hello all :)
Woke up 4am for my trip...since last night i ended up going to bed around 8 (although i seriously believe it was more like 7:30?) and wanting a little alone time, drink my kombucha, relax & finish packing before trip :)
Getting picked up by car to airport at 7:10am....
Flight at 8:50am!
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Definitely some kombucha this AM...and seltzer with stevia..
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Thankful that I had my "woman's thing" start on Monday and night today or anything else. Much easier for traveling & especially the hiking and walking around a lot is not good on the heavy days...so now i'm really good to go! :) all is good. so happy for some new experiences. !!!
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I'll be in Texas from today till Monday morning when we leave & back here Monday 5:30pm landing.
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I am not sure if i will post here, maybe not. I may still count calories, but maybe not....i will maybe track somewhere on my phone but just looking to have a good trip.
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Much love to this site & will prob not comment on your entries till I'm back!
1825 6 day
2500 today.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Home: 30 cal (sparkling probiotic vinegar drink)
Work: wrap 100, cream cheese 100, salami 100. banana 120. 420. Monster energy drink.
Bar.150 tasty. had it for awhile glad to have it....was in my desk like...many months! maybe even 6 mos!
600...
1pm lunch: around 500 and decently balanced.
1100 before going home. I really want to go to bed early & maybe just pack in the morning. really. i'm tired. I may go to bed exceedingly early and just wake up mad early to pack...nah....i'll get it done tonight...and BEFORE dinner no matter what.
450 dinner.
1550, really tired. mostly packed....
going to bed early, NOW....not even 7pm. I'll wake up early to pack the rest.
Calorie Avg: 1690 5-day.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
I am still upset by my best friend & that we aren't anymore, despite that it was my own doing in ending it and it must feel worse on her end than mine. it's so sad. I feel quite a bit like a piece of myself is gone. but it is what it is....life does go on....and i only have the option to go up from here...only up. 
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I woke up a bit earlier to relax and have the kombcuha = GREAT idea. 60 cal.
Work: bigger banana 150, decaf with milk i think...
wrap with cream cheese and salami 300...not so hungry really for food right now.
BAR 150
big LUNCH: POPCORN 100, SEAWEED SALAD LIKE 50-100, CALAMARI SALAD LIKE 50, SAUCE ON CABBAGE 200? 550 MOST.
SNACK BEFORE GYM (DECIDING NOT TO SKIP GYM) 150
AFTER GYM: 300
total - 1650 :) great :)
1720 4-day..
BED WHENEVER I DO. PACKING TOMORROW AFTER WORK - LEAVING EARLY AT 3PM. WHICH IS HELPING ME FEEL BETTER ABOUT MAKING IT TO THE GYM TONIGHT...OTHERWISE, (SORRY ABOUT CAPS, I WAS USING THEM AT WORK...)...anyways, i was starting to feel extremely anxious about my schedule from work to packing to being picked up at 7am by taxi and now i feel a TON better by getting out of work 3pm instead of 4:30 tomorrow. i can pack when i get home, have dinner, go to bed....looking to get sleep before the trip....if i can. and if i don't - so be it :)
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Little anxious for my trip....sorta wishing to leave early tomorrow from work, which i just may have to? i dont feel right about going home, rushing to pack and rushing to bed...but then again, i guess it's my job to be at work....during work hours...i'll just have to put up with it...
very rushed way of going on trip, but then again, i could have packed more on weekend! LOL...i guess....but who does this, not I!
i will be taking a taxi to the airport at 7am on Thursday morning. flight is at 8:50am. I'm 10 min only from the airport! = awesome.
I may ask to leave at 3pm tomorrow...as i really don't want to rush like a freaking maniac before this trip....i will be asking later today to leave tomorrow at 3pm. It will be a MAJOR help so that i can pack & go to bed early before getting up extra early Thursday. I need to do this, i will feel better about the whole thing.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Looking forward to Texas trip - leaving Thursday morning.
Kombucha and seltzer with stevia 60
Work: banana 120, green tea, wrap 100 with salami 100, cream cheese 100. Coffee 50
approx 250.
snack: Bar 200. mostly protein, didn't love it. lately, not enjoying my bars as much as i used to at work...may be finally time for change. ?
I am trying to stay light on cals before trip. or at least today.
lunch: sorta big, good though. some heavy cream sauce but not much ... 150 tops? over cauliflower rice 100 tops, salami 100 tops, cooked veggies light sauce 100-150tops. 500-550 of stuff...excellent.
1,000.- so far before leaving work.
today's plan after work: drop off health forms at union hall near my place, pick up Rx, home after. :-D
snack on way home: plum 50.
1050...
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
I wrote something about a high possibility of losing a major friendship i have had with what used to be my best friend of 12 years. getting thru it. very sad. I honestly would rather not have any "hate" for her. I don't. If my friends invite both her and i out, i will still go...my previous entry if you want to read / give any advice. it's pulling a bit at my heart and it is sad for me.
Anyways.
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9am late breakfast: 500.
snacking: strawberries 150 (entire quart) they were getting old, had them probably 2 weeks in back of my fridge. :) still tasted great though.
650...trying to remember if i ate something else but no, i don't think so...
Snack before gym 300 950
Big but balanced dinner: probably 700 tops.
1650 today, excellent.
2-day average: 1850
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i have already done laundry and starting to think about my trip more. i don't need to go food shopping at all - got enough for these 3 days till i go on the trip i'd say..maybe some extra cooked veggies (but seasoned / sauced) might be nice though. i may get a minimal amount, yes. but that's it. and possibly some strong kombucha - for the morning before i go on this trip...but this is it. no major food shopping. some bananas could be nice also lol...so i guess a small food shopping today could be good...maybe on way home from gym, we'll see. plans are minimal this weekend on purpose. i wanted to relax before this trip since after it i'll be taking one day off & then back to work as scheduled for most of the winter. so just resting and relaxing as i had intended and it feels good...
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
It will be my first "longer trip" since 2012. LOL. I am so thankful & happy with the direction of my life.
late 9am breakfast - 550 cal.
snacking: banana, chips 250.
late 2:30pm lunch: wrap 100 with lox 50, cream cheese 100, some marinated veggies 100 max. total here (man that lox is so gross, trying not to buy that brand again!) 350.
1150.
100 cal apple
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Actually around 2050 today. Good.
Was on phone with my friend Renee and we planned the rest of our Texas trip for next week.
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On a sad side note, after 12 years, I have ended my friendship with my best friend. We had a big argument to end it yesterday. Lately, I was feeling too responsible for her life, etc, and there were arguments more and more. I was starting to view her as being too negative, etc. I am no longer friends with this person, who used to hold a huge importance and value in my life. It's a void now that isn't full yet....
I had told her that i felt she was thinking too negatively...i said it bluntly in a text and over a message and i didn't sugar coat how i felt.
Her response was that i need to get off my high horse, back down to reality. See all my failures, failure at teaching (which i truly don't like thinking about - and it hurts for her to remind me!), told me i'm not grateful for everything my father has given to me (he gave me a car, helped me out immensely with my apt, and helped me get a job)...she told me i am ungrateful for this...she told me I embarass my father at every chance i get...that i live in a fantasy world.
I decided that if she is my friend, she couldn't possibly say those things to me when i am simply telling her that life isn't all lemons (meaning her life has good in it that she is overlooking!)....she totally opened my life up to me telling me all that was / is wrong in my own life! (this was how she responded to me)
I don't know why except to make herself feel better?
I think that what used to be my best friend is simply not a good person. I don't even think she really is that nice at all?
I had shared a ton with her, gave her all new experiences. She gave me nothing really.
Maybe we grew apart?
I am not saying that everything i said to her was great, or that i never complained to her, no, but....i don't know if being friends with someone who views me as unable to take care of myself is the type of friend i ever need to have again.
she told me that i'll get what i want now...to be alone, miserable, and a hermit.
Her words were stone cold. So strong and mean. I don't owe her my friendship...and certainly not to someone who doesn't want the best for me. It seems that she wants me to join her in her struggles? so confused.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Perhaps she is resentful of your blessings, but you can't help how she feels. That's up to her to decide if she can look past that and appreciate your friendship for what it is or not. Apparently, at this time she cannot, as evidenced by what she said to you.
So you've struggled to figure out what path to take in life, and you've been blessed enough to have a parent who is able to and does help you out. I don't believe for one minute that you aren't grateful for your blessings.
Give it some time and see if things will heal over. It might be that this friendship has come to a natural end and it's time to move on.
I forgot most of my lunch at home bc i didn't pack it lol...at least i packed breakfast! and caffeine!
Home in morning early: cranberry kombucha & some leftover seltzer with stevia that was sitting out. 60.
Breakfast at work: coffee 50, wrap 100 with cream cheese 100 and lox 50. 300.
350 or so. good!
snack: ? bigger banana 150.
2nd snack at noon: cupcake flavor high protein bar, actually a decent flavor. 150
650. excellent.
lunch: not sure - Indian & leftovers. (ordered with a coworker and even trying a new dish - fenugreek leaves). little too creamy, but good food. 200 for the Shrimp dish and 300 at least for the cream dish ugh...and some veggies 50. gonna estimate lunch was 700 tops. and there was a hair of rice too. 100.
1350, decent.
dinner: out & not sure? friend cancelled and very happy about it because it was a last minute thing anyways and i wanted to go home after work. yay to easier day! going on vacation next week so i wasn't in mood to party at all this weekend. dinner will be LIGHT. so FULL!
evening at home: food that i have at home. no need to buy anything.
so happy i'm not going out tonight to the bar!!!!! so happy. still need to plan a few things with the trip.
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
1875 5-day = excellent.
Weight is still right around 115. excellent. This is the best I've maintained probably forever in my adult life. When i was much younger (21 thru 24 or so years old) I maintained a hair lower at 112...but far less muscle mass. I am far healthier now based on upper body strength. Working on my lower body now!
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Back to work & feeling more relaxed than I've been in a long time!!
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Impatient and want my notary test results...should come in mid week of the last week of October!
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6am: Kombucha 50, seltzer with stevia (maybe should have skipped kombucha today...)
8am: wrap 100 with cream cheese 100 and lox 50, banana 120, later coffee 50.
Snack: 150 mostly fat / lower sugar, low protein. tasty!
Lunch: healthy, not more than 500.
1150 before end of workday.
snack before gym: special k snack 100, caffeine / soda
after gym: TBD, maybe jello and ice cream. up to 500 after gym, little extra. good.
1750 today = excellent!
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
1900 5-day. Fine!
6am early: kombucha 70. New flavor because i was at a store i don't go to much on my drive home from work and saw this brand i like & a lovely new flavor called Dragonfruit Lemongrass. Quite excellent! This brand is the strongest. Now i remember why i love it so much. Clears your system out quite well in the AM! sorry if it's TMI. I sometimes have issues with this part of my life, so it feels good to be able to control things & get things done before the day actually starts and i leave my apt. Really sorry if it's too much for you to read?...
7:45 after reviewing some notes for test - BREAKFAST. wrap 100 with lox 100 and cream cheese 100. small banana 100. some caffeine.
60 cal in candies 550, later a protein bar 750....
I did get home around 3pm :)
late lunch, bigger, at 3pm: leftover from Monday egg white oily omelette 150?, cabbage 50, leftover saag 150?, chips 150, plum 50. 550-600.
also snacking: cabbage slaw, small amount 100, seaweed salad small amount 100, and roasted veggie stuff 250? 450?
total so far: 1800...this may be it for tonight. i took a sleeping pill at 6pm (just now) and hope to get some good sleep - i need it. Last night i was up on & off thinking about the tests - which is fine :-D
little more - 7:30pm: Quest bar in Oatmeal chocolate chip. 200 cal.
total today is quite fine: 2000 cal :-D GOOD.
They were hard still, but i feel so much better about it this time. The first test was EASIER than the second. Each 40 question test took me 20 minutes. I took a walk inbetween the tests! One was at 9:30am and the other at 11am. I was happy to be outta there around 11:30am.
So i went to the dermatologist but was an hour early and she was at lunch. So, i actually went to Aerosoles and bought boots. LOL. i have no money but, I don't know, now I have some for winter. I didn't own any "nice dress up" boots. Now i can wear them instead of sneakers always. I'm happy to start wearing boots as my legs are getting so much better each day and week. Happy.
I also get the slaw, seaweed and roasted veggie mix also right near aerosoles and the dematologist (huge shopping center / strip mall outdoors...) nice area.
I also then on the way home from the derm I put air in my tires and vacummed my car. After the late lunch, I did some laundry.
Happy to be home now & resting :-D
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I ended up relaxing last night & staying up a bit late. Not too much studying going on - more like web surfing. I have studied other days beforehand. There was no sleeping pill because i got home later than expected - and i didn't want to be groggy for the morning test...and that's ok!
Anyways, I went to bed around 11pm and due to thinking about this test, I was up early just my own body wanting me up and reviewing for the tests later. I feel that I DO know the material well enough to pass this test this time around. I admidt I may not know everything PERFECTLY. But i should PASS. I'm going to take this darn test 2x. $15 each time. Once at 9:30am and the second time right afterwards at 11am.
Then at noon, I'm off to the Dermatologist that i booked this appt for around 1 month ago. It's for botox in my underarms because i sweat more than normal and the botox totally controls the problem!
The rest of the day I am HOME. I have to fix my laundry cards back at the housing office because they are replacing the card readers so...i must transfer my $150 on my card to a new card now or i'll miss that cutoff and lose all that $! I wish i knew this before last week, then I wouldn't have put so much money on my card last Tuesday to begin with! I would have put a minimal amount that i wouldn't mind losing some of..like $30.
THANK GOSH I READ THE NOTE that maintenance put under our doors about the laundry card or i would have had to make other plans rather than go there myself to the housing office. Today's my last free day to fix the card now. !!! The cards expire while I'll be on vacation next week! Wow time is FLYING.
I feel life is really busy in general for working people, especially here in tri-state area & I am extremely thankful for this day to be able to take these tests on my own time, per se. I will also MAYBE take a short walk in the afternoon. Bed early for sure with a sleeping pill maybe because I want a good night of sleep...
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
Thank you for the good luck.!
Woke up hair late, on purpose, so had the kombucha & seltzer but didn't have time to really relax / use the bathroom. All is good though. Leaving work early at 3pm today..will quickly maybe swing by supermarket to pick up the bare minimum - maybe some lox for breakfasts this week...
Really i don't need anything else....just picking up lox & that's it. Trying to use up what I have & not waste money as I am actually working on saving it for my upcoming trip in 9 days!
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6:30am: Lemonade flavor kombucha 60
8:30am at work taking it light & easy right now: coffee and banana 200
9:30am rest of my breakfast: wrap 100, cream cheese 100, quinoa burger 150: 350.
11am: bar...it's ok...whatever today. 200. not that good. protein bar.
lunch popcorn only 150
stopped home to poop before gym since i got out early at 3pm...SERIOUSLY. BEST DECISION BECAUSE NOW NO MORE GAS! LOL. i was too rushed in the AM and always nice to get outta work. i already picked up some cold cuts (lox and salami for the rest of the next several days. only other thing i need, forgot to check, is bananas...to do tomorrow).
3:30pm: kombucha again on the way home, did the trick 70, little bit seltzer, granola bar 100. energy drink other half.
1150...before dinner. i want to go to bed early tonight before this test.
after gym: not more than 400. did great.
total today: 1550 - excellent.
1875 4-day total :-D
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Having a tired day - I think a lot having to do with taking a (low dose) sleeping pill last night around 9pm). it was over the counter and minimal strength but i am still tired and didn't sleep enough i guess.
Will eat an early lunch at my desk, leave work at 3pm (in honor of the Holiday Yom Kippur that starts at sundown - even if i'm not partaking in the custom, i will leave at 3pm).
Progress as of today: 4 lbs lost so far, only 3 lbs to go!
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So happy you are getting to go on your trip! Have lots of fun and talk to us when you get back!