edit: 1200 really healthy, excellent calories!
exercise: NONE! yeah, i'm just going to hang out. prepare for my week. this week isn't going to be a good exercise week due to the demanding schedule! I will try to fit it in the best i can!
Hi Everyone,
After today's 1200 calories...and I must do exercise too..i'll update that later! well, after 1200 calories today, my 24 day average will be 1949. It's still going to take awhile to keep that average lower...and my weight lower. I weighed myself after a large breakfast and it said around 115. That means that since my lowest weight of about 106-107, i've gained about 8 lbs...since december. that's easily fixed, you would think! well, not that easy.
i was unmotivated to exercise today and I have lost my university ID to use the gym! I think I borrowed a book at the library and my ID was not returned to me! i think it might have been thrown out! that means i have to purchase another!!!! i've had to do this like at least twice as a grad student already! that means another $10 down the drain!
i've been chilling out most of the day, completely unmotivated to do much. I have so much to do in the upcoming week, its not even funny. I was supposed to have a job interview in ritsy Scarsdale, a rich upper class neighborhood in New York. but, i've decided not to go. the drive would be over an hour on Monday, my only day to do work for my grad class. I researched that district. Districts like that one generally don't hire candidates who haven't worked for awhile in another district. I have not been in any district longer than a year and my chances of being hired are so slim! so, i decided it is not worth the long drive on my only day where i can get some work done. plus, tuesday night i have class..followed by LONG rehearsals till 10:15 on wed, thurs and fri. then, i have a concert saturday night. oh, and another interview wednesday right after school.
plus, i can't take a day off work because i am the "band substitute teacher." that would be irresponsible...even though i'm going to feel like a zombie by wednesday. don't get me wrong, i don't want to feel like that...but how can i not!? my schedule demands too much and i don't have a choice.
i think i might see a psychiatrist and get a prescription for something that might make me relax...anyone have any experience with this? I'm taking the most important class, and last class, of my degree this summer. I must be able to sit down and study...and not for short periods of time. I want to take something that would help me focus...and do well...better than if i didn't have it. otherwise, i don't know if i can get though the course. it involves conducting and leading an ensemble consisting of my peers and other teachers...that are required to judge how i do and giv me feedback each night for a week straight. of course, i'm supposed to do work for it beforehand.
suggestions?
thanks everyone.
edit for sunday morning: I'm trying to remember everyone's advice...and my own: today is a new day!
exercise for saturday = 70 min. yoga and a short walk. possibly more exercise later. but, i'll just say 70 min.
calories were 745 until dinner. then, i had a very filling dinner and ended at 1200...BEFORE MY BINGE on almost a full box of chocolates! I brought my total to 2040 for the day.
not a 1200 day. but, 2040 is better than 3040. hmmm.
have a goodnight, everyone.
thanks for the comments!
And wonderful job on the exercise! I haven't been to Yoga since the course ended that I was signed up for. I wish they had an evening course because I don't really enjoy getting out of a nice warm bed to go workout!! But I do miss the yoga!!
Hope that Sunday is a great day for you!!
Saturday: today i have a few things planned...teaching a lesson and then rehearsing with a friend. i promised myself to do yoga later this evening. I will do it no matter what! calories should be able to be kept to around 1200. I will be busy and i was able to sleep in till around 8am, which is later for me! haha. i still plan on going to bed around 10 or so. this day is looking good so far!
Friday: 1205 cal.
yoga, 60 min exercise
today ended up turning out alright. teaching could have been a little better...i wasn't happy about how the day went. nothing went terribly, but i hadn't taught lessons to the friday groups in over a month because of vacation and trips so the kids had forgotten A LOT! I wish i had planned a bit more for that!
then, i did do yoga, which made me feel extra good!
i went to meet a friend for starbucks and we chatted it up... we discussed our difficulties in finding jobs that we're satisfied with. we're both 24 yrs old and a little depressed about our work/living situations.
next, i suggested we go to the supermarket to pick up a few things! LOL! we both love going there! I actually have a few friends that love to go to the supermarket. weird, huh? but, only when its less crowded...that's the best time. so, we browsed down all the isles! definitely not the typical Friday night hangout!
it's been a bad week.
i had work, then an interview, then rehearsal till 10:15 at night. I'm as frustrated as can be.
WAYYY too many ups and downs.
yesterday's calories: 1000.
yesterday's exercise: half hour.
today's calories: a MAJOR binge ocurred this afternoon. total calories today are 2500. the binge was totally because of the job interview. oh just so you know, i had about 650 calories up until this afternoon. so, the binge was like 1900 or so!...in one sitting!
today's exercise: nothing.
goodnight.
Hoping that Friday is a better day for you...I really hope you find some time to do something you enjoy this weekend, you deserve it.
Take care...
Wednesday edit: i'm feeling horrible...i should remember this and remember not to binge next time!
no exercise.
ok, my 19 day calorie average is currently 2044. not so hot. i just had a large binge, for dinner no less! plus, i've opted not to exercise. this is a perfect time to get work done...i am satiated to the point of no return...like i can just sit and do my work and forget about most things. If you had a sugar load like i just had, you'd understand! it involved lots of leftover candy, cookies, powerbars, chocolate, lays chips, and other carb/sugar rich things in my house. (that i don't buy, but eat; and get in trouble for!)
well, the bloated feeling is back!
MAJOR BINGE!
today should have been an easy low cal day! even 1500 is a high number compared to what i was capable of!
total cal: 3640. no exercise.
dinner calories were 2650, by the way.
blah blah.
3640 for the day! big mistake, huh!?
And wantabfit has a very good point, wednesday is a new day! All you have to do is make it better (how much better is up to you) than today. And you will be moving in the right direction again! Easy as pie! wait, no... easy as broccoli! yeah, broccoli, that's better. :-)
Hang in there you can do it!
Huggles
Pat
Take care and I hope that Thursday is a wonderful day for you!
ah, one more thing...i felt really good today in my clothes as it was a Monday, and usually I binge on the weekend. However, this weekend was better, and I felt more "myself." not the stuffed person I usually feel like...and it felt really good to feel like myself and not some pillow person!
calories: 1200.
exercise: 20 min.
goodnight all!
busy week ahead!
Take care!!!!!!!
exercise: 60 minutes of yoga. no walking, didn't feel like it.
haha. somehow, calories are exactly what my goal was: 1790. complete with seriously terrible intakes of a massive amount of splenda, equal, and articifial sugars. blah. i'm not concerned about that at the moment! I even had a whole package of the sugar free jello...you know, the 6 little cups, each one being 10 calories. gosh!
so, today i ended up waking up quite early...around 7:30am. i decided to go to the 8:15am yoga class and have a carb/protein drink they sell during the class instead of breakfast. that went well. i definitely had a lot to eat when i got home. Most was fairly healthy. total calories consumed until noon are 1390. I'm making a goal of 1790 total for the day.
another update later!
calories = 1655. i was shooting for 1700 or so. that means i did well! with a large breakfast of 700 calories, i'm happy about my intake today. Tomorrow is yoga and i really need to get some work done, too!
today has been a nice day! i went for a walk on the boardwalk for about an hour and 20 min! so, exercise = 80 min.
edit: saturday morning. i promise this day will NOT be a total loss. breakfast was 700 calories, all healthy foods. just big. however, i plan on a 1700 day. i can do it! easy!
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today's gonna be good calorie-wise!...another update later!
exercise: 25 min.
calories: 1200! yay. I was assuming I would have around 1700 today. However, most of the day was very low in terms of stress level; and that helped keep calories low. I only worked a half day...and that gave me time to get very important things done! I went to the music store to pick up pieces for my students, registered for my LAST grad class for my degree, practiced some horn, chilled out!, took a short 10 min nap, went food shopping since i didn't want to exercise before rehearsal, and had ample time to eat! all went well!
this weekend should honestly be just as smooth. I just need to learn to breathe, take it easy! Life wasn't meant to give people ulcers!
i meant for a 1200-1300 day and went slightly over. oh well, can't change it! its far better than my 3000 calorie days two weeks ago, though!
exercise: nada.
calories: 1490.
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If I may just throw in my 2 cents.... I think rather than "something to help you relax" (anti-anxiety), you may want to explore an anti-depressant. They are supposed to help you focus more and also help with bingeing. I only mention this because I have taken things for anxiety, and they usually knock me right out, even at the lowest possible dosage and the pill cut in half. Well, it's something to consider at any rate...
GG on 04/22/2007:
Ugh!!!! That stinks about your University ID, I have basically GLUED mine to my butt so I do not loose it! It is my lifeline to the gym, to get food & bottled water: if I lose it I will have to pay $20 for a new one, but it just so time consuming and a hassle to wait in line!! What University do you work at? I used to live in Greenwich, CT which is relatively close to Scarsdale, so I know what your talking about, what was your job interview for? I'm a little confused on how you count your calories, 1949 avg. for 24 days? Do you average your days together or something and how does that help in the long run? I am not sure if even counting calories helps that much(i do it though) because if anything it makes me feel more guilty if I go over a certain amount...but oh well, I am not a slave to it. I use Calorie-Count.com and log in my calories & work outs every day along with my weight. I find the website fun just because I can explore all the foods there are in this world!!! its crazy: if you have never been to this website try it out. Good luck with your next week!!!
smiley2 on 04/22/2007:
WOW 115 is still very low, my dream weight hehe! You aint doing that bad are ya?
Ive been on antidepressants through my last year in University. It helped me a lot to focus, relax and reduce my anxiety. Some medications do cause drowsiness though. I think you should check with your psychologist which medication will suit you best.
Donkey on 04/22/2007:
I forgot to add: I do not think that you weigh 115, if you weighed in after a big meal. I am guessing around 110 and you know, even that's not certain. But at 110, that's only a 2lb gain.
tourguidebarbie on 04/23/2007:
Hey!, Yeah, i've been having a blast with Armando. He is just so fun to be around and i get butterflies... It's like he's so cute why is he talking to ME?? Lol... I'm just a lucky girl i guess. A happy lucky girl :)