Today I will head to gym after work, looking forward to the new workout & improving over the course of this year. :--)
And for the past two days my mail has been in my closet bc i had a cleaning of my apt that i do like every 4-6 weeks...and i keep forgeting to take the mail back out, to orgainize my tax forms...and OPEN MY work W2 form!
i cannot believe i still haven't opened it! (because if something is out of sight, it's out of mind!) and mail being in closet, forgetting to take it out, i've forgotten to think about the form!
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Kombucha 60
Breakfast: banana 120, coffee 20, chocolate 70
Snack: wrap 100, pb 200, sf jelly: 300
Snack: almonds
Lunch: tbd, i brought the veggies only nicely chopped peppers and cucmber in my homemade dressing i rock on this account!...ordering the rest with coworkers - or i can go & buy my own, actually....which i will do i think...yeah, we'll see. i don't need much extra walking this week, but then again, it's not like i'm running. i am thinking wayyyyy too much now. (lately slightly bored at work.)
lunch was chicken stick (chicken on skewer) from a food truck (TONS of food trucks around here like every block has one)! fatty chicken but decent good portioned amount 300, small piece bread not more than 100 cal, some sauce and veggies in dressing too150: 550. clementine 50. chocolate 50
1350 after healthy eating today....
Dinner before gym: again, TBD - or i can have my tuna at home!!!!...big possibility over here.!!!
After gym small snack: NOT ice cream like last night, too much sugar lately...maybe crackers and peanut butter...the ones already made that are packaged in the store.
2100 perfect
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
4 day 2085.
Home: tea and honey 50
Breakfast: wrap with salami and mustard 200, banana 150, tea, chocolate 150:
1250 after lunch...
there's a bday, and i'm actually going to have a slice of cake...mouth is WATERING for it! had a LARGE slice...it was extra wet somehow!? icing was goood. at least 500 cal i'd say?
1750 after the cake....but you know, it wasn't satisfying really....so there we go again...carbs are so quickly ingested and then....was it worth it!?
2050 after chickpeas small dinner at class
Today was an indulgence 2350 total
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(I had too much free time today....so here come a pair of guinea pigs soon....)...i just don't wanna wait to get them. I'm happy when home and i cannot wait to hear these little guys' sounds everyday!!!! They are known for their sounds, unlike my hamster which doesn't make sounds often...he's relatively quiet and i don't even hear him daily).
Preparing to buy two guinea pigs (they don't like living alone) and all the necessary prep work also. I'm sick of waiting to get them for when time is right. If I need to hand them over to anyone bc of anything down the road in the next 7 years, i'll figure it out then.
I'm exciting to hear their sounds and come home to them and wake up to these cute creatures. I hope to buy them sometime in FEBRUARY :) As soon as I get all the materials. Guinea pigs are usually talkative and make a variety of different sounds.
I have spent my $$$ and ordered basically everything i need for the two Guinea Pigs...i can probably get them either this or next weekend.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
I saved up some calories a few days ago for my daughter's birthday party. Was craving a delicious looking cupcake with icing and chocolate shavings. Took one bite and was immediately let-down. The cake was ok, the icing consistency was too hard, the flavor was ok. Stopped and thought about throwing the rest away, but ended up finishing it anyways (hoping the next bite or two would be better). There wasn't anything wrong with the cupcake, but it definitely wasn't worth the calories it cost.
but the 2 guineas will be SAME sex so that they do not mate and i prefer to get females bc i hear they may be a little calmer than two males. and perhaps smell less.
i also learned that female hamsters smell MORE than male ones, and i have a male so i guess i got lucky - my hamster doesn't smell at all and i hope this will be the case with the guinea pigs as long as i clean up well weekly like i do with the hamster...
so boy hamster will not be around the 2 female guinea pigs.
PS I hear you on the sweet things, and not that I don't disagree, but why can't I be logical in my choices then? That is to say, Why can't I think, "This isn't really worth it" and not have cake?
2 day avg 2125...
Message to all of us here who sometimes struggle with positivity motivation and or depression anxiety: keep on - just keep on, don't doubt yourself or your plans - your goals are possible and what you do now is possible - that last part about work now and life now is for Donkey !!!
Home kombucha 100..no pooping tho...but i 'll be fine it seems today.
Bfast: tea, banana 120, wrap 100, pb 200: 420., coffee with almond milk/stevia
Snack: almonds 150
Lunch: from home salmon 200?, veg 50-100, and ordered shrimp from food truck with coworkers (saving salmon for tomorrow) a little bit of sauce too 200 chips 150, orange 50: 350.
Snack: yogurt from coworker! 150? fruit on bottom greek type...
1200 before dinner...
dinner: Got to dentist too early so went around corner to eat sushi avocado and salmon cucumber roll and miso soup total around 500 1700 need to clean up apt bc having it cleaned really tomorrrow when I am not home .....and then early to bed.
total 1750. excellent.
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New exercise plan = hard as F*ck! I think i can keep attempting and get better, but right now i'd fail it if you were testing me. I'll be practicing it for ONE YEAR until 2019...in January 2019, or december into it, i'll reconvene and assess if it's doable or not to be a court officer.
one of the exercises, called a split squat, i could only do FOUR reps in each set...not the recommended 8-12 reps. so i'm really under par. I also need to improve my situps to triple what i can do now...like be able to do 38, not my current 15. LOL...on pushups, i'm practically there at the best rating - best rating means you can do 30 pushups or more, i can do this as long as i maintain my current level of training. because i made it my best exercise (pushups) as i excelled quite fast in them over 10 years ago and at one point i could do 70 lousy form ones all at once though - which is quite impressive. no reason why i can't also make situps better, right!? Now my top number is right around 30 pushups, but i need to make the last ones stronger and keep good form - just needs continued practice, but not really any extra effort, thankfully!
i did practice setting up the cones for the running aspects of the fitness test on sunday, i hope to practice right now on weekends that are at least 40 degrees outside. There are two running portions.
if i can be a court officer, i will do it despite salary cut because i feel it's a simpler job with less "reasoning / deciphering / figuring out" and more "action" duties...i am going to make the attempt to get it, that's all i can do. ONE YEAR, if my progress is not substantial, i'll have to reconsider my goal of being a court officer. Also, i want to do it for job stability as i feel once i get into academy, the job is mine to keep as long as i follow directions.
There was a time in my ADULT life i couldn't do ONE standard pushup, had to start on my news with "girl" pushups. There was a time I could only lift 10 lb weights for bicep curls (i've gotten up to at my best 35lb bicep curls and now not practicing them bc the court officer guide doesn't recommend it, only to train triceps).
There was a time after injury that i couldn't run or even walk without pain - and i taught myself to run again after an injury.
So perhaps the "impossible" is seriously STILL POSSIBLE. I'm just not giving up yet. I just can't just yet. Before doing more running, i'm just following the legs exercises (i believe it's just 4 of them) that are advised by the court officer training guide.
Seems once we have jobs, it's hard to become really good at anything else...the effort for me is just to maintain a proper practice schedule despite some distractions...
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
but it's so slow, that i end up worrying...
i'm gonna work on slowing my mind. lately i wake up with dreams about what i'm worrying about. not scary, but, gotta work on relaxing.
For now it means I need to push myslef to make sure I am physically practicing the exercises - it still excites me that I can do it I feel I work on it.
the new exercises are actually way different than before, no biceps - but extra triceps and it's just totally different where i'm using much lower weights because i do not have the strength yet to do these new exercises like the ones i used to do before. It's a good change...but i must remember to also rest and not go to crazy.
yeah, with the split squat its one knee to the ground - really different.
I seriously had no idea i impress you, thank you :)
I'm just going to keep on and think positive that the exercises and focus i maintain will WORK for me this time around.
Anxiety sure can complicate things...but i guess we recognize it and work to move past it..
450...
1500 before gym
DD wasn't letting me post earlier
2150 gotta watch my legs and lay a bit low on cardio till the year feel better
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
last week was walking tons compared to all past weeks...
Slept 12 hrs 8pm to around 8am....body seems to really want it.
8am 420 cal breakfast mostly sweet very tasty.
10am chips 150, small wrap 100 with turkey sausage 100. Banana 120 470
900
1pm before ice skating (semi nervous about it lol) McDonald's thinking small fries and hamburgers
2100 and at 7pm thinking to go back to bed for tonight until tomorrow
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
You have a good idea there -- I think I might try going to bed early tonight too...
Home: kombucha worked in record time yay 50
Work 1st breakfast: banana 120, coffee 20, chocolate 70
Work 2nd Breakfast: tea, wrap 100 with turkey sausage small 70
total above: 430
Snack if hungry: half chocolate glazed donut, 170 or so cal!
Healthy lunch: leftovers of egg/white 100, my roasted potatoes 200, broccoli 50, clementine 50, pretzels 100: 500...and chocolate of course...not gonna keep going with it? or will i!? (talking about chocolate)
1150 after lunch..
snack before going home: possible chocolate
dinner: i have tons of tasty healthy things, can't wait to use my homemade salad dressing and have a very large salad with tofu, maybe small serving butter popcorn also.
1250 before dinner
Dinner approx 650
Total is great, 1900.
Weekly avg is very good around 2070.
Walked a lot this week!
Today I walked at lunch 15-20min And I walked after work half hour I walked total 20min to and from bus And couple errands.
Grand total time walking over an hour - pays to fit it in over the course of the day!
So I shouldn't push the jogging training bc the walking is really adding up nicely first off.
I am also a tad sore from my new workout routine that should help me to be a court officer
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
6 day avg: 2085, very good.
GM! Whether i like it or not, tonight is the gym after work. Last night i was in bed before 8pm, been very tired this Winter.
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Home: kombucha and it worked 40 cal
Breakfast at work: wrap 100 with one small turkey sausage 50, banana 120, coffee with almond milk 20. total above 330 approx. and 1 piece white/dark chocolate i brought some into work to eat - maybe the limit should be 2-3 per day? lol.
snack: TBD - almonds 150
Healthy Lunch: egg/egg white 120, potatoes 200, veg 100, clementine 50. approx 500. still ate to past full but normal portions, extra veggies.
Late afternoon snack before going home: one chocolate
before gym: thinking yogurt and sweet potato? i ate dinner after getting off the bus and before walking home - worked like a charm so i just came in to pick up my things and leave for gym. this can work :)
dinner: sushi and miso soup 550
after gym: rest of that sushi, chips and blueberries 300, chocolate bc i have it now at home and work and still on a kick for chocolate lol.
total is awesome 2050, still gotta work on health :)
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I walked a tiny bit extra this AM to one farther bus stop (maybe includes walking 2-3 minutes more) and because i left early, got to work too early so didn't go right in, but walked extra (even tho very cold). So already today, i've walked around 30 minutes in the morning. Very cool. Good exercise...might as well keep this up so that i can go home and not worry that i need to exercise when i get home...except only around 1 night per week this winter when i do weights during the weekdays....i am not ever giving it up - weights have been so good to my body!
Oh, getting into work after so much walking in AM...sparksmy appetite so much...i eat as soon as i get into work (as most people do in this industry with desk jobs).
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
I've had better luck just adding in the exercise before the end of the workday...than going out into the cold once i get home when i'm both hungry and tired.
this new commute i'm still getting used to - it's been over one month of this new job, almost 6 weeks already!...my legs are stronger than how they were when i started...must keep on!
2050 today
2090 5day, good
Indulged at dinner but not in mood to write it as it accidentally got deleted
Up & at work. Arrived early so did an extra walk around a whole block before walking into work. Seems a good idea to walk extra if i'm early to work in morning...gets more steps in. something to continue.
6am Home: honey and tea 20,
7:30am Work banana 120 and chocolate 70. salt and vinegar almonds 50 total here: 260.
Breakfast: wrap 100, cashew butter, blackberries 350.
good lunch: huge, but good. gotta work i think on smaller portions or stopping when full, still i can't. 650.
3pm snack: dark chocolate
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and 1350 before dinner...
No gym today bc i want a night early at home after last night's being home late. being out many nights in a row is stressful to me and i tend to get sick after running around many days in a row. it seems this Winter will include mostly 2x a week workouts except for a couple weeks in March and one week in February = good enough.
and as for my cardio - gonna try for one session on weekend (walking / maybe jogging also - not for improvement, just for maintenance right now of what i can do). in spring i'm taking a break from taking any classes (except for a 5 week jury duty class if it's offered bc it means if you go to jury duty you can be paid 80% of your salary and not just $40 a day - making jury duty worth it for me to attend!)
in spring is when i want to make advancements in my cardio...and my gym workout will be changing to include only the weights / strength exercises on the court officer training guide (since they wrote one) and will make my weight training exercises much less...but planning to do more for legs, less for arms.
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
it's a class to take, doesn't mean you'll be selected for jury duty - but if you EVER are after taking the class, it's very beneficial not to only make $40 each day, but more like probably $100 each day. then i don't mind missing even a week of work for JD! LOL. good change of pace.
I like your fitness plan for winter-into-spring. And I thought that was very wise of you to realize the gym wasn't going to happen tonight so that you can REST (to prevent getting sick). This is *brilliant* thinking!
yes, 80% of salary pay for jury duty is ok with me!
Home kombucha (prob shouldn't have had it) and a little dab of honey 80
Breakfast wrap of almond butter and a few blackberries 320 and tea - taking a coffee break today 400 and donut 100 (only 1/4 of a donut and NO, not worth it...2 bites and just under 100 cal!)
Snack chocolate 70
550...before lunch...lunch healthy but big 750
1350 after clementine...
1800 fine. Ate light tonight bc of class. Very thankful red already and it's only Tuesday. Teacher was good and kept the class moving. It wasn't boring or too long - just time spent out. I should be ok.
4day avg: 2100 per day
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Class tonight 5-7 Need to also return/renew books at library next door and drop off the health reimbursement funds that I forgot to do yesterday since going home I like to skip walking by that office.
Everything located in same building. I'll pick up something to drink / eat while in class tonight
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
Good luck! I hope it goes well!
Home: tea, herbal, very tasty
Larger than expected breakfast at work: half a really fatty donut that coworker brought in 150 (calories on the box), banana 150, coffee w/ almond milk (calories already included), and 2 sausages 130 in a wrap 100. total here: 530-550, still decent. glad i had only half a donut. wasn't even that good - extremely fatty tasting. like fried dough. and lately i'm breaking out, prob too much sugar...
snack:yes, salted smoked almonds 150 - gonna have to lay off the sugars bc it's getting to be a TON...or one chocolate...but i cannot be eating chocolate as breakfast anymore - was a nice month like that but trying to get back on track...
Lunch: from home and i have tons of food this week, so i shouldn't really have to order a thing...1 egg, 1 egg white 100, lots of cabbage, pretzels 450
snack: clementine 50
1200 after lunch, plus TWO chocolates
1350 before dinner :)
Dinner at home: i want to include the broccoli that i steamed nicely in microwave last night and also i want to roast the sweet potatoes tonight...maybe have some of that with dinner since they'll be nice and warm.
Dinner is going amazingly ! Had kombucha snack and peppers diced in the dressing I made myself 150 so far , later will be roasted peppers and a yogurt with some fruit at bottom
Total today extremely tasty with one portion (3 total pieces) of chocolate.
Total is healthy at 2050.
3day is 2200 per day - decent
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i don't think i'll find peace within myself until i hopefully get the opportunity to train and work as a court officer. additionally, i don't think i'll find peace within myself if i STOP exercising. That being said, i'll try to talk about court officer less as the opportunity to be chosen will not arise for approx 3 years. With that being said, i will continue to train, read, and do things to help myself. I'm not a big social person, so i'll continue to improve upon myself, especially weekends, and work on what i know is probably best for me. being at current job is weird and strange, as usual, because i'm always confused of what i'm doing. anyways, like i said, i know it's on the backburner, but i'm not quitting on my ability to attempt to usually very well fit in exercise and fitness and healthy eating on my "off hours" when i'm not at work. I'm going to continue. It may not be the highest paying job, but it will put me at peace knowing you cannot get fired so easily (like a cop) and that i'm on a pay schedule, work schedule - all the things i freak about now (stability of having a job) wouldn't necessarily be a stress as a court officer, once again IF i were to have the opportunity to be one. part of why i train so hard is bc i want my training to be related to my work. it's a desire of mine to LINK exercise with a job somehow. This would be that way....pay would be low like 5 years...but i do feel i'd be at peace with myself and not feel so anxious about keeping a job / having to rely on my dad. it's very upsetting feelings so...so this is why i keep this in the back of my head.
my course every tuesday for 10 (really 11) weeks starts tomorrow, 5-7pm, basic estimating. i'm debating bringing (buying something to eat at the class after i walk off the bus that lets me out over there where i live and where the course is given - there's a shopping center across the street with fast food choices) dinner, but we'll see. it'll be hard to focus if i'm hungry those two hours. my friend ricky told me i was nuts to think about food if i'm taking a course, but i think he's somtimes nuts to criticize what i do think about and why. there's a reason i weigh a certain amount right now and it has to do with my planning and being conscientous of eating. duh.
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exercise was great yesterday, should have filled the humidfier fully bc it helps me breathe at night with the heat on...especially important after the days i exercise for at night to have easy breathing...will do that tonight too.
lastly, i must remember to drop off my health reimbursement papers to the union after i step off the bus (it is on the walk home so, yes, it's easy).
Progress as of today: 5 lbs lost so far, only 0 lbs to go!
so i do understand where you are coming from and how hard it is...one of my first thoughts upon waking up is that i'll have tea (herbal and it's pretty sweet especially when i add in stevia) and relax on my couch before leaving my apt for the day (workdays). and lately i also start with a little honey since it's good for you in small portions i discount that it's sugar...i count the calories, but i think the benefits outweigh the cons of honey.
i also need to go back to eating more protein snacks...like almonds and not chocolate.
i did buy some more chocolate but hope for it to last a little longer - and not for it to be eaten as quickly as i have been...but will still allow myself some right now - as a snack, not a meal.
i still think about food more than most, but, i am also able to be more moderate.
the more i exercise, the more moderate as well....not extra exercise, just as long as i maintain what i've already gotten to fitness wise.
i am not in a weightloss phase anymore so after it, i have been doing what you say your next step is, moderation, after you reach your goal. this is what i did for myself - same as what you are doing.
to lose my "last 10" before i have been satisfied, it took one year including my sister's wedding.
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How do you make your dressing?
i took a photo of the recipe this AM so i could write it to you (i'm not in total love with it - i think a bit less paprike would be better) but it's definitely tasty:
3 garlic cloves minced
3 tbsp extra virgin olive oil
1 tbsp red wine vinegar
1/2 lemon juiced
1/2 tsp cumin
1/2 tsp paprika (i think to use half this amount would be better)
1/2 tsp basil
i'm going to look for more recipes, but this is the first one i tried making.
Donkey on 01/31/2018:
Responded to yesterday's entry, check out the comments.
Have fun at the gym!!!!
so with the sweet things, try not to do the "all or nothing" approach. i think it's because in our brains were are chemically affected by the sugar...that it does have an effect.
i'd say a piece of chocolate or sweet fruit or similar thing is best after a meal, when you are already full...or even as a snack a couple hours after lunch at work...just keep it small. i do not think that sweets are "all or nothing" we (including me) have to learn to moderate them somehow. also with the popcorn, that's why i do small servings too...mine is butter so usually 200 cal...
also, i sometimes use the popcorn as the carb for my meal when i'm home and can do what i want and eat what i want rather than work when i try to choose food more for what works and not to bring attention to myself...and not to be eating forever when i want to get out and walk...bc popcorn can take a long time to eat.
gym was good...i am once again realizing that i must do it 3x a week or i'll in no way improve near enough.
hamster will get jealous, yes. He has gotten really relaxed with me especially these couple weeks and sleeps really well as i hold him and pet him. as long as i hold him semi tightly (but def not hurting the guy), he will fall asleep as i pet him. the moment i stop petting him and give him too much space to move, he'll be up and antsy lol. he's a good boy...but doesn't make any sounds or show lots of excitement like guinea pigs will...guinea pigs will DEFINITELY require more attention, i'm ready - it's not like i need to only care for myself...ya know...i'm excited to hear their cute sounds.
it'll be a bit more laundry / cleaning - but no worries - the money i considered it a waste, but it's caring for a living thing which i believe can be rewarding!?
trying to get my friend to go to pet store with me - bc i'm a tad nervous to go alone and bring home two pets...kinda want a friend with me.
bearcountrygg on 02/01/2018:
The dressing recipe sounds really good...I'll need to pick up some red wine vinegar for it. Your hamster sounds like a baby ...sleeping as long as you are holding it...then awake the minute you try to lay it in bed...LOL
EXACTLY this way, yes.
Happy to give myself a sorta "major" new responsibility with the pigs. they'll need much more care - guinea pigs require some attention as well as fresh veggies, one cup, every day. they are a bit more expensive as a pet, but i feel it'll give me some extra happiness to have them which is the reason i am getting them.