2190 5 day. sorta high.
Happy Valentines! Company provided bagels! They are very tasty! And i was able to toast mine! yum!
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Kombucha 70
Breakfast & Morning Snack: 1/2 bagel 200, cream cheese 150 (rest of bagel later 200), cashews 100, berry tea with extra sweetener fruit punch drops lol yes ...banana too 100. total here :750 - fine!
Lunch: it's healthy - lots of veggies and one of my pork burgers 200 - gonna do a low carb lunch i think. um, i think lunch was 700 cal...very big portions.
very dark chocolates 100
1650...
Dinner before gym at home:
2000...
2250 total.
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GYM tonight & hopefully getting there earlier...bed early...
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Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Kombucha 60
Breakfast banana 120, wrap 60, cheese 100, egg 70: 350 - wow a lot of food for such low cals!...lol full but had a chocolate! 70
total so far: approx 470
snack: Peanut butter crackers package 190, coffee
lunch: all healthy for sure...from home i think i have rutabaga type of root veggie it was precooked from a specialty asian market by me (bought lots of food on the weekend - no need to purchase too much besides a dinner or two this week!) asian tofu flavored 100, tons of rutabaga 150?, and i think that's it?? might be forgetting something? 250...maybe coffee for dessert after..and some cauliflower in sauce 50, and chips 150 tops.450...
1150 after tasty lunch...snack clementine 50. AND CHOCOLATE 50
1250 :)
dinner: before class tonight...or even just a buttered roll and soup ...from deli. if they have split pea or lentil, that's my plan!!!
1800 after dinner...
after class: maybe nothing, sleep early tonight since last night was a late one (went to bed like 10:30pm and up at 5:15am...gets me way too tired to do this every night).
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Lately, I am enjoying my fair share of cheese! Mozzerella it is - since i have a small package to use up at home. At work we have a toaster and i was able to heat up egg and cheese on a low cal wrap...tasted AMAZING!
2050 total. I gained some weight around belly button area it's obvious so I will have to watch calories which is what I am doing better than the past few weeks :) specifically from eating too much on weekend.
2175 4-day
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Home: kombucha 60
Breakfast: pork burger (is filling at least, taste not so great...) in light wrap 300,chocolate 70, tea.
snack: banana 100 & chocolate 70 (idk, i really enjoy the chocolate / jell fillings)
lunch: all healthy from home: and a candy and a clementine. 500 total. later a coffee
snack: clementine / chocolate: 100
dinner: with Ricky before gym should be good..barley soup and some other things - good energy for lifting / workout out! prob around 500?
healthy total is 2050, excellent
snack after gym: yogurt and cranberries i am thinking! 200..and peanut butter 100.
Gym was great, but i was really bad today at the situps! i dont know why?! but my pushups were improved as were all my leg exercises.
I must continue to strive to do my best by keeping an excellent 3x a week schedule!
My phone is in my car and it's freezing out so i should probably get it....not happy to have to go back outside at 9pm at night...but glad it's in my car and not at the gym....
goodnight.
on another note, i'm going to stop chitchatting as much as work, don't need to cause a problem for myself bc i talk too much - that could be a disaster.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
we have everything...i'm in queens, one of the boroughs of NYC, so you bet that a good majority of supermarkets are going to have ground products - all of them.
there was nothing mixed in except maybe some kinda light preservative, i used some spices though def not enough of them...i have so much more port left, maybe i'll combine some cheese with my breakfast tomorrow also...going heavy...only one problem eating this for breakfast is that you don't get the "fast energy" of sugars / carbs...like you get from cereals and other fast carbs...but you do feel better as the morning passes instead of more & more hungry. i made small burgers, just a little bigger than those small "sliders" as restaurants call them.
I enjoy seeing your daily calorie totals because they give me something to look forward to in the fairly near future. I'm looking forward to upping my calories in a couple months when I switch to "maintaining". Once I hit goal, base daily calories to maintain is supposedly around 2300 calories for me.
Hello :)
Slept a long 10hrs at least. Loving all the sleep I can get in weekends.
Breakfast: pancake: banana 120, oats 80, egg and white 100, blueberries 50, butter 50, stevia, finished my cashew butter 100. Tasty. Kombucha 70. 570. I blended the first 3 ingredients with stevia and added the blueberries while cooking and the rest of the ingredients were toppings :)
noon mostly lunch & snacks: 650
1250..aim for today is 2000 cal or less :-)
3pm snacks: butter popcorn and an orange & plum 350.
1600 def home for the night, doing laundry soon and relaxing...
I think 2200.
2 day avg is 2300.
Ready to sleep early tonight
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I did a lot this morning: Dermatologist appt was at 9:30 to which i got to exactly on time! Then, i did errands all in walking distance: picked up a few things at the supermarket near dermatologist, picked up a free hand lotion with coupon at Bath & Body works, picked up some fancy food products at a specialty food market, looked at (but didn't buy bc nothing was really that nice) the wall art at Home Goods...
then drove to get gas on the way home & picked up some kombucha and then i was still hungry even though i had a hot dog while out for lunch lol...so i picked up lots of ready-prepared food at the place i buy kombucha. i haven't picked up this ready-made food for awhile...now, honestly, i shouldn't have to buy anything for lunch at work this week - i have SO MANY leftovers and also lots of fresh veggies in my fridge. i need to cut up the rest of the romaine that isn't yet wilted...had gotten it for the guinea pigs that never happened haha.
So i was out of the house 4 hours from 9am-1pm and got a ton done...i would almost take a nap now, but i'm more content to read a little, rest on couch, and when i feel better it's laundry time downstairs.
I'm content to rest up today before another full week ahead, including gym tomorrow night, class tuesday night, gym the following night again, followed by a night off any activities on Thursday & Friday :)
now i'm on the couch bc my legs are somewhat bothering me. i still have to do laundry and not sure if i want to go to the gym today to set up the running course since like i said it seems i might have minimal shin splints going on in my legs - or rather the muscles are just burning i don't know - from the excellent workout i did yesterday as well as the extra walking i do now everyday for communting - still getting used to it all.
right now i'm just starting to get used to the new exercise routine i do...which is why i am so sore. once i am familiar enough, that's when the running / cardio can come into play...next weekend is a 3-day of which i hope to use to DEFINITELY try the jogging out - i'll listen to it now to get familiar with what the "beep test" sometimes known also as "bleep test" sounds like so i can be overall more familiar with it before i try jogging / running it!
On a good note, my situps have improved already just a little bit since i started them probably around 2-3 weeks ago! My pushups have decreased in my ability probably mostly due to skipping many gym sessions. Overall i have improved with the new workout routine which is wonderful - i'm definitely better at it than i was the first week i tried the exercises. It's all about staying committed and consistant.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Middle of night snack granola bar and cashew butter 250
Breakfast: made a pancake! Egg and white 100, oats 100, banana 120, cranberries 80, stevia, butter 50, peanut butter 50, sf jelly 500 and very good before workout
750.....1200 before meal with parents....
Salad with feta and oil vinegar 150
Pita bread and some sauce 200
Meat and eggplant dish 250?
Fries and grilled veggies 200?
Later at home blueberries 150
2150...and total today around 2350. Some healthy some not. Overall decent.
Tasty breakfast before gym (seeing parents so not the big session I had planned which is frustrating bc it seems I have little control still over when I'm going to the gym bc of commitments that just seem to pop every week and it's royally a major pain). I had originally planned to see my parents Sunday but since they both somehow are working today Saturday - by me - I obviously agreed that today is a better day to get together at 2pm - the exact time I would have definitely been in gym so now my workout is earlier and will not be as long. If I did it tomorrow, it means the 3 sessions I planned this week turned into 2 bc I'd miss today - this winter it's been a challenge to get these sessions in.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Everything seems a little more difficult in the winter, I'm afraid.
Home: kombucha tasty...it woke me up 60.
Breakfast: coffee 50, turkey burger small in wrap 300, chocolate 70. 420.
snack: 1/2 banana 50 / nuts 150 / chocolate 70 ( i forgot if i took another). 270.
Lunch: nasty soup (was free yesterday though) 250?, chips with some sauce 160-200, veggies (not counting), clementine 50. 500 total = excellent, picked up GREAT food for dinner...really good veggies from the store 10min away.
1250...
snack: prob none, maybe 1 last chocolate....
Prob Not more than 1900, success !
I did great and got a haircut after work bc ther s a barbershop by the bus stop I get off at and a certain barber I trust to cut my hair - since as a female I must be careful who I choose !
2160 5day - not the worst ;)
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Home: kombucha 60
Breakfast: change of pace from home :) 1 egg 100, pb 100, small corn muffin 200. 400. (This breakfast was not as filling over the morning as a turkey burger...next week, seriously, i'm trying beef burgers in the morning - small ones)
10am snack: peanuts 150...
SO HUNGRY 11am but refraining from reaching for yet another snack...need to focus. part of a small rice krispie treat 50
650 before lunch.......grrrr.......doing good, the exercise last night has definitely got me more hungry today.
Lunch: not sure, going to a compliance meeting (mandatory to many in the company) from noon till 1:30 so food might be provided..bag of kettle potato chips and a wrap with fried chicken and i think some cheese and spread 500, 200 for chips
1350 after lunch, wrap for those calories wasn't worth it...not even that tasty. but the honey mustard dressing was nice.
Snack: clementine
Dinner: TBD..
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After work - i have an appointment for a laser hair removal that i paid for - it's like 10% of the regular pricing. the group of 6 treatments were $100 instead of like $700 so that's why i had bought it...i think i'm up to treatment 4 of 6. I'll go home, get my car, drive there. It's about 30 minutes i think from home. i should be home for the night between 7-7:30pm - which is typically the earliest i have been home this week - it does feel good to have been able to do all scheduled plans though...that is a positive - 2 gym sessions done M,W and my class Tuesday. An appointment tonight, Friday is to be spent HOME after work...and Saturday i have MAJOR gym plans - will be bringing snacks even - I plan to stay a long time practicing both cardio stuff and weights (if it's warm and doesn't rain, i may take the cardio part outside!) for now forcast says rain. at least it'll be warmer in the 50s.
I might eat mcdonalds for dinner, as i'm going to be parking in their lot for the appointment, so i might just eat there after...a salad, chicken nuggets, small fries - probably...or maybe even a hamburger :)..we'll see!
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Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
at the gym, besides the weight training, i plan to practice the "beep test" for the first time at the gym with my cones i bought for court officer training (there's two running tests that require the use of cones). so, i have a recording on my phone of this beep test so i can evaluate the level i am starting with...to see if it's even "passing" right now...and see how far i need to improve upon my starting point to get enough points to pass the "beep test" part of the exam! it's important i check on this.
Home: got outta bed too late, so only some water and a taste of honey....all is good, i mostly prepared the night before with food - so i'm set for the day.
Breakfast: wrap 100 with turkey burger (satisfying indeed) 220 (320), banana 120. total 450, dark chocolate 100
Snack: peanuts 150
Lunch: not the pizza, it's not helping me at all and simply creating cravings for more - no good - if i can work on ONE THING right now, it's my health and fitness..., so my lunch: roll toasted with butter 150, chicken sausage 150, lots of squash that was cooked with some oil 150-200. 500, good. - but i will prob take a taste of the pizza...i did - 100 cal there.
1300...
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nobody seems to drink liquids or pee at this job! i def pee and drink the most....not that i'm about to change that or anything.
Healthy dinner approx 550-600...
Total today 2050 with good choices.
2210 5day
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
i just know, in the back of my mind, that i can do it...and not to quit my endeavors yet..
it cannot be that all the things in life that i have put an emphasis on (fitness and health)...that they cannot help me in life...i want to join my hobbies and health and fitness with a career that has stemmed from them...for some reason, it has become a goal of mine to link the two...to make it so all the training i have done has actually gotten me something...a career.
also, my determination to do the exercise and get better is SO STRONG knowing that if i am good enough - i can change my career...
ok, more to come!
only thing is, i was extra hungry at work, without enjoy tea at home...i think it's worth it to drink something nice at home before going out to work in the morning....do you?
2250 - 4 day...
2000 calories Tuesday, excellent !
Good Morning!
Home: kombucha (didn't work) 100
Breakfast: banana 100, roll 130, turkey burger 220 (yep! - satisfying meat in the morning!)
snack: peanuts? 150 / coffee
Lunch: NOT pizza, no cakes, no nasty temptations. ate my food, healthy: lots of squash cooked with some salt and olive oil also, at least 200, roll with a little butter 150, finished up a chicken sausage 120 from yesterday. clementine 50. 500.
1200 before snack of 1 chocolate before dinner... small piece of exceptional cake - a mousse and cookie cake....just unreal. 150
1350 before dinner :)
Dinner: sushi before class tonight, 5-7pm 450....
late night snack if hungry: cooked cranberries and yogurt.
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Happy it's a new day. Going to definitely work on not being a "stinker" aka a negative-thinking downer.
Workout last night gave me a wonderful happy high by the time i was done...this is why i guess i couldn't get rid of the gym...and seeing the gymgoers - the regulars - another reason that i really prefer to continue at the gym & not start working out at home.
Also, at the gym, i use MANY different sizes weights - better than buying so many for home...i just like the gym atmosphere, A LOT! So, i'll continue on...so glad i got it in last night though it was tough to get up this AM!
My goal is to also get my booty to the gym on Wednesday night, i already have my clothes out by my gym bag ready to go!
Thursday & Friday are nights off, with Gym big time on Saturday :-P i think this shall be my schedule for gym for now :-)
At my gym there's so many fun regulars that i see: Savvas a greek guy who's much older but with family and always goes so is always fit, Savvas another greek guy who also owns a gas station lol weird but cool to see community all in the same gym (bc it's one of the only gyms around!), i see regulars all around
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
2400 total and good exercise - I luckily ate a really healthy dinner that ricky made which gave me great energy for gym and I was able to eat moderately after - I am staying away from cake Tuesday
Home: kombucha 70
Breakfast at work: turkey burger that didn't look completely cooked i screwed it up! 200, bun 130, chocolate 70, banana 120, tea: 520.
Snack: probably peanuts - YUM!!!! 150 CAL
750...
Lunch: pizza 800 / pepperoni 100? squash and chicken sausage that i brought - 150-200. 1050??
1800 after lunch...that's the only bad part to consuming a slice of pepperoni pizza..and it's NOT satisfying!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear, pizza sucks...it was good only the moments i was actually eating it...GRRRRR! not worth it!!!!!!!!
calories today will be over 2200....for sure....with dinner and exercise...this week is sucking...maybe i'll lay off the pizza tomorrow ? hard to eat less than one slice!
i don't think i want lots of cake and pizza all week...maybe stick to my own lunch and a bite of pizza / cake should suffice.
sorry all - having a bad day over here.
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BOSS BROUGHT IN BAGELS (SUPERBOWL HUGE WINNER OF $3000)
COWORKER BROUGHT IN CAKE (SUPERBOWL WINNINGS $300)
ANOTHER COWORKER ORDERING PIZZA FOR ALL OF US (SUPERBOWL WINNINGS $300)
ALL EXTRA CARBS, ALL ONLY TASTY IN THE MOMENT, ALL DO NOT HELP WITH WEIGHTLOSS OR HEALTH...
I THINK I'LL NOT HAVE THE CAKE!
I THINK I'LL NOT HAVE THE PIZZA
I THINK I'LL NOT HAVE THE BAGELS...IT'S ALL JUST JUNK, MAN! I GOT GOOD FOOD FOR TODAY!!!!!!!!!
FOR ALMOST 2 MONTHS I'VE SAT HERE AT WORK, EATING CRAP, AND IT HASN'T HELPED ME - I THINK I SERIOUSLY AM REFRAINING FROM MOST OF THE JUNK TODAY. I'VE BEEN MORE TIRED AND HUNGRY. MORE BLOOD SUGAR RUSHES...WHAT IS THE POINT!?
BUT ALSO I'M NOT UP TO REFRAINING FROM EVERY TREAT, SO, AT LEAST THE CAKE IS A NO-GO AS CAKE IS SERIOUSLY A WASTE. WE'LL SEE OF THE BAGELS. AND I THINK PIZZA IS ANOTHER WASTE...THAT I REALLY DON'T DO WELL WITH - THE BREAD AND CHEESE - REALLY NO GOOD....UNLESS I BRING A LOT OF VEGGIES - THEN I CAN ENJOY THE PIZZA...MIGHT AS WELL HAVE IT TOMORROW, IT'S FREE....
SO IN THE END, NO TO THE CAKE. YES TO PIZZA. AND NO TO THE BAGEL ALSO - I HAVE A NICE POTATO ROLL THAT I CAN TOAST...
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This weekend just involved junk food and errands and not too much else...
**Boss brought in bagels and they are something i plan NOT to eat today** i think i need to give up on some of the treats in this office...they really aren't helping me...then again, i can have half a bagel wtih my lunch, no? LOL. too much...i'm sort of happy i ate breakfast not knowing about the bagels...i got some healthier things in - banana potassium, some of the turkey burger (good protein) a roll (far less calories than a bagel), chocolate - why not!?, and tea. **
I'm not relaxed and would love having a week off - starting now - but since that's not happening, i'll just relax at my desk and not stay as stressed as last week when i didn't have work to do - i'll just look at my teskbook, online, and wait for the work when it comes...and not worry. if i lose this job, it seriously wouldn't be the end of the world....i sincerely think that. i'd even settle for the lower pay at a different place in walking distance to my home :-)
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Tonight the plan is to stop by Ricky's apt bc he's off today and eat the dinner he makes, then walk 5 min to my own apt, get my gym clothes, and go to gym. If i skip it, it'll not be good bc tomorrow i have the class and Thursday i have an appt to go to that needs to be kept - i've been cancelling it for 2 months.
I could use many days off right now...feeling bogged. The appt is at a place no long open on weekends...so that's why it doesn't make sense to keep cancelling...and i'd rather not make it for the next day off - President's Day later this month on the 19th i think....i'd rather be free of appts then.
Sorry, lots of complaining in this entry...
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Trying to eat healthier, my appetite / food choices have changed and not for the better...still working on getting it more under control and for my skin to clear back up - it's not terrible, but it's also not great at all.
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Bc of all the guinea pig errands of buying & returning and a little prep...and then stopping by the house party for a little while Saturday eve, i actually FAILED to work out at the gym last night as planned which is pretty stinky for sure!
I am disappointed that i didn't work out bc now it's a challege (once again) to fit in 3 sessions a week - AGAIN. It's upsetting bc i am already getting weaker and it's been really difficult to exercise during the week like i was when i drove to work - AND i have the class on Tuesday so that is one day that exercise is a definite NO - since by the time i get out of that class, i'm ready for bed...
It's not that i was relaxing all weekend on the couch, no, i was running errands particularly with the guinea pigs i had hoped to keep but obv didn't. Also, i spent time rearranging my apt & moving furniture - Ricky helped me hang a beautiful picture and a mirror. They were seriously in my apt standing against the wall on the floor for like 2 months waiting to be hung up! So glad that chore has been completed. Apt looks SO MUCH better.
It's just upsetting that the gym didn't happen (my body was tired, legs tired) and i'm not about to get sick again just bc of trying to fit in the gym. I am needing TONS of sleep this Winter - like 9 hours a night feels wonderful when i get that. And i just feel little time is left to actually go out / see friends. This is class #3 and i have 9 more weeks till it ends first week April which is wonderful. Honestly, it's like i should give up the court officer dream, bc it's been SO DIFFICULT to improve my fitness, but i'll keep on trying - as I'd rather do that than this.......but i've got to get myself in MUCH better shape...somehow...by actually working on it...and not skipping out.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Part of this, I think, is just being winter time. We want to eat more, and more junky food because it has more fat and calories, we want/need more rest to protect us against the stress of the elements, including germs & viruses. Throw in some hormones and you're fighting one heck of a fight against Nature.
So this is temporary. And you will come out of this victorious.
And it's not like you didn't accomplish anything over the weekend. I give you props for going to the party, for decorating your apartment. These are all positives. Keep your chin up!
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Hope you have a wonderful day. :-)
slow but good :)
bearcountrygg on 02/14/2018:
I got into the bagels today too...LOL
they don't satisfy me...at all! i eat half with cream cheese or a whole one...an hour or two later, i'm hungry. too many carbs for stable blood sugar right!? do you get that way too?
bearcountrygg on 02/14/2018:
Actually my blood sugar was 105 today ( after eating bagel).....being a carb does raise it a bit....so that was really good for me...I often am around 70 which is a problem that needs quick sugar....below 70 is seriously a problem....so bagel and 105 is super good for me. But carbs don't satisfy hunger for long usually...today I was just all messed up....feeling generally yucky....much better now.
eating carbs at end of a meal or after veggies and protein tends to make them more satisfying for me...
graindart on 02/14/2018:
Bagels, cream cheese, cashews, and dark chocolate. Your list of food items today entails most of what I love to eat, but haven't had much of during the past 10 months. In the past I'd normally eat a couple toasted bagels with each half prepared differently. One with butter, one with peanut butter, one with cream cheese, and the last with whatever tasted the best.
Love cashews, especially freshly roasted with large bits of salt on them. Love dark chocolate.
Unfortunately I have portion control issues with all of them, so have found it easier to just skip for now. Just another couple months and I'll try introducing them back in, hopefully in moderation.
actually, bagels do stink and it really messed with my appetite yesterday...i'd say mostly stay away from them...only reason i was eating them is because i personally didn't buy them...
i have new cashews with salt and pepper....and the black pepper helps me not eat as many bc it's not sweet...i realize i can make them on my own with salt and pepper lol ...
and the chocolate i started to buy mostly more for work - i thnk ghardinelli and lindt brands...individually wrapped..so i try to take one but lately it's increasing and i want another...i have to also work on portions...but they do say dark chocolate is healthy which is why i'm keeping with it (although i admit to buying WHITE chocolate and flavored other ones which do NOT provide a benefit! LOL)
for me, when i was first dieting years ago, i was much more strict. it takes years (for me approx 15 years) of learning - and still learning - the best foods and choices, etc., for holding my weight steady. right now i feel i gained, but hope it'll just go down without major restriction - as long as i'm active and bring calories down just a hair but not like 1200 or 1500 ...that's too low for me. I did used to eat that way, though.
i do also have portion control issues, so i also, especially in the past, was an "all or nothing" philosphy. i've changed a lot since reaching my goal weight which was always 115,of which i even am under it and love it.