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Horn_of_plenty - Monday Aug 11, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

evening edit: GREAT exercise. 20 min on bike and then an hour walk! very, very good!

1770 calories. not too bad! :) and healthy, lots of fiber.


i will add to this entry but for now calories before dinner are 1450. a bit high but not too much. I will probably end around 1750 calories. we'll see.

exercise: none during day. Major hail and ice storm which was scary to drive through! will try to do a walk and bike ride this evening! :)

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 08/11/2008:
Ice and hail storm? What month is it over on the East Coast? Wowza, who would expect THAT in August?!? I'm glad you are ok; sounds like a good day to stay inside and do push-ups and crunches ;-)

I think you are on track for your calories. Even going as high as 1900 would be just fine, as long as your choices are healthy.

thinnside40 on 08/11/2008:
Ice?.....Thats nuts!.... We had severe thunderstorms this weekend here.....

grumpy on 08/11/2008:
that's not bad at all. under control. xo

loveray on 08/11/2008:
nice work, lady! i miss you.

WI3 on 08/11/2008:
Congratulations!! Good for you! YAY! =) We had some very cold weather blow through here yesterday as well..my son said he thought he saw some snow LOL. Have a wonderful evening!

grumpy on 08/11/2008:
good ending to your day! im proud. xo

lafemme_loca on 08/11/2008:
Haha want to do some exercise for me ??? :-) I was hoping that watching the olympics will burn some of my calories for me. but i don't think it is working. :) have a great day !

selina on 08/12/2008:
Hi HOP! It was very sweet your comment on my entry the other day, thanks! You always inspire me to keep going and eat the right things, and I'm very appreciative of that. I hope you are having a great day!

Photography: I have another one for you guys!

thinnside40 on 08/12/2008:
Sounds like you are doing great...Keep it up!

Jen40 on 08/12/2008:
Great exercise!!!

Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Aug 10, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

I'm a very funny girl.

2550 calories today. big cookie binge (around 1600) at grandma's. she was annoying me (I love her always) bc sometimes she will not stop talking and even listen to me for a second!!! I love her very much but you all know how it can be! especially because it was raining so we couldn't go for our walk which usually takes an hour and breaks up the day!

healthy eating: 900 approx. calories

4pm binge: cookies 1650 or so.


exercise: bike, yoga, weights, elliptical, walking at gym. some good exercise. it really feels good to make sure i get it in, everyday! I even enjoyed doing the weights at the gym and i will keep it up that way. I was using dumbbells and working my arms. no other weights. also did some pushups (thank you Donkey I will never stop!!!! :) and did some ab work. I have very LOOSE abs! so, hopefully one day i will say i have a six pack! that would be sooo cool. and i can say i am being proactive to get there. however long it takes! :)

to a good day tomorrow! :)

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

grumpy on 08/10/2008:
Damage control. All in all it wasnt bad today, 2550 is acceptable. And you have been having good days. Dont worry about it. xoxo

maria777 on 08/10/2008:
I have kins folks who talk mostly non-stop a lot...BUT...you DID visit your Grandma and I really, really COMMEND you on that...apparently she was excited and happy to see you and have you visit her. Good Granddaughter you are to visit and spend time with your Grandma. My Grandma used to make such delicious cookies, too, I remember...nothing like cookies homebaked by your own Grandma...no store-boughts can compare! Yayyyy! Big smile to you!

Jen40 on 08/11/2008:
Good damage control! Lol, I wish my granny was still living, I'd eat her cookies too!

balloonlady on 08/11/2008:
complete damage control... so... how were the cookies : )~

grumpy on 08/11/2008:
1750 is good! xoxo

Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Aug 09, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

Sunday Morning:

cereal/milk/plum: 225.

snack: fruit 60

snack: coconut juice 60

lunch: tofu, beans, veggies, dressing 290

snack: iced decaf, bar 250?

dinner: large salad, microwavable meal?

I am going to yoga today, yay. I will also do yoga tomorrow, Monday, since I am taking off from work to get a lot of important errands for my radiography program finished. This includes stopping by the hospital's health office and handing in health forms, getting parking permits, ordering the uniform (shirts), etc. No big deal but it all must be done during the workday so tomorrow it is! :) So I go back to work on Tuesday this week.

So, I ended up being blessed with TOM on the first day of Hershey actually. haha, not really such a blessing but it did happen at an ok time. Unfortunately, I did pack stuff but then I realized I had no place to put it when walking around the park and that I needed smaller items. UGH. so we all had to stop at a CVS and I was kinda tortured a bit but thankfully that ended sorta quickly. I really didn't want to have to make these guys I was with aware of all of that but life happens.

The two guys that came along (3 girls, 2 guys) talked and made so many references to sex I could practically not take it any longer by the end of the trip. At first, I would join in the conversation but then it got old, by the third day! Too much sex talk! I think they need girlfriends. and i'm not saying I want to go out with either of them!

so i've been doing some online dating. not the dates lately, but going on and chatting with some guys and i might have a date this friday evening. looking foward to that. he's very sporty/athletic and plays on a number of teams. I like that in a guy. :) So, we'll see what's to come! :)


Saturday Entry:

i am back from Hershey Park, PA. I had a great time with a good friend from college and 3 other people. One I didn't know beforehand but it was a good time. We went on many roller coasters including the new Farenheit which came out around Memorial Day.

I look foward to having the chance now to read all of your diaries. :)

thurs: 2200 cal approx.

fri: 1650 cal approx.

sat: 1450 cal approx.

all in all, caloriewise i did very nicely during the trip. even fit in some goodies, but not too much.

i binged a LOT before this trip as many of you know, so i have gained around 3 lbs anyway that i need to get off.

in terms of usual dieting for August, I am thinking that my body would possibly do better on a 1600-1690 calorie range instead of eating in the 1500s. It sounds like a lot but i think that possibly I may be able to lose weight faster as long as I keep exercise up. and, just to recap, if i hadn't binged so much last week, I would have been around 5 lbs lower at this point in the summer. but why fixate on the past!?

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

maria777 on 08/09/2008:
Your trip sounds like fun...that is, minus the roller coaster (just not into them but glad you liked them and enjoyed them!)...hehehe! Fantastic on the calories...guess what? This is 'weird' but I am finding that I lose weight EASIER EATING MORE calories!!! For real! You know, I really wanted to get down to 140 a few months ago...then after Hubby threw away my scale, I decided I'd just be fine with 150 where I've been a little while...but now that I've been eating MORE CALORIES, GUESS WHAT? Scale is going back down again! Go figure, huh? Who'd a-know'd it?????

Jen40 on 08/09/2008:
Sounds like a great trip!

Donkey on 08/10/2008:
I had a good friend who met her future husband on match.com. He wasn't the first guy she met, so she just had a good time going out and meeting people that she wouldn't otherwise have a chance to meet. And then she met her Mr. Wonderful and they lived happily ever after.

WI3 on 08/10/2008:
Glad to read that you had a great time! TOM is like Murphy's law, isn't it? LOL Guys and sex talk...*sigh*...they can get a little overboard on the subject. Cool about the date, and I bet when you start working at the hospital more often, you will meet some really nice guys there as well. Have a wonderful day!

grumpy on 08/10/2008:
I see you had a great weekend! Good. xoxo

beth201P on 08/10/2008:
Sounds like you had a wonderful time. Enjoy the day. :)

thinnside40 on 08/10/2008:
Have a great Sunday!

Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Aug 06, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

1720. obviously bad by no means. I wanted a bit lower but who cares anymore as long as I am eating in a good range each day and enough to still lose weight. that's really all i canre about.

2 mi walk during day. bike ride at night! :)

hope you all had a good day too.

I'm going on a mini vacation to hershey park and the poconos tomorrow through the weekend so I'll be sure to visit back here when i return!

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

WI3 on 08/06/2008:
Have fun =)

Jen40 on 08/06/2008:
Have a wonderful, safe trip!!!

selina on 08/06/2008:
have a great time, you deserve it!

selina on 08/07/2008:
You are welcome! Thank you for being one of my first audiences of my new passion of photography!

loveray on 08/07/2008:
hope youre days continue to get better. thanks for your support and cannot wait to hear about your trip!! xo

grumpy on 08/07/2008:
yes, that was a good day and your mini vacation should be great. enjoy!

balloonlady on 08/07/2008:
have a great trip.. you are doing so great...

jolt on 08/09/2008:
Have a great trip :)

Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Aug 05, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

so not a good day like planned. well, the day was good. binged at dinner ONLY. dinner calories and dessert calories = 4700!!! crazy a bit. like i said to grumpy, i'll have diabetes in no time at this rate. need to stop! once again, i binged on food i didn't buy - my parents did. stupid!

so, now i've eaten enough in the past 7 days to gain four lbs. I'm going to Hershey Park and i'll probably act all religious about healthy eating while there bc this and my other binges will be on the back of my mind which isn't too smart. But I sure don't want to gain any more lbs back.

around 5800 at most hopefully calories. was pretty balanced and then chose to have a TWO tasty ice cream flying saucer for dessert, half a chocolate bar, cookies, two huge pizza slices, cereal, nuts, granola bars tasty. otherwise, cals would have been 1600.

2 mi walk during work. Will walk at least one hour tonight.

little tired. need to go to bed a little earlier.

goodnight all, thanks for your wonderful comments.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

grumpy on 08/05/2008:
you meant 1800 right? have a good night!

grumpy on 08/05/2008:
I am sorry to hear. But I really think that you have to make a plan not to be alone without anything to do at night and then binge, just until you get back into the swing of things. Do you have any friend that you can tell this to? Maybe you can stay in their house a couple of nights, or plan fun activities together? Or maybe something you have to do with your hands, like a puzzle, or knitting? I don't know, just trying to brainstorm here... xo

maria777 on 08/06/2008:
It is soooooo easy to have the 'right' amount of calories and then overeat and throw in the towel, isn't it? I do it, too! I do SOOOOOO good during the day and then at night I get real hungry and if I give in, usually I just go ahead and eat what I want once I get started......

Good on your exercise!

loveray on 08/06/2008:
hi HOP. although i havent fully acted on any binges per se, i feel exactly like you ate! do you think you are having fall-out from not hearing from that guy? i know this is stupid, but i often think: why do we punish ourselves for the lack of others attention? make yourself as strong and healthy as possible. i am having a really rough time with sugar recently- it is very bizarre because i never eat it! maybe thats the problem- once i get started i never stop. please, lets do this together, ok? xoxo

Horn_of_plenty - Monday Aug 04, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

around 1500. primarily healthy. good amounts of veggies. the starbuck's vivanno is great. i have a gift card but i may be a regular with it in the mornings.

walking 2 mi during work, 40 min bike ride, some weights.


Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

maria777 on 08/04/2008:
YAyyy on the walking 2 mi and the bike ride and work out with weights!!!

grumpy on 08/04/2008:
YAY!!! Great day for you too! I am so proud of you and happy you broke that cycle! I did good, yes, but I didn't work out! Argh!!! :P

grumpy on 08/04/2008:
I did too in a way, i feel like this week I have been in control, even though I haven't lost any more yet, i lost what i was up and i feel like i am about to lose (or to see the loss on the scale) anytime now. Fingers crossed! J's bday and the LA trip are coming up and they're both great events to put on a preliminary goal!

weightlossyoyo on 08/04/2008:
You had an extrmely great day! Way to go!

thinnside40 on 08/04/2008:
You did better @ walking than I did today, but I have hardly sat down...Been burning calories one way or another I guess...Great Day H_O_P!

selina on 08/05/2008:
Great calories and walking! Must try Vivanno myself. Have a great day HOP!

mcwoo40 on 08/05/2008:
Hiya,a good day for you HOP,keep it up,Julie

Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Aug 03, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

dinner: a sugary but somewhat balanced Vivanno from Starbucks. I have a giftcard so i really wanted to try it. a salad with veggie burger would not have done it for me. i needed something with more carbs after having so many earlier today. and since i did walk 6.5 miles, i figured i should replenish with some carbs.

total calories today: 4150. ouch!

just to write it, extra calories consumed this week add up to 9,750 calories. this is after i subtracted 2,000 calories from my high calorie days, no less! that amount of calories = 2.8 lbs. almost 3 lbs. so, i would say after bloating, i probably weigh around 126 lbs. i'll never reach the teens let alone even 120 at this rate. i'm actually not upset since i did this to myself. i think part of being an adult is taking responsibility for one's actions. i am ready to try to change, again.


couldn't follow through...binged. food is my comfort and lately i haven't been able to escape it. i guess i lost a couple of lbs and decided it was ok to go and inhale! haha.

so far: 1770 cal binge...total calories for today plus lots of dried fruit: total now: 3840.


although memories that I did in fact eat approx. 6300 calories remain, today I'm starting fresh. Like, what can I do anyway!? it's done, over.

the plans today include a bike ride to get the sunday newspapers and another bike ride to yoga and a wax appt. i wish i could pretend i don't live on LI where we drive everywhere and that I live in a rural community where things are much farther but people WALK far to get even to the bus stop. I enjoy using errands as a way to get exercise in. so i will be busy enough i suppose. I'm also going to try to get a 5-6 mile walk in.

Need to do laundry tonight. I have around 2 loads, hopefully not more. haha, all you mothers are probably jealous i only have two loads.

8:30am breakfast: cereal, 3 cups almond milk: 245.

12 snack: coconut water 70

1:00 lunch: beans, tofu, tomato, peach or some other fruit. 300, 2 pieces bread 220, ben and jerry's 240, 2 ice cream sandwiches: 450 lunch total: 1110

6:30-7: dinner: salad, 2 morningstar farms (probably this brand) veggie burgers on top, piece of fruit. 350.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

WI3 on 08/03/2008:
Hooray for another day!!! Those morningstar farms products are very tasty! Have a wonderful day =) Thanks for your entry on my diary!

thinnside40 on 08/03/2008:
Hey~ Those Tootsie's in a sock drawer is too funny...Was she trying to keep her tootsie's warm? Those things are dangerous!.. I love them, but only the blue raspberry/raspberry & watermelon..Once those are gone, the rest could sit til they desinigrated......


Jen40 on 08/03/2008:
It's so cool to see you've begun anew today. You go girl!

Donkey on 08/03/2008:
Seriously, consider eating every 2-3 hours. That has been most helpful to me in avoiding binges.

grumpy on 08/03/2008:
This is though. I avoid having too much stuff in my house, just in case I am having a weak day and wanna over eat. So who buys all this food you binge on? The ice cream, the dried fruits, etc? If it's you, can't you avoid having it around? It doesn't solve the problem, but at least i think it may diminish it in the meantime. Hope monday is a new day for you and you can be the boss! xo

grumpy on 08/03/2008:
I hear you, if i had people buying stuff all the time around me I am not sure i could control myself when no one was looking! ew! but at least you seem to have a great attitude about it, beat yourself up all the time would just add to the problem!

As for me, I am a little unsure of the calories when I eat out. My brunch yesterday for example. I try to be good at counting, but who knows how much oil or whatever they really put on the foods. I am also trying to be thoughtful about my cholesterol, and eating eggs yesterday wasn't the best idea, or the gyro meat today, but it was one thing, which is not too bad. I really wanna get out of this limbo and start losing weight again! xo

maria777 on 08/04/2008:
Hey, you are not alone...I have regained (again) also!

Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Aug 02, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

trust me, you don't even wanna know.

MAJOR binge. didn't stick to menu. 1200 cal is not enough and my sugar levels are all over the place!

total calories: 6300 today! i told you it wasn't good.

not a good day.

bike ride/hot yoga/walk with grandma. feeling gross but not gross enough to stop eating as you can see.

tired. looking to do better in the near future.

whenever i attempt to "fix" a binge in the days after, i just end up binging again. so, tomorrow is fresh and it really doesn't matter than i binged 3 out of the past 4 days!? blah. back to 125, at least.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

Donkey on 08/02/2008:
Now you have the right idea. You can't "fix" a binge. Just get back to a realistic, healthy program. It will even itself out in the end, as long as you take CARE of yourself. Don't abuse yourself with food! I think you get enough of it from your mom and from the stress in life.

WI3 on 08/02/2008:
I agree with you and Donkey...you can't fix a binge, just plow on the next day! Take care and have a wonderful evening!

thinnside40 on 08/02/2008:
I felt so icky after eating supper (ate too much good stuff), but went for a walk of 5 miles with the family...Felt a bit better, but still not feeling great....Maybe some sleep is in order.... Better tomorrow H_O_P!

Horn_of_plenty - Friday Aug 01, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

i've been stuck maintaining 123-125 for weeks now.

7am Saturday entry: got a good amount of sleep because i went to bed early.

breakfast: kiwi, cereal with almond milk, and then 2 more glasses of almond milk. no real protein, but some healthy fat. calories: 330

menu plan for remainder of the day:

snack: cup light milk and cup watermelon (ran out of yogurt) 100 (yup!)

lunch: chopped tomato,tofu,chick peas: 240

snack: decaf coffee and skim with NO sugars or artificial sugars,plum 80.

dinner: salad (lettuce/cucumber) with beans, dressing. 200.

out for coffee: the new starbucks Vivanno!!! :) i'll get the banana chocolate one of course. around 300 cal.

total: really 1250?! wow. so if i plan my meals beforehand, like i used to a long time ago, this is what happens. maybe i should do this more often. NO MORE unhealthy bars at work in August. I've been relying TOO MUCH on them. back to healthy foods for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. with healthy snacks in between.


- really don't want to go to yoga right now. I'd rather get cardio in and go to yoga tomorrow. I'm going to try that and will concentrate so that binge symtoms don't take over.

...now it's been several minutes and i do think i will be going to yoga! i'll see depending on the weather. plus, my ankle is a little sore so i don't know how much cardio will be too much on it.


Friday entry:

eating was interesting today. binged in evening but i have to say i don't care about it.

calories up to dinner: 1320.

dinner cal: 1620...and then some peanut butter remnants from jar. 200. and another yogurt 170 and two granola bars: 280.

total today: 3600

exercise: 2 mi during work. kinda tired and not in the mood to exercise any more for today.

plan for upcoming days, weeks, years: put bad days aside and remember that food is food! get more intrigued by exercise and less by the calming effect of food.

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

grumpy on 08/01/2008:
That's a good plan. Sorry to hear about your mom yesterday. Hope tomorrow is a good day. xo.

WI3 on 08/01/2008:
I agree food is food! Have a great evening!

thinnside40 on 08/01/2008:
LOOK OUT ~ It's coming, I can feel it and my attitude stinks!

Have a better weekend!

selina on 08/02/2008:
hi HOP! I hope you can stick to the menu for today, it looks really good! And if you do stick to it for a few days, you'll get moving on from the maintaining stage... I'm sure.

I hope you'll have a SOUPer day, too. (smiles!!!) I like them cold, as well. And you can make them really low in calories! Hugs to you!

selina on 08/02/2008:
Hey, I was thinking about you and your mom's relationship - it's just normal and natural for two people of different generations to have conflicts like you do. To expect a perfect and harmonious relantionship at all times with one's mother (or daughter, for that matter) is unreasonable. Having conflicts is part of growing up (for children and parents, too.) In fact, in my opinion, it would very strange, if not downright weird, if you didn't have any conflicts whatsoever with your mom. It's good that you vent your frustations here because it is good for you and your health. And saves money with the analysts, too hehehe. But, don't forget to give your mom a hug once in a while - count until ten when you hug her and don't let go before that. This will not solve your problems but it will give you 10 seconds of closeness (at least, literaly) Although we think that our moms are so awlful and all, there is always at least a smidgeon of goodness in there, trust me on this. I hope you have a great day!

Jen40 on 08/02/2008:
I agree, Food is Food, but books are so much more thrilling. *I corrected a previous spelling error, I'm such a perfectionist, lol*

thinnside40 on 08/02/2008:
Here's to a good Saturday!

Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jul 31, 2008
(count calories/exercise/relaxing thoughts!)
Weight: 122.5

I can officially say i have very little respect for my mom. sorry i have to write this but i have tried to speak with her and she is as distant as usual. whatever. she is the loser because i see how she has broken all ties to her own family - mom,dad,brother. so whatever. let her break ties with me too. who gives a crap. i don't get any good advice or any advice from her anyway. all she does it put me down and say negative things. sorry i have to write this but she is so f---ing stupid.

late edit: so basically had a cruddy conversation with him on the phone. it was short, maybe 5 min max. we talked and he said he already had plans fri night bc that is what i suggested. so i said, if you are interested, feel free to give me a call. so it pretty much ended like that. all in all, he was busy but that's life. it doesn't mean he's not interested and it was only freakin 2 dates anyway so maybe i shouldn't even give it any more thoughts. which i'm not!

anyways, i'm going away next week from thurs-sat with friends to go hiking and do some other fun things. i'm looking foward to it and thank god i said yes to go with them because i KNOW it'll be a great time!


exercise: 5 mi throughout day.

slightly bingy at times.

dinner: larger than expected but not unhealthy. 500 cal.

total calories: 1600 (higher than a goal of 1300 but ok after a very high calorie day like yesterday.)

so i emailed that guy last night saying i would call him tonight. i wonder exactly what he thinks about that!

going to call him in about one hour. need to relax a bit first.

slept better last night,too.

goodnight all!

Progress as of today: 2.5 lbs lost so far, only 7.5 lbs to go!

Beth201P on 07/31/2008:
Glad to hear that you got some better sleep. Have a great Friday.

Donkey on 07/31/2008:
If you read this before you call (trying to kill time)... Take a few deep breaths. Maybe practice what you're going to say. Treat it very casually and coolly. You are Cool and thus you must project that image of Cool. (Image is everything.) Then jump right in.

Good luck!!!!!!!!! I hate making phone calls of ANY sort, so I can only imagine. But a girl's gotta take a first step sooner or later.

grumpy on 07/31/2008:
Yea, it's good that you did your part, called, showed interest, left the ball on his court. Now go and do your stuff and if he calls in the meantime, great. If not, you will have a lot of fun next week! xoxo

WI3 on 07/31/2008:
Sorry to hear things are rough with your mom, that has to hurt :( But, good for you for standing up for yourself. Thank goodness you are geting some sleep!

thinnside40 on 07/31/2008:
I am sorry to hear of your troubles......Look forward to your time away and enjoy every minute with those who do care.....

selina on 07/31/2008:
Hi HOP! It's tough to go through what you've been going through with your dates - i remember this is what i hated the most when i was on the dating scene at your age - the feeling of rejection when things did not work out. however, as we all kow by now, this is unavoidable and should not be taken too personally - well, but then how can we not take personally when it couldn't be more personal than this. what i'm saying is that even though it hurts at times, dating is exactly for the purpose of learning about each other and the sooner we find out he/she is not the best partner for us, the better. And I see you are so mature about it for seeing it that way and also that it doesn't mean he is not interested, after all. it could be just about anything, so you don't even try to read too much into this because you don't know what he is going through or thinking.

Enjoy your time with friedns and don't forget to keep checking out those cute/available guys out there - there are so many!

PS. Sorry about your mom...

loveray on 08/01/2008:
whats up with mom? why do you feel so unloved? i know the feeling myself: i feel as though my mother has abandoned me and shunned me my whole life. although this may not be totally reality, i feel that she has never grown up enough to be a woman to show me the way, rather than a child who never grew up- trying to compete with me. i have resolved myself to detaching with love, and finding other women who come into my life to be a mentor, guide and friend. i love you! xoxo

Donkey on 08/01/2008:
I've been waiting for a new entry, but I'll just reply here, because otherwise I'll probably forget. LOL, don't ever get old...

I know where you're coming from with your mom. BTDT, same thing here. The very best thing that happened for my relationship with my mom is that I moved out and we put some physical and mental distance between us. I could become my own person without being influenced by her opinions, thoughts, choices, etc. It's part of becoming a full-fledged adult, I think, to come into your own person, and not what is expected of you or what you expect from your parental model.

Think about it... Once you are on your own, things will be much improved for you.

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