For Innerpeace Only:
I am so excited to be here!!! (I hope you will be enthusiastic up there InnerP!) I have the DISTINCT privilege of saying...that I PERSONALLY take TOTAL responsibility for this Special union between Kelly & Dianne!! Oh, the Times we’ve shared together… I have known Dianne since our freshman year of high school…
I can tell you so many STORIES…things and you would have to believe me. because I doubt she would remember some of these tnanything. Her short term/long term memories are total whack! Don't get me wrong she remembers the There’s the cool stuff: like vacations, trips, standing in line for concert tickets, meeting Dolly Parton (can you say something more on meeting Dolly Parton bc this is a REALLY COOL MEMORY!) and troubles with parallel parking (was there a time you actually dented the car or made a car alarm go off or did you hit anything!? Any more to the car story to add to make people laugh?),
….and then there’s ordinary day to day stuff…I wonder if Dianne remembers all of that...Dianne has been there for me through some very tough times, she has traveled to many places to visit and be by my side and for that I could never thank her enough. She was/has been my rock in the not so good and bad times.
I can say that I have been there for her as well...I was someone to rant and rave to about crappy work times, talk things out and wonder about times. There were times she would talk to me about things I had no clude what she was talking about and would only be there to listen!! Chakras, metaphysics and dogs! She'd drop a few names like Carolyn Myss and Wayne Dyer names I didn't know. I would listen but couldn't give any input because...well to be honest she’s weird sometimes! (will she take offense???) make sure to say these things as a joke!? Try when saying this paragraph to be extra sarcastic / funny in your tone…!
So, Imagine my surprise, while sitting in my office, working diligently, when Miss Kelly walks in and starts talking...again with the dogs, metaphysics and self help and I sit and listen again… with no input. But this time, the entire time I'm thinking...oh wow!!!!, I have this OTHER friend, who talks to me about the same exact things! So I told her: “I bet you guys would have some awesome conversation time!” So I had these two friends, both loved talking about the same things, but they had never met…YET!
Well, the first attempt at getting them to meet, didn't quite work out… for reasons...trying times! Crazy times! Timing is everything! Sometimes it’s just not the right timing, ya know…But, a few years later, still having the same conversations with these two different people who still hadn’t met, I thought it would be just plain silly not to try again to introduce Kelly and Dianne to each other!.
I remember inviting Kelly to dinner with Dianne and I and they did talk and they had a great time...and as they say.. “that's all she wrote!”
…It was the perfect timing, their stars were aligned …each had something the other needed.
So speaking of timing, this is your time now & I hope you continue to have those crazy conversation times, listening and talking to one another and MORE happy times. And Kelly, if Dianne ever gets too mad at you...remember she loves ice cream time. I wish you both joy and happiness, but above all of this, I wish you love.
Here's to Dianne and Kelly times! Cheers!
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
Trying for a lower cal day today. I'm on the right track.I am feeling better, but still extremely tired in general this month. My skin is pretty clear this week, just some light pigment changes as the redness goes away from previous breakouts, hormones more normal this week, trying to maintain this by lowering my sugar consumption in evenings and having healthier dinners.
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Home: kombucha 1 serving and also some tonic soda, diet, and ACV 40 cal.
Work: waiting to have a LATE breakfast of wrap 60, cream cheese 80, peanut butter 150, banana 120: 410.
Coffee throughout morning...keeping cals low. 50. (no bar with a later breakfast - i may opt to do this time to time again...)
Lunch: healthy, balanced: it's vegetarian bc the mock meats last longer than real meat in fridge and also bc the place i buy the meals from near me doesn't have meat. & large orange 100 total for lunch not more than 600.
6pm bigger dinner: chips (really after dinner i had chips) 260, potato around 150?, sauteed eggplant 150?, and egg / egg whites 150: 700 or so.
1800-1850, excellent....glad i skipped the morning snack and ate fully healthy today. !!!
glad i stayed away from sugar tonight...really working on not eating so much sugar / dairy. skin is pretty good lately.
2080 5-day avg...as long as my avg stays around this number, all is good. no worries this week!
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
6:30am (maybe a hair too late) Home kombucha that didn't work i'm not sure what i really did wrong? 70, some tonic water, and also seltzer? and i was listening to the music i'm trying to learn...
8am Work: wrap 60, banana 120, cream cheese 80, peanut butter 200: 460
11am and a small Atkins bar and couple sf candies, good. 130
12:45pm lunch around 550-600 i think...lunch was healthy and balanced, but have gas due to not using the bathroom this AM yup...ugh!
4:45 snack before gym: bar and caffeine 100 and earlier was a darn really tasty chocolate from a coworker 50. and an orange 100.
1550
2000 today - good.
2150 4-day avg.
Going to bed sorta annoyed at the day's events.
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P is up in the moutains with no cell service currently...and same with my parents! they are on a cruise with limited service so I haven't received a text from P or my folks in a few days...
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
It was a typical relationship type of thing that happened late in the day with a friend, all is basically ok now.
Home Kombucha 100 cal. :-D was tasty...worked nicely. it was 3 servings (1.5 bottles)
Work 8am: banana 120, wrap 60 with extra cream cheese 150, turkey pepperoni 100?
snack: will def be a bar...130
Lunch: healthy, lower carb and decided to only have an orange for carbs.. turkey with skin 350 at least, roasted greens 150, orange 100. maybe 650.
snack: gave into a HUGE craving for coffee...got the headache and everything...craving caffeine BIG TIME 100 - extra, extra milk
dinner: maybe hot chicken and some veg...or at least staying away from my beloved light ice cream...i may have dessert for dinner - canned pumpkin sweetened and with cinnamon, stevia, cooked cranberries, yogurt...we'll see what i feel like..
dinner was high, but, no sugar...around 700. it was all healthy....extra on rice and chick peas and the rest was sauteed greens / cabbage and mock tofu fish....VERY tasty and a GREAT change of pace from my sugary dinners. Trying to improve my skin.
2100 today.
dentist appt after work & before dinner at 5:15pm...
3-day avg: 2200, good.
I realize i am eating too much sugar (well have been) and i'm working to be a little healthier and at least clear up my skin.
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I am trying to learn all the songs, as much as i can find lyrics to which is most, by Maren Morris so when i take off the two days at the beginning of February around her concert, I can finally ENJOY the FULL CONCERT and sing along to her songs!!!!!!!!!!!! t
his is my challenge to myself this month - learn her songs...I'm doing a good job - made a CD for my car while driving...!...and printed out lyrics for her first CD - there are only 2 CD's i have (bought on AmazonPrime and didn't realize they could have been FREE!)
...anyways, i have the CD's and lyrics....fully prepared to learn the music...feels good to challenge myself and it's fun!
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
I split a bottle of Kervita kombucha with my husband and I can't say I was a fan. I will stick to the green tea.
have a great day.
8am breakfast: wrap 60 with turkey pepperoni 70, potato 100, saag 200?, yogurt with cooked cranberries 200: 650..
10am roasted almonds 150
11am ice cream lol...100, and 30 min later some more almonds 50, tea with monk fruit (friend gave me a sample of this calorie free sweetener) added in.
2pm healthy, larger, lunch: tons of sauteed veggies 300? at least, chicken 100, and chips 150: 550-600.
gym around 3-3:30 till evening. early meal & bed again early tonight.
bigger dinner with little ice cream for dessert (but dinner was healthy sauteed greens and turkey breast cooked with skin on) 600.
total today is still within healthy range and no bingeing: 2150, good.
2day avg: 2250, good.
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Plan is to pick up a lot of prepared food to get me thru this week pretty much and later the gym. No other plans, content just staying home and relaxing...body is demanding it...in some ways i should skip gym...but....as long as i get lots of sleep and everything, the gym should be good for me.
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We had a snowstorm until like 1am last night. I was supposed to drive to visit my grandma but my dad suggested i don't drive there as roads may not be good...i'll take his advice as I still need to run some errands anyways and pick up groceries for this week...and i need to go to the gym today...Lots to do anyways....but not having to drive to grandma's area will save MAJOR time.
Not that i don't want to see her, but lately i am feeling really tired and sleeping a lot. It's the winter season i'm sure. I slept really well last night again. Lately i just want to sleep - but it seems to be really healthy right now for me to get in these extra z's as it's winter and i'm training harder.
Grandma is not alert, by the way. So, it would be nice for me to go see her, but truth is taking care of my own health is much more important at this time.
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
My dad may not understand that - but last night he told me it was ok not to go - so that's what i chose today.
he might be upset in the back of his mind that nobody visited her, but, in the long run, she isn't alert - and i have my health to take care of as I have a MAJOR goal for this summer to achieve....
i don't have a lot of wiggle room this winter for stressful events...lol....but relaxation i have extra room for...sorry for such a strange comment back!
and i am LOVING the extra rest.
I feel happier and happier.
Staying home and relaxing on this snowy day :-D
slept really well :-) yes a sleeping pill, but also yes to treating my body sooo right!
My sleep has improved greatly as I am making way better choices. Slowly also improving my diet, eating, drinking (caffeine) habits too.
9:30am-11am bigger breakfast: large gala apple 100, 3 egg whites and one whole egg around 150 cal, wrap 70, cooked cabbage around 50 mixed into leftover Indian saag (like creamed spinach) 250 at least on the saag, and some chips 250: 870...higher than i was thinking while consuming, but it's brunch. :-D
12:30pm 300 cal snack..1150 or so.
3pm banana and peanut butter on a wrap 400. ice cream 100
1650 :-D
6pm: celery, saag 200?, 1 egg: 300 total...
1950, good...
content on relaxing today, lots of sleeping - fell back to sleep after 12:30pm snack...and doing laundry now finishing it up by 6:30pm = relaxed saturday.!!!
Snack around 7 I think it was - strawberries 100 2050...
total today - 2350, all very tasty :)
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
Home: ACV in seltzer and some tonic water...
Work: wrap 70, banana 130, cream cheese 100, peanut butter 150: 450, and some grean tea.
And a processed but high protein bar which i needed, the peanut butter and stuff is good, but not as satisfying as meat in the AM. 220.
total so far: around 670... nice.
1pm Healthy lunch: low protein (dinner will be chicken over a salad...): lots of veggies for lunch (glad i went food shopping for extra food this week, worked out really well with extra & didn't throw a thing out)...a lot...maybe like 750?
1400???
around 2050 i think...
1930 7-day. decent. better if a little lower, but decent :-D
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Taking a break from walking today & maybe tomorrow also - as i'm recovering from standing yesterday in place for like 3hrs at work in the morning....was good to do...but ankle is still not perfect....is good to have done to see where i was at though :-D
I am feeling great...so nice.
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My skin on my face is doing MUCH, MUCH better already...just by skipping the coffee and the ice cream...I still had a little of my diet soda and stuff...but quanitites have been lessened and skin is definitely healing big time...as my skin is finally clearing up and that feels so wonderful!
Also reasons for clearer skin include more sleep (much more rest), better eating (less sugar), and the extra days off recently (shorter weeks) around holidays and New Year. all is good. I feel GOOD. Also - shorter work hours - no OT. More walking...all these things have contributed to my feeling good right now :-D
Luckily the snow didn't amount to more than a coating. So thankful for that. Now an easier commute along with not needing to shovel the few feet in front of my garage. I may bring the shovel just to get all snow removed so it doesn't freeze over, but it's only a light coating. Yay.
I was debating what to do in terms of my last two sick days that i was trying to save thru the end of March at least one of them. Well, I totally changed my mind about them! In early February I'm seeing a concert in NYC and since it's only a Thursday, I totally decided to take BOTH Thursday and Friday off. I wasn't going to to do this - but right now & especially thru this Winter I MUST take care of my health. And this will be a good way to not get run down!!! So, It'll be a nice 4-day weekend then. :-D And now I have an incentive to really learn of all Maren Morris' songs...
And then in March, when I don't have any days left, I told myself I can take one extra day - no pay - and enjoy one last day off until April when the new days begin again! That's the plan.
One day of no pay isn't going to ruin my bank account and that one day makes me feel so much better about the long month of March.
I'm taking better care of myself than I ever have. It feels really good to do this. I'm not getting sick in the least.
My workouts are good. I keep getting stronger.
My left ankle is getting stronger and so are my legs. I am getting there.
I'm doing really good in my goal to get into the NYPD for this summer! :) Everything is going according to schedule. More walking and getting stronger in my lower body. I feel really good. Better than ever.
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
Still bored / tired at work - but at least that makes sense. :-D
Days off are essential, that is why I left my last job because I couldn't earn enough time off for my needs. I have years with the gov't so I get more hours off, it is a blessing.
What was the previous job? not with the gov't?
Everyone deserves time off for their well-being. It's really sad that not everyone can get it.
1908 6-day average, EXCELLENT!!!!!!!!! To go from almost a 2200 daily avg around New Year's Day to tomorrow around 1900 is pretty good....see!?...stick to your goals...it's managable :-D !!!!
Home 6:30am: seltzer and ACV with stevia some diet tonic. did the trick :)
Office : banana 120, whipped cream cheese 80, wrap 70, peanut butter 160 430 excellent and green tea. not in a meat mood today. but whipped cream cheese and peanut butter was awesome, duh!
snack: bar 150. protein bar
lunch: to be healthy... had some basmati rice 150?, some roasted sweet potato 50?, some roasted okra 100, some veggie chicken with a few veggies (all leftovers and tasty!) 250? around 550-600 for lunch. oh and the clementine, calories included.
before gym: Red Velvet Pasty Crisps (Special K) 100 and caffeine
1250
Home: protein muffin 220 with squash 100 & yogurt 100: 420.. (stevia added to squash).
around 1650-1700 :)
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
1500 I did before my sister's wedding & lost a lot with that average for a week...
...but for me to maintain a low weight (and i really don't have much muscle in lower body) of 115-120lbs, I can eat 1800 and not have a problem with maintenance. Even 1900 seems to be possibly alright to maintain.
You do not need drastic reductions...and...i find that after a binge day, it's hard to eat much lower the following day...work your way into it - as you said - I agree with you.
1950 5-day avg and today was a healthy day and far less sugar and caffeine = success.
Here at the office doing my 'thang. Feeling decent despite a lack of sleep. It was the caffeine but i am not worried in the least as tonight I'll get adequate sleep to keep on going.
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6:30am Home: some seltzer and some diet tonic water in my fridge - no need for ACV / kombucha or any other probiotic
8:30am breakfast: banana 120, wrap 70 with extra cream cheese 100 and turkey pepperoni 100: 400, decent.
snack: bar 200.
1pm lunch: had the full veggie salad with a hair of dressing 150?, and more kale 100?, little bits of beef 100? seriously small amount, and small amount of roasted sweet potato like 100 really! total here: 450-500. NO CAFFEINE except green tea today. good...
snack: clementine 50 - maybe on way home and if it's nice, I will do some walking...
Dinner was totally healthy - but around 700 calories. No added sugars or fake things - except for tofu chicken and some tofu. also included cashews, some white basmati rice and veggies sauteed in some oil - all leftovers.
total today is good - 1850 - success :-D need to get off the quick fix dinners and eat healthier meals which i am starting to do...it helps to have enough already prepared at home. so i will be doing more of this. What i grabbed was one of the lunches i made for this week...so now i must put together another lunch :-D maybe i'll cook some eggs either tonight or tomorrow night to add to friday's lunch since i need a good protein source since i already ate friday's meal tonight! was tasty!
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Looking to relax and really want a brazilian wax...i'll go after work at 4:30...it's extremely cheap a block from my office - $20 - versus $35-$50 other spots in Queens. GREAT DEAL. so even with a $10 tip, i'll only pay $30...i like to be waxed and it's been too long which is why i'm going...last time was?....hmm....gotta think about that one. def at least 2 months i think??? would like to go at lunch take an hour and leave at 5pm...yep....instead of 4:30...yup sounds GREAT...must also get cash from supermarket before that....all done :)
Wax was GREAT. She took long but she did a nice job for half price! NICE! I always tip her $10 which is 50%. Love her!
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Feeling very good this week in general - 3-day weekends are NICE! March will be hard for me...but...i did plan for one 3-day weekend so that should really suffice.
There's something in early February i have plans for - on a Thursday early evening it starts in NYC. It's a country concert. I would have liked to take the Thursday & Friday off so that I could get home late that Thursday (which i still will get home late) and sleep in & stuff...but it's a no go.
I need my days (2 left) to last till end of March..so i have to choose which day i want to take off - that Thursday or that Friday the day after the concert.
I might actually take the Thursday to sleep in before the concert! Especially if i end up meeting up with friends before - or i can simly relax Thursday?. Then I'd have to show up to work that Friday...but only one day before the weekend. Gotta think about it. Most people would say take off Friday but I prefer Thursday so I don't need to be up all day & night and also then I can dress up a little for the concert Thursday & feel my best...we'll see :-D
AND MAYBE I WILL JUST TAKE BOTH THE 2 DAYS AND CALL IT A LONG A$$ WEEKEND...BUT THEN MARCH WILL BE LONGGG. LOL. ONE DAY, YEP, THAT'S ENOUGH.
Progress as of today: 1.4 lbs lost so far, only 3.6 lbs to go!
Home: a lot of ACV but didn’t work bc I ate dinner lil later than expected. Really nice to eat a crab cake as well as half a 6oz filet minon. Good to get the real protein in me and natural food last night, thanks to my coworker.
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8:30am work: banana 120, wrap 70 with cream cheese 100, lox 50: 350., green tea throughout morning, 2 cups, no sugar no equal.
11am very hungry! Snack: very low sugar bar, 230 cal. high protein and decent fat. natural type of bar - i may buy these on Amazon - they are good.
1pm - Lunch: healthy – some starch (few chunks of roasted sweet potato! tasted great!) some meat (tiny portion of around 1.5oz filet minon leftovers the other half will be tomorrow!) in a bit of oil some oil:500? - if I finish it.
(I am going to def work on eating better in 2017, LESS
Before gym: small bar 100, smaller amount of caffeine...I am doing well...i can do this...i can do it all :-D
1650, good. :-)
4day: 1972 good :-)
I have no choice but to make the right choice – I am laying off all equal and Monster energy drinks until Friday because my skin is inflamed and breaking out too much in whiteheads which is full-out inflammation. I sorta need to fix this problem since I am an adult….perhaps I should start facing the problem like an adult. Either way, I am not going to drink the Monster Energy drinks but still drinking caffeine in a couple different forms this week. I’m going to LESSEN the bad stuff, see if it helps, versus lay off everything bad which would be a bit of a nuisance as it would really mess with just about everything I eat. Ohhh – I am also not going to have any ice cream this week until Friday. There’s a lot of sugar in it when I eat the whole pint (around 20g) which can be affecting my acne also – in addition to it being a milk product.
So, I will see on Friday if there’s any change in inflammation by not having the Monster drinks, less caffeine, and no Halo Top Ice Cream. I do need to clear up my skin.
all this stuff messes with skin...these toxins and additives in our food...they come out our skin...our largest organ...so bad :/
Yeah, as a teen i had few in high school though in college i sometimes had bad ones due to late hours and bad eating habits. but the worst acne i ever had was now.
i know i need to eat better...that's a main culprit right now. Already my skin is getting a little better in just a few days of having LESS. Not NONE, but LESS.
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Thank you...thank you! I appreciate your time and your ideas.
yeah, if you want you can save my ideas and i'll delete them from here...if you want!
and it's only my ideas, not right nor wrong...
YOU DID A NICE JOB INNERP!!!!
it's hard to write these types of things! very hard.