bit of a binge-y type of day here...but ending it alright and got exercise in. exercised, with breaks, from around 6pm-9pm (breaks include cleaning up, putting things away, washing dishes, searching the web, etc.)
kombucha 50
Breakfast: wrap and egg 200, butter 100, coffee 50, banana 120, COFFEE 50
snack: some dark chocolate, lower sugar 100
small sandwich bread 150, mayo 50, meat 100, lettover cauliflower 50, indian food 150, 500...chips and small apricot 150 more..and full :)
4pm snack: sf whipped cream 250cal for a half container, strawberries and iced coffee100...ready for a nap!
5pm more strawberries (just bought a lot of them on way home!) 50
6pm during workout, being snacky.. seaweed salad i picked up on the way home...yup! 100? , wrap 130, spread 100, salmon 50. approx 350. having all the fruit earlier didn't help my appetite. finally satisfied.
more during workout, really quite bad with appetite control today lol (DEFINITE emotional eating this week), 2 more small apricots. 50 8:30pm chocolate chips 50..
9pm 200 protein keto bar.
2350
7day:2222/day.
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Fingers crossed for the long holiday weekend we get out at 1pm or so. i brought my lunch, too.
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Plan is to go home earlyish, - yes we got out at 1:30pm and i was home around 3:30pm...walked to a farther subway around half mile away from work, walked also a mile before taking a bus..went to supermarket too..
FIRST - exercise with my strength home routine. there are no other errands or things that are urgent.
SECOND - get laundry done for the whole weekend early (including bed sheets) - LAUNDRY may not happen ;) may just go to sleep early!
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I was thinking to cook instead of laundry, but, it would be better if i cooked monday, the food would be fresher for the upcoming work week!
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
KOMBUCHA 50
wrap and egg 200, half avo with salt/pepper 150, coffee 50,
snack: probably a bar - Dang Bar. very nice. 210
lunch: half leftovers / gotta get new meat...will not make yesterday's mistake again and overindulge leaving no calories for the evening ;) lunch provided by office and i had my own side of cherry tomatoes that i had in the office thankfully. so i am full. 750 cal. it was a large deli sandwich long one cut up, i had some chips, some noodle salad too. lots of carbs, but tasty. some diet soda too.
1400 after lunch, good. and way better than yesterday.
2:30 5 almonds 25 cal, chocolate ...100 total
around 2200 i think....healthy dinner, but again a bit too much food today..
6 day: 2200 :)
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exercise tonight: cancelled until tomorrow since i get out early, would rather sleep well tonight and rest up and take tomorrow to get a good routine in when i'm better rested - taking advantage of an easier schedule tomorrow (getting out probably around 1pm). taking tonight to be a perfect rest night and eat less before hitting the covers.
bringing ricky takeout indian and having some indian veggies over my own fresh spinach i have at home. also i have small sandwiches leftover from work...possibly just saving them here at work for tomorrow :)
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
they are also great on rice cakes.!!!!!!
i always add sea salt/pepper and other seasonings. you just reminded me, i have an EVERYTHING BAGEL seasoning at home to try on my wraps with avocado.
Overall, it's been a great week. Everything is running quite smoothly. I slept decently last night, woke up in the middle of the night to use the bathroom, then browsed my cell phone, but i feel good this morning because overall it's been a great weekend and week so far!
Kombucha 50 Mojito flavor!
Wrap and egg with 1/2 avo 350, coffee 50.
snack: will be a new bar, keto type so good wow! 210 flavor was called Saigon cinnamon chocolate, some peanuts 50
lunch: forgot the meat potion, so i'll go out to buy a little meat at lunch from the buffet - i have the veggies. i might even buy the grain part, instead of chips and have noodles. i may just buy my entire lunch and save the veggies i have for tomorrow :) i'd love to have seaweed salad with lunch too!...
lunch - got a big salad of mexican takeout of pulled pork very salty but tasty 300, lettuce 50, corn 50, rice 150, grilled veggies 200, chips 300. yeah a big meal, indeed. could have eaten less, but stuffed it in lol. was at least very fresh! now i'm thirsty! 1050. i could have been full on much less. just decided to eat the entire thing.
it was a huge salad....will try to take it easy until later...i may go over calories a hair, today...but will try to work on it since tomorrow is another long day with exercise an i'll be needing to eat quite a bit then. on Friday i may be able to be more in control of eating less by going to bed early. :) or tomorrow, another option, i'll take the night off exercise and do it Friday instead...go to bed early tomorrow, yeah.
snack plan for on the way home: banana and iced coffee 200
after workout: planning for whipped cream 250 / fruit 100/ yogurt 150 500
2450, ok
5day:2210
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Tonight is my 2nd time doing a short agility workout - the Ladder workout. 15-20 min tops.
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
I hope you enjoy the ladder workouts! They look like fun!
Yeah, the salad was so different and flavorful that i overeat. but it was good and decently healthy. i was careful not to also overeat in the evening. so i do feel good about getting back on track later in the night.
that's why i like to bring my own food. or go to the buffet. here, i couldn't serve myself the portions, and simply just indulged in what i was given :) but, it was very very fresh!
2140 4day, good!
Happy Tuesday ;-)
kombucha 50
wrap and egg 200, avocado 150. coffee 50.
snack: possibly a new flavor of the keto bars i have - Atlas Protein bars and also i have these new DANG bars. both are good. keto types.had a cocoa ATlas, good, not too sweet. filling. 210
lunch: lefovers and good stuff.. bigger piece breaded baked chicken breast, lefover greens from hot pot, yellow cherry tomatoes, and prob chips :) 600 total.
Snacks small amount choc and fruit 100, later almonds and more tea 100
so far, very healthy...
6pm snack before exercise wrap & salami with mustard 250, iced coffee 50
8pm during workout chips 150, strawberries 50
protein bar 200
2150, excellent
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tonight is my revised strenght workout, upper and lower.
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
the only thing that's gonna beat me up now is this cardio, but i'm doing only a little at a time :) we'll see how it goes!
Very Pleasant Morning :) and i thought i'd be late, but i'm on time for work. Spent extra time prepping myself for work this AM, wearing a dress (so had to prep a bit - my legs) bc it's going to be extra warm today at 85F :) Tomorrow's temps are back to regular Spring temps like 65 i think.
3 DAYS OFF this past weekend was seriously the best thing i could have done. I feel seriously amazingly happy today.
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Kombucha 50
Wrap and egg 200, avocado 150, salt/pepper, coffee 50, chocolate 50
Snack: TBD, maybe a new Bar - found some excellent brands online. One is "Dang."BLUEBERRY POWDERED ALMONDS, AMAZING. FOUND ON AMAZON. 150
healthy lunch: small piece fish 100 & leftover greens (very tasty) from hot pot 200, chips 250. 550. light lemonade drink.
snack fruit nuts chocolate 150 tea, almonds and candies 150
chicken cutlets 2 smallish ones 300, wrap 100, pepper 50, strawberries 100. 550Chips 150
2250.
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
I dread going back to work after 3 days off. Who does your work when you're gone? Does it pile up or do you come back to a new day? My daughter, working retail, goes to work and everyday is a new day. I come back, and it's 100+ emails and 5,000 emergencies.
my days aren't fully new as work tasks can take a period of several days to complete some of the long tasks. but i don't think my responsibilities are as sensitive as yours. when i take 3 days, many times, the work i come back to i just start up where i left off.
i generally am doing work for only one person, my supervisor. i don't answer to all the customers like you do. !!
Happy Sunday :)
My appetite isn't too strong today. probably due to a lack of stress these few days. Feeling pretty good today.
Strawberries 100 yes, big portions
Strawberries 100, Oatmeal 180, kombucha
1pm Bigger, satisfying thai lunch: tofu and veggie soup small 100, 2 chicken/shrimp dumplings 150, fried tofu 300, sauteed veggies 100?, rice 100? total approx 800 tops i'd say.
4pm snack iced coffee and a bar 200, kombucha bc i feel bloated and gross..
during workout: coconut water and workout drinks 100, plum 50.
dinner Quest tasty protein bar, Halo Strawberry shortcake (not impressed) ice cream 450
2100, fine.
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It's been a really lovely 3 days off from work. I've both relaxed and exercised and cleaned up a bit around the apt. I haven't had to rush around at all & even got a free car wash :) the world is good!
Been eating out a bit more than i like to the past couple days, but, it's been healthy food. Today i'm going out again for lunch for thai food. My appetite is not overwhelming me like it usually does. I will try not to order much volume as my fridge is already full of leftovers. So, for once, i may go with a different type of order than I usually do! we'll see!
Out to lunch with friend Christine who lives 45min north of me. Haven't gotten together since early January right before my trip to Miami. So, we're getting together.
I'd thought today was the day i was needing to drive out east for a different friend's bday, also driving with Christine for the thing out east. I had thought that until late yesterday afternoon! Thank gosh someone told me that the party is NEXT SUNDAY.
with all the traveling i was doing and back to work so fast, i totally had the wrong date in my calendar for her bday. i'm thankful that i'm on the right track now! and it's nice to still get together for lunch :) we'll walk around a bit around that area too.
After lunch and she goes home around 2 or 3pm is my guess, i'll work out at home. worked out on and off between the hours of 6-9. there was a phone call in there, making breakfast...and other stuff too ;)
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
I am SO SO SO glad we didn't drive well over an hour away for nothing! She'd have murdered me on the drive back ;)
Breakfast: strawberries 50, almond milk 30 and oatmeal 150, pump pie seasoning and stevia. 250. filling....good for awhile lost appetite !
Morning Snack: keto type bar 200 and a lightdrink
11am lunch wrap100 with grilled chicken salad 200 small leftovers filling!
.....banana maybe too, drinks 200.
dinner: special going out to eat with Ricky to a place we both haven't been - Hot Pot style cuisine in Chinatown by us...overate but it was tasty of course: lots of greens in light sauces 150, seafood 50, fish also 100, dumplings like 3 150, noodles good amount 250?, mushrooms and other ingredients 100, and ice cream 200. total 1000 or so, good.
snack: plum, seltzer with stevia 50
2050 or so total today.major success.
exercise: 3 miles at least over the course of the day. excellent. felt better and less sore as the day went on!
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Early dr appt followed by going walking in NJ Palisades park which is close just a drive ac George Washington bridge!
Later eating Hot Pot ! GREATday!!!
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So, before dinner today while running errands - one of my friends happened to mention the party that i thought was TOMORROW! LOL!....it's NEXT SUNDAY!
so, i took off friday bc i was so overwhelmed about this weekend and a party that's not happening until next weekend!
but the good thing is that i used Friday really well, got a lot accomplished, and same for Saturday. so, this weekend has turned into a really lovely mini vacation for me! just amazing.
so tomorrow, instead of a party that is around 1.5hours away in one direction, i am simply meeting up with the lady i was going to the party with - but just for lunch here by me and to walk around a little bit! :) Def spent a TON on food this weekend, but, some of it will last a long time thankfully.
Ricky has been great, but, acts very childish on certain things. reminds me why he cannot be my "boyfriend" as a title. just can't be. he sometimes whines and complains about food / acts poorly towards wait staff at restaurants as well as takeout places. for some reason, he hasn't realized himself as an older man in these establishments and still acts like a teenager. i have let him know, unfortunately i had to bring it up as i don't like being around his behavior when he does this, on both Friday and Saturday.
Friday, i had to actually remind him that we were in OUR neighborhood, that my NEXT DOOR neighbor, 24yrs old, was the one serving us our pizza and that if RICKY wasn't going to be polite, that was a major embarassment to me as i'm seen with him acting like an ass. i tried to be nice about it, saying it was the first time in a long time that we went out to eat - and that i'd appreciate it if he kept his manners...
he got all babyish on me after that, sitting there whining telling me he'll act whatever way he wants....
he got better as these 2 days went by, thank gosh, but boy does he get angry with himself, out of nowhere, so easily.
luckily his outbursts were short, thank gosh.
i'm not perfect either, but, i'd like to see myself with a MAN when i'm out, not a boy...it can be very disheartening to be with someone who all of a sudden is acting like a whining boy.
like i said, it was luckily short lived.
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
8am breakfast: oatmeal 150, almond milk 20, vanilla/choc chip greek yogurt 180, iced coffee 50. 400.
Snack: 210 keto bar at 10am - ordered LOTS of new flavors of Keto bars and i'd like to try one today!
11:30am really hungry - Snack during workout - seared tuna that i bought yesterday at buffet yum! 150 - it's not expensive bc the buffet is by WEIGHT, not the cost of type of food you get :);
snacks from 12pm-2:30pm, Instead of a regular lunch, during workout 2 tbsp of a chocolate protein nut spread 200, big apple 150, lil bit of pb 50
so, lunch will def include this seared tuna that i brought home from work...as well as some Indian sauteed okra i think from my freezer as well as other veggies
Snack: salami on wrap with ketchup and mustard 200
ladder agility workout before dinner
Dinner: going out to eat with Ricky, will focus on the veggies- we will go somewhere locally. grilled chicken salad with light dressing 500? and some bread 200-250?
snack: fruit 100
2200 or so, excellent.
weekly avg: 2200
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strength workout was from around 11am-2:30pm with breaks, cleaning, watching TV inbetween. it's been a very good break today from work like a real vacation day doing personal care for myself, thankfully.
It's been nice, relaxing morning till early afternoon not rushing. laundry may not happen today, maybe afternoon or maybe a different part of this weekend.
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Sleep came late to me last night, midnight. but no worries, as i did sleep till around 7:30am this AM. Hormones are on overdrive and i'm so grateful to be home today especially bc of how i was feeling last night.
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Planning what i should do today:
DONE 1- shower, Go out - Put money on laundry card (this is important as i like to go and not put my card in the mail to get refilled - and the office is only open 8:30-4:30 daily,
DONE 2- Do my strength workout after i shower!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - then i'm still on track for this week and wouldn't have skipped any sessions for upper body and lower is doing good,too :). this would be a bright idea since i'm home today and can make it happen while i watch some talk show tv.
DONE 3-then go out to 2 supermarkets (maybe) ?
DONE 4- Do laundry LAST so no rush (maybe?) - once i'm back home from shopping :) get it done for the whole week so that i don't have to think about it come the weekend
Supermarket List:
kombucha (separate supermarket),
pick up fruit,
green veggies - for cooking...not the collard greens again, maybe spinach this time.
maybe cauliflower to roast with the potaotes i have at home? nah
iced coffee
almond milk,
coconut water - maybe
yogurts - depending on sales,
eggs,
lox,
1-2 packs (depending on expiration dates) precooked chicken sausages or something similiar to have some meat options for the week.
and got grapefruit beer :)
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i still have enough wraps so don't need bread or chips right now.
i also still have enough seltzer, too.
I'm cleaning my Brita filter also, so i can go back to drinking tap water also, not just seltzer which is always what happens when i haven't cleaned the Brita filter :)
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
i buy a big container they have and i usually just go for what's on sale if there's a sale. i like all the brands so far and am not picky.
I've tried starbucks which is probably the strongest, STOK which i loved the flavor, Califa and others! some i have tried i have found in other markets like the one that you have to dilute with water which i found interesting.
i find them all pretty strong, and sometimes even the regular brands i dilute a little bit with water before adding either milk or almond milk and some stevia, of course!
Update: i'm grateful to have gotten to the library vocal concert in shorter time than expected and got to see half of it - and that was a perfect amount :)
CAN'T MAKE THIS UP - STAYED AT WORK LATE PRINTING THINGS FOR NOW WELL OVER AN EXTRA HALF HOUR, PRINTER ISSUES SLOWED ME DOWN. I MAY SKIP THE CONCERT TONIGHT AT LIBRARY, BUT, AT LEAST I HAVE OFF TOMORROW AND TOOK A NICE, LONGER LUNCH TODAY! SO NO CONCERT IT LOOKS LIKE, UNLESS I WANT TO SEE A LITTLE BIT LIKE 15MIN, WE'LL SEE.
2250 total. Got snacky in evening and went to bed late and took me a couple hours to wind down
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Took it easy, got to work a hair late by just under 10 min is OK. prob still leaving on time and not worrying at all about it ;)
Home: kombucha / on bus i was really not feeling great (nauceous) so i took a candy too. 100
At work: feeling a bit better, coffee 50, one mini cupcake so fresh with icing so fine! 100 (really fresh so i loved it! and calories were listed), wrap 130 with egg 70 and half avo 150. 500.
good, moderate, feeling good. taking my time at work and not rushing my breakfast...
almonds 150
healthy lunch: corned beef leftovers very tasty small portion 100-150, little bites of potato 100, steamed broccoli with salt 50, spaghetti squash with olive oil 100, chips 150. 550 very filling, followed by tea :)
3PM ORANGE 100
5PM ALMONDS 100
was only going to be 2100, but got extremely hungry later at night and sorta just went with the feeling and had snacks. at least 150 more.
2250, not the worst, but, will not help me feel leaner.still it's decent.
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easy day at work today, not rushing. i even was outside the office close to an hour for lunch, did one errand & also walked. so tonight will be an easy night, i'm skipping exercise totally in the evening to do it tomorrow instead :)
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I lost track of time this AM getting ready, but all is just fine. Left apt 7 min later than i like to. but traffic and transportation were timely.
I'm really happy i took Friday off as to not have to rush to do everything this weekend just to grind thru another full week next week. I def have at least a couple activities (even if smaller) that i plan to do on Fri, Sat, Sun so i'm REALLY glad i am not working Friday!
Tonight, depending on my mood, i might stop at a Library that is literally on the way home where i change from subway (train) to bus. that's the location of the library and there's an hour presentation there from 6pm-7pm and a male vocalist performing less popular and sung Jewish pieces. I'd like to attend for obvious reasons of culture identity as well as it being short and it being ok if i miss some at the beginning if i arrive late or if i want to leave. it's free of course at the library :) This particular library is in a more well-off community of Queens and also diverse community with many Jewish people which is the reason why they are having this type of program there. So I might go since i don't have work tomorrow. Then, i'll just do a short upper body workout (minus the leg moves) again tonight & then i can sleep in tomorrow / not need an alarm to get up since i'm not going to work.
One of the main reasons i am taking tomorrow off, besides feeling extremely fatigued this week, is that now i'll be unstressed on Friday and doing the new ladder agility workout that i'm adding into my routine will be great to learn some of the moves tomorrow. I prefer to incorporate it without stressing it. So, by taking a day off, my mind is more focussed on the agility workout and i have the mental energy of being more recharged than if i were rushing home to do it after work.
Plus, on Saturday morning i have a dr appt at 8:30am, so, it's nice to be able to sleep in Friday instead! :)
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
Happy Wednesday!
Kombucha 50
Nice breakfast from buffet, planned better, craving PROTEIN: half piece of chorizo sausage 150, lots of scrambled egg whites 150, couple undercooked (annoying!!) waffle fries 100. 400, coffee 50, swedish fish lol 50
10:30 sugar free Lily's Dark Chocolate, oh, i must buy more! 150
horribly hungry 11am...not sure why i feel this way today, but very shakey and hungry so had some milk chocolate, regular type 100
noon almonds 100
1:15pm lunch: lost my appetite a bit, i know i am feeling not so hot so i'm taking friday off work to rest up, do laundry, get ready for the weekend. just had a seaweed salad 2oz size the package said hardly any dressing on this one at all maybe lower sugar too 100, some squash but really not much to even count, and the other half the garlic sausage with the last of the roasted eggplant 150. 300 that's really it. and tea.
2-3pm coworker gave me couple tiny cookies. then i decided to have a small banana as i feel i just need some energy today. Later almonds 100
Natural bar but ate the wrong flavor than I wanted (accidentally bought peanut butter when i wanted tart cherry...big difference!) lol 300, drink with coconut water 100, strawberries 150, 550
2000
no extra exercise, did walk at lunch which was nice.
5 day: 2170
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I changed my mind,very sleepy and not energized, so i'll do the agility work Friday after work instead of today AND i am taking Friday off from work.. i'll then have time to put $$ on my laundry card at the housing office, pick up some kombucha and food for the week to come, do laundry all Friday before the weekend begins.
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My ankle still feels a bit tingly and recovering, but, my plan is to have dinner (takeout) with Ricky and go over the new moves. However, i almost want to just have the dinner and tell him we'll go over the new agility moves Friday.
but either way, we aren't jumping the moves or doing them roughly, so, with just 20min time to spare on them, i think i should be OK to go over them tonight, considering tomorrow eve is just weights, i'll skip legs again probably like i did last night - based on how i feel. MORE IMPORTANT, is to keep getting appropriate rest each night this week, which, gettng around 7 hours, it's going well each night. i wish to get more hours (because i wake up groggy when my alarm goes off and would sleep more if it were the weekend), but it's still decent sleep at 7 hours if not PERFECT sleep lol.
Another thing the author of the book that i just finished this AM on recovery said is obviously not to OBSESS over sleep to the point where your obsession becomes a stressor. just do what you can...and see your weekly average! she actually wrote that - a weekly average - reminds me of my calorie counting which i love ot do by weekly averages because it gives me more leeway when i go over to average it out later on in the week!. ;)
I feel It was fine to skip legs last night as i got the workout (5 exercises only for abs / upper body) done so quickly that even after getting a hair trim and being on the phone, the workout was easy to finish and i was in bed by 10pm.
Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!
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Sounds like a great day today! Enjoy the extra time off work! And have a great weekend :)
yeah, glad for a longer weekend. didn't really use the time well...it's sometimes hard for me to have a productive friday by the time it's friday. but at least i am getting a workout in :)
bearcountrygg on 05/24/2019:
Some nice vacay days for all of you guys.
yes :) very nice!
Donkey on 05/25/2019:
Some days are just more binge-y. If it saves your sanity, then so be it.
pretty much what happened, Yes. pretty much was my mindset at the time, Yes.