I'm taking a break from DD until I loose at least 10 lbs.
yesterday: 3400
Today: 3050
total ex: 22hrs...yeah, not so hot in February. Worst month since I started counting hours around springtime last year!!!
what have i learned this year?...this is what i need to think about!
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
BINGE: 3400 cal today. more?
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
:-(
2260 cal. not a "banner day." It was binging for breakfast and after work that did it. I'm ok though...and I am practically excited to study - that's the rest of my night...and i'll add in a 1/2 hour treadmill walk, too.
I cannot wait to know what i'm doing in September. Thing is, I will NOT know for probably 2 more months! Therefore, I should just lay off wanting to know and worry about the present rather than the future!
Present goals: loose a little each week, stop backsliding. Plan: simple! plan my meals and stick to them...more importantly, stick to my after school schedule and don't come home to binge! :)
i'm doing good...
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
HAVE A GREAT EVENING!.....you are doing good!
Secondly, I encourage you to stop anticipating about September and focus on the here and now. Use this time before September to focus on yourself. :-) I would do the same thing, try to make plans about the future and want to know NOW what I would be doing. I finally realized that this is my attempt to be in control and sometimes that feeling of no control can lead to bingeing. That is why I mention this to you.
Sometimes you have to just sit back and let Life take its course. This has been my biggest lesson these past few months. So keep in mind that perhaps my perspective is bias, because this is what I am dealing with. It may not be what you are dealing with (or need to deal with). I just don't want to see you binge as a result of feeling frustrated with the unknown. Good luck to you always!
after a bunch of snacks and dinner, my calories are 3000...not in the mood to stick to the 1500s tonight. I guess I think my weight isn't going up be eating like this...lol...it will...
exercise: 30min so far...
sunday afternoon edit:
Turns out the tests were VERY hard and NOBODY did that well, especially on the multiple choice section. So, all my staying home this past week to study did not help me and since we are allowed one test to drop, I hope this will be the worst I do so that the rest of my grades are better! We have plenty more tests.
My grades before today's exams are a 96 and an 89. The 96 was the top grade and the 89 was second highest. Obviously, it's a hard course despite the fact that it is being given at a community college! My grades today will not be near as high. I know for a fact that nobody will probably get an A on both of today's tests.
I could have rushed to yoga after class but I came home and had some food. That's ok since I really hadn't planned on heading to yoga. I will take a walk, although its freezing, outside at the park later.
AM ENTRY:
hi there. it's 5:34am on Sunday and I've been awake since...probably 4am. Yeah, I can't sleep! I have TWO tests today and its so much information and I know that I can DEFINITELY do more studying and still probably forget a few things on these tests. The information is a lot, there's a test each week. I'm happy I'm taking the class, but its just a lot of info to process for each exam. so, i'm stressed, can't sleep, can't relax, wanna eat.
I haven't done yoga since Wednesday...I think I only went TWO days this whole break because of being sick and also just not being able to schedule it in. stinky. I can't believe I go back to work tomorrow!
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
Have a wonderful Sunday!!!
calories: 1540. dinner was filling with a protein smoothie for dessert.
exercise: 1hr, 35min
total ex: 21hrs, 30min.
Today is a whole new day. I definitely got a TON of sleep! Lately I find myself to be able to sleep for more hours. For now on, I'm going to try to sleep 9 hrs. I looked on Sparkpeople.com and their recommendation is 8-10 hours!
Breakfast was a southwest microwavable morningstar veggie cake and a cup of yogurt and tea...all for about 290 cal.
I will study this morning, walk for 45 min, and then go to visit my grandmother. Later, it's back here to study...
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
Breakfast sounded yummy!
so, like i do when it snows and i'm stuck inside, i binged. I don't think i want to go to yoga tonight bc i want to study and just walk on the treadmill. today's not a great day lol.
I've not lost all hope though! My goal for calories today is not more than 3100. It could be much worse, trust me! Also, I'll stick to my usual goal of 1500 cal per day on the weekend.
I didn't end up volunteering bc of the snow...so I will definitely go this coming Tuesday!! :)
calories 3150.
exercise: 1hr
total ex: 19hrs, 55min
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
...i had a binge just now. 2520 calories so far, 11am. I had cookies, cinnamon bread, chocolates. my goal for the day is 3000 or so cal.!!!
**Important Yogurt Discovery...**
***I have been eating plain non-fat yogurt often, like 2-3 times a day, recently and have discovered it really helps digestion/elimination. Anyone that has ever been constipated (sorry for being so explicit) will benefit COMPLETELY from this. I usually do not have that problem but I find the power of yogurt amazing. I didn't buy any special brand, just a nonfat or lowfat PLAIN yogurt. I eat it on/with everything! It's a good spread/dip/sauce. You should definitely try it...after a day or two, you'll be amazed!***
So, everything that yogurt claims it can do is totally true! :)
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Friday AM entry: I woke up this morning to beautiful snow covering everything which is still falling. I actually don't like snow, but I also couldn't believe it really hadn't snowed all year yet. I figure it's good for the environment!
I woke up hungry and had one of those new lean cuisine flatbread pizzas with a half cup of yogurt on top...and some tea. Overall, 420 calories. I just have to keep an eye on my eating throughout the morning. I would have went to volunteer, but the streets aren't even plowed. I think I will walk on the treadmill and head to the library later. When the roads are better, I plan to do a few returns to the stores.
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Thursday evening entry:
I wrote a HUGE entry, then it was deleted! yuck! No way am i typing again!
anyways, the interview went well. I did many errands and studied. I don't want to go to yoga...i have a hunger feeling in me today and i'm tired. Perhaps i'll nap. Usually i don't, but it's worth a shot.
I'm so happy about my weight and the fact that it is steadily decreasing. When it was at 130 there was also some major bloat in effect too from all the bulky food. I cannot wait to be out of the 120s!!! :)
1550 cal, no exercise.
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
When Mozart passed away, he was buried in a churchyard. A couple days later, the town drunk was walking through the cemetery and heard some strange noises coming from the area where Mozart was buried. Terrified, the drunk ran and got the priest to come and listen to it. The priest bent close to the grave and heard some faint, unrecognizable music coming from the grave. Frightened, the priest ran and got the town magistrate. When the magistrate arrived, he bent his ear to the grave, listened for a moment, and said, "Ah, yes, that's Mozart's Ninth Symphony, being played backwards."
He listened a while longer, and said, "There's the Eighth Symphony, And it's backwards, too. Most puzzling." So the magistrate kept listening; "There's the Seventh... the Sixth...the Fifth..." Suddenly the realization of what was happening dawned on the magistrate; he stood up and announced to the crowd that had gathered in the cemetery. "My fellow citizens, there's nothing to worry about. It's just Mozart decomposing."
Go on about your day and be cautious of temptations..RESISTING!!!!!!
Today was a very good day overall. I did get a lot accomplished although i wish i studied more at the library since an older woman decided she wanted to talk my ear off!
calories: a healthy 1525. I ate a ton of healthy food today. I tried a lean cuisine I never had before: lemon chicken with brown rice risotto! It was excellent and I was so impressed with their use of brown, not white, rice!
exercise: 2hr, 10 min. yoga and 2 mile walk (i hope its about 2 mi). My mom was actually in the library...haha, i saw her as i was leaving. she said i was nuts to walk the short mile home in the cold. However, i see other people walking and its much colder in other places. I ended up driving with her home...then walking a mere 10min on the treadmill.
total exercise: 18hrs, 55min.
tomorrow i have an interview and quite a few other errands to do. It'll be one busy day!
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 4 lbs to go!
I'd love to try yoga in a 100 degree room - I think that would be very cool. Or, hot. I don't know, I wasn't trying to be literal. I've seen it on tv a few times, and it actually looks like a lot of fun! Congrats on your progress HoP!
Evening edit:
I observed and it went well. It was really informal, no interview or anything. At the end of the hour observation, I had to write a short essay on my experience there. Not too bad at all.
I walked to the library to study today. It's a mile each way so I figure it's a GREAT way for me to get my minimal cardio in. I also fit in yoga, finally. I'm so glad I went and I feel like I sweated profusely (I do yoga in a 100 degree room), more than normal, to let all these sick germs out of my body! LOL!
Total exercise: 2hrs, 10min.
Feb ex: 16 hrs, 45 min.
total cal: about 1650.
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Morning entry:
I'm definitely feeling a little better with much less aches and pains compared to yesterday. Also, I think my fever is gone since I haven't needed to wear a bazillion layers of clothing this morning. I will probably volunteer today, but only if I am feeling 100%. I also want to go to yoga since I haven't gone in a long time.
Today, I have to go to the hospital around the block from me to observe the radiagraphy department since they have invited me to do so. I wish I were feeling 100% because this will be the first hand impression they are getting of me. I am confident that it will go well.
I was up practically all night from being nervous and also sweating badly on and off because I think I still had a fever. When I weighed myself, I was greeted with a wonderful number, 125. I hope that tomorrow the scale will NOT jump up. I am on track with my weight loss goals and I guess I will lower my goal weight to 120.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
Hope you're feeling better. I think it was you who left a comment on someone else's diary (maybe Donkey's?) about everyone being sick lately. Well, it's true, about half the people where I work are sick and now my husband's really sick too. I feel like I'm wallowing in germs all day long. It's only a matter of time!
Oh and yeah, of course I know there are millions of people who say that water helps them lose weight... I'm just not convinced of the science behind it. Plus my lowest weights have always been when I was drinking hardly any water, whereas now I'm drinking tons of water and my weight is up. But I'll admit that my complexion does seem to have improved! At any rate, I'm sure water has more benefits than disadvantages, so I am just going to keep at it regardless...
1450. no exercise.
Progress as of today: -3 lbs lost so far, only 5 lbs to go!
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I dont think 22hrs is all that bad. it's only the 27th, so that means you worked out an hour a day, besides 5 days... I think you do need to control your binging. I believe its not DD that is making you binge. So you shouldn't take the break... What you should do is maybe talk to someone to help you control your binging. Maybe a nutritionist or a therapist, ever though about that?
leeumom on 02/27/2008:
The binging can be a problem. We do that at night when we get home from work. Usually around 9:30 to 10:00p.m. That is the worst time. We find now that if we have low calorie items around the calories don't mount up so bad. Your eating enough calories that you should be gaining a pound a day. Are you working out to not gain? Don't be down on yourself. Think about or look for all the good things you've accomplished. You can do it.
starlight on 02/28/2008:
Can I ask why you want to take a break from DD? We are all in the same boat so in no way judgemental about the binging. We're here for support girlie!!!
borntocry on 02/28/2008:
Hmm. Well, not that I want you to leave or anything, but I lost 4 lb over my little break from DD last year. The diaries may not be making you binge but they're not helping to stop you, either. Everyone gets used to your bad habits and soon no-one is shocked any more by what you do. And you know it, too, so you feel no shame. At least that was what happened to me last year. I realised I had to be accountable to myself. And that's when I achieved the most success. (Also I must admit the thought of coming back here and wow-ing everyone with my spectacular weight loss was a big motivating factor too.)
shadetree on 03/01/2008:
Okay, HoP, I know that sometimes we all need to take a break. I will not deny that. I think you need to listen to what a number of us have said to you over the months - you need to get to the bottom of WHY you are binging. You haven't figured it out on your own yet (or if you have you haven't shared)....You need to find a therapist that will help you work through this! I have been very concerned about you from my first day here, but I am not one that likes to continually lecture, so I said my thoughts once and let it go...You are doing a lot of harm to yourself, and you need to get to the bottom of WHY you continue in these patterns. check with school - if they don't have someone on staff to help you, they can probably refer you to someone. Please get some help.
yaz on 03/04/2008:
Binging is the enemy. Try snacking good snacks that are low in calories... that helped me from stopping the binge! Also try to get mini treats like I went out and bought hershey nuggets and allow myself to eat one a day. I did it for like 4 days straight and now I don't even think about it. But when the chocolate urge strikes back i know I can have one. Try that! Hopefully you come back soon to DD!!
greengirl on 03/15/2008:
Hope you are doing OK HoP.
mylifechanges on 03/25/2008:
i've been thinking so much about you lately! i hope you're doing okay! i haven't been on here much lately either, but i'm kind of back & forth with DD. you've always been so faithful despite the ups & downs. if you need someone to talk to, please email me!: mdierker7@yahoo.com
mcwoo40 on 03/30/2008:
Hiya don't stay away too long,Julie
mmuraro on 03/31/2008:
Hey girl, Im thinking of you here. Hope you are well and that you come back soon. We wanna hear from you. xo.
shadetree on 04/19/2008:
Thinking of you!