the interview today was changed to sometime next week, the date and time not decided.
exercise: none.
calories: were good up until after the dress rehearsal/recording session. we went out to eat to houlihan's for someone's bday. I ate my food, which i didn't realize was fried until after it came. then, i had like almost 1/2 of my friends' dish. then, i stopped on the way home a picked up a cookies and cream white chocolate bar and a banana nut loaf slice of cake. I felt my heart racing as I ate and it wasn't hunger. I was having total mental cravings and it was due to how i was feeling about myself, crappy. I didn't enjoy the get together at Houlihans. I'm not close what the people I went out with and they are younger, like 3-5 years younger. All undergrads, and i wish i didn't go.
total calories: 3500.
exercise: 11 minutes. haha calories: 1655
today i ate healthy things...just too much at breakfast: 605 calories.
i am debating exercise. it won't be much as i should really take a nap before my long rehearsal! i also need to practice and warm up before it...and eat dinner, so exercise is the least of my worries.
i bought cookies from the vending machine today. probably one of the higher calorie things...280 to be exact. but, they were so good. oatmeal raisin. that's all i wanted. glad i did it, lol. but, interesting, my body right now is craving vegetables. however, i feel like i need something more substantial to make it thought the night. eh, maybe i'll just pick something up on the way home from rehearsal so i don't go to bed hungry. yeah, i think it will just be some veggies and protein for dinner.
calories will be a bit higher today because of breakfast and the cookie snack; but will still be a good amount of calories.
i'm rambling quite a bit now!
goodnight. good day.
Good luck with the long rehearsal!
edit: 20 min exercise and 1510 calories. not too bad for today.
my interview went pretty well overall. It was another one of those fast, 15-20 minute screening interviews. I played two musical instruments and all and now I'm off to a late night rehearsal. Friday I'll be having another interview after school...and I probably will not take off work...not a full day, anyway.
calories so far: 1380. not bad. I hope i'm not hungry after rehearsal tonight! I'm pretty full right now!
thanks for all the good luck wishes!
Thanks for your comment. When I complain about my hips, I mean all the fat hanging around them, not the actual bones, haha! I have 39-inch "hips". If only I could move a couple of inches from my hips to my chest, I could achieve that ideal 36-24-36 ratio, but I guess it's never going to happen!
Well, good luck with your interview on Friday! Knock 'em dead!
Edit on Wednesday morning: yesterday I did in fact have a large, sugar-loaded yogurt. 40 grams of sugar in that sucker! but, thats all i eat last evening. it was 240 calories. I'm tacking those calories to today's total, instead of yesterday.
For breakfast, 2 green peppers, 3 eggs. usually, i have up to two eggs, but that's done and over! so, breakfast = 270 cal plus the yogurt from the night before: 510 so far. My goal is around 1600 for the day!
have a good day!
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1400 cal.
35 min exercise! yay.
i ate a really, really filling dinner...and i am trying to NOT go back for more food...because i'm wanting more...not because i'm hungry. I'm nervous about my interview tomorrow...and all the work that i have to get done for my teaching. i took tomorrow off from work because I know it wouldn't be smart to go into work when i have to get caught up on so many things. if i went into work, my day would be occupied with teaching and i need to first get caught up on my own paperwork- and not leave the whole day to be taken up by other things! at least i know that that the students who i will not teach are the ones that understand the material the best...and therefore they will not be behind when i see them next.
YOU CAN DO IT!!!!
Probably a good idea to take off of work if you have lots of stuff to catch up on/ prepare.
Hope tomorrow goes well! :-)
well, of course i blew my day with a morning binge of 1140 calories.
overall, calories will be 1710 and exercise is 25 min walk.
i'm doing alright, could be better, trying to get through late night rehearsals, interviews, grad class, and work all rolled into one!
have a great day and evening!
Oh, and I loved reading that you like going to supermarkets! That is one of my favourite past-times, especially in America, because the supermarkets are so nice and big there. Over here they're much smaller and always so crowded, it's not as much fun. But I can spend hours grocery shopping in America - I love it! The last time I went, I had my husband drop me off at the store and leave me there for a couple of hours while he played basketball - I didn't want him hanging around getting irritated and making me hurry up!
Oh and guess what I got in London? The shirataki noodles! Yes! I have yet to try them, though. I am saving them for a hungry day... at the moment I am still too grossed out by the memory of that huge food-fest on Saturday...
Well, good luck getting through the rest of the week - sounds like a busy one!
Will you get a break during the summer?? I sure hope so! Hang in there!!!
edit: 1200 really healthy, excellent calories!
exercise: NONE! yeah, i'm just going to hang out. prepare for my week. this week isn't going to be a good exercise week due to the demanding schedule! I will try to fit it in the best i can!
Hi Everyone,
After today's 1200 calories...and I must do exercise too..i'll update that later! well, after 1200 calories today, my 24 day average will be 1949. It's still going to take awhile to keep that average lower...and my weight lower. I weighed myself after a large breakfast and it said around 115. That means that since my lowest weight of about 106-107, i've gained about 8 lbs...since december. that's easily fixed, you would think! well, not that easy.
i was unmotivated to exercise today and I have lost my university ID to use the gym! I think I borrowed a book at the library and my ID was not returned to me! i think it might have been thrown out! that means i have to purchase another!!!! i've had to do this like at least twice as a grad student already! that means another $10 down the drain!
i've been chilling out most of the day, completely unmotivated to do much. I have so much to do in the upcoming week, its not even funny. I was supposed to have a job interview in ritsy Scarsdale, a rich upper class neighborhood in New York. but, i've decided not to go. the drive would be over an hour on Monday, my only day to do work for my grad class. I researched that district. Districts like that one generally don't hire candidates who haven't worked for awhile in another district. I have not been in any district longer than a year and my chances of being hired are so slim! so, i decided it is not worth the long drive on my only day where i can get some work done. plus, tuesday night i have class..followed by LONG rehearsals till 10:15 on wed, thurs and fri. then, i have a concert saturday night. oh, and another interview wednesday right after school.
plus, i can't take a day off work because i am the "band substitute teacher." that would be irresponsible...even though i'm going to feel like a zombie by wednesday. don't get me wrong, i don't want to feel like that...but how can i not!? my schedule demands too much and i don't have a choice.
i think i might see a psychiatrist and get a prescription for something that might make me relax...anyone have any experience with this? I'm taking the most important class, and last class, of my degree this summer. I must be able to sit down and study...and not for short periods of time. I want to take something that would help me focus...and do well...better than if i didn't have it. otherwise, i don't know if i can get though the course. it involves conducting and leading an ensemble consisting of my peers and other teachers...that are required to judge how i do and giv me feedback each night for a week straight. of course, i'm supposed to do work for it beforehand.
suggestions?
thanks everyone.
Ive been on antidepressants through my last year in University. It helped me a lot to focus, relax and reduce my anxiety. Some medications do cause drowsiness though. I think you should check with your psychologist which medication will suit you best.
edit for sunday morning: I'm trying to remember everyone's advice...and my own: today is a new day!
exercise for saturday = 70 min. yoga and a short walk. possibly more exercise later. but, i'll just say 70 min.
calories were 745 until dinner. then, i had a very filling dinner and ended at 1200...BEFORE MY BINGE on almost a full box of chocolates! I brought my total to 2040 for the day.
not a 1200 day. but, 2040 is better than 3040. hmmm.
have a goodnight, everyone.
thanks for the comments!
And wonderful job on the exercise! I haven't been to Yoga since the course ended that I was signed up for. I wish they had an evening course because I don't really enjoy getting out of a nice warm bed to go workout!! But I do miss the yoga!!
Hope that Sunday is a great day for you!!
Saturday: today i have a few things planned...teaching a lesson and then rehearsing with a friend. i promised myself to do yoga later this evening. I will do it no matter what! calories should be able to be kept to around 1200. I will be busy and i was able to sleep in till around 8am, which is later for me! haha. i still plan on going to bed around 10 or so. this day is looking good so far!
Friday: 1205 cal.
yoga, 60 min exercise
today ended up turning out alright. teaching could have been a little better...i wasn't happy about how the day went. nothing went terribly, but i hadn't taught lessons to the friday groups in over a month because of vacation and trips so the kids had forgotten A LOT! I wish i had planned a bit more for that!
then, i did do yoga, which made me feel extra good!
i went to meet a friend for starbucks and we chatted it up... we discussed our difficulties in finding jobs that we're satisfied with. we're both 24 yrs old and a little depressed about our work/living situations.
next, i suggested we go to the supermarket to pick up a few things! LOL! we both love going there! I actually have a few friends that love to go to the supermarket. weird, huh? but, only when its less crowded...that's the best time. so, we browsed down all the isles! definitely not the typical Friday night hangout!
it's been a bad week.
i had work, then an interview, then rehearsal till 10:15 at night. I'm as frustrated as can be.
WAYYY too many ups and downs.
yesterday's calories: 1000.
yesterday's exercise: half hour.
today's calories: a MAJOR binge ocurred this afternoon. total calories today are 2500. the binge was totally because of the job interview. oh just so you know, i had about 650 calories up until this afternoon. so, the binge was like 1900 or so!...in one sitting!
today's exercise: nothing.
goodnight.
Hoping that Friday is a better day for you...I really hope you find some time to do something you enjoy this weekend, you deserve it.
Take care...
Wednesday edit: i'm feeling horrible...i should remember this and remember not to binge next time!
no exercise.
ok, my 19 day calorie average is currently 2044. not so hot. i just had a large binge, for dinner no less! plus, i've opted not to exercise. this is a perfect time to get work done...i am satiated to the point of no return...like i can just sit and do my work and forget about most things. If you had a sugar load like i just had, you'd understand! it involved lots of leftover candy, cookies, powerbars, chocolate, lays chips, and other carb/sugar rich things in my house. (that i don't buy, but eat; and get in trouble for!)
well, the bloated feeling is back!
MAJOR BINGE!
today should have been an easy low cal day! even 1500 is a high number compared to what i was capable of!
total cal: 3640. no exercise.
dinner calories were 2650, by the way.
blah blah.
3640 for the day! big mistake, huh!?
And wantabfit has a very good point, wednesday is a new day! All you have to do is make it better (how much better is up to you) than today. And you will be moving in the right direction again! Easy as pie! wait, no... easy as broccoli! yeah, broccoli, that's better. :-)
Hang in there you can do it!
Huggles
Pat
Take care and I hope that Thursday is a wonderful day for you!
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Those mental cravings are the hardest. Hang in there. Tomorrow is a brand new day and you will make much better food choices. Hope the rest of your weekend goes smoothly!
borntocry on 04/28/2007:
Oh dear, I'm sorry to hear about your get-together. It sounds kind of like my trip last weekend with my husband and his basketball team. I felt kind of awkward and uncomfortable around his team and I guess I must have turned to food for solace, because I totally stuffed my face, to the point of physical discomfort (which rarely happens to me). I wonder what is the best attitude towards such events - to try to avoid them altogether, or figure out a way to deal with them so they don't affect us like this.
greengirl on 04/28/2007:
I sometimes feel like that at work, wondering why I'm out with people who I wouldnt make friends with normally in a social situation, but that's life!!!