nobody's been on to journal except for myself and Happy....all week this site has been a ghost town!
Especially with BCGG gone, fixing her computer! :(
The last entry of anyone else was Donkey all the way on 7/23! lol everyone is missed!!!
Total today is 2000 cal :-)
7day avg = 2050, perfect!
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I slept many hours (around 10 or a little bit over 10 hours) from around 7:30pm to 5:30m - my body feels a bit better, legs are not sore anymore. It feels good to be able to rest a bit more during the week, before the weekend - so that i can exercise tonight on Friday and not feel like i've been run over by a tractor trailer !!!!
Plan is for 2 beach days next week (using sick days)...on Monday & Tuesday assuming weather is warm & Sunny.
Because that IS the weather as of now! Might as well take a "STAYCATION" while it's free nice weather in my area! Time to splurge and take the days.
I have 5 sicks days and was planning not to use any - but - i cannot wait to just use them in December, here, before the academy. So, I'm enjoying the time now. I can try to increase my savings / stop contributing to 401k - closer to when i leave this job so that i have my cash before academy, maybe. haven't decided what i'm doing for my time off before academy when i don't want to be working...
I was planning to spend little of my 5 sick and 10 vacation days, but, i was tempted to take a few beach days this summer (when it's a regular weekend it's hard to fit in....) and also tempted to do a couple short trips this fall - hey, part of life is living in.
I do not know of any vacations once i'll be in academy - meaning - i don't know who i'll be making friends with there, i will not be working with my current close friend Jen anymore...i don't know how or where live will take me come 2017.
So with my current good friends near and far i'm enjoying some vaca and living life time now. Late September i'm going to Columbia with a friend who lives in Fort Lauderdale, FL and in Mid-October i'm going to Vegas with my current good friend and co-worker, Jen. both trips are well UNDER a week, more like 4 days long each. And they are what make life worth living! If not for these couple vacations, i wouldn't have gone anywhere since last October...and that's NOT ok with me. I want to live life, I'll be 35 by those vacations...and it's important to me to do things if i can!
Then, i'll be in academy from Jan '18 thru June '18. After that will be the important probationary period and first time as a cop starting like June '18. I'll need to be working hard and tough! It will be hard work. I cannot think of vacationing till after the first year fully has passed - January '19. That's why I am vacationing now....living :)
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Morning: kombucha and probiotic drink 120
Breakfast: wrap with spread 250, coffee 50, banana 130
Snack? almonds, 120. candies 30.
Lunch (healthy of course) 500 tops. 100 cal crackers, 100 cal chicken sausage, 300 cal tops for veggies sauteed.
3pm extra snack 100
Snack before GYM: no cal drink and granola bar.
1400...
After Gym:
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Must play with Hammy GB tonight a little bit...and then bed early without a pill (better to refrain since i did it last night)....not good to take it multiple days in a row...as even coworker advised me not to...i explained the are OTC and not rx types...he thought i was taking an rx i said no, it's just something to help me get rest when i do not sleep that well the rest of the week do to a busy schedule & simply not enough time to sleep each night as much as i'd like.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Home: kombucha 80
Work: wrap 100 with protein tasty spreads 200, coffee 50, banana 120
11am: almonds
lunch i splurged too much white rice and too much saucy veg and a small chicken sausage. at least 700 lunch.
1450...and tired now...going home and bed early. need to buy only bananas tonight.
peach 100
sauteed broccoli 250, plum 50, chips 150 = 450, more chips50
2050
And kombucha 2100.no exercise, bed early. no hamster.
6 day average 2000 per day :) extremely good !!
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Taking lunch at desk, leaving at 4pm, taking sleeping pill on way home, bed early tonight. that's the plan. no hamster playtime tonight.
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I was supposed to go to a concert with my friend tonight but turns out i am once again too tired during the week. I asked him to go last night...and then cancelled on him today....ugh....just tired...my ankle is strained and i need sleep.
i'm taking a sleeping pill relatively even before i get home - and sleeping VERY EARLY. not going to play with hamster tonight - too tired and need sleep before gym tomorrow as well as a full day of work from 8am-5pm unlike my F-ing boss who works like half the fridays of summer and leaves early on the other half. it's soooo damnnnnn annoying.....like he's the only busy one with a life huh!? he's so stupid bc i doubt he realizes that the rest of us also have lives we want to live. A$$HOLE.
I am really feeling run down and pissed off. Will be taking 2 sick days during the summer to go to the beach bc i am starting to just not enjoying this working every single day of summer type of schedule! Everyone's taking days and it's annoying.
I have one boss who never works a full week and is able to come late and leave early as he pleases to have a life outside work during the week / weekends while people such as myself are struggling just to fit the dang gym in....he goes to the gym, leaving early while i'm STILL at work.
It's BS and I realize being boss means exactly that...and i am not boss....but i'm not fully ok with my work / life schedule and i will have to take a couple dang days off...bc i am starting to feel royally angry with the situation.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Home: kombucha 80
Breakfast: wrap 100, cookie dough protein spread 200, banana 120, coffee 50.
total above: 550
snack: 200 almonds
lunch: matzah 150, chicken sausage patty 100, too many veggies in sauce 500
snack before jogging at Queens College Track:200 (fruit during work, granola bar before jog)
Dinner:butter popcorn 160, egg 70, sauteed brussel sprouts with garlic 150? 400? plum. 50.
2150, good.
1980 5-day, good.
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Reading my book at lunch... :-)
went walking during some of lunch
Jogging after work in eve! good jogging/walking today...i still suck but it was a success still! still doing 8 laps (2mi)
And Feeling Happy :-P
Loving my boy Hamster, his name is GB (Gym Boy) and is a goooooood baby. Never attempts a bite. He's such a darling fellow. A tan color and sweet baby boy! His hairy coat has gotten very long and he's almost to his full size. He's approx 12 weeks or 3 months. By 4 months they are full size. So he's almost there.
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Been a BORING day at work but i guess BORING is better than stressful....just looking to get better at running & have a good run / walk tonight...perfect weather for it - 75 degrees and sunny.
Taking MONDAY OFF from work as a SICK DAY...to go to the beach with my older friend RICKY that i hang out with very often these days. We're going to a quieter beach where he can play guitar and i can tan and read.
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Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Home: kombucha 100
Work: wrap 80 with spread 200, banana 120, coffee 50
snack: nice almonds 160
lunch: healthy: lots of nice veg i'll tell you that much, with a small chicken sausage 100 cal., and either chips or crackers, more possible that it's potato chips (yes the salt and vinegar variety from vending machine - lately craving more carbs) 600 tops and an orange 90.
snack before GYM wahoo! a probably 100 cal bar, maybe slightly bigger.
after gym: cookie (protein type) and banana 500
2000 today, excellent.
4day average:1940, exellent.
VERY BUSY and not on computer at work as much, i do plan to reply to EVERYONE'S COMMENTS....including you, Ms. Biscotti!
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Reading my book at lunch, it's interesting!
Still slightly run down but just trying to relax it out...and just moody. not sure why as i'm def NOT PMSing this week. So i don't know.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
If you want an EXTREMELY powerful one, my next favorite, but it's very strong so only drink half (although i admit to many times drinking full bottle, yeah) - that brand is KEVITA. but for this brand, the powerful drinks are only those that say kombucha, not the tonics or other options with the Kevita brand.
Exhausted this AM at work. Rather go back to sleep. Big time! Ah well.
Home: kombucha 50
8:30am breakfast: banana 120, wrap with a new spread i bought for fun chocolate protein made with stevia and turns into a muffin, i should microwave tomorrow. 280. coffee 50.
Snack: idk...not sure. i just know i'm tired. went to bed midnght. and i forgot my book that i've been reading so i will read it tonight, not at lunch today like i enjoy doing. it's ok... lots of almonds 200 (also reached for an energy drink - went next door to the gym to buy it...ugh!)
Lunch: very healthy and light: chips 240 (regular lays), lots of sauteed veg 200? (healthy mix) and 1 egg/egg white 100: 55-600
Snack: possibly a homemade cookie from coworker...feeling low energy and like i need a major carb boost.
250 big cookie snack - even falling asleep after a cookie, sh*t. Yup need more rest.
1550 before dinner and then bed early. Looking to have veggies.
Dinner: not sure but sure i'm sleeping early! light. 400 cal.
1950 max. thankfully.
3day: 1925 average.
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Hamster's cage is all clean and beautiful. that's what mostly kept me up last night, lol. but it didn't smell too bad this week bc i was cleaning soiled parts a bit throughout the week, adding fresh bedding to the soiled areas when i removed bits and pieces. worked out better. can't wait to try the new bedding this week that i bought, a much better deal on Amazon. Huge bags and for half the price.
I know i cannot take any days off...so how should i calm myself down? Any tips on relaxation more? Typical i just like my alone time and that works well enough..
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
i like to hear feedback no matter what so thank you BCGG!
Congrats on the running! I know this is a huge deal for you!
If you're taking a benzo, not taking it could give you a rebound effect. I swear by chelated magnesium (Country Life--not the mins--just the 250mg), but you could try another.
Tylenol on its own is just a pain killer. What people generally do is start taking the Tylenol (or generic) PM, which has Benadryl/diphenhydramine and that's what knocks you out. Sleepinal is just plain Benadryl/diphenhydramine. Using Tylenol when you don't have pain isn't good. Too much Tylenol is bad for the liver.
Herbert Benson and his Relaxation Response (pretty famous):
http://tinyurl.com/odgbcm7
This is getting long, but I saw an entry where you mentioned cutting back caffeine. Good to figure out your limits, what time to cut it off during the day, etc. Unless you can just never use it at all.
Thank you soooo very much as always for the genuine and helpful as well as smart comments here!
i do take an anxiety medicine but i don't want to get up to read the bottle name...I'm not sure it's a benzo but it could be similar substance. will have to look later when i'm not on a time constraint getting ready for work. drinking kombucha now on couch.... anyways, i forgot to take it one day on the weekend, and maybe that's the reason i was feeling out of sorts on Monday. i don't know....could have been a rebound.
So you are saying that chelated magnesium makes you feel better when you feel low?
I do love Sleepinal as it's quite powerful and has a pretty high dose of drug to it. i have realized that compared to other brands, sleepinal is sometimes double the strength (25mg in other brands vs i believe 50mg in sleepinal!). eh, at least i don't take it all the time!
As i cut the caffeine, my skin clears. this is really why i do it - and i get better sleep....especially when i cut the energy drinks with all those extra chemicals (sf monster drinks are gone from my diet). i had some of an energy drink for the first time in a couple weeks at least on Monday...it did affect my skin already.
i'll look up the Herbert Benson Relaxation Response. TY!
I hope you are feeling better....I wonder when you will write an entry again! So good to hear from you, BB!
TODAY - I RAN 1.5MI WITHOUT STOPPING - 1ST TIME IN FIVE YEARS! PROB TOOK AROUND 20-25 MIN?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HUGE SUCCESS IN MY TRAINING!!!!!!!
1st breakfast 9am - Fiber 1 cereal 200 tops and almond milk 30 and boy have my tastes changed....i didn't even finish it. oh, added cinnamon to the cereal. i'm glad i no longer have the same tastes. def becoming a bit healthier. and a little kevita probiotic drink 30. total here around 250.
2nd breakfast 10am: wrap 80 with pb 200 and sf jelly: 280...say 300.
1:30pm light meal and snacks after the massage - light snacks after add up to no more than 500 cal total throughout afternoon! and some caffeine, a natural (moreso) drink zero cal...now off to jog at the college track by me!
1050 so far today = going to be another nice and moderate day, equaling out to a very nice & moderate weekend (just what the dr ordered). I'll prob have a rest day Monday...
early dinner: tons of veg / mushrooms mostly 250, rice crisps 3 servings 330, egg and egg white 100, ..... + fruit 800 tops.
1850, success
2 DAY AVERAGE: 1900, EXCELLENT!
I will comment on all your entries later...!!!!! just been out a lot of the weekend doing my personal things :-)
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My massage with a female massage therapist ended up being 1.5 hours of HEAVEN so great! I'll go back to her, for sure! she's gooood & experienced. Just what i was hoping for....AND MORE - i didn't expect someone as good as her.
Got lucky, again, at Massage Envy (i've been to many locations and have names of great massage therapists at each one...some are not as good, but i know of good ones all around me! - individual therapists, i mean!) .
Lots of good therapists there, in general, at ME (massage envy) but you've got to be willing to try them all out in order to find the best of the best!!!!
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laundry is almost done by 10am...then going to ANOTHER massage since i have many prepaids i didn't use bc i usually skip many months and then go very often ;-) when i finally find the time i want to spend there and with the therapist i want...but...today i'm seeing a woman therapist bc that was all that was available but i hope she'll do a good job (i prefer male therapists!).
picking up most of the food for the week at a store i don't usually go to after the massage since i'll be in an area i don't usually go to it'll be nice to have slightly different mix of food this week!
and i will be jogging today back close to home :-)
day will be almost done by the time my jog is over....and i'm enjoying reading a new book.
nice, quiet weekend at home...wish it could have gone on longer because i needed this!
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
and they always amaze me!
Happy Saturday !
7:30am breakfast: oatmeal w. almond milk 200, banana and honey 200, stevia and cinnamon, peanut butter 150. 550 & yum! And kombucha 50 600.
Big lunch from 1:30-2pm: out to eat at a fast food mexican place called Moe's loved it - salad with to s of veggies (onions, peppers, salsa, mushrooms) 350?, pulled pork 250?, small amount rice 100, guacamole at least 100 Had a lot very filling and healthy aside from too many calories 800. 1400 of healthy goodness craving caffeine but not doing that and hoping to get in a jog later in evening.
Going home now at 2pm to relax and read for some of the afternoon.
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Chips and cookie 320
1720 ....tasty man. And a very natural bar 230.
Total today is 1950 at 4pm. I am going to bed as soon as this pill kicks in and until then I am reading. Was a relaxing day! And my decision is jogging tomorrow !
Just chilling today. Really tired maybe bed by 7:30pm even.
Got an awesome massage oh yes. Shopped at some discount stores but spent a lot lol around $100 but it's a LOT of stuff for that $100.
I was thinking I needed to jog today but I did it 2x already last week ! And gym was also done twice last week! Taking a rest day for the rest of today and I am very glad I didn't drink caffeine bc now I'll take a sleeping pill and go to bed early. Tomorrow another massage as I have 6 HOURS of prep aids to use up bc I skip many months at a time ! So tomorrow is a massage and then Jogging for this week starts tomorrow & on Monday I'll prob have a rest day.:). I enjoy my rest days after jogging!
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
550 with usual drink and breakfast, candies
snack: ? almonds 200
750 before lunch...
Lunch: 650
snack at work baby shower 2 chocolate covered strawberries 100
snack before gym: big chocolate chip cookie :-) made by my boss' 20 year old son! LOL...it looks too good! 200.
1700 before gym
after gym: trying to keep it light :)
2200 today and weekly average I am happy with 2080 per day!
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i am actually anxious today…I am feeling tired bc it’s Friday and I just wanna be home but I have the gym….I guess I’m trying to store up some energy to go to gym and finish work – it’s actually pretty easy. I reached for caffeine for the first time in a LONG time (probably 2 weeks since last energy drink?). It does no good for me…and thankfully my skin is MUCH improved to do my decreased consumption. I reached for the caffeine bc I feel like it’ll improve mymood….do you think it will?
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Gym after work which I'm happy about. Starting a new book at lunch - another motivational / growth book.
Happy plans for the weekend by myself not with the guy this weekend. Looking for a slower weekend to catch up on my personal needs - gym / jogging
Can't wait to sleep early tonight....and can't wait to sleep in LATE on SUNDAY!
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Home: kombucha 60
Breakfast: small banana and wrap 200, pb 200, sf jelly, coffee 50. 450.
Big snck of almonds lol 210, few candies also 30
750 before late HEALTHY lunch....lately my mood is bad, maybe i need more carbs? 500 all healthy.
1250 after nice lunch...
dinner with dad tonight...then putting up the rest of my blinds starting around 7pm with my dad and his friend...hopefully done by 8pm...hopefully! :-P
1350 after sunflower granola bar snack @ 4pm feeling sluggish and so i reached for something to pick me up!
Dinner tonight with dad and planning on I really don't know - maybe soup and lots of veggies ..
2150 total.
2060 6-day average :-P Happy about that!
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need to get waxed today during lunch break as well as finish my book...got just a few pages left :)
dinner with dad tonight and then his friend is coming over also bc finally i'm putting up my blinds after living in an apt with practically no blinds up for 1.5 MONTHS! because it was hard to plan that and also had to wait for walls to be fixed after the window guys accidentally destroyed the wall plastering. many people in my apt bldg had this happen so i had to wait a few weeks for them to fix that...and that was mid june....and now i waited an extra month for the blinds lol bc i had to plan it with me, my dad & his friend and a FREE NIGHT during the weeknights lol when i didn't have any gym or other important plans. LOL.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
And my mom always wants the best for me...for that i am grateful too. And she is very giving although she is not very capable of showing love due to her own difficult life as a child.
650 with all my usuals meals / snacks leading up to healthy lunch.
1pm lunch:600
snacking cookies 160
dinner: wrap 80, avocado 160, stir fried wheat gluten / seitan 250? 480 oh and some potato 100. 600.
2200...will have some chips now too...and an orange. :-P
5day average:EXCELLENT at 2040 per day.
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During lunch - it will include nice reading outside on the steps of a church by work where there is shade! as it's close to 90F today but the shade will be comfortable on the steps of the church. It's a few short blocks from work, perfect place to go and sit...I'm not the only one and sometimes there's company by me. Not too many folks, but decent and it's nice over there on a busy road but not loud and traffic going by...it's relaxing to be outside in that location during lunch!
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Jogging at Queens College today on their track after work - I'm changing in the work bathroom so that i do NOT have to stop home or anywhere before driving DIRECT to the park. SAVES TIME & is MORE CONVENIENT. And decreases my appetite from actually being in my apt full of temptations when i already have good snacks with me & do NOT need anymore before the jog :) better to change at work (after work) but here in the bathroom and leave for the track straight away! :-P
did a 2 mi walk / jog....first half was tons of jogging, 2mi was really, really sucky. mostly walking.
Progress as of today: 2 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
80's are def preferred tho! but after sitting in a freezing office, i love going out in the heat for lunch!
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Well done! And I agree that you should try to take advantage of time off now, because once you are in the Academy, you probably won't be able to get time off for a while... Lately though, I've had family members who have started new jobs and get time off after a month or two -- I must be in the wrong business because I have ALWAYS had to work 6 months (or more) before getting vacation time.
I haven't contributed as much this month -- I'm afraid I've turned into a basketcase this month. I'll comment more on my diary, but just haven't seemed to get it together. That and the lack of feedback is kind of discouraging.