2098 5 day
Home: Half banana 50,
Work: full banana 120, chocolate covered almonds 100, herbal tea 270.
2nd breakfast: wrap 100, pb 200, sf jelly: 300.
Lunch lemon potatoes 300? Chicken 200 veg 100...600, blueberries 100
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Grand total today 2250
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Cannot wait to get back to gym, but not if it's gonna get me very sick again...then i just have to wait...i'm pretty much prob not exercising this week...not back to 100% yet.
Also, i am nervous to even be able to balance gym and work this winter bc i have the class too.
Gym needs to be dialed back a bit in terms of how much i do there and how long i stay there. I hope to actually cut out like 30-60 minutes so i'm only there one hour and not longer anymore. Planning to cut out any duplicate types of weights exercises where i use one machine to work a muscle group and later use another machine for the same muscles. Will try to cut back. Maybe i'll even retain all strength - we'll see...
either way, gotta dial down to stay healthy.
I still in the back of my mind think Court Officer is more a "basic" job that may be better for me than this estimating one, despite a huge salary cut for the first like 5 years. 5 years isn't that much...i need peace of mind. but for now, i gotta forget court officer job, because there's no current test for it and not an option right now of for next few.
1220 before dinner....
Went to work was much better feeling - other people were out sick last week and one remained out sick today - seems we all have something similar. I'll be skipping gym until I am very close to 100% without a cough.
1850 total
May not be able to always log in at work like I used to and getting more distracted during commutes and at home ....still here
2060 per day 4 days
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Had a really late breakfast of oatmeal that I didn't finish 50 with dried fruit and nuts 250? And a thigh Icelandic yogurt 150 - still with parents gonna go home soon after lunch Back to my apt.. 450 I guess it's good I didn't stuff the rest of the oatmeal down my throat ....
Had a piece of dark chocolate 50
500
Lunch around 500
Snacks before dinner: fruit 200 at most
Dinner: veg salad with small with olive oil 100, also chickpeas 150, wanton soup sorta big size and very large wantons all noodle and small amount fried noodles 700?
Total today is fine, 1900.
3day average: 2130 per day excellent
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Washing the bedding and stuff I used while sleeping at parents ...
Still had a little bit of night sweats last night
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Breakfast indulged oatmeal 150, dried fruit and nuts 200, yogurt 160. 510 extremely filling and was full before I finished but dad wanted it done ... I hope I can get back to my more self sufficient self soon ! And dark chocolate later small piece 50.
560 before lunch, excellent
Lunch was huge bowl of soup 100 with too many noodles 300? Chicken 300? And piece bread 50?
1310
Dinner gotnreallt hungry before it so had cinnamon raisin bread and an orange 150
1450
Dinner was very tasty veggies my mom made 250 and 1/4lb hamburger no bread 250 tops oh and pineapple 50
2000
2 day is 2250 per day
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Def no loss of appetite !!! Eating is fair game this time around !
Last night was 3rd night of night sweats
Still relaxing in bed all day laying real low. Don't feel energized to do more.
Still little headache and dizziness.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Do you have the holiday off tomorrow? That would be nice, to have an extra day to heal. Don't go to work until you are better!
Was getting extremely dizzy in shower so called parents and dad came to pick me up this morning and now I'll be at my parents house for the weekend - just wanting to sleep and lay in bed right now.
Had the night sweats soaking my clothes twice last night so maybe I was dehydrated from it all?
Drinking fluids yes.
Had a banana 120
Gatorade 50, challah bread 200
Lunch followed by snacks later 800
1170...lots of temptations at parent's house even if I can't taste half of what I am eating !
Honey 30, candies 100
1300....
Salad with oil and vinegar 150
1450....c
Healthy but big dinner today's calories as high as 2500
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
I hope that someone will take care of Hammy while you're gone. Probably just as well, as you don't want to get him sick as well.
Take care of yourself -- do what you have to do to get better. Everything else can wait.
Breakfast big orange and skyr yogurt 300, tea
Lunch: chicken soup and few chips 400
Snack blackberries glad they didn't go bad 100
2 clementines 100
Drumstick with skin 150, sushi only filled with sweet potato that my dad had bought at the huge supermarket he went to 200, pretzels 150
Granola bar and clementine 220
Dark chocolate 130
Middle of night orange big navel 150
1900 - fine - def feeling extremely lethargic and very tired all day long
Cereal and yogurt 350
2250 total.
Cough is still bad def good to be home resting - lots of lower body aches
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Thank you for all the very kind comments - will reply individually to all of you later on :)
Dad picked up like a thousand ready made food products along with some things I can cook and prepare myself - so I'm set to stay home for a few days
Just resting and sleeping lots right now - very low energy.
I know I'll be fine :) just I guess I was pushing myself too much - the gym i guess next time when I have a cough I'll stay out of the gym till I'm all better completely - but I am surstill this had to do with the change of commute and walking in the freezing cold air breathing it in first thing in the morning for at least 10 min everyday- looking forward to getting fully better ....and I guess taking it easy this winter unless I want to be getting bronchitis a second time ... ah well.
It's good I have nobody to look after here at home bc all I am doing is eating and sleeping ....
Gym routine is gonna have to be adjusted this winter bc for some reason it's become too much with my new commute.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
I had to stay at the hospital EMER room which takes a long time for doctors / nurses to see patients. So, it took like 6 hours. I was literally laying on a cot for like 4.5 hours and when i did have to leave i got dizzy for a brief second again...but i sat down and it passed...
i was diagnosed in the end with Bronchitis, which is like a virus, i am not taking any antibiotics but a mix of something with robitussen. I'm def staying home from work tomorrow as i have little energy...and i will lay low all weekend until i feel better...i have dr appts on Monday....for dermatologist for a thing for my sweating a lot on underarms, i have a dentist appt, and one more. hopefully i'll feel a bit better by Monday.
Def low energy over here and need to stay home and sleep / relax.
I got very run down which is why i eventually got bronchitis.
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Fainted at dr so there's a manatory trip to hospital taken by ambulance dad came by and mom is with Me which was so nice of her.....
Been at hospital taking all tests including urine, X-ray and blood work. Been here so far just under SIX Hours... ---------
Middle of night: banana to calm stomach - need to purchase bananas today 120 Am: kombucha while cleaning hamster cage bc I had put that off since Monday no worries it's fine and works to do it every 1.5 weeks instead of every week so I'll keep this schedule of cleaning. 70 THE KOMBUCHA MAY HAVE AFFECTED HOW HYDRATED I WAS, MAKING ME LESS HYDRATED..
10am light breakfast peanut butter 130 or so on top of a soft fiber one chocolate chip cookie (AGAIN A LOT OF FIBER MESSING WITH MY HYDRATION) 120 250 total 450,
Apple juice at dr later bites of Italian bread 200 650 Bread 200 850
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good just relaxing today - possible trip to supermarket and then drug store if I need an rX after dr Appt .... I def feel under the weather and dizzy just a hair with body pain and cough that got a little bit worse Home sick will go to dr Last night I went to bed with chills around 8:30 and then at 10:39 I work up nauseous and a bit dizzy with bad gas .threw up mostly bile and had a rough night overall. Didn't have the energy this morning to get up and get ready for work or walk the half mile to the bus so I called in sick - dr Appt soon at 10:30am in a half hour.
OK OK I just can't stop myself here. Long ago, when I did make it to the gym, a few days after I would get a sore throat. I would chalk that up to other people's funk at the gym. So I would wait a few days to go back. Again, same thing, until eventually, I guess my body got used to being around other people's funk.
Now, I forever use hand sanitizer and lysol. I'm a germaphobe. I do this even at work and at home especially after DH prepares chicken. Just gross.
Get well soon!
Thanks for kind words - I was pushing myself before the cold went away and this is what I get !
I may have to change gym routine bc my new commute and lots of walking etc is draining and gym seems way too much on top of that.
def need to get better before anything else enters the picture.
meant to save my days for March - gonna be a difficult Winter because of unexpected sickness...hopefully after riding public transport for awhile, my body will get used to a more challenging commute than sitting in my car (steps, standing, walking half mile each way lately in freezing cold), and all the germs...hopefully i will get thru this - which i should :)
gym routine will need to change. it's too long and physically demanding overall.
going to need first off to get better...because in under two weeks i start that class i was speaking about each week 5-7pm...just draining after working 7:30-4...but i'll make it work. just can't think about it any more now.
they did many tests including urine, blood work, xray...ekg...but those were ok. in the end, it was a diagnosis of bronchitis, wich is definitely not to be taken lightly and i'm glad it was diagnosed before getting even worse like pneumonia.
I hope you get to feeling better soon--don't push yourself on Monday if you're not quite up to it. Take care H_o_P girlie!
All I'm doing is sleeping and eating bc feeling extremely tired especially after I eat I go back to bed it seems today.
I'm craving oranges and luckily I had bought clemtines and my dad gave me a large amount of navel oranges also so I am set.
Drinking herbal teas.
Was supposed to go to dentist Monday but will cancel that and also had two more appointments Bc we have that day off in observance of Martin Luther King day - will try to go to the appointments that are early in day and maybe skip dentist since it may not be great to lay back with mouth open for 30 min straight to have my teeth worked on - may try to stay off work some of next week if I need to - too bad I'm using the days I meant to save to use in March for gym - gym is taking a horrible nosedive ah well.
Thank you for the tips I have a really old Gatorade like years maybe not the best to drink that ! It's been in my fridge for years!
Can't wait for aches and pains to pass and energy to come back - ty again for writing to me !
Not sure why I threw up the night before maybe my body was just totally beat in general!
THANK you for all the great advice :-)
Home: tea and sips of kombucha 10 Coffee and chocolate 170 200...
Wrap pb and cooked cranberries 350
Almonds 50 and candies 50
forgot to have breakfast
Lunch: baked chicken 150 with ketchup and soy sauce and lots of veggies some roasted 250, pretzels 150: 550.
i guess i can work on a low cal day today...nice
snacking: will be dates, high in potassium 100 cal, and a chocolate 60
1010...
1800 tops
1970 5 day excellent aside from the fact that I'm not feeling good
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I just don't have a desire to go back and teach, don't have a desire to do much more except try to do the work i'm given,i don't have many desires right now. i realize i may not be able to travel much more or do much of anything in life due to all of the poor choices i have made...so if i want to be a court officer, i should just keep on training with the exercise and train to the exact requirements of the physical test or i may not even get that position...so, starting this weekend, i'm starting to train exactly to the test to figure out the beep test and how to train and set up for it - so i can practice in my gym. vacations prob not again...i'm so freaked out on life you have no idea.
We'll suffice it to say it was like being in another country where the gym was located that I went to yesterday. Not really the best place for me to be....manager was gone so trying To Get my money back today bc I signed up stupidly for a year contract and should have just paid the $20 to workout for one day - yesterday -
Lately I am feeling a bit confused and scared of the present and what's to come in my future as my current job is a bit confusing now and the materiAl for my current assignment makes no Sense at all I'll have to ask someone bow to donit. I am just hating the unknown right now - I like the gym and even that seems a challenge To go to right now bc of schedule change - And soon to be taking a class For The next 10 weeks tonstart on 1/23. Just a lot of change. That class is 1x a week from 5-7 so Another day of getting home late. Life is just a bit confusing.
so i want to be a a court officer but my physical ability is low and it's hard to even work on that...seems like is not as easy as i thought it could be and that money doesn't grow on trees at all. Seems everything is just SO CONFUSING...typos are bc i type here while on the bus...
i am going to learn to live very modestly bc it seems that's the only thing my brain can work it's way around for now....my apt is expensive it seems in my mind to pay for just by myself...i am sorta scared out of my bones right now...i'm feeling really REALLY desperate to just know how to keep on....i guess i just need to figure out my work for now...here, at this job. freaking scaring the sh*t outta myself right now.
like i should almost live with my parents is how desperate i feel in my heart. things just don't look good. i just realize that being married could have been better at least paying rent-wise...i'm a mess in my thoughts right now. just need to slow down and think of today and not tomorrow. i guess that's all i can do at this very moment.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Try and have a good day. IP
all in all, i just feel a bit out of my element as of late based on day to day strange experiences.
Please don't judge your financial status according to your fellow commuters. While your observation/conclusion made me smile, I don't think you can make that deduction about others' money situations.
I would encourage you to try not to let your anxiety run amok and keep things in a healthy perspective. Yes, save money if you at all can. Yes, live modestly, as much as you can. But you can't think too far ahead or you'll miss the moments in front of you!
It's definitely not worth it to marry someone you don't love, or to work a brutal job.
I DO AGREE that if you want to be a court officer, you should train SPECIFICALLY for the test. Your goals and parameters are set; now work on meeting the challenge. I'm surprised to read that you feel that your physical ability is so low. Don't let the discouragement from your previous physical test dampen your ambition.
I bet that a lot of this ambivalence about yourself and your future is stemming from not feeling very comfortable at your current assignment...
Home: kombucha 60
Breakfast: coffee 20, dark chocolate 180, banana 120, almonds 50 approx
Mid Morning snack: wrap 100, pb 200, honey 30: 320
750 before lunch..
Lunch around 600... 1350....and clemtine 50 1400...
Before workout / during workout: rice krispie treats 160
total so far :1550....excellent....
Dinner after workout: tbd...
Huge Beef taco on street 5002050 total excellent
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Today I have plans after work to Not to go straight home - gonna join planet fitness for $10 a month ....it'll actually costly more bc I'll Be spending money on taking the train there after work but it's worth it as I really am Not getting used to coming home to get dressed and driving out to gym....so this is pretty much on my way home with a little extra cardio built in to get there - I need a change ! When my current $50 a month gym membership ends I think around summer, I don't plan to rejoin.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
3 day is great 2000 per day!
Good Morn!
6am Tea and half banana 50
8am: dark chocolates150, coffee with someone's creamer bad girl i am! 50
250....another chocolate 80
Breakfast: honey 50, pb 200, wrap 100: 350...
Snack:almonds and couple dates 50
800....
Healthy lunch brown rice and quinoa mix big serving 300?, tasty garlic shrimp (ricky cooked for me And gave to me at work) 200 and some veggies in sauce 100, later a clementine 50...
1450 and healthy ...tonight I'll have more chicken cutlets and leftovers - I need to cook
Trying to remember dinner: tator tots and chicken fingers 400, soup and cauliflower 100, jello and fruit 100...I think this is it.
2050 monday total
And also need to clean hamster cage tonight - nope Wednesday night !
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(1975 2-day weekend average = AWESOME!)
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I am hardly staying awake at work today, i'm not sure why....prob bc no work really...waiting sorta on next assignment...tired....realizing i love to work out and that i need that to be my goal this year. ... NOT traveling other than summer. that's it....well, and maybe a Miami trip if i can stay free with my friend.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
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It's true....you can only deal with one day at a time...and that is this day. Tomorrow never comes...it's always today. The way I have always made plans for the future was to write down what I want for the future...and then write down what I can do this day to help me get there....then I would write down what I need to do in future days to make that happen...in this area I would research what needs to be done to achieve it and go from there....plan the steps and also keep an eye open for opportunities that may pop up. If it is meant to be it will happen... In the meantime....while dealing with today...I would throw myself into knowing all there is to be known about my current job so that it will be easier to deal with...and happy bosses give good recommendations in the future. Being 100% involved in the current job makes the day go by so much faster. You can do it.
Yes thank you for the good advice - the stuff is just very confusing and takes me awhile to grasp
The topic of interest just confuses me a little bit which stresses me out a lot at work and after work