Weekly Average: 2015 per day = VERY GOOD.
ACV drink in AM no cal...
Low Protein breakfast as lately i do not want cream cheese and salami on wraps, i just can't take it - honey 50 and pb 200 on a wrap 100. 350. coffee. 50.
Snack: cookie 120
Lunch: healthy: other nicer boss ordered lunch for all. shrimp and veg 200? sauce 150? tons of brown rice maybe double serving 400? 750. was worth it.
Snack: 100, 120
Dinner: 800 tops.
2350 (didn't calculate calories well enough and things got screwed up.) still a decent average.
I made it to the park and i walked / JOGGED 1.5 miles. On purpose, as i get into jogging, less will be more: meaning, to stay away from injury and everything, even 1.5mi walk / jog is better than doing 2 miles. I don't need to do a lot, just more than i used to. That's it. I will not force any injury upon myself like i did last time. This is my chance to give myself a chance to jog...slowly.
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This week still involved getting back to an even keel with my administration. It's been a long 1.5 months for me. I'm glad it's the end of another slightly rocky week. Good thing is I got 1.5hrs OT for last night. Bad thing is I learned TODAY that i'm SALARY and not HOURLY. first time knowing this in 6.5 years here...stupid administration. I used to make mad OT $.
When i got a raise, i had no clue it was for SALARY a month ago. Don't you think boss should have told me / reminded me that the raise was for SALARY and not HOURLY? unreal. I swear i couldn't make this stuff up if I tried.I swear, i always thought i was HOURLY. AND USED TO BE.
And this week i did quite a bit of OT - who would have guessed that I cannot even earn compensation on all of it? (i was compensated for my extra 1.5hrs last night - that i stayed because the pregnant lady initially doing the work couldn't stay. and i'm QUITE POSITIVE this will be the case going forward that i will stay to do HER WORK. and because she's pregnant (like men think we should be in our lives), she'll be treated NICER and i will get the brunt. I am learning so much now, so much!). It's crazy sometimes.
I can hear my boss now whispering with his secretary, the pregnant one, she's saying bad things about another one of my coworkers. the environment here is absolutely of hate. I hate my boss and he's a piece of work...**** really.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
ACV and diet tonic drink - 0 cal.
Breakfast: wrap 100, pb 200, honey 50, cinnamon, coffee with milk 50 - 400 cal. 50 candies.
Snack: ? maybe just an egg 100
Maybe early Lunch: Healthy - Small Beef patty i made yesterday morning 200, small bag chips 50, lots of brussels lightly sauteed 150, one large strawberry 20. 450.
Snack before gym: Fiber one Big chocolate chip cookie 120 never tried can't wait! and caffeine.
1150
1500 total :-)
1960 6day avg
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My boss of 6 months is such an idiot that he thought my schedule was 8am-5pm when it's 8am-4:30pm. Moron of a man who doesn't know how to communicate effectively. I will def need to speak to him today briefly to remind him that if he needs any clarification over anything involving me, that he should def feel good about bringing it up with me before speaking to any other administration or bosses (like he did the other day) because the best person he can go to involving anything i do, is me personally.
Why is my boss so darn retarded. I can't take his stupidity and lack of administration skills. 6 months he didn't know my schedule! IDIOT. Because if i ever took a break, i'd stay as much time as i took and stay late. I am not a person who breaks rules or who isn't trustworthy or honest. But now, i'm eager ot get out of here ASAP for the rest of my time here - 30 min lunch and leave at 4:30pm on the dot because i cannot fathom giving this SOB boss any extra of my VALUABLE, personal time.
Other people do take time - like his own secretary who will go for a walk with her other secretary friend (both also pregnant and both first pregnancies were before marriage) reason i bring that up is because my boss is SO DARN STRICT with me - but whatever his secretary does is ALWAYS OK even when she tells him that her pregnancy was an accident!? I imagine and KNOW that if i ever told him this - this same moron boss would tell my other boss Russ that something is wrong with me for being pregnant. It's like I do everything wrong and she does everything right simply bc my name is Jackie and her's is Shannon.
I hate my boss!
Update at 11am: just walked over and spoke to HR, glad i did - my boss already further complained about me yesterday!!!!! In regards to the manner in which I "aggresively" told him i was taking lunch!? WTH. I HATE MY BOSS. i have to say, this boss SUX.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
I woke up early like over an hour early around quarter to 5am, cooked beef burgers before the meat spoiled bc the sell by date was for today. Good idea. Ate one even for breakfast in a wrap! And for lunch I had another. Now i have 3 left...they are tasty :-D My first time actually cooking beef burgers (yes, i'm slow like that...glad i did it). I'm learning to cook and doing far better. Proud of myself!!!
It saves me money and I eat healthier by cooking more meat at home and not eating so much tofu and veg products that aren't necessarily healthier than eating meat.
All those soy products are processed. But i do have some tofu at home, lol, that i should def get around to eating before it spoils!
Plan for tonight is 2 things: reading & early to bed. I'm tired, but happy. It's been an uneventful week which is GREAT!
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Early: ACV drink no cal. and diet tonic.
Breakfast: wrap with burger 300, coffee 50 (Had cravings for LOW sugar and MEAT since yesterday i ate tons of carbs in the evening.)
Snack:almonds 200 healthy. and a few candies.
Lunch: another of my tasty 90% lean burgers 200 at most (so proud of myself for cooking them this AM when i woke up early and wanted to be productive and not cook meat tonight lol!), matzah 100, tons of veggies in thai ginger sauce 300 most. 600 and healthy.
snack small cake 100
Dinner: egg 70, some pumpkin 50, greens and potatoes 150?, spinach 50, ice cream 150: 500
1750 :-)
avg cal: 2050 5day! good!!!
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If you wanna read something more interesting, read either Monday's or Tuesday entry, LOL.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
When it's spoiled you'll know...it gets slimy and partially smelly. but instead of just being firm (not talking about silken tofu which is naturally like silk feeling as it tastes gross!) ...but the firm tofu i get...if it gets slimy on the perimeter, it's spoiled. Only happened to me a couple times bc the expiration date usually isn't over by the time i eat it. BUT...i even sometimes eat it a few days after the exp date. it's similar to like yogurt in expiration properties LOL.
This guy doesn't communicate. And the one time he did, he went above me to the other boss and HR (who deals with conflict). Thanks Donkey. I actually had to speak up yesterday and make sure my boss knew my hours yesterday. i am still not sure it's clear. i will speak to him again today, because i will let him know everything on my mind.
2120 4-day average.
Cookies and coffee 200
snack: wrap 100, honey 50, pb 200
Lunch: rice and beans 250? chicken smallest bites 100?, veggies sauteed 150, matzah 100: 600.
1150 after lunch. healthy!
Snack: caffeine and small choc bar 100
1250 before gym.
Dinner protein cookie 350, later some nori chips at 9:30pm bc i have an appetite right now lol. and reg potato chips...felt i neded the carbs and moreso salt.
1800, perfect.
Today was pretty good. My annoying boss played some trick on me, not writing it out, so i left late.
But then my good looking, hot, MARRIED so no i'm not hitting on the dude...he walked into the gym next door and saw me working out! That made my night! But then he left? and he was in gym clothes....i don't know...was he there just to change and say hi and then leave. i'm sure tomorrow he'll say hi or smile that we saw each other? i feel like i almost imagined it...it was FAST. and he left?
i swear this happened. and i'm glad it did bc i doubt it'll ever happen again...because in one month i'll be done at the gym next door and already paid to join the one year old gym, BLINK, which is two blocks from work, instead of next door, but newer and better. I'm sick of the crap place next door to work. I'll still leave my car safe in the work parking lot, but get to walk a couple blocks to the gym and back...good for my health!
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Slept pretty well but seems I am sleeping better and better, without pills, during week. I can feel myself getting a pretty good night's sleep tonight, too. Need lots of energy bc I work long, busy weeks, every week. This is going to be good for me....overall....a tight and precise schedule. I can do this.
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ACV in seltzer with stevia.
Breakfast: wrap100, extra pb 200, honey extra 50, drink / candies 50: 400
Snack:1 egg and 1 weight watchers oatmeal raisin cookie. 200
600 before lunch.
Lunch: veggies and sauce 300, calamari 100, grain 120 - 550
1150 after tasty lunch :)
1950 total, excellent.
3day avg:2220
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Long Story Short:
My New boss is a piece of work. He's been my boss since October...and i can't trust him for the world. You'd think someone his age, 60, would have some heart and be kind somewhat. He is not. Like a devil disguised in nice clothes. A fat devil is what he is. (sorry no offense ot anyone here, but he thinks he's perfect and he's just not!) Oh well.
I'll make this work. I'll play his rules. Let his bull**** and inequality that he allows fly back in his face when he least expects it. He's racist, hates me as a Jew and is out ot get for no reason.
My boss hated my old boss who is also his boss. My new boss now likes the people old boss hated and tables are turned so that i'm not benefited in the least anymore.
Lots of changes overall in my entire company like the owner was even fired from his own company after he sold it.
There's a lot of revenge and butting heads.
My boss is stressed, and does't seem to like me. He's Italian, typical from an area where it's very Italian in Queens. I am not rasist, never thought i had a problem with him, till now...till I see how he favors this other girl over me...sorta like my boss used to favor me over her....it's a sick world. And upper managment wins = my boss wins = I'll deal, unless i want to leave, which i will....in December.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
I just need to hold out till mid December here! So yes, i am thinking the same exact way as you - Get out! :-D
Also police job is more reliable and better pay after only 3 years i'll be at the same pay scale i have now...and then I will almost double it in 6 years as an officer.
Thank you for your kindness. And your insights.
my father is in the industry, not company, and if anything, i have someone to reach out to - although i definitely hope i don't have to at all. i don't want problems, but did make my father aware of this situation...and of course that led to a bit of an upsetting morning which ended up improving. of course my dad doesn't want to deal with controversy or know that i'm involved in office upsets. so it was hard to speak with him about this. i hope it's over.
Monday Morning Update: i did wake up in middle of the night but was able to fight a craving to get up and nosh....and instead i WAS able to get back to bed. I didn't take a sleeping pill, but did sleep pretty well anyways. This is good.
I'll be working on my sleeping this year. And working on taking less sleeping pills.
I need to have my life under control (as healthy and low stress as i can manage) before i leave this job.
I do feel positive about it. I do feel I am able to overcome and accomplish this, despite recent setbacks at work involving huge miscommunications.
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Sunday:
Breakfast: dried fruit 80, almond milk 30, fiber one 180, cinnamon. total: 300, good.
Snack bar 200 and candies and caffeine drink 50 550 before lunch with parents Asparagus 150, roasted root veggies 250, pepper salad 200, salmon larger piece 500 and dessert darn 250 1900.. Bigger dinner 650 2550. 2350 2-day average
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Bigger plan for today is to meet my dad at my grandma's place and visit her from 9:30-11:30am. Then have lunch back with my mom and dad (mom doesn't go to visit grandma). After lunch, i'm driving straight to the gym (which reminds me I must bring my gym clothes!). After gym, back home. Maybe cook burgers (i bought the meat already). Maybe wash my sheets, but i don't think so....i may wait till Monday after work. Either way, I think i'll shower now....
Life will be very busy. I've made the decision, which i want for me right now, to not take any days off this year. To leave work in mid-December instead. I may not even wait till mid-December. But I'll try. then I'll have a month lapse between when i leave work and time to rest up / prepare for NYPD academy.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Breakfast: oatmeal 150, dried goldenberries 80, almond milk 20, protein powder 80, 330. caffeine.
Snack: bar 200.
530. fruit and bread...
750 cals
3pm meal with friend: Fries 300, shrimp 150, salad with cheese 200, dressing 50, pickle, veggies 50, alcohol drink 150 950. 1700, good.
strawberries 150 (entire quart)
1850.
5:30pm: dessert wrap 100, pb 200, honey 50: 350.
2150, good.
hour walk.
bed early, waking up early for family stuff. took sleeping pill.
very busy.
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Last night in bed, I pulled my fb account off for awhile. I disabled it bc i am having too much hassel at work and all around. I've decided to take some time away from the world, especially fb.
Today i have nice plans to go to a new park with a friend who lives a few blocks from me. Older guy, no intentions to date, but a friend. We going to park and lunch after. Always nice to get a walk in with a friend at a new park here.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Enjoy the park today - I'm not sure the weather will cooperate by you? (Was watching the Today Show while working out.)
yes, thank goodness for gym and goals.
work is lousy, that's all. it's high stress with loads of change for everyone. and somehow whenever i open my mouth even if it's for GOOD, i get blamed for what comes out. so....my mouth is sealed.
and it just goes to show that everyone has good and bad in their hearts...but some people prefer to use the bad side over the good. it's life. not fair or equal.
2240 avg this week good!
Happy Friday - I'd like to say, for once, after a full week, I feel quite EXCELLENT! I have this....NYPD January 2018 here I come! I have no more time to delay it, so it's mandatory for me to enter in January. Will learn to run this late Spring / Summer.
Unbelievabe afternoon crap edit: This Friday ended in Drama at work again. with me involved. I'll write another time, it's too stupid to share. I have already made the choice to not talk to anyone, anymore (within reason). I will now have many days eat at my desk as well to have lunch here and not cafeteria. to leave at 4:30pm on the dot. I arrived here early, 15 min early at 7:45am. I will leave at 4:30 - there shouldn't be an issue here.
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Home: Honey local extra larger serving 100 cal...it's done the job - hardly any allergies so far this year! fingers crossed about this. i usually get horrible pollen allergies. fingers crossed that this year it'll not affect me badly. And ACV with seltzer (cheaper than kombucha and is doing the job...i just have to perfect now the amount of ACV to add to seltzer so as not to waste too much ACV and also not to use too little so it doesn't work....will practice...as it's cheaper than kombucha (WAY CHEAPER).
8am breakfast: back to craving more fat and protein - wrap 100, cream cheese 100, salami with black pepper 100, coffee 50. 350.
Snack: almonds and also dried okra from a really sweet lady coworker that i get along really well with. a lady i don't hang out with much anymore, but she's cool. 200.
Lunch: matzah 120, beans 50, veg 150, soy chicken so good 250? 600 tops
1250 after a tasty lunch.
Snack: ? not sure, ,maybe granola bar - been liking this in the afternoon even on days without gym. 100
1350...before dinner. plan is to pick up plastic forks after work walk to the dollar store by work and then next pick up rx at drugstore.
I am
Dinner:
850Total 2200. Good. Laundry will be done soon then reading and bed early :-)
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
I plan to YES check in with DD because i do like this online community a lot (and have been part of it for over 10 years now!).
This can change her life. She can lose a lot of weight if she gets into activity. It's really healthy.
Maybe tell her it's healthy to be active...good for the mind and body. It will make her feel more powerful...stronger.
but be careful talking about weightloss as it can cause an eating disorder in young girls....that's my take.
You sound SO motivated to join the NYPD. January will be here before you know it!
Have an awesome weekend dear :)
I'll be doing this on my own...this journey to NYPD. THANK YOU for your support!
And yes, detaching at work. Just coming in on time & leaving on time.
2010 6-day average, good!
Home: ACV drink, honey, banana 150
Breakfast: coffee with milk and splenda 30 (had half), energy drink 0, wrap 100 with pb 150 (and some of that banana) 250. 300.
Snack: egg. 50.
Lunch: extremely healthy: white meat turkey burger 120, avocado half 150, broccoli slaw mix 100, other veg sauteed 100, matzah 120: 600 tops.
1100 approx
Snack before gym: granola bar 100, caffeine (oh and candies thru morning) 50 more.
and had one more granola bar at 3pm 100
1350...
after gym: protein cookie 350 and then back at home after a shower i had a craving for more carbs so i filled that craving - wrap 120 with a banana 120 and some honey 30. total here 650 tops.
total today is good: 2000. seems my body is i think able to burn around 2000 daily, i think, maybe, to maintain. we'll see.
Gym workout was one of my best. I wore only a sorts bra at the gym that i usally don't do that at - but it was worth it - i worked out harder. I may continue with that method. It seems that nobody really gets offended....and that i am still respected....and i like to workout this way....i may.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
PS - I was supposed to give a ride to a coworker after work today (FRIDAY!) to get glasses for him as a favor but he DOES have multiple days off he can take now to do it himself and he does drive and/or take busses.
I can't do the favor for him - decided to tell him i have to visit my parents...
I'm learning to limit what I say YES to. :-D
I need to take care of me after work today...not be running around getting glasses for a coworker / friend - when they are fully capable to do it themselves....
It's another "errand" that i don't need to do...it's not even for me!
Food: ACV drink and some honey and later a small banana. 150
Breakfast: wrap 100 with small amount plantain 100 and peanut butter 200.
Snack:egg 50 small amount and candies 50
12:30pmLunch: matzah 120, avocado 160, veg burger 150, more veg 150 tops: 600. and caffeine.
3:30pm granola bar 100
1350....
So busy i didn't even calculate a total until now coming back to this entry on Thursday night ! oh my lol.
Dinner: tons of brussel sprouts and yes sauteed 400? with eggs 150. and i think this is it? and then dessert of a hair of ice cream 60. total here is 600.
total wed: 1950, excellent.
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Housing meeting tonight at 7pm...planning to have dinner at home first (or maybe mostly veg and a snack later after the meeting also!)...pick up some hot food and then walk over to the meeting as it's 10min walk from my place. So a nice mile walk there and back tonight :-D It's a meeting for all of us housing residents bc we hold stock as it's a co-op. It's an optional meeting that I have never attended in my four years living at my apt, so I'm eager to attend this ear and see what it's about!
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As I wrote to Annie:
Going to take it day by day. Going to be ON TIME always to work. Leave ON TIME always.
I will manage the stress that I can manage and the rest I'm going to try to ignore.
I will do what I can, as well as I can, to make these last few months at this job simple, efficient, fast & as lessened in the stress dept as I can possible make them.
i will do what i can to stay out of everybody's way. I will do what i can to shut up and sit at my desk.
When it's 8am i'll be here (if not a few minutes earlier). and when it's 4:30pm i'm out of here, on time.
Annie, thank you.
I am going to try to absolute best to manage what i can. And not stress about what I cannot.
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Work right now, well, it sucks.
There's a lot of tension overall in my large workplace.
And more and more, the office is cutting it's staff and downsizing.
I'm lucky to have this job but people are not all good right now, especially to me.
The tension for ME in particular is HIGH.
I am thinking it's a new week, my mood is lifted...and then....BAM! i'm struck out again. there's no relief, and it's very unsettling to me.
I thought it was a new week - was so thankful - and yesterday while i walk by my boss' office - he asks "seriously, is everything ok? you need to settle down and stay at your desk.".... When he asked me this question it was VERY unexpected by me. I was happy yesterday until that point. I was actually assisting a coworker earlier with his questions and helping him out. I was doing my work. Yes, i had spoken to a few people in the office also. ... But it seems that in order to get thru this job it will require me sitting down and shutting up COMPLETELY. I don't find it healthy and i find it very old-school and typical of what assembly line work must have been.
I HAVE NO CHOICE. So i am making one choice - arrive at work each day at 7:45 and leave at 4:30. Take my lunch in cafeteria and sometimes walk if i want to outside with an even shorter lunch. Speak to nobody. Not even friends. And run the hell outta there at 4:30pm.
For me - the workplace has become hostile and mean and inconsiderate. It's become a nasty place where many people would rather bully and laugh at people who have troubles. It's become a very sick place for me to show up at. My boss that said that to me was off both Fri and Monday....i worked that whole week as well as basically every single week (with one day off recently) every single week since early february. Get me out of this work environment. I shall leave at 4:30pm every single day as long as I'm in charge of that for the rest of my days.
There are some people i can still talk to if i have a problem. It's not a totally neck for neck place. But many of the hostile people still have jobs here and people's true colors are coming out.
It's become a neck for neck and hostile environment. And it is far from equal in terms of days of and stuff - some people have 4 weeks vaca and some of 2. It is what it is and nothing is equal - that's life.
I'll get thru but thank gosh for anxiety pills i take.....because i have a lot to get thru before this academy.
Trust me - you would be running for your life too if you had my job. People can be nasty. I'll NEVER understand why.
TALK LATER.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
I will manage the stress that I can manage and the rest I'm going to try to ignore.
I will do what I can, as well as I can, to make these last few months at this job simple, efficient, fast & as lessened in the stress dept as I can possible make them.
i will do what i can to stay out of everybody's way. I will do what i can to shut up and sit at my desk.
When it's 8am i'll be here (if not a few minutes earlier). and when it's 4:30pm i'm out of here, on time.
Annie, thank you.
I am going to try to absolute best to manage what i can. And not stress about what I cannot.
If nothing else, this is another motivator to get you closer to your NYPD goal.
And then I'm leaving this job before Christmas but will be paid for the 2 weeks i'm saving up till then.
I hope it gets better as you mark your time to bigger and better things.
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Sorry there is craziness at work! Remember to take care of yourself and remain on your path to the NYPD. Don't let their backbiting and craziness rub off on you.
Thank you so much...yes....your advice is the only way to go at this point :-D
I am glad i am not "white trash" (sorry if what i write sounds rude)...but i value my upbringing from my parents when i was a child and i'm so very glad that i have this current opportunity to change my life to how I want it.
I have learned so much, at 34 now, I have a lot to bring with me to the academy. A ton of great skills.
my dad told me not to worry about this boss....to just do my work and that's it.