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Horn_of_plenty - Friday Oct 26, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Kombucha 50, later coffee 50

My coconut blondie 350..shoot forgot to add whipped cream 120!

Snack: TBD chocolate 150 and atkins bar 150

Lunch: more of my fave cabbage, a leftover egg, fries..up to 700

snack: an apple, green tea decaf

Walking home for most of the way i think, since the walk tomorrow i may not show up to if we have a Nor'Easter storm!...3mi walk home :)

Dinner at home: leftover indian spinach with oil 300 so good and Amy's microwave meal 400:-D

2350 frday avg.

7day: 2230, high cal week, but, i was seriously PMSing and indulging. :) at least it all tasted quite good.

Recap of last night:

My friend type relationship with R has plunged for the worst. Without going into detail bc it's just so stupid a situation, he threw a very light package at my feet because i didn't leave his apt lobby fast enough bc he wanted to speak with someone and i didn't oblige his command to get outta there...public humiliation and embarrassment aren't acceptable. this is one of the reasons i cannot date him. He's extremely unpredictable and i think he's bipolar. either way, i'm done with him for the time being....as it upset me so much that he'd ever embarass me, in public, in front of other people. not acceptable behavior. and i'm embarassed.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/26/2018:
Yes, maybe a break would be a good idea. Maybe he thought he was being funny...? I say, keep the negative forces at bay, even if it means some distance. It might not be a permanent thing, or maybe it will. All you can do is live in the moment, and you did the right thing.

horn_of_plenty on 10/26/2018:
no, he actually was fuming angry out of nowhere. maybe bc he knew i didn't want to stay and hang out and i was just dropping something off? i'm not sure. but he let something bother him, something minor that i didn't "leave as fast as he wanted from the lobby so he could talk to his neighbor without me there"...and he just boiled up about it. R is extremely easily agitated and unpredictable. that's the issue. :(

graindart on 10/27/2018:
I think I'd kill for a warm & gooey coconut dark chocolate brownie right about now. I could pass up a blondie, but would have a difficult time not devouring a brownie if it were sitting in front of me right now.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/27/2018:
i do almost always prefer chocolate too!

i now also found a cool recipe for a crustless blueberry cheesecake which is also on my list of keto breakfasts to make :) yum yum.

BearCountryGG on 10/27/2018:
Sounds like a bit of distance is in the cards.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/27/2018:
yeah - he cannot expect to treat me any way he likes no matter how ugly his temper. not ok.

Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Oct 25, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

kombucha 70

Breakfast: coconut blondie made by me keto style 300 with whipped cream 130...later almonds 50

Snack: coconut atkins 200

Lunch: my eggs 150, my buttered, baked cabbage with some broth and carrots, 250, goldfish crackers 150...550

Snack: apple?

Snack 2: coffee and bar..

banana and plum also during exercise 200

After exercise: raspberries leftover 50 and a healthy bar 230...around 300 :) choc ice cream 100

2050, perfect....

was major PMSing this week....glad it will pass soon! bc huge appetite!

6day avg: tbd when i feel like calculating...or looking back lol...2210.


Tonight i have a planned weights routine, i will ride the bus all the way home, conserve all energy for weights...and be in bed when i can...because i have a full weekend with going to a bday party...and full week until around 2 weeks from now. 

My friend type relationship with R has plunged for the worst. Without going into detail bc it's just so stupid a situation, he threw a very light package at my feet because i didn't leave his apt lobby fast enough bc he wanted to speak with someone and i didn't oblige his command to get outta there...public humiliation and embarrassment aren't acceptable. this is one of the reasons i cannot date him. He's extremely unpredictable and i think he's bipolar. either way, i'm done with him for the time being....as it upset me so much that he'd ever embarass me, in public, in front of other people. not acceptable behavior. and i'm embarassed.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/25/2018:
Do you like the weights at home more than at the gym...or do you miss the atmosphere at the gym?

horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2018:
- I miss the gym atmosphere, but use facebook to continue to post for some extrinsic motivation.

- i enjoy more music options now at home, without headphones...better for my ears and hearing. i have now subscribed to Itunes music for more listening options than just my Amazon music that was free but was getting old very fast as i've been listening to it for YEARS...Itunes apple music has newer and a larger variety :)

- I get distracted at home & if i do not concentrate, i forget what i'm up to (what # set, etc) and also snack more and have to watch that...at the gym, there's no option to walk to the fridge

- i like not having to drive after a workout or waste time in commuting to and from the gym :)

- i like being able to have a wide range of food to choose from when my workout is done, and perhaps saving money not stopping at 7-Eleven or convenience stores on way home

- i love not going out in the dark / out in the cold during the week

- i love opening the window and turning off my air for a nice cool space while working out at home - just as comfortable as the gym

- home is more convenient and even this week i'll have to do a home workout because my trips to the gym lately are on bike and require a lot of free time

- i reserve gym for weekends - especially when i have ample time to spend biking there :)

- gym is more motivating.

- my goals to not lose strength over the winter will keep me motivated 100% to do home workouts.

horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2018:
thank you for asking...this is SO important to me, to improve on...to not have a standstill...to get better...

in the mornings, when i take the E train (not everyday, sometimes F train), there's 4 long staircases up from the E to the street level...i ALWAYS, even when legs are tired, take the steps and lately i RUN up them, getting VERY winded, but i do it!...i try so hard to challenge myself...to improve and be better than i was the day before.

to me, at 36 yrs old, i feel i STILL have the opportunity to improve physically...to make my body capable for a court officer postion (AND that position comes with room to grow & gain even better compensation after years / more education on that job!)...

i KNOW i wasn't meant to sit at a desk...but to work in a more "vibrant" environment...and it's my goal to get this opportunity for myself.

it's just sometimes a task that REQUIRES THOUGHT NOW...and REQUIRES MAKING CHANGES NOW...to make sure i am productively working on ways to MAKE IT HAPPEN...like exercising at home...

to become a court officer, it involves actively making changes on my LIFESTYLE NOW...in ways so my body adapts and changes ...so i can pass that court officer test & get thru the 3-4 month (short) academy...then, i'm good !!! this is my goal.

it's wayyyy more doable than the nypd cop thing was...it rests on my promise to myself...my ability to steer clear of distractions like friends wanting to hang out but when i have to skip a workout and myself making the choice of what i can do and what i should place as priority....give and take...

Donkey on 10/25/2018:
Good planning on your activities! I'm still struggling to get in 7 hours of sleep -- I don't have this planned out very well!

horn_of_plenty on 10/26/2018:
I simply get very tired at night ... and lately it's so easy for me to get to bed.

work doesn't leave me worrying about tasks to finish, etc....i can go to bed with a very relaxed mind as of late.

BearCountryGG on 10/25/2018:
Motivation at home is an issue...it is too easy to put it off...but then again...you aren't wiping some one elses sweat off things either...and for me...that is a huge difference. I like the time savings of at home equipment....in the past that made it worthwhile for us.…..

horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2018:
i wrote more back to you above...the home workouts are a necessity since my commute is so long now and my use of public transportation...which drains energy and time...so it's great to be home and stay home.

horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2018:
oh, and i drink caffeine on the way home with a snack...getting my mind and brain into workout mode.

BearCountryGG on 10/25/2018:
Definitely caffeine....makes getting moving easier....and once you are on the move...it keeps going from there.

horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2018:
yes....it makes the task a lot easier.

graindart on 10/25/2018:
Good job on the exercise plans. Reading your entries has gotten me back off my butt and walking the past couple days. Haven't really felt compelled to do anything more yet.....

Horn_of_plenty on 10/25/2018:
excellent progress, Gains! i've learned that going big results in disappoint...and less is more anywayz!

Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Oct 24, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Kombucha 100

2 Small Cookies 150 and coffee 50 

beef jerky or something. 100

10am coconut choc atkins 200

Almonds 100

1:30pm lunch: my slow cooked buttered cabbage melts in your mouth! 300 with some broth, carrots, 2 eggs 200, and chedder goldfish crackers 150: 650 and decaf green tea with stevia

huge apple 100-150

 Light Dinner: totally not sure, but tired. maybe chilli in a wrap, saag, fruit



Boring uneventful day at work.

Conversations are boring. So i'm staying out of them.

Work is dull, but that's a GOOD THING...because i understand it and can do it...just time consuming, but that's also something i'm happy about.

But people...people are bothering me.

I'm starting to get more used to coworkers and we've all let down our guards somewhat and less being nice just because...meaning true colors coming out. not in a bad way, but people's personalities are getting slightly louder at times and also ingnorant comments are more noticable to me...and just other similar things which cause me to want to distance myself...and take care of myself before i'm stuck in this field forever...which my desire is to leave and still want to be a court officer, around 2 years from now...when the test comes out again. and that's why i talk of getting back into jogging training come Spring since time and weather is not going to work for jogging in Winter...i'll just get sick trying to fit it in / or injured.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/24/2018:
D loves jerky....good source of protein.

horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
it was a GREAT jerky..no nitrates, 100 cal a pop.

coworker tells me it has nitrates, i get so annoyed when people talk to me about what i eat...because i do MUCH more research on food than most people...and they do NOT usually give me any good advice...like this coworker, telling me that jerky has nitrates, but not knowing this one does NOT. UGH!!!!

BearCountryGG on 10/24/2018:
There are 2 brands I buy for him that don't have them....others do...and I avoid those also.

horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
yeah, since the nitrates are cancer causing!

good job ...i have a good brand that is jalepeno flavored.

BearCountryGG on 10/24/2018:
I'm surprised that it's a boring day there...the news is full of goings on in NYC

horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
lol slow office day :)

outside it was very pleasant and active during lunch :)

happy-1 on 10/24/2018:
There is no jerky like siracha bacon jerky... just sayin’

horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:

Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Oct 23, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

kombucha at home 40

light breakfast sugary greens chocolate bar soooo good 280, coffee 50

9-10am almonds salt and vinegar for change of pace and a keto style bar i got in the store soooo good 230. 330., extra almonds 50


LUNCH w/. coworkers was tasty : fries, salad/beans and dressing, turkey, avocado 650 and hopefully not more, coffee 50. 700

2250 cals = excellent, not a low cal week...hormones coming on!

4day avg:




There is simply not enough sunlight / hours in the day to add running with Winter approaching and turning the clocks back - running i have decided will not work out for Winter. I will push myself again in the spring and for winter i am simply working on maintaning my current weights routine / fitness levels and cardio endurance thru walking and other activity.

Winter is a tough season to "push it" and i realize that it's not a smart idea. 

I'll wait till there's more daylight and it's easier to bike to the track and do the cardio again.

but for now, i'll DO CARDIO still, just walking and transfer it to bike / jog in spring when it's light out and i can get to the track safely and warmly.

for now, cardio will be done as early as possible in the workday, on my way home.


home weights workout tonight, no extra walking & taking bus home no extra walk at all.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/23/2018:
I think that you will find that if you walk consistently from the subway station to home, that when spring comes along, you will have no problem slipping back into running/jogging.


horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2018:
yes, the walking will be good for establishing muscle and time for exercise :) i agree! :) also nice is that it's a walk that consists of slight hills....so it's cool that it's not fully a straight path...the town i start in is called "Forest Hills" and i walk from that town to mine :)

thanks J donk! it's really perfect and wearing sneakers helped me SO MUCH!

BearCountryGG on 10/23/2018:
GOOD JOB!!!! Walking is the best exercise!!!

horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2018:
yes, it will be my go-to all winter long....praying for no ice!

BearCountryGG on 10/23/2018:
For the ice...I have some grippers that clamp on my tennis shoes....they work pretty well....rough on floors and decks so they are outside only....not too expensive ...around $15 and well worth it.....I have them on an old pair of high tops that I wasn't wearing anymore...so they just stay on those all year around. and are ready when I need them.

horn_of_plenty on 10/23/2018:

graindart on 10/23/2018:
Always hated the taste of almonds, until tasting the flavored ones. Love the sale/vinegar, smokehouse, and wasabi flavors. Unfortunately like everything else I like, I have portion control issues with them, so am avoiding them at present.

I'm not a fan of walking, but keep thinking that I need to do something to start moving again. Anything's better than nothing. And the dog would love it. Don't have any plans right now, so might as well get off my butt and go for a walk. Shoes, dog, and some earbuds......then I'm out the door.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
I used to have the major issues with almonds too...all nuts i couldn't limit...i'm a bit better now, took awhile :)

music will help your walk. i hardly ever walk in silence...

lastly, one other thing i used to do even more on walks = call a friend / family member to catch up / talk...makes your walk speed by! i still call a friend, but not as much, mostly music now.

happy-1 on 10/24/2018:
Good job on the walk!!!

horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
ty...maybe tonight again :)

Horn_of_plenty - Monday Oct 22, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0




APPLE CIDER DONUT 250, later almonds bc of course sugar isn't going to keep me satisfied for long lol!

Lunch: leftover indian food and tofu 200 cal tofu...indian food saag with cream 100 cal and veggies with oil 200 cal. 500 cal and trying to watch calories for rest of day... perhaps goldfish crackers 150, plum 

snack fruit 50 plum 


Dinner & early to bed:

2250...very good


i have sneakers with me, i'll be walking home a lot from the train as i've been!

WALKED ENTIRE 3 MILES HOME FROM SUBWAY!!!!!! I wear sneakers now on commute:)

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/22/2018:
D loves those atkins bars too......just got him another box this morning..…$7.....I'm leaving them for him...while I use up some other brands....I can handle the sugar, he can't. He does like the Pure Protein brand...they don't seem to bother him.

horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
i like atkins very much...you should try the peanut butter cups...so good!...but i do not like the pure protein brand as i find they don't have enough taste and prefer the atkins texture.

legcramps on 10/22/2018:
Apple cider donut, oh my that sounds very interesting! And I saw the pic of the cabbage soup you made - it did look tasty. If I liked cabbage a bit more, I would definitely try out that recipe!

You've got a fantastic start to the week! Keep it up :)

horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
the apple cider donuts are popular around here bc apples and apple cider are in season

Donkey on 10/22/2018:
I bought protein bars for my trip and only ate 2 of them out, so I'm going to try having a protein bar for breakfast until they are gone, which should be a week. Then, I will evaluate. I'm trying to get away from oatmeal, and eggs get real old, real fast for me.

horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
protein bar is good with coffee to fill your stomach.

horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
which bars/brand did you buy?

Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Oct 21, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Almost 8am Breakfast: leftover blondie that i baked 300 over whipped cream 120 and leftover pumpkin with stevia and cinnamon 50 and a plum 50. also kombucha 70. 600, good.

Indian bread and an egg 250 

lunch: wrap with leftover indian groud chicken with lots of spices 400 and popcorn 100

Coffee and 2 bananas around workout 1650 before dinner

WOWWWW! so the soup was good - the cabbage was very buttery and good. the taste with the bacon would probably be better lol without bacon, but it was good still. so i had a bit of it...with a lot of cabbage like i've been craving

Cabbage and bacon soup: 350? and brownie that i baked (amazing winner!) 250.

i wish i could have more....but...maybe jello w. whipped cream. it was all good. and a plum, just hungry feeling.

2350 :)

today my food attemps worked out great.

2day - 2250, decent :)


This weekend, despite waking up a few times last night but easily going back to sleep...i've been getting like 10-12 hours of sleep a night. seems the time of year for it. with lots of germs around...i don't mind the extra sleep, i like it!


On the list today:

Baking 2 treats: a 5 ingredient brownie recipe made with coconut oil !....and something else...or perhaps just double up this easy recipe!

Cooking a Slow Cooker Cabbage and Bacon Recipe!

Biking to Gym and Weights 

Put away all my clean clothes that i quickly washed yesterday (good idea to get that done!!!)


Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

graindart on 10/21/2018:
After reading about all of the recent indian food you've been eating, I've been craving it. Not really an option around here, so will probably put it on my list for the next out of town trip we go on.

Have been eating a decent amount of squash lately with Stevia and pumpkin pie spices. It's been satisfying my pumpkin pie cravings so far. Good job on your consistency, as always.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
ty for always the nice compliments on consistency...you see i'm now at the high end as of late :) but doing cardio helps burn a few more cals....(I hope!)

also, with the Indian, believe it or not since the country is sooooo big the Indian food varies as well as the "bread" or naan they serve at the restaurants based on the type of Indian food they serve...I think there's like 4 main types of Indian food!...just like Chinese really as more varieties :)

also, Happy had once taught me this here!

Some indian uses lots of cream in their food which tastes great but ups the calories and some indian food uses very little cream :) lately, i've been eating without the cream (i don't really have a choice, it's just the place that i found!) and it was at least a break from all that cream...they use just oil

Horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
but one thing remains the same: all indian food as a LOT of flavor / spices. i love it bc it's NOT boring!

Donkey on 10/21/2018:
Your sleep is amazing. I like to get 7 hours minimum. This past week and the week before, I was around 6 hours, and I can really feel it.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
during the week, i do not sleep long like on the weekend...i do think that sleeping a lot on weekends, especially in the colder months, is ok....i actually want to read more about it.

yes, 6 hours is rough, i agree...even 7 can be not enough if you are warding off sickness....keep on and keep positive mrs. donkey...i'm so proud of you always!

happy-1 on 10/21/2018:
Ok... I am all set with greek food this week... Gotta eat indian food next week now. Probably I’ll start with making that spinach sauce with garbanzos in it. Maybe also some black dal.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
nice idea to add the beans to the spinach...that would be so filling! :) very good!

i'm afraid to make it....but it'd save me so much $$$. not yet...first i'm delving into AMERICAN food that i can make! haha...def not interested to make Indian right now.

Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Oct 20, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Fruit 100 , ginger drink 50

Oatmeal 200, coconut blondie 300, whipped cream small amount and pumpkin 100, coffee 50

Indian spread 150 with crackers 200 and an egg 100

lollipop 50


Dinner Indian the type Happy told me about that isn't based with cream - biryani & chat style.

I had a ground meat dish 250 with okra 100 and stuffed baby eggplants 150 and heavier bread 200

2200 total really tasty cals

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 10/21/2018:
Aaaaaaaaw... good for you! Where did you go?

Horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
I was in a neighborhood in Queens, NY called Flushing and that part has Indian and Asian (mostly Asian) residents. so there was a local Indian place i stumbled into! it was healthier type of Indian, no cream except in the curry i think.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/22/2018:
it's the neighborhood i went to to get my hair done, bc it was a cheaper price, so i saw the food on the way back to my friend's car who had come to pick me up :)

Horn_of_plenty - Friday Oct 19, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Kombucha 50

whipped cream 120 with my homemade coconut dense blondie 350, coffee 50

snack: 180 coconut chocolate covered 


Lunch: leftovers (good ones) and a yellow pepper: 

snack: plum?

1350 before dinner

dinner: tofu / indian takeout :)

2100 today.

good eats, good exercise, good week.



Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 10/19/2018:
yum. Indian food.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/20/2018:
def not ready to cook it myself yet...i love the flavors they have in their food!

Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Oct 18, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Kombucha 60

Work breakfast: apple 100, my keto coconut cake (needs tweeking on recipe but it's edible lol) 300, whipped cream 120, coffee 50

10am snack: nasty protein bar but finishing them as the nutrition is decent and i don't like to waste money & didn't want to return them...

Healthy lunch: takeout instead of my own lunch, lol...buffet choices: shrimp and calamari 250, veggie slaw salad 100 and some other veg 100: and bread almost forgot 100 550...

plum 50

Snacks granola bar 150 bigger banana 150 almonds 50 1800...

After workout - i did start snacking too much during workout and will hopefully get this under some control now that i'm working out at home :) ...first i started with a few bites of a Lenny & Larry's Choc Mint cookie but then stopped 150 cal...and then i was also heating up a Cauliflower Pizza Crust around 300.

2250 today. very tasty day!

6 day:2170, good!

nice walking in as well as a great weights workout. very successful, fitness-wise.

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

Maria7 on 10/18/2018:
Hoping you are having a good day.

Horn_of_plenty on 10/18/2018:
very much...and i was able to get a nice walk in as well as weights routine. good day thank you!

happy-1 on 10/19/2018:
I love those cookies and pizzas. Nutritionist says no, they are too processed.

horn_of_plenty on 10/20/2018:
I love the cauli pizza crusts - supposedly they are low cal

Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Oct 17, 2018
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.0

Kombucha 50

My homemade blondie 300...def need to work on recipe and whipped cream 120 and coffee 80

Snack:worst tasting bar....i have a whole box left :( i might have to throw them away. 200 cal.

Lunch: indian spinach 200 and other sauce 50, with turkey burger 150 and orange 100. 500 total.

chocolates 50

Snack: fresh apple off tree brought in by coworker...lol....same coworker that i had words with yesterday haha 100 when i get home and go walking for a little before dinner :)

Dinner:not sure, but healthy, ended up going out to eat, but walked a lot as we walked there after i got off bus near my apt. so it's all good. up to 800 it was Afgani food!...spinach similar to the indian prep but no cream which was healthier a still a good taste, a little meat, some salad with a little cheese, and a piece of tasty bread with light garlic flavor.

2200 total, all healhy.

5day: 2150

Walk tonight :)

Early to bed


No, this job and this industry will NOT work for me for life. No, I do not want to be held responsible to going to various union events because of my father and his being extremely active in it. And NO, i do not want to sit at a desk for life.

No, I KNOW i am better than this.

I am not done. I will become a fast runner and match my goals as I have wished.

This is my Winter of getting stronger :)

Yesterday, at work, reminded me of why I want to be better for myself and go to a place where I can work and not die at my desk from lack of blood flow...i'm exaggerating, but this is how i feel today.

similar to how donkey felt in the recent past, i am depressed today...sad for what i witnessed yesterday at work (below) and sad that as a teacher that i am not anymore...that anyone would dare take up with me any argument about bettering a child in music ed. 

i'm quite sickened today over yesterday. 

and i will be keeping to myself for the remainder of the week...as well as for the rest of the time i work here.

I'll be focusing on my own abilities...and also striving to leave work at my hour, 4:30pm and that's it.


I am gonna start talking much less at work....as i realize i have opinions and it really doesn't matter anymore to share them...enough....because i may as well let others keep their opinions and not even try to explain my side ....

it's a weird discussion we had: MUSIC EDUCATION and when to give (free) lessons...when someone kindly offers to give your kid extra tips.

PERSONALLY, it's ME who offered.

and PERSONALLY, IF i were a parent and someone kindly offered to show my kid a few things because they have a background and can share extra knowledge with my kid, I"D TAKE THEM UP ON IT, NO DISCUSSION.

well, one of my coworkers, not the parent of the kid (that's more my boss) was ARGUING saying she'd wait till the kid has the instrument for a bit....well....i know how it works in schools....i've been involved BIG TIME in music education since i was 8 until i was 25. i'm sorry, but i know that it's good when you get that extra footing...

so, well, i couldn't agree with this parent. IT'S NOT like sports or like just trying cooking....it's a CLASS in school and it is always nice when someone offers...for FREE.

she got the mother of the girl thinking to wait also...not realizing that my offer is extremely generous of my time....

and my knowing how it works in the school system at the lessons...and all my background.

i'm sorry, i get that the kid should develop a liking or desire on their own...

BUT, i just don't agree with denying your kid some extra tips on playing the trumpet.

i just cannot agree with the coworker that talked my other one out of it. like, the other one (the mom) was showing me a video on her iphone of her daughter first starting to practice for the first time at home because she knows how i know a lot about it / she knows my past...


even if anyone here told me otherwise, i'm sorry, i cannot agree.

i offered something because i have the background, and the woman knows it, so i call b*ll**** that anyone would deny their kids something that many parents can't provide.

the reason for the other way of thinking - both coworkers (mother of the kid too) grew up rather poor and weren't given any extras...and actually the mother ended up being allowed to do some art...but the coworker against the lesson never got anything extra from her parents...and didn't grow up goiing to the kind of school or being in band like this kid is.....she speaks from inexperience. 

the kid is in 4th grade. in a good school system. i'm sorry, but, when you are given an offer, a generous and kind one, don't slap me in the face.

the mother was happy for me to do it...at first....then i was being lectured tooth and nail afterward for offering a lesson right when the kid started.

listen....i know how it works. please don't even try to sway me. i disagree wholeheartedly with them.

i learned clarinet first without lessons, in group form in school...and all the kids taking lessons were better - although i was very good.

and i learned french horn only with private lessons...and i got really good really fast and caught up easily.

we are talking about music. the more the merrier. come on!

honestly....i sorta pull back. i don't care as much anymore to share.

i forget sometimes of my EXCELLENT UPBRINGING and everything my parents offered me. i was lucky.

some people don't know when LUCKY HITS THEM IN THE FREAKING FACE.

let me pull back now.

i  need to concentrate on my fitness, my passion WAY MORE.

OH - AND I NEED TO LEAVE ON TIME...at 4:30, not 5pm, because i feel bad for someone without my upbringing. 

really, i don't think i should care so much anymore

Progress as of today: 0 lbs lost so far, only 2 lbs to go!

Donkey on 10/17/2018:
Ever since I got my "new" Fitbit (in July) for my birthday, I realize how sedentary my job is. (The Fitbit has a reminder notification that at 10 minutes to the hour, buzzes if you haven't had at least 250 steps in the hour). And I HATE it. I could easily sit at my desk and not move all day.

And I've noticed that this is what my male co-worker does. I now avoid him at all costs, but sometimes I have documents that have to go into his files. So now I wait until he leaves his desk - WHICH AIN'T ALL THAT OFTEN! - and then file the papers. Sometimes, I have to wait 1-2 days before I can get find his desk chair unoccupied.

Then he wonders why he struggles to lose weight. AND he has a Fitbit too! USE IT!!!

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
yes, sitting the whole day will influence the metabolism if you NEVER get up. agreed.

graindart on 10/17/2018:
Picked up a can of pureed pumpkin and made a no sugar added custard with an egg / spice / stevia / microwave. It was ok, although the consistency and feel weren't anywhere near as "rich" as a normal pumpkin pie.

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
you can add some sf cool whip on top...i find that the sugar free cool whip...i used 1/4 of a tub at a time...has a dense / filling feel on my stomach and is satisfying over light foods like jello/fruit/ and perhaps your light custard.

i used it over a sf cookie this AM.

BearCountryGG on 10/17/2018:
The texture would probably be more like a pie if you baked it in a pie dish using pam spray in the oven. These substitutes are similar to the real thing but rarely are exactly the same...just a substitute to ward off a specific food craving. Have you tried sugar free jello or pudding cups? You can also freeze grapes and banana slices that end up tasting something like ice cream/popsicles.

BearCountryGG on 10/17/2018:
Actually the comment was more towards Graindarts comment....but would work for all.

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
yes ty....i find that using the whippd cream or fatty something with sf very light calorie foods is filling and satisfying compared to, say, only sugar free jello alone...agree.

BearCountryGG on 10/17/2018:
Yup....work and other employees can be stressful......I worked a desk job in a Drs office...but I got plenty of exercise climbing those rolling ladders in the file area....now days...files are all digital...and no rolling ladders....and everyone just sits there....I feel lucky to have been there at that time. It was kind of you to make the offer to help the young girl, it's too bad that it ended with hurt feelings.

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
yes, at least you were able to move around when you worked - it's soooo important to get up and stretch your legs.

happy-1 on 10/17/2018:
Which coworker was this that talked her out of it? The one you used to be friends with that negs you all the time?

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
NOPE....the one with 2 male sons, one in college and one in high school now. they go to a small catholic school and weren't in the band program. she talks as a parent, but with zero knowledge of what it's like to go to public school and be offered an instrument and play in the band!

happy-1 on 10/17/2018:
Where is the giant trap door that goes to a moat of alligators when you need one?

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
yeah...need to distance myself, but struggling to do so! soooo not a people person!

happy-1 on 10/17/2018:
And you can return the box of snack bars if they were that bad.

horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
i should have!

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