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Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Feb 26, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 114.5

Edit no walk or workout - stayed at work a hair later and rushed home to get car and go to mom. Left a lot later from mom and home at 10pm so workout tomorrow. And going to work usual tine tomorrow since I’ll be exercising tomorrow not tonight 

sleep all week is going to be rough.  i'm not sure what i'm doing on the weekend, but i'm going to stick with weights routines both tonight and friday night would be the smarter thing to do...but i'm considering just working out on Saturday...not sure...i prefer to see my mom on Sunday, but, will have to see what dad has to say but i'm not going to be going back to hospital during this week ....too much traveling with the city commute...it's rough for my dad, very sorry...he has a meeting to go to today in the city in the morning but will be with my mom after that - he has a little more "flex" than i do as i have very set schedule as most people do at work. and mom will be OK so that's why i am going to work.  she's just in a lot of pain with 7 ribs broken.

 4day avg: 2020

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Middle of night: hard corn tortilla 50

Morning: kombucha 50

Breakfast: Coffee 50, wrap 80, egg 70, 1/4 avocado with smoked salt and pepper 100. 

bar 200

Lunch: from home corned beef i made, along with indian food here, leftovers:  corned beef 150? half lg bagel 200, lots of indian eggplant sauteed spread 200, cherry tomatoes negligible.  550.

Snack: TBD apple. 100

Wrap 80 avocado 80 egg 70.250 zevia drink

9pm cliff bar on way home from mom and decaf in car 300

1850

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Edit later morning Plan for today: leave work after lunch (1pm or so), go home (maybe do some of walk - not all but might as well walk in the sun a portion if boss is letting me out i might as well walk for even 20 min as part of my commute home -) get car and drive to visit mom in hospital wth broken ribs as she was hit by car...stay with her till dad gets home later around 7:30pm? 

then, exercise tonight.

luckily, i will come to work later tomorrow, an hour late, clocks are already set to sleep in an extra hour.

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sleep not the best but not the worst. I slept like 9:30-midnight and 1:30am-5:30am...7.5 hours, not that bad, actually, just a little interrupted.  seems that i prefer over 8 hours average in general and many times i do better with 9! not kidding...

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Last night i went to bed shortly after 9pm but didn't stay asleep. At midnight i woke up to get a drink / use the bathroom but realized when i looked at my phone i had several missed calls from dad and my sister even texted me to call her. I texted my dad i was asleep and he called to say my mom had several broken ribs and some stitches in her head bc she was hit my a car :-( ....

so my sister was very upset and crying over it bc my mom had visited her and her baby all day, and she was hit after getting off the train around 7pm last night walking to her car she parked at the train station. also my mom was spending lots of time with the new baby, my sister's baby, so, he was even ahead of the milestones for his month, displaying extra abilities that a month older baby would have! so, my sister is sad that my mom cannot be there right now, for awhile, helping her with her baby.

...So i spoke to my sister on the phone a half hour or so then my dad as i called to ask if i should come to the hospital today as i think she'll be there for a few days.  She is alert and no broken bones thank gosh except the ribs which heal on their own.

She is on lots of pain meds, at least last night, and very weak, but alert. She will be ok...she has had a VERY BAD year, my mom. So, i might go visit her tonight in the hospital, but my dad said i should go to work. He isn't and will stay with her. He has a meeting tonight that he is in charge of and speaks at, his meetiing, so he may go and then i may go to see my mom while he's away....so i'll skip my own union meeting....then, i was still thinking ot exercise....lucky i can go into work an hour late tomorrow....crazy!

I know i don't sound very upset about my mom - i am just thankful it's not any worse and i feel she will get better. We don't have police report yet to know what happened. in some ways, i'd almost rather NOT know the reasons...but yes, i am interested, just sometimes it's better to not know how it happened. 

Progress as of today: -0.5 lbs lost so far, only 1.5 lbs to go!

legcramps on 02/26/2019:
Oh my goodness, that's terrible, i'm sorry to hear about your Mom! Speedy recovery to her!

Horn_of_plenty on 02/27/2019:
Thank you so much, legs! She was a bit out of it in pain and not feeling good....but the great thing is she is going to be very ok in a couple months :)


Donkey on 02/26/2019:
Logging in from my phone to let you know how sorry I am to hear that this happened to your mom. I'm glad you took time to be with her. I hope she heals quickly!

Horn_of_plenty on 02/27/2019:
Thank you so much for the kind words! :) we are all very grateful that she will be ok in the end !!!



Horn_of_plenty - Monday Feb 25, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.8

Edit: I am coming into work an hour late wednesday (as i will be up late working out) and i'm staying an hour late after work to make up for it on that same day :) that's the best solution to going to both a meeting and working out afterwards!

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Happy Monday...starting the day off right with a good breakfast and decent sleep. kombucha 100

Breakfast: english muffin 150, avocado 80, egg 70, salt and pepper, coffee 50. 

snacks:  or other bar 200

Lunch: leftovers :) salad with a few croutons 150 and small pieces of roasted peppers, tofu 100, fried potato indian aloo tiki tasty and just the right size! 200, 1/4 avocado 80. total here: 550.

Snacks: cashews 150, decaf hot green tea from work

candies on walk 50

GOT A HAIRCUT at 7pm and picked up kombucha locally as i was in shock there was a great variety in the first store i tried, a fancy pharmacy, right next to the barbershop by my bus stop :)

dinner:...not exactly sure! maybe another frozen cauliflower crust :) and with yogurt for dessert is what i'm thinking!..    i found protein muffins (microwavable) at the fancy pharmacy (and it's opposite a NYC low income housing many using food stamps, but it's like the BEST pharmacy in queens!?)  anyways, had a blueberry microwavable muffin 250 and whole milk greek yogurt 250 with stevia. and tea....still a little hungry but holding off i think.

1900 before bed. :)

3day avg: 2075, good!

Tuesday, tomorrow, is a very long day. work, union meeting from 6-7pm and workout that evening. after tuesday, i'm home free until one more workout on Thursday evening :) Next workout will be happily Sunday, maybe at the gym this weekend :)

I am glad i asked my supervisor if it was ok to come an hour late Wednesday, i'll sleep in a little bit after the workout which is after the meeting... :) i'll stay late, no biggie, to make up - which will be good, i plan to maybe also do further Paris research for the last half hour or something. ;)...or just do work...but today i haven't even thought about Paris...so, must finish this research by April 1st...i do NOT want to be planning Paris the same month i have the trip!

 

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I've decided not to take a day Wednesday as the weather is cold. I'll have to just deal with less sleep this week or a skipped workout, haven't decided yet. Either one is not best, but, a working person doesn't always have all the freedom we'd like to have each week. I might change my mind and take Wednesaday, but it would be a waste unless i was heading into a busy weekend or something. So, i'm sucking it up and taking this week as it comes ;) 

It's due to a union meeting that ends at 7pm that i wanted to take Wednesday. Instead, I'll just keep on. I'll do my workout on Wednesday, not Tuesday after that meeting. That would be too many scheduled things and lead me to be very stressed. 

 

Progress as of today: 0.2 lbs lost so far, only 1.8 lbs to go!

silverysparkles on 02/25/2019:
Some coffee brand that is new to me has been making me anxious and making heart palpitations....they are k cups put out by a brand called COMMUNITY. I switched back to my favorite PANERA HAZELNUT brand and it all stopped. I love my coffee but not when it makes me feel like that.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/25/2019:
it must have a LOT of caffeine, i wonder what the dose is per cup for that other brand!?



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Feb 24, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.8

2165 2day 

yup, seriously debating a sick day for Wednesday so i can work out, hard, after the union meeting tuesday night and sleep in....this might just happen!

 

it also means i can go walking and do whatever i want to do that day. it's a possibility.  i think i'll base it on the weather. otherwise, i might just have to skip a day again this week of working out as it's not worth just running ragged with working out and a union meeting in the same night....we shall see.

taking a sick day on wednesday means there's no option to do it in April, and that was really my plan...so, a full week this week...and it can be done!!! :)

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Hey Everyone :)

9:30am Earlier morning drinks: iced coffee 50, kombucha 50. 100

11am Breakfast: granola bar 130, wrap 100, whipped peanut butter 120, half lg apple 50. 400

1pm wrap 80, tofu 90, half avocado 150, smoked salt, small salad and roasted veggies 50.  370, popcorn 100

3-3:30pm snacks granola bar and rest of the iced coffee 130....been a lazy weekend, out to gym soon although I think I’d rather workout at home ?! Home workout.  Rice cracker with peanut butter 150 and a little more 100

definitely a home workout - didn’t leave my apt the entire weekend, just relaxing :)

started workout just before 5, so hope to be done around 8pm...i will then go out for a drive to buy some kombucha as i've been home all weekend & want to just get outside for a little bit tonight....MAYBE...this can change ;)

during workout: coconut water 150, water, zevia drinks

after workout 8pm dinner: cauliflower pizza crust 350, 2 egg whites 50, tofu 100. 500.

2000, excellent.

2day:

I'm contemplating dating my 2nd to last sick day (they renew may 1st), on Wednesday. If i do that, i can finish this walk, relax, go to bed have a busy monday and tuesday and workout again at the gym Wednesday during the day...i'm almost positive that's what i'm doing...my other "sick day" involves a lot of appts in a few more weeks from tomorrow...

 

i was gonna save a sick day for April, before i go away to Paris, but, i'm feeling like i need it now.

or, i can just keep my head up, relax, and realize i CAN DO this...and it's not important right now to keep my strength and fitness "all star calliber" and that if i start to miss here and there, i'll get back on track....!

this is the thing important for the rest of 2019 after Paris, it's to IMPROVE fitness, not just maintain (did a great job maintaining this year, but, i'm going to try to improve it next year - less trips - more single days off...and making it easier not to get overwhelmed and exhausted by weekends.

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I've successfully connected my cable box from my Tv and hooked up the antenna. Plan now is to return the cable box to the Spectrum store next weekend (totally not into doing any trips there today!) It will add to monthly savings of $35 to remove TV from my cable bill, sounds good!

Ricky was the one who came over and happily helped me set it up...was very simple for him!

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gym this afternoon, also need to get kombucha

 

 

Progress as of today: 0.2 lbs lost so far, only 1.8 lbs to go!

silverysparkles on 02/24/2019:
Is there a big difference in the programs you get now?

Horn_of_plenty on 02/24/2019:
YES...i liked it better before but never really took advantage of those channels. I don't watch much TV. So, i decided it's not worth me paying $35/month to not use the service :) so, if i want to watch the news when i'm getting ready in the morning, i should be able to find news on the antenna in the morning! :) it's a good savings over the course of a year, i feel.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/24/2019:
$35x12 = 420 which can be used in other ways, for instance, most of a flight somewhere.


silverysparkles on 02/24/2019:
If you don't use it then that was a good choice. Better the $ be in your pocket then theirs.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/24/2019:
yeah, this is why...

I'm just lazy even turning on the tv...except i do watch news as i get ready in the mornings :)



Horn_of_plenty - Saturday Feb 23, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.8

Good Morning :) I slept really well and even with a sleeping pill, i got out of bed before 9am.

9am breakfast, indulgent: final cup of Grain Berry cereal with almond milk & stevia 150, 1 cup chobani 5% whole milk Greek yogurt 250, with Lily's dark chocolate chips 100.  Soon kombucha / iced coffee also!!  total here: 550-600.

12pm lunch: indian Aloo Tikki (like a fried potato patty very much seasoned so you don't eat more than 1 bc it's nice and spicy!) 200, palak creamed spinach 150, tofu 100. 450. yum.

1:30-2:30 Snacking lots of fruit 200 (big apple, lots of strawberries)

4pm: ice cream, entire smallish pint 300

6pm  Almond keto bread 300, sausage 100, wrap 50 with indian spread 150

Snack cooked cranberries 50, more cran 50, yogurt 80.

2330 :)

 

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I might do my gym workout this evening because I have a union meeting this coming Tuesday and if i want to workout Monday night after work, it means i have to workout tonight so i have the appropriate rest days inbetween...it would be good for me to stay on track as i've just begun to gain back a lot of the strength i've lost since the first half of Winter!

GYM TOMORROW - prefer a day fully at home today. will do laundry and clean hamster cage, maybe cook. totally a rest day...reading. want to finish this book so badly but have a lot more to go! i love all the learning experiences Powell writes about. he mentions mistakes and lessons learned, just an overall excellent book for any working person who deals with people on a daily basis :)

Now less confusing things, I want to do all my laundry, especially my bedding since i didn't wash it for i think 3 weeks oops due to trying to save a lot of time the past two weekends lol. and i also want to clean the hamster cage. this will all be done before i leave my apt today. also, i want to keep reading this Colin Powell book.

I have started researching Paris.  There are 20 districts - in French they are called Arrondissements. It's so hard for me to remember this word so i've been typing it a LOT when i email and research these 20 areas / neighborhoods / districts of Paris. By researching each one, i'm deciding if it's worthwhile to stop in that place as well as what i want to see while there!!  

It's nice to have a system of researching Paris. It all started with my coworker asking me if i have researched the neighborhoods of which she said there was 12...but we took a look together and noticed there were 20! She gave me the hint, about the arrondissements as i didn't know about them at all...to get me into a frame of mind to start researching. now, i've researched half of them, the ones farther from the center of Paris, arrondissements 10-20. The more challenging ones will be the first 10, as they are closer to the center (district 1) of Paris!

Progress as of today: 0.2 lbs lost so far, only 1.8 lbs to go!

silverysparkles on 02/23/2019:
An apple here today too. It's easy to forget how tasty simple fruit is.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/23/2019:
you are sooo right! there were times i hardly ate any fruit...what a waste as you are right it's so tasty and inexpensive really.


Donkey on 02/23/2019:
I knew that Paris had districts and that the lower the number, the more expensive the cost of real estate becomes - thank you, House Hunters International (lol). May I recommend that you look into what Rick Steves recommends? He has a travel show on PBS (don't know if you've ever watched it), and he often recommends ideas that are not as mainstream but yet authentic and interesting (and often lower budget). He has a website and videos. I believe he has travel books too. :)

horn_of_plenty on 02/23/2019:
Yes I came across his books but library doesn’t have his - I’ll look online !

I could have done research today but just relaxed instead lol

horn_of_plenty on 02/23/2019:
And yes I plan not to do everything touristy there - I want to go off the beaten path a little bit indeed !


Donkey on 02/23/2019:
How nice to have a "totally at home" day. I so understand that! That's why I was worried about last night and then going to the movies, but I think I'll have enough time tomorrow, at home, to recharge.

horn_of_plenty on 02/23/2019:
Lately I am needing these types of days. It’s a bit of a waste here at home I don’t even want to be productive.

Last night walking home I had some heavier things with me for the 3 miles, so, I think when I got up today I was feeling sore and that really made me want to be home - I’m sure the sleeping pill also from last night didn’t help things today.

Now I’m complaining ! It’s nice to be home all day !



Horn_of_plenty - Friday Feb 22, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.8

Happy Friday to everyone!

Home: kombucha 50

Breakfast: coffee 50, wrap 80, egg 70, half avocado 150, reese's homemade sf cup 200.  ...everything is so low carb...i actually have been starting to crave more healthy carbs for breakfast and will prob change this up, soon, to making healthy carb breakfasts - like bars and other treats. we'll see.

Snack: ATKINS coconut coated chocolate 170

Lunch: leftovers from home (and walking to get Indian while at lunch today to bring home for dinner and this weekend!) chinese veggie leftovers i cooked 150, chicken sausage 100, fried potato indian patty 200?, some indian palak spinach 150. 600 tops. too much fiber....

snack clementine 50. so much stomach bloating. i hope i go back to my normal digestion next week. and some cashews 100, Granola bar 100

dinner:leftovers i grabbed from work of lots of grilled eggplant and veggies (LARGE PORTION) 250? and a portion of baked ziti! change of pace huh!? 350? possibly more due to cheese. 600 indian and tofu and rice cakes?...sounds good! with strawberries dessert probably

2250 :)

7 day is approx 2160, decent for sure. nice to end with carbs. i'm taking a sleeping pill and plan to sleep thru the night  now.

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exercise today: my 5k commuter walk home from subway :) as it will rain all weekend so today is the only good day to get in an outdoors 3mi (5k!) walk!  this will be a new way for me to enter my walking distances.

One day, I hope to be able to do a 10k walk again. When i was in my mid-20's, i had worked my way all the way up to being able to walk 8 miles at a time with very minimal rest throughout. It'd be nice to eventually at least get to 6miles again which is a 10k.  

Of course though, my main goal IS NOT distance but cardio strength. Therefore, come spring time (SOON!), it'll be BACK TO JOGGING TRAINING. with the dark evenings and cold temps, i have skipped all jogging this winter as i'd rather sleep and stay healthy these months. MAY 2019 - back to jogging training.

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FItness / Career / Life Goals: i DEFINITELY WANT TO REFOCUS. GETTING BACK TO INCREASING MY CARDIO ABILITY, KEEP PUSHUPS STRONG, INCREASING ABS ABILITY STILL A BIT MORE.

My plan for resuming jogging is in MID SPRING, after my Paris trip. I figure it's enough to get myself ready for the trip, feeling good to walk around all of Paris, and to resume training for jogging when I am home. 

Over the summer, I am NOT doing any traveling. 

I have gone thru the trip options and eliminated all but 2.

I'd like to do one fall weekend trip if possible (New Orleans) and an Egypt (Cairo) trip in the New Year 2020. 

The rest of this year May until December, I'm home and working on cardio goals.  This will be the big push. Then, from Fall '19 THRU Winter '20, I plan to mostly be HOME, not traveling next winter, and working on cardio.  Next winter 2020, i'm going to be KEEPING cardio in the winter, and lowering my weights routine to a faster workout - eliminating some exercises....

This will be a final push for Court Officer goals. So, After Paris, I'm going to start planning how to make the court officer thing POSSIBLE and not just a dream like the NYPD cop thing turned out to be bc i was unprepared physically.

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feeling much better than i did last weekend and this whole week. must have been hormones mostly.

didn't sleep much last night, so i'm really, really looking forward to sleeping in tomorrow - possible sleeping pill tonight. 

Progress as of today: 0.2 lbs lost so far, only 1.8 lbs to go!

legcramps on 02/22/2019:
That's an awesome walk! Enjoy!

Yeah, TOM is here for me, and I think it is greatly affecting my hormones. Ugh. Why can't life just be easy?! LOL, just kidding, it's just those hormones kicking in.

horn_of_plenty on 02/22/2019:
TOM is annoying and after your years of preventing it, i'm sure it's something to get used to again!

good thing to think is how most women are in your boat, too...and try to work to get used to it again.

all i know is that it's good we continue to exercise during it...unlike any women who make the excuse not to.

it helps it along, the exercise! :) and makes symptoms pass easier.


legcramps on 02/22/2019:
P.S. How are you liking your peanut butter cups? If you don't mind sharing the recipe, I would like to try making them! They look delicious! And I LOVE peanut butter cups!!

horn_of_plenty on 02/22/2019:
they were tasty but HIGH CALORIES, no fiber. they are nice taste, taste is like an adult treat bc i made them with dark chocolate. so it's a rich taste. not low calorie for the size at all. very dense. the taste is very nice.

https://www.wholesomeyum.com/recipes/sugar-free-keto-peanut-butter-cups/

recipe at link above.


Donkey on 02/23/2019:
I *loved* reading about your goals. Do you have to take a shooting test for court officer?



Horn_of_plenty - Thursday Feb 21, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.8

KOMBUCHA 50

snack / breakfast: reese's pb cup sugar free 200, coffee 50

breakfast: wrap, egg, 1/4 avocado: 250

other snack: cashews 200

lunch: from home, similar to yesterday chinese mix veggies big amount 250?, chicken sausage 100, popcorn 100. later part of clementine. 500

3:30-4pm almonds. 100. of course my stomach is screwed up after too many veggies i guess after lunch??? still bathroom issues big time! you know, i think it's the popcorn! 

overflowing over 2 cups blueberries and iced coffee 300, pretzels too. 100.

8pm-11pm probably (really slow workout) during (the start really still) of my workout just go too hungry and had whipped peanut butter a serving 150, coconut water 120

11pm after workout: wrap and egg 150, half avocado 150. 300.

2320.

6day:  2140, good.

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Something i DO look forward to (and leaving at 4:45pm because i got into work early - doesn't mean i actually got to work early, but i was here...) i'll be a good person and leave at 5pm or 5min before but not any earlier...since i took a lot of time outside at lunch! - STRONG WEIGHTS ROUTINE TONIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! :) and my iced coffee :) wooohoooo

Friday plan - starting to crave Indian, so, buying it at lunch to take home for the weekend, probably. 

Progress as of today: 0.2 lbs lost so far, only 1.8 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/21/2019:
I think it's the hormones that are still messing with your stomach. Too many vegetables can do it, too, though. I hope you feel better soon.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/21/2019:
i do think my stomach is worse 75% due to hormones, yes, i think you are very right this time around was weird! as it was no pain really. just lethargic, VERY MOODY before, during & after, and stomach issues.



Horn_of_plenty - Wednesday Feb 20, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.8

 

Above tonight I made the sugar free peanut butter cups! You make each layer and freeze for 10 minutes before adding the next. Then you freeze the whole thing for a half hour before putting into the fridge! Great and very tasty recipe ! It's 3 layers: chocolate, peanut butter, chocolate. everything mixed with coconut oil and a few other ingredients! very decadent. higher cal, but only sugar is what was in the peanut butter which is a low amount of course! keto style.

1900 total cals today after taste testing the recipe !

2100 5day avg, good.

Will do around 5 minutes of stair climbing in my apt bldg stairwell (just walking from 9th floor up to the 22nd and back down in the elevator)...i want to add this weekly at least.

Lately, i'm having an issue with moodiness and feeling sad. i think it's just trying to forget about this guy Jason as since the lunch dates and communication was over a slightly long period of time for me, i'm every once in awhile reminded of the situation. but it is 75% forgotten already. but as you see, i just remembered now at work and that's why i wrote about it.

Edit at 9:45am: Paris library travel book is on request...i'll get it later this week probably  :)

Kombucha 50 

Dark choc coffered espresso beans lol from another coworker (this was nice!) 100, Cliff Bar 250, Coffee 50. (was in the mood, still, for sweets).

Snack: wrap 80, 1/4 avocado 80, egg 80, smoked salt and black pepper. 250. Bar 200

650.

Lunch: I made it! woohoo. chicken sausage 100, stir fried asian eggplant and green veggies. YUM! 200? and popcorn 100. apple 100 450-500.

snacks: almonds salted cashews / apple 200

Dinner: TBD. 5% fat overflowing cup greek yogurt with stevia 250, cooked cranberries 50 and 1 last cup i had in my fridge of sugar free jello negligible cals. 300...

Bedtime will be earlier :) 

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Stomach is still not great at all! For some reason my whole routine is off and i'm using the bathroom in the night and evening aside from in the morning. eh, it'll switch itself back.

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Our weather is going to be messy I believe on the commute home, so i'm going to wear my rain/snow boots and just take it easy tonight. No plans for a long walk or extra exercise. I will def enjoy a nice, earlier bedtime compared to last night!  I always tend to go to bed late on my weights nights. It's a long routine, with rests, around 3 hours, but I enjoy it and do NOT want to change it. I do snack during the routine and drink lots of fluids.

With taxes done, I really am eager to start delving into reading about Paris. I'll actually take a book out of the library to look at during my commute. 

I still have the other book, Colin Powell's autobiography, and i didn't want to stop reading it without finishing it :( I have around 200 pages left out of over 600. I'm going to try to finish it by the end of this weekend. I'd rather finish it before getting the book on Paris. 

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I went to bed around 11pm after a good workout. A lot of the workout went very efficiently and at a good pace. I do stop to do little tasks (since i am home!) during my workout. For instance, I may clean up the kitchen or clean up papers.  And last night I decided, near the end of my workout when i want little breaks anyways, to send in my taxes!!!!

I had the taxes already completed and ready to send, so i just had to fill out a few quick answers to prove my identify with Turbo Tax and then around 15 min later after going thru their questions and information, off my taxes went! Woohoo. This year, i'm getting around $1k back of which will go to my savings. :)  Basically, it's not extra, it's more like i'm paying back what i've borrowed from that account this year! I'm very happy to get anything back! 

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I have been, here and there, able to forget about Jason. It's a good thing of that. 

I'm a single person and prob will be that way for a long time to come. I had no plans to be dating now and i'm happy i'm not.

I figure maybe i'll be 40 and start dating. I'm still in the process of increasing fitness.

I also realize that some of the traveling is distracting. I have to be able to improve fitness and travel, not travel and lose fitness. 

So, i'm thinking about it. 

I will have shorter travels this / next year overall with Paris being the longest trip, probably, unless there' s a better flight deal.

Believe it or not, I've started to think about other trip options for the fall: New Orleans or Nashville (both are just maybe's).  And for the New Year, there's an option for Cairo, Egypt. Lastly, Peru is an option too. The latter two would be with Rosie, the one I stayed with in Florida and who i went to both Israel and Columbia with! 

I'm trying to travel because i feel safe enough at my job, if that makes sense. I feel security enough to enjoy life moreso than the past outside of work. Be able to travel and come back to a job and nice people.

 

Progress as of today: 0.2 lbs lost so far, only 1.8 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/20/2019:
We ended up having to pay taxes this year - bigly. Not happy about that. It's hard to come up with a large, unexpected sum of money like that.

I hope your stomach problems resolve themselves. Some months are different, and this may be a month where the hormones are affecting your digestive system more so than other months. I tend to agree with you that this will reconcile itself. It's just uncomfortable getting to that point, right?

I see where you are coming from with this guy, now, and I completely agree. I think you have other things in life to focus on that WILL come to fruition. Don't need to waste any more time on something that ends in frustration or goes nowhere. Got it.

Are you supposed to rest between sets for long periods of time? I could never figure that out. There's so much conflicting information out there.

horn_of_plenty on 02/20/2019:
No, you do NOT need to rest long periods at all. I only start resting longer the more into the long workout i get...but your workout is not 3 hours, like mine is ;)

I like to switch exercises, like do a set of biceps and then a set of triceps. and i do that pattern 3 times, for 3 sets. You need less rest when you switch between muscle groups so they can rest a little as you transfer to the next exercise on the opposite / different body part.

for instance, i'll do lunge type exercise for my legs, but then switch to abs. then i'll do these two exercises back to back (sometimes yes with rest - but not much) 3x for the 3 sets.

by swapping between muscle groups, you can save yourself some rest.

some exercises though, i do the 3 sets in a row, especially towards the end of my workout, then i rest more. for instance, i do overhead chest press with heavier weights (30lbs is my limit for many years i keep getting stronger but then i get weaker, and i'm always on the 30# weights for this) laying down on the bench, i do the 3 sets in a row, with extra rest inbetween each (sometimes more than 2min for sure inbetween).

also, doing bicep curls i do each arm at a time and need to rest before continuing to the other arm for a minute or so to get my oxygen fully back to do a good set of biceps on the opposite arm (the second arm lol).

i rest less at the beginning of the workout. but, i do not just do my weights routine like a cardio routine without rest.

however, for many months i've gotten distracted a little bit, and start to research or do little things as the workout progresses into the night. i don't recommend this, but, i'll say the exercise and more oxygen to the brain has me more alert than when i'm just relaxing home on the couch and sometimes it leads to me thinking about things in a positive way or wanting to get things done at home...like my taxes to finally get them in last night.

i've decided that on these days where i have the late nights exercising, i'm bound to be up later and maybe progress during the workout to thinking about other things going on in my life and i welcome (to a limited degree) these distractions...

you want to have good reps. so, if you need to rest after something for a minute or so (i'm never watching the clock for exact rest, no way! i just do what i feel...), do it.

you want a good set each time you are lifting. strong reps to start.

however, there are times when i try to do a set when i'm not completely rested for the "best"...it's when i'm really trying to increase strength on my abs and pushups...

but most exercises, i want to go into each set STRONG and end where i can't do much more (or anymore without chance of injury....)

horn_of_plenty on 02/20/2019:
PS - sorry you owed taxes, that's quite a frustrating thing when you least expect it!


legcramps on 02/20/2019:
Sorry to hear about your tummy troubles! Hopefully they pass soon. Great job on the weights workout!

horn_of_plenty on 02/20/2019:
yeah, for some reason my digestive system is opposite the way it usually is. i keep needing the bathroom after work and during work, with extra bloating, instead of more in the morning!

I am almost back to regular and the weights once again are improving...i feel the strength coming back again!


Donkey on 02/21/2019:
Again, hormones may have to do with the moodiness. I encourage you to try to ride it out at least until TOM is over, be kind to yourself, maybe pamper yourself a little. If you're still feeling out of sorts when the hormones have settled down, then maybe take a step further.

Some months are really, really rough with the hormones. The good part is, though, that if it's hormones, it will pass. If it's depression, then that can be more difficult to navigate.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/21/2019:
such a good tip from you regarding hormones. i do think that's 99% of it this time around. and the winter weather / lack of sun.



Horn_of_plenty - Tuesday Feb 19, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.8

Morning: kombucha 50

Work breakfast: coffee 50, Quest Hero Bar (in the mood for sweets / sweet tasting breakfast) 170. apporx 250 

Snack / 2nd breakfast: wrap 80, egg 80, 1/4 avocado 80, salt and pepper. 250.

11am really tired, dragging. reese's chocolate bar thing 100 half of it. (really feeling down today, dragging...) even my stomach, still a major issue, bloating and stuff for a week., the rest the chocolate after lunch 120

Lunch: chicken soup from coworker 400, chips 100. 500

almonds 100 and candies 50

6:30 before workout nature valley cocoa almond butter cookie package, iced coffee at home 250, blueberries 100, zevia drink, coconut water during 150

after exercise: natural type of protein bar 250. :)

2200...excellent.

4day: 2150, good!

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In all honesty, i def woke up on the WRONG side of the bed and i'm feeling quite tired since getting out of bed. Slept poorly bc i woke up a few times with stomach troubles during the night.  

also, honestly, i'm just annoyed about the guy - Jason - situation. I had never wanted to date him in the first place. It's like i had a gut feeling against it many months ago. Then, i date him and it's going ok, but he then pulls back by texting less. I'm just annoyed that it couldn't work out because it's obvious right now and also the fact of how much i'd like a guy to like me, but personally it'd be better if i liked the guy also outright from the start. I'm just annoyed that something that could have been good with maybe a different man if he was a different man!?, it could have had opportunity to grow. but it really seems this is not the man to even try with due to the fact he shows no attempt to try himself. eh, i just want to erase it from my mind. I don't need it now. 

I could still use everyone on DD's advice here, even if it doesn't agree with my thinking:

I have my trips, my friends. My court officer / physical goals. 

I'm done with trying to have a serious relationship. I don't think having a less serious relationship with jason is good either. i just wish to forget him...which will work as long as he doesn't text me. Also, against my will, if he does text me, I will try my best to take always 24hours or more to get back to him.  This needs to pass. I don't want him. I don't want a relationship especially with him. I'm sooo done!

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Plan is for weights tonight.

It's def a tired day as my sleep last night was good when i slept, but partially interrupted with stomach issues.  With TOM and all ending this week, I have a feeling stomach should be back to normal midweek. I'm glad i wasn't in much pain this TOM and also my skin was rather clear for the past 2 TOMS due to my healthier eating and better ways of dealing with stress / less stress!

Progress as of today: 0.2 lbs lost so far, only 1.8 lbs to go!

legcramps on 02/19/2019:
You should ALWAYS do what you think is best for YOU! Who knows where Jason is coming from or why he's not texting you back right away, but, really - who cares either! If he's not able to communicate with you the way you'd like him to, then I would let him know that and be on your way :) PERIOD. Then, whatever happens after that, at least you know you were completely honest and open with him, and he knew what you needed from him.

I got some crappy sleep last night too, which is not a good way to start off the next couple of really busy weeks. Oi vey!

horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2019:
yeah, i just don't have time for "games" and it's just weird to me to wait hours to reply to someone. that's a game to me because it's annoying and frustrating. i never really found him appealing, so, that's it i guess. i just liked that he liked me...lol. time for me to move forward.


Donkey on 02/19/2019:
Are you annoyed with yourself? Or at the situation? Or perhaps your expectations? I don't know that this thing is worth that much of your energy, to warrant annoyance or frustration. (((hugs)))

The way I see this is, he's a nice guy, which is great, and you've had a couple of nice lunches, which is also great, but I don't think this will develop into anything more than this. [If I'm wrong, that's completely fine by me.] Rather than texting or trying to flesh out the relationship, I say accept it for what it is - an occasional lunch buddy - or move on. And if you think it's healthier for you to just move on, then do it.

Glad to read that you're still aiming for court officer. It's been a while since you've spoken about it, and I thought maybe your goals had changed.

horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2019:
yeah, it is all frustrating. i don't want to think about him anymore if there's nothing to think about. i don't date often, so, it was my goal to "make it work." but, it doesn't seem there's really anything to "work" out. so, i'd like to forget and just go back to my usual life...rather than keep thinking he's interested or not and keep debating things. ...i'd like it to be done i guess so i am not distracted any further as it seems to be a waste.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2019:
i'll write only about the court officer thing if something changes / comes of it / applications come out :)


thinkpositive on 02/19/2019:
If your instincts are right, it sounds like things have cooled between both of you. If that’s right you can choose whether to continue or cut it off. Disappointing when things don’t work out as you hoped.Always keep the door open to other possible relationships.

horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2019:
Thanks Thinkie I appreciate it. I just have had enough of the emotions that come with dating and wondering when I will actually receive a text back how many hours after I sent it :) now I can refocus and keep the door open to other people and situations as you’ve said :)



Horn_of_plenty - Monday Feb 18, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.0

Happy MONDAY :) totally still feels like a Sunday :)

Breakfast: english muffin 150, half large avocado 150, egg 80, salt and pepper, kombucha 50, small bag of fun size m&m's 50. water. 500. small sips of coffee, included in total.

snacks before lunch 250

bigger lunch: fried small meat cigars 300? Fries 200? Salad with light dressing 150?, bread 150.800.

dinner half avocado 150 wrap 100 chicken sausage 100, some sautéed veggies 150 500

2050.

3day = 2133

 

 

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Off in a little bit to go to NJ for lunch. the NJ is right across the bridge so it will be very easy drive, under an hour :)Having lunch with great aunt, and 2 second cousins. 

Errands after include going to drug store to pick up monthly Rx and supermarket for yesterday's items as well as bread/wraps. Almond Milk, Milk, 2 Cartons Eggs, greek yogurt, Iced Coffee, Salami or Lox   for some reason i cannot unstrike it when copying and pasting lol.

 so this new guy jason is entirely annoying and unreachable. he texts back hours later. I'm still not going to just "not text" him because i'm being me. i'm not changing myself. we'll see how it goes.

ricky is coming over to help me set up my tv antenna so i can cancel my cable tv service this week, saving around $35 a month. every bit helps! and i hardly watch TV,so this is  a no-brainer. it helps offset the costs of my high phone bill (new phone, and higher service fee since i'm not part of family plan anymore).

 

 

 

Progress as of today: 1 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/19/2019:
You make a good point about this guy not being the right guy for you because he doesn't communicate the way you need him to. So... good guy friend for lunch buddy but I see now that this probably won't evolve beyond that.

Lunch with the extended family sounds like it went well! I hope you enjoyed your visit.

horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2019:
lol, i got a little blunt and on Monday when he texted me back over an hour later after i initially texted him, i wrote "you are soooo unreachable! lol".....i don't have time for it now...it's annoying to me :)

it's all good, at least i got the experience of 3 lunch dates.

horn_of_plenty on 02/19/2019:
also, while he's fun and easy going, he hasn't really "taught" me much...i'd rather critique it now.

he'd have to try much harder if he'd be interested in another date.

I will TURN DOWN any next offer he makes. I don't have time for this kinda thing of unknowing.

all weekend, i'm texting everyone else, no issue except for him. I'm not taking that :) Nobody else takes hours to reply. That's his life, but i'm not open to it at all and that's ok! i've been single a long time and this is not the right guy.



Horn_of_plenty - Sunday Feb 17, 2019
(counting calories/walking/elliptical/weights)
Weight: 113.0

Edit: so the guy, he's not really trying at all. For all good intentions, he may just be deciding to pull back and not pursue anything with me right now. i'll have to see him at a union meeting in a couple weeks....not happy about that....because i'd rather it be really separate i guess from union / work / business. actually, i don't even care anymore!

i'm just glad that my life is at a generally slow pace right now, i can exercise, workout, and things are slow...it's a blessing in disguise and i might just need to nudge myself that things are so good.

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Good Morning. Naturally up early. Good sleeping.

Woke up with a huge appetite. luckily, i had some things laying around in my fridge to satisfy completely!

8:30am Breakfast: half large wheat bagel still very tasty 200, 1/4 avocado 80, leftover corned beef! 200 so good!, smoked salt and some pepper, drink. 500. iced coffee soon too. 550.

10:45am bar 200

1pm-2pm  lunch: leftover bacon Brussels sprouts and chicken 300, chips and crackers 300. 600., dessert of keto choc chips by Lily's 50.

3pm snack: more water, more chocolate 50 cals

4:30: cranberry preserves with stevia and pinch saffron, whole milk greek yogurt 250

6:30 during workout: 2 cups coconut water 150, tiny apple also., candy. 50

9:30pm After workout - a pretty tasty bar, chocolate raspberry truffle by Think Thin. better than most of what that company offers :) approx 250

2150, excellent. 

2day: 2175. good!

Looking forward to tomorrow and a change of pace that it'll be. Maybe a little more reading tonight of My American Journey (autobiography of Colin Powell). 

he gives so much detail about many, many decisions he had to make in all his different positions that this book offers a lot that i can relate to and use at work. Obviously my position is not his, but, it's good to listen to a brilliant man's literary discussion of how business / military / work happens and how you work best with people. there's so much good info, that's why i'm still reading the book although i'm now at page 400 and have over 200 more to go. otherwise, if i wasn't reading it, i'd be possibly researching Paris. but, that can wait :)

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Maybe i will make the Reese’s Keto cups today :-) (MAYBE)....I’m thinking to make them on the large size to enjoy as a full snack or small breakfast at work this week with coffee 

 Def feeling low energy with some minor thigh pain.  Feeling notaglic to the days i used to binge and eat all day. Almost feel that desire, but i know better. so, drinking my seltzer and stevia and trying to read.

Later, i'll go out to do errands (drug store and quick supermarket trip for Almond Milk, Milk, 2 Cartons Eggs, greek yogurt, Iced Coffee, Salami or Lox or another meat!, maybe another pepper or two), before going to gym prob around 4:30pm-5pm starting the gym. Right now it's 2pm, at least i already showered earlier, so really whenever i want to get up and go, i can. 

and honestly, i'll settle into a home workout tonight instead, we'll see how i feel.  

 

 

 

 

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TOM is here, thankfully but annoyingly. but mostly thankfully bc it seems that when i'm traveling at the end of April, i will not have this TOM which is a great thing!....! 

I'm a little lower energy today, just wanna relax and read my book and maybe make a bigger dent in it. When i'm done with this book (still only about halfway thru and it's long), i'm switching gears. I will be reading and reading on Paris so i can have it all planned a month before the trip which is set for the last few days of April into May. I want most of the plans (each day planned in advance!), a month before or so that i actually go on the trip. I don't want it planned last minute and my host will appreciate having the plans, too. In fact, i'm emailing her of my goal - that by end of March, the trip is planned each day.

Progress as of today: 1 lbs lost so far, only 1 lbs to go!

Donkey on 02/17/2019:
I think we will have very similar days today :)

horn_of_plenty on 02/17/2019:
I’m really not in the mood to do anything today - and not feeling too bad about that !

But I will make it out to the supermarket and gym later ;)


Donkey on 02/17/2019:
Except TOM - just finished up, don't need to go there again any time soon.

horn_of_plenty on 02/17/2019:
Yeah Tom ugh ! Making me low energy


Donkey on 02/17/2019:
I won't pry to ask if anything specific happened with the guy. However, I want to encourage you to hold your head up high when you go to that union meeting. You're a fantastic person, fun to be with and good-hearted. So you just let that shine through so that he (and the world) know it.

And life is wonderful for you - you have Paris coming up! And for now, things might seem slow but that doesn't mean that nothing's happening: planning, thinking, dreaming, working out.

Horn_of_plenty on 02/17/2019:
Of course you can ask! No, he just is LESS available on weekends and doesn't text back EVER in reasonable times aside from Valentines after i thanked him...

It's a bit too uncommunicative and i like texting. I PREFER it to a phone call as a way to keep up with someone during the week.

And being that my DAD is by far the busiest man i know, i don't really feel this guy Jason is trying anymore and that's fine.

i was very honest with him the whole time on the "lunch dates." Nothing specific at all, just, he is busy and it's quite annoying on the weekend with the lack of returning texts on weekend in a timely manner as i do not trust that he doesn't see the text right way on his phone and is ignoring which isn't cool, that's all.

i appreciate your advice in regards to the slow feel right now. Really i do have enough to do!!! I have an entire trip of Paris to think about and plan as the girl i'm visiting is wanting me to plan it first and then she'll give input which is also am thankful for - i DO want to do MY research first! that's how you get extra excited and how you have a good trip!!!! :)

so i do have a lot to do, don't need a boyfriend that hounds me at all and really don't need anything in regards to a new relationship or any changes in my current ones....

dating him was a nice distraction and challenge since i don't date often that why i say it like that...a challenge to spend time with a new man.

i'd almost, if he does come back interested, i'd probably just go for the experience if he asks for another date...

but, i'm going to have to PULL BACK COMPLETELY.

i have chased men (Paul and one other) in the past. I have provided (paid) for Ricky in the past. I'd treat Ricky with little things (nothing expensive).

But lessons learned: every time i gave too much of myself to a man, it was NOT helpful at ALL!

therefore, i know better and i don't even have a "crush" on this current guy...so, there's just no reason for me to push or text him anymore i don't think aside from texting back...

I have to "give him a taste of his medicine" and actually wait hours or a day to reply. because it's annoying for someone to do that to someone, so i'll have to do it - if he even texts me back!

and it's just annoying, but i'm not angry or anything :) no biggie :)



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