edit: day 32, Sunday: As I looked back at all the days I have completed of this 65 day plan, 5 of the poor eating days, 6 in all, were done on the weekend. One was last Thursday, the day I would be obsesrved while teaching. This shows that when I have a lack of planning, everything goes to the wayside. On weekends when I was busier, I controlled my intake better simply because I was not in the kitchen!
I also realized that for the most part, I did pretty nicely on the "65 day plan." Most days, 27 out of 33 days, were at or below 1500 with the exception of one day that was in the 1700s. This shows I can accomplish things I want to, and there is not point in giving up now!
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day 33 , saturday. 2885 calories.
the past 3 days calories are not so hot: 2956, 1765, 2885. I'm gonna need a few low cal days to balance those two big ones!
today started out great, but when I went to eat lunch at 11:45 I pigged out on 1500 calories. then, an hour or so later, I had more! I think this is because i didn't really plan my day or have something scheduled for myself to do after lunch.
why do I do this to myself?
the good thing is that I have planned my teaching stuff for next week. I still need to practice conducting tonight, and maybe the french horn.
exercise today consisted of bike riding for 25 minutes and weights for 25 minutes. I don't even usually exercise more on high cal days, i try to make up for them calorie-wise on the next few days.
I may go to yoga tomorrow morning, based on how I feel. I'm glad I did it the other day in case I feel too bloated in the morning.
I think I may try to stop eating when i am full, instead of scarfing everything on my plate down. I like and always finish everything because I count calories, but I cannot bear the fact that my stomach is probably so overstretched from all of these binges I've been having.
I used to have no problem eating small portions. Then, when I turned 17, everything suddenly changed. hmmmm...things to think about.
Progress as of today: 1.6 lbs lost so far, only 1.8 lbs to go!
edit: day 33, saturday...two good meals today breakfast and a snack. lunch ended up being 1500 calories, not good. then, i binged more. total so far: 2620 calories... I'm having such a problem controling my intake on the weekend, especially! I feel like I am a mess! I will take a walk later, outside, for about 1 hour. -__________________________________________________
day 34, friday, 1765 calories.
I had a lot of filling meals today. A Kashi meal with 2 whole peppers, a cucumber with vinegar and spices, and a large plum for lunch. Yeah, it was a bit much, but pretty low in calories for the amount of food I had. I would have liked a 1500 calorie day but it was a hungry day, especially after the Yoga. I have a bad habit of really stuffing myself up after Yoga. I had a day off today, that's why I went!
I also had two rehearsals today. I fell alseep after having another meal when I got home after the first rehearsal. I think I slept for 2 hours! Then, I had something else to eat, which tasted bad. I melted cheese on a rice cake and sprinkled it with pizza spices and put canned tuna on top. It tasted terrible! I don't think I really enjoy tuna anymore. I also had a yellow pepper with that. After rehearsal, I had a weight watchers ice cream with chocolate swirl. It's pretty good.
Tomorrow I'll work out in the morning and plan my lessons for next week and practice some conducting. I may even practice the french horn! I am worried about the conducting because I always wait till the last minute. I procrastinate because the conducting makes me nervous and that makes me more nervous. It's like an endless cycle.
Today, during my first rehearsal, there was a French horn professor there. He complimented my french horn playing! that felt real nice and its motivating me to practice harder!
alright all, goodnight!
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 1.4 lbs to go!
You really got through your observation with flying colors the other day! I would have been a total wreck if my AP arrived, video recorder in hand. I don't think I'd be able to handle it.
Yay for getting complimented on your french horn playing!! That has to feel great!
Congratulations on getting complimented on your french horn playing!
edit: friday, day 34: I was feeling a little sick last night and I woke up feeling a bit under the weather. At first, I thought my throat last night was sore from talking a lot, all the food and poor digestion of it, and being up a lot.
However, I woke up with my throat feeling the same way and I might be under the weather. I'm doing pretty well though. I will go to yoga at 9:30am today as it is my day off.
I have a few engagements today like a rehearsal this afternoon and evening. I'm not going out after rehearsal tonight because I don't want to be out late and I will say I'm not feeling good. ------------------------------------------------------------------
day 35, thursday.
HAHA, it's not funny, but today was 2956 calories. (I weighed myself before breakfast, lol.) The excess calories were mostly in the form of carbs and some fat. LOTS of granola and some crackers at breakfast. Oh well, can't take it back now.
My observation went well today.
This short week was rather LONG. Monday I had a rehearsal after school and before that i went to get my nails done because I do it every week on the weekend, but didn't have time this weekend. I feel better about myself and how I look. I used to think that getting manicures was entirely too superficial for me, but I've changed. I also ran to the pharmacy on Monday. I was home around 6:30 and pretty tired.
Tuesday, my day OFF was entirely too much! I went to a full day of conferencing which was alright, nothing out of this world! Then, I had rehearsal all evening. I was home around 11pm.
Then, wednesday was quite busy. I gave a lesson to a student as soon as school ended. then, i drove to a teacher in-service course at the middle school. It ended at 5pm. then, i got a snack and drove back to my school to finish grades. then, i got home at around 8pm. I was too tired to do anything and shouldn't have even stayed up after eating. but, my sister had asked to use my computer since her's wasn't working. so, i used my energy to clean my room. haha. but, i did't even have enough energy i needed to finish preparing for today's oberservation. My brain was FRIED!!
I couldn't sleep and woke up before 5am this morning. I went down to have a substantial, filling breakfast. I ended up eating 5X more than I wanted to. I had 2066 calories just for breakfast, in less than an hour! I was videotaped while being observed teaching and I can see that my stomach was definitely bloated! haha.
this is what happens, especially when I'm not sleeping right! arg!!!
ok everyone, thanks for listening and for your comments! goodnight!
Progress as of today: 3 lbs lost so far, only 0.4 lbs to go!
Thanks for the comment you left me. I shall try peas with my spaghetti squash next time. My husband was impressed, but he didn't try it! Oh well, I'll convert him to my eating ways some day!
Very glad to hear that your observation went well!!
Take care..and thanks for your comment!
Edit: Day 35 (thursday)...LARGE BINGE for breakfast: 2066 calories, lots of granola and stuff like that. I was nervous for my observation, which went nicely! But, I still had things I wanted to go over and stuffing my face and stomach until they are swollen with food somehow helps me do that...not really, but in my head that's how I think. Completely stupid!
Day 36...1275 calories!!! woot!
So, the veggie burger brand is called "Nature's Promise," and the flavor I bought was garlic and chedder, for 95 calories a burger. I find they taste best on rice cakes. Today I had small, satisfying portions during the school day and really didn't have enough time like I usually do to pick up a snack on the way to a meeting after school. So, I didn't have anything.
After the meeting, I picked up this awesome new drink at a 7/11 store. It was pretty small, but really good. It's by the new brand cocoavia. They also make chocolate "nutrition bars." The chocolate drink had 150 calories, 3 grams of fiber, and 6 grams of protein. Usually, I don't like to buy drinks (I prefer food), but it was late in the day and I had only 605 calories and it was around 5pm. I had it before I went back to my own school to enter the rest of the grades in. Then, I bought a small peanut protein bar for 110 calories on the way home to satsify me so I wouldn't walk in the door STARVING!
When I got home, it was 7:45. I ate a large dinner, but not for many calories. Two large tomatoes in balsamic vinegar with my new "Pizza spices." Then, a cup of egg whites with bran fiber mixed in and microwaved, it comes out like a big pancake. I put a ton of cinnamon and a little cream cheese on it. Then, I had two large plums and 6 tam tam crackers! LOL. big dinner. Actually, it comes out to about 410 calories. That's a lot of food for so little calories!
Tomorrow I get observed by the chairperson. She will also be videotaping me and commenting on it. We'll see how it goes, so far so good!
Thank you for all of your lovely comments, I will try to get to some of your journals now. It's a relaxer for me!
goodnight!
Progress as of today: 1 lbs lost so far, only 2.4 lbs to go!
day 37.... 1510 calories. not bad! I hope my guess is not too far off! I estimated 500 for all the chicken I had at lunch with some light sauce and really small diced mango pieces, just a few.
I had breakfast and a balance bar before the conference. I had a plate of chicken at the conference for lunch seasoned with a little sauce. I am guessing it was around 500 calories. My total so far today is 1250. I have a rehearsal tonight, instead of the usual Thursday evening, so I will have to eat more or I won't get through the rehearsal. this may be mental, but that's how I feel. I had two more 100 calorie balance bars after the convention today and then I came home and had two massive tomatoes along with two cut up cucumbers all dipped in vinegar with some spices that I added to it. I was so thankful for the veggies, because I wouldn't have had any all day if it wasn't for that!
I'll update calories later. weight was down, but I bet it may be up tomorrow. It was probably also low because of my extra low calorie day yesterday. Today I had wanted that, but with the food offered, I had to make do. Wednesday I will be more careful, enjoying the other two of my 95 calorie veggie burgers.
now, i just have to go vote and go to rehearsal.
bye for now.
Progress as of today: 2.4 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!
edit: day 38 - 1060 calories!
so far, 900 calories. If I am really good, I can try to make it below 1100 calories for today. I did this by having a small breakfast of the smallest of apples and a HUGE amount, 4 tablespoons, of FF cream cheese on a rice cake with cinnamon, pumpkin pie spice, and nutmeg. I may even use more cream cheese in the future. It helps you have that "hit the spot" feeling. It's that satisfied feeling you get when you have something rich and decadent, lol. Fat free doesn't sound it, but it tastes it. Make sure you use the Philadelphia brand and not store brand. I've tried both.
I had a veggie burger that I never tried before. I think its called Nature's Promise. I was skeptical because they looked so plain. However, the box promised a good taste and it was!!! Plus, 4 grams of fiber. I'm not going downstairs to check what exactly it was, maybe i'll update about that either tonight or tomorrow. I will definitely buy them again, for 95 calories each!!!!
Tomorrow is some kind of conference, not at school. I am nervous about the food part. I have no idea what it's like. However, I'm bringing a few 100 calorie balance bars with me. I am hoping not to have a bad day tomorrow, but I can't go nutty with the food when I am around people that may impact me getting a future job!
thanks for all your comments. Today was an overall pretty good day. I am pleased with my face. It is far from perfect, but has improved GREATLY! its soo much clearer! Makes me feel good!
I hope you all have a wonderful evening! :)
Progress as of today: 0.4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
You mentioned apples in your entry...I love apples. I think fruit is very low in calories and very good for you!
swedish massage = regular north american massage!
OH MY>>>> edit: 3700 calories today....lots of chocolate, jelly, power bars, 2 yogurts, peanut butter on top of all the things I ate today! I don't understand. again, bad way to start a week!
Day 39...2400 calories. haha, same as geevee yesterday. I guess my sincerity of eating 1400-1500 every day for 65 days is not holding up! I am still trying. But, with such a higher cal day (far better than the 4015 day last week!!!!), I would rather aim lower than 1400-1500 for the days following. so, I will try. tuesday I have a conference and may not be able to eat with an exact plan because I cannot be concentrating on food when I'm supposed to be engaged in the activities of a conference all day. I will bring some 100 calorie balance bars with me on Tuesday.
today was the Swedish massage. I had no idea what to expect. I am usually a very easy to please person, but I was actually NOT pleased with the massage today!!!! I felt like the woman started out too gentle, probably because she knew I never had a massage before. then, when she asked how the pressure was, I said she could use more. then, haha, it was too much! so, i said, you can back off a cinch! however, she kept going back to how it was at the beginning and I had to remind her to add more pressure. this occured every time she did a different limb: arm 1, leg 1, arm 2, leg 2, etc. she did kill my head though, that was rough. but i didn't say anything becuase it was better than massaging it too gently. It's like the princess and the pea or something like that. I know that it wasn't that great and I will not be going back. It cost 45 beceause I had a 10 dollar off coupon.
although today was very high calories, I ate a lot of healthy foods, in addition to some not healthy. Healthy includes: egg/bran, tomatoes, yellow pepper, persimmon (fruit), apples, red beans, peanut butter, rice cakes, soy milk
totally unhealthy: no pudge ice cream bar, tons of sugar alcohols, diet orange soda
unhealthy/too much: cup of granola, 420 calories. 4 carob coated rice cakes, 120 calories each = 480 calories. oh, and this was all dessert to my lunch! 5 slices of cheese Lunch was 1200 calories! wow! I also have a stomach that can expand forever, and I do feel it.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 1.4 lbs to go!
Today is a new day...good luck staying within your range!!
I don't know how you all do it with the 65 day stretches, I break up my time into 7 day periods, the longer periods caused me to lose focus. Now I just track the week. Good luck today!!!
day 40, 1625 calories. at first, it would have been 1510, but then I got a hunger sensation. lol. so, i had a small apple and some ff cream cheese on a rice cake.
Lately, I'm obsessed with fat free cream cheese. I highly recommend it to cream cheese lovers or anyone who likes something creamy for so little calories! after smoothing it onto a rice cake, you can add cinnamon, nutmeg, pumpkin pie spice, or any other sweet spice and it tastes even better!
eating was pretty good because I had many small meals. However, during the late morning, I got a huge hunger attack and was able to control myself because I had to teach a lesson and couldn't be late by stopping to get more food after I had a snack of a pria bar.
I went to yoga, an activity I haven't done in about a month!!!! I loved it and got there early so I could be in the front. only thing is, the heat really exhausted me and I felt really nauseus when it was over! luckily, the feeling went away pretty quickly.
I was going to do some work today but I'm leaving it for tomorrow. I'd rather go to sleep and wake up with energy. Today I woke up really early, 6am. I had gone to bed around 11. My body has a lot of trouble sleeping late, no matter when I go to bed. so, tomorrow's a new day!
the face peel did work to the degree that i did see improvement. the peel has different intensities and I was given a pretty low dosage of acid, 20%. it is offered in gradations of 10%: 10, 20, 30, etc. The dermatologist decided what I'd receive. However, now it is 3 days later and I see that maybe a higher dosage could have been used because my chin is having some trouble still. however, that's why most people say, and the derm. says, you have to get the peels more than once. so far, I'd recommend it!
goodnight all!
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!
Glad the face peel is working too!! Have a great day!
day 41 . 1485 calories.
for some reason, when i woke up today, my weight was a couple pounds down! that's a lot, in one day. perhaps that laxative tea worked. It's called "Smooth Move." The brand is "Traditional Medicinals" and they actually sell it in most supermakets around my area. They sell is in regular and I think chocolate flavored. I used the regular, which is pretty good because it includes licorice root, which is a flavor I generally like in my teas, along with some other things.
Surprisingly, after last night's episode, I was very awake at work today and I felt good! I woke up before my alarm today and took some extra time to get ready, still getting to work in a timely manner even though I left my house quite late. I really felt good today, even though I was a little tired from time to time.
I also ate well today. Breakfast was a little bigger, but totally a good portion, 295 calories. Then, a had a couple things during work and a double meat subway wrap. Now, I had a large dinner. With a ton of fiber:
Egg whites and powdered bran with 2 small cucumbers and one large tomato and balsamic vinegar as an appetizer. Two microwavable dinners of about 250 calories each.
The whole dinner comes out to 660 calories. Now, I had planned on having just one Kashi meal. However, my calories for the day were way under 1400-1500. That's the reason for my splurge of a second kashi dinner. These frozen meals are REALLY good! I haven't had these before. I love all the types of grains they include!
As I read everyone's diaries, I see many people are finding things to do to splurge on themselves (besides food). Workingit bought some lotions. well, I'm getting a massage for the first time on Sunday. I'm looking foward to it. Just because I don't know what to expect, I asked for a woman.
Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 1.2 lbs to go!
Glad you feel better and are down on your weight..that tea must've done the trick!
I have only had one massage; just last spring, and it was heavenly! Are you going for a total body massage or just a certain part? My massage was for 30 minutes and I had her focus on my neck, shoulder and upper back area; some spots hurt because I had knots in my muscles and she knew just how to find them and work them out..and it hurt at first but then once the muscle began to relax ...ahhhhhhhh!!!
Ok, now you've made me want another one!!
day 42, around 1175 calories! whoa. nice. I didn't even have too hard a time controlling them like I would have thought. this is probably bc yesterday I had a lot of food in the evening, something I usually never do. I drank a tea that has a laxative effect purposely last night. This is because a few days ago I had that 4000 calorie day and I was getting nervous beceause my body had not eliminated much in 3 days! then, i had some soy and bran for breakfast. Let me tell you, my body was back to itself by 9:30am today! haha
the glycolic peel pretty much just speeds up the rate at which the skin cells at the surface of your face come off. But, you don't actually peel anything. the peel is like a liquid acid that the doctor puts on your face and then you wash it off, like soap. weird, huh?! I did look in the mirror and notice a more consistant look, less blotchy. some people get peels just for cosmetic reasons like wanting to have less redness and things like that.
I had a massive fight when I got home at 10:30pm after rehearsals. I walked into the kitchen to make a light egg dish before wanting to go to bed soon after. My sister was in there, baking a cake. she VERY RARELY does anything like that. rarely meaning 3 times a year! well, when she makes anything, the kitchen looks like a tornado. I had no problem with that, but I did comment saying it was a mess. I continued to prepare what I was making: Washed a tomato, and measured some egg whites and powdered bran. well, my sister started to get on my case becease I moved the tablecloth over a part of the table she needed to clean. the table looked clean; and that's why I moved it! I didn't do anything just to piss her off. Then, my dad hears yelling and tells me that everything was ok till I got home and it was entirely my fault! ha, well, that's not necessary! He wasn't even there in the kitchen to see what went on.
my sister consistently yells/raises her voice to get my attentino or get my to do things. well, when she does that, it makes me want to listen LESS. Now, i'm not sure who's right/wrong. But, I am pissed at my sister and seriously sick of the way she can get my parents to get pissed at me and yell at me. they need to take care of their own business,not mine or business that includes only myself and my sister.
oh, i told my sister to "shut up" a few times. why!? because i wasn't in the mood to hear yelling at 10:30 at night. It's been a long day and night. I heard yelling when I stopped to drop some things off this afternoon. we are a yelling family. that's annoying.
anyway, I ran out of the house after the yelling. and, went to the only place open, a supermarket a few towns over so that I would take a while to get back home. I purchased a few things, came back almost an hour later. didn't talk to anyone.
goodnight all.
Progress as of today: 0.4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Sounds like you are also not your parents' favourite. But if it's any consolation to you, my brother eventually saw the error of his ways. Now he regrets his excessive closeness to our parents as they are constantly trying to interfere in his life and give him advice about his girlfriend, job, etc. But it's too late, he confided in them too much and now he can't get rid of them! So there is a lot of friction between them and as a result, I have now taken his place as the favoured child! My parents can't get enough of me. My, how the tables have turned!
So don't fret, you won't have your family on your case forever. They'll learn to appreciate you more in time!
Great job on keeping your calories where you wanted them to be!!
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Well you should probably be careful you don't get caught in a starve-binge cycle. That's what happened to me when I started counting calories. But I always had a huge appetite, ever since I was a kid.
WorkingIt on 11/11/2006:
I am just like you if I don't plan my meals, I get off track in a big way! Good luck bringing the binge/starve cycle to a halt, I know it is difficult!
WorkingIt on 11/12/2006:
That is great! Glad that you looked back on all your days and figured it out as a total instead of getting distressed at the individual...YAY for you!!!