control, you seem to be very determined to succeed with your food battle!! Hope your day goes well.


sandrella on 01/31/2007:
Hope that your day goes well! :)


tourguidebarbie on 01/31/2007:
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD MORNING! :)


Donkey on 01/31/2007:
I agree with you, HoP. Sugar is like a drug for me, and I eat to get that "sugar high". Now is that sick or what? I definitely need to detox.


girliegirl6486 on 01/31/2007:
Yeah, the website was down last night. I am definitely addicted to sandwiches - I have had a turkey and cheese sandwich nearly every weekday for lunch since about the third grade! And I like them extremely plain - one slice of cheese and turkey. That's it!


legcramps on 01/31/2007:
I think you're doing awesome - keep it up!

I'm getting more and more obsessed over my yoga classes, but that's my personality - do something I like so much and so often that I'll eventually start to not like it all that much anymore!

I try to stick to veggies, fruit and whole grains in my diet while adding protein from fish or chicken. Of course, this varies a lot depending on my mood ! but all in all I do well on this eating plan. Your plan sounds quite similar to this, and I would definitely tell you to go for it. Heck, we can always change it up if we don't like it, but we can at least try it out for a bit, right?!

Have a great week!


maria777 on 01/31/2007:
I love chocolate frosted donuts, Krispy Kreme kind! With the filling inside...the custard pudding kind! YUM!


weightlossyoyo on 01/31/2007:
You are doing great with the food intake keep it up!


borntocry on 02/01/2007:
Yes, I saw that "pickles were not pickled" line - it was too funny! I was going to point it out but then thought it would be more fun to wait and see what everyone else's reactions were to it!

Thanks for the comment you left me. I can't really discuss my diet with my husband because he doesn't think I need to lose weight. But I'm sure you can relate to that, haha!


WorkingIt2 on 02/01/2007:
What a great feeling to have a successful day! I agree! I didn't see any points for the 29th unless I'm missing them? Don't want to short change you! =)



Horn_of_plenty - Monday Jan 29, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

well, thank you all for your comments and support. It seems that you agree with most of what I said and do support my plan. that's a good sign for me to continue with it.

my internet is all screwy and now its too late to leave a long journal entry or comment this evening. It'll have to wait until tomorrow!

eating today was healthy. also, i was pretty busy, so calories were quite low.

goodnight all!

slipstream on 01/29/2007:
So, on Sunday, was that a pound of pickled peppers? Oh my - I am so relieved to hear that you, this tiny thing, can eat so much in a binge. I feel so much better! Thank you!! I don't know about this food or that carb causing my binges. I only have them on Fridays, regardless of what I start out with. It does seem that once I eat too much of anything with calories, it's so much easier to psychologically justify the eating of everything in sight. Can you relate to that? I see it as a need for something pleasurable. I think I haven't been getting enough sex - that's what i think. Either that or the food is providing something even the sex doesn't. It's filling some gap. What causes addictive gambling? Or compulsive shopping? I think there must be a similar root. What do you think? I'm rooting for you! Oh - and I love pickled peppers!



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jan 28, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

WorkingIt Points today: 2 exercise, 2 water, 1 for fruit/veg. total 5

I am thinking of going on the unprocessed, unrefined eating style again. what are your feelings on that? I enjoy vegetables a lot, so that is not an issue for me. I think sugar addiction is my issue, and once i had a little, it was all downhill. I believe that i can allow myself all sugars still, like at parties and any kind of occasion that allows for them. meaning, those foods are not off limits, like i considered them from after thanksgiving until the new year.

I just want to say that i am not happy with my current eating. I went food shopping and bought lots of healthy vegetables and things. I will strive to eat a lot of whole foods from now on. They are what make me feel best. I ate terribly last week and came down with a stomach virus friday. do you think the sickness and poor eating were related? hmmm.

i'm struggling right now. I don't believe i'm looking for a fast fix really. I'm looking for a fix!

Let me know your input on my decisions! ---------------------------------------------------------------

Here's a good article I read on nurtrition and food substitues today:

http://www.gillreport.com/ht-14

-------------------------------------------------------------- donkey, i think someone in my house might have thrown the calorie info away on purpose. usually, i won't touch food that doesn't have its caloric information taped to it!!!!!

hi. my stomach was definitely not all better this morning. but, i woke up around 4am with an appetite. I kinda slept it off. then, around 5, i made some cereal, fiber one, two cups and one cup soy milk. soon after, i fell back to sleep.

I woke up around 8am and had an apple and then a yogurt.

shortly after, i had two pieces of bread with 2 tablespoons of pb and one tablespoon tahini.

i snacked on a pound of peppers at 11am and at noon I had eggplant and two eggs.

calories up to that point weren't even too bad for all that food: 1225.

then, i binged!!! yeah, and my stomach isn't even fully better. I don't know, but i'm having a really tough time. it hasn't gotten better, yet!

my dad had brought home a box of "godiva biscuits" which are all types of cookies with chocolate and nuts and stuff on them. I had two of one thing, 3 of another cookie, and 6 of a third type. then, I had 9 crackers in my house. I followed that by 4 mini butterfingers that i found. then, i followed that by a powerbar. don't ask!

ugh. what is my problem!?

total calories so far: 2900. and, i hope it's not more! i had to guess the calories in the godiva biscuits cookies because it didn't list them, not even online!

argggg!

Donkey on 01/28/2007:
Did you take apart the Godiva box? Usually the calories are on a small square of paper, floating around in the box.


Moody on 01/28/2007:
Just catching up on you..do you think your binge today had anything to do with starting the day out with cereal? Although it was a healthy cereal it's still high in carbs I would imagine...and I know for me that when I eat carbs with nothing else, I end up bingeing..

I hope that you get to feeling better...take care of yourself!

have you been to yoga lately??


WorkingIt2 on 01/28/2007:
That godiva chocolate is so tasty and so addictive. It definately had an unfair advantage over you =) Scratch this day and head to the next. All is not lost! Hope you feel better soon.


girliegirl6486 on 01/28/2007:
I think its a good idea to avoid processed foods for awhile. I did for this past week and felt GREAT. Last night I ate terribly processed foods and I feel soooooo sick today. I just wish I liked veggies as much as you do - I love fruit but that's lots of sugars!


WorkingIt2 on 01/28/2007:
Whatever you know would work best for you is what is most important. And there isn't a darned thing wrong with eating whole foods =)


borntocry on 01/29/2007:
Same here - I think sugars spark off a lot of my binges. Cereal and cookies are probably my biggest killers. If I were you I would just try to include some starches in my diet, like oatmeal, potatoes, whole grain bread, etc. to stave off the deprived feelings and cravings. But avoid the highly-processed refined sugars because those don't really fill us up and always leave us wanting more. And the calories add up really quickly too. Good luck!


Donkey on 01/29/2007:
I can tell you certifiably that refined sugars totally set off binges for me. Talk about a trigger! Very dangerous! I'm not so sure about the whole foods approach. I'm starting to think that the vegetarian thing is what is setting me up for binges. However, I cannot possibly entertain the idea of ingesting the DNA of over 1000 cows (ground beef) at this point in time. I'm going to give vegetarianism a little more time and re-evaluate after I'm done moving. But you seemed to be more in control when you had the whole foods approach. Don't you agree? Thats what I would look at, what was I eating when I felt the most in control? Because this bingeing thing has got to stop. Trust me, before it becomes something that needs an outside intervention to quit.


Jmarie60 on 01/29/2007:
The best I ever felt was when I went on a detox. I gradually took things away for one week. I started with refined sugars. I'm a vegetarian so I didn't have to wean off the meat. then I stopped eating eggs. Then I stopped eating dairy. Then when the weekend came, I would drink water and organic, freshly squeezed juices. I also had organic vegetable broth. I had some wonderful teas as well. I exfoliated my skin, and did a deep herbal cleansing of my body and skin. After the weekend I slowly incorporated whole vegetables and then egg and dairy back into my diet. I ate whole foods and treated myself better. I only do this once a year and am very careful. I don't want to give my body a shock. I fell out of the routine because I was living with my boyfriend (now ex) and he wasn't very supportive of the idea and joked about it. So I went back to my old ways.

I don't know if you got anything out of that rambling, but if it's something you're interested in, maybe I could do it again and we can do it together via DD.


sasyredneckgirl on 01/29/2007:
Hey horn.. ya know i cut out my white bread and no rice and no potatoes and it has helped me out tremendously opps and sugar as well.. and noooo diet drinks the aspertame and such is suppose to make your body crave things.. now thats not to say if something like spaghetti sauce has sugar in it i still will fix that i just dont eat much of it.. but it has stopped my cravings for chocolate so much and for other foods.. its not a total sugarbusters diet or a atkins diet just one my dr has made up... but i can tell such a difference i dont seem to crave those bad goods as much ...



Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jan 27, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

edit: workingit points for today: 4 exercise, (water/tea). i went on to have 4 pepperidge farm cookies after the banana. those cookies combined were 560 calories. my total for today so far is 1650...plus an apple: 1730 total.

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Friday workingit points: none for calories, none for fruits/veg, none for exercise. I'll give myself 2 water points.

Saturday workingit points: calories, none. fruit/veg: 2, water: 2, exercise: we'll see...I'll update later this evening!

Thank you all for your wonderful comments yesterday. I felt better this morning, but still not myself. I've been eating very processed, dense foods today. For breakfast, I started with cereal. I haven't made myself a bowl of cereal first thing in the morning in months!

Breakfast: The first thing i ate this morning was a chocolate truffle. boy did it taste rich! I almost thought i couldn't put another thing in my mouth...

then i had the cereal: cup of soymilk from a container that lists the expiration date as the middle of november 06 but that tastes and smells fine (maybe that's how i got sick, lol), one cup of raisin bran, one cup of fiber one (i'm not sure why this is in my house, because i sure didn't buy it!). so it took me awhile to finish the cereal.

then, i had the second chocolate truffle. after a little bit, i had two chocolates with cherry and cream inside.

LOL. It was a big breakfast. 650 calories. but, with my stomach feeling the way it did, i didn't know when i'd want to eat again! I knew i'd be teaching a music lesson this morning and posible one after that, for an hour. however, that person cancelled again this week because he was sick with fever!

I got home around 4 and had a seaweed salad. i didn't know if i could ingest any vegetables; and it took awhile to eat. However, i felt good after. I stopped by the health food store by me; and i was talking to a different woman who was telling me all about raw foods. she kinda made me believe that raw foods can definitely sustain a person and that's whats gonna get me better. However, i will not become a raw foodist any time soon!

after the seaweed salad, i had canned chicken noodle soup from the generous supply in my house. then, i kept thinking about having more chocolate, but went to have a banana. It was good; and now i'm having an apple. my stomach feels very bloated, but my mind is wanting some more to eat. so, i'm going with that right now!

thanks for all your kind comments, i'm definitely better than yesterday. hopefully i'll be 100% soon!

i also bought some echinacea tea, good for the immune system. It says to have 5-6 cups a day! I have a lot to go on that!

lastly, i bought a really interesting drink at the natural food store. i thought it was going to taste fruity, because it was colorful and packaged so nicely. however, it tastes like VINEGAR! It's called "Synergy," and its organic and raw. It's made from raw kombucha, which is a type of chinese tea cultured for 30 days. It also includes raspberry juice, lemon juice, and ginger juice. that's all. It contains 30 calories per 8oz, for a total of 60 calories per bottle. It also has a trace amount of alcohol, from fermentation (i guess because it's cultured for 30 days), lol.

Kombucha is said to support: digestion, metabolism, immune system, appetite control, weight control, liver function, body alkalnity, anti-aging, cell integrity, and healthy skin/hair. LOL, i guess the company can claim whatever it wants. I'm going to finish this bottle, even though the taste is something to be aquired, which i haven't done.

one more update tonight.

borntocry on 01/27/2007:
Interesting drink - the juice sounds good, but the vinegary taste... not so much.

I am also never sure what to do with things which taste and smell fine long after the expiration date. Like I've noticed yogurt tends to last a couple of weeks past the date, which is strange for a dairy product, but I guess maybe it's because it's already sour. The big question is what to do with the barely-touched packet of oat bran in the refrigerator. It supposedly expired about three years ago, but doesn't smell rancid at all. Seems a shame to throw it out...

Glad you're feeling better. You're right, I think these bizarre temperature fluctuations aren't doing anyone any good!


maria777 on 01/27/2007:
Looks like you've had a good day!


WorkingIt2 on 01/28/2007:
I had a big breakfast yesterday myself! Truffles are soooooooo tasty. Have a great day, Horn!



Horn_of_plenty - Friday Jan 26, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 0.0

Turns out I felt like I was gonna vomit since I got up this morning. I practically forced an apple down my throat for breakfast. I almost couldn't even finish it. I didn't feel any better at school. We took the bus from the elementary school to the middle school for day 2 of the district band rehearsal.

At times, I walked away from the auditorium thinking i was too nauseaus and in need of a restroom.

we arrived back at the elementary school where I think I can finally do some paperwork and relax. NO! The asst. principal wonders why I have cancelled the one afternoon lesson (I cancelled because the other band teachers told me to yesterday, saying I had fulfilled my teaching requirements for the day at rehearsal.) well, i can understand if the asst principal did want me to teach the one afternoon lesson, since i was in the building. However, then she asked me to teach another extra lesson in the afternoon that had to be cancelled from the morning. well, its my first full week there, so i did it. I had to end up staying late at school; and i'm still not done with my work. I felt like I was gonna throw up while teaching the lessons. ugh.

I think that I caused myself this virus, from whatever I ingested last night. I ate too much. and, whoever warned me that i'd feel sick, i feel sicker than you could imagine!

I ate 360 calories until dinner. It consisted of an apple, some bread, and two eggs. and, i forced that food down my throat. If i wasn't so obsessed with food, i probably wouldn't have even tried to eat all that!

when i got home, i took a nap. then, i had bravo crackers and soup. total: 450. It was difficult to get the solid parts of the soup down and i began to get nauseous again. I hope i'm not making any of you readers sick! sorry if i did.

ugh. i've simply had enough.

borntocry on 01/26/2007:
Listen, if you're feeling that sick, don't eat! Wait until you feel better. I hope you do feel better soon. For people as obsessed with food as we are, it sucks to be unable to enjoy it!


WorkingIt2 on 01/26/2007:
(((((((((Horn)))))))))))) awww I hope you feel better soon! No fun to be sick!


Justine6Robert3 on 01/26/2007:
Sorry your feeling sick, what an awful day you must have had trying to function and teach all day (and then stay late, nice!!) when you had such an upset stomach. I think you need to snuggle up in your bed. You should maybe avoid eating right now if its upsetting your stomach so much! Maybe your coming down with the flu, its that lovely time of year.

I hope you feel better, take care of yourself!


Donkey on 01/27/2007:
I hope you feel better soon. I hope it doesn't develop into stomach flu or something like that. I agree, don't eat if you feel sick to your stomach!



Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jan 25, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 111.8

WorkingIt points: 6. everything except the calorie points.

I binged, but stopped when my stomach actually felt VERY full and solid. weird feeling, usually I don't get that feeling so soon. Maybe it's because I ate good things all day and a major afternoon binge wasn't necessary. who knows.

Foods:

Breakfast: 1 cup hi fiber bran, 1/2 cup soy milk, one apple, one egg, two chocolates. total: 420.

No Snack in the midmorning.

Lunch: carrots, lc bread, bbq chicken. total: 250.

Snack: Protein advantage chocolate chip granola bar. yes, it hit the spot. 220 calories, lots of fiber. I don't know if I should have had this or something with some more carbs in it and no sugar alcohols. i don't want to start eating lots of sugar alcohols again!

Dinner: Microwave veggies and tofu. (I didn't even heat the tofu up...and I had the entire block, just cut it into bite size pieces. I don't really flavor my tofu, sometimes I'll sprinkle it with papricka or spices. but, i just heat it in the microwave if i want it warm). calories: 420.

Dinner lead into a binge: more high fiber cereal and 1 cup soy milk: 200

Total so far: 1510.... However, I continued to binge:

Two chocolates....1620, Bread and sf jelly.....1720, Peanut butter, bread and jelly...1990, 2 slices of bread and peanut butter....2230.

well, i was feeling emotions of "not being good enough" and "not living up to my potential" this afternoon. In the end, I am not conducting the elementary band district festival because the chairperson felt that the teachers who have been around in the district for awhile should stand up to the plate! yeah, she told me it wasn't at all about how good a teacher I am and not based on any dissatisfaction at all. just that she wanted the other teachers to participate. also, there are only 3 songs, but 6 teachers. therefore, there isn't a song for me to conduct. i'm fine with that. however, if i did have to do it, i'd be a nervous wreck. I just hope that I can do it as well as the other teachers there today. I probably could. I feel i'm not giving my all to my job. I think this lead into the binge.

Tomorrow's another day.

ok. I need to get a little more sleep. It's not that i'm necessarily tired during the day, but I can tell my energy is a little sluggish; and i come home and vegged out after work when i should exercise right away so that I can do some other productive things later in the evening. I haven't been productive this week after work.

Progress as of today: 1.6 lbs lost so far, only 8.8 lbs to go!

gina7400 on 01/25/2007:
you go!!


lafemme_loca on 01/25/2007:
You are doing so well... even with the small 'binge'... Emotional and Stress eating are my speciality. Isn't it amazing how we find comfort in eating even when we are not hungry. I heard someone say "don't let a lapse turn into a collapse." It is nice to see that you have the good attitude about tomorrow. :-) Take care of yourself !


Donkey on 01/25/2007:
I can understand why the incident with the band festival led to the binge. I often deal with feelings of inadequacy and untapped potential. However, no good comes of dwelling on such negativity. I agree, tomorrow is a new day and we will strive to give what we can. I personally really admire you for making a career out of your passion for music. My cousin graduated last year, majoring in music education. He was unable to find a school to teach (band director), so he has had to supplement his degree with classes that will qualify him to teach math. Last I heard, he had applied for a bank teller position at a nearby bank. So what you have managed to accomplish is definitely worthy of admiration.

Be forewarned: You may find that you regretted bingeing on high fiber bran cereal and peanut butter tomorrow...


Justine6Robert3 on 01/25/2007:
Your way to tough on yourself! You are going to feel a little "sluggish" until your body gets back into the routine of going to work everyday. I'm sure if you were hired to be a band teacher that you are very qualified and I'm sure you would do a great job if they need you to stand in.

I agree with Donkey, you have done very well for yourself turning your love for music into your career. So many people get up and go to work everyday and hate what they do for a living.

I do love your positive outlook, tomorrow is another day and it will be better! Have a good night and enjoy your work day tomorrow. Hope you sleep well tonight, it can make all the difference.


WorkingIt2 on 01/25/2007:
Awwww, I think you are a wonderful person with a kind heart and a very understanding and nurturing soul. I bet you are a wonderful teacher!


borntocry on 01/26/2007:
I often binge due to stress over my job or fights with my husband or whatever, so what I've started trying to do is identify the cause of the problem and then ask myself, "Will I feel better after another 2000 calories? Will the stress be gone? Will all my problems be solved?" I think we all know the answer to that one - I'll be left feeling even more stressed out and miserable than before. Simple as it seems, I think this method really does work for me from time to time. (Other times, it seems nothing will stop me!)


greengirl on 01/26/2007:
I think they were mean not to let you conduct one of the songs. No wonder you were a trifle emotional. I would have been p****d myself!!!! At least it is no reflection on your teaching ability!! Anyway keep your chin up and carry on regardless :)



Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jan 24, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 113.4

....I think i'd like cereal tomorrow morning. High fiber bran...

WorkingIt points: 8 calories 1500 on the dot!

the bbq shredded chicken i've been having is from Trader Joe's. all it is is shredded chicken in a slightly sweet BBQ sauce.

Edit: dinner changed a little. dinner: lox, pound of peppers, an apple (instead of a yogurt). 300 cal.

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my weight is all over the place! lol. I didn't think it would be this high today!

So, I arrive at school at 8:50am today because i don't teach early on Wednesdays. I teach starting at 9:30am, compared to the usual 8:25am every other day of the week. LOL, and someone comes in telling me I must be at school at 7:30am every day, even today! How much does that stink!? oh well. I guess it'll be a "catch-up" time or just time to get work done!

Foods:

Breakfast: I splurged. I don't know what my issue was. However, I didn't go into a major high cal binge. Probably bc I know that my weight is pretty high at the moment. ok, so breakfast is an emergen-c, 1/2 tofu, one egg, and an apple. 310 cal.

No snacks before lunch. I don't know how much I like this. It's doable, but I do feel a little tired.

Lunch: bbq chicken salad on lc bread, carrots, tomato: 230 cal.

Snack #1 on way home: Subway dbl meat chicken wrap with sweet peppers.

Snack #2 when I got home: one chocolate 55 cal.

Snack #3: tomato

total so far: 1200 I'll update after dinner!

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 10.4 lbs to go!

hollybelle on 01/24/2007:
You are doing fine! Thanks for the comments on my diary. About the Squash Mac & Cheese.....It is butternut squash that I peel, cube and boil until just tender, drain and mash. Then I put some skim milk, reduced fat ricotta cheese, some sharp cheddar and some monterey jack and fresh parmesan cheeses with a little ground dry mustand, one whole minced onion, a little salt and white pepper. On the cheeses it's about 8 oz of ricotta and about 1/2 cup each of everything but the sharp cheddar - about 1 Cup of the sharp cheddar is needed. Hope you enjoy it if you make it. I LOVE it.


bikinikill on 01/24/2007:
I tried to decrease the size of the photo (the same thing I'm trying to do with my body!) I can't figure out how to post my entry in color or add that little Goal Graph (like on your diary) How do you do that?


bikinikill on 01/24/2007:
Nevermind! just found out I will have to reveal my actual weight if I want to use the goal graph. Not ready to do that yet.


Justine6Robert3 on 01/24/2007:
Your doing good! You still ate alot of good healthy food today. Yes, I do well with milk but its easy for me because I love milk, always have. My problem is making sure I don't over do it and drink to much milk, that's why I switched to 1%.

I wish I could eat the large variety of vegetables you do! I have a hard time getting veggies into my diet, I just don't like many of them. I also need more fibre in my diet. I'm going to buy some brown rice to have with chicken etc.

Hope your dinner is good and you have a great evening!


Runner on 01/25/2007:
I've given up my everyday cereal addiction...but I still have it at least 2-3 days a week...especially the high-fiber stuff (with a little bit of Cinnamon LIFE mixed in)! I love it! :)

Great job on your calorie intake!


smiley2 on 01/25/2007:
Looks like you are doing well! That BBQ chicken sounds so delic!


Donkey on 01/25/2007:
Curious to know how you prepare your tofu. I see tofu at the supermarket, but I'm not sure what to do with that big block of stuff. Great job, by the way! You are so inspirational to me!


WorkingIt2 on 01/25/2007:
You eat the most interesting food combo's! I just love reading your journal!


Jmarie60 on 01/25/2007:
Everyone I know raves about Trade Joes's. I'm about an hour south west of Columbus. I think there's one there.

You asked me about anemia...When I feel like my iron is low, I get really tired and I hve headaches. Sometimes I feel dizzy.

Ask your doctor about it the next time you see him/her. My gyno is the one who's always concerned about my anemia.



Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jan 23, 2007
(calorie counting, all foods, LOTS of veggies)
Weight: 112.6

WorkingIt points: 7. food calories were a little higher than I wanted. 1595, instead of 1500.

anyone have advice for sore legs? i'm gonna have to buy some muscle pain soother. they are hurting. I walked on the treadmill for an hour and didn't even get in 3 miles! LOL. tired legs!

Dinner: Lox, 120. 4 small/medium peppers: 90. 7 nori sheets, 70.one cucumber, 25. total: 305.

I have been enjoying the larger than normal afternoon snack i've been having. I'm gonna think about it tonight what I want to get for tomorrow. something convenience, something sweet! lol.

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Hi all! I made a mistake yesterday. When I was at my heighest weight a few days ago, I had gained about 8.8 lbs since New Years! Not as bad as 13 pounds!

This morning I almost ate too much for breakfast, but then I stopped that behavior by having more tea. It was also getting late and I had to leave the house soon. I actually did have lunch in school today. However, without a morning snack, I felt my energy slipping a little. The teacher I'm replacing doesn't even really have lunch in school, he said, because his schedule ends so early in the afternoon. I guess he just goes home for lunch around 2pm. I wouldn't like that schedule very much at all!

Foods:

Breakfast: 1egg, emergen-c, apple, tofu. 310 cal

Lunch: lo cal bread, 1/2 cup chicken salad...i'll post the recipe later this evening, carrots, tomato. 300 cal.

Snack on the way home: tea, fruit salad 120

Snack at home: 9 ritz-like crackers, microwavable eggplant parm, plain strained yogurt. 500 cal.

Snack about 2 1/2 hours later: tomato...and then a cucumber...55 total

Total so far: 1285...which only leaves 215 for dinner. ugh. at least it'll be a late dinner close to bedtime...I might go over by a few calories I've been thinking about and eating food all afternoon!

Dinner:

good evening all!

Tomorrow starts my journey alone with the elementary band.

Progress as of today: 0.8 lbs lost so far, only 9.6 lbs to go!

slipstream on 01/23/2007:
Hi HOP - Wow, you want to weight 103? Are you missing a leg? I'm just under 5'3' and when I get to 117 people get worried about how thin I look. I've weighed 114 as an adult and that's as thin as I need to be to look great in a bikini. Are you thin-boned? The old graphs suggesting "normal" weight for people were pretty off, but I remember hearing a more contemporary rule - for women - 100 lbs for 5 feet, and 5 lbs for every inch after that. I have known other women as low in weight, same height...and they look fine. I guess there are just differences among us that are hard to define! Thatnks for the comment you left me, for calling me on it . Caused me to look more closely at my yo yo habits rgarding calories. Gotta go - American Idol is on! :o)


borntocry on 01/24/2007:
Your legs may just be getting used to the exercise. Where are they hurting? Calves, shins, thighs, front, back? Or all over? You might want to try stretching your muscles before, and especially after, you exercise. If you do it before exercise, be gentle, as your muscles will be cold and more prone to injury. But it is more important to do it afterwards. Just a few seconds of stretching can save you a lot of pain! Take it from someone who knows.


borntocry on 01/24/2007:
<br>Hi HoP,

Thanks for your comment. You're right, I guess my binge last night did provide some fibre! Trust you to find the positive aspects of a splurge, haha! I do feel better about it now, though!

The back of your thighs are not your quads - they're your hamstrings. That's a muscle that's very often tight, and it's the easiest one to stretch. All you have to do is bend over and try to touch your toes. Don't force it (especially if it's already hurting), do it slowly and try to hold your position for 8-12 seconds. Do this a few times before and after you exercise.



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