evening edit: messed up: salad, another pepper 70, TWO microwavable pizzas 880, 5 milanos 325, 3 granola bars 420, lg bowl of sugary cereals and milk 550
day's total: about 3400. oops.
i cannot stay on this path. not after all the work i've put in. i vow to treat my body better tomorrow.
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Afternoon entry:
Breakfast strawberries/blueberries, cereal, milk 250
snack - plain yogurt 80
lunch: lg apple, 2 yogurts: 280
large snack: 3 small plums, 2 cups fiber one, 2 cups light milk 390
total so far: 1,000 I always have a hard time getting back on track the day after a binge because my body just wants more and more sugar. I figure i'm doing pretty well.
snack: 2 yellow peppers: 80
Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 10.4 lbs to go!
self improvement goals: walk often like I have been. I noticed my legs looking slimmer in the mirror today. when tired, take a nap, don't binge! that's what happened today, along with anxiety in meeting up with a friend i haven't seen for awhile.
last edit for today: today's binge gave me NO comfort. Once again, compared to all previous binges it was not a good experience at all. It made it so I had to stay home the rest of the day due to pain and discomfort of my stomach. I may also break out due to poor eating. After binging, my skin is always HORRIBLE! for the past couple weeks, my skin has been wonderful due to eating better.
anyways, i'm over it. back to good eating tomorrow - which may prove difficult because my blood sugar is all out of whack!
5100.
Sunday entry: 5100
breakfast: strawberries, fiber one and all bran with milk 280. binge mode is slightly in effect but i'm not reaching for anything else.
lunch: Went out to lunch with a friend = whole wheat bagel with no mayo tuna on it. calorie guestimate: 600 ugh! some mints: 10
total so far: 890 yucko...came home from lunch and snacked: two yellow peppers, small salad and spray dressing, small plum: 140...1030...snack: oh gosh...really bingy!!! 2 english muffins, each with: jelly, peanut butter, tofu: 850
1880...10 milano cookies: total for day: 2530 ice cream: 3050, pizza and leftovers: 3550
dinner:
Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 10.4 lbs to go!
H_O_P...Your doing good, you really are...You have come a ways (in the good directions) since just a few weeks back and I am proud of you!!!!!!
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Saturday entry:
i only have approximately 10 lbs till my first goal of 115 pounds! :)
well, as far as exercise is concerned may day was out of this world! as far as calories are concerned, i did great all day but ended the evening in a large dinner binge. only good thing about this binge is that it ended before i went way over the number of calories I could have consumed today.
I think I'm eating too many carby foods lately and it caught up with me tonight!
I'm not listing all meals.
Dinner: large salad and dressing, then THREE whole yellow peppers, cup of blueberries, a microwavable meal that wasn't really good but i ate it, a girl scout cookie, 2 english muffins each microwaved and then with peanut butter and jelly and some spray butter. wowsers. about 1200 calories...oh, and then another cookie for 100 cal.
the good thing is this dinner, combined with my full day, is about 2150 calories.
exercise: hot yoga and at least 6 mi in walking. at least I KNOW i burned around 2200 cal at least!
Progress as of today: 9.6 lbs lost so far, only 10.4 lbs to go!
Have a good sleep!
I did well at the food festival, ate lots of strawberries. my problem was buying a whole bunch of take out spring rolls (I was supporting the school and buying dinner for my family, I rationalized). At least I didn't eat any at the food stall....
Good luck with the books. I guess you can always learn something new/helpful with the help of books. Have a great weekend!
Saturday AM Entry:
My weight is now 125.4. I may be a little dehydrated - lots of caffeine yesterday!
More updates to come later! :)
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Friday Entry:
I used the Happy Weight Calculator that Jmarie recommends in her diary and it put me at 110 lbs. there! my goal is proven not to be unrealistic. I want to reach that weight and I will. For now though, my goal remains an even more realistic 115. I have 11 lbs to go.
dinner: a little on the HUGE side, but i'm not in a panic! large salad with dressing 110, rice and tofu 340, 2 red peppers 100, one tasty cookie 100 total 650 (i was aiming for eating in the 500s, but the cookie took me over).
total: 1360. I will say this is alright. who wouldn't be happy about a total like that?
goodnight.
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Breakfast: none, was rushing and decided to just go. VERY STRANGE for me.
snack: plain yogurt 80
snack: apple 90
lunch: big bowl of cereal with milk and cinnamon, two light yogurts: 400
snack: 3 diet cokes with lemon at a party and one cold shrimp appetizer 30
snack: 1/4 cup blueberries, more YOGURT gosh! 110
total so far: 710
having a so-so day. I had a good time at the party until my supervisor came. sometimes i get anxious/nervous around people with authority. I have NO reason to be like that, either. It's just a bad habit I've had since I was as young as I can remember. When she came, i seriously couldn't think of anything to say and sat there listening. It wasn't a long time, but i was uncomfortable. I need to work on this! Everyone else was good company. We stayed for an hour and then I took a walk at the park with a coworker of mine. That was far more enjoyable! :)
I am angry at myself for the feelings of insecurity I had at this party. I should NOT care and I should have talked to more people and been more social than just standing near the same few people the whole time. Well, at least I'll remember this for next time - whenever that is! :)
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Turns out I wasn't even selected for questioning at Jury Duty. I will even go to school - after a take a short nap - so I can attend the bbq afterwards. blah blah blah. I got back home around 1pm. usually i have lunch at work at 2. so i'll head back to school at 2:35 for literally the last hour so i can head over to the bbq with my coworkers.
Friday AM entry: you may laugh, but i went to bed really late, like around 2am because I ate dinner late but moreso because I had a lot of ramped up energy about Jury Duty this morning. I also wanted to make sure I emailed everyone I needed to at work about my absence. I actually did some work at home last night so that my supervisor would still have work done by me despite not being present in the elementary school today. fabulous.
no sleep for me = sugar cravings, overeating, bad choices. I will not give in to my usual tendency and work hard to continue in my low calorie eating path.
Progress as of today: 8.4 lbs lost so far, only 11.6 lbs to go!
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Late Thursday entry:
A satisfying, good day in my book :)
I have jury duty tomorrow. I have all my health forms completed for the program I enter in September. Many of my textbooks for my program are arriving from Amazon.com. The post office didn't make me wait in line to return the extra book (free shipping to return yay!)I orderred by mistake. I recieved a check from the government, tax return that i can put into the bank! all good things. work was good, enjoyed a dunkin donuts excursion for lunch with coworkers. got in a 5 mile walk at one of my favorite places. all lovely things :)
breakfast: blueberries, cereal, milk 220
snack: yogurt 80
lunch but not really: LARGE iced coffe, small reg decaf coffee: 120
snack: apple 90
snack: natural fruit/nut powerbar and a light n fit yogurt 280
dinner: a microwavable meal that weighed MUCH more than the package said. sometimes i weigh prepared foods when I KNOW just by picking them up that they are much heavier than average. I got it from Celantano foods which makes wonderful things but I know from past experience that the calories they report on their packages are NOT CORRECT. I've actually seen them change calories on the back of their products. ok, moving on...
microwave eggplant rolettes should have been 350 but came out to be 460 based on their real weight, 2 red peppers, one HUGE cucumber. total 570
total for the day: 1350 awesome, i'm satisfied with that total.
enjoy your evenings. jury duty tomorrow..i'm actually excited and happy to have a break in my monotonous work week. Only downside is I will most likely miss a bbq/happy hour the custodian is having at his home after work for the whole staff. it's not a big problem and i'm not complaining, just mentioning!
:)
Progress as of today: 8.4 lbs lost so far, only 11.6 lbs to go!
exercise: elliptical 25 min.
Breakfast: cup blueberries, cereal, milk: 230.
snack: peach 40
snack: yogurt 80
lunch: lg apple 140, 2 yogurts 150: 290
snack: crystal light, cereal and milk, 2 red peppers 340...peach very hungry/bingy
1020...plans for dinner include something with tomato sauce!
dinner: haha no tomato sauce...and more dairy ugh! cheese. it was good but i eat WAY too much dairy. a tamale microwave meal, large salad with dressing, whole cucumber, peach. 430. alright.
total: 1450. not a lot by any means, maybe my body needed it.
Good morning DDers. Once again, no jury duty today so i'll be going to work. The weather has been nice the past couple days and I look foward to taking another walk today in the late afternoon.
I have been sticking to my healthy diet, lifestyle change, whatever you want to call it, well these past weeks. There is NO need for me to binge and even though I thought I couldn't walk the 5 miles yesterday I accomplished it. It's about mind over matter for many of us; and I know it's like that for myself. If we stick to our goals frequently and long enough, we will accomplish them as fast as we want them to as long as they are reasonably set.
Progress as of today: 8.4 lbs lost so far, only 11.6 lbs to go!
On the food front - you are really doing well. So glad to see you more pleased with yourself. Keep up that good work and attitude. I have been trying really hard to eat as well as I can. Not doing so bad. I've been up some (7-8 pounds), but at the same weight for some time now. Will check back with you soon> I appreciate your support.
Wonderful Wednesday to you!
I see that you told that old 'Bingey Feeling' to go away or either you ignored it! Good for you! 'KEEP AWAY YOU OLD BINGEY FEELING!!! YOU ARE NOT WELCOME!'
RE: Catering ~ Uh Nope ! Just am church hostess and the church is swinging for the burgers/hot dogs/condiments/drinks and it is "my baby" to get things bought/ready....So much on my mind I can hardly think straight...Baseball, picnic, laundry, custodial job, walking, etc... I shall persevere and be bored one of these days.... I hope!
The Artichoke/Spinach Lean Pocket is the only Lean pocket I have ever eaten and I like it..The sodium is only in the 200's and the calories aren't all that bad either...
Attitude is great! Keep it up!
I assume you have an elliptical exercising machine. I love that, I remember when I was trying to loose weight for my 40th b-day (that's another story) I could stay on that for 1 and half hours! I love walking, too, but in the past few weeks I had to go for walks wearing my raincoat! And I was considering getting one of those machines. I see we have a long strech of sunshine in the forecast, so never mind that....
evening edit:
dinner: BIG!...2 red peppers, 1 cucumber, some grape tomatoes, head of romaine, dressing, 2 hard boiled eggs, diet coffee soda with added milk: all this for ONLY 380. and i am satisfied. who wouldn't be. i know most of you couldn't stuff all of this inside you. i swear, the size of my stomach must be scary inside.
total for the day: a whoppingly awesome 1310.
walked 5 miles. was on the verge of doing an extra to make 6 but my body called it quits. I don't think I necessarily quit because I did set out and finished my original 5 mi plan. Along the way I started really thinking I was going to do 6, but crapped out at the end and stuck to 5. eh, what can a person do!? I am happy with myself despite that. My ipod broke again while walking...hopefully the battery just died and nothing else, so i did about 4 of the 5 miles without music.
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morning entry:
I woke up majorly early - about one hour. I started to do laundry because i felt that my sheets were actually what was making me uncomfortable lol. who knows!? then, i vaccuumed my room which didn't take too long at all! i also did a little ironing of some pants. i wonder if i will have jury duty tomorrow!?
today was good. I accomplished a good amount while at work.
So far so good. A definite binge feeling day, but I did NOT give in. I did have some diet soda today though.
breakfast: watermelon, cereal, milk: 250
snack: yogurts 150
lunch: tofu/yogurt, tea with equal added: 245
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afternoon edit:
snack: cup blueberries, cereal, milk, diet soda: 240...and watermelon 285
total so far: 885 not bad but feeling pretty bingy today. I have to remember that I should not ever give up. every calorie counts if i'm in it to win it!...and watermelon: 930.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!
I Haven't tried that tofu/yogurt thing yet. I assume it's not flavored yogurt...
Have a good day. I'm going to bed! it's 10.38pm already.
Keep up the great work!
Thanks for the tips on my menu. Yesterday was one of those days when I didn't plan ahead and ended up eating what was available - Or, what I thought Hubby would like. Have a great day!
my head still hurts:
Today I was standing near the door in the faculty room and one of the teachers let go and it SLAMMED straight into my head. The door is heavy and it hurt so much. My neck soon started hearting. I probably got a slight concussion! argh! I can't believe she let go of the door when people were standing right there! oops!
127 on the dot! wahoo!!!!!!!!!
45 min stationary bike ride.
breakfast: blueberries, cereal, milk: 220 :)
snack: yogurt: 70
lunch: tofu, yogurt, diet coke, 250
snack: cup grape tomatoes, red pepper, cereal and milk: 250
dinner: microwave eggplant parm, large salad with dressing, whole cucumber, apple 520
total: 1310. fine by me! :)
no jury duty today...so i'll be going to work as usual. no jury duty tomorrow either.
Progress as of today: 8 lbs lost so far, only 12 lbs to go!
BTW, the hot guys in my picture . . . totally gay. But they make me look good, right?
PROUD OF YOU!
I hope you are feeling better - you must go see a doctor if the headache continues. You never know what the door might have done to you. Have a great day!
Breakfast: peach, cereal, milk...and yogurts: very filling! 380 totally felt the need to stuff myself but its amazing its under 400 calories.
snack: lg apple 140
very early lunch: teryaki salmon and a red pepper: 220
indulged in a tasty big snack, more like a meal, after yoga:
peach, cereal, milk 190...still hungry...
...peanut butter and jelly sandwich with banana 450 it was good!
total so far: 1280. not bad and I can still end on a good note. I'll make sure to get some walking in! I like how my legs are getting a bit more toned and not as flabby!
dinner: red pepper, sprouts, dressing, microwave meal, 1 peach,gum 430
total: 1710 :)
perhaps i'll weigh around 127 tomorrow??
I hope that everyone who is celebrating Father's Day today has a great one! I was up early picking up bagels, lox, and whitefish spread for the other three people who will be having breakfast here (mom, dad, sister). I never eat that but whenever my sister stays over my dad picks it up. However, it's Father's Day, and I did it for him.
Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
Hope you enjoyed yoga and had a good Fathers Day with your dad!!
That was sweet of you to get that for your Dad.
Hope you have a wonderful day!
Re: Relora ~ Comes in 250mg or 300mg, depends upon the manufacturer...Now Foods is the 300mg (I take 1 cap 3 X daily) that I take..Could only find the 250mg by Life Time yesterday (I take 2 caps 2 x daily, which works fine).. Manufacturer label states " Reduces Cortisol Levels....Dietary supplement to assist in the management of stress or frustration and for self confident mood and cheerful outlook..Supports healthy body fat metabolism"... I was taking St. John's Wart & something else for a long time, due to horrible mood swings, etc...Hated taking so much of it and found an article in a Woman's World about this stuff and gave it a try to find it does work... Some would say "phsycological hoo ha", but I truly feel that it is doing what the statements claim...I sure can tell when I DON'T take it...
Will be super to celebrate with you if you are @ 127 tomorrow.....Good Luck!
I must admit I was pretty hungry during parts of the day today but I got through it. Pretty balanced eating as well. I amazed myself with calories especially for going out to eat.
Dinner: large house salad no dressing with 4 grilled scallops. also had a fantastically delightful manhattan clam chowder soup with HUGE pieces of clam. I would estimate that dinner really was around 400 calories. To me this seems reasonable for a cup of soup, 4 scallops, and TONS of veggies. It couldn't be too many more calories than that.
total calories: wow! around 1250! how cool is that!? I'm so happy that my progress in weightloss has not stopped through the weekend! I am a bit hungry right now but it's 12:42am so I will go to bed.
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Early evening edit: after a slightly but not horrible by any means bingy morning or possibly just hungry morning, i have had a good day. :) my grandmother impressed me with her walking - by walking faster than even I usually walk! She is fast! Dinner tonight, taking Dad out for early father's day!
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early snack: peach/seltzer 40
breakfast: fiber one, milk, watermelon, yogurts: 370
lunch: peach, salmon with bbq sauce, pepper: 190
snack: iced coffee
snack: Protein water 30
total so far: 670...too hungry before dinner reservations at 8pm so i had some fiber one/milk: 170
total so far: 840 ok
Have a good day everyone.
exercise plans: just walking with grandma. probably like 2 miles
Good morning all! I am up VERY early this morning. A few minutes before 6! So i'm laying around and relaxing. It feels good because I've had a busy week.
I will be probably going out to dinner with family today for Father's Day instead of tomorrow because my sister will be here today. She doesn't live at home so if today works better, that's what we will do! Of course, I'm anxious about going out but I figure there HAS to be at least a healthy salad on the menu!
Progress as of today: 7 lbs lost so far, only 13 lbs to go!
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You are too funny...I was blonde once.. I had belached my hair to almost platinum when I was 16.... But, all ya got here is a country bumpkin with a few blonde highlights and most difinitely not a tanner.. I burn and peel... Have tanned a bit with walking, but mostly the Indian blood (have a little) in me makes me have a red face/neck all the time. Cover-Up usually makes me look ghostly..... Best be natural than ghostly!
Thanks for the compliments..That is why I always hate photos, cause I don't put them out there to "phish" for comments. People have been after me for a while and I figured might as well get it over with...
rlovell on 06/23/2008:
i ALWAYS feel that way the day after a binge. i usually wake up and NEED sugar. very weird. just eat a lot of protein if you can and veggies. im sorry i know how that feels. xoxo
maria777 on 06/23/2008:
It's not easy to get back on track but you have done it! YAYYYY!!! You are ON YOUR WAY!!!
jmarie60 on 06/23/2008:
It's so hard to get back on track. You are doing great! It feels like we have to keep up with our sugar intake, but don't let it get the best of you!
maria777 on 06/23/2008:
Hang in there...your calories are 'lookin good' today!
Jen40 on 06/23/2008:
Hooray for getting back on track!!! (Shhh...I messed up too)
mmuraro on 06/23/2008:
yes, tomorrow is a new day. why the anxiety to meet a friend you hadn't seen? we need to talk about this! thanks for your comment, girl! i actually do think things with J can work. And I am crazy about him and want to give this a try, I will try and be patient as long as I can. As for the other guy, I think I may go out with him, he's a really nice guy and I can just go, have fun and that will be it. I can make him think I don't kiss on the 1st date, or the 2nd or the 3rd. When he is strating to think I am a weirdo, I will figure out what to do. hahaha. Xoxo
thinnsidenotout on 06/23/2008:
K...you've done it!.... I DO NOT want to see the same tomorrow, cause that would mean that we are back to where we were a few weeks back of trying to tell you that tomorrow is another day.....and that being after many consecutive days of your binging.... I won't tell you that it is o.k....but, I will check in on you to see how your doing....Your words alone..IT GIVES YOU NO COMFORT! It is an empty fix!... I would rather a "high" from knowing that I can lay my head on the pillow at night having made healthy choices, not wishing for a do over and swearing I won't make the same wrong choices the next day....
125.4....125.4.....125.4....125.4....125.4....125.4....125.4..You love it here! Just think of how you will REALLY love it @ 115.0
balloonlady on 06/23/2008:
thank for your comment... It is hard to up the intake when your scared of gaining...lol... your doing great!
WI3 on 06/23/2008:
Perhaps try glucose tablets between the meal and snack, but make sure to have a snack that includes protein at least 30 - 45 minutes after the tablet. It may help keep your sugar stabalized and at 15 calories a tablet, that is far better than eating a box of cookies. it is so hard after a binge day, I know
selina on 06/24/2008:
HOP! What's going on????? I thought you told me you are back on track.... well, i guess that was before your last entry, huh? I know it's hard to control yourself - I'm including myself now - but we have to make a bigger effort, don't we? otherwise, we'll have to keep forgiving ourselves for the rest of our lives. last night at the party - Slovenian National Day - I had way too many glasses of champagne - and also had to do a lot of small talk with people that I met (lots of new people in town) and old friends and acquaintances. You are right, parties are stressful! I didn't eat too much, though.