My weight is accurate. It usually says 115.6 lately. And one day this past week it said exactly 115. Maybe at times i was even under 115. Feels good. I like this weight.
Lazy weekend fun breakfast - 10am-11am: 2 Medium plums 100, Halo Top Birthday Cake 1/2 pint 150, jello 50, FULL PINT Halo Top Strawberry 300 - total = 600 = good. and seltzer with stevia.
12:45 bigger lunch but healthy: leftover thai veggies 100? with some fried salmon (small amount but totally fried) 200? and also a bit of chicken 150 - 450 for sure if not more.
1050 so far, decent & full.
I did laundry and already prepared some jello and even put strawberries in the lemon jello & an brown banana in the lime...we'll see how that one works out or if i even eat it. maybe cooking stuff early tomorrow morning (cooking veggies) - not in mood to do it tonight after a gym and showering after that. relaxing. :-D
Also today I took care of a lot of bills / money stuff at home. It probably took around 1hr of time - not bad. I also donated to MSK cancer research $10 because they even offered a tote bag free lol - that's not why i did it - but i do support the research of course and i also am always sorta impressed by their fundraising as seeing so much they give out to get us to donate. Calendars and everything. So, i like giving to them. And just prepared some stuff for the week.
Before gym: 200 cals. carbs and caffeine.
After gym: Tasty subway sandwich, higher salt purposely. Whole wheat flatbread with a veggie patty. Around 400 cals. and trying to end it here on a good note.
Calories today: 1650 - excellent. as it started off not so good with all the snacking early and bigger meals. and some sf lemon jello with strawberries (wow was great).
Calorie average is now 1900 per day this weekend. def a decent amount.
my gym workout was super - extra fast.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
No sleeping pills on Thursday night or Fri night = good idea. Up early today but this is good. Time to relax before heading out to the beach with my best friend.
Morning snacking: leftover ice light Halo Top Lemon Cake ice cream 60, seltzer with stevia, chips 200, jello 50. total here: 310.
2050 cals good. I did come home very relaxed from beach :-)
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Had a very new & def a new fave drink: sparkling vinegar drink. only 25 cals. and i add a tiny bit extra stevia to sweeten & OMG. this stuff is great. also, like the kombucha, it's good for elimination. I drink it in AM and usually add some seltzer with stevia also.
8:30am at work: wrap with lox and extra cream cheese, coffee, 350 total
around 400 at most. thinking to just be hungry this AM and not have a snack bar. to just relax it out. i don't have much work AT ALL. I don't have any bosses giving me work. I'll talk about this later.
lunch: healthy stuff...good on all levels, some chips 450 approx. excellent! (some leftover sauteed pumpkin mixed with cauliflower "rice", some cold cuts low sodium turkey, some lightly processed chips - not a bad brand & I do LOVE myself some chips regularly..)
gonna have a good low cal day...and i can tell i've lost a few ounces this week FOR SURE. clothes are fitting really well. digestion this week has been very good too.
blech - ending up indulging on crap 1900 cals at most, still good. did go for around an hour walk.
weekly average = 1750/day
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It's very nerve-wracking, stressful & upsetting. But I need to fully ignore these feelings & concentrate on my cop NYPD goal. If i can work at it faster, I may try for January '17 but i can only think it's too early...but i am going to push it in my mind anyways....
I will see how I feel end of October and determine if January '17 really is too soon or if I can go for it.
I am working on my legs atthe gym MORE and MORE.
I feel a slight improvement already.
I can do slightly more weights with legs.
But still i'm a beginner & not into running...at all - until i feel no pain - which will be late fall or wintertime.
I'm trying to remain relaxed about it all.
But with my boss leaving (my only boss the whole time i was here) and not having work because everything is VERY wacky at my company (up in the air // change of positions // people leaving // new boss hiring....) things are just not relaxing. However, I realize i'm NOT the only one acting around here. That i'm really NOT the only one with little work. So....
.....so....I need to remain positive...watch my health....and leave here as soon as I'm ready.
So i will either leave in January (would be nice) or July (sounds better in terms of watching out for my health & physical safety).
Anyways, i'll keep thinking and rolling the dice in my head as to my next move and what is seriously right for my future.
I'm glad i'm here right now making enough money to pay my bills AND save for the future.
Despite how bad it all sounds...it's nothing compared to being homeless / on welfare / or having other major problems.
I have minor problems & cannot worry. I will make it happen & make my NYPD dream come true.
Please just support me everyone here - it means a lot - or give advice if you think i could benefit.
The NYPD will be far better for my future & savings. Although I AM saving some $$$ right now, it's sorta minimal and i'm not left with extra money each month (at least when i'm buying jeans or alterring dresses or other things...anytime i spend more than what I need - when i'm buying some new clothes / ALL MY CRAZY FOOD INDULGENCES / anything new for my apt - i am spending money which i find hard to pay back all at once to my credit card).
Once again, everything AT THIS MOMENT is fine. I'm satisfied at this very moment.
The NYPD will be good for my future. My future money situation - in terms of savings and retirement. I'll make an average of exactly the $ I am lucky to be making right now ($53/yr) for the first 5 yrs through the academy - it'll average around mid 50's.
But after that, I'll be making above $90k which is going to be very helpful for me as i get older & need to care for myself MORE. ex - New clothes, renovations to my apt, new car when this one dies. This is all 5 yrs down the line - I will be approx 40yrs old when the $90,000 per year salary kicks in. It will be very helpful. And this is also assuming that my rent stays stabilized at the $1,000/month only which is considered dirt cheap for New York City / Queens living.
If anything goes down with the electrical union / economy and things change with the rent, I could lose it all...but that shouldn't happen. I have a special deal on my rent (it's not low income or subsidized but it is a special rate per the electrical industry housing). It's a special thing in the city Queens - that no other industry has done - provided housing. now it's open to non-electrical / union workers too.
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I am just worried about maintaining my job, sanity, positivity & getting my legs strong for NYPD these next 10 months (although earlier does sound best...) but all because i want something earlier doesn't mean it is the best option for my health!!!!!!!!! i have always pushed things so i may have to choose patience this time.....
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Your advice is well taken and acknowledged. Thank you so much for pointing out what is true.
1725 6-day average = EXCELLENT.
Still feeling really low energy. I know the reason why - just overwhelmed mentally. I need to move past this. Also has to do with something involving a man. Don't want to talk about it. You were all right about it (puddles) all along. blah. anyways, i am at work. I made it here on time. And I am getting thru. Gym tonight as I am not wanting to skip it.
Home: kombucha 50 (some spilled out)...and seltzer with stevia. did the trick as per usual - i'm actually having really good mornings re elimination lately. lol. sorry guys. but it helps when i go to work & start the day feeling good.
Work: a donut (they were in the kitchen at work left out) Entenman's old fashioned 210, coffee 40. 250. already hungry again at 10am though as a donut isn't satisfying.
10am Snacking before lunch: small bar atkins with protein / fat 150
Lunch: some broccoli raab though not much at all 50, turkey cold cuts 100 most, with leftover pumpkin sauttee 200?, chips 150, caffeine. 500 tops?
950-1000 before snack before gym. very good.
150 before gym 1150...
400 most after gym.
1550, excellent.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Lately my ankle bothers me but i think it's partially in my head.
1760 5-day average.
I tasted some really nice ice cream today...ordered it online as a gift to myself and it came earlier than i expected.
Today i have the day off. I took a sick day. I did some laundry so there's less to do on the weekend. I'm relaxing right now.
I do have an appt to get botox in my underarms (i do it approx every 6 months because i have hyperhydrosis - excessive sweating and i used to only wear black shirts because i would get very wet under my arms...). so happy to get that done hopefully today - the pimple under my armit is almost gone away. hopefully it doesn't stall the botox and the dr will go thru with it. Accidlentally they forgot to order me the botox so they did some pimple extractions...but i have to go back for it...at least today's a really nice & relaxing day.
Having dinner with my best friend. She's spending the day with her mom i think and said she'd stop by me on the way home for dinner. Looking foward to seeing her as we haven't met up in 2 1/2 weeks or so - this weekend would have been 3 weeks since i last saw her. seeing her on weekend, not today.
I have been eating all kinds of stuff i've had at home & i slept in well (sleeping pill). I do plan to sleep extra tonight also. Like i mention quite often, the extra sleep is helping my body repair itself with the strenuous workouts that i do.
10:30/11am: plums 100, and kombucha 30.
11am-12pm: brunch - Arctic Zero butter pecan frozen dessert - one cup 150 cal (leftover half a pint), chips 200, and half package of bacon jerky 150. 500. satisfying. also drinking lots of seltzer with stevia and i want to buy more seltzer soon - either today or friday or something.
total today so far: around 650.
2pm almost: cooked veggies, another plum 250
early dinner: veggies in sort of a heavier sauce, but healthy veggies. 300? and ice cream 300. 600 total.
plum 50.
1550. and ice cream. total is 1750 - good!
back to work Thursday.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
but also it's a problem i've had my whole life. I think it's part of me really being an introvert.
Introverts crave time alone to recharge...i just have a hard time always being energized and sometimes it takes it toll on me.
I tend to get overly run down and not have enough time to recharge. It was a problem for me even as a teacher many years ago - but didn't matter then because there is a lot of vacation time. but now, when i let myself reach my lowest, i just can't anymore - because there's no time off.
1760 4-day average. excellent.
Around 1900 today.
little walking during work - 20 min?
great weights routine.
Not a good week for me so far at work though.
Taking tomorrow off to sleep in, go to an appointment & meet friend here at my place to go out to dinner.
I don't see myself doing much tomorrow aside from the appointment & dinner.
I'm NOT in a great place right now.
I'm very tired.
Exhausted feeling.
And in general restless and angry.
I hate not having a lot of time off at this job.
Tomorrow should be good to have alone time.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Morning at home: new very low cal sparkling vinegar drink in tart cherry lol....is good and does the trick! this my be my new thing! ? 20 cal. and stevia in seltzer.
Work: coffee.....light wrap with cream cheese & lox and green tea too.
snack: granola type bar but really natural & healthy 160
Light lunch also: cauliflower with some roasted broccoli 100, 50 for cauliflower, and sauteed mashed pumpkin with some oil 100-150, and a meatball! 100? ...coffee...needing carbs...feeling so down (i know why though - not enough sleep). 450 for lunch? so tasty.
...gonna make it a GOOD day.
2pm Plum = 50 and seltzer with stevia during work - 2pm. - CRAVINGS galore my gosh...missing my boss!?............
4pm a small protein bar (was too hungry at work)
1100 before dinner.
around 1850 monday....i think? did this get deleted?
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
keeps the bowels moving in MORNING before work....clears me out usually...!!!!!!!
I guess i just need to keep my well-being in mind MORE....and make sure to rest more???? I am not sure. It must be in my head.
Today...I saw exactly 115 on scale :-D Lately it's been steady at 115 point something or other. I'm doing EXTREMELY well this summer & year. I plan to remain at 115 for some time. I really enjoy being this weight as clothes fit well and everything feels right.
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hola..
7:30am Breakfast - protein muffin 250, sauteed pumpkin 100, peanut butter 100, selzter with stevia 450.
10am Snack: strawberries, small bar 200.
11:30am light meal: sauteed veggies 100?, plum 50, butter popcorn 160 310.
More veggies and stuff 100
3pm snacking before gym: (i'm really tired today but going to gym) - caffeine 20, plum 50, cheesecake fiber 1 bar 150 (these are GREAT!) 220.
6:30pm dinner: i think around 550. good..and actually pretty balanced (even with chips).
1850 today.
will go to bed early.
I'm quite wiped out which is why i'm really not in a mood to comment today on diaries or do very much.
I really would prefer to be home tomorrow but there really is a job due...so....i'll go to work. I may take a day off this week - maybe Friday...because I'm feeling a bit worn out & my boss is not here this week. We'll see - it's also based on the job schedule and what we have due.
However, if i turn out feeling good, I may not take a day off just yet. We'll see - it's based on how the week goes.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Good Morning :-D
10:30am breakfast: EVOL microwave chicken enchilada meal and i added some cooked cauliflower crumbles and sauteed pumpkin: 450 or so. and good mix of fat / protein / carbs, had ice cream shortly after 250 more.
Snacking after a LOVELY massage that i was late for again (was thinking there wouldn't be traffic because of some rain - meaning no beach - but there was traffic because of rain lol! - and a TON of traffic)...he ended up giving me an hour anyway. I was lucky...
Snacking - 250 (including some samples at the mall where i dropped my bag to be fixed) = excellent...
Light dinner: tons of different VEGGIES! omg from the Mall! who would have guessed how awesome a new food court can be! They had food from every popular country in the world (in regards to restaurant options)...Indian...Vegetarian (Israeli)...everything! impressive. I got 4 small containers containing: pickled baby eggplants, carrot salad, tomato/cucumber mix, roasted broccoli/cauliflower from the Vegetarian station...and then roasted okra from the Indian place. really amazing to find things like this in a mall. I was blown away. I'd say my dinner was...around...500 cal in veggies. tasty.not in mood for much else. small appetite.500.
Total cal: 1450 - good.
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Today I'm going to Long Island (will prob take around 45min-1hr depending on traffic) for a massage at Massage Envy because i there's a really good therapist there. When i make appointments for massage, which is occasionally, it's always with specific therapists that i know are good - of course unless i'm trying a new one. But i tend to get really good massages by more experienced therapists since I've been going a long time & know how to figure out who's good and how to ask for an experienced one when i'm booking it...
After the massage, it's by a HUGE mall with a Coach bag store. I am planning to attempt to go there with my old bag as they have a policy on their bags, no matter how bad condition / how old. So, we'll see what happens with that! - cost $60 & they will ship to my house when they are done mending the bag! awesome price to make a 5 yr old Coach bag new again!
Sports bras are half off today on Old Navy site...i may buy a couple new for $10 each. And free shipping with code FREESHIP. I was going to get jeans, but i realize i don't really need...but do want to throw one pair i have out! lol....so i may buy one pair. don't really have the money...but....the sale is good.
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Although I admit to struggling a lot to stay focussed, I did get thru this week successfully. To recap, just to write it down because i want to tell somebody lol and not keep what i feel was a lot of work outside of work to myself:
Sunday- got home late from far away beach adventure / dropping friend off at the subway for her to go back to Manhattan at 9:30pm and went to work Monday morning usual time...
Monday - went to dr after work because i had an infected pimple in my armpit that needed attention (first time ever for this incident!) got home late around 8pm.
Tuesday- went into work but didn't go to gym after because i was really tired / legs sore from the beach Sunday. But, i decided to do LAUNDRY lol...good choice because now i have far less to do tomorrow (sunday...) lol...
Wednesday- morning i got up and went to take a Notary Exam on Long Island but close to Queens. My coworker was there too. So after the test we totally went to dunkin donuts for at least a half hour lol for a late breakfast. Then off to work! I did manage to stay at work till 5pm (half hour late to attmept to show i am thankful to the company for allowing me to go take the test in the AM....on company time...) No gym Wednesday still because legs still sore and knew it would be better to come home. Went to bed early...
Thursday - Went into work thinking we were celebrating a boss' bday (my plan, but i did deligate the actual buying of the cake to someone i usually trust - and still do - and realize she had a really busy week & in general i am thankful she helped me with the cake big time because i was busy enough this week and couldn't have done the cake too!)...so went into work to find out the cake wasn't ordered in time - so it would have to be done on Friday - a surprise cake for a boss for his 60th that I PLANNED MYSELF! :) ...so WENT TO THE GYM THURSDAY! felt so good. After gym, i realized i had no veggies for lunch friday - and stopped by the supermarket. I think i got home around 8:30pm?
Friday: got up, got ready and wore heels to work. first time in years. I did my makeup and looked REALLY NICE. I reminded everyone about Stan's celebration 60th...the celebration was a MAJOR success! I even sang him happy bday even though i suck at singing...and i realize i will always make the effort to sing instead of just standing there for now on...it's always been a thing i do...weird, i know...
Friday continued - so anyways, yesterday, Friday was a success. I left work normal time at 4:30 - went to get cash back at supermarket - drove to get a haircut. got there late closer to 5:30pm instead of 5...which was OK....hair got a treatment for two hours for straightening...left there 7:30pm...drove the two hairdressers halfway home (one all the way home, and the other got off for the train...i felt bad she still had some distance to go - but i realized so did I...) in pouring rain only while i drove them as it stopped luckily when we got to their stop...and I got home myself at 9:00pm. I did end up eating a full, but small, meal at 9. I think i was in bed myself around 10:30.
I stayed in my bed today - Saturday - until 10am. LOL.
What a week right!? Feels good to accomplish it all, but i will not have a busy weekend or week to come! LOL. DONE. COOKED.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
you are right about the song though - i think it's one of the most popular 1st songs kids learn.
TGIF Ladies & Gentlemen...
Home: kombucha 60, seltzer with stevia
8:30am at work: Bai caffeine drink 10 and Fiber One Cheesecake Bar, Strawberry Flavor (these are GREAT!) 160 total here. Cheesecake bars are really nice, not too high sugar & a lil fat. good balance i'd say.
11:00am: small Atkins nut bar 130
Total so far: 350, excellent...maybe some coffee? I may try and keep cals really low today...as i have the hair appt after work too...would be a good idea to use today as a "low cal" day and make it a full "weight loss" week...yeah!
snack before lunch: decaf coffee with sf and milk 50
Light lunch: tofu 50, tons of cauliflower crumbles mircrowaved 100? with leftover saag 250? - AROUND 400 Total!
800 After lunch = excellent. Low cal day, for sure....
5:30pm up to 350 (fruit and a donut) before getting hair done after work
after doing hair and getting home, 9pm: protein muffin 250, some jello, serving and a half of chips 200. could have been a lot less cals, but got home EXTRA late...would rather not talk about it - not really a bad thing, just, lesson learned sorta.
total today is still really good: 1600.
Calorie average for the week: 1764/day = weightloss amount for me.
anything below 1800 usually yields a slight loss.
i'd say i burned more than i used this week. On days I work out, I'm sure I burn at least 2,000. This week was really only 2 workouts, but, the beach day was a lot....so...who knows.
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It's been a really FULL & COMPLETE week for the books. Yeah, at times I was REALLY down on myself (not sure why) - probably just wasn't going with the flow:
Sometimes I have issues with "conforming to the norm" or conforming with everyone else - i don't know. I like to do MY THING. I DON'T ALWAYS like being told WHAT TO DO! But this week, since Monday I guess, I was told what to do by the higher-ups, by authority...and by today...i was just DONE. I would have sorta prefered today off...but...instead I got my act together and dressed up, a lot, for work. Heels included. First time in forever....wearing an ankle support though. Don't need to be stupid. :-) I AM doing the right thing. I really am!
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For this weekend, it's doing only things for my own well-being. Sorta a "narcissistic weekend" lol. Really though, i've been running all week to activities. I'm VERY MUCH looking foward to sleeping in...both days.
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Weekend plans: definitely enough:
Tonight after work - haircut and keratin....
Saturday - picking up veggies, massage, maybe bringing my old bag to the mall to see if i can have it repaired (COACH bag)
Sunday - Laundry & Gym. and relaxing..prob it.
Maybe online Jean shopping from Old Navy too...
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
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We all have that weight that we are totally comfortable with and I think what makes it comfortable is yes the way we feel in our body but also the ease of maintaining that weight along the weeks and the months. Have a great day J.
You are correct. It's becoming a weight i'm getting better at managing. I don't really want to lose more as much as gain more muscle. Sorta a skinny fat feeling going on here.
OhioRaven on 08/28/2016:
You are one skinny, healthy girl.
I am a bit short...if that means anything almost 5'2"
Diamond50 on 08/28/2016:
Note to self: Buy diet jello and do what HP is doing.
Not everything i do is healthiest...but it works for me. And i'm happy with the choices i make as i feel they are moderate enough...!
Sure, feel free to even copy some of the things i eat. you'll lose weight. trust me. You will lose weight on 2,000 cal per day also. the point is to eat sorta as much as you can to get the job done, instead of eating the least i can. then it becomes easier for me to maintain. feel free to ask me anything.
grannyannie on 08/29/2016:
Looks like you are doing well. Have an amazing week!
I will do Annie <3