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InnerPeace - Thursday Nov 01, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Happy November!

Very busy week. Someone's big idea to have a chili cookoff grew into a huge event that somehow landed on my desk. It turned out to be a building wide function (there are three different agencies in my bulding) and again, somehow it became my project to organize and schedule and plan. I guess that's a perk of my position, same someone forgot to mention. But despite the stress, I believe everyone had a great time and it turned out fantastic of course, just took much more of my time than I anticipated. And I didn't win...I think I came in 6th. Oh well.

Girl was over and passed out candy to the trick or reaters. It was cold and rainy and I'm surprised we had any at all, but she did manage to give away the entire 5 pound bag of candy. I told her if she didn't give it away, she would take it home with her. I had 4 fun-size twix - probably the size of one regular pack.

B. maple, brown sugar oatmeal; iced vanilla latte - 400

L: home made pizza (2 squares) - 534 (I used the recipe maker on the Lose it app and added all my ingredients - I thought it looked like just a few calories, I went back and review the recipe and i forgot the cheese)

S: yogurt

D: I don't know yet

Friday I am leaving work early to take the girl to get her top braces finished. Then I am going to vote.

Saturday we have errands and I really need to get my new eye glasses ordered. We have tickets to go see ELF a play put on by a local theater. It is a few towns over. We are supposed to go to dinner before the show.

And then Tuesday - they are finally supposed to start the cabinet installation. I can only hope they are finished before Thanksgiving.

Have a great evening. IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 11/05/2018:
A chilli cookoff sounds so fun at work!

Let me tell you, i GET IN TROUBLE, for handing out Avocado Brownies.

that's cool they placed you in charge of planning <3 feel positive they can trust you!



InnerPeace - Wednesday Oct 31, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Back on the wagon tomorrow...Day 1 of everything!

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 10/31/2018:
Hugs! Day 1 for me too.


BearCountryGG on 11/01/2018:
You can do it.


horn_of_plenty on 11/01/2018:
woooohoooo! we are here for you always, INNERP!



InnerPeace - Thursday Oct 25, 2018

Weight: 319.4

My schedule is all out of whack, my kitchen is in disarray. These are my excuses today. My dog has a routine and he doesn't like change...neither do I, except I don't poop on the floor when I get mad.

The granite slab is in for the countertops, still waiting on the cabinets, funny I thought this would be the other way around.

DH working 2nd shift - is the worst thing EVER! The only good thing about this, is I have been eating less. I will cook but I pack that up for lunch the next day and I have just been having small meals...by myself.

B: blueberry muffin. I took a brownie but one bite, I had to spit it out and I tossed the rest in the trash. This girl...does not do dark chocolate of any kind. I find it bitter and really unpalatable.

L: cream cheese and crackers, Subway cookie

S: balanced breaks

D: I think calzone. The girl can put what she wants in hers and I will put what I want in mind. DH just takes everything, he don't care, but again this will be for lunch tomorrow.

DH gets home about 12:30, I tried staying up when he went in at 2:00 pm, but he is going in at 3:00 pm and the one extra hour I just can't stay up. He putts around the house doing I don't know what and takes a shower about 2:00 in the morning, I think he finally made it to bed at 3:30 am. Seriously...this isn't working for me. My sleep is getting disrupted when I do finally go to bed. Not my idea situation, but I will figure somthing out.

Putting off going to the VA, do NOT want to hear that PCP **** about my weight again. I will do the mammogram though!

AND then I was sad all morning because of those stupid memories on FACEBOOK. One of my soldiers from Fort Bragg died unexpectedly a few years ago and the book of face feels I need to be reminded about it.  I''m still really saddened, disbelief all over again.  he was so young and died of a brain aneursym, he had three boys all young (18, 13, 5).

 

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/25/2018:
I didn't like it when D worked nights either....but airport construction has to be done then...……….for me the worst pat was keeping everyone quiet all day so he could sleep..


Donkey on 10/28/2018:
^I agree with Bear, the worst part was keeping everyone quiet during the day while the husband slept.


happy-1 on 10/31/2018:
LOL... What if you DID poop on the floor when you got mad? Oh the things we will be able to get away with in our 90s


horn_of_plenty on 11/01/2018:
wow a dark chocolate brownie....yum!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dang those subway cookies are madddd goooood!

welcome back!

i hope DH starts out on a diff shift soon if there's a chance of it?



InnerPeace - Tuesday Oct 23, 2018

Weight: 319.4

The girl had her teeth pulled and did fantastic. She came back to our house and ate mashed potatoes, took a shower and talked my ear off. She took one Aleve and went to bed. Friday morning, she said she felt 'perfectly fine' and went to school. I picked her up and she did well all weekend. I made her soft food. She had a great attitude about it all, I just know as an adult, if I had four teeth pulled I'd probably be down at least one day per tooth. Oh to be young again.

It was a good weekend, not too much over indulgence.

DH and I moved everything out of the kitchen for the new cabinets, but they haven't shown up yet to install them. Hopefully before the week is up. Here is the before pictures. We are just adding cabinets onto the existing cabines and cabinets where the rail is with a wider countertop to make a bar into the family room. They are also moving that outlet up to where the others are. Looking forwrad to this being started and finished.

 

We have a chili cook off at work next Wednesday/Halloween. I can't believe how fast this year has gone by.

ILots of stuff going on, sometimes, it just moves so fast. I will catch up, though.

Have a great evening. IP

 

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/23/2018:
Looks like you have plenty of room for new cabinets...looking forward to after photos!


Horn_of_plenty on 10/24/2018:
Do you mean pulled out or pulled with the braces? Nothing hurts like the first week of having braces on...she's probably so glad not to experience that first week again :) I'm glad it's going well...one more tip from me....do not rush to get them off...teeth move very easily afterwards...make sure she wears the retainer they'll give...or teeth will DEF move. I have some bottom teeth that moved a little bit and my sister has top teeth that moved bc we stopped wearing the retainers too early.

So, on the open wall you're going to have full counters / cabinets?

Chilli is such a tasty meal!

Everything sounds great on your end <3

innerpeace on 10/24/2018:
She had four teeth pulled/extracted to make room to straighten up her teeth. She had the brackets put on and will have the wire put on next week, after she heals after getting the teeth pulled. We will see how she feels when they start tightening that wire.

Just bottom cabinets on the open wall - it will be an island/bar or pennisula. If they ever get started.


happy-1 on 10/31/2018:
Big exciting changes!



InnerPeace - Wednesday Oct 17, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Went to the eye doctor, I hate having my eyes dilated. I didn't get back to normal until well after 9:00 pm. I am alone in the house until 4:30 until about 10:30 - six hours!! I should be able to get lots done, I just can't get motivated.

Last night i baked pork chops and ate one of them. The other three sat on the stove until DH came home, well after 11:00. I haven't been going to bed until I know he is safely home.

Tonight was the girl, but DH changed it to tomorrow.

The girl told me she wanted to come back to our house after the surgery.

When DH talked to the exwife (POS) she told him the girl wanted to go back to her house. So I'm wondering if that girl just tells us what we both want to hear, frankly, I'll take her @ss home because I don't want to see her mope around in pain and whine and cry. This is the crap that pisses me off about the entire step-parenting situation. Freakin' just tell me what you want to do, go home, fine I'll take you home. If not then she'll just go upstairs and do what she always does.

I told her she could come back to our house and if she didn't feel like going to school on  Friday than she could just stay there - because she will be over this weekend.

She said she wanted to go to school (we'll see how long that lasts after the surgery) I told her I would take her home after. Anyway...whatever, if DH did't have to work, I wouldn't be involved in this whole process.

D: pork chop - ice cream (there is no more ice cream)

I think I got to sleep a little after midnight.

B: blueberry pancakes, iced coffee

L: left over pork chop, peanut butter breakfast bar

S: banana, balanced breaks

D: DH said he made salisbury steak, will find out when I get home.

Work is crap this week!

Have a great night! IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 10/17/2018:
Don't be so hard on yourself. Getting your eyes messed with is stressful. It is ok to rest. (I say as I cough like the zombie apocalypse and vacuum).


horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
Um, I'm quite sure girlie would MUCH rather be at your place.

lol, work is crap makes sense!


horn_of_plenty on 10/17/2018:
i agree with Happy...it's sometimes difficult after dentist / dr / eye appt to come home and work more.


Donkey on 10/18/2018:
Having a spouse who works 2nd shift can be lonely, especially if you are on a first shift schedule with sleeping, meals, working. Been there, done that - although I did have 2 little ones to keep me busy. I did a lot of "married single-mother" parenting. It's really rough.



InnerPeace - Monday Oct 15, 2018

Weight: 319.4

DH and I went on a covered bridge tour, it was really nice. I loved not having to drive. The group stopped at a covered bridge pizza parlor, was very nice and pretty good for the price. The weather was damp and chilly but we still had lots of fun.

Sunday the young adult came over with his stinky GF, hadn't seen them in a while, I'm happy they are happy. They dropped the girl off because DH took her to get her top braces on this morning. They are cute. She goes Thursday to get four of her teeth pulled. I'll see how she feels about them then.

For some reason I haven't been stressing over my weight so much. However, I keep thinking I'm going to have an episode of some sort - so I need to stay vigilent. I do believe this is the hardest thing I've ever had to do in my life.

DH's exwife called the child support office, this should be interesting. She apparently thinks DH is making more money so she wants more. We provide more for that girl than she has. DH says, great if she wants to play that game, then she can pay half of the medical/dental bills we have which just this last six months alone will be over $2K. He pays more than his fair share...and I'm even paying for the health insurance, so yeah...not sure where this is going to lead but to a big freakin' headache.

Yes, we did refinance our house, and we are getting additional cabinets in our kitchen, I'm thinking when the young adult and girl tell their mother this, she may think it's an = oh they have lots of money and I'm going to get me some of it!  No, she doesn't work, so her motives are skeptical..

Eye exam tomorrow.

B: Pepperidge Farm French Toast Twirl toast, iced coffee

L: Left over chicken pot pie

S: balanced breaks

D: TBD depends on what DH took out of the freezer

Have a great night. Everyone's persistence is very motivating.

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

Horn_of_plenty on 10/15/2018:
your photos are AMAZING from the tour...what a wonderful trip! my type of day and activity!

the reason the weight thing is so hard is simple...you've lived much of your life with a habit way of eating...and now you have to change a VERY ingrained habit. similar to smoking / drinking but harder because you cannot STOP eating as that's not healthy at all either!

it's so annoying when exes go after money alone and especially when their actual ability and/or desire to be a caretaker is non existent!

at work, i hear stories from my divorced coworkers about their ex husbands and lack of responsibility they recieve :( however, i know your hubby is the proactive one in this case!


happy-1 on 10/15/2018:
I read descriptions of these horrible past relationships people have and are still tied to because they have kids... and I think how did that chick get married and have kids and I'm still working on getting a freaking Valentine's Day card?

Man is DH lucky to have you... You work hard, contribute to his kid's well-being, make sure that you get to do the things you want to do and never feel limited by others, and you always have his back. Look a all the things you are great at! Sounds like you are ready to expand that to health and are taking charge and owning it like a boss!

I like your portion control today!


BearCountryGG on 10/16/2018:
That ex wife sounds like a real peach!! You would think she would appreciate all you do for her......Your step daughter will be grown in a few years.,..then you won't have to worry about child support anymore....



InnerPeace - Thursday Oct 11, 2018

Weight: 319.4

I logged in but can't say anything constructive today.

Girl's mouth is tender and can only eat soft food. I made her mashed potatos, meatloaf and green beans. She also texted me today and told me it isn't any better so tonight she is getting super soft steamed broccoli, egg noodles and chicken with alfredo sauce.

Some girl was fired in my office today, it's been a long time coming and I didn't think they would ever do it, but they did. I was scrambling today to get the paperwork completed. It was hard...because I've never it done before and wasn't quite sure the proper procedure...phone calls...people...ugh!

I then had a conference call and errors I fixed yesterday, twice was for naught. I was told today to change it back to the way I had it when I got the errors. Oh..OKAY, whatever. I will never understand and I will continue to do as I'm told.

DH put a chuck roast in the crock pot with potatoes - I think I'm tired of beef.

L: left over pot roast

S: balanced breaks, power bar

D: chicken, tomato avocado salad with honey lime dressing.

Steve still isn't jumping and last night when I turned over my elbow hit him on his front leg, he yelped and went downstairs. If he isn't better over the weekend he will be seeing the vet.

Cabinets are on order - i did searches for the company and all and all I am satisfied they will do a good job, but there is always that one person.

Mowed the grass.

DH and I are scheduled to go on a covered bridge tour  Saturday - just in time for the cool, autumn weather. Have a great weekend!

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/11/2018:
That is quite a day...but you got through it. Tylenol will probably help the sore mouth.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/14/2018:
so sorry about girlie and the braces pain...it goes away completely after 1-2 weeks. tell her it will totally get better :) and it's worth it for a beautiful smile!

sorry to hear girl was fired!...if you don't do the paperwork often that's a good thing assuming people don't get fired too often!

your meals sound delish!!!! very cool tastes and love anything that is slow cooked / crock pot style. i'm sure your whole house smelled so nice! i was given a crockpot end of the summer but still haven't gotten down to using it...

i hope Steve feels better soon <3


happy-1 on 10/15/2018:
Aw... poor Steve... He'd probably feel a lot better if you gave him some pot roast... ;-)



InnerPeace - Tuesday Oct 09, 2018

Weight: 319.4

I did try to comment before this but couldn't. Now I see there was a site issue for a few days.

It's a busy time of year for me so posting at work has been harder than before, but I think it may be ok for a few weeks. I have also been trying my hand at creative writing for the month. One person will post a picture of something and you write a short story about it. It is fun reading everyone's take on the same picture. It only lasts through the month of October...it is called Nightmare Fuel.

This weekend was ok, got a little emotional running around with DH and the girl. I was going to park and before I turned into the slot I noticed the car next to me had the car door open. I made a comment to DH to wait for the man to close his door before he opned his. He said ok.

OMG but then when I get out of the car, this man started yelling at me that I was a crazy driver and I had almost hit him. I'm like, sir your car door was completly open and you had plenty of room. I told him I was sorry and I didn't do it intentionally (that is almost run him over) but he didn't have to be so rude about it.

He's like, how can you apologize and then tell me I'm rude. And it just escalated from there. Again, I told him I didn't do it on purpose and he just keeps on. I said, that is just like someone from Ohio and he says...what? what? if you look at my licence plate you will see I'm from Michigan and then I said, well that makes it even worse then - apparently there's this big rivalry between Ohio and Michigan - I don't know about (I will read up on it). Anyway, we get into the store and DH is telling me not to worry about it...but that's all i do. I was so upset I just cried and cried. I AM NEVER intentionally rude to anyone...EVER! I do not do confrontation well, nor any kind of drama. THIS, this is why I hate leaving my house.

We had the cabinet man come over and make final measurements for the cabinets. We picked out the new countertops and put a down payment on it. And then some man was outside talking to my next door neighbor and DH goes over there and talks to them and the man my neigbhor was talking to said he's heard bad things about this company we are using. This freaks me out so I get online and I am searching the better business bureau for complaints. I only found one in seven years, so I'm hoping we don't get scammed. Again, I am losing all faith in humanity.

I took the girl to her first othrodontist appointment to get seperators in, next week is the top brackets, oral surgery and then the top wire. Not sure what the schedule is for the bottom braces. She is excited....my wallet not so much.

I had my performance review at work and I got a step increase - which is a few extra $$$ in my pocket. I guess I will continue to come to work.

Eating hasn't been too bad. I have been eating dinner by myself because DH doesn't get home until well after 9:00 pm.

And last but not least, Steve has a sprained shoulder or foot because he isn't jumping up onto the furniture and he is having a heck of a time with the stairs. I guess he will be going to the vet if he doesn't improve. Love this guy!

Have a great rest of the day! IP

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

happy-1 on 10/09/2018:
What does Yelp say about them? Google? Does anyone file BBB anymore?

The guy in the parking lot sounds like an... well, I need to stop cussing because I cussed in front of an ex-nun the other day.


BearCountryGG on 10/09/2018:
Parking lot guy acted like a jerk......I'm in Michigan and I don't know of any rivalry. Cabinet guy......don't pay him off until he finishes the job...there are some sheisters out there who want too much money upfront and then never come back....hold back enough that he needs to return and finish the installation to your specifications.

Congrats on the raise and new job classification!!!!

Poor Steve....give him a snuggle for me.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/10/2018:
Where did you find Nightmare Fuel? Is it a library activity?? It sounds like a fun and creative mind challenge!!

Regarding the man that reacted: people react because of feelings inside THEMSELVES and because of their own EXPERIENCES and FEELINGS.

You can rest assured that something was going on with this man and that of course you reacted then to his reaction, but really, if you are involved in another situation like this realize that he reacted this way not because of you only...it was something inside him causing him to blame you...next time i advise you to feel less like you are the bad guy...! he was blaming you, but he should be blamed for being so harsh ! I know someone like this, who never thinks anything is their fault. i wish it hadn't bothered you as much as it did !!

in terms of the cabinets, the person who spoke badly of them may have had a bad personal experience and just wants to tell everyone and anyone who may order from them....doesn't mean overall it's a bad company...

i'm so glad she's happy about the braces - she has really nice teeth and a big smile so overall it's going to look awesome when it's done!

i hope your doggie feels better and heals asap! :)



InnerPeace - Monday Oct 01, 2018

Weight: 319.4

Saturday I went with DH and talked to a guy about putting in additional kitchen cabinets and new countertops - big $$$ - I just wasn't expecting it to be so high. I guess my brain is still in the 90's. DH and I decided on eating Chinese so he left to get it and I mowed the front yard. Aftetwards I was nauseous and felt like throwing up and along came a migraine. DH got home with the food and just the smell of it make me sick to my stomach. I took Excedrin Migraine and went to bed. I woke up about 3 hours later and felt much better; hungry too so I did eat some Chinese food.

Sunday - laundry and cleaning day. I'm amazed at how dusty/dirty parts of the house can get.

Frittata for breakfast and left over Chinese food for late lunch/dinner.

Wet to bed later than I wanted and didn't sleep very good. I woke up with an irriable pain in my leg, a pain similar to a charlie horse, just not as painful. Then I thought i was having a blood clot so I got up and went downstairs for awhile. I took some Aleve and the pain subsided, it was just weird.

Not a lot happening from this weekend.

This time of year at work - blows!! Cross your T's dot your I's - lots of people watching/checking/auditing. Code changes for the new FY begs for errors.

back on the road to wellness!

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

BearCountryGG on 10/01/2018:
Yup...the odd pains...gt ready...there will be more as the years go by....I get the weirdest pains.....index finger...shooting pain...and then gone......bugs crawling anywhere....nope...no bugs....D had a painful leg for years...and then one day as we were watching a movies...his eyes got big...and he turned to me and said..."I just had a feeling like water was running down that leg...and then right out the toes"....he never had that constant pain again....and it's been years....all kinds of weird pains happen as the years go by....but...if you ever think it's a blood clot...that is something to get checked out.


Horn_of_plenty on 10/01/2018:
Were you dehydrated from not enough water and all the lawn mowing?

Based on also the leg pain, sounds you need to drink more water lady???

Good luck at work and keep your head up :) you always inspire us with your drive and work success!


BearCountryGG on 10/01/2018:
I was thinking dehydration too...and then Chinese food is very dehydrating....


happy-1 on 10/01/2018:
Blood clot sounds scary. Did you get it checked?


Horn_of_plenty on 10/08/2018:
well i just got an odd pain on my thumb knuckle! a mosquito bite ! lol....i was reading BCGG's comment and my mind immediately went to my thumb. first thing i the morning i'm laying in bed and start to feel this itch!


happy-1 on 10/08/2018:
Hugs! Miss your posts! You teach me a lot about prioritizing family.



InnerPeace - Wednesday Sep 26, 2018

Weight: 319.4

I picked up the girl and got her home. I made a quick dinner with the left over steak. We had a makeshift beef stronganoff with cream of mushroom soup, it turned out just ok. The girl did her homework and showered and then babbled until her mother picked her up. DH bought some ice cream made with splenda and we had a small potion for dessert. This was ok, however, I found it left a weird after taste in my mouth.

DH finally got home about 9:15. I think the rest of this week he goes in at noon; next week it will be 3:30.

Was up a little earlier this morning and completed the day #1 of my foundation workout.

DH made me breakfast - it was supposed to be a just crack an egg omlette, but he Cabreraized it and added more cheese and a second egg. I asked him why, he can't do that when I am trying to get track of calories. I just take out the potatoes, I don't add anything. I only ate half.

He kept my car to get an oil change and I drove his bigA truck to work, he brough so all is good.

L: left over beef stroganoff

S: babybell cheese, balanced breaks

D: teriaki chicken, brocolli - may have splenda ice cream again.

Good habit forming abounds!

Have a great night. IP

 

Progress as of today: 2.2 lbs lost so far, only 109.4 lbs to go!

horn_of_plenty on 09/26/2018:
great! you did your #1 workout!!!

next time just be specific with DH on what you want to eat...a little potato and a little cheese is no problem, more egg whites will make it more filling...you can always add extra 1-2 egg whites for more volume!

i love lighter ice creams. as you know from my diaries!

yes you are creating good habits now!


BearCountryGG on 09/26/2018:
Shift work is hard on everyone...we went through that when D worked in a Detroit airport at night......I was home all day while he slept at that time....and it was difficult......I'm sure much harder for him than it was for me.


happy-1 on 10/01/2018:
hugs. everyone will adapt to new habits eventually. my dad is finally hiding the bread



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