Feeling a bit better but not into logging food this week. hope you all are doing good too!
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
i am taking a bit of a hiatus right now...to get myself in a better place :)
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
8am small rice krispie treat with added pb on top. 250.
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went to the awards dinner. lots of female electricans there. i didn't really fit in. felt awkward at the social event. my dad went also, i talked to him and got emotional so we went outside to chat. i explained how i made a lot of unwise choices in life, running from careers, now stuck due to my own poor judgement. i don't want advice on this...it is what it is.
i have shin splints that will heal i am sure. but it's aggrivating.
i went to school for a masters and it's in the garbage (not going back).
i went to xray school and got a certificate which is also in the garbage (not going back).
i tried to train myself to be a court officer, but my body couldn't hold up.
now i have pain just doing daily walking / chores and i feel so weak...but it should get better if i work on it i guess.
4 years in teaching. 2 years studying xray. and 8.5 years in the electrical industry. It all goes by so fast, it frightens me, but at the same time it's going by so slow that i am so nervous of what's to come / change in this industry...feeling like it's changing so fast in the blink of an eye that technology won't even keep up and i will not follow it fast enough.
i really f'ed up my life. i kNOW i can change it. i know that. i know i can change it at least a little bit. at least i have a job for now...for awhile.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
I don't want to say any more lest I sound like I'm giving advice. As a word of encouragement, though, I do want to add that as long as you haven't killed anyone or aren't going to jail, you haven't hit rock-bottom, even if it feels that way.
(((hugs)))
9am Breakfast: oatmeal with almond milk and stevia 170, pumpkin and spice chobani yogurt 130. 300, iced coffee. 50.
10:30am pb on rice cake 200
1:30pm lunch rest of the leftover hamburger on a wrap 300, cucumber salad i made 150. 450. and small bag chips. 150, drink 50..
aminos during exercise 50, pb on cracker 150
1350
dinner awards ceremony tonight - didnt count.
2150 or so.
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still recovering. haven't driven my car in awhile, so, will do that today.
headed out around 10:30am to go to a free tap dance performance at a library that is 15-20 min drive away. i prefer to go out, than to stay home.
Sine i'm going out, i will pick up some fruit on the way home also...means i should put my clothes away that are on my cart that i bring with me when i go shopping - for bringing groceries up from my car...
Then, i'm coming home for lunch & staying home. I am thinking to do a weights workout around 2pm since i have time. I want to do all the weights lifting in a sitting position, not standing like i was doing.
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Tonight i signed up to go to a dinner held by one of the union clubs. i'll be going with Ricky, the only reason i am attending actually because i wouldn't go alone. it's a dinner/social event. it's also FREE...that's kinda nice, i'd say ;)..it's pretty local and later on it starts at 7pm, so i need to be ready around 6pm...and get ready around 5pm for it...ok, glad i wrote this out.
after typing the plans, seems my day has more going on than i previously thought.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
Did you get your stationary bike?
Your day sounds very fun-filled and enriching!
i got the stationary bike, rode it last night. i had some small pain in my left leg though...from riding it - it was aggrivating my shin splints. i won't ride it today...
i got the stationary bike, rode it last night. i had some small pain in my left leg though...from riding it - it was aggrivating my shin splints. i won't ride it today...
And honor and pamper your legs as much as you need to, whether it's a light rub, or some oil or lotion, a roller. The bike will always be there; your legs need your love and care now.
kombucha tea 60
breakfast with healthy intentions: wrap and egg 200, avo 150, coffee 50...and a dunkin donuts french cruller 200 from coworker.!!! it didn't taste all that wonderful, but i ate it because it also didn't taste bad! LOL.
700!!! even before a snack....i guess french crullers shouldn't follow a full breakfast, lol.or at least, not a WHOLE french cruller (portion sizes matter!)
snack: almonds
lunch 1/2 a HUGE burger 400 with salad 50/dressing, grilled asparagus 100, few fries 150, croutons 100. 800
snack: apple/banana 250 had a banana on the bus bc I was motion sick on the way home
dinner:smaller burger 200? On wrap 120 leftover turkey 80, salad 100, ice cream 200. 700
2700 - unplanned lousy count but overall is prob ok for the week...
weekpy avg: 2050
(will prob be a higher cal day, but that's OK as it will average out)
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took the express bus and was on time, magically. really, i need to take the earlier bus if i really want to be on time, but the earlier bus is a half hour earlier....might be time to change my hours...i should take the express bus for the rest of the month.
i'm taking the Express bus so i can sit on the entire commute for now. it's double the price and a little longer ride. (the other option is bus / train which is actually faster and cheaper, lol)
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
yes, i am sure i could quietly shift it a little bit.
i do prefer to take the bus/train which is a lot faster - the bus ride is so long - one hour at least in my seat without moving. the other way, the local bus is 20 min, the train is around 25 min...it goes by so much faster...i hope to feel better and go back to it at some point.
kombucha 50
eng muffin 120, 150 avo, egg 80, chocolate 80. coffee 50.
snack almonds
lunch: takeout from buffet - fried rice 200, turkey 200, veggies 100. 500.
snack: apple/almonds
1350
after work: sushi spicy tuna roll 500? light ice cream 300. 800.
2150.
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Still not overusing my legs, but they still are burning on the sides a little and my left ankle is def feel abused. i stood on the subway today, no seats. still a hassel for me to do. I just have to rest and start at scratch when i feel better. Still i haven't tried the Express Bus because you need a different metro card that i didn't add money to until last night. Today i'll take that bus home, i've decided..and tomorrow i'll take it to work. we'll see how sitting (there's always seats) on the bus going to and from works instead of a bus and train that i stand on. I hate right now how i am so dependant and how my body feels as rigid as someone who is 75 when i'm 37. i don't understand it...but then again, i do. i overdid walking for a few consecutive weekends and this is how my body reacts. It's very frustrating to me. I just don't have the musculature of an athlete let alone even most people my age (in my legs, i'm talking about). my arms are actually stronger than most people my age. just frustrating all of it.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
so, i guess it's 2 things.
Also - I know you love working your upper body, but it's just as important to ensure your legs are strong and ready for the pummeling they take during high intensity cardio. It would be prudent for you to incorporate more into your leg workouts. Just an idea!! Take it or leave it :)
i appreciate your suggestions.
i feel though, that i have to WAIT before i TRY AGAIN due to needing recovery time.
i tried the home bike last night, not sure if it helped or hurt. my right leg feels great, but left one burns a little on the outside shin...we'll see.
I love the idea of shorter, frequent sessions for leg cardio. Also, perhaps start doing the exercises you learned in physical therapy again.
This whole scenario has me thinking that you might need to shift from hard workouts (duration, heavier weights) on the upper body to very focused exercises that seem small scale, on the lower body. Does that make sense?
It would definitely be a shift.
i am even spinning my wheels on DD...feeling like i need a break here too. not because of anyone, just for myself.
i like to record calories, maybe i'll just write about life/other situations on some days but not all.
i'm a little behind on commenting here, haven't been spending as much time online at work...but i'll be back i'm sure ;) commenting....
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kombucha 80
breakfast eng muffin 120, chocolate 80, half nasty sausage 50, avocado 150, coffee 50.
snack: almonds (neeed to buy more again !)
lunch: buffet and an english muffin from home (liking these whole wheat ones, 150 cals, really soft and tasty), roast turkey 200, bean salad 150, tomato salad 100, few olives 50. 650
snack: apple/almonds
1500
after work tbd 2 freshly made eggs 150 on a wrap 150, pumpkin yogurt 150, couple med plums 100
2050
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At the club meeting last night, the only reason i was there is because i do not want to continue saying no all the time i guess. my father was there. i was sworn in as a member. the members are all mostly really old, my father's age. it's hard to get new members there. i am not looking to be a leader, though, in this club. with my injured state of my left ankle/shin splints, obviously i should just stay here at the union to work and hope for the best / try my best. it seems court officer is a dream but not reality. it's hard to realize this, although it is obvious i'd say. all my life, i didn't enjoy sitting, but all my life it's what i do. when i used to play the french horn in multiple groups, practices would be at least 2 hours long if not much more. sitting. then i got this job, and exercised so much at first because i wanted to move and not sit. but every time i push not to sit, i just sit some more. now i went to the club meeting, more sitting last night. but thing is, if i went home, i'd be on the couch anyways. perhaps it's just time to take the possibilities open to me and stop running from them.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
once again, i have done too much too soon with the cardio. so once again, i have to be patient and let my legs heal. i wanted to be a court officer, but it seems that dream is over.
as with the club i was talking about - the union was built on people "showing up" and putting in the effort i guess to do more and show up when they were asked to. this particular club is the oldest one in the union for the NYC area. It's been around almost 100 years. it shows an end to the era - and end to people thinking they need to put in extra hours outside of work, after work, on weekends to clubs and other affiliations. people are more interested now to spend time with family or do their own hobbies. it's scary to me to see that many things like these types of clubs are dying. that's why they were so happy to take me in as a member. but also, it's a religious club...and we all know that being affiliated in religious houses of worship / church / temple is dying too in this tri-state area. maybe it's the religious aspect that shows a slow death and not just that members no longer want to show up. also, the club meets in Queens in an area where electricians have MOVED AWAY from. no longer does everyone live near where these clubs meet. people live in MUCH MORE diverse areas and it's harder to come to a club meeting after work on a weekday, i guess. there's so many reasons...but yes, it seems a slow death which is startling and sad as i hope it doesn't also link the the electrical union's death one day (non union electrical companies are now taking over somewhat in many types of projects instead of union). a lot of info, i know.
but yes, the trend around the union areas, of unions not having as much power, yes.
and yes, it's a club within the union.
kombucha 80
breakfast: 1/2 avo 150, eng muffin and egg 200, coffee 50.
snack: almonds
lunch: from buffet tbd with an english muffin 120, tofu 300, turkey 100, veg salad 100. 620-650.
snack: apple 100, almonds 100
1350
evening: tbd - have a meeting to attend tonight, might be some free dinner. promised i'd go to the religious club dinner - a club in the union - it's a meeting - and i promised i was going to join the club as well. must attend.
didn't eat until 8:30pm and didn't even have a big appetite. i took a bakery item from the dinner 300 and had it with almond milk 50.
1700 total.
4day: 1865
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problem with trains on commute so i was standing extra. legs haven't had a chance to get better yet, but i'm laying low on any unnecessary exercise until October. so frustrating. i may go back to weights soon and i may just close the door on the court officer thing soon.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
Well... I still hope that you will derive pleasure from your new exercise bike, especially in the winter. The leg workout that you get from a recumbent bike is much different than walking. And the winters can seem so long...
It sounds like you do have some soul searching to do. It was a hard realization when I came to the conclusion that my running days were over. I still feel the urge to tempt my fate... oh but the risk of hurting my back --- not worth it. We'll see.
it's mostly shin splints, which are caused by also imbalances, like my left ankle which is also in pain. i guess i will not be running.
at this point, i know i have to rest. :(
thank you also for the info on importance of arch supports.
kombucha 70
breakfast: eng muffin with egg 200, avo 150, coffee 50
snack almonds 100
lunch: salad with olive oil/vin 150, pork patties 160, eng muffin 120. 450 popcorn 150, chocolate 50
snacks: almonds, fruit 150
later dinner english muffin with extra nut butter 450
1850
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My legs are very beat up. yup. they were getting that way over the course of the week, i think initially started by both the 5miler one weekend and then the labor day parade with much additional walking last weekend then all the extra cardio this week followed by a lot of walking yesterday.
it all did me in, now i have burning legs. more than anything, it may have been two weekends of long walks.
after talking to a couple people, i'll be laying low this week again....and once my legs are better, i will do more training again,but half as much.
if i continue to have leg disturbances, i will quit thinking about court officer.
this type of pain isn't new to me, it's not at its worst, i just need to rest my legs.
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I still have walking on my commute and standing. a lot of both. so, it's not like i can quit it all totally. however, it also doesn't mean i have to push extra. so, for 3 weeks until 10/7/19, i will do less, again.
- i will keep my leg strength exercises going though, anything that doesn't give me pain, i will continue to do.
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the bike, indoor stationary, will be delivered today.
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
Enjoy your new bike!
i find myself frustrated getting the same pain issues again. seems i cannot do too much walking (i am not running at all and i wasn't running before either) without an overuse injury. it seems i cannot get past injuries with my legs...soreness and burning from overuse. it's a big disappointment.
the fitness tests will be probably this time or a little earlier in 2020 after the written test in the Spring.
my legs are very beat up. yup. they were getting that way over the course of the week, i think initially started by both the 5miler one weekend and then the labor day parade with much additional walking last weekend then all the extra cardio this week followed by a lot of walking yesterday.
it all did me in, now i have burning legs.
after talking to a couple people, i'll be laying low this week again....and once my legs are better, i will do more training again,but half as much.
if i continue to have leg disturbances, i will quit thinking about court officer.
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12:30am - whole wheat english muffin 120..
8:30am breakfast kombucha / cherry juice 80, oatmeal w almond milk 170, key lime chobani yogurt 140.
10:30 snack: 1 pork patty from what i was cooking up stove top 100, coffee 50.
11:30am early lunch: english muffin and pork patty 200, avocado 150. 350. chips 150...500.
4:30 strawberries 100, cookie 50
salad with olive oil and vinegar 300, chicken nuggets 200.
1800-1850.
1950 2-day
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So i bought these seasoned pork patties in the meat produce section. didn't read ingredients till i got home - has some MSG. tasted them, they taste ok. so i'll eat them, rather them throw them out. of course i won't buy them again, but they tasted really good after being fried in the skillet, stove top.
Took my walk in AM, just like 15 min...crazy how i tired i get from a walk...glad i'm continuing my exercises in AM. Got laundry going too.
Getting food prepped - the pork i cooked up as a meat for the week, i have a few eggs already cooked for now from last Sunday that i didn't eat yet,
i have some fruit - enough for the week although i may supplement during the week with more,
i cut up my lettuce head that is still good aside from a few outside leaves from Misfits delivery 1.5 weeks ago, and i'm going to also cook up Frozen veggies. I no longer buy many or any veggies at the market now that i have Misfits delivery. it is convenient and when i run low on fresh veggies, i realize i can use frozen on those weeks and/or pick up anything else i want at the supermarket, but in terms of prep, frozen that i already have at home comes in VERY handy rather than extra trips tothe supermarket for produce....
I only get Misfits every other week, because each week is too much. so on the second week, i figure i'll start supplementing more with frozen things i have at home that need to be used up, too. and i still have my leftovers that are frozen..!
Progress as of today: -2.2 lbs lost so far, only 3.2 lbs to go!
Are you sensitive to MSG? If not, you should still be able to enjoy the patties.
Glad to hear that the Misfits is working for you! I can totally understand the convenience!
misfits really has served me well.
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Glad you're feeling better.
i'm glad i'm not as down as i was last week. i felt absolutely terrible.
emotionally, i mean.
BearCountryGG on 09/26/2019:
Happy that you are feeling better!
Donkey on 09/26/2019:
I'm glad you're feeling better. It's good to step back, once in a while.
i may need more steps back, yes ;)