Points for Today: 6. 2 each for water, exercise and fruits/veggies. But zilch on calories. I'm not sure what my deal is. I had a total of 4315 calories in ONE SITTING! yeah. Total of 4600 for the day. Now i'm just farther back from being on track.
I'll tell you about it. I had a fantastic breakfast: 285 calories: one emergen-c water packet thing, 1 egg, 1/4 avacado, 1 tiny yellow pepper, brussel sprouts, and a little salad.
I went to yoga, had a great time. I was hungry, but did errands after. Went to the bank and bought a comb and other health supplies at a nearby store. Went into a nutrition store (I am easily tempted) and bought some cool tea I never tried and sesame tahini (like peanut butter but made from sesame seeds and high in fiber - 4 grams).
Came home, had a large tomato and listened to my phone messages and looked at emails because I needed to see if my chairperson would write a letter of recommendation and if she needed my reply or any more info. She did, so it's good I looked.
I had the rest of my lunch: 1 steamed eggplant, a lot of steamed broccoli, 1/2 an avacado (usually 1/4 but I went back for more---shouldn't have), 1 egg, 1 apple. Then, I reached for a small 1/4 cup of mixed fruit/white chocolate and nuts. But, I shouldn't have because it turned into 1 1/4 cups of mixed dried fruit/nuts/white chocolate (adds up to a hearty 750 calories just for that). After that, I had 2 cookies with filling, 5 butter cookies, 500 calories in chocolate truffles, small bag of peanuts (from the plane lol), 1/2 cup of granola, 3 servings of Tam Tam crackers (like ritz crackers), 4 braided wheat thin pretzels, 1/2 cup pineapple flavored cottage cheese, 1 cinnamon raison oatmeal powerbar, 6 jell rings (chocolate covered jells.) I'm not sure if I forgot something.
I was satisfied with lunch and planning on going to yoga this evening....until the binge began... Now I can't, unless i want to puke there.
By my lovely calculations, I need 19 days of 1500 calories to bring my average calories to a hair below 1800 per day. This includes calculations with my 9 prior days to today as well.
Obviously its not easy to do it for 19 days, but I kinda have to...unless I want to suffer the effects of extra calories in and not out. (weight gain....like a few pounds...)
My binge was on fats and carbs. What does that mean? I think it means comfort and nothing else. I was eating carbs and fat already. Maybe not refined carbs, but I was eating them and I refuse for that to be the reason for my binge. I know the reason, and it was anxiety. Sure, there are people in the world with bigger problems than my own, but right now I'm having a pretty tough time dealing. If I feel as full as I am right now tomorrow, I'll probably keep it a 1200 calorie day, not 1500. I will do the same on Wednesday. Hopefully, that will not mean I will binge on Thursday!
gosh, I've binged 3 days in one week. I was doing so well from the day after Thanksgiving till New Years! I can't believe myself! arg!!!
It can only get better....NOT WORSE!
Moody talked about being home and being emotional. Well, that's my whole issue.
I was reading an interesting article. It talks about how binge-eating is connected to metabolic disorders and hormonal imbalances. I left the article out for my mom, i'll report back what she says. It talks about binge eating and craving sugar and fats as a link to too much testosterone and not enough oestrogen. I am almost positive that I DO have this condition.
Hello everyone. 8 WorkingIt points!
I had another good day today! 1200 calories.
I woke up and planned to do yoga in the morning, but kept putting it off till 3pm. I practiced the horn and cleaned up a bit until then. I also took almost an hour walk, which did my body some good! I haven't been walking often lately!
Menu for today: Breakfast: defintely a little too large considering I only had 755 calories left for the remainder of the day: 1 apple, 1 packet of emergen-c sweetner (no artificial sugars), 1/2 a package of tofu, 1 egg, and a whole package of nori (what you use to wrap around sushi rice).
Lunch/Snack: 2 seaweed salads and 1 egg
Snack: grapefruit
Snack: 2 Activa packets for yoga (another low cal sweetner, no artificial sugars)
Snack: a small package of salted peanuts after yoga
Dinner: 4 small zucchini, seaweed salad (the third one that I made earlier, but didn't want then!), 1/4 avacado, and one egg.
Met a friend at dunkin donuts: tea with some sugar
Before Bed: 4 small yellow peppers.
Total: 1200.
Seaweed salad is certainly VERY slimy/glossy in texture because it is wet. There are all different types of seaweed in the salad, but the majority is dark green, flat shiny strips. Other seaweed is actually clear and resembles plastic!!! A little bit of it is purple and looks like part of a bush/tree! I like it, but it's definitely an acquired taste...and I had so much that I think I'm getting sick of it for awhile!
mylifechanges, I buy the chilean sea bass steamed. I'm not allowed to cook fish in the house because it smells too much! It tastes so good, practically like butter! So, I go to the fish store and buy enough of whatever I like to last me the week!
goodnight everyone! I wish you all continued success!
oh, workingit, I know you always mean what you say to help and support us! I love how honest and helpful you are, so don't change!
WorkingIt points: 8 yay!
I can't believe how many people left comments on my last journal entry! Thank you so much to all of you!
Today was a much better day. I pulled an approximate 1200 calories on the dot! For the next 3 days, I am keeping a 1200 calorie a day diet. It is doable, but very challenging. As long as I keep breakfast small, I generally am ok. The reason I'm dropping down to 1200 a day is because of my Wednesday binge of 5110 calories and then Friday's 3990 calories. I obviously need to balance those days out a little bit! I know I won't be able to keep 1200 for so many days in a row, that's why I'm only doing 3. Then, I'll stick to 1500.
Ok, so I woke up and took a yoga class at 8:15am. Then, I went to pick up more of the seaweed salad that I just tried and really like. It comes in a little package, I'll dried up. You put all the ingredients in a large bowl, fill with 3 cups of water and then the seaweed "explodes." The seaweed forms into about 2 full cups worth, when in the package you could have probably fit the dried seaweed into something smaller than a cup! I like it without seasoning, but some people would probably beg to differ. I only know of it being sold in one store by me.
Food today: Breakfast:a packet of low cal sweetner in my water and 2 pieces of tofu. Snack: seaweed salad, large tomato, 2 pieces of tofu Lunch: 2 seaweed salads, a package of portabella mushrooms, 1 egg, one grapefruit, one apple. (a bit much, but good). 1 Hour after lunch: one large yellow pepper Dinner: seaweed salad, Chilean sea bass, broccoli spears, and a microwavable package of lightly seasoned broccoli and carrots in a really light sauce.
see, I tend to try a new food, and, if I like it, I will eat it like a maniac for a few days. LOL. It's extremely low in calories, each seaweed salad is worth 40 calories and is about 2 cups worth!
After lunch, I went to teach a French horn lesson. Then, I came home and cleaned up my paperwork a bit. Later on, I went to ANOTHER yoga class at 5pm!!! I have an unlimited pass for this month, so I'm taking advantage. Like many of you know, I have a few days off from work currently. However, I'm still involved with the school district and I'll be chaperoning a trip next week and such.
I just noticed one new job posting online. Hopefully there will be a few more soon so I can start applying. I've called someone I worked with last year to write a letter of reccommendation. I'm going to ask 3 of my supervisors this year to also write me one! The job I saw online wants 3 letters of reccommendation. That's almost unheard of! Usually, they just want the references!
Everyone have a great evening!
Glad that you got to take not one but TWO yoga classes!!! Good for you for making sure that you are doing things YOU enjoy!!!
About the seaweed...can you describe what it tastes like?? For some reason I am thinking salty because of the ocean! But that really doesn't make any sense! And is it slimy??
#### WorkingIt Points: amazingly, 6. Doing everything right except the food intake! LOL.
MOODY: i'm not always hungry on the binges...I just get a nervous-tense kind of shaky feeling like I need food. It's all in my head. The binge today was not because of hunger. However, if I do go too long without food, I will also do that kind of binge, when I'm ravenous.
****Last edit: total daily calories today: 3990. :(
edit: past 3 day caloric avg. is 3300. whoa!!!! It'll take about 20 days of around 1500 a day to balance it...I'm nervous.
okay, workingit, i'm in a bit of trouble right now. I've binged again today. I was eating really healthy all morning; and the minute after I drove my sister to the train and came back to an empty house I started to eat.
Really healthy at first, a packet of water flavoring stuff, 1 yellow pepper, 2 servings of tofu, an apple, a large tomato, another yellow pepper, a package of nori, a container of brussels, a piece of chilean sea bass fish...
moving on to two apples, then an orange, then: 8 tablespoons peanut butter, 1 cup of nuts/white chocolate/dried cranberry mix, 4 truffles, 3 more truffles, 570 calories worth in mini chocolate chip cookies, and 6 butter cookies.
I don't buy any of the food i binged on, they were gifts and belong to everyone in my house. I am having lots of trouble!
I know, workingit, you spoke about people who eat unhealthfully. I'm having a really hard time right now. Does anyone have any advice?
speak to you all soon. As far as yoga is concerned, I'm going tomorrow morning, because if I go in a few hours, I still will not be able to bend correctly in all the poses. argh!
I searched for info on eating too much seaweed. It just says that its high in minerals, but says nothing bad. Except for extra salt, but what I was eating lists that it doesn't contain any salt. hmm. something to think about!
it's gonna take about 14 days for me to make up for this chaos! These past three days average at 3137 calories per day!
http://cgi.www.recovery.org.uk/food/food.html
On the positive side, you KNOW what you should eat, and do, but not always. I'm in the same boat too!
Thanks for your kind comment today..btw..made me smile! =D
7 workingit points. I give myself only 1 for exercise because I did yoga, but no cardio.
I may to yoga twice tomorrow. LOL. I have an unlimited pass.
I didn't weigh myself because I was too focussed on getting ready to go to the new school today to sub for the band teacher. I am not the regular kind of sub that doesn't teach. My job there is to be like a leave replacement and fill in exactly as if I was the teacher all year. I was supposed to start in a few weeks; and I still am. It was unexpected for me to go in today and I was told on short notice, yesterday!
Everything ran smoothly today. The principal was absent, so I didn't meet her. The students and teachers are really nice.
when i woke up in the morning, my body was very bloated and I was nauseated from yesterday. I drank water with a little flavoring and went to teach. Calories were really low today, 830. Who knows when I ate like that last. EVERYTHING was really healthy. Two eggs, carrots, 10 sheets of the dried nori seaweed, a package of portabella mushrooms, 4 very large yellow peppers, one large tomato, a piece of chilean sea bass fish (VERY GOOD), seaweed salad, and tofu. Not bad for 830 calories, huh!?
Tomorrow will be another story; calories will prob not be that low.
Your binge was exactly what I did from Thanksgiving through December which amounted to a 4 pound gain! EEEEEKKKK! I gotta stop that!
Glad that everything went well at the new school!!
somehow, i get 6 points. I did everything right except the eating part.
My stomach will not let me bend over. I just ate 5110 calories. as many people know, i was not eating any grains/gluten or dairy...that lasted from Thanksgiving till today. I am going back to that tomorrow. But, I pigged out on cookies galore, pretzels, chocolate, nuts, peanut butter, crackers etc. I'm not listing it all. There is a lot of food in my house, that i didn't buy, besides the peanut butter. Some food were actually gifts to me, that I gave on to my family. I had no control. I know that i'll be able to get through tomorrow fine. But, right now, teaching wouldn't be very good. I am so full and sick.
I'm feeling extremely sick right now. I'm not dealing well with my job situation. Today, I got a phone call from the teacher who will be having surgery. He asked if I would come in to substitute tomorrow, of course I said yes. Friday I will be going into the other school that I left to say hello (since the teacher thought that would be such a great idea.)
I hate having to know last minute what my schedule looks like. I may even have to miss a day of yoga. I know, in the long run, it really doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that I get a full-time, tenure job. However, I"m going in circles and now I've eaten so much to ease the pain. But it didn't work. Once again, it didn't work!
Progress as of today: 6.2 lbs lost so far, only -0.8 lbs to go!
I don't like having my plans changed or made at the last minute either..I like to know what I am doing and mentally prepare for it..but ohwell thats life I guess!! Try to relax and I hope you get to do your yoga...
7 WorkingIt pts
hello everyone. I didn't have work today, but I ended up doing quite a few errands. I actually did stop by the school in order to pick up a few gifts the kids dropped off the day before Christmas break, when I wasn't there.
I decided to stop taking the enzymes and I returned them for a refund. It's no use being addicted to a thousand types of pills unless you really, really need them. for now, I'm just taking a multivitamin.
so, i'm not really working in the district currently. However, the teacher who was on leave invited me to come in this week. ahh. I don't mind, but I was hoping to get some things done in these next 2 1/2 weeks before I have to work in the other elementary school and start grad class again. It looks as I'll be spending half the school day in the old school where I was up until break this Friday. I guess it's nice the kids want to see me!
Somehow, I haven't really walked for exercise at all today. I just did yoga, walking a block or two from my car there and back. I'll only give myself one point on exercise, since yoga will be daily(hopefully). my unlimited yoga future is already looking grim because of everything that keeps popping up. arg. oh well.
goodnight all!
Progress as of today: 7.2 lbs lost so far, only -1.8 lbs to go!
Glad you were able to get to yoga today...I know how much you enjoy it~!
Have a wonderful day..
8 workingit points!
The family situation is definitely hostile right now. We are all irritating each other and picking fights with one another. I don't know why. Maybe after spending a week on vacation together we all want to relax, but 3 out of the 4 of us have to either go to school or work tomorrow and everyone's frustrated. I do not have work until about 3 weeks from now. However, I do have things that need to get done!
One thing I am doing for myself is Yoga, everyday, for at least the next 2 1/2 to 3 weeks! yes, every morning. It's a gift I'm giving myself.
I ate poorly in the morning. It was really bingy, as I decided to stray away from the usual egg I was having lately and settled for a banana and Peanut butter instead. Well, that breakfast turned into 6 tablespoons of P.B., one banana, and two apples. Lol, it could've been worse! but, it was 900 worth of calories. somehow, I got through the day, snacking on lots of lean protein and veggies, ending at 1740.
Thanks for all the comments, and explaining breadfruit. I'm gonna look into it. I will put up a picture from the cruise soon! Oh, and thanks for the protein article. I always knew that we eat too much protein in the US on average, but it was still intriguing!
Goodnight!
Progress as of today: 8.4 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!
I am starting yoga next week and am kinda nervous. I have no idea what to expect or what I have gotten myself into! I am NOT flexible at all..I mean AT ALL!! LOL
Hope the family tension eases soon..enjoy your evening!
So, I stuck to foods I can eat on my new (and something I enjoy VERY much) diet! No wheat/grains or dairy. The only day I had some trouble was at the airport in San Juan coming home. Seriously, I asked if I could have a salad with chicken and they were like, "wraps only have chicken, not salads!" yeah! they wouldn't do it. you're probably wondering why I just didn't order both! well, haha. I wasn't shelling out 9 bucks for some chicken wrap just for the chicken. Then, i looked and looked and found that the bar at the airport had chicken salads. The chicken was the most distastful, ugly, proccessed patty I have ever eaten. Nasty. But, i was hungry and ate the chicken and iceberg lettuce I was given. LOL. I will write more on this entry and actually write what I had to eat each day! yep!
I ate unusually MASSIVE portions, let me tell you. Lunch and breakfast were buffet style, the amount of salad and cooked veggies and seafood and whatever else I fit into my stomach astonished the people I was eating with! However, I regret nothing and really enjoyed everything. Best of all, the Maitre 'D, or head waiter, allowed me at the ellaborate dinners to choose my menu for each day the night before, so that the food would be prepared the way I liked it! I was accomodated 100% and left a nice tip and note to him! The good thing was that I ate more beef...I had beef at least 2 times for dinner. Filet Minon one night and another dish, "beef tornados," which was beef prepared similiar to filet minon, two round pieces.
I think I need to eat more substantial proteins. I had loads of seafood. And a bit more protein that week than I had been the weeks prior to my trip. I also took a "metabolism test," wanting it basically because i wanted a more accurate reading of the amount of muscle I have. Usually, when I get on those electronic scales here at home,it says my pounds of muscle are in the high 80's. However, the monitor on the ship said I have only 83 pounds of muscle, which is low for my age, height, and weight.
I will talk to that woman at the health food store about this and ask if she thinks I should include a protein drink or something after working out. also, I didn't take any of the supplements she gave me during the trip. I left all pills at home. I have't decided if I will buy more when they run out. It may be a waste, since I don't want to be living on pills the rest of my life! Maybe just a multivitamin.
Lastly, I went to yoga today. I will go EVERYDAY. yes, everyday now. why? well, I have off from work for a little over 2 weeks. I bought a montly unlimited pass there since I calculated that it is worth it for me to do that. Then, in February, I will go back to going once or twice a week. Oh, and I am putting weight training on the back burner and will not start that until after I go back to yoga only once or twice a week.
I have plans to take swimming lessons in the summer. I want to now, but I am not looking to overwhelm myself thinking about all these awesome new physical activities when I need to concentrate more on my last conducting class and my last music history class. That's whats most important. :( Good and bad at the same time.
I will take swimming lessons in the spring, if this job (another leave replacement) ends earlier before the end of the school year. Otherwise, I will take the lessons starting in the beginning of the summer. I'll take them at the university by me. Use of the pool is free since I went there! Gym is also free!
More updates tomorrow.
HELLO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!! :)
I AM BACK! I had fun on my cruise to the Carribbean: Aruba, Bonaire, St. Thomas, St. Kitts, Granada and San Juan, Puerto Rico (where we arrived and departed from)!
I am going to update this in a few hours! And leave a lot of comments on your entries!
Progress as of today: 8.4 lbs lost so far, only -3 lbs to go!
Have fun with the swimming lessons..this may be an obvious question, but I take it you don't know how to swim? Or are you taking an advanced swimming class or something like that? Just curious!!!
Happy New Year!!!
Edit: I had a massive dinner...like a package and a half of tofu, a little olive oil, a larger amount of vinegar, 30 cherry tomatoes, a package and a half of lettuce, and 4 small red peppers (I sound like GG). The tofu and was overdoing it, 300 calories just in light tofu. But, now I can concentrate on packing...We're leaving saturday at 4am or so.
I finally read the asst principals oberservation report and it was the most detailed thing ever! No wonder why it took her sooo long to do it! I appreciate her taking her time because it was nicely written!
I was sooo busy (and tired) yesterday night that I actually didn't make a journal entry at all! I think that's the first time since I joined DDs in August! LOL. While I was working at school, i was actually too involved with it being my last day and such to ever come on here! I am sooo happy all is ready and organized for their teacher to come back! I left school really late, after 9pm to finish cleaning and putting everything in order! Because my schedule was CRAZY yesterday....I stayed at school till 4:15, went to teach a music lesson, stopped at starbucks after for a breather, came back to the school st 7:15pm...I actually had little time for eating. Well, it worked out nice, because I am leaving for the cruise really early tomorrow morning.
Calories yesterday wee probably under 1000. I have that they were 960 (similiar to your's BTC!!!) hehe. of course, I couldn't make that a pattern, but it was interesting to see such a low count! And, I had a nice piece of tofu with salad when I got home, before going to bed.
Have a lovely day everyone. Enjoy your holidays! I may come on here on the cruise or may not. Not if I have to pay for internet. See you all on my return!
:)
Progress as of today: 5.6 lbs lost so far, only -0.2 lbs to go!
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Aww sweetie...I hear ya with the anxiety thing...it's all emotional I'm telling you..(((((((((hugs))))))))))))))) I don't know how you put it all away for someone who is so tiny!!! I hope you get to feeling better...
My best suggestion is to really, and I mean REALLY get in touch with yourself when you are feeling stressed or anxious and feel a binge coming on..The first step has to be awareness..then you realize that you are feeding the stress and not dealing with it...well you ARE dealing with it but not in a good way!! Something I have done too too many times to count..
Take care...
liza36 on 01/09/2007:
I can relate to the anxiety feeling and overeating. I tend to do that too. One of my goals this year is to learn meditation techniques to help with the stress and anxiety, and thus stop the grabbing for whatever I can to help soothe me. I can't say I've learned much yet, but it's a process, right? Hang in there, don't be too hard on yourself. Moody had some good advice too about being more aware of things. Good luck!
WorkingIt2 on 01/09/2007:
You know, something I see in your posts..you are very goal driven but you are also seem to thrive under pressure. Perhaps when you put yourself against a wall with your eating, it helps you stay stronger for the next challenge? I read the article you posted and I think it is a very good idea to check it out with the doc! It can't hurt =)
weightlossyoyo on 01/09/2007:
Hope things get better for you. I do the same thing been on that path for a few weeks now. Be carefull I gained 4 lbs from it. You can beat the feeling. Chew some kind of mint gum so the food does not taste as good. Be Strong!