total binge today. but of course, it's not too late to change my ways and reverse this cycle!
so tomorrow i have fun plans. last minute which i made tonight. going into the city for a day of sledding...although the weather says it'll be in the 40s! so i hope sledding is still possible! it should be a good time with a good friend! :)
texting/phone conversation went bad last night with the guy....he made me feel very insecure about wanting to talk to him on the phone (which we didn't end up doing) because he would rather go to sleep than talk for 5 minutes. i don't really want to go too much into detail bc its not too important ... or i don't want to make this that important in my life right now....
so i'm ignoring this guy...he did text me tonight twice...and i responded...but then i didn't respond to his other texts. and if he contacts me tomorrow i may get back to him but otherwise he can wait till sunday for my response. bc, even though it sounds that way to you guys lol, he's apparently NOT on the top of my list. or rather i don't want him to think that i think about him that much. bc it went to his head and he's not treating me the way i would even want a friend to treat me.
lol, this isn't very detailed. i think i just wrote it more for me so i can remember how i felt today.
this guy isn't a boyfriend, he's a friend i've had for like 6 years, living a distance away in another state....
ok, today was NO exercise. BINGE.
tomorrow's a new day. and i'll take it as such. exercise will simply be going to the city and walking around. that's exercise enough for me. and tomorrow night i'll be home....bc i want to be. i need to catch up on some things before next week.
goodnight all.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
BREAKFAST YOGURT 150
SNACK 100
LUNCH: 400
SNACKS: PIZZA 450, ICE CREAM 600, ICE CREAM 400...
ROLL 280, FRIES 500, cookies 300.
CAKE 1000?
GREAT day. just kidding. but i am happy bc the week actually went pretty well. i'm taking it one day at a time. that's it.
around 4150 or so.
no exercise. did it yesterday. need to study. was gonna call this guy that i talk with on and off but now i'm just feeling full.
will go for a shower...and see what happens.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
Have a good one!
breakfast: protein bar (bad choice, left me without energy) 200
snacks: drinks: 170
lunch: subway: 500
snacks: protein bar 240, ice cream 600, jello 60, celery 40
total so far: 1810
after gym food: egg whites prepared like an omelette, veggies. 300 or so.
total: around 2150. good day.
i kinda planned to have all the ice cream and other stuff too. not counting it as a binge.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
breakfast: apple 80
snacks: 230
lunch: lg coffee, pretzel: 450
SNACKING: edamame 300, ice cream 600, popcorn 250, soup 300, celery 40, strawberries 50.
total: 2300. maybe 30 minute stroll on treadmill.
running low on sleep.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
breakfast drink 90
snack: apple, drink: 160
lunch: subway: 350
snacks: edamame, light ice cream: 500
more ice cream 200
dinner: will be veggies and light egg omelette and more veggies probably.
total: 1700.
exercise: none. tired out...needed to study. well, did a little. but i don't want to go to bed too late tonight bc i want to have a good week ahead.
ahhh. and the crazy phone call i had tonight with someone asking me to play in their group - a band - might just make me REALLY ill. you don't even want to know...as i was writing this, she called. and now i'm kinda annoyed. ugh.
changing careers is the hardest thing on earth. especially when nothing has gone right.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
breakfast: protein drink 90
snack: package edamame, drink: 400
lunch: bagel, egg, cheese, coffee 560
snacks: 170
dinner: pizza, salad, 2 skinny cow ice creams 700
total: 1930. ok. lol. better.
i have GOT to change my ways. on an interesting note, already 1/12 of the year has passed! that's a lot. so i have 11 months left of this year. boy time flies. for february, my goal is not to binge (by binge i really mean eat over 2,000 cal) any day. also, i'm going to make a big goal for myself for this month.
my february goals:
eat 1500 cal per day or less. every day for one month. exercise daily - even if it's only 20 minutes. no days off. get more sleep - be in bed by 9:30 or 10. try it and see how it goes. stress less about school, procrastinate less! :)
exercise: one hour elliptical at gym.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
horrible day full of binging on everything good and lack of exercise.
all is good. at least i accomplished some important things at home. but, if i wanted to, i didn't have to do much of any work today. my new years plans went straight out the window started last week and i realize i need to redirect my desires if i want to be successful.
exercise tomorrow morning. perhaps even 1.5 hours straight on the elliptical. it'll be at least one hour for sure.
donkey was right when she told me to be careful. i should have taken her advice. ha.
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Saturday entry:
breakfast: grapefruit, pizza, bag of quaker mini chocolate rice cakes. total: 1,000 was tasty. feeling good right now. not wanting to binge on anything else.
BINGING all day.
went to bed late last night around 2pm. was filling out scholarship applications. hopefully i really will get at least one this year. i could use the extra cash.
no yoga as it would be painful. maybe a walk in the park. i actually just want to study...easy stuff though. yeah.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
Take care and have a great day! I truly hope you get the scholarships!
well, since i binged like a crazy person all week, i have now binged a total of 9 times this month. that really brings up the percentag of binge days. I've binged a total of about 1/3 or 33% of the month. eww. one our of every 3 days was a binge which is pretty bad.
the only goal i have for myself is the same goal i always have: love the gym more than food. don't go back for more after a snack. i am not worried. i'll succeed. although time is falling short. and i'm getting fat.
Friday entry:
yes i did awesome during the day.
yes i binged horribly in the evening. and weird thing is i don't even care right now. only thing i am thinking about is having a good day tomorrow.
so stressed out. but really no reason to be. this week and last week included LOTS of tests. next week should be ok.
i didn't calculate calories but it has to be around 4500 at least.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
breakfast: yogurt w. pumpkin and pupmkin butter (very sugary but its in my house and i love it), cinnamon, 2 rice cakes: 250
lunch: pretzel, coffee 400
i did great but did end of in a sorta binge today. i will add up what happened after work...cellnique 90, flatbread 300, popcorn 250, yogurt w. p putter and pumpkin 170, 3 servings chips 450, microwave veggies 125, cucumber 60, 2 pieces buttered toast w. some cheese 400, whole bag of these chocolate/caramel coated mini rice cakes (7 servings) 420...cereal w. milk 240: total:
3100 approximate. great job. not really actually. i have a big test tomorrow which may be part of my reason for binging. of course not a good reason....
tons of dried fruit. more bread w. butter.
4500 total.
haha. at this rate i can gain 20 lbs come April!
just kidding. i'm on top of things...totally. rough week this week. no reason to binge though. tomorrow we have a bagel breakfast.
i am happy though at how i exercised most days this week. at least i stayed on top of that.
summer will be awesome but i need to be in shape BEFORE it, way before it, to enjoy it. it's not too late in the least.
i have been having progress, then backsliding. this whole year i've noticed that i do well, then go back, do well, go back. kinda depending on the type of week it is at school. if we have WAY many tests, i can almost predict diet failure. i know it doesn't have to be that way.
today i woke up an hour early and got to school over an hour early so i could easily find a spot and study. maybe this is what did it. i really don't know.
i don't even feel stressed right now. but that's because i'm on another carb overload. hmmm. i guess i'll have a good workout tomorrow thanks to all the carbs. i doubt i'll exercise tonight.
goodnight all.
i probably weigh 140. without bloating. very high for someone slightly under 5'2".
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
how.. I have never tried this
Have a good Thursday!
breakfast: apple, tea. i forgot if i really had an apple or not! it might have just been tea.
snacks: 2 cellniques, large coffee: 220
lunch: hot pretzel, mustard/ketchup, small coffee: around 450
late snack: multigrain soy chips 150
late dinner: beans w. almonds 160, salad and light dressing 100, yogurt w. pumpkin butter and cinnamon 150. 410.
total: 1310...i may have something else...
either way. pretty good day. elliptical for 45 minutes.
goodnight. sorry for lack of comments. i'll catch up on friday.
Progress as of today: -12 lbs lost so far, only 22 lbs to go!
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have fun sledding!!!!!!
loveray on 02/07/2009:
hi honey- i hope you had an ok friday night- i am excited to hear how your "fun plans" went. just stopped by to remind you what a beautiful soul you are- i am fortunate to have crossed paths with you. xoxo
Maria* on 02/07/2009:
Sledding sounds like FUN!!! Hope you are having a real nice day!
YepItsMe~ on 02/07/2009:
Hope you have fun sledding!!! Sounds like a great time!
Donkey on 02/07/2009:
I hope you had a better day today (Saturday). Forget the guy, move on.