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Horn_of_plenty - Monday Jul 02, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

The weekend was pretty good :-) I have mixed feelings about some of it..

Home: kombucha 100

8am: coffee with milk/stevia 50, wrap 100, avocado 100, chicken/vegies 150

Snacks: almonds 250

Lunch: another of those wraps, above, 350, celery with a little salt. 100. 450. 

dinner: ice cream 280, chocolate triple cream yogurt (not worth it, not very chocolatey)170, chips 150 600

1850 :)

3day: 2070 :-)

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I really need to lower cals a hair bc i am not so pleased with my shape...but at the same time, i feel i could lose an inch if i get more cardio in...like BCGG this is just a "moment in time" and i can make changes. I don't want to rush changes bc i really want to run someday...and i'm working on it now...but don't want to rush & get another injury.  The court officer thing is not happening yet ...i have time to improve and possibly get in....i just can't rush it and risk injury. 

The classes i've signed up for are done..

Beach yesterday was fun but i am not fully comfortable anymore with a certain person...and not sure how the rest of the summer will play out....

I enjoy hanging out with some friends just one on one and others in a group. mostly one on one..but a lot of the one on one friends that i'd like to bring together like so there's 3 in the group - they dislike each other. it's hilarious

i don't know if i actually want to go to the beach each weekend, probably not for the entire summer every weekend.

i get bored just doing the same thing..she's not interested in new beaches.

right now, i'm a bit antsy. 

i know i just need to up my cardio slowly, and not forget my fitness goals right now.

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I'm reading an interesting book called Fat!So? ...it's a book about how it shouldn't be a crime to say you are fat...and the author is overweight herself, but in good health otherwise. No diabetes or any other issue. I haven't gotten far in the book yet, but basically she's saying that having some extra pounds shouldn't be something frowned upon in society, especially when a person is otherwise healthy. She writes about her experiences as well as others'. There's a lot of medical facts and research but also funny quizzes...i'm not sure i'll finish the book...

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
Sounds like you should look on meetup.com for people meeting up at new beaches!

horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
you def did get a gist of my entry today...you are def on the right track here :)


happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
Maybe even doing beach workouts first!t

horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
yeah, this would be cool..i should look to see if there's outdoor gyms :) by me!


happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
Meetup has people running fitness bootcamps, out here especially they are on the beach and people just hang out after.


bearcountrygg on 07/02/2018:
Well....anyway...it will be nice to have a midweek vacay.

Horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
YES INDEED :)



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jul 01, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

3am couldn't sleep and had chips and not whipped cream but whipped cococream made of coconut oil instead still junk but couldn't resist buying it! Kombucha 100, lollipop 50 Popcorn 150, plum 50, veggies 200, edamame 150. 550 Big dinner 2 fried spring rolls 200, rice 250, zucchini 100, squid 150, veggies in a basil spicy sauce 200, cherries 50, whipped non dairy cream - not that good won't buy again 150. 1100?! Crud! 2200. Shoot and ices 2300.

2175 PER DAY, 2 days. yesterday i sorta went overboard at dinner, but nothing major. healthy day.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 07/01/2018:
Whipped cococream sounds delicious!

Hope you had a chance to sleep in a little bit...

horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
it's not very good, i don't recommend. and high in cals.


bearcountrygg on 07/01/2018:
That does sound good.

horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
not that great, don't buy it! empty waste of cals.


happy-1 on 07/01/2018:
Yum!

horn_of_plenty on 07/02/2018:
WHIPPED COCOCREAM TASTES BAD!



Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jun 30, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Today is mostly relaxed :-)

Late 10am-10:30 breakfast: strawberries 100 tops, wrap 100, lots of saag and one piece of the paneer cheese 300, egg 100. kombucha 50. total here: 650.

noon: almonds, bite size protein bar 200

1:30 - greek yogurt 2% cocoa powder, stevia, peanut butter. 250 total

1150 coffee healthy dinner bread 100 chicken 250 salad 200 550 1600 before gym

2050 total.

gym was 30 min bc i got there too late and they closed after 30 min...all is good - got a lot done today.

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Plans are to do all my laundry so i'm super prepared for the Holiday week ahead as well as the beach tomorrow with my friend Christine :-P Super happy. And tomorrow should be a beautiful day at the beach! It's really nice beach days all the way yesterday thru Tuesday coming..so i'm happy to be there tomorrow...and Wednesday the 4th looks cloudy so i'm not yet sure of my plans. Ricky invited me to see a movie at his place, and i may take him up on his offer!!

Last night the beach worked out perfectly with some Shuffleboard and a free concert that we only watched a little of - we mostly walked and played shuffleboard :) Makes me content with refraining from doing cardio today as i'm enjoying some rest and relaxation at home!

Tonight is the gym - so it gets done 3x a week is always the goal. 

oh, and sometime today Ricky said he's stopping by to hang one last piece of wall art for me!! cheers! I love my beautiful apt, more beautiful thanks to both the ideas of Christine & Ricky.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/30/2018:
I need to look up paneer cheese...never heard of that.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/30/2018:
an Indian version of cottage cheese - they then add acid in the process of making it and it stays solid in cube form even in warm foods. its higher in protein than a lot of cheeses with a very mild taste - its good...it comes in the spinach dish and i can't ask for them to take it out...so i end up throwing it out a lot or eating a few!


Donkey on 06/30/2018:
Sounds like you've planned well for Sunday and Wednesday! I have no plans for Wednesday, but I'm thinking maybe I should, for myself... ya know?

Horn_of_plenty on 06/30/2018:
YES! plans don't have to be huge...! just have something in mind you want to do...it'll feel good to have done something on that day off...

we have a chance of a very cloudy day Wednesday. if so, i'll stay home and do cardio...and watch a movie with ricky that we rent. we didn't end up hanging my picture today, but we watched a movie we found in the Red Box...it turned out great, i think it was called Gringo


bearcountrygg on 07/01/2018:
we have cheese curds here...sounds like something similar


happy-1 on 07/01/2018:
Ricky's back in the picture? Resilient!



Horn_of_plenty - Friday Jun 29, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Totally planned to sleep in - did it successfully. 

Late Breakfast: wrap 100, half avocado 160 with garlic/salt, egg 100, coffee 50. 400.

Lunch: chickpea salad 300?? a coworker gave me and tomatoes 100 (lots). 

Snack: almonds 100? later a decaf coffee 100 extra milk.

Naan 150, beef burger 200, lots of Indian veggies in a little sauces 400. 750 1750

cookies, come beer   2050 total

Week ends at 2100 per day - decent.

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Dinner: veggies and Indian food....tbd...friend wanted me to pick him up some too...at home, i'm planning on a wrap with indian veg and some deli meat! Ricky will join me for dinner too!

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Went into work late on purpose (made up most of the time lol...little bad today on purpose...). Happy to sleep in bc my workout got started really late last ight at 8pm, home around 10pm from gym. I had gotten drenched in the rain walking home without a jacket/umbrella (clothes still hanging wet at home today since last night!). so i relaxed and had a nice light drink of a large can of "Spindrift" water - my new favorite! I sweeted it extra with Stevia of course.  Tastes like delicious soda - Strawberry flavor...so i went to gym really late, had a banana for a  little energy since my snack was around 5:30 and now it was 8pm starting my workout. Everything worked out last night and sleeping in helped me so much, although i did feel completely dead walking to the bus and on the train, i feel better now at work.

I don't have much work today - my superior is on vacation and i finsihed my assignments. i can review, for sure, for my own clarification and knowledge of what i did though..but first writing to you all and relaxing lol...i don't think today is a day that requires too much work here at work from me - I am seriously taking it easy...and i plan to enjoy the weekend and the beach on the 4th...and not be really tired like i have been for past holidays, etc.

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Tonight after work I'm going home first. Bringng home Indian food to share with Ricky as he requested it since i am always saying how good it is at this particular takeout spot right on my way home near the train where i work in city now...so i'll get that food and take it on my hour commute home haha...i do this frequently bc i like this food and like eating it on weekend. 

We have NO INDIAN restaurants where we live directly in my neighborhood that i'm aware of - we have to drive over 20 min to get to them - sometimes 30min. So having this one good Indian restaurant in the city is a blessing. There's one more, but it's not as reliable with it's offereings bc it's smaller and a lower quality. but i like that there's two options. Two Indian restaurants in a big city in the area where i work is NOTHING. Indian is NOT popular everywhere yet. It's mostly popular in the neighborhoods where Indian (and related ethnicities) live - which is not in MANHATTAN...but is in areas of Queens that are like i said 20-30min from me. And those places are GREAT in Queens. Very popular in some neighborhoods.

After we eat dinner, Ricky and i are going to a concert at the beach! It's free! Parking is free too! It's at a smaller bandshell. The music is a cover band that is known to be pretty good and playing Beatles songs! They call themselves the Liverpool Shuffle.  And speaking of shuffle, i'm hoping to also get a few rounds of shuffleboard in before the concert starts :) They have shuffleboard courts at this beach - it's called Jones Beach and highly popular and huge public beach on LI that has just about everything!

So we'll get home late tonight, and i plan to sleep in again tomorrow. Saturday will be low key - laundry / small food prep - with gym in evening (keeping the routine!) and Sunday i'll be with my old friend Christine at beach all day/dinner on way home...and go to bed in time to wake up for work Monday morning!  I may also do some cardio Saturday early based on how i feel.

Weekend is looking fantastic..

 

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

innerpeace on 06/29/2018:
Sounds like a great plan. Enjoy your food and the beach.

horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2018:
ty IP...

horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2018:
btw, thank you for your comments the other day.


Donkey on 06/30/2018:
Friday sounds like it was a lovely day -- not too bad at work, fun after hours :-)

Well done on the calories too!

I hope that your weekend will include cardio - reach for those goals!

Horn_of_plenty on 06/30/2018:
So far, so good :-) Very happy about how the end of the week (yesterday) panned out and that i'm not feeling like death today! I really planned the week, which i thought was going to be sooo difficult with a union meeting and a class involved during the week...i planned it really well! super happy. <3

thank you Donkey. i'm feeling much better than usual.


bearcountrygg on 06/30/2018:
Sounds like a nice day......


happy-1 on 07/02/2018:
Oooh beatles covers at the beach. That's a happy summer.



Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Jun 28, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

kombucha 50, coffee later 100

wrap 60, half avocado 160, garlic and salt, egg 100...320

Snack: not sure, prob almonds 100

Lunch: from home...peppers and tomatoes 100, wrap 100 with 1/4 avocado 100 and small burger 200. 500..sort of craving chips...will instead it matzah crackers i have here with my lunch 100...

snack:  fruit and almonds 150

dinner: natural bar and later kombucha bc bloated 300 1650....

banana 1750

ice cream 320

2050-2100

6day: 2090

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I think i'm becoming mentally drained.  I can get that way sometimes leading into holidays, thinking i want to make so many plans...i'm deciding to relax at home Saturday to prep for the next week, to get the gym in at night...to stick to my own goals :)

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/28/2018:
I too get that way sometimes going into a holiday. Having the holiday in the middle of the week, though, is just too surreal.

horn_of_plenty on 06/29/2018:
I feel much better having slept in - came to work at 10am. a little bad but...ah well!...i made up most of the time, but not the whole 2 hours. nobody is here. i'm just glad i slept in...the weekend should be a LOT smoother now. lol.



Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Jun 27, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

kOMBUCHA 50 COFFEE 50

WRAP 100 with egg 100, 1/2 lg avocado 100, salt and garlic, potato 100 tops.

snack: salted almonds 200

lunch: wrap 80, 1/4 lg avocado 100, burger 200. around 400 and veggies 100. 600 tops.

1300 and leaving at 3:30 for my class :)...class gets out early enough to get on my bike after and go to the track where i'll walk / jog 1 mile (enough for tonight) and then bike back home.

 

Apricot

1350

Dinner veggies cooked 150, wrap 100 with avocado and Lox 150, chips 200. Total 600

currently getting ready to ride my bike and exercise - I can do this !

2000 total and I did the jog and bike ride. Jog was a little easier and I can almost jog a straight mile now :)

5day 2092

 lately i feel so fat. i have extra fat now on my stomach. Cardio will happen tonight!

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Please help me all:

 I NEED MAJOR ADVICE on how to deal with my issue at work with new coworker that just moved into my office but i'm actually her friend around 4-5 years and have actually hung out socially with her:

 2 comments she joked and was sarcastic about, and i will NOT be taking that sh*t all the time: 

1. "You are cold because you need to do more work - if you worked a little more you wouldn't be so cold"

2. "Why you heading home now !? You have no kids at home waiting for you..."  (when i left at my standard time)

Her words are soooooo uncalled for. I would NEVER make comments like that towards anyone, tho it's better she say it to me instead of about me.  I may just let her keep on saying things and let someone else call her out on it, actually. I think she does it so that she can feel better about herself, being moved into a new office (she's very new to everything just like i was a couple months ago) and she probably is feeling threatened and is needing to act all "macho" and aggressive is my guess (she's VERY aggressive - her body is more man than woman - not being mean i'm just saying this is DEFINITELY the scenario - i can smell it...) so maybe i'll just be easy on her, though, her language to me has got me in a tizzy.

She's around 42 and with myself being 35, it is SO DISRESPECTFUL to make condescending jokes on anyone let alone at work telling me in front of my other coworkers that 

1. i am not a good worker

2. i should stay late bc i don't have KIDS / not married!

well let me tell you something, how darn rude that second comment is - i dealt SO MUCH with this when i first started working and if anyone EVER tells me that i cannot go home at my normal time or comments like all bc i am single i should stay....OH...there will be some balls or breasts to freaking smack. well...let me tell you, i used to work HOURS AND HOURS of OT and got sick FROM IT..literally sick and out of work a month...nobody will EVER tell me i cannot leave at my scheduled time bc i have no kids...let alone another woman who cherishes finally her freedom. She needs to cool it with me - she cannot continue this.  i had a lot of male bosses previously who were keen to say, "oh, well, you don't have kids so you can stay..." this is not cool on any level with me bc of past comments. i'm going to watch to see if she keeps going....bc she cannot say these things with my permission. 

she's actually divorced WITHOUT full custody of her son bc she chose to pay child support bc she wants the freedom to be able to do some of the hobbies and things that she wants, including teaching an apprentice class. good stuff. she has also written an autobiographical type of book. but, don't you see how her saying a comment that i shouldn't get to leave makes no sense!? i could tell her such cruel things...about her deciding it's ok to not even have her kid live with her during the week...! like, she needs to stop with me. i will not say that to her, but i swear i'm gonna put an end to it.

about this woman, i said earlier she's actually a friend (not a close one). she likes to party way harder than me and drink and eat more.  I prefer not to hang with her socially late and drinking as it does nothing good for me....but i have done a few social things with her. and she actually invited me to her bbq which means i'd have to sleep over as it's over 2 hours away so it'd be a weekend big deal...i was eager to go, but this scenario makes me think it over, this situation of her two comments today leave me with a VERY SOUR taste in my mouth. 

How would you deal with her?

I'll tell her I'll leave at my scheduled time when i want to leave at my scheduled time and i don't answer to her.!!!!!!!!!!! i'll have to say it. i'm not taking her words again, especially in front of others.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/27/2018:
Oh man, that's definitely not ok. Not sure how to deal with it though.

horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2018:
she def has a bit of issues herself.


happy-1 on 06/27/2018:
She sounds like a bully though. Bullys get power through fear. If other people are afraid, then they will go along with her the longer she has to run amok.


happy-1 on 06/27/2018:
It is definitely a boundary you have to enforce. Still chewing on this. I feel like gd or bcg will know better than I do. But it takes numbers to face down a bully... even if you are the one to start it off (and good for you for being brave)... maybe start with responding to her with "That's not how it works. We leave on time and come back on time.", "we all have to work and also have a life. Having kids doesn't make someones time more important than mine, its just how they have chosen to spend it" or something else to enforce that boundary right off. Silence is acceptance.

horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2018:
WILL KEEP ALL ADVICE IN MIND...


innerpeace on 06/27/2018:
Well it's a process. First you tell her, 'I'm not comfortable with your comments about my work and/or quitting time.' If it continues, you tell her again, 'I'm still not comfortable with the the comments you make about blah' and then if she keeps on after the second time you say it 'i've told you twice I'm not comfortable with your comments, now i'm going to file a complaint' whether it be for hostile work environment or harassment. Keep detailed logs and follow through with your complaint. That's the only way to nip it in the bud, especially if these comments affect any/or all of your work or creates tension. Good luck with this, I hope she listens the first time.

horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2018:
I WILL KEEP ALL ADVICE IN MY MIND...I WOULD NEVER involve any other authority on this....i hope she calms down..she's new here...i think she's getting used to it all...

horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2018:
in terms of HR or getting anyone above me involved, i do not want to ever do that. i don't like to ever take matters to anyone else in the company..but could never especially do that in this case as she is my friend.

she has a lot of physical back pain and things going on with her. she may just have taken it out on me. i don't know...but she's been very nice to me since Tuesday - with her giving me some food for lunch yesterday and today asking me if i wanted to walk outside with her...i think she was just getting used to it over here.


Donkey on 06/27/2018:
I think Happy and IP have given you very good advice. I think what I would actually say to her is "Wow, I cannot believe you just said that to me!" You have a small workspace; I'd say that loudly.

This is not a friend.

horn_of_plenty on 06/27/2018:
I like your advice..

I think she's suffering now with some anxiety with a new position and stuff -

Today she was basically really nice and offered me food she knows I like - I think she's nervous so acting even louder and saying more comments without thinking than typical. I know she's exhausted ..


graindart on 06/27/2018:
If it were me, I'd just pause and see if it's going to be a continuous thing or if it was just stupid remarks brought on by something else. If it were to continue for a couple weeks, I'd do something about it. However there is always a chance the coworker just has "jitters" from being moved into a new environment. When I get nervous or uneasy, I tend to shut up and try to fade into the wallpaper. But I've seen others that act the exact opposite way and end up just babbling away, often times with stupid remarks.

The tone and intent of the 2 comments you mentioned are probably much more important than the comments themselves. I admit they're "weird" coming from someone new to the office, but maybe she's hoping since she already knows you that talking with you will somehow calm some of her stress.

I'm a guy. And I obviously don't know the tone that the comments were delivered in. So if I received the comments from another guy that was a casual friend, I probably wouldn't care much at all. In fact in my circle of friends, the closer you are, the more grief you usually give each other (light-hearted kidding of course). Maybe she not only has physical features resembling a guy, maybe her mind actually tends to work like one also.

Again, my disclaimer is that I'm a guy. Things may work differently between women (and I'm sure my wife would probably see things differently here).

horn_of_plenty on 06/27/2018:
Yes your thoughts are all accurate ...


happy-1 on 06/28/2018:
Gd- It's not just a guy thing. My closest girls talk smack worse than the guys and would put them to shaaaaame. What she's describing is different... it's boundary testing and victim seasoning. She's planting little seeds of perception that other people will hear and change their opinions of her so she can force her out because they were friends and hop knows her vulnerabilities and she feels threatened by that and is choosing to strike first and do a force out. It is the most insidiuous form of mean girl bullying, does nit belong, and IP just gave you very good advice. This woman is not your friend, she is a nutbag that pretended to be your friend to get your inside track and leverage to f with you.

horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2018:
WILL KEEP THIS IN MIND!


innerpeace on 06/28/2018:
I believe there are no friends at work, only acquaintances, these people would probably use you as a stepping stone to get ahead. I trust no one, especially those that smile in your face. But I work for the government, so maybe that's just me. Good luck, I hope you find a solution.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/28/2018:
i sometimes forget how work is work....and to trust folks a little less!



Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Jun 26, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

NEED MAJOR ADVICE on how to deal with my issue at work with new coworker that just moved into my office but i'm actually her friend around 4-5 years and have actually hung out socially with her:

 2 comments she joked and was sarcastic about, and i will NOT be taking that sh*t all the time: 

1. "You are cold because you need to do more work - if you worked a little more you wouldn't be so cold"

2. "Why you heading home now !? You have no kids at home waiting for you..."  (when i left at my standard time)

Her words are soooooo uncalled for. I would NEVER make comments like that towards anyone, tho it's better she say it to me instead of about me.  I may just let her keep on saying things and let someone else call her out on it, actually. I think she does it so that she can feel better about herself, being moved into a new office (she's very new to everything just like i was a couple months ago) and she probably is feeling threatened and is needing to act all "macho" and aggressive is my guess (she's VERY aggressive - her body is more man than woman - not being mean i'm just saying this is DEFINITELY the scenario - i can smell it...) so maybe i'll just be easy on her, though, her language to me has got me in a tizzy.

She's around 42 and with myself being 35, it is SO DISRESPECTFUL to make condescending jokes on anyone let alone at work telling me in front of my other coworkers that 

1. i am not a good worker

2. i should stay late bc i don't have KIDS / not married!

well let me tell you something, how darn rude that second comment is - i dealt SO MUCH with this when i first started working and if anyone EVER tells me that i cannot go home at my normal time or comments like all bc i am single i should stay....OH...there will be some balls or breasts to freaking smack. well...let me tell you, i used to work HOURS AND HOURS of OT and got sick FROM IT..literally sick and out of work a month...nobody will EVER tell me i cannot leave at my scheduled time bc i have no kids...let alone another woman who cherishes finally her freedom. She needs to cool it with me - she cannot continue this.  i had a lot of male bosses previously who were keen to say, "oh, well, you don't have kids so you can stay..." this is not cool on any level with me bc of past comments. i'm going to watch to see if she keeps going....bc she cannot say these things with my permission. 

she's actually divorced WITHOUT full custody of her son bc she chose to pay child support bc she wants the freedom to be able to do some of the hobbies and things that she wants, including teaching an apprentice class. good stuff. she has also written an autobiographical type of book. but, don't you see how her saying a comment that i shouldn't get to leave makes no sense!? i could tell her such cruel things...about her deciding it's ok to not even have her kid live with her during the week...! like, she needs to stop with me. i will not say that to her, but i swear i'm gonna put an end to it.

about this woman, i said earlier she's actually a friend (not a close one). she likes to party way harder than me and drink and eat more.  I prefer not to hang with her socially late and drinking as it does nothing good for me....but i have done a few social things with her. and she actually invited me to her bbq which means i'd have to sleep over as it's over 2 hours away so it'd be a weekend big deal...i was eager to go, but this scenario makes me think it over, this situation of her two comments today leave me with a VERY SOUR taste in my mouth. 

How would you deal with her?

I'll tell her I'll leave at my scheduled time when i want to leave at my scheduled time and i don't answer to her.!!!!!!!!!!! i'll have to say it. i'm not taking her words again, especially in front of others.

 

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kombucha. 80...

stomach is very messed up due to loads of tasty veggies last night..i hope it'll fix itself by tomorrow morning.

1050 -1100 cal after lunch...healthy food...skipped morning snack..

zone protein bar, coffee

1 candy

Olive flavor really tasty chips, pumpernickel wrap with 1/4 lg avocado and an egg with salt and garlic, sweet small fresh peppers

pieces of chocolate, very little bit

must eat healthier later, my tongue feels like everything's either too salty or sweet.

1100 so far, healthy day...

Before gym: will have a wrap with lox and cream cheese i think.

__ 1600 after subway flatbread roast beef sandwich

1900 TOTAL EXCELLENT

4 DAY AVG: 2115, better.

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For some reason, maybe i need less sleep lately i don't know!?  probably i do need it...but i told my coworker i'd come a half hour early tomorrow...so i guess i'm just having difficulty balancing work and home right nnow and relaxing...idk...but for the past 3 nights i'm constantly waking up - tho - the two nights before this one there was some caffeine in the mix, so this i'm SURE is lingering sleep effects! 

I've been able to work OT and i plan to come 2 hours late to work on Friday instead of taking the day fully off...I'll save the day to use later in the summer, most probably. I want to sleep in a little bit on Friday bc i'm going to a concert that night. So instead of getting up at like 6, i'll be able to sleep in till like 7:30-8. works for me.

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 06/26/2018:
A fitbit with sleep monitoring will tell you if you are getting enough sleep.

horn_of_plenty on 06/26/2018:
YES lately it's horrible...hamster has been extra loud lately...she's in heat...and her smell when i was petting her last night totally came off on me! really exotic musty smell! had to wash my hands well to get it off!

horn_of_plenty on 06/26/2018:
it's from too much caffeine.


bearcountrygg on 06/26/2018:
Olive flavored chips sound interesting.



Horn_of_plenty - Monday Jun 25, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

very poor sleep ...had a snack around 9pm: apricot and black pepper popcorn 200 max

Kombucha 100

Breakfast 2 candies and coffee 100

wrap 80, avocado 100, egg 80, potato 100: 360.

snack: pistachios approx 100

lunch: from home - def do NOT need to buy food this week...tons of extra fresh veg back in my fridge :) burger 200 with avocado 100 in a wrap 100, peppers. 500 tops, and an awesome candy from Colombia. milky coconut flavor.

stayed a little late so having candies., also coffee. 150. stayed late so exercise was a nice long walk home by getting off bus 1.5mi early & bought cooked veggies along the way!!

dinner: apricot and ice cream a little over 200, very small amount potatoes 100, tons of veggies, sauce slightly oily 400. total 700

2250, good.

3day: 2185

before bike/walk/jog: tbd thinking a rice krispie treat ? or pb on an apple??

8PM dinner: tbd :)possibly more burger in a wrap with avocado or mashed cauliflower...   large apricot, cleaning hamster cage...then eating veggies...or veggies before i clean cage, actually!!!!!!!!!!! GOT HOME AT 8PM BUT HAD NO IDEA TILL I CHECKED THE TIME! its so nice and sunny out!

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yesterday i was so lazy at home, no exercise, after i saw my friend. ended up emotional eating a little bit....tonight i am eager to exercise again....in my head i know i can improve a LOT if i PRACTICE! 

despite horrible eating yesterday due to just being lazy / tired / bored - i haven't really been gaining weight lately or it's been too slow a gain to notice since i have been watching my cals and not still increasing them...it's just a really slow decrease...as i'm happy to be able to eat more right now...eat what i enjoy...not feel deprived...not really gain weight so fast or noticeable...i guess it's the cardio that i should do, then!...........

i keep forgetting that if i add cardio, my weight will manage itself...this is fully what happened last summer - it was awesome. i could basically eat what i wanted and even i think 2200 cals didn't put pounds on !!!!!

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

bearcountrygg on 06/25/2018:
OKAY...time to get busy with cardio!!!!!

horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2018:
for sure...it's not been a month of backsliding...but DEF NOT a month of progress...time to get with it!!!!

someone at work, a really nice female coworker, has me inspired. she is always exercising and walking. she's around 45. great shape. lots of leg muscle.


bearcountrygg on 06/25/2018:
Then she is a good one to be inspired by!!!

horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2018:
She's awesome i'll talk more about her another time in my diary here :) She's so nice, so down to earth, a pretty person both inside and out...it's hard to come by this time of person. I got lucky to work by her and learn from her.



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Jun 24, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

Breakfast: an apricot and blueberries 150, wrap 80 with Indian spread of veggies medium amount 150, small beef burger 200, cup of kombucha 40. 650.

Small health bar 100 Lunch salad with a little dressing 50, edamame 100, Diet Coke, veggies and shrimp with ginger 350 and rice 100, tastes of chicken 50...650 I

ce cream 300 Mini protein bar 100, 5% fat Greek yogurt with strvia and cinnamon 200 2050.  And a wrap with pb 200

2250

2day 2150 today I relaxed no exercise

Didn't go to bed until 12:30 bc I was high on caffeine and full after working out and dinner at 10 lol...But workout was good and I slept until 7:30-8. I might clean my closets briefly this am and throw out clothes I don't wear :) bc having too many clothes means they are get wrinkles in the closet bc the clothes are packed in too tightly !

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/24/2018:
Oh I can relate to that caffeine buzz at night. Sometimes even a diet Coke has enough caffeine to make me feel like I can conquer the world until 1am.

Instead of throwing away your clothes, please consider donating them or even dropping them off to a resale shop. Let your fashion live through others :-)

horn_of_plenty on 06/24/2018:
YEs will drop off into donation bin for sure ! Def not garbage can !!


bearcountrygg on 06/24/2018:
we had beef burgers today too....good source of iron!!!

horn_of_plenty on 06/24/2018:
Yes I made like 9 sliders so now I gotta eat them up :-) and yes need iron ;)


happy-1 on 06/25/2018:
You can get 15% off a purchase at H&M if you bring in old clothes to donate.

horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2018:
THANK YOU - I WILL DO THIS. IS THERE A CERTAIN AMOUNT OF CLOTHES I NEED TO BRING? I HAVE 2 LARGE BAGS. AND I PLAN TO CLEAN UP FURTHER IN MY CLOSETS...I WANT TO THROW OUT ANOTHER 20% OF ALL CLOTHES OWN....EVEN ONES I COULD WEAR NOW, BUT AREN'T GREAT QUALITY OR IF THEY WRINKLE EASILY...JUST THROWING OUT...FEELS SO GOOD.

Also feels so good finding old office shirts that are quite nice. i found a lot of black blouses that work great for NYC office styles....i def have SO MANY shirts, only thing i need to buy are a few more office dresses.


happy-1 on 06/25/2018:
They have good stuff in August.

horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2018:
totally will go :) it's in walking distance from my work - i can go at lunch.


happy-1 on 06/25/2018:
I haven't tried this yet... I will let you know... Maybe call your closest store and see what they say?

horn_of_plenty on 06/25/2018:
ty...



Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Jun 23, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 116.0

:)...slept in till 9.

wrap 60, egg 80, 1/4 big avocado 100, indian curry cauli/potato mix lg serving 150...400 followed by a  plum and kombucha...500 :)

snacks 250 :), coffee, other snack, small bites of cake :)

2pm awesome lunch: i broiled up small hamburgers (almost causing a fire! wth does hamburger meat always sizzle so much from all the fat!?) 200, in a wrap with bite of avocado 100, and indian veggies in curry sauce 100: 400 yum...will have fruit for dessert...another plum i think :) 450 total.

snack before gym: fiber 1 cookie :)

And a bit of a monster energy drink and an oikos chocolate fat free yogurt (it wasn't good)120 1450

After gym: Another slider size beef burger these r great 200 in wrap 60 with Indian veggies 140 1850 and a little ice cream 160 but man was it nice to eat well after the gym and it's 10pm ! I'll be up late reading a little and wake up late tomorrow

total today was 2010...very happy and not deprived at all today in terms of food. wow.

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full plans:

i met ricky to get his car detailed or something at the car wash, but both were cold that we went to bc of the cool weather and chance of rain! i didn't tell him, but there was one open by the supermarket i went to - it's out of the way and he needs a ride back...so i wasn't driving back there later today (there and back is 40 minutes and i'm not doing that 2x today).

laundry - machines were practically empty so this is GOOD! trying new lavender scented dryer sheets by Mrs. Meyers - needed a change of pace!!

get pedicure done - beach weather / sandal weather :) ...YES it's happening bc i did good with all my errands, cooked burgers, laundry almost done by 3pm...so i will get my toes done indeed!...everyone who wears sandles in NYC for work practically gets their toes done...and i don't mind reading a book while they do my toes :)

food shopping - 2 places...YES...the first was a huge supermarket that i had these bottle redemption slips to give them since last time the line was too long for me to wait...the veggies and fruit was the worst selection i have seen!...supermarket is near my old gym so i will not go back again any time soon!...second place had a sale on kombucha, so i got double the amount and they'll last and i will not have to worry about buying them for a couple weeks if i want to wait! all is good...got enough food for awhile now!

gym - this will be in the late afternoon as last thursday it was def around 6 or even 7 that i went, i like to wait around 48hrs btn workouts :)

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my jog isn't getting worse but not really better bc lately it's still once a week bc of my class...it's still tiring to run even a 1/4 mi...i have a lot of improvement but also know that with full practice 2-3x per week i will improve...

i'm happy i got everything done today...and beach plans have been cancelled due to not being beach weather tomorrow. good thing is we still have plans!

Progress as of today: -2 lbs lost so far, only 6 lbs to go!

Donkey on 06/23/2018:
I slept in this morning too. Isn't it wonderful? Hope you have a wonderful Saturday today.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/23/2018:
I LOVE sleeping in...whenever i'm even a little short on sleep during the weekdays, it's EASY for me to sleep in and crave it on the weekend :)


bearcountrygg on 06/23/2018:
I can't sleep in...that old 4:30 to 5:30 thing from years ago...just will not go away.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/23/2018:
i used to not sleep in, then i had a big change in my body's clock around 2 years ago and since then i sleep a lot more than i EVER did in my life before that. ...i got really sick at that time from running around on too little sleep and poor diet...too much caffeine...i was worn down. since then, i try to get way better sleep. and i do feel better that way :)


graindart on 06/23/2018:
I rarely sleep in myself unless you call 8am on Sundays sleeping in. My wife on the other hand enjoys it any chance she gets and usually sleeps until 10:30-11am on Saturdays. I didn't have an alarm set for this morning and woke up to broad daylight. Thought I had slept in and figured it might be around 9:30am-10am. Checked the clock and it was only 7:30am.

Horn_of_plenty on 06/23/2018:
haha, i side with your wife on this issue ;)

Horn_of_plenty on 06/23/2018:
i used to be like you...but life changed for me after 30 and even more after 33 or so...i actually crave sleep and enjoying sleeping in a LOT!...i wonder if it will ever change back for me!?



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